][.Adaptation.][
Hello bloggy,
How are you?
No worries, you ain't forgotten!
Once in a while, I will be back to type down some thoughts =]
In 6 hours, I will be travelling back to camp.
This whole weekend is filled with work too.
Tiring?
Very Much.
When we say goodbye to our cohort mates, we say..
Bye & See you in 12hours.
I see them more than my family.
Choices and sacrifices!
Part and parcels of life.
Most importantly,
I am enjoying what i am doing.
n tt's what matters most. =]
and I learnt..
It takes much more efforts to keep in touch w your friends when you start working.
I am not taking enough yet. Guilty of it.
To all my friends out there,
you ain't forgotten!
Sorry if i'm M.I.A.
Just drop me a msg ok!
I will reply once i have access to my hp =]
take gd care every1!
bye! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.thanks for understanding.][
Showing posts with label mixtures =]. Show all posts
Showing posts with label mixtures =]. Show all posts
Saturday, September 15, 2012
Friday, July 20, 2012
][.disappointment.][
hello bloggy!
sorry that i had been blogging lesser nowadays.
not tt i have nth to share, but rather, sometimes i'm just too lazy to put them down into words.
tonight, i met some friends and thought about what happened since knee incident.
i am blessed and i truly see somethings differently.
there is really more to life than just basketball.
i had always wanted to go back and play so much.
but there is no longer a reason for me to go back.
don't worry, i still love the game. i still enjoying playing.
i may still go back to the game but for now, i know i won't go back to a certain place.
i won't go back to a certain person.
one tt i used to respect so.
i believe in effort and time.
these are the most precious things tt you can give someone.
cz, these are part of your life, esp time.
however, as i recall and reminisces i see e time n effort from some and i see the lack of it from ppl tt i tot should care more.
maybe it's my expectation.
but for me, maybe i am glad tt you din, for at least i can say..
thanks & bye.
you taught me so much.
you used to lift me from my darkest moments.
but in this darkest moment, you left me behind.
for someone who left me behind, i won't chase and ask you to place me in your sight again.
i did nth wrong to deserve this treatment and i finally saw what i am to you.
i was just a pawn in the chess set tt can be left behind once it's useless.
this is the cruelty.
i understand and i won't deny anymore.
i am gg back on my promise to fight for you.
cz, it's not worth the fight.
you were. but now...
you ain't worth it, anymore.
take gd care every1!
sorry if i sounded offensive.
it's just some boil up thoughts.
always rmb this, if someone treats you as an option, don't treat them as an priority.
jiayou!! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
Thursday, July 05, 2012
][.cycling alone.][
Thursday, May 31, 2012
][.life.][
hello bloggy!
i am back! sorry that i had not been posting for the past months.
been really caught up with exams and tiredness.
even till today, still v much tired. =]
life had been good.
scored the highest i can ever expect for my final semester -- 4.7.
thankful. that's all i can say.
thou i am still a second lower but no regrets.
i don't believe in blaming basketball and the commitments that i had.
for, those were the time of my life.
life had been good.
back from two grad trips and gosh i am really exhausted.
taiwan was food n food n sight seeing <3
thailand was shopping n massage n shopping! haha
life had been good.
i had cleared both interviews and received the call for the post.
thou there are still medical check ups and job attachments to clear before i get the letter of acceptance,
but still a 1st step is awesome.
especially since it is something i love.
i m thankful for things gg my way.
i really am. =]
life had been good.
but there's this part in me that ain't feeling too good.
i need to find back myself.
i hate to feel down and there is no reason for me to be down.
i just need to sort out my thoughts and emotions.
if i can, i will perhaps grab my bike and cycle around for a day all alone.
cause, i seem to had lost myself.
this is not me.
or at least, this is not the one that i want myself to be.
i don't like all these selfish-ness and lack of energy to be bothered about things about me.
i don't like these self-isolation (thou i am still v much interacting)
i don't like myself for being so insecure and all.
fe, pull your strings together and find what really makes you happy.
take gd care every1! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.get back on your feet.][
Monday, April 02, 2012
][.Mixtures.][
][.Mixtures.][
done with my final presentation of academic life.
2 more reports, 4 papers & that's it! end of academic life.
job rejections one after another is not that encouraging.
wells, ideal life may not be that easily reachable and life does have her plans for you right? =]
wells wells.
on the bright side, 2/4/12, 2nd run -- 20mins, half of ntu bus B route.
running really brings me joy.
with every step i take, i convince myself more.
with every step i take, i am thankful.
truthfully, i feel like a kid who had lost her balance and forgotten how it feels like to run.
有点跌跌撞撞. but it really feels good.
with every up slope, there comes a down slope.
just hang in there.
every difficulty will have a way out. =]
alrights! take gd care every1! <3
p/s: thanks mummy for the new hp. (mummy nv fail to get me a present during her birthday. lol but yes, daddy's $ =P) <3
][.10.fe.15.][
][.smiles.][
done with my final presentation of academic life.
2 more reports, 4 papers & that's it! end of academic life.
job rejections one after another is not that encouraging.
wells, ideal life may not be that easily reachable and life does have her plans for you right? =]
wells wells.
on the bright side, 2/4/12, 2nd run -- 20mins, half of ntu bus B route.
running really brings me joy.
with every step i take, i convince myself more.
with every step i take, i am thankful.
truthfully, i feel like a kid who had lost her balance and forgotten how it feels like to run.
有点跌跌撞撞. but it really feels good.
with every up slope, there comes a down slope.
just hang in there.
every difficulty will have a way out. =]
alrights! take gd care every1! <3
p/s: thanks mummy for the new hp. (mummy nv fail to get me a present during her birthday. lol but yes, daddy's $ =P) <3
][.10.fe.15.][
][.smiles.][
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
][.Wicked.][
][.Wicked.][
wickedly awesome!!
thanks loads to terry tho for getting the tics & planning it! =]
enjoyed myself throughout the 2hours plus.
went to shoot 120 shots be4 gym-ing.
felt really helpless when i stood rooted to the ground and can't jump.
as the balls enter the basket, for a moment, i let it fall.
it's so hard to press the "restart" button.
everything all over again.
from the scratch.
it was much easier to press the "enter" button back then.
but it's ok.
to be or not to be.
it's not the time to decide yet. =]
on a side note..
some thoughts on the back of my head.
if you don't agree with someone or what he/she is doing, will you tell him/her?
somehow all the things from the past is coming back to haunt me.
and i just decided to shut up. it's his/her life.
but somehow, shutting up is making me seem so superficial. so f-ing superficial.
发生过的事不能当作没发生。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.shut up, fe.][
wickedly awesome!!
thanks loads to terry tho for getting the tics & planning it! =]
enjoyed myself throughout the 2hours plus.
went to shoot 120 shots be4 gym-ing.
felt really helpless when i stood rooted to the ground and can't jump.
as the balls enter the basket, for a moment, i let it fall.
it's so hard to press the "restart" button.
everything all over again.
from the scratch.
it was much easier to press the "enter" button back then.
but it's ok.
to be or not to be.
it's not the time to decide yet. =]
on a side note..
some thoughts on the back of my head.
if you don't agree with someone or what he/she is doing, will you tell him/her?
somehow all the things from the past is coming back to haunt me.
and i just decided to shut up. it's his/her life.
but somehow, shutting up is making me seem so superficial. so f-ing superficial.
发生过的事不能当作没发生。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.shut up, fe.][
Saturday, January 07, 2012
][.Same same but different.][
][.Same same but different.][
hello bloggy!
went back to 4 kids today.
all is good. 2 more tml =]
haha all seems to be going back to normalcy.
life is good but all has its little troubles.
some thoughts that only you yourself understand and it's just hard to tell any1 cz some things are hard to explain..those mixed emotions and all. it's just =]
overall life is still good.
and a random thought..same pics taken at the same time same place through diff cams do look diff =]
the best relationship is when you two can act like lovers & best friends. =]
ok take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.simple happiness.][
hello bloggy!
went back to 4 kids today.
all is good. 2 more tml =]
haha all seems to be going back to normalcy.
life is good but all has its little troubles.
some thoughts that only you yourself understand and it's just hard to tell any1 cz some things are hard to explain..those mixed emotions and all. it's just =]
overall life is still good.
and a random thought..same pics taken at the same time same place through diff cams do look diff =]
the best relationship is when you two can act like lovers & best friends. =]
ok take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.simple happiness.][
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
][.every relationship is a gamble.][
][.every relationship is a gamble.][
hello bloggy.
just some random thoughts with things going on and around me.
every relationship is a gamble with its ups and downs.
sometimes, things ain't easy.
problems surface and it's all up to each party to solve it or move on.
everything happens for a reason.
every1 appear in your life for a reason.
some memories and secrets are only between both of you.
it's something that others have no idea.
so whichever it is, don't hurt the one that used to be a special one.
it applies across friendship and all.
me: xxxxxxx
a good friend in the past: eh you still remembered what i say?
me: why not? haha
us: a look back at the past and a smile which shows that we moved on.
that special bond that both used to share is something precious.
even if the ending hurts, it still has its beautiful memories.
remember the good-ness in each and let the sour-ness and bitterness go.
it makes life easier.
and it makes me smile.
on the other hand,
leg is getting better but i had forgotten how to walk.
haha hydro was fun and bike again tml.
slowing down to enjoy life thou staying home all day is driving me mad at times.
thanks to every1 who dropped by to accompany me =]
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
hello bloggy.
just some random thoughts with things going on and around me.
every relationship is a gamble with its ups and downs.
sometimes, things ain't easy.
problems surface and it's all up to each party to solve it or move on.
everything happens for a reason.
every1 appear in your life for a reason.
some memories and secrets are only between both of you.
it's something that others have no idea.
so whichever it is, don't hurt the one that used to be a special one.
it applies across friendship and all.
me: xxxxxxx
a good friend in the past: eh you still remembered what i say?
me: why not? haha
us: a look back at the past and a smile which shows that we moved on.
that special bond that both used to share is something precious.
even if the ending hurts, it still has its beautiful memories.
remember the good-ness in each and let the sour-ness and bitterness go.
it makes life easier.
and it makes me smile.
on the other hand,
leg is getting better but i had forgotten how to walk.
haha hydro was fun and bike again tml.
slowing down to enjoy life thou staying home all day is driving me mad at times.
thanks to every1 who dropped by to accompany me =]
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
Thursday, November 24, 2011
][.Buzzer beater & Derek Redmond.][
][.Buzzer beater & Derek Redmond.][
two inspirational videos that drove me to tears.
yups it's exams but haha just some inspirational videos ba.
hooked on to these as the op date edge nearer and nearer.
moving on to another stage. =]
Thailand Women's Team in 2011 SEA games.
ping shot the buzzer beater that drove me to tears.
always can't help but cry at buzzer beaters.
it's the split moment of faith and hope and miracle.
i won't call it miracle cause that shot came from numerous practice.
and feel so happy for ping.
1st saw her when i was in sec3.
back then, who would have thought that she could take e crucial winning shot?
or rather, who would have trusted her with that shot when there are senior players around?
but she did it. she did it this year.
claps and salutes.
buzzer beaters driving me to tears and i really miss the game.
Derek Redmond
another video and another guy that made me cry like mad.
http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/espn25/story?page=moments/94
went on to read about him and cried even more.
how much heartbreak can a man take?
this guy had the nightmare of all the athletes.
he withdrew from 1988 Olympics 10mins before because of an Achilles tendon injury. He then underwent five surgeries over the next year. This was the same runner who had shattered the British 400-meter record at age 19. So when the 1992 Games arrived, this was his time, his moment, his stage, to show the world how good he was and who he was.
only to have his dreams shattered once again.
and this was the Olympics.
really feel for him.
and in comparison, what i lost is only a season.
or maybe two.
before the 3rd month comes, i will get my new acl. =]
all smiles.
i will make it through the rain.
i will stand up once again.
on my own.
and i know.
i will make it through the rain.
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will make it through the rain.][
two inspirational videos that drove me to tears.
yups it's exams but haha just some inspirational videos ba.
hooked on to these as the op date edge nearer and nearer.
moving on to another stage. =]
Thailand Women's Team in 2011 SEA games.
ping shot the buzzer beater that drove me to tears.
always can't help but cry at buzzer beaters.
it's the split moment of faith and hope and miracle.
i won't call it miracle cause that shot came from numerous practice.
and feel so happy for ping.
1st saw her when i was in sec3.
back then, who would have thought that she could take e crucial winning shot?
or rather, who would have trusted her with that shot when there are senior players around?
but she did it. she did it this year.
claps and salutes.
buzzer beaters driving me to tears and i really miss the game.
Derek Redmond
another video and another guy that made me cry like mad.
http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/espn25/story?page=moments/94
went on to read about him and cried even more.
how much heartbreak can a man take?
this guy had the nightmare of all the athletes.
he withdrew from 1988 Olympics 10mins before because of an Achilles tendon injury. He then underwent five surgeries over the next year. This was the same runner who had shattered the British 400-meter record at age 19. So when the 1992 Games arrived, this was his time, his moment, his stage, to show the world how good he was and who he was.
only to have his dreams shattered once again.
and this was the Olympics.
really feel for him.
and in comparison, what i lost is only a season.
or maybe two.
before the 3rd month comes, i will get my new acl. =]
all smiles.
i will make it through the rain.
i will stand up once again.
on my own.
and i know.
i will make it through the rain.
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will make it through the rain.][
Monday, November 14, 2011
][.Thoughts & Updates.][
][.Thoughts & Updates.][
hello bloggy!
it's 251pm on a tuesday! (15/11/11)
woohoo! i am done with fyp! =]
my dearest "baby" that i had been working on since june.
it had been a wonderful process.
i meant, a good learning process.
one that i will not regret.
thanks "Elderspeak in Singapore" & thanks my wonderful supervisor - Francesco.
thank you everyone who assisted me in a way or another. you guys assisted me in completing this work. (haha acknowledgement)
never thought of producing 60pgs and 12,000+ words.
this is a milestone in life.
on a side note,
when i was on the way to submit my fyp, i heard sec sch kids talking about their 'O' levels and random thoughts emerged.
PSLE, 'O' levels, 'A' levels & finally Uni.
这些路，这些年，我都走过了！
有好友相伴的一同走过。
在生命中的每个阶段都有苦与乐，但都走过了。
很庆幸，很幸福。
aw..after submission, went to watch "In Time" with my course mates & had awesome korean bbq -- 2 days 1 night. =]
"In Time" is really quite a cool show concept.
you will never learn to cherish your time if you have all the time in the world.
just as how we always managed to finish our work in time when e deadline is there.
guess we or maybe i must learn to have the clock tickling away and know that we are running out of time before we learn to cherish what we have ba.
so cherish it guys!
cherish the precious time. =]
and wanted to blog about you are the apple of my eyes. =]
just a simple nice show.
something that reminds everyone of their youth.
friends doing stupid things together.
simple sweet moments.
believed every1 have those days.
a take-away from the show..sometimes misunderstandings and lack of courage causes one to lose things in life. but everything happens for a reason. what's meant to be would be what's meant to be. there may be this little regret but everything does happen for a reason. =]
will start to read my book after exams!
heh ok..so that's what's going on in my life.
9 days to exams and less than 3 weeks to op.
5/12/10 i ran after my dream.
5/12/11 i am going to be brave and embrace my chance to go after my passion again.
such a coincidence.
5-yr-old and me could't stop laughing when we thought about it.
within a year of marathon, both of us have to go through that.
it's been 2 months & 1 day.
you can never forget the day. never.
现在的我，已经不晓得自己是否还有那热程了。
我很喜欢，很想念。
但这些日子的无奈让我不知该如何。
只想快点动手术，好让我能够往康复的道路前进。
裹足不前久了，会闷，会累。
haha alright.
just a random post.
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
hello bloggy!
it's 251pm on a tuesday! (15/11/11)
woohoo! i am done with fyp! =]
my dearest "baby" that i had been working on since june.
it had been a wonderful process.
i meant, a good learning process.
one that i will not regret.
thanks "Elderspeak in Singapore" & thanks my wonderful supervisor - Francesco.
thank you everyone who assisted me in a way or another. you guys assisted me in completing this work. (haha acknowledgement)
never thought of producing 60pgs and 12,000+ words.
this is a milestone in life.
on a side note,
when i was on the way to submit my fyp, i heard sec sch kids talking about their 'O' levels and random thoughts emerged.
PSLE, 'O' levels, 'A' levels & finally Uni.
这些路，这些年，我都走过了！
有好友相伴的一同走过。
在生命中的每个阶段都有苦与乐，但都走过了。
很庆幸，很幸福。
aw..after submission, went to watch "In Time" with my course mates & had awesome korean bbq -- 2 days 1 night. =]
"In Time" is really quite a cool show concept.
you will never learn to cherish your time if you have all the time in the world.
just as how we always managed to finish our work in time when e deadline is there.
guess we or maybe i must learn to have the clock tickling away and know that we are running out of time before we learn to cherish what we have ba.
so cherish it guys!
cherish the precious time. =]
and wanted to blog about you are the apple of my eyes. =]
just a simple nice show.
something that reminds everyone of their youth.
friends doing stupid things together.
simple sweet moments.
believed every1 have those days.
a take-away from the show..sometimes misunderstandings and lack of courage causes one to lose things in life. but everything happens for a reason. what's meant to be would be what's meant to be. there may be this little regret but everything does happen for a reason. =]
will start to read my book after exams!
heh ok..so that's what's going on in my life.
9 days to exams and less than 3 weeks to op.
5/12/10 i ran after my dream.
5/12/11 i am going to be brave and embrace my chance to go after my passion again.
such a coincidence.
5-yr-old and me could't stop laughing when we thought about it.
within a year of marathon, both of us have to go through that.
it's been 2 months & 1 day.
you can never forget the day. never.
现在的我，已经不晓得自己是否还有那热程了。
我很喜欢，很想念。
但这些日子的无奈让我不知该如何。
只想快点动手术，好让我能够往康复的道路前进。
裹足不前久了，会闷，会累。
haha alright.
just a random post.
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
Friday, November 11, 2011
][.blurring eyes. fyp.][
][.blurring eyes.fyp.][
i love you so.
so much that my heart, my thoughts and my eyes are just all on you.
yes you, my dearest fyp.
it's 330am in the morning.
i am surviving with a mocha latte from coffee bean.
editing my what's supposed to be final draft AGAIN for the FINAL draft.
don't get me wrong, not complaining.
am vvv much grateful and thankful towards francesco (my supervisor) for going over my draft again and again.
if i have to edit it again and again, he has to read it again and again.
for this, i am thankful.
mon 14/11/11 is going to be the submission.
haha just as i typed down the date, it's going to be the 2nd month of my torn acl.
life goes on.
that's all i gotta say.
for now, just have to focus on my fyp and settle it asap.
on a separate note, you are the apple of my eyes is really really awesome.
went to catch it and love it much.
will have a separate post on it after mon.
for now, take gd care every1!
back to work. =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.sorry.][
i love you so.
so much that my heart, my thoughts and my eyes are just all on you.
yes you, my dearest fyp.
it's 330am in the morning.
i am surviving with a mocha latte from coffee bean.
editing my what's supposed to be final draft AGAIN for the FINAL draft.
don't get me wrong, not complaining.
am vvv much grateful and thankful towards francesco (my supervisor) for going over my draft again and again.
if i have to edit it again and again, he has to read it again and again.
for this, i am thankful.
mon 14/11/11 is going to be the submission.
haha just as i typed down the date, it's going to be the 2nd month of my torn acl.
life goes on.
that's all i gotta say.
for now, just have to focus on my fyp and settle it asap.
on a separate note, you are the apple of my eyes is really really awesome.
went to catch it and love it much.
will have a separate post on it after mon.
for now, take gd care every1!
back to work. =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.sorry.][
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
][.Fe's Prehab Prog.][
][.Fe's Prehab Prog.][
haha hello bloggy!
been a week since i blogged.
all's good. =]
some stuffs that happened over the week..
awesome spaghetti by chef terry tho! haha
really quite nice! thou appetizer and dessert was left out in e end =P
thanks terry tho!
Happy 2nd! =]
sat was forever5's bbq.
life will nv be the same without these 4 pigs. <3
my 1st birthday card! thanks guys! haha too paiseh to take it out in front of u all!
"turn to the sun and the shadow will fall behind"
my cutest mummy says:"turn to the sun and i will be chao-ta" =.=
after bbq n 1/2 round of mj. went home in e rain.
tot tt i will fall asleep but it turned out to be a emo night.
super super emo night.
chatted with moi from 130am till 530am.
about our knees.
about returning or not to the game.
about changes tt can't be helped with the injuries.
about the moments.
about the pain.
about the wu nai-ness.
about the cruelty.
haha n all the craps in the world.
it was a rainy night.
went to jq's 21st and back to tamp for massage tt night.
happy 21st jq meimei! =]
den here comes this wk.
so much a breather compared to the last.
had not headed to the gym this wk but went to physio to get a proper prehab plan.
quads had decreased from 44.5 to 43.5.
need to work on it =]
e flexibility is obvious when seen through the mirror.
but it's ok! i will work it back.
prehab is tired but it's just the start!
the road ahead is long.
walk it slow and steady fe! =]
positive self-talk once a day. haha
my prehap prog! special thanks to sek for all her help in explaining and simplifying the terms for me!
so many people to thank!
already tot of wad i can do after op apart from physio le!
but be4 tt..thanks to all who helped me one way or the other thru out this month!
2 more days to a month of "pop" goes my heart.
i wun be able to pull it thru without each of ur help!
thanks guys!
haha ok! shall go try n do some work le!
take gd care every1!
and shout out to 5-yr-old: 不要累坏了!
p/s: looking forward to timbre with family on sat! <3
][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][
haha hello bloggy!
been a week since i blogged.
all's good. =]
some stuffs that happened over the week..
awesome spaghetti by chef terry tho! haha
really quite nice! thou appetizer and dessert was left out in e end =P
thanks terry tho!
Happy 2nd! =]
sat was forever5's bbq.
life will nv be the same without these 4 pigs. <3
my 1st birthday card! thanks guys! haha too paiseh to take it out in front of u all!
"turn to the sun and the shadow will fall behind"
my cutest mummy says:"turn to the sun and i will be chao-ta" =.=
after bbq n 1/2 round of mj. went home in e rain.
tot tt i will fall asleep but it turned out to be a emo night.
super super emo night.
chatted with moi from 130am till 530am.
about our knees.
about returning or not to the game.
about changes tt can't be helped with the injuries.
about the moments.
about the pain.
about the wu nai-ness.
about the cruelty.
haha n all the craps in the world.
it was a rainy night.
went to jq's 21st and back to tamp for massage tt night.
happy 21st jq meimei! =]
den here comes this wk.
so much a breather compared to the last.
had not headed to the gym this wk but went to physio to get a proper prehab plan.
quads had decreased from 44.5 to 43.5.
need to work on it =]
e flexibility is obvious when seen through the mirror.
but it's ok! i will work it back.
prehab is tired but it's just the start!
the road ahead is long.
walk it slow and steady fe! =]
positive self-talk once a day. haha
my prehap prog! special thanks to sek for all her help in explaining and simplifying the terms for me!
so many people to thank!
already tot of wad i can do after op apart from physio le!
but be4 tt..thanks to all who helped me one way or the other thru out this month!
2 more days to a month of "pop" goes my heart.
i wun be able to pull it thru without each of ur help!
thanks guys!
haha ok! shall go try n do some work le!
take gd care every1!
and shout out to 5-yr-old: 不要累坏了!
p/s: looking forward to timbre with family on sat! <3
][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][
Thursday, September 22, 2011
][.Sane in times of Insanity.][
][.Sane in times of Insanity.][
if i am not wrong, this is the moment that i jumped up and heard the "pop" sound.
this was the moment that drove me to the brim of insanity.
but it's ok.
it's time to face it and move on.
从哪里跌倒，就从哪里站起来。
this is definitely going to be a chapter in my life and in my basketball journey.
because, it's only when you had lost something so dear that you will understand how important and cherish it more.
i am finally gaining back my sanity.
bit by bit.
but definitely.
enough of tears.
enough of sadness.
enough of these.
anymore weaker, i will hate myself.
thanks for keeping me sane in times of insanity.
many had anchored my life during the past week.
Special thanks goes out to..
1) my ever supporting family - daddy and mummy <3
2) moi - for pessimistic talk non-stop and being there with me throughout this whole thing for all the doc and helping me distract. for all these, thanks bro! haha i won't say much coz you won't see and you will heck me anyway! but for everything, thanks bro! =]
3) 5-yr-old - thanks kid! really thanks thanks loads! you really keep me sane in times of insanity! you were there with me to receive the news.i wouldn't know how i will react if you weren't there with me. you know how devastated i was at the moment. you saw the uncontrollable me and sit me down to listen to all the options. (this reminds me of after "A" levels results where you sat me down and helped me with planning) thanks for playing the anchor of my life! =]
you truly understand and showed me the light. you know how pain it is to sit out during the last seasons but you showed me the strength that you used to pull through all these. you found ways for me when i wanted to play so much - cause you know how much pain i am going within that i am going insane. however, you were rational enough to pull me back from the brim of insanity. you taught me to calm down and face it and think. you were the only one that could bring sense to me in times of insanity.
for all these, thanks llz! thanks so so much! thanks for taking my indecisiveness! thanks for everything! <3
4) roomie - thanks roomie! you know how i almost went bonkers these few days. you saw how weak emotionally that i can just cry out all of a sudden. you saw it all and all. thanks loads roomie! i am sorry that i made you worried and if it's me, i know i won't be able to handle. i am sorry that i can't fight the last two seasons with you but i am so proud of you and i will always be here supporting you. the only moment that made me wanna step up and jumped onto the court was when i saw you almost cramping. hang in there alright? help me win these two seasons. we had had enough championship together but can i be selfish and request that you win these two for me too? thanks <3
5) bear - i am so sorry for losing it these few days. i really cannot take it but i will take it from now on. thanks for understanding and giving me time thou i always say you don't und. (that's just because i needed time on my own) no1 can help me out of these apart from myself. =]
6) thanks to my nan da team mates! thanks for taking such good care of me throughout these period. thanks to jieying ahma! thanks for accompanying me to hydro and keeping a look out for me every moment. =]
thanks loads to every1! i had found my sanity bit by bit. i know that there will still be moments where i cannot take it but i know i will take it. that's one thing for sure! coz i mark my words and today's maximum = tears in the eyes but nothing flows more than that. cause 脆弱够了。接下来就要加油了！=]]
take gd care every1!
5-yr-old shared this song with me and it really reflects how i feel this whole week.
I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door
I was so sick and tired
Of a livin' a lie
I was wishin' that I
Would die
It's Amazing
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
It's Amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's Amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight
That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation
And how high can you fly with broken wings?
Life's a journey not a destination
And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings
You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't liten to all that righteous talk
I was out on the street,
Just a tryin' to survive
take good care every1!
nitez! =]
i will be back.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.jiayou fe.][
if i am not wrong, this is the moment that i jumped up and heard the "pop" sound.
this was the moment that drove me to the brim of insanity.
but it's ok.
it's time to face it and move on.
从哪里跌倒，就从哪里站起来。
this is definitely going to be a chapter in my life and in my basketball journey.
because, it's only when you had lost something so dear that you will understand how important and cherish it more.
i am finally gaining back my sanity.
bit by bit.
but definitely.
enough of tears.
enough of sadness.
enough of these.
anymore weaker, i will hate myself.
thanks for keeping me sane in times of insanity.
many had anchored my life during the past week.
Special thanks goes out to..
1) my ever supporting family - daddy and mummy <3
2) moi - for pessimistic talk non-stop and being there with me throughout this whole thing for all the doc and helping me distract. for all these, thanks bro! haha i won't say much coz you won't see and you will heck me anyway! but for everything, thanks bro! =]
3) 5-yr-old - thanks kid! really thanks thanks loads! you really keep me sane in times of insanity! you were there with me to receive the news.i wouldn't know how i will react if you weren't there with me. you know how devastated i was at the moment. you saw the uncontrollable me and sit me down to listen to all the options. (this reminds me of after "A" levels results where you sat me down and helped me with planning) thanks for playing the anchor of my life! =]
you truly understand and showed me the light. you know how pain it is to sit out during the last seasons but you showed me the strength that you used to pull through all these. you found ways for me when i wanted to play so much - cause you know how much pain i am going within that i am going insane. however, you were rational enough to pull me back from the brim of insanity. you taught me to calm down and face it and think. you were the only one that could bring sense to me in times of insanity.
for all these, thanks llz! thanks so so much! thanks for taking my indecisiveness! thanks for everything! <3
4) roomie - thanks roomie! you know how i almost went bonkers these few days. you saw how weak emotionally that i can just cry out all of a sudden. you saw it all and all. thanks loads roomie! i am sorry that i made you worried and if it's me, i know i won't be able to handle. i am sorry that i can't fight the last two seasons with you but i am so proud of you and i will always be here supporting you. the only moment that made me wanna step up and jumped onto the court was when i saw you almost cramping. hang in there alright? help me win these two seasons. we had had enough championship together but can i be selfish and request that you win these two for me too? thanks <3
5) bear - i am so sorry for losing it these few days. i really cannot take it but i will take it from now on. thanks for understanding and giving me time thou i always say you don't und. (that's just because i needed time on my own) no1 can help me out of these apart from myself. =]
6) thanks to my nan da team mates! thanks for taking such good care of me throughout these period. thanks to jieying ahma! thanks for accompanying me to hydro and keeping a look out for me every moment. =]
thanks loads to every1! i had found my sanity bit by bit. i know that there will still be moments where i cannot take it but i know i will take it. that's one thing for sure! coz i mark my words and today's maximum = tears in the eyes but nothing flows more than that. cause 脆弱够了。接下来就要加油了！=]]
take gd care every1!
5-yr-old shared this song with me and it really reflects how i feel this whole week.
I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door
I was so sick and tired
Of a livin' a lie
I was wishin' that I
Would die
It's Amazing
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
It's Amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's Amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight
That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation
And how high can you fly with broken wings?
Life's a journey not a destination
And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings
You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't liten to all that righteous talk
I was out on the street,
Just a tryin' to survive
take good care every1!
nitez! =]
i will be back.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.jiayou fe.][
Sunday, September 18, 2011
][.Optimistic.][
][.Optimistic.][
first time that i truly feel optimistic after so many days.
(the rest were just faked optimism =P)
woke up feeling that knee is good and bendable.
thank you lao tian ye!
nonetheless, still going for the doc consultation later.
hoping that everything will be good.
*crosses finger*
take gd care every1!
hopefully my next post will be with loads of =D
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
first time that i truly feel optimistic after so many days.
(the rest were just faked optimism =P)
woke up feeling that knee is good and bendable.
thank you lao tian ye!
nonetheless, still going for the doc consultation later.
hoping that everything will be good.
*crosses finger*
take gd care every1!
hopefully my next post will be with loads of =D
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
Thursday, May 26, 2011
][.Break from the hectic schedule be4 madness comes!.][
][.Break from the hectic schedule be4 madness comes!.][
practically slept my day away.
woke up to watch mavs, slp, lunch, slp den went to nana's 21st.
YES MAVS IS INTO THE FINALS!!
WOOHOO!! DIRK DIRK DIRK!!
aw i am really deprived of sleep!
haven been sleeping for more than 6hrs each day since exam period.
so woohoo.
catching up on sleep today is shiok.
but at the same time,
i am glad that i got a job so tt life can be more meaningful than just slacking it away with some tuitions.
They say people come and go. But the truth is, no one really disappears from your life. People never really leave; their roles just change.
saw this on twitter by tumblrsays and can't help but agree.
no1 really disappears.
it's just that their roles changed and they no longer are the one who had been there for you..
re-watching 9ends 2outs.
really love the show.
love how close it is to reality.
ok! end here le!
take gd care every1!
Bye~ =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.9ends2outs.][
practically slept my day away.
woke up to watch mavs, slp, lunch, slp den went to nana's 21st.
YES MAVS IS INTO THE FINALS!!
WOOHOO!! DIRK DIRK DIRK!!
aw i am really deprived of sleep!
haven been sleeping for more than 6hrs each day since exam period.
so woohoo.
catching up on sleep today is shiok.
but at the same time,
i am glad that i got a job so tt life can be more meaningful than just slacking it away with some tuitions.
They say people come and go. But the truth is, no one really disappears from your life. People never really leave; their roles just change.
saw this on twitter by tumblrsays and can't help but agree.
no1 really disappears.
it's just that their roles changed and they no longer are the one who had been there for you..
re-watching 9ends 2outs.
really love the show.
love how close it is to reality.
ok! end here le!
take gd care every1!
Bye~ =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.9ends2outs.][
Monday, May 23, 2011
][.Children and the world.][
][.Children and the world.][
dear bloggy..
on days such as today, i am really thankful for you give me a channel to pen (type) down my thoughts and rant non-stop.
firstly..let's talk about getting back to work!
waking up at 6plus am to get to start work at 830am and end at 530pm was something that was so familiar yet so distance away.
the last time i did this was 3yrs ago.
aw..yups! back to work.
i am now = teacher felicia.
haha got to work in childcare and will be working there for the next month.
it had always been my dream to have a childcare center!
but after today, i decided that i shall plunge to the society 1st and set that dream to be fulfilled at a older age. =]
job scope and things learnt today:
.check their temperature, any bites and all, change countless diapers, story telling, English lessons, feeding them and showering them.
haha gosh! e last time i changed a diapers was like 12 yrs ago?!
this is a training to be a gd mum man.
with all the kids hovering below you.
ok la! i guess i will love them so.
haha bless me with the strength to fight them all! =]
so that was the tiring 10plus hours.
took train down to ntu to train.
woke up at clementi n looked at my hp.
oh great.
i slept all the way to joo koon and took the same train back.
that shows how tired i was.
what's even better?
get to the court n only see 4 person.
so + me = 5!
wonderful.
awesome.
fabulous.
feel so sorry towards wanmei, xiao hei, baoxian and cynthia.
like seriously.
like damm bad.
priorities in life,
principles in life.
i can only account the attendance to it.
there's supposed to be 14ppl going for the trip.
n 5 turned up for trainings.
like super awesome?!
1st thing 1st..
basic no.1: if you can't make it, have the courtesy to inform.
basic no.2: if some1 sms you, have the courtesy to reply.
seriously i am speechless.
i am not angry.
but just gonna heck from now on.
like heck.
i really love my team.
but on days such as these, i really wanna say thanks.bye.
ok enough of rantings.
thanks bloggy for being here!
ok! take gd care every1!
gonna go slp now to face e kids tml.
nitez!
][.10.fe.15.][
][.Respect.][
dear bloggy..
on days such as today, i am really thankful for you give me a channel to pen (type) down my thoughts and rant non-stop.
firstly..let's talk about getting back to work!
waking up at 6plus am to get to start work at 830am and end at 530pm was something that was so familiar yet so distance away.
the last time i did this was 3yrs ago.
aw..yups! back to work.
i am now = teacher felicia.
haha got to work in childcare and will be working there for the next month.
it had always been my dream to have a childcare center!
but after today, i decided that i shall plunge to the society 1st and set that dream to be fulfilled at a older age. =]
job scope and things learnt today:
.check their temperature, any bites and all, change countless diapers, story telling, English lessons, feeding them and showering them.
haha gosh! e last time i changed a diapers was like 12 yrs ago?!
this is a training to be a gd mum man.
with all the kids hovering below you.
ok la! i guess i will love them so.
haha bless me with the strength to fight them all! =]
so that was the tiring 10plus hours.
took train down to ntu to train.
woke up at clementi n looked at my hp.
oh great.
i slept all the way to joo koon and took the same train back.
that shows how tired i was.
what's even better?
get to the court n only see 4 person.
so + me = 5!
wonderful.
awesome.
fabulous.
feel so sorry towards wanmei, xiao hei, baoxian and cynthia.
like seriously.
like damm bad.
priorities in life,
principles in life.
i can only account the attendance to it.
there's supposed to be 14ppl going for the trip.
n 5 turned up for trainings.
like super awesome?!
1st thing 1st..
basic no.1: if you can't make it, have the courtesy to inform.
basic no.2: if some1 sms you, have the courtesy to reply.
seriously i am speechless.
i am not angry.
but just gonna heck from now on.
like heck.
i really love my team.
but on days such as these, i really wanna say thanks.bye.
ok enough of rantings.
thanks bloggy for being here!
ok! take gd care every1!
gonna go slp now to face e kids tml.
nitez!
][.10.fe.15.][
][.Respect.][
Sunday, May 22, 2011
][.If you want to grow, you can't be afraid of changes.][
][.If you want to grow, you can't be afraid of changes.][
Hello Bloggy!
I am back! =]
it's been 2weeks since i blogged.
so much to blog yet everything is all over the place in my mind.
completed yr3 of uni life.
wow.
no more linguistics modules.
wow. gonna miss them!
hopefully this sem's grades will be better with the amount of effort increasing as compared to previous sems.
g.y.m pls bao yu wo! =]
aw..another sem had passed.
another 6months older.
haha life is still the same.
mixtures of good and bad.
but what matters most is rant and move on right? =]
received my last "salary" from bas for nat trngs.
divided the amount and it is 30+ trainings.
got it and had some random thoughts and feelings.
haha..
3 trainings a wk, 12 trainings a month, countless trainings for yrs.
putting on weight of at least 5kg from all the trainings.
suffered a swollen calf, going through acupuncture.
suffered a badly sprained ankle, going through countless physio and rehab to get it back.
not to mention the cui-ed knees and the countless push-yourself-to-the-max sessions.
those were the days.
those were the days which i will never forget.
everything is a learning experience.
everything constitutes who you are today.
i would never be who i am, without that.
for that, i m thankful.
i m thankful for every heartbreak, every pit fall, every encouragement, those who stood by.
n i m thankful that i been there, done that.
with no more regrets,
no more looking back.
just a sense of..i did everything i could.
n this is everything i will take away from it.
thanks for the memories!
for now, i will just concentrate on moving the cloud away and playing the game i love. =]
haha woohoo..so much random-ness.
n life is really very much of an irony isn't it?
you work hard so that you can have the money to enjoy life.
but when you work too hard, you won't have the money to enjoy life.
but you can't choose to not work hard.
so..i am going to work hard now. and play hard.
n lead my life.
this holiday will be packed like sardine.
n one of the most anticipated event is to go away with jing n moi for 11days.
haha ok! the madness will be ok! i can take it! haha
haha alright!
shall go back and watch my 9ends2outs.
really love the show.
i mean re-watch it!
n go mavs!
becoz of dirk, this nba season is the 1st one tt i am so into it!
jiayou mavs! jiayou dirk! =]
take gd care every1!
nitez! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.Welcome to my life.][
Hello Bloggy!
I am back! =]
it's been 2weeks since i blogged.
so much to blog yet everything is all over the place in my mind.
completed yr3 of uni life.
wow.
no more linguistics modules.
wow. gonna miss them!
hopefully this sem's grades will be better with the amount of effort increasing as compared to previous sems.
g.y.m pls bao yu wo! =]
aw..another sem had passed.
another 6months older.
haha life is still the same.
mixtures of good and bad.
but what matters most is rant and move on right? =]
received my last "salary" from bas for nat trngs.
divided the amount and it is 30+ trainings.
got it and had some random thoughts and feelings.
haha..
3 trainings a wk, 12 trainings a month, countless trainings for yrs.
putting on weight of at least 5kg from all the trainings.
suffered a swollen calf, going through acupuncture.
suffered a badly sprained ankle, going through countless physio and rehab to get it back.
not to mention the cui-ed knees and the countless push-yourself-to-the-max sessions.
those were the days.
those were the days which i will never forget.
everything is a learning experience.
everything constitutes who you are today.
i would never be who i am, without that.
for that, i m thankful.
i m thankful for every heartbreak, every pit fall, every encouragement, those who stood by.
n i m thankful that i been there, done that.
with no more regrets,
no more looking back.
just a sense of..i did everything i could.
n this is everything i will take away from it.
thanks for the memories!
for now, i will just concentrate on moving the cloud away and playing the game i love. =]
haha woohoo..so much random-ness.
n life is really very much of an irony isn't it?
you work hard so that you can have the money to enjoy life.
but when you work too hard, you won't have the money to enjoy life.
but you can't choose to not work hard.
so..i am going to work hard now. and play hard.
n lead my life.
this holiday will be packed like sardine.
n one of the most anticipated event is to go away with jing n moi for 11days.
haha ok! the madness will be ok! i can take it! haha
haha alright!
shall go back and watch my 9ends2outs.
really love the show.
i mean re-watch it!
n go mavs!
becoz of dirk, this nba season is the 1st one tt i am so into it!
jiayou mavs! jiayou dirk! =]
take gd care every1!
nitez! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.Welcome to my life.][
Monday, April 25, 2011
][.life is changes n chases.][
][.life is changes n chases.][
life is full of changes.
unexpected event happened.
let's walk through this together my bffs.
quote of the day by moi:"love is just great."
had a 2hrs talk w wen on the phone last night.
i really miss such times.
f/s nv fails. =]
the best ship of all - f/s. (2nd to kinship)
looking forward to 10days in thai.
trekking and exploring with jing n moi. (hopefully fungi can make it too =])
went for a jog.
haha hmmm..
life is like a run.
i always promise to run by my friend.
it's a promise.
if u insist that i go 1st, i will still turn back.
cz friends won't leave each another behind.
if you choose to leave me time and again behind,
i will try my best to chase for a few times..
but after many chase,
i may get really tired and turn the other way round and go.
or..
i may run ahead and nv look back.
haha just some random thoughts. =]
16days to exams.
jiayou every1!
jiayou fe! =]
take gd care every1!
nitez! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.friends are like pillars.][
life is full of changes.
unexpected event happened.
let's walk through this together my bffs.
quote of the day by moi:"love is just great."
had a 2hrs talk w wen on the phone last night.
i really miss such times.
f/s nv fails. =]
the best ship of all - f/s. (2nd to kinship)
looking forward to 10days in thai.
trekking and exploring with jing n moi. (hopefully fungi can make it too =])
went for a jog.
haha hmmm..
life is like a run.
i always promise to run by my friend.
it's a promise.
if u insist that i go 1st, i will still turn back.
cz friends won't leave each another behind.
if you choose to leave me time and again behind,
i will try my best to chase for a few times..
but after many chase,
i may get really tired and turn the other way round and go.
or..
i may run ahead and nv look back.
haha just some random thoughts. =]
16days to exams.
jiayou every1!
jiayou fe! =]
take gd care every1!
nitez! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.friends are like pillars.][
Monday, March 21, 2011
][.距离，可以很唯美也可以很危险.][
][.距离，可以很唯美也可以很危险.][
终于完成了一些作业。
写完一些想法后就要下线，准备明天的事了。
喝着黑咖啡，
疲累的我选择静静的写下心里所想的一切。
收到简单的提醒，
会感受到好朋友真心的关心。
感觉很好。
人与人是需要保持一定的联系的。
人们说距离是美。
我同意。
但，我认为，太多的距离，太少的联系，会让再坚定的一切情谊开始晃动。
所以，
记得和你珍惜的人保持联系。
关心他们。
就算只是偶尔想起。
让她知道。。=]
因为，唯有彼此珍惜和付出，那段情谊才能长久。
晚安！
][.10.fe.15.][
][.tired.][
终于完成了一些作业。
写完一些想法后就要下线，准备明天的事了。
喝着黑咖啡，
疲累的我选择静静的写下心里所想的一切。
收到简单的提醒，
会感受到好朋友真心的关心。
感觉很好。
人与人是需要保持一定的联系的。
人们说距离是美。
我同意。
但，我认为，太多的距离，太少的联系，会让再坚定的一切情谊开始晃动。
所以，
记得和你珍惜的人保持联系。
关心他们。
就算只是偶尔想起。
让她知道。。=]
因为，唯有彼此珍惜和付出，那段情谊才能长久。
晚安！
][.10.fe.15.][
][.tired.][
Sunday, March 13, 2011
][.Zoned-Out.][
][.Zoned-Out.][
rested for 4days.
4 gd days of rest.
zoned out and continue zoning out.
just wanna relax and rest and rest and rest.
feel lazy to reply messages, n coordinate things.
feel lazy to meet up apart from with comfortable companies of friends where i can just zone out.
get what i mean? =]
tired in a way.
feel tt there's a lot more in life sometimes.
there's more to life.
4days of good rest is giving me too much time to rest and think.
some photos to sum up my 4days of break!
ok take gd care every1!
nitez!
][.10.fe.15][
][.continue zoning out.][
rested for 4days.
4 gd days of rest.
zoned out and continue zoning out.
just wanna relax and rest and rest and rest.
feel lazy to reply messages, n coordinate things.
feel lazy to meet up apart from with comfortable companies of friends where i can just zone out.
get what i mean? =]
tired in a way.
feel tt there's a lot more in life sometimes.
there's more to life.
4days of good rest is giving me too much time to rest and think.
some photos to sum up my 4days of break!
ok take gd care every1!
nitez!
][.10.fe.15][
][.continue zoning out.][
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)