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y0z bloggy ! today ish e 3rd day of new yr ! haha so hows every1's new yr ?..got take lots of hongbaos ma..haha jkjk..hmm yeah ! i m going out wif forever5 later..muhaha finally ! actually not every1 also..but i m still glad to be able to c em during this new yr hols..haha jus a random bloggy to express mi happiness =p

that day i very bored de time i tot of this de..so wanna blog it down =p
F is for the friendship we share
O is for the openess between us..
R is for the respect we haf for each another..
E is for the earnesty we place in this friendship..
V is for the vouch for forever..
E is for the everlasting promise..
R is for not wanting to be regretful..
5 is for e 5 of us..
te amo..aisheteru my o2...

haha jkjk..kinda of lame..blogged for my memories sake ! n yah..i veri jing zhang nowadays..cz results is cuming out le..n music diary 3 de cd is cuming out le !!! i m realli looking forward to music diary 3 de cd..but i v v v e scared of my results..n i m praying that wen will help mi go queue n buy my cd 1st den i go join her..i wanna be e 1st 300..ahhh..hope wen can help mi..but haven ask her yet..i pray pray pray..

hao la..end here le..tctc every1 ! tc bloggy..byee..

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][.wei he ren you shi yao na mer de gu zhi ne.][
][.wei he bu ba guan xin piao xian chu lai ne.][

][.hApPy cHiNeSe dOGgY yEaR.][

][.hApPy cHiNeSe dOGgY yEaR.][

yOz bloggy !!! haha psps din blog for e past few days..cz was sick again..haha doc say got wad infection la..i also dunno..den gave mi a medi which he say wuld give mi no appetite..but haha i m full of appetite now =D..hee new yr leh..how can i this pig not eat =p..haha n yah ! mus thank butts for his treat during our "class reunion"..shall blog abt it another day =p

haha anyway this is jus a random bloggy la..cz waiting for my parents n bro to get ready..haha they realli slow wow..i m e last to wakey but 1st to get ready..haha jkjk..anyway today is chi new yr de da ni chu 1 ! so jus wanna wish every1 a v v v v v happy doggy yr !!! may ya haf a blessed n great doggy yr ok ! haha..n most importantly..be blessed wif gd health n happiness thru out e yr ! hee n yah..jus sum notes that my mummy say we shuld take note on chu 1 la..

1) dun wash ya hair =p (or else will bald faster de =p)
2) dun trim ya nails
3) dun throw temper n be angry

hee jus a little note ! dun worry be happy ! hope ya enjoy ya new yr la ! haha i can't wait to go out le =p hope can "gamble" n win a little today la..muhahaha..jkjk hao la..hope every1 of ya haf a great new yr too =D hee..i shall end here..n cont my zhu fu(s) tonite if i m not tired la =P hee byee..tc !

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][.a new yr.new start.][

][.hoping for a new yr.new start.][

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hey bloggy i m back !..hee jus slept for dunno how many hrs..hmm in fact nowadays..u shuld ask mi how many hrs m i awake man =) hee

anyway realli been down on my luck nowadays..jus had fever abt 1-2 wks ago..den after i recovered..felt down during gym(stupidly)..den had food poisoning e nxt day..den after food poisoning..my cough cums bac..tell mi how sucky can this be..its been a total of 4 days since i din train..n lu jus msg to say that tml there's this special trng for us(sick/injured)..thats to go home to rest immediately after sch..hmm so thats gonna be my 5th day without trng..o mian..5 consect days without trng = down down down i go..*shugs* i realli hate this man..after u recover..everything will be diff ba..everything that u trained hard for will be gone..now i feel a bit breatheless after all e coughing..

but thank godness..i m feeling much better le..hmm maybe its fate ba..maybe heaven wanna me to take a break or wadsoever..i shall take one den..hee n wanna thank all my friends for asking mi to take care..realli v touched..xie le..n wanna apologise to sum..eg.sheryl,mummy n more..for not heeding ya advice n insist on trng..hee but i tot it thru le..i will take a break..realli sorry for being so stubborn..hee..xiu xi shi wei le zou gen chang yuan de lu..(rest is to walk towards a better future)..hee i realli hope so la..=)

hao la..take gd care every1 !..today's bloggy is jus to thank all my friends..n my parents =) xie le..n i realli hope for a gd n better start after chi new yr ! n rem to take gd care of ya health ok ! byee..i shall go b a pig again =p

ps.sorry for not heeding ya advice..but i will now..=) thanks..

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][.thank u.][

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i always tell myself that i shuld not do things that will make myself regret..
i shuld not worry abt e future n shuld onli care abt e present..
but these few days i m feeling kinda of worried..

worried abt my o levels results..
i m shivering at e thought of it..
i can feel my tears gushing out any moment..

i m super scared..
i will not say i din work hard for my Os..
but neither wuld i say that i did my best for my Os..

worried cz i dun wanna leave vj for another environment..
cz i dun wanna disappoint all those that cared..
i m sum1 who cannot adapt to changes easily..
n i dunno wad will happen..
wad lay ahead for my future ?
i realli dunno..

all these complex feelings occured after i received an empty envelope from moe..n all those rumours in e air..i told auntie joy abt it..n she told mi to ignore these..cz they r rubbish..haha so i stopped thinking for a moment..but now i m tinking abt it again..i cannot focus on my life now..shugs..anyway thanks for e m&ms wow auntie joy =p hee thou it was meant to make mi fat ;p jkjk..n u all go celebration nv "invite" mi ;p humph..

feeling kinda of worried..den ytr so suay de..i was like a fool who "flew" down e table after back racer..n fell flat on my face n my knee hit e weights that was on e ground..e moment i fell..my mind blank..n i tasted blood..so i jus use my towel to wipe n wipe..n i discovered sumthing..everytime i use white colour towel..sumthing will happen..for eg. ytr n e time i fell off e slope at pula ubin..both time i used white towels to wrap ard my right leg..be it coincident or wad..i will nt use em again le..anyway my mind went blank..n i jus refused to get up..took em a hard time to get mi onto e bench..paiseh paiseh..

den after that i jus sat there n iced while they cont gym..den after that i limped my way to og bbq..i dun wanna missed it la..hmm..it wasn't realli fun..in fact it was not fun..but glad that simar n soefie was dere la..n thanks gu tou n lynn for e food ;p..hmm so came home ard 11 plus..min loong was nice to send mi sh n his friend,lesli home..n yah..mus thank lee kian also..for "piggy-backing" mi for a while..shall buy him chocs..cz i bet it was hard on him..xie le..n min loong also la..n e whole vj bball team..for helping mi take ice..fu-ing mi..etc la ..gan ji bu jing..

so due to e swollen lips n knee which suffered frm an impact that is kinda of hmm..i din train for both trng today..jus sat dere..for vj de..i jus helped to pass ball to denise n mel..den alj de..i jus spent my time trying to copy n colour yaqi de logo..yah..so now i m back home..bloggin..be4 i go n rest n read thru my lect notes..

hao la..go le..take gd care every1..anyway i m into another song now..its "xiao shi hou" by nan quan mama..its e song on my bloggy..listened to it carefully..its realli v meaningful..n i m feeling exactly like how this song goes..n butts jie..sorry..i was at e bbq ytr..so wasn't able to tok to ya..hope ya feeling better ok =D..n did ya changed ya hp no. ?..n take gd care la mei..+ every1 ! cya all..byee..

jus a meaningful story i came across jus now..its kinda of long..but read it if u dun mind..its nice..
][.Happiness On This Breath.][
Earnestness is the key. Unconditional willingness. All you have to do is pay attention, be honest, and follow through. Truth is discovered when you simply refuse to lie to yourself anymore. Love is discovered when you stop indulging in self centeredness, fear, and anger. You don't have to improve yourself; just sort through the contradictions. Your desire is to love and be loved, yet you use and hurt and alienate the ones you wanted to love the most. You want to be honest, but you find a million excuses for continuing the pretense, for self righteousness, for psychological defense. You want to be happy and at peace, yet you cling to competitive, erroneous, and hurtful views of things. Do you really want to be happy? Just pay attention and be kind, unconditionally kind, on this breath alone. Forget about the future. Just this breath. No matter what the circumstances, just be kind. Friend, lover, family member, someone who seems to hate you, someone you've never met on the street, your own soft animal body. Just be kind, in whatever way is appropriate. Everything else will work itself out, and you will begin to sense your own Pure Heart everywhere. How amazing. Very simple. Just be kind. Only on this breath. - Scott Morrison
Forget trying to have big compassionate thoughts. Be kind on this breath. Be kind to the one who breathes..

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][.habit.][
][.xiao shi hou.][

][.jia u.][

][.jia u.][

hey bloggy..today is another day that i managed to reach home early..hee happy happy..get to listen to bao bei music diary ! wahaha so nice so nice..listen till i wanna cry man..n thou i m super broke now..i m going to save up man..cz music diary de cd3 is gonna be out soon..hee i hope to get a copy..nono..i wanna get a copy..n i wanna be e 1st 200 to get it ! hee..music diary nv fails to touch my heart..

n yah..today is a hmm.. day..haha i dunno how to say..

to whomever it may concern..u noe who u r la..:
hee i dunno wads happen..but wen n i r realli worried..esp wen..she's like worried for e whole day..sms-ing mi..calling u..etc..jia u ok..i dunno wads wrong..maybe realli nth is wrong like wad u said..but rmb..friends = you fu tong xiang..you nan tong dang de..esp best friends..if e reason of u not replying is becoz u r angry wif mi..pls tell mi so..i m realli afraid of waiting for a reply..jus tell mi ok..n take gd care of yaself..i m realli sorry for wadever i haf done..n all i wanna is u to be happy ok my friend..n pls giv a reply to wen..she is realli worried..

to mei :
jia u mei ! if u ever see this..i jus wanna tell u..jia u jia u ! dun be bothered by those that dun bothers abt ya feelings..dun be upset over those that wun shed a tear for u..dun be affected by those who onli noe how to critise..cz they will nv noe abt e efforts ya put in..onli u noe..n dun giv up..u r doing great..do it for yaself yeah ! jia u !

hmm hao la..thats to 2 person..hope they will get to see it n jia u la ! hee n yah..today e last breakthrough so sweet..althought got lots of kang qiao n wangfu fen..but e last part got ken n qingqing de..so sweet n sad..haiz..anyway had gym trng today..hmm yeah..den after that went 7-11 slack a while..

life is kinda of nice..i mean i m slacking now..i dunno la..shall go read my econs lect notes later..cz i din realli pay attention during that lecture..was writing to my mortal..muhaha 2 wks more..e results will be out..i wonder wads set ahead for mi man..which path shuld i take..lalala..i m realli scared..e thought of it jus freak mi out..

hao la..go le..tctc every1..byee..jia u too !

day after day..i search for ya presence unknowingly..seeing u is enff to make mi happy..but i wonder why m i feeling so..=)

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][.habit.][
][.te amo.][

][.obstacles.r meant to be overcum.][

][.obstacles.r meant to be overcum.][

after days of sorting out my thoughts..
encouragments etc..

i haf made up my mind..
since i chose to be on this bus..
no matter how tired i m..
i will stay on..
live e best out of it..

hmm i m starting to adapt to my life le..getting used to it le..today there's no trng..so came home ard 6plus 7..den went to jog for ard 30 mins..hee veri relaxing..veri nice..its like e more u jog..u can sense that u r bouncing n seems that u will be able to go faster..but i mus admit that my stamina haf dropped a great deal after being sick..n still sick..shugs..my sore throat jus wun recover..

anyway today is realli v nice..i finally get to sit down..n enjoy my music diary..dunno how long nv listen to it le..hee..den actually lots of things happen..but i m jus too lazy to blog abt em..or rather i m moodless..

hee during lesson times i crap n enjoy my life with Fat French Fries = josephine n xue li..during trainings..wif vj team..but on e bus..if go home together wif moi..i jus choose to listen to my mp3..n talk a bit unlike e past when we talk like siao..cz whenever we tok abt not hafing time for em..moi sounds so frustrated too..i noe she is feeling helpless like mi too..so i jus choose to listen to my mp3 n not rebut..cz..i no energy le..i dun wanna lose 1 more anymore..

haha hao la..end here le..go watch e last breakthrough be4 i go study..take gd care every1 ! byee..

i miss u all like crazy..
i hope to haf time for u all..
but dere's none..
not that i dun bother..
trust mi..
i realli do..
take gd care always..
let time do e wonders ba..

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][.habit.][
][.i find myself falling deeper everyday.][
][.searching for ya presence every single sec.][

][.lost.angel wuld u guide mi.][

][.lost.angel wuld u guide mi.][

are there angels ?..
if there is..
where's mine..

are there "shou hou xin" ?..
if there is..
where's mine..

i always felt that life is like a never ending journey..
in our normal day..when we arrive at e bus stop..we noe e bus that we wanna board..we noe our destination..n we r almost 100% sure that e bus will bring us to it..

however in our life journey..standing at e bus stop..do u haf any idea wad bus u wanna board ?..do u haf any idea where will e bus bring ya to..do u haf any idea where is ya true destination ?..will it be sumwhere u realli wan..i haf no idea..n i realli dunno wad bus i wanna board..

now..i feel so lost..my life is as though a lost passenger..i boarded a bus..i dunno if it is e bus that will bring mi to my destination..i m on board for kinda of long..i m starting to get tired..i wanna get off e bus..but i haf no courage..coz i haf no idea wad bus wuld i board after i get off from this bus..

yeah..jus kinda of crapping..paiseh..but thats how i m feeling now..hmm bloggy..for dunno how many wks..i finally understand wads sat like..hows sat like..i took a break ytr..cz after vj n ahs de friendly..felt unwell..so din go u18 n alj trng..1st time in dunno how many wks..i rest..dun nd to rush from here to dere without eating much..dun nd to tire out..all i do is so relaxing..

i felt bad..but i noe my body nd e rest..so came home be4 going to sh's hse to watch "be with you"..i shall blog abt e show sumday..den after that went to ms ng's hse for bball gathering..din go watch band concert wif forever5..haiz..

bloggy..i finally understand hows like to haf no trngs n rest..haf time of my own for a day..hmm i dunno how to say..but i kinda of feeling about lots of things now..every1 is telling mi to study hard le..dun play so much bball le..but which one shuld i forgo..like wad i told wen..i dun haf courage to forgo any1 of it..each trng is impt..but becoz of this..i lost myself in e world of trngs..i feel stagnant..i dun see myself improving..instead it seems like going another way..down e hill..

i nd my angel..
to my dearest angel :
wuld u pls tell mi wad to do..i haf no courage to forgo any of my trngs..but i haf no idea where m i going too ?.."shou hou xin"..wuld u pls guide mi..tell mi wad i shuld do..every1 is saying e same thing..but like wen say..no1 is in ya shoes..in my shoes..no1 understands..or maybe..i m e one that dun understand ba..

jus saw sumthing like this.."5 roads will nv converge..but can't blame any1"..angel..wuld u pls guide mi..wuld u pls guard it with lots of loves..i can't afford to lost it..yet i can't strike a perfect balance for everything..angel wuld u pls help mi..

angel wuld u guard my family too..bless em..with happiness..with health..always..

haha ok..enff of crapping..loads of work waiting for mi to complete it..jus came bac from shooting de trng..later going for da dui's trng..so haf to go bathe n do my hw le..take gd care every1..byee..n paiseh..i v zhi xiang mao dun de..dun bother abt mi la..=)

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][.i nd u.angel.][

][.friday e 13th.][

][.friday e 13th.][

hey bloggy..jus ard an hr plus ago..it was still friday e 13th..hmm acc to myths etc..they say its not a nice day la..but as i like 13 n 5..i tink its ok =)..but indeed it hasn't been a v nice day la..but its still nice..deres always sumthing nice admist e unpleasant stuffs that happen ard us de =)

hmm anyway ytr was terrible..feeling damm sick man..so borrowed money from moi n came home in a cab..i was like trembling in e cab..as in those super cold de la..den reached loyang pt le..e clinic was closed..so had to walked all e way to central to see another doc..wif my heavy bag n under e heavy rain..n wif my mum nagging all e way dere..i noe why she nag..cz she tinks its my own responsibility to take care of my own health..n she tinks my trngs are crazy..yah..i do understand why she nag..but when u r feeling so uncomfortable n wanna die le..ppl still nag..super agrh man..so see doc le..came home..n i jus plunged into my bed..ate medi le..was supposed to haf dinner be4 i haf another medi..but i can't be bothered..while my mum cont to scold n scold..scold abt everything n anything that she wans la..den i slept from 5 plus to 9..den 9:50 to 5 plus in e morning..practically slept thru half e day..shuang dao..but still feeling kinda of uncomfortable in e morning today..

but yeah ! i m ok now le..as in i feel much better since noon =)..but din do pe n din play friendly today la..anyway went to watch vj vs sas n missed our ying xing hui..ok..i mus admit..thinking abt it..i do feel sad yeah..its like..theres no longer gonna be a ying xing hui le..even if dere is..its not for us wad =P hmm anyway wads over is over..went bac to ahs in e noon be4 taking jiang sheng's car bac to vj..den after e friendly..was kinda of "arguing" wif moi whether we shuld rush to meet forever5 ma..haiz i tink i m realli irrational la..is like..wad mummy say..i dun haf my own thinkings..yup..anyway we were "arguing" den moi received e news that her pet doggy had died..so we ceased e argument..n went to kfc at causeway pt wif em..be4 taking 969 wif ms tan to TM..

haiz..moi was feeling so sad while i feeling so vexed..i can understand moi de sad la..cz when "brian" my pet tortise died..i also v e sad la..wads more..its moi de dog leh..can play wif de..n yah..anyway i v vexed cz..i feel that we shuld..or at least i shuld meet forever5 tonite..cz we r going for e dinner tml n will be pang seh-ing forever5 for e ahs concert band de concert la..feel so bad la..but cz today we din go ying xing hui..i wanna go for e bball dinner tml la..so its like..hmm i feel e nd to meet them tonite..even for a little moment..

so we took 969 wif ms tan..n arrived at tamp ard 10:50..so i asked moi if we can wait ma..den we waited for forever5 at e mac la..haha den we toked a while be4 catching a cab home..sorry fungi..i gotta rush home..so din take 3 wif ya..

hee yeah..anyway this is my friday e 13th..n yah..shao nian is realli a nice song..i listened to it repeatedly today =p..hee shall blog e lyrics in han yu ping yin sumday =p..

hao la..end here le..byee bloggy..take care every1 !..tml is a long day ahead..n i wonder how m i going to survive..tc !

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][.fazendeiro.][

][.a little change to my life.][

][.a little change to my life.][

hee today is a little change there..i added a few pics to my bloggy..den went queensway wif family to get a few thingys..

haha once again..today is a rainy day..rain n rain..was super lazy to go out..but haf to..cz nd to buy shoes n clothes for new yr..so went bedok wif mummy at ard 3plus 4..but theres nothing that i like..so we decided to meet daddy at queensway..since he wanted to buy a boots..

so brought mummy n didi to take 14..wahaha took for over an hr..reached queensway at ard 6 plus..den join daddy for dinner..haha enjoyable dinner..cz seldom haf time to eat dinner together wif em wif e mon to sun trngs on..so realli enjoyed every moment of it..

so after dinner we went to queensway..haha daddy bought his boots..while i bought a fila jogging shoes..which ish intended to wear to sch n as a spare spare joggin shoe de la..n a nike brown sling bag..which ish my new sch bag =D hee n a fbt black shorts..haha happy happy..bought so many stuffs today =p den jus reached home nt too long ago..

hmm love today man..not becoz i buy lots of thingys la..but becoz i get to spend time wif em..hee den i shall go n save up le..cz today shop shop de time..daddy n mummy showed mi wad they like..so shall save $ n get it for em during their bday la..haha

haha hao la bloggy..anyway if u can hear e song on my blog now..its "xiao shi hou"..supposingly by f4..hee i also nv heard of it be4..but i tink its kinda of nice..so shall put it till i find e song i wan..

end here le..wanna go watch e breakthrough ! hee take gd care every1 ! byee..

..dun take every1 for granted..
..esp ya close ones..
..dun throw temper on em jus becoz u r feeling down..
..they can be understanding..
..but patience will run out some day..

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][.i m thinking of u.][

][.devled.][

][.devled.][

hey bloggy..today i got lots to blog..hee it wasn't realli a perfect start for today..but haha it sumhow ended quite nice..haha or rather..ending wif mi feeling great ?..hee its gonna be v detailed..cz i wanna rmb everything la..so onli read on if u r free =p

hao la..it started wif e usual 53 den 36..chicken burger..n assembly..den we went to ecp..not long after we reach dere..den nd to report for e biathletelon thingy..den briefing..as i was in team 2..i was onli required to report bac at 10:15..so wish sh n her partner all e best le jiu left la..

hee..den went to find for infrit..but i walked like 2 whole rounds ard all e game stations still cannot find em la..n finally when i found em..guess wad..wanted to throw e ogl(s) into e sea de..but this min loong win le la..snatched my shoe bag..n i tot he was trying to keep himself safe by "kidnapping" my shoe bag..ha..who noes..i was dunk into e sea la..hee rong tried to save mi..but failed..haha..anyway thanks rong..hmm but i tink its ok la..this is e fun wad..but..haha imagining mi running wif e heavy clothes =p..

so after i was dunk i wanted to splash water at em (infrit) to take revenge de..but this station master at "splash" helped splashed mi instead..so as expected..i was all drenched when i reported at e biathletelon station at 10:15..n shawn was like o m gosh..u r wet..u shuld nt get wet sia..will become v heavy to run..haha so hmm i noe he meant well..so i tried to dry up..den be4 i culd do warm-up..e thingy was going to start already..remembering wad sh told mi..i dun dare to slow down la..so jus started running n running..thinking of..haha den run till 1/4 way..dawn senior say jia u..den run n run..on e way bac trina was on her bike..so she rode her bike n acc mi run bac..i mean giving mi encouragements la..it was realli nice..thanks trina !..haha so run bac le..den hurried to e sea for e paddling..haha realli ps to shawn la..cz i tink he had a hard time paddling e 200m..cz..haha ppl here nt swimmer la..so paddle wif hands n legs also v weak la..hee so after we reached e shore..he ran his 4.5km n came bac 2nd in e team..but i tink our timing wasn't gd enff la..but hee nbm..i tink it had been a great experience..i had always wanted to take part in these events..hee

so after that thingy..went to join my grp..played a bit of tug n war..den treasure hunt where we jus sit dere n wait for e time to pass..hee den finally captain's ball..but haha it rained be4 we can play..so rushed bac to sch..get changed..den bac to hall for mass dance..den off to concourse for foto taking..den lalala airport for og lunch !

hee i almost din wanna go for e og lunch..cz its like..soefie is nt in s'pore..simar went bac to tk..rachel went home cz her mummy was dere to fetch her..but haha i din regret going now la ;p we reached airport..den was at t2..so they decided to go t1 to eat pizza..subway or wad so ever la..so we took skytrain over to t1..den reach dere le..they decided to go eat bk..but as t1 de bk is an "island" an "island" de table..they decided to go bac t2 to eat bk ! wahaha faints..so its like..t2 to t1 den bac to t2 for a bk meal..haha so we settle for e bk meal..den chatted a little while we eat..den in e end 2 table combine as 1 n we started sharing our lame jokes ! wahaha...infrit's lame jokes :
1) IS the egg york white / ARE the egg york white ? egg york where ish white de..is yellow wad =p
2) why wuld a man throw a butter off the 10th storey ? cz he wanna see BUTTERfly
3) haf u heard of the butter joke ??? sorry i cannot tell u..coz u will SPREAD it..
4) if a plant breathe in oxygen in e morning..wad does it breathe in at nite ?..NITrogen lo..(nite-tro-gen ah)
5) e teacher is teaching a periodic table la..den the teacher asked a qn..guessed which gas in n e periodic table answered 1st n fast ?..nitrogen lo..coz its chemical symbol is N2..u put a N and a 2 = enthu !
6)e teacher was teaching abt e amazon..den there's this guy reading a unrelated bk under his desk..so e teacher say : boy..u better look at mi..or else u will nv noe how a monkey looks like in e amazon !

haha hao la..e av lame jokes r onli part of many..hee sorry for e lame-ness..jus wanna remind myself of it..hee..so we proceed from bk to viewing mall to cont sharing e lame jokes..hee den still got e 156 157 la !!! wahaha..our new infrit cheer + joke..but its kinda of long..so i shall nt type..anyway after we went to e viewing mall..we started dancing mass dance..den e sharing of lame jokes..but i tink e other grp realli bei lame dao bth la..den after that home sweet home..hee this og lunch make mi go crazy more..n noe more abt em instead of jus my clique..hee e C.S.I(s)..hehe yeah..1st day i feel so high n happy..

haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 !..cz i wanna go watch tv le..muahah n today de last breakthrough..qingqing:"i tink i m starting to find him adorable" (refering to ken)..wahaha..5weet dream every1 !

n yah..i m falling in love wif this song that i once liked again..kinda of meaningful..
its "i tink i love u" (this is e eng translation):

Full House OST l Byul l I Think I Love You [English Version]

I refused to believe that it could be so,
there's no way that I'm in love with you,
I lied to myself that it's just a petty jealousy,
that I must be feeling lonely, but I cannot hide it anymore.

I think I love you
But it must be so, Cause I miss you
without you,
I cannot do anything, and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be,
I was unaware,
but now I can see that
your presence have delved deeply into my heart.

We are not meant for each other, and being friends is the best thing for us,
there isn't a single thing we have in common,
so I claimed there's no way we can be lovers,
but I don't want to make excuses anymore.

I think I love you
But it must be so, Cause I miss you
without you,
I cannot do anything,
and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be,
I was unaware,
but now I can see that
your presence have delved deeply into my heart.

why didn't I know that it was you,
why couldn't I see it when it was right in front of me,
it was beside me all along,
but only now can I see love.

I think I love you
But it must be so, Cause I miss you
without you, I cannot do anything,
and you are always on my mind,
so seeing this, it must be, I was unaware,
but now I can see that
your presence have delved deeply into my heart.

hee yeah..thats e nice song..shall blog abt another nice song nxt time..its shao nian by guang liang =p..byee..


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y0z bloggy..wanted to blog ytr..but was too tired to do so..yeah..i managed to survive ytr ;p hee..

anyway bloggy..its raining like nobody's business now..dunno for how long le..since last nite ba..or maybe afternoon..so long sia e rain..due to it..alj's trng is cancelled..haha den there's no way i can train for tml..n how to run e 4.8km that is required ne..i dunno la..

hmm anyway bloggy..raining makes mi feel so down..haha as in..my mood jus became v moody la..for no reason..but is not that kinda of sad de feeling la..wadever =p i m jus crapping ;p sorry la bloggy..but realli feeling kinda of grey grey now..hee

den..bloggy..ytr went to 3 diff places for trng..den i guess i m realli afraid of going for nat youth trng..realli..is like so stressful dere..i dunno la..haha..den vj is fun..cz e seniors r fun =p..but i tink i realli like alj trng ba..i tink so..when i 1st started trng dere..is like realli scared of every trng la..cz its so tough..but now..i like it..hee =D

anyway ytr de alj trng not realli hiong la..kinda of relaxed..cz raining..den we ran up n down e blk..n den cindy coach caught mi walking instead of running up e steps at e 10th storey la =p *faints* hee anyway after that we did basics =p..n o mian my basics realli suxz like nobody's business..den trng ended sharp at ard 5 plus..den coach say nxt time will be 2 hrs n 30 mins max de trng..hee..so after that went to play a while wif yaqi they all..3 on 3..den went kovan for dinner be4 going home..

haha n yeah..mummy bought mi a bball stool today..but its while stripe instead of black de la..den i slept till v late today..den watched tv till now..be4 cuming online n take e personality test thingy which auntie joy send mi =p..hee its kinda of v accurate la ;p

haha hao la..bloggy..i go le..i dunno what i bloggin also..i jus noe i m feeling kinda of confused now..haha many thingy going thru my mind..hee byee every1 ! tc..

..will u all go to our blog..
..i miss u all..


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y0z bloggy ! i miss ya..hmm but this whole wk is like so freaking "busy"..den everyday dou cum home so late..sianz..i m starting to miss e days when i can go home early..so now..i realli feel like staying home n enjoy everything abt it whenever i m free..

hmm anyway this wk was vj orientation..haha hmm all i can say is e school spirit is realli veri strong n i m realli deeply impressed by e sch spirit that e victorians share..haha..n e cheers r woohoo =p hee cool..but everyday e orientation ends so late..den if theres trng..its like reaching home ard 10plus..haha..hmm anyway i tink i will realli miss vj if i can't get in after e 1st 3 mths ;p haiz..dun dare to tink la..

anyway today ish e last day of orientation..den we went suntec for mass dance..wahaha its cool..we played e "toot toot train" thingy..which i dunno wads is call too..but realli fun..tell mi how many times can u get crazy like nobody's business at a public place ??? ;p haha lalala..i m jus being lame..anyway i m realli paiseh to simur n soefie la..cz i lost em during e "toot toot train"..den i went off wif e bballers =p..haha sorry sorry..

hao la..shall nt rant on abt orientation le..hmm tml's gonna be a long day again..haha i dunno how m i going to do it..but i noe i jus gotta do it =p n when i manage to do it..i shall tell ya yeah bloggy ;p

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sumtimes i wonder.why..
i realli do..
but theres no reason..
no why..
no answer to my mind..

sumtimes i get confused n tired..
but there seems to be sumthing pushing mi on..
so i m moving on..
n i will always do..
cz deres no reason..

i noe..
i jus gotta do it..
n i realli do..
i wanna..

hao la..byee bloggy..gotta go get ready for tml le..o mian a long day..hee take gd care every1! byee..

ps. anyway that pic abv = ken_qingqing in the last breakthrough..haha they roxz man..shall tell u all more abt e show nxt time..n their actually name = raymond n lelia =D

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o mian..a word to describe jc life wuld be = tired !..haha n its onli my 1st day dere..n still hafing orientation onli la..haha shugs..wonder how m i going to make it man..wadever it is..i mus hang on..cz maybe after 1st 3 mths..i wun get to enjoy jc life le ;p

hee hao de..since now its a new yr le..i haf new aims too..i mean things that i wanna do..not onli accomplish but change too..
-be more firm in my decisions..(this is e hardest thingy sia)
-treasure my "wu jia zhi bao"
-treasure love one(s)
-train harder
-work on my muscles n stamina 1st

haha shall set these goals 1st la..n hmm today is realli kinda of amazing..there's this cresent gal de gal in my grp la..den i jus sui bian ask if she noe diana n she was like..diana..u mean diana tay ann ann..haha wow..diana u became so famous in ya sch le..nv tell mi wow ;p haha but is also ard 10 yrs since we contact le la...i mean tok like we once ramble none stop when we were young..

haha hao la..jus haf e urge to wish all my friends for once all e best n jia u in wadever u do la..once a friend..always a friend..

ok..i m tired..take care bloggy..byee..

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haha happy new year every1 !!! hohoho..happy happy new year !!!! may all ya dreams + wishes + everything cum true la .. hee

hmm jus came home not too long ago..was bac from thai..haha hmm this trip is..haha saddening is e word ba..hee hence i shall not blog abt it now..coz its a brand new yr ! n i dun wanna make it sad =p hee mus be happy !

haha hao la..thou this trip is quite saddening..but haha i mus say that i met sum real nice friends too..haha they r joy,rachel,gwen n katek..hee

hmm hao de..shall not say abt e trip now ! shall tok abt wad happened at e airport..haha so i saw wen at e gate dere..den kinda of disappointed la..coz moi msg-ed mi n say she cannot make it blah blah blah..haha den saw onli wen..but my heart tells mi that they will be dere..hee n yeah they are there ! thank good-ness they "pop" up after i went to e washroom..haha wen is not becoz ya acting lousy la ;p but becoz i haf faith that u all will be dere =D hee n thank good-ness..coz i bought u all doughnuts which cannot be kept =P..hee n hmm i will be so super duper sad de guo this new yr if u all ain't dere today..coz..haha this trip realli veri sad..

haha den they celebrated e "chee(s)" bday..hee fungi they so toot..i wan my present ! haha..nbm..anyway we nua-ed at BK .. open presents etc..be4 cuming home..

~new yr msg for my dear ones =p~

=to forever5=
hee hao la..so all i wanna say is..thank you forever5..thanks for being there to make my day at my darkest moment..i m realli sorry that i devoted my life to bball without caring much for u all..haha i m sorry that i was so "busy" that i neglected u all..hee wad fungi say realli make sense..n i realli feel so too..sorry sorry..but after this trip..i promise..bball may be veri impt in my life..but u all matter more..cz bball may disappoint mi..make mi sad..n dejected..but wif u all..my life is happy once again..so happy new yr ! may u all haf a great yr ahead ! n be happy + healthy always..hee

=to my family=
happy new yr piggy daddy + mummy + didi + god-daddy + god-mummy + c'mei + every1 single of u all.. hee happy new yr !!! may u all be blessed wif gd health in this new yr ! haha n yah..mus be happy happy everyday de ok ! hee thanks for always being dere for mi..supporting mi in everyway u all can..all e advices n encouragment..thanks !

=to sh=
y0z happy new yr ! stay happy n cool ok !..hee 2005 will always be in ya deepest memories de..so dun be too sad ok =D..jia u in everything u do..n stay happy la ! n may all ya dreams cum true la..thanks for everything too..

=to ye siew=
happy new yr a siao ! haha n happy belated bday too..may all ya dreams n wishes cum true in this new yr ! n stay happy always ok =p

=to buddy=
happy new year !!! may ya yr be filled wif happiness n joy =P..stay happy always ok ! n thanks for everything..

=to mei=
happy new year mei !!! hee may all ya dreams n wishes cum true for this new yr ok !..woo sec4 le wow..so fast..mus work hard ok ! dun be like jie.. hee jkjk ! stay happy always too ok ! hee n thanks for everything..

=to dong nan xi bei club n butts jie=
happy new yr !!! haf a great yr ahead ok ! hee all e best to lx n ah min in Tj..n butts ah..mus be loyal ok =p hee jkjk..stay happy always la =D

=to my idols=
happy new yr !!! (thou u all will nv cum here)..haha but i still hope that u all will haf a veri happy new yr ! n may ya all de pro-ness cont going up..but no stress..cz u all will always be e best de..hee n stay happy n healthy always la..hee 15.10.5..

hee hao de..i veri tired le..shall blog more tml ! if i feel like doing so la..byee..take care !!!

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