if i am not wrong, this is the moment that i jumped up and heard the "pop" sound.
this was the moment that drove me to the brim of insanity.
but it's ok.
it's time to face it and move on.
从哪里跌倒，就从哪里站起来。
this is definitely going to be a chapter in my life and in my basketball journey.
because, it's only when you had lost something so dear that you will understand how important and cherish it more.
i am finally gaining back my sanity.
bit by bit.
but definitely.
enough of tears.
enough of sadness.
enough of these.
anymore weaker, i will hate myself.
thanks for keeping me sane in times of insanity.
many had anchored my life during the past week.
Special thanks goes out to..
1) my ever supporting family - daddy and mummy <3
2) moi - for pessimistic talk non-stop and being there with me throughout this whole thing for all the doc and helping me distract. for all these, thanks bro! haha i won't say much coz you won't see and you will heck me anyway! but for everything, thanks bro! =]
3) 5-yr-old - thanks kid! really thanks thanks loads! you really keep me sane in times of insanity! you were there with me to receive the news.i wouldn't know how i will react if you weren't there with me. you know how devastated i was at the moment. you saw the uncontrollable me and sit me down to listen to all the options. (this reminds me of after "A" levels results where you sat me down and helped me with planning) thanks for playing the anchor of my life! =]
you truly understand and showed me the light. you know how pain it is to sit out during the last seasons but you showed me the strength that you used to pull through all these. you found ways for me when i wanted to play so much - cause you know how much pain i am going within that i am going insane. however, you were rational enough to pull me back from the brim of insanity. you taught me to calm down and face it and think. you were the only one that could bring sense to me in times of insanity.
for all these, thanks llz! thanks so so much! thanks for taking my indecisiveness! thanks for everything! <3
4) roomie - thanks roomie! you know how i almost went bonkers these few days. you saw how weak emotionally that i can just cry out all of a sudden. you saw it all and all. thanks loads roomie! i am sorry that i made you worried and if it's me, i know i won't be able to handle. i am sorry that i can't fight the last two seasons with you but i am so proud of you and i will always be here supporting you. the only moment that made me wanna step up and jumped onto the court was when i saw you almost cramping. hang in there alright? help me win these two seasons. we had had enough championship together but can i be selfish and request that you win these two for me too? thanks <3
5) bear - i am so sorry for losing it these few days. i really cannot take it but i will take it from now on. thanks for understanding and giving me time thou i always say you don't und. (that's just because i needed time on my own) no1 can help me out of these apart from myself. =]
6) thanks to my nan da team mates! thanks for taking such good care of me throughout these period. thanks to jieying ahma! thanks for accompanying me to hydro and keeping a look out for me every moment. =]
thanks loads to every1! i had found my sanity bit by bit. i know that there will still be moments where i cannot take it but i know i will take it. that's one thing for sure! coz i mark my words and today's maximum = tears in the eyes but nothing flows more than that. cause 脆弱够了。接下来就要加油了！=]]
take gd care every1!
5-yr-old shared this song with me and it really reflects how i feel this whole week.
I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door
I was so sick and tired
Of a livin' a lie
I was wishin' that I
Would die
It's Amazing
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
It's Amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's Amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight
That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation
And how high can you fly with broken wings?
Life's a journey not a destination
And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings
You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't liten to all that righteous talk
I was out on the street,
Just a tryin' to survive
take good care every1!
nitez! =]
i will be back.
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