][.unexpected christmas eve.][

][.unexpected chirstmas eve.][

chirstmas ?..
haha i nv realli celebrate christmas be4..
but this yr's christmas is kinda of fun..
hmm maybe fun isn't e right word to use ba..
its kinda of unexpected n glad..
that when i tink of it..
i will jus smile..
but not those kinda of big big grin de smile la..
haha wad e craps m i toking man..
anyway i jus wanna blog down my chirstmas this yr..for 2005..

haha jus came back from wen de hse..i m veri tired now..n i realli mean it..but i know i mus blog..or else tml i wake up le..sure lazy to blog le =p..hee hao de..lets start wif ytr ba..

=alj christmas party=
haha hmm i tink it was ok..quite fun la..but it isn't vvv fun..cz i was kinda of dead-beat..n i was jus "hiding" here n dere..din realli join in e total fun la..so it started wif mi wrapping all e gifts at e last min..n den went to meet sh..haha i was vvv late..psps..den went to wen de hse..put our bags n rode her bike to e bbq pit 70..haha its not v far la..but due to my speed..hmm n on e way there e sea is quite nice..den we reached le..not lots of ppl dere la..so jus went to see was we can do..but actually theres nothing much we can do also..quite lots of ppl crowding round e bbq pt le..den cindy coach n lqjl went off to i also dunno where..den hui n emily (big) tried to help wif e fire thingy..den e fire got kinda of "big" n huihui jus threw a few ice cubes..haha..den wad else..orh..e fire ok le..they start cooking while i jus sat dere..tok to big cheryl..den a while wif nut..den yaqi..den mei..hmm in fact i was feeling rather uneasy ytr..mus be cz moi not ard la..den dun realli noe e xiao de..den wif nut they all also like fan fan zi jiao..understand ma ?..haha means can be gd team-mates on court..but dun realli noe each other in real life ;p..den sit ard wif em a while le jiu went to take food wif nut,big cheryl n yaqi..den we eat..eat le..jiu rain ?..haha if i nt wrong la..den mi n shao ji went to bbq e mashmallow using e buffet de fire..den cindy was like..ahs n dhs de..clever idea =p..haha but it was kinda of not successful la..cz e fire is not that strong n e mashmallow is not e right type..den shao ji had to help huihui keep e left over de mashmallow..haha den cindy ask every1 to gather to tink of ways to punish those not in e right attire..but i jus sat dere n cont to make e mashmallow wif big cheryl..coz shao ji was one of em who din wore e attire..haha..den no1 discovered us..so we got no grp also..but i told cheryl to join also la..so we jus did xingxin wif em..den went of to chase emily..cz mei was chasing her..so jus help la..den lqjl..n coach all came n help also..but its kinda of hard..emily(small) was like..my shoes..my socks..ahh i dunno how to swim..ahh..i cum dat one..blah blah blah..haha..den she tok tok tok..den later we saw a bunch of ppl running..n we saw that they planning to catch cindy coach..haha so every1 left le..onli left lqjl dere n emily n me la..den lqjl was like..ae every1 go le..emily how ?..den haha in e end as expected..emily "escaped"..she went to chase cindy coach also la..haha den lqjl jiu say "she (emily) ah.."..den i told her(lqjl) to be careful also..coz i tink she surely will bei throw de la..den she was laughing wif e blur look n say wun de la..

haha so after that went to wash my feets wif big cheryl..den we wash le jiu quick quick go..cz they were playing wif e showers la..den i cannot get wet ytr ;p..hmm den after that i went bac to bbq e mashmallow..den cindy coach asked why m i so dry..den i was like erm..i cannot be wet today..coz i dunno how to swim..den hmm woman's prob..den she was like prove to mi la..i diaoz..den emily (mah) was also diaoz la..cz she jus beside us..den after that went to "fetch" buddy wif mei..den went bac..after that dunno who jiu tell mi shi hui looking for mi..den she told mi lqjl bei throw into e water..veri ke lian..haha as expected..den after that i decided to treat my mortal well..so yayun say she will help mi..n i shall help her..so she help mi give yu hao..n i help her give cindy coach..but keep on cannot find cindy coach la..den they say she ran far far away le..cz she was afraid to be thrown in again..

so finally she is bac..den i jus passed it to her ;p den after that i decided to help moi treat her mortal well too..so i gave honeydew sago to fion n lqjl..but fion din noe that i gave it to her la..den i gave it to lqjl..haha she gave mi e blur + dun tell mi u r my angel look ;p haha den i also gave van..den she was like..omg so many ppl treat mi well..dun confuse mi leh..haha van realli funny la ;p shou bu liao ;p..

den after that we start to guess le..hmm we line up in 2 rows den start to guess..those guess wrong de mus be drawn by charcoal la..so haha bingo..i guessed both my angels correct ! they were jia hui n nut..haha cz jia hui keep on ask mi u wan to eat this..u wan to eat that not..den nut ne..its kinda of instinct la..haha den after that those who guessed cindy coach bei draw until veri cham la ;p haha den yu hao keep on nv guess dao that i m her angel la..haha ;p den hmm lqjl guessed that i m her angel..so i m to draw..but i drew a bit onli la..cz i tink its pain..den she was like..like this onli ah..den those that guessed mi..i all draw a bit la..den hui also guessed mi..but i could not find a charcoal..so din drew her la..den after that when she was drawing sum1..she looked at mi n say..u nv draw mi leh..den she yue say yue soft..haha den after that yu hao still din guess dao is mi la..den haha sh ish lucky tor..she gotta a nice angel ;p jkjk..at least she gotta e angel that i wished for..haha but nbm nbm la..fate..i haf nice angels too ;p den lqjl also nv guess dao..cz moi was nt there ma..den i keep on raise my hand..den onli left a few of us onli..but she still refused to guess mi..so in e end..she was like huh?..so i jiu hint her lo..den she say mei mei ah..den i helped moi give her e present la..den i also helped moi give fion e present..haha den if moi was dere..fion wuld be her angel too..so qiao sia..den hmm did i say ah..when we 1st started guessing..all e xiao de noes their angel..then hui hui n dasiy was like..nt fun de..dun play le la..haha..den e game jiu end le la..but my ke ai n ke lian de mortal still din guess dao is mi..so i jus told her..i m ya angel la..n gave her e gift i prepared for katie..ooo..if its yu hao i wuld get her sumthing else la..haha nbm..den i passed yun de present to cindy coach..

den allow mi to reverse..go bac to be4 our guessing of angel n mortal..i was hit on e head..top of e head..in e middle summore by a charcoal la..e pt beside us threw over de la..wa strike 4D also not so zun la..kinda of pain..i was on e verge of tears le la..den those beside mi was like u ok ?..den cindy also came n asked be4 she walked over..den i forced out a smile n say ok..thou i realli feel like crying la..not realli cz its v pain..but becoz its kinda of agrh..damm it..sickening idiots who threw it man..i was realli "angry"..den when cindy coach walked over i was like o no..den lqjl also go..den mah (emily) also go..den most of e seniors went la..den i was praying in my heart..dun dun fight..dun quarrel..coz those ppl who threw it are like ah bengs la..i dun wan any1 injured la..so jus walked away..but ah..damm those sickening ppl..dun they haf better things to do..den i heard from sh..that they threw an uncooked chicken wing over be4 also..haiz..these ppl realli is wu liao man..

haha ok..hmm den wad else..haha forward again ah..haha so after e angel n mortal guessing thing..i was standing by e pit n shelter..den lqjl was suddenly by my side..den she gave mi a little bear bear plastic bag..haha den she say give u de..haha..that split moment it jus reminds mi of xiao yong..i mean it was e same kinda of expression when she gave mi xiao yong..hee wif 2 hands..den haha..e same kind of expression jiu dui le..haha den i say thanks thanks..den she walked away la..den i jus kept it in my pouch..while i kept all e presents in e plastic bag ;p haha jkjk..den every1 was giving out present..jas gave a socks wif loads of sweets..den buddy gave a nice nice de hand-made thingy..hee..den after that i jiu took out my lollipop n gave it to those u16 de who are ard..den gave big cheryl n van too..den van was like..wahaha i nd this for my nite..haha i wanted to give her all 5 that i left wif de la..cz she helped mi n i wanted to buy her a present de..but no time..n money la..but cz no other flavours..so she onli took 2 ;p hee..after that i went bac n took e present that i prepared for lqjl..n gave it to her..den haha alright..i also forget le..shuld be she said thank you ?..haha nbm nbm..forget le..den after that cindy coach say wan take photo..so every1 was like getting ready..den while they were getting ready..van jiu shout papa mama sit..referring to coach n his wife la..den lqjl looked at e msg i wrote for her la ;p hee..kinda of ps..den we took pic le..agnes helped us de..but she nv say 1 2 3..den cindy coach was like can say 1 2 3 ma..den hui hui was like she nv tok de..haha if i not wrong la..den i tink its kind of funny..den after that sh asked lqjl to open e present..saying that its zhen chang ping..but phew lucky lqjl say she go bac den open..or else i will paiseh de..haha..so after e photo session..every1 was like leaving le..so we sat ard a while den left for wen de hse also la..

den while i try to get myself onto that little bike..those seniors were laughing la..or rather cindy coach n lqjl ba..cz haha..i tink its funny too..or rather stupid..but nbm ;p so after that we cycled bac wen's hse..sh went to bathe while i unwrapped my presents..den after that i bathe le..went to watch movie..inital D..n i jus fell asleep la..den moi called..den after that bac to e show n bac to slp..n i caught a cold..den finally slept till today morning la..

=christmas eve=
den woke up..eat this n that..watched tv wif wen..toked abt s'pore maybe facing tsunami in a few yr's time..*choi*..den haf e lan diao de carrot cake den rushed home in a cab..den after that unpacked my stuffs..showed mummy my christmas prezzie that i got ytr..den rushed bac to wen de hse..haha i was slping like a log on e bus..o mian i realli tired..den after that received a call from fungi..e voice from e other end of e line is chirpy n nice..its like i can sense a smile on e speaker's face while she is toking to mi..haha suddenly remind mi of a e-mail that i once received..hee..anyway i reached wen hse le..den fungi n jing was playing wif e jigsaw..while i jus sat there..kinda of weird..haha but it was not awakard la..den wen de mummy keep ask if we wan to eat this n that ma..den we had curry..but e rice was not cooked yet..so we decided to play board game !!! haha we decided on monopoly..haha n its a right choice !..haha so after we eat..we went to play monopoly..haha den e 1st few rounds de time..jing was moving at a super slow speed la..den after that..i keep on wanna buy this n that la..so i was e poorest one there..den wen came bac (she went to buy our prezzie ;p)..den she was like diao ! u all no life leh..play monopoly..but haha who cares..we were hafing fun..den after wen bathe we went to ecp to cycle..den we cycled to bedok jetty..haha due to my speed..they veri funny..i mean they keep on turn back to find where m i ;p haha den hmm it was my 1st time at bedok jetty after being at ecp so many times..haha jkjk..den we watch e sunset dere..den tried to take pics wif my hp..haha kinda of hmm fun..i loved taking pic esp wif forever5..n i tink its becoz of em that i love taking pic..cz everytime we take a pic..its like capturing a moment down for our memory lane..den whenever i looked at those pics..i jus feel veri happy n glad..haha..den after that we jiu went to cycle round..den i managed to go down e slope wif their encouragement..haha e slope that i came of e bike n pushed it down ytr ;p..den after that jing n fungi were infront..so i rode wif wen n tok a bit la..toked abt us last time..den roller bladding..den each one's fear..n i m realli glad i haf em wif mi..hee den wen tell mi every1 haf their own fears..haha den tok abt when we were young..so innocent n stuffs..den went to return e bike..

after we returned e bike..we wanted to walk e pain pain de stones to help circulate our blood..den we walked past a super muddy field ! yucks tor ! den there was a black cat la..so i jumped onto e bench..den jing n wen also joined mi..that stupid cat ! haha jkjk..so in e end..we din walk e stone la..den went bac to wen hse..every1 took a shower n we started eating steam boat from ard 9 to 11 plus..o mian..we r such big eaters sia..but i tink i not e best tonite ;p jkjk..den jing keep on help mi take food..felt so xing fu la..cz always e other way round de..but tonite ish jing help mi this n that..haha den after that jing n mi became prawn peeling machine ;p we peeled e prawn den e oldest n youngest de eat la..haah so many prawn la..but i enjoyed it la ;p den after that we finally eat finish le..den jing left wif her auntie 1st..while we help to clear up..den after that we played monopoly again !..haha wen took over jing..den wen stepped on fungi de hse n knight..den e whole knight became squashed ;p haha super gao xiao la..den we played till fungi bankrupt ;p haha den jing is e big winner la..she is so rich..haha mus be wen la..stepped on fungi de knight..den take over jing n be e big winner ;p..haha jkjk..lucky i wasn't poor la ;p
so we changed n play dai dee while we count down..haha den played till 0030 den came home wif fungi in a cab wif fungi de dad..hee

hao la..that ends my day..haha..n here i m bac home ! hee n yah..i mus thank ye siew ! hee a siao..thanks for e braclet n e letter ;p hee..den as i say its realli a unexpected christmas..daddy bought mi a ball n drew a smiley on it..haha kinda of cute..n he bought mi a snoopy too ;p haha that piggy daddy ah..haha n today i received unexpectly quite a lot of sms..which usually i dun..or rather chirstmas in e pass wasn't filled wif em..haha den i received unexpected msgs also la..haha hmm as for my christmas prezzie..i realli loved em man..haha thanks for e prezzie..thank you daddy..cindy coach..lqjl..jing..fungi..nut..jia hui..si hui..jas..ye siew..haha n thank u thank u !

hao de..end here le..its realli an unexpected christmas eve..i enjoyed it..n i m realli tired le..so shall end here le ! take gd care every1 !..byee..n merry christmas ! may santa papa grant all ya wishes =D

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.glad.][

][.tired mind wanna go on.][

][.tired mind wanna go on.][

today my mind is exhausted..
theres lots of things running thru my mind today..

was late for trng today..
shugs..all that 36's fault..
stuck at e airport for sooo long..

anyway trng was kinda of fun ;p..
den went to bathe n eat n went sbc..
got all e gears n stuffs..

den rushed home to put e stuffs..
den rushed out for dinner wif combine sch..
o mian..we ate lots at fish n co la ;p
haha full full..

hao la..kinda of tired..
end here le..
byee..
take care every1 !

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.santa papa.wuld u jus grant mi sum wishes.][
][.13.is this fate?.][

][.love em so.

][.love em so.][

today is a nt bad day..
compared to ytr..

thanks to a siao de words..
"dun test the presences of things by losing it"..
after those words..
i feel that i realli shuld not jus leave things as it is..
i mus do sumthing..

went to sch in e morning for meeting..
came home..
saw wad a siao left at my taggy..
had a sudden urge to call em..

n that spark my better day..
went to collect my 1st pathetic yet hardwork pay..which is $11.65..
den went kimage to haf a hair cut..

on e way received an unexpected msg..
i dunno how to say..
but i jus wish that moi was ard to give mi sum advice..
but that woman is in thai now..
haiz..

nbm..so i went kimage n saw wen n fungi !
haha kinda of happy..coz its since prom nite since i saw em..
finally had my hair cut..
den went to 7-11 n bought a bball straw..
n den went to buy xxl chicken..
den heard from em that jing is working now..
ha..shall go visit her sum day..

den went to see e guy who wanna break e guiness world record for staying in e tank for more than 212 +++ hrs..
den TM..
n i saw sumthing which i realli liked..
n i "forced" em to buy wif mi..coz its 3 for $10..
n 1 for $3.90..
bought it for memories..

den home i came..
came back home for dinner..
had steam-boat today..
nan de daddy is free for dinner wif us..
kinda of fun..

den had ice-cream wif em..
n watched tv..

ah..n now i m here blogging..blogging my blessed day..hafing ya love ones by ya side is a blessed moment..treasure it..cherish it..
i do cherish u..
my family..
my forever5..
my friends..
my idols..

hao la..end here le every1..take gd care..byee..coz i do cherish u =D..n my christmas eve is for forever5 !..haha shall not break this promise..n i will not..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.lost for words.][
][.santa papa.wuld u bless all my love ones.][

][.in life.theres no forever.][.sorry my family.my friend.][

][.in life.theres no forever.theres onli now.][.sorry my family.my friend.][

jus moments ago..
i was crying like a little kid..
realli..
been so long since i does this..

was realli down..
coz of sumthings..
i felt like a fool..

my life is packed wif obligations..
i haf no time for my family..my friends..
so mummy jus scolded mi that i m like a fool..

why dun i noe how to reject my friends..
why is it so..
i dunno..

den she questioned mi..
where r they when i nd them e most..
again i was dumbfounded..
cz..i haf no idea where they are..

i tot of sum events..
sum impt events of my life..
i tot of these friends..
n onli sum appeared..

i hold back my tears as i tried to convience my mummy that they are always there..
when i haf no idea where they are..

kinda of lost..
kinda of sad..

den i tink again..
it isn't their fault..
maybe its mine..

once and again..
they tried to arrange a time to go out..
but once n again..
i failed..
i haf gotta things on..
but i will try to meet em later..
i promise..

but i tink they are sick of this le ba..
tell mi santa papa..tell mi wad shuld i do..
i wan a life of my own..
i wan time wif my family..
i wan time wif my friends..

but once again..
we r living in a world of reality..
we nd money no matter where we go..
without money we wun survive..

and every outing..
every gathering..
everytime we wanna meet..
we need money..
n the fact is..
i m broke now..
realli broke..
who noes..who cares..

i m starting to get angry..
to get sad..
i jus wan a simple life..
jus a simple one..
with enff to get by..
with enff time for every1..
n of coz sum for myself..

haiz..

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ok..all these abv are jus small prob..i guess in e end..nothing is sadder than losing ya love ones..so cherish em when u can..dun onli regret after losing em..
-jus wanna apologise to my family for spending all my time outside wif my friends n trngs..
-wanna apologise to forever5 for not being able to spend time wif em..
-wanna apologise to all my friends..

wadever it is..pls dun be angry n hate sum1..coz u nv noe when u will die..or when will that person die..life is fragile..treasure it..if i made u angry or disappointed..i m sorry !..

shall end here..kinda of tired..tml is another long day..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.tired.][

][.wu gui.][

][.wu gui.][

hey bloggy..i discover sumthing..i haf been blogging lesser nowadays as compared to e past..i mean e "past"..i remembered i enjoyed blogging..i was blogging so much during e prelims n even during e Os..i can't help but cum online..but nowadays..haha..i seem to be able to not cum online for a few days..n i tink its ok ;p

haha ps..i m sorta crapping..hmm bloggy..maybe this is wad is known as habit ba..sumtimes..sumthings in life..its a kind of habit..n when u dun do it..u will feel kinda of lost..but once u stop doing it for sumtimes..u will think that its perfectly fine ba..haha i tink so..or rather..u will hypnotize yaself that..u can replace it wif other things ba..haha i dunno..i realli dunno wad i toking..haha maybe sumthings in life can be taken over n forgotten..while sum others can't..hmm for now..theres sumthing that i hope that can be taken over..but not forgotten..

haha hao la..enff of crapping ;p..shall tok abt today n ytr..o mian..ytr was a sad day..i mean..kinda of blue day..alj lost by 4..hmm they din play as well la..but still haiz..felt sad for em of coz..den wad else..i lost my wu gui that is named wu gui !..agrh..its been a long time since i lost sumthing le..n i realli mean sumthing..i remembered i last lost my wallet when i was in p2..it was a hello kitty wallet wif $5..i lost it in my old pri sch..since then..i make sure that i check that i left nothing behind..so ytr was realli a bad day..i discovered e lost of wu gui be e friendly of vj vs sp..haiz..sad..wonder where is wu gui now..which corner of s'pore it is at..did it find a gd owner..haiz..ok..i noe its kinda of lame..i can always get another "same" one..but it will nv be e "same"..hmm i shall always remember abt this wu gui..which went wif mi to hk..which took pic wif xinying's tortise..which wuld bring a smile to my heart whenever i looked at it..

hao la..thats e sad day ytr..today is a super slacking day..i woke up ard 10plus..den helped c'mei aka ah mei wif her mp3..haha she nxt yr jiu p6 le..time kinda of past veri fast sia..den watch tv..hang clothes..eat lunch..slp..den wake up..watch tv again..den dinner..den tv again ! haha practically wasted my whole day slacking away..n i jus wrote down my "schedule" for nxt wk..o m g..its packed..n i realli mean it..its like everyday i got things on..n its not 1..its always 2 n abv..agrh..shugs shugs..no rest time..haiz..i wan time to spend wif my friends..forever5..but i dun haf any left..a siao jus called mi..n asked if i can make it tml instead of tues ma..but i told her only evening can..den tues also onli late afternoon can..den she say..she will call fungi le..zai call mi..haiz..but till now haven call..i tink fungi mus be feeling sianz ba..n dun wan care mi le la..haiz..i m sorry also..but theres jus sum obligations..n sum that i realli enjoyed..

haha..hao la..lets forget abt that "schedule"..i believe every1 is busy too..hmm lets tok abt a gd show that i watched today ba..its called "yuan wang shu"..if i not wrong..e eng name is final romance..hmm got edison..n a gal..whose name in e show is jean..haha e show is kinda of cliche..but i loved it..i m a cliche person mar ;p haha jkjk..anyway its abt ed n this gal de love story la..how they met in jap due to their dead sis n bro who were once lovers..den ed n this gal..is at jap to help em fulfil their final wish..den as expected ed n this gal fell in love..but this gal actually gotta fiance le..i felt sad for em sia..i mean ed n this gal..but when i saw e fiance..haha i feel neutral..but still sad la..coz e guy starring as e fiance ish "chris"..haha i dunno his real name..but he is e actor that i liked..hee coz chris_anson..haha i guess sum will understand wad i toking abt ba..anyway e ending is expected..ed is together wif that gal..happy ending..but sad sweet n touching process..haha i hope life is always like this too..happy ending for all..anyway theres this thingy that ed kept say in e show..n i tink its meaningful..its "as long as u haf a target..u wun feel afraid.."

hee hao la..today bloggy is quite long le..shall end here le..gd nite bloggy..take care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.pypy.][

][.hong kong trip.+.home sweet home.][

][.hong kong trip. + home sweet home.][

haha hey bloggy ! time to update update u le..be4 u become lazy ;p..hee i m back from hk..n home sweet home..i miss my home..haha jkjk..i wanna blog abt hk de..but if i blog..its gonna be veri long n its realli veri long..so i decided le..i shall jus post some pics..since ppl say..a pic = a 1000 words.. hee jus laming..but enjoy e pics la..i enjoyed e trip..=D

us be4 setting off !
4 of us at e 1st dinner !
cancan dance !
us at victoria hai gang (at nite)




us at disneyland !
mi n chu at tarzan hse ;p

moi n mi..at e dunno where also..but theres a temple there..which i went to pray ;p


sheryl n mi at e dunno where ;p

qing ma da qiao !
me wif tigger n pooh ! ;p




haha hao de..i end here le..still gotta lots of pics to post..but i wanna watch e classic now..hee shall post again..be ready for my nxt update on hk la..it will be more interesting ;p i hope..hee take care for now..byee !!!

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.i m still afraid of waiting.][

][.i will miss bloster.][

][.i will miss bloster.][

y0z bloggy..i haf jus finished packing for my trip..hmm at least i tink i haf finished packing la..tml morning asked mummy help mi check again..hee now i m charging my mp3..my hp..n my cam batt..wahaha heaven noes how many times m i charging it le la..cz mus ensure full batt to last mi 5 days 4 nites ;p..

haha hmm bloggy..actually today is quite a bad day..everything went wrong..feeling agrh..till i packed my luggage once again..den tell myself i m going away for a break le..yeah..
why today is a sucky day ?..
1) early in e morning..on e way to trng..received mummy de call to ask mi rush home coz daddy met wif a accident again..its e 2nd time of this yr le..suckz man..but on e way le..so i told her i will rush home after gym..gym was ok today..rushed home after gym..daddy injured his leg n hands..n cgh de doc suckz sia..he is like so in pain la..n onli given 1 day de mc..wad is this man..he cannot even walk on himself now la ;p eee hospital man..den hmm i wanna thank e BMW auntie..thou i realli haf no idea who is she..but its her who send daddy bac home..n e uncle who helped daddy pushed his bike to aside..thou i dunno who they are..but i m realli grateful to em..thanks for ya help !..den i realli hope its "da nan bu shi..bi you hou fu"..i pray that daddy after this will be safe n sound n healthy n fortunate n all e gd things cum his way la..n of cz mummy !..hee n every1 i love..
so after i rushed home from gym..wanted to go work de..but cannot la..no mood..so i started trying to change my blogskin..n this is a real nice blogskin that i wanted..but e pic is not able to be seen la..so hmm i spent my whole afternoon trying to improve e blogskin..but after that i tink not veri nice too..so jiu changed back to this..hee

2)city harvest 3on3..haha its a long story..anyway i mus realli thank jen for her help today ! thanks lots jen..",)..as for e story..i lazy to say la ;p hee..hope everything will be fine..nut can make it de la =D..

hee so practically my mood was rather sucky this whole day due to this 2 things..n felt super down la..thanks to buddy who talked to mi..n moi la..den felt better..haha den jus now jiu watch n watch tv..den jus packed finish my things..n hmm still cannot slp yet..coz i jus bathe..n my hair is wet..so going to cut my nails etc..hee n hmm..i m gonna miss my bloster..but cannot bring it to hk la..they will laugh at mi de n mummy will say siao ah..o mian..sayang sayang my bloster..gonna sayang it lots tonite ;p hee..hao la..end my bloggy here today..tml still nd to wakey early..bring didi to wu shu..den buy sweets ;p den set off =D..take gd care every1 ! byee..

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hey bloggy..today is a long day..started work in e morning..den go meet moi..went to develope photo..eat yoshinoya..den went vj..watched e guys vs mj onli..no trng..coz it was too hot..

den went to sbc watch match..haha lots happen..i mean sumtimes little things can mean lots..hee so..i shall jus write it down as summary..
1) "ae..who's this..oh..hahahaha"
2) wu gui
haha hao la..like this summary jiu enff le..i hope i will rmb when i look back at this bloggy la..

n yah..i mus declare that i hate dogs more than cats..cz today as i go work..e cats will go to hide as they see me..but e dogs bark like crazy..sickening !!!..haha i hate em sia..hai shi tortise zui hao ! haha love tortise..wu gui..wu gui..

haha hao la..go le..take care !!! tml still nd go gym..den work..den go home n sat go hk !!! wahaha wahaha..looking forward to sat..byee..

..a journey alone is long n lonely..
..a journey wif a gd companion is short n sweet..
..a journey wif a bad companion is long n torturing..

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][.would it happen?.][

][.friends forever.thats wad we shall be =D.][

][.friends forever.thats wad we shall be =D.][

haha y0z bloggy..today is a nice day..hmm morning wakey for meeting at 10..almost late..but lucky i m not ;p haha or else need to pay fine sia ;p.. jkjk..

meeting ended ard 12 ba..quite early de..den went stadium watch e guys train..received mei de call..den went to meet mei at TM and went for lunch at short mary gold..be4 brought mei back to sch to watch ahs b'gals vs rgs..hmm jiang sen asked mi to be refree..but i tink i suckz as one..haha nbm anyway..sorry to juniors if u ever cum my blog..for all e fouls that i nv blow..haha den after that rushed home..din acc mei bac to tampines to change bus..

haha den met fnq ard evening time..hee went for my 1st job "interview"..wahaha..quite funny de..coz he is not feeling well..haha too bad i haf no sweets ;p..den took bus to there..e person veri funny..by e way..she is called mdm foo..den haha..after that fnq wanted to walk bac to bus interchange instead of taking bus..coz his ez link card n he is not feeling well..haha hmm..its kinda of memorable..we were chatting n chatting..none stop de..kinda nice feeling..coz so long nv meet up wif pri sch friend le..i tink apart from forever5 n a siao..no more pri sch friend in contact le ba..haha i will rmb this day..haha hao la..tml i shall go "work" be4 i meet moi to develope foto..go vj trng..n sbc watch match la..haha tml is gonna be a busy day..but i hope its gonna be a busy n nice day la ;p buddha bless my day ba..thanks !

hao la..end here le..sorta lots of things to settle..take gd care every1 !..byee..

..i will always keep our memories in my memory bank..
..friends forever..
..thats wad we shall be =D..

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haha y0z bloggy..today went back to ahs to play n train a bit..haha hmm quite nice de feeling ba..talking to coach n stuff..n theres this nxt yr sec1 gal..which we call her zheng fang no2..wahaha i promised myself to work hard le..coz i dun wanna lose to her..haha nah nah..n i realli dun like playing wif big sized n rough ppl..haha but i cannot deny that she will be a gd player in e future ba ;p anyway i tink she will bu shuang mi also..but nbm la..not going to see her anyway ;p

hmm den went to get luggage from god daddy..den i promise myself man..i mus take gd care of my own daddy n mummy..n god daddy n mummy as well as da gu..these ppl realli done lots for mi sia..hee *touched*..

haha den hmm kinda late le now..tml still gotta meeting..agrh sianz..i mean i tink i m not suited to be a leader kinda of thingy..haha..anyway i plan hao le..tml after meeting jiu go find mei..haha den cum home..watch tv..den slp..den haf a busy day for thurs..den fri train gym..den yeah sat i m off to hk !!! wahaha wahaha..i wanna sit by e window on e plane esp on e return trip =D i wanna see e stars !!! haha..

hao le..end here le..take gd care every1 !..byee..

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haiyo..bloggy..i realli dun like to make decisions sia..hate it hate it..nowadays theres no big big choices to be made la..but still so many choices in life..hate it ;p

anyway enff of crapping..hmm i jus can't wait to go hk..dun ask mi why la..i also dunno..today went to see vj off to thai..den after that went to watch prime wif sh..erm..its not realli worth e $7 la ;p..haha coz when it finally reached e touching part..its e end le..its like ya tears wanna cum out le..den it jus go back la..haha n e morale of e story ? = jie , di lian wun haf any ending ;p haha..at least thats what i get after i watch e movie la..

den went for vj trng .. was late.. den hmm trng was ok ;p haha or rather veri slack la..did some drills..den played 3 on 3..haha den back home le..watched lots of tv..den hmm soon my hols gonna be over..so fast sia..sianz sianz sianz..

haha hao la..stop here le bloggy..anyway fungi jus sent mi "hao ai ta..hao xiang ta"..haha quite a nice song la =D..hee take care every1 ! tml going back ahs to train for our hk trip..looking forward to it ;p byee..

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today is a rather not gd day..haha dunno la..i can't say its not gd too..but its jus sorta of sumthing is wrong..

feeling veri guilt stricken now..wanna say sorry to sum1..but its gonna be so stupid if i do so..so all i can do is chanting n repeating to myself once n again in my heart..i m sorry..sorry..sorry..i tink i might go crazy tonite if i cont doing so..

anyway sad-ed..today alj trng..dunno bei cindy coach scold how many times la..its like i can lose count of e time of being scolded by her le la..so its like a lot..i dunno..but sorta of affected..its not realli scold la..but..aiya dunno how to say la..den we played 5 on 5..1st time ever in e same team as lqjl..haiz..i tink i screwed it man..i din get e rebounds..i din help lqjl as e 2nd center..its like..she is e onli center doing everything..n i m jus dere doing nothing..agrh beat mi man..i dunno wads freaking wrong wif mi..i din noe wad to do..or rather i din do my part as e other center ba..like wad cindy coach said..

aiya i dunno la..jus noe i m veri sorry n disappointed once again by myself la..haiz..sorry lqjl..sorry..

den hmm as i always say..theres things to be sad..theres things to be happy..mi n moi ok le la ;p we were so lame while in e cab..trying to find ways to tok to hui2 ;p haha i tink she bei us lame si le..nbm nbm..den wad else..haha stars award !!! haha chris n fann finally cum so clean n obvious le la =D happy for em ;p haha..n yah..fnq say he will help mi find job..haha xie le :p

hmm hao la..shall end here le..can't wait to go hk..its 6-7 more days ;p take care every1 ! byee..

sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry
jus how much i wish i could tell u..i m sorry..realli sorry..

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morning bloggy..i woke up quite late today morning ba..which is like jus woke up..haha i tink sleeping can help mi "escape" from lots of thinkings ba..

anyway..i m here to blog abt ytr..cz ytr realli no mood to blog..ytr had 2 trng..guo shao n alj..at guo shao..learnt a bit regarding defences..den ytr alj trng was e most slacked trng ever man..i mean realli..we had 9 ppl onli..so i told cindy coach abt e shooting style thingy..den she realli gave mi personal training la..haha sorta of fun..i jus focus on shooting n she run ard picking e ball ;p..did ard 200 ++ shots ?..realli veri fun..den after that i joined em in doing e 1 on 1 thingy..den we pick our angel n mortal thingy be4 we play 4 on 4..n coach need to go coach p3 n p5 de ppl..so we were left on our own playing la..wow..it was fun..i mean..alj trng had nv been so lac de la..

it had been a fun day till we nd to decide on e 3 on 3 city harvest thingy..its decided le la..but den i din feel at ease..so i told moi abt it..n she seems angry..i mean i tink she is angry la..wadever..din reply to my msg anyway..nbm..so chatted wif fungi at nite..haha not veri long la..but we lame our way thur..quite fun..at least it allowed mi to be relieve for a moment or so..

haha feeling rather hmmm now de..i guess today de mood isn't gonna be veri nice ba..but i shall try to keep my mood la..breathe in breathe out..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

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hey bloggy..today's mood status : not bad =D..haha anyway today is a long day..started wif vj vs rj de match..den alj trng..today's bloggy gonna be quite long..coz..these few days i haf been thinking a lot..den haha mus tell sh..u realli noe how i feel ;p (being a center who can shoot from everywhere ;p)..thanks ",)

anyway lets start wif vj vs rj de match ba..hmm i tink vj won by 6 ?..anyway..i tink it wasn't a v gd game ba..e seniors are nice..i mean they are realli nice ppl..but sumhow..we lack a factor that can assure mi that we will win e champs..haha maybe i shuld stop comparing ahs.bgals'05 wif every other teams le la..but i realli hope that vj can cont to jia u and win e champs nxt yr..coz since being in ahs..i m sorta immune wif not losing..i dun wan to lose..n my team mates too..(i believe thats how every1 feel ba)..there's this "concept" in mi now.."If I wanna do..i make sure i do it to e fullest n achieve e best results..if not..i rather not do.."..anyway vj jia u ba..i dun wan to lose..so do u all rite..jia u jia u !

den hmm alj trng..be4 that took 153 wif moi to kovan..den ate kfc..saw a few rj peeps..den slacked a while at kfc be4 i drag moi to go walk walk ard kovan..coz i nv shop in kovan be4 la..i mean e mall..den we saw a neoprint shop n went to take neoprint..haha xin xue lai chao la ;p..den after that we walked to e court..den today's trng is at e top that court..den hmm quite slack de..not veri tiring la..but still tired ;p (wad e toots i talking ?)..nbm..anyway it was quite fun la..n today i mus say that..2 person that i m most afraid of..make mi not afraid of em anymore today..they are : amelia n hui hui ;p haha dun ask mi why..but after today i not afraid abt them le la..i noe its freaking lame to be afraid of them in e 1st place..but haha ignore mi..ok next..anyway trng ended ard 10:30 pm?..den i jus reached home ard a hr ago..which ish 11:30pm..tml gotta meeting summore..haha sumhow wanna go trng rather than meeting..

haha hao la..thats abt my day ba..now let mi proceed to wad i haf been thinking for e past few days..
its a matter of trust..
for eg. in e toilet today..i told van that u can trust sheryl..n i realli mean it..i trust my team mates in ahs..in alj..esp in ahs la..coz of e yrs we played together..i noe wad they can do..i noe they will do it..n i realli trust em..
n in a game..it isn't abt team mates trusting each other..its also abt coach trusting a player..thats my personal opinion..dun mind ;p
thats sumthing that i find saddening nowadays ba..its like..onli a few coach trust mi..at least they make mi feel that they trust mi..they r my coaches in ahs..n cindy coach..
although my coaches in ahs veri fierce at times..n will "scold" n "nag" abt my jiao bu..coz i m a slow learner n i take yrs to learn sumthing..but depsite e scoldings..they trust mi..they noe wad i can do..they trust mi to guard a center much bigger than mi..they believe in wad i can do..at least they make mi feel that they do give mi e trust..even if its onli a little at times..

cindy coach also..she teaches mi new stuffs..she is currently training mi on my shootings n zuan sheng during xiao dui trng..thats why i told myself..i mus go for xiao dui trng no matter how tired i m after guo shao trng..coz i need to polish up my veri basics things..shooting style..post out..zuan shen..dribbling..although i m a "senior" there..but i tink my skills is way below them la..n cindy coach does trust mi..i dunno la..but thats how i feel..from e words she said..etc..

n i m realli grateful to these 3 coaches who trusted mi..maybe i like this say a bit inappropriate..but i mus still say.."as long as u trust mi..i wun disappoint u.." so thought a lot these few days n e reason of mi being so disappointed n sad is regarding u18 team..i dun tink i will get into e squad ba..but i realli wanna..its my dream ?..haha i dunno..but i sumhow haf a hunch that i wun..n i guess its gonna be super disappointing ba..i m afraid i can't go thru that once again..anyway since last sat match..i thought a lot abt e team..shuang fong is a gd coach..but she dun trust mi ba..i noe trust ish need to earn de..not say trust jiu trust..but pardon mi..i m realli veri disappointed for not getting e trust ba..in there..i dunno wad position i play..is it center or forward..i remembered during one trng..shuang fong asked mi n sh to train wif the forwards..but during e games i sort of play center..so can u tell mi..wad e toots position m i playing ??? i m realli veri confused n vexed n of coz veri sad..i wun get into e squad as a forward..coz there are already so many outstandings forwards n pg le..n i nv dream like being like any1 of em..coz i wanna be a gd center..but theres gwen..zheng fang n rachel there as center too..tell mi then..how m i going to get in e squad wif so many gd centers too..its not that i dun trust myself..i trust myself..i believe that i ain't that bad..but does coach believe my ability to play center..i m not as tall as rachel n gwen..i m not as strong as gwen n zheng fang..but theres definitely sumthing that i can do but i dun tink coach believes in mi ba..realli veri sad after sat..tell mi man..wads e pt of training so hard..risking my o levels to go for trngs..while others take a long break of trngs ?..i realli dunno..its a veri sad feeling..its like your hardwork never pays off kinda of things..realli veri demoralised..i always believed hard work will pay off..but after that day..i dun believe as strongly as i do like be4..

i m realli sorry if u dun agree wif wad i say..but thats realli how i feel these few days..like wad my ahs coaches told mi be4..i haf no talent for bball..thats why i need to compensate e talent that i lack wif my hard work..but in e end..it seems like no1 will bother abt my hardwork..they onli bother abt players who can play best..this is quite saddening ba..now again..i m training wif this packed schedule coz..i dun wanna give up..i still 50% believe hardwork will pay off..if this coach dun trust mi..there must be another coach who do..n i m going to try to earn e trust of coaches who dun trust mi..

hao la..shall end here le..paiseh for this long blog..jus feel like expressing how i m feeling nowadays..n sorry if u dun agree wif mi..take gd care every1 ! haha i m feeling quite ok now la..wun give up bball de..coz of my idols..coz for myself..byee..

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