][.wo xiang zhi wo cui mian.][

][.wo xiang zhi wo cui mian.][

today..i slacked my whole day away..
woke up ard 12..coz ytr slept quite late..due to prom..
watched tv e whole day..n i realli mean e whole day..
ate lots..
sorta moodless..
sorta lost..
sorta sad..

heard be4 rubbing salt on e wound ?..
feeling so "pain" now..
rather sad today..coz everything seems to be drifting apart..
tune radio to 933 n listened to music diary..
den there came this song - > vit C 's graduation (friends forever)..
sad..sadder..saddest..
ytr prom..everything realli ended le ba..
soon every1 gonna embark on a new journey le ba..

followed by vitC's song..there is this 933 programme..
for ppl to express their feelings de..
den today ish a gal wanting to thank her best friend..
den e story veri gan ren..
i was praying that she dun dedicate "Di Yi Shi Jian" to her friend..
but she did..
n when i heard it..
*sobz*..

this is for u all :
time for us to go our seperate ways again..
soon we will embark on a diff journey like wad we did 4 yrs ago..
sad..is all i can say..

drifting apart once again..
this should not be e case..
but it happened anyway..

to u :
u called..i wanted to cont e conversation..
but u hung up be4 i could..
we were once e best buddies..
but we seems to drift apart now..
i noe u still regard mi as a gd frend..
but its no longer like wad u did be4..
we no longer share e bond we once shared..
n u nv noe how it breaks my heart..

to u :
u r a gd friend..
4 yrs ago..we went on our separate ways..
i did not make e effort to maintain our friendship..
sorry..
now we are going on our separate ways again..
wanna wish u all e best..
n jia u..

to u :
everything is drifting apart..
due to our separate ways..
u seems to be e only one that is going on e same way as mi..
i felt lost n wanted to call u..
but u sounded so cold that i can't say a thing..
i hung up after telling u abt wad i shuld..
wanted to confide in u..
but u'r voice showed ya unwillingness to cont e conversation..
i felt disappointed n angry at e same time..
why is it so..

to u :
u r e only one that saw thru mi..
u knew sumthing was wrong wif mi..
but my mummy was beside mi..
so i acted as thou i was ok..
but do u noe how much i wanted to tok to u..
at this veri moment..
i feel like calling u..
feel like crying out to u..
but i dun haf e courage to do so..
i know u wuld acc mi..
but i dunno how to tell u everything..
i dunno how to tell u how i feel..
but thanks..
coz u r e onli 1 that i can sense e care now..

to u all :
how long more can we go..
how long more will it last..
i haf no idea..
maybe wad happened on that fateful day this yr..
had already give mi a sign that..
a sign of wads happening..

bloggy..feeling down now..thanks for letting mi type out wad i feeling now..i tink i m going back to drown myself wif e endless tv shows n slp n wake up for trng tml ba..n e "monotonous" life will go on ba..
tc every1..byee..shall blog abt prom nite when i m more in e mood..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.ying wei wo de xin hao tong.][

][.which route would u choose.][.give up.hang on.][

][.which route would u choose.][
][.give up.hang on.][
][.i chose e 2nd one.][

i wanted to say life is unfair..
but i can't..

i dun tink life is unfair..
but i feel that life can be rather saddening at times..

sumtimes..sumthings..
u may work veri hard..
but ya efforts will jus go into e drains..

suddenly felt this way coz of sum1..
it sets mi thinking abt myself..
we seems to be in e same boat..

e efforts we put in is inversely propotional to e results..
yes..theres sumhow this saying that its not e result..but e process that matters..
i believe in that too..
but after "hearing" wad sum1 had say..
my belief is shaken..

i remembered writting a chi compo..title : "every1 is hao sheng de (wanna win de)"..
in that compo..
i wrote..no1 will ever pay attention to e loser..
once u lose a game..
no1 will bother abt how hard u train..
once u score badly..
who cares how hard u studied..

so tell mi now..
is it e process or result that matters..
no1 will care abt e process if u nv produce e result..

thats jus wad i feel personally..at this moment..
of coz i still believe in e importance of process..
but how many wuld care..
i dunno..

anyway..
i m sorta at lost..
i dunno if i shuld ask "sum1" not to give up ma..
i told sum1 not to give up..
n up till now i m still asking sum1 not to give up..

but now i m thinking..
if i ask sum1 not to give up..
will sum1 be happy..
is it realli wad sum1 wans..

i dunno..
but i m afraid that sum1 will regret upon giving up..
yet i m worried that sum1 haf to go thru e process of disappointment once again..

i realli dunno..
so all i hope now is..
sum1 will be strong..
believe in "yourself" (sum1)..

hmm psps..today's blog is meant for mi to sort out my thoughts..haha ytr was a rather disappointing day for mi too..din go alj da dui trng today..went for a normal sun break n prepare for tml..den luckily it ended wif sumthing nice..i felt encouraged once again..
so now..how shuld i encourage sum1 ne..so that sum1 will feel encouraged n not demoralised..like how i felt for a moment ytr..

jia u sum1 ! i believe if u read this blog..u will noe i m refering to u..but i doubt u will cum here ;p so jus wanna tell u..i will always be here for u,my friend =D..

hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..gotta go slp le..tml gonna be a long day..

..i was demoralised..disappointed..
..but once again..
.."encouraged" by u..
..thank you..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.thank you.][

][.mvp qing ren.][

][.mvp qing ren.][

yeah ! today's bloggy ish dedicated to mvp qing ren ! but haha of coz there will be other things here n there la..hee

firstly..today i din go vj de trng..cannot take it le la..so slept like a pig n woke up ard 10 plus..n jiu started watching mvp qing ren till now ! haha n i finally finish watching le..chao(super) shiok de..if i got e time..i m sure i will stay at home n watch all e vcds i wan..jus 3 days jiu ok le..instead of one wk..coz i finished half e vol. today..haha anyway i love it man..i love e show..

haha i think mvp qing ren veri gan ren (touching)..i din thought that it was so touching when i watched it on tv 2 yrs ago..anyway i saw e way they work hard..they play e matches..i jiu tink of ahs..n while i watch e last disc..their finals..i jiu realli hope to get e video that amelia's mother had taken during our finals n see our game..i miss playing wif em..

hee then their love stories part also super funny..xiao xi..cheng feng n tai zi..haiyo 3 of em ah..a while this one sacrifice for that..a while that one sacrifice for that one..haha see le veri touching but funny also la ;p hee..den gao xing n barbie also veri funny..den haha of coz iceman ish shuai ! hee..i veri lazy to go on n on le..but i like e show la..n mummy n c mei also addicted to e show wif mi today..hee we are like this disc finish le..quick quick nxt disc ;p haha veri funny..

hmm hao la..enff of mvp qing ren..hmm wad else..haha my arms pain sia..mus be strained ;p den tml going trngs..haha wish mi gd luck..lucky sun take "off" le..coz scared mon cannot walk properly..haha..o mian..i quite looking forward to mon de prom n 10/12 de..can't wait to go n play n play..haha


`to : most respectable person`

..memories can only be kept..
..sometimes..things only happen for a moment..
..for once..
..it wun happen for a 2nd time..

..now that "its" over..
..everything seems to be back like be4..
..no more sms-es..
..no more encouragment..
..many a times i wanna msg u..

..but i din..
..coz i tink its weird n inappropriate..

..sumtimes jus how much i wish..
..wish that u wuld still encourage mi..
..tell mi jia you..
..wish mi all e best..

..but haha..
..i noe it wun happen..
..but i noe u wuld still encourage mi on court..
..now all i wanna do is to play well..
..to make u proud of mi..

haha..hmm thats jus some laming la..n wanna add on sumthing..e last disc of mvp qing ren that i watched..e last past btw gao xing n duan chengfeng..reminds mi of e pass btw sakuragi n rukawa..haha realli ish chao touching de..hee

hao la..end here le..quite tired de..tc every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.focus.][

][.breaking.tearing.][

][.breaking.tearing.][

haha i had a slacked day today..i onli went for 1 out of 3 trainings..skipped alj trng for my class gathering..n say real de..i realli veri slack during vj trng too..dunno why sia..but my muscles super tensed..its like its gonna tear le la..*choi*..n its like both hands n my thigh de..super pain..den i din wanna go for vj trng tml le..but luisa say jus go n see em train la..n she ish nice..so i can't say no..

haha anyway jus wanna blog down abt ytr n today..

ytr..went to search for prom dress wif forever5..we went to orchad..n we saw many weird things..
1) we saw milk (niu nai)..energy de la..n sun ho..den all those fans there shouting n shouting..haha (this one not counted as weird la)
2)we saw "chun li"..
3)we saw a cleaner auntie wearing a "suit" made from rubbish bags..
4)we saw fa lun gong..n police..
5)we saw a guy wif onli e center portion of his head left..like e gastbi de ad de..
haha thats abt e weird stuffs ba..we din manage to buy our stuffs there..but went to many places..den i suddenly feel that..sum friends will onli stay for a period of time..whereas some will stay longer..sum..forever..haha coz went to sum places that i went wif my "jie" last time..but now already nv contact le..haha so..hmm yah la..short or long..each friendship still haf its own special memories..n i will treasure it la..

haha ok..den we went bac to TM..n we were all tired out le la..went metro..search for wad we wan but din realli found it..haha as u noe..u bring a grp of gals who seldom wear skirts(apart from sch uni) to go search for gown..ish like..erm..haha jing had a hard time..den i called mummy la..den she came down..n we did sum serious choosing of our gowns..haha n i got myself one black n simple one..den fungi de also black de..whereas wen n moi de..diff colour..sumthing close to red ba..
hee..den jiu went to eat wif didi n mummy..whereas they went home la..coz its already like..close to 10 le..so late le la..we spent one whole day searching for 1 gown..haha

den came home jiu tired si le la..den hmm today..morning went to meet mummy n moi to search for moi de stuffs again..den after that went trng..we were late..haha anyway e ball trng ok la..but my thigh veri strain..cannot take it le la ;p..den after trng jiu went zheng hui's hse..played dai dee..eat pizza..play truth or dare..den now home sweet home..haha n i m so dark once again..sun block ish useless for mi..:p

now i calling moi..wanna ask her things..but she nv ans !!! agrh i bet she ish slping la..wakey moi !!! haha hao la..end here le..quite tired de..although i din went alj trng today..hee anyway i tink i veri slack sia..not going trng on sun..moi also..cz scared mon we will walk veri er xin if we go trng on sun n tire our legs out ;p haha..quite lame la..but..haha..go le..tctc..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.pain.how.focus.][

][.qian nian lao wu gui is tired.][

][.qian nian lao wu gui is tired.][

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yes tired..thats e word to describe how i m feeling now..hiz bloggy..few days nv blog le..not becoz i nd to study or wadever..but simply becoz..i m soooo tired..freaking tired..haiz..i had told myself..i gotta train this n that..i will work hard..i will not give up..but now all i noe is..i m very tired..n i m realli glad that tml i finally gotta a "day-off"..a day which i dun nd to touch bball..dun nd to train..a day when i can go out n do wad i wan..

past 3 days..+ today jiu 4th day le..for 4 consectutive days..my life surrounds ard e court..training..den bus..den home..den watch a bit vcd (if i still got e energy)..den slp..yah..thats my life after o levels..haha hmm n now..i can't even lift up my hands..n i m walking wif a speed so slow that my mummy call mi a qian nian lao wu gui(tortise)..ytr when i climb e over head bridge..a old ah ma was even faster than mi la..n she was looking at mi..haha probably tinking why this person so young jiu so slow..haha

hmm bloggy i m sorry..jus let mi moan ok..i noe a lot of ppl also like this train..maybe even tougher..but haiz..i m realli tired..i din noe i can be so tired..till today..my muscles realli cannot take it le..or rather my fats cannot take it le..n i gotta a class gathering on thurs..n deres 3 trng on thurs too..haha nice try..wad shuld i do..i tink gotta go vj de ba..but wad abt alj..go vj jiu cannot go xiao dui de..but still can go da dui de..but if go da dui..i jiu dun nd go my class gathering le mar..haiz..i dunno la..i realli dunno..shugs..tml den decide la..

den hmm i very sad now sia..moi dun wan to help mi print my ying mu..if onli i gotta my printer full of ink..i will definitely print my bao bei ying mu de..so cute la..haiz..suan le suan le..i no energy le..wadever will be will be..

n yah..haiz..despite all these trng..i gained 3.5 kg..o m g..thats a lot man..haiz..how m i going to shed these wt off be4 prom la..haiz..n tokin abt prom..when will i haf time to shop for it..tml forever5 going orchad..dun expect mi to go dere buy..coz i dun haf a budget so high..haha..i tink i will onli see em buy ba..den thurs..fri..sat..sun..all gotta trng..tell mi den..when m i free..agrh !!! sickening !!! sickening !!!

i dun mind trng..but i nd time off..i nd to spend time for other things too..why mus there be so many trngs..if its jus 4 or 5 days a wk i still dun mind..actually i din mind 7 days a wk de..but now..i discovered..deres still other things that i nd to do during my hols..eg. go out wif family..wif forever5..wif friends..but where is e time..haiz..give mi more time hao ma..i nd my rest time..

haha now i jus can't wait for dec..to go hk..taiwan..wherever it is..jus let mi go for a break..i seriously nd one..

haha *breathe in*breathe out*..enff of moaning..enff of complaining..i noe thats all craps..in e end..i will jus go trng still rite(i noe myself)..haha n i shall make full use of each to train..to improve..thats all i can do..make e best out of wad i can..n enjoy every moment of it ba..

hao la..end here le..i m so tired le..super tired..byee bloggy..nitey..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][."dead".][

][.life after o levels.][

][.life after o levels.][

y0z bloggy ! haha i m free le free le..realli free until a bit lost le..coz past 2 wks ish like u study..mug..den u slp that pathetic few hrs..n u wake up..go take exam..on e way de time u read n read n read e book..den after that u go in e hall..take exam..cum out..again u take e nxt sub de book n u read n read..i mean study la..den all e way home..rest a while study again..haha n e cycle goes on..2 pathetic wk..which u dunno wad to do..apart from study eat slp..haha so realli hope it ish over soon..n muhaha its finally over =D hee but a bit lost la..too much "things" to do le..haha..den hmm wad else..o yah..jing n sh jia u ba !!! veri soon its gonna be over ! jia u jia u !

haha den today ish my 1st day after o levels..haha ytr went to tm wif em after chem paper..n i fell asleep like a dead log after i came home la..
den today wake up 9plus..almost late for trng..coz van say 11..but ish 11:30 la..haha den hmm i almost die during trng..n bei ms leo "scold" la..haiz..haha nbm nbm..will go n train it back..den wad else..haha we played wif paige..e cute cute gal..haha but she a bit fierce sia ;p jkjk..den after trng..i asked yaqi how to do e bounce twice den roll e ball thingy la..den she teaching mi..den van jiu came n teach mi how to train my wrist..so that my wrist can be stronger n less stiff..haha thank u yaqi thank u van ! i will go train on it de..

haha den after that went alj xiao dui trng..coz haha cindy coach saw mi at sbc today..so haha u noe la..tml jiu mus go back alj da dui trng le..so if today i dun go train a bit..tml sure die de..haha anyway xiao dui trng quite fun la..haha its better than sbc de..haha maybe becoz of e surroundings la..den hmm..haha i keep on bei "scold" la..haha not realli scold la..but haha u noe..haiyo..coz my jiao bu all these..agrh stupid mi ! haiz..anyway coach cindy taught mi how to do proper jump shot n shooting..haha i knew it..i gotta change it someday..n its here ! haha gotta change it now..since now gotta no match..no studies..no everything..haha so now realli ish time to change le..ooo wish mi gd luck ba ;p haha..den haha i din train finish e whole trng la..missed e last part..of chiong-ing..coz i dunno why ish bei who step or wadever la..i gotta a blue-black de toe now..n ish pain tor..i jus hope it will drop off quick quick..n grow a new one..if not veri er xin sia..jus like my pri sch de time ;p

haha hao la..so its my 1st day of life after o levels..wahaha hmm a bit lost la..but nbm..i realli gotta lots of things to do le..hee
1)train my wrist
2)change my shooting to e correct one..
3)train stamina
4)try to train speed
5)rest
6)watch tv

haha see see i gotta so much so much to do..haha so can keep myself occupied le ;p haha lame shit man mi..haha hao la..go le..take care every1 ! byee..

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][.npo.][
][.ouch.][

][.last lap.][

][.last lap.][

y0z bloggy..jus feel like bloggin so here m i..shall restrict myself to 10mins of bloggin..coz tml gotta 2 papers..chem n hist n i haven realli prepare myself for it *bish*..

haha anyway today ish a happy day la..i mean apart from my a maths paper la..it isn't realli those super happy day..but jus feel great n energetic la..hmm today ish didi de prize giving..too bad i was hafing a maths n can't go..haha or else can go see cute cute de little kids ;p haha den hmm wad else..today i finally gotta my new hp le..haha sort of unexpected de la..coz mummy n daddy jus suddenly call n asked my preference as to which one i wan..den haha they jiu bought le..hmm this fone ish quite nice la..haha i onli noe how to use..dunno if it ish gd or not..but hope it is la..still waiting for it to charge for a full 8 hrs..super long sia..

haha n yah..tml ish e last day le ! finally its gonna be over =D haha jus now listen to 933 den got ppl sms in n say they now fantacising how to celebrate after e end of e paper le..n cannot focus le ;p haha mi a bit like this also la..*bish*..haha yeah after tml..gonna do so so so so so many things ! wahaha nobody's gonna tell mi.."jia u n study le"..hee i mean at least for a month ba ;p haha yeah..

haha hao la..10 mins ish up..shall end here ! take gd care every1 ! jia u ;p byee..

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][.npo.][
][.huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si lian.][

][.Thru e rain.][

Through The Rain

When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And if you keep falling down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
And I live once again
And I live one more day
And I can make it through the rain (Yes you can)
You will make it through the rain

was listening to this song after my a maths today..felt quite upset de la..but listened to that song le jiu hmm haha felt much better..so haha..this song ish for all those feeling down now..jia u..believe in yourself..jus as e song said.."You can make it thru e rain"..yes i can..",)

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

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][.npo.][
][.15.10.5.][

][.bu xiang gu fu ni.][

][.bu xiang gu fu ni.][

jus here to blog a while..
tml ish a maths..
its driving mi crazy..

n i realli mean it..
its e onli sub apart from higher chi that i m so worried..
its e sub that i realli veri scared man..

haha agrh how ne..
hee let mi let out some steam ok..
i dunno how also..

haha hao la..enff of craps le..
every1 jia u ba..

~..dun wanna disappoint u..~
bu xiang gu fu ni..
suo yi..xian zai de wo..
zai relax..ying wei wo bu xiang na mer stressed le..
ni fang xin..wo hui jing li er wei de..

today i m touched..realli touched by 10 n 15..i will jia u de..dun stressed le !!! haha hao la..feel much relaxed le..take gd care every1 !

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][

][.tong hua.][

][.tong hua.][

morning bloggy! haha actually not early le la..its already 10 le..i slept till 9plus today..n i was still lazing..nv had such a gd sleep for days le ;p haha *lamin*..

anyway i m now listening to Tong Hua la..haha been a long time since i hao hao de listen to that song le..hmm ytr i say i regret..haha i mean yah..i regret for wasting my time watching tv n stuff..but not regret bball la..i realli wun regret playing bball esp 14/4/05..hehe but jus wanna say..jia u la every1 =D hee..i also dunno wad i crapping..jus jia u la..

take gd care too ! byee..

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][.npo.][
][.coughing.][

][.regret.reflect.advice.][

][.regret.reflect.advice.][

hiz bloggy..been abt 1 wk since i blogged ba..haha psps..gotta o levels mar..haha o levels ;p

alright..today my main purpose of bloggin ish to..
haha i also dunno..
but i realli hope that i can bring across an impt msg la..

jus now..as i was walking home..
listening to all those sad sad songs..
den under e stars..
haha e feeling was realli great..
e songs..e sky wif stars..

haha alright thats all crap..
jus now as i walked home..
dere is sumthing which i realli felt..
regret..as i reflect..

regret..i realli regret..
regret for not preparing well enff for my o levels..
regret for not studying hard enff..
i realli regret..
i placed all my focus on bball for 3/4 of this yr..
n i neglected my studies till recently..
n e last min effort put in is definitely not enff for gd results de..

i m realli sad by the thought of it la..
coz haiz..o level results ish gonna be wif mi for life de..
why din i worked harder..
why din i..
i realli hate myself man..
why wasn't i like e others..
muggin practically e whole yr..
haiz..

so sad..
but its already 50% over le..
so all i can do now is cont to work hard for e remaining papers..
thats all i can do now..

so i realli wanna tell all that ish younger..
realli mus work hard ok..
starting of e yr jiu work hard..
dun do last min work le..
u will realli regret de..
jia u ok..
balance your work n bball (or wadever is impt to u) well la..
dun neglect ya studies..

haha hao la..enuff of nagging n crapping..i now regret also no use le..jus pray that i can get into a jc..n after today..i realli need to work hard for my a maths, chem n hist le..esp my a maths..

den hmm today realli tired sia..morning e-maths paper..afternoon lit paper..after that ish tuition wif lqjl..haha n i mus realli declare that my hp ish in a "wu yao ke jiu" de stage le..no more hope that kinda..i was 5 mins late for e "tuition" cz e examiners made us stay back..cz he veri bu shuang we tok..haha..den i reached waited till 5:30..wanted to sms lqjl..cz e mac so big..n i haf no idea where she is or she reach le ma..so i jus sat in e corner..den 5:30 le..i wanted to msg to ask..but my hp la..cannot even type ! agrh..so pek che u noe..haha or more of used to it le..but luckily for mi..lqjl msg-ed n asked la..den i went to find her..in another corner of e mac..lucky she nv wait n wait..or shuld i say..lucky her hp is in gd condition..haha lame sia..but i realli wanna change my hp le..but haha dunno how to tell daddy n mummy sia..my end-yr expenses are like so heavy la..wif e hk trip..e prom nite..haiz..i tink they veri ke lian le..

yah..den had tuition till 6 plus..cindy coach came..haha she also sick..worst den mi sia..but still ate mac..haha jkjk..den they veri funny la..hee..i "disappoint" lqjl coz i failed to count a fraction properly..haha regarding e age diff de..den jiu slacked dere while they had their dinner..n left for home after they left for trng..den tot abt a lots..haha tot abt - not studying hard enff ;p den now back home here..bloggin my life away..

haha dunno if shuld go for trng tml ma..van last wk said that we shuldn't go till after o levels..n i feel so too..so i told her i wun go for 2 wks le..last wk n tml..but i dunno la..den luisa msg-ed ytr n i din reply..coz my hp n coz i dunno la..den i realli dunno shuld go tml ma..sheryl dunno too..den sh haven reply..so i haven asked..thou she told mi she wun go la..but i wanna ask if nd to msg n inform van..luisa or ms leo ma..

haha hao la..stop tinking so much le..later den ask em again..go le..go rest be4 waking for my muggin..if i can wakey la..hee..take gd care every1 ! n for all e o levels peep..cont to jia u la..for others..hmm..jia u too..dun regret like mi..

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][.dun wanna disappoint u.][

][.virus virus go away.][

][.virus virus go away.][

virus virus go away..
cum again sum other day..
big me need to study..
virus virus go away..

haha alright..thats so lame..haiz sad ah..mi invaded by virus le..so slacked my whole day away..den went to see doc..haha at e clinic theres this super duper cute little boy..haha i tink he ish indian..yet he ish those kinda of fair indian la..he gotta beautiful eyes man..n haha he smiled at every1 at e clinic..showing his 4 teeth..haha so cute!!! even mummy also thinks he is cute..n he sick le..still so active..no wonder his mother so skinny la..coz need to look after such a active de him..den he wanted to "ta shan" with this chubby chi gal..haha so funny sia him..hee i guess he will grow to be a handsome guy ba ;p haha

den see doc le..doc help mi measure temp n he shocked dao..haha he was like..huh? 38deg ah..sure not..measure again..38.5deg..haha den he say confirm i fever le..den asked mi i nv gan jue dao i fever ah ?..haha he realli looked shocked ;p hee mi too..i tot i flu..sore thoart onli..n maybe a bit fever..but not that much..haha maybe ish fever too high le..i siao le also..

anyway ate medi le..hope its gonna get better..no..it mus get better ! or else i how to face my o levels ne ;p hee..hao la..now jus wanna blog be4 i watch kang xi lai le..n cont wif my revision..haha cham..i done nothing much sia..apart from e-maths..hist..n going to start on ss..haha wadever it is..i shall take it by my stride ba..haha

n yah..wang zi bian qing hua realli veri touching le..haiz..ziqian gonna be bad soon..*shugs*..

hao la..go le..take gd care every1..n i realli mean it..sick de feeling realli suckz man..haha..byee..;p

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][.wei le zai hu de ren nu li.][

][.sick n tired.][

][.sick n tired.][

o o o .. sick le sick le..haiz..
haha alright..jus feel like blogging..
i feeling veri hmm now..

haha a kinda of feeling that i cannot describe la..
now listening to 933..den gotta e live "telecast" of e Jin Qu Jiang..
den hmm trying to do bio notes..
wah..i wanna sleep !

but haiz i can't..

haha psps i dunno wad i crapping also..not feeling too well now..running nose..but shall hang on la..wad else can i do rite..hee now my motivation is..later can watch e fri nite movie..xiang zuo ai..xiang you ai..it better be nice ;p hee

den hmm nothing much happen la..jus a few normal day..went to pray..went airport for curry rice..haha normal yet nice la..n scenery realli veri nice..realli..s'pore de jiu veri nice le..everytime i take bus from aiport back home during evening..i jus love e sunset man..hee

hao la..shall end here le..go slp be4 i cont bio..if i ever wakey la..haha which ish veri hard..hao la..tc every1 ! drink more h2o..dun fall sick..n all sec4s..jia u la..i still gotta lots to study too..but we dun stress out ok..hee take gd care..

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][.Northern Light.][

][.Northern Light.][

i haf a new wish..
n that is to see the northern light and take pics of it myself..
moi say its expensive..
so i m going to save up..
maybe 10 yrs later i can make it dere..
i realli wanna see it..
its realli veri nice..
jus went to a webby..
its gotta over 1700 pics..i onli managed to see ard a 100 today..
coz realli a lot..
n realli nice..
blog a few of it..which i like..
actually i liked every1 of it ;p hee

haha hao le..apart from northern light..today i went econ n was so scared ;p coz theres this few workers..u noe..those from indian etc..den they were in econ also..den e uncle n auntie of e shop was keeping close notice of em..coz they were in e dere for so long le..n jus loitering ard la..den veri scary..later e auntie came back to e cashier n asked e uncle go take a look at wad they were doing..den e uncle went to get a penknife n put in his pocket be4 he go see wad they doing..i shocked dao..n was realli scared la..den i came home le..jiu told mummy..n she say e uncle do this for zi wei la..to protect himself..if not if e workers attack him how..o mian..e atmosphere inside econ was realli scary man..haha o n yah..didi jus came back wif a gd news..haha proud of him man..hee didi jia u !

hao la..end here le..tc every1 ! byee..

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][.i wanna see e northern light.][

][.yi lu shun feng.][

][.yi lu shun feng.][

haha alright..another day is going to pass soon..did nothing much..apart from sum e-maths n my hist..haha den later going for dinner wif daddy n mummy n of coz ah di..coz today public hols mar..haha actually supposed to go visit 4th gugu de..but haha i dunno why..i dun dare to go visit her..i dunno wad to say to her when i see her..haha den i told mummy n daddy that i veri scared to tok to adults..haha..i dunno..i jus think i rather coward or..put it in a nicer way..reserved..i dun realli like to tok..but if i noe u well..den i can tok a lot..if i dunno u well..i rather smile n keep quiet..haha maybe thats why i dun haf lots of friends ba ;p hee..but nbm la..e friends that i haf are veri gd le mar ;p hee

alright..blog now..coz wanna wish 2 grps of ppl yi lu shun feng n haf a safe n nice trip..haha 1st grp = my god-daddy,god-mummy n god-sis la..haha they went thai for hols le ;p haha..hope they haf an enjoyable + safe trip la..n buy mi some thai tortise ;p n of coz nice goodies ;p hee jkjk la..den 2nd grp = lingqin jiao lian..coach cindy..alj seniors n their s'pore team la..coz if not wrong..they are off to taiwan today ba..hope they haf a nice n safe trip too..hee..

hmm hao la..shall end here for now..tc every1 ! byee..

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][.wads over is over.][

][.wads over is over.][

today had hcl de o levels paper..haiz ish a disappointment man..realli veri disappointed..but told mummy le..she say wads over is over..as long as i tried my best..n i realli did..haha maybe i din do enff la hor..maybe..now all i can do is pray that it wun be too bad..haha

haha ok..enff of sad things ;p..hmm today morning had a surprise..realli v surprise la..n yeah..i was realli glad..din expect to receive that sms ;p..haha yah..today is a sad day..but like i say..theres always a reason to be happy..so haha..i m 50% sad 50% happy..haha lame shit !

hao la..tc every1 !..n take care ",)..haha n yah..thanks for all e encouragments every1 :D ..tctc hor..byee..

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][.wo shi tian cai ying mu.jkjk][

][.lost.][

][.lost.][

hmm yah..feeling quite lost now de..haha dunno why..maybe coz o levels is jus 1 wk away..n yet i haf not done anything ?..haha..a lot of maybe..i dunno how to say la..feeling veri veri lost now..

haha alright..today had training at ccab..e attendance was gd..or haha best out of so many times..den hmm trng was tiring ?..haha den played match..den after that dismiss..den shot a few free throws..i tink i got e hang of it le..but haha no1 to help mi see..so i still dunno if its correct ma ;p nbm..after o levels den go practice..den hmm after that went for lunch wif sh n yaqi..den wen called n remind mi of e Ai Shang Zhong Jing Li that show..haha it was one of my fav show ! hee too bad..thats yrs ago le..den i forget e storyline le..or else i sure chat wif wen abt it like siao de..

haha den came home..chat chat wif mummy..den after that daddy..den after that they all go out le..daddy to work..mummy n ah di to library..now left mi all alone at home..was doing some chi..den suddenly went to took a disc out..den load e songs into my mp3..haha nice sia those songs :D hehe..

ok..den now i blogging..haha wad i blogging i also dunno..i tink i m jus writing down my day so that i can look back n recall ba..haha n yah..i hurt my finger today..haha shugs..1st injury in yrs or months le ba ;p but its not vv pain la..a bit onli ;p den hmm..haha yah..i realli feeling lost sia..mummy jus asked mi wad i wan for dinner..n i can't decide..in e end didi haf to decide for mi..haiz..

that ah di hor..haha proud of him sia..dun realli study still can score so well..hehe bet wif mummy that he will score veri high..she dun believe mi..den say i gotta score gd gd for my o levels too if he did well..wa mian..stressed sia..he did well la..haha..so i gotta do well too..haiz..can onli pray n try my best le la..

hao la..end here le..jus ignore those craps above ba..coz i realli dunno wad i blogging..xiang dao wad i jiu write wad onli..hee tc every1 ! byee..

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][.tc.OBTeT Mhe.][

][.wo zhen de hao hai pa deng hou de gan jue.zhen de hao pa.hao bu xi huan.][

][.wo zhen de hao hai pa deng hou de gan jue.zhen de hao pa.hao bu xi huan.][

i m realli afraid of waiting..
realli..
i realli dun like waiting..

today i found out sumthing that i m realli afraid of..
its sumthing known as waiting..
i din noe that i can be so afraid of waiting..

waiting for some1 who is late..
worries mi..
is it becoz sumthing crops up for that person..
is that person on his/her way..
did sumthing happen to him/her..
shuld i call him/her..
wad shuld i do..
hate this kinda of uncertain feeling..

waiting for a reply..
staring at e blank screen..
waiting anxiously..
a min..
an hour..
a day..
a few days..
no reply means no reply..
why is there no reply..
it that person angry wif mi..
did i say anything wrong..
or is e person ok..
again it worries mi..
makes mi moodless..

i realli hate waiting..instead of saying hate..i wuld say..i m realli afraid of waiting..everytime i wait..n get no reply..my heart sinks..worries..moodless..all e negative feelings..pls..pls dun make mi wait..i m not that strong..

can't help but feel sad..
can't help it..
ignore mi..
i will be fine after tonite..
i hope so..
at least i promise myself..
to be strong after tonite..

ha..all e abv are craps..ignore it la ;p jus venting some mood yeah..hee..but i realli found out sumthing..i m realli afraid of waiting..afraid of waiting n not getting an answer..afraid of waiting in vain..wo hai pa deng hou..

hee anyway fungi jus sent mi a veri nice song ;p its Shan Hu Hai by jay n lara..hee n i haf not study today..not realli in e mood..so haiz..shuld go n try study for now la..hee take gd care every1..byee..

i shall cont waiting..
although i realli hate waiting..
afraid of waiting..
but i guess..
thats e onli thing i can do..

to ..
i hope u wun forget ya "promise"..
i m still waiting..
pls dun be e 2nd person to disappoint mi..

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][.OTBeT Mhe.][

][.gotta jia u le.][

][.gotta jia u le.][

ok..i realli gotta jia u le..i wanted to study finish chi ytr..but i onli touched my 4A..haha wad a nice try..haiz..i slp so early nowadays la..can't help it..haiz..

hee alright..shall stop moaning..blog abt ytr le..jiu mus go study ;p anyway ytr i went to ride bicycle wif moi..from pasir ris to tampines to pasir ris park den back to my hse..wahaha a veri big kinda of achievement sia..i mean at least i din fall down any slope or anything..den i tried using one hand to cycle..hee but my speed ish still veri slow la..wanna noe how slow i m jiu go ask fungi n moi ba ;p hee den it was raining when we cycled from pasir ris to tampines la ;p hee den hmm..i tried closing my eyes n cycle..den realli veri shuang sia..(lucky i din hit into any trees ;p)..hehe den hmm jiu zhe yang la..haha quite fun la ;p den see e pics la ;p hee e little fountain ish i found in e drain de..cool hor ;p haha everywhere realli dou veri nice..even in a drain u can find nice things too :D hee

hao la..shall stop here le..tc every1 ! byee..
hai..why wun u reply..

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][.pls.][

][.u can count on mi for life.][

][.u can count on mi for life.][

hi bloggy..
why mus ppl be sad..
why we can't live in a world wif onli happiness..
why can't there be a fairyland where e word unhappy will nv exist..

is it becoz..
we will be stronger after each setback..
is it becoz..
we will nv noe how strong we can be without a setback..

even if it is so..
how much i hope that every1 ard mi will be happy everyday..
every single moment..
coz i tink..
every moment of unhappiness ish a moment wasted..
and i dun wan that to happen..
esp to my closed ones..
in fact..
every1..

haha bloggy paiseh for starting of like this..hee hmm lac..i m not upset..in fact i feeling rather ok de la ;p hee be4 i cont today de post..mus thank butts,ah min,lx and old man for e meaningful b'day present ;p hee i will write in it de ;p haha but today ne..i will still choose to blog..coz my handwriting suxz nowadays..n i dun wanna spoil e chio de diary ;p hee

hao la..shall start blogging for today le..haha hmm today i fell in love wif a new song..haha but lac..183 club de all those songs still in my playlist la ;p hee coz got da wei mar ;p haha jkjk..hao la..today or rather ytr i fell in love wif this song..veri nice de..hee..

`Thats when i love you..`

When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love youI love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what
Ohhhh no matter what

haha hao la..stop here for today le ;p hee tc every1 ! o n yah..my hp realli veri can vomit blood sia..coz e buttons hor..haha gd gd sia ;p hee so if i nv reply hor..realli veri sorry..its coz i cannot press e buttons not becoz i dun wanna reply..;p haha i bet mummy will be pleased wif this month's bill ;p hao la..go watch news le ;p tc every1..byee..jia u jia u n take gd care of ya health wow ;p ",)

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][.grad + fun day.][

][.grad + fun day.][

haha alright..today's blog going to be quite long ba..haha coz i wanna blog abt 2 days..ytr de grad day n today de "fun" day..haha

alright..start wif grad 1st ! hee hmm ytr 21/10/05 was e grad day of my sec sch life..how to say ne..theres this march-in which i tink ish rather haha erm..cool n paiseh de la..hee..den e ppt slide..showing us..haha i mean e sec4 de batch..den there ish US haha yesh US..ahs b'gals 05 ",)..hee yeah..our pyramid that pic..wahaha i was cheering like nobody's business la :D haha luckily they cheered too ;p haha i dunno who..but at least sum other ppl pei mi mar ;p den went to take cert from mrs ganesan..haha yucks tor..our class 1st class..den they say cannot hug..mus be formal blah blah..so we nv la..so ke xi ! haiz..anyway nbm..haha it was quite a great feeling la..u taking ya grad cert..haha i mean..gotta a old le de gan jue..den hmm e ceremony went on..den all e award winner ;p haha n yah..i quite glad de..thanks buddha for blessing mi wif that "award" ba..hee realli veri glad..n i was shivering on stage when i waited wif em to bow la ;p haha n yah..piggy daddy n mummy realli glad too..jus too bad that i told em not to go in e 1st place ;p haha..but nbm..wen got video-cam it..so i m going to ask wen help mi burn a disc for em to watch ;p hee..den after that ish photo taking session..take n take n still take..haha none stop la..haha den hmm yeah..jiu went stadium den play wif juniors den jiu go home rather late de la..haha wad to say ne..i finally graduate from ahs le..hee if theres sumthing that i wuld miss..it wuld be only bball ba..my 4 yrs in ahs ish filled mainly wif bball ba..haha e stadium..e sweat..e scoldings..e glory..e cheering..e joy..e pain..haha though there are many other things..eg council..my class..etc etc..but haha i wuld say..bball is e onli thing that i wuld rmb ba..den haha n of coz my teachers ;p hee my 4 yrs in ahs de teachers all veri gd..esp my sec3 + 4 de..haha n of coz sec 1 n 2 de la..all my teachers are gd..haha i mean those who teach mi ok ;p hee jus wanna say a big tHaNk yOu to em..haha yah..n all my friends that pei mi thru out my sec sch life la ;p hee xie le..

haha alright..now e fun day..haha..today had trng..at ard 11:30 ba..but went earlier..coz sh n i wanted to study de..but haha as expected we din study much..den jiu went to see u16 de selections..den after that got trng..joy twisted her knee..hope she is feeling better now..den haha yah theres sumthing i mus mention ! we haf more than 8 ppl today..haha in fact ard 10 or 11 ba..den hmm trng was as normal..n i realli tink van makes a gd captain :D hee..den hmm after that mr khoo talked to us..den haha..rather dishearted de la..coz a team can onli consist of 12 players..n not 12 regular players..but 12 best players..haha i guess i wuld jus haf to pray hard ba..i realli wanna but this is a practical world ba..sumthings ya hard work wun pay off de..thats wad on my mind while he talks la..den after that trng ended..i went to try to learn to shoot..haha but jiu shi cannot la..den sh helped mi la..haha xie le..n yeah ! i finally made my 1st correct de shot in at e free throw line at ard 2:15 pm..haha but it was e one n onli..haha i immediately looked at e time when sh say i shot correctly..haha jus like when i shoot my 1st 3-pt in pri sch..haha..alright..den after that went for lunch..wanted to go paya laybar de..but e bus so long..so took 80 n went compass pt instead..haha quite fun la..we ate le..jiu go walk ard..den haha i dun like shopping..so ke lian de sh cannot shop also la..psps..hee..den i went to drink bbt..den sh ate ice-cream..haha swensense de wor ;p haha dunno how to spell..psps..den went arcade..haha o mian..e aracade de catch toy that machine bluff ya money de ! haha lucky we din play..wanted to play de la..haha but den see others play le..haha forget it man..it jus open even before it reaches e "end-pt" la..haha den see those father catching those toys for their kids reminds mi of my own daddy..hee theres this persistant father there..den he spent a lot on catching e toy la..haha i see le jiu think of daddy..coz last time i also veri "persistant" de..or rather veri stubborn..haha if i wan it..i wan it..so he gotta catch it for mi ;p haha ke lian de daddy..always bei mummy scold after that..coz he usually spent quite a lot de ;p haha ps wor daddy ;p hee so in e end..sh n mi agrees that we shuldn't catch e toy from e bian money de machine..so haha after much consideration..we went to take neoprint ;p haha i quite like today de neoprints de ;p hee too bad..my scanner cannot work..or else can show u all..haha esp e "bball" that sh drew ;p haha jkjk..haha hmm hao la..den jiu take bus n came home le..hee woohoo..haha if any1 fa xie that we today played till so late nv guai guai de study..sure bei scold de..haha..so now i shall be guai n go study le..hee

byee! tctc every1..haha

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][.Wang Zi Bian Qing Hua.1.][

][.Wang Zi Bian Qing Hua.1.][

haha yeah..today's bloggy ish dedicated to "Wang Zi Bian Qing Hua"..n i wuld say ish e first part..coz i m rather certain that after i watch e whole thing..i m going to blog again :D hee..hao la..today will show u all pics after pics jiu hao..or rather..show myself ;p hee









][.JunHao aka Dang Ou & Tian Yu.][
o..see this pic le jiu gotta heart break for Tian Yu de gan jue sia..;p




The Happy Ending ",)

][.Prince(s).][

haha hao la..shall end posting e pics le..hee shall end here too..quite tired le ;p tc every1..n yah..theres a "quote" from this show that i realli liked..ish Tian Yu always say de..but ish Dang Ou tell her de..

"Jing Yao Guan Tou Bu Fang Qi..Jue Wang Ye Hui Bian Cheng Xi Wang"

..As long as u dun give up during times of desparation , dere will be hope..

haha psps my translation veri poor..but sumtime like that la..haha tc every1 ! byee..go rest le..tml ish grad day le sia ;p haiyo..so fast..so fast..

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][.sumtimes i wonder why.][

][.sumtimes i wonder why.][

haha hmm..now ish 10plus ba..today wakey quite late de..ard 9..den slacked n had breakfast until now ;p haha..den moi asked if wanna go back school study at 11 ma..haha i wanna ask her take 17 wif mi..or else i dun feel like going le..dun like being alone n walked up e long long chang cheng..haha n yah..i discovered sumtime..yuan lai my rm ish a nice place to study..hee

haha say so..coz ytr i spent e whole morning n noon studying in my rm..haha but din study much la..but at least i din fall asleep ;p hee..alright..ytr be4 i zZz..i tot abt lots of things..haha many many..lots lots..

`Sumtimes i wonder why`

sumtimes i wonder why
i dun seem to be who i m
why am i always saying yes
when in fact i wanna say no..
why do i betray my own heart..

i hate to say "NO"..
yet thats e word that i wanna tell em e most..at times..
sumtimes i jus hope that i can say a firm "no" n let them noe that i realli dun wanna..

maybe i m born to say yes ba..
i dunno..
jus hope that i can change gradually n be more firm wif my decisions..
n do wad i realli wanna..
n not wad others wanna mi to..

i jus wanna be myself.
doing wad i realli wan.
not wad u all expect of mi.

haha alright..sum craps again..haha n yah..Wang Zi Bian Qing Hua ish nice tor !!! haha n i fall in love wif shao wei again..hee in fact ish Zi Qian la ",)..haiz but in e end he will be bad..haha but nbm still gotta ming dao..hee n yah..i gotta lots of song of e wk le..all ish 183 club n 7 flowers de ;p wahaha

hao la..shall end here le..that moi still haven wakey..she zai bu wakey i jiu dun wanna go le la..so late le ;p hee tc every1 ! n all sec4s de..jia u le..haha i noe studying ish boring..be it obligation or wadever..we jiu jia u la ",)

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][.nv felt like this be4.][

][.5ong of the week.][.Bu Gou Yong Gan.][

][.5ong of the week.][.Bu Gou Yong Gan.][

haha alright..jus sum updates be4 i proceed to intro my song of e week ;p hee..today had my O levels bio pract..haha o mian..how sucky can it be sia ;p yah..i cham le la..haha..but hmm over le..shall focus on e paper den ;p haha..now i super tired la..coz today after bio pract..wen suggested to go buy prezzie for teachers for our "grad" day on fri..n we (wen,moi,fungi) walk n walk n walk at TM..wahaha bth sia..wif my heavy bag..i realli bth sia..dun like shopping..i rather go joggin ;p haha jkjk..but quite fun la..den haha now i m back home..den fungi say..Bu Gou Yong Gan ish her song of e month..haha den i wanna say..its by song of e week ! hee

presenting to you..
Bu Gou Yong Gan (not brave enough)

Shou Zai Ni Shen Bian, Kan Ni Mei Yi Ge Siao Lian
Siao De Na Mer Tian, Shi Ta Gie Le Ni Shi Yan

Bu Gan You Mai Yuan, Shi Wo Xin Gan Qing Yuan
Huo Xu You Yi Tian , Wo De Ai Ni Hui Kan Jian

Yi Tian Yi Dian Ni Jian Jian Zou Yuan
Wo Que Xiang Kong Qi Bei Hu Lei

Zhi Guai Wo De Ai Bu Gou Yong Gan
Yi Zi Cheng Nuo De Zuo Ni De Yi Lai
Rang Yi Qie Shi Cheng Da Hai
baby now i need you by my side
Guo Qu De Yi Qie Gai Zhe Mer Fang Kai
without you i can't fall in love again
without you i can't oh baby i can't fall in love again (i can't never fall in love)

till the end of time in a world so close to me i'm just so in love with a girl who's in my heart

each and everyday i wanna have you next to me and i say to the world i'll never let it end
Ming Ming Zhi Dao Zhi Dao You Yi Tian
Fa Xian Ni Bu Zai You Siao Lian

haha yeah type hao le..hee o no..933 jus had a grp of friends de thingy..haha so like our past sia..hee..hao la..go slp le..veri tired ;p later den jia u ;p haha every1 tc wow ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][

][.yes it is true.][

][.yes it is true.][

hmm let this be my last post for e day be4 i realli mug for my bio pract tml ba..

how disappointing can it be..
to wait for sumthing in vain..

haiz..
no wonder others always say..
dun haf high expectations..it will jus hurt more..
yes it do..

i wun expect anything more..
never..

ha..hao la..jus another lame post of e day..
shall go try n focus and study le..

hee..
many things can make mi smile..
many things can make mi cry..
many things will make mi disappointed..
but whenever i tink of that moment..
i promise..
i will be strong..
be strong..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.(^0^).][

][.still wishing that u all will.][.haiz.][

][.still wishing u all will.][.haiz.][

its abt half a day gone..soon it will be e end of today..
thou u all had said so..
yet i refused to believe..

i m still wishing..
i m still hoping..
wishing n hoping that u all are jus playing a prank on mi..

but i dun tink so ba..
coz its e Os..
haiz..
can't deny that i m a bit blue over it..

i m glad..
coz i haf got everything i wan for this special day..
but u all will be e onli thing that will be missing on this special day..
haiz..

actually..
its jus a day..
but..
can't help feeling sad la..

theres still a few wish unfulfiled..
but theres a few that ish already fulfiled le..yeah..
so all i can do now..
is wait..

wait for this day to cum to an end..
den whisper to myself be4 i slp..
that..yes..it is true..
u all wun be here on this day..this year..

haha..hao le..sorry bloggy..i m here to moan again..haiyo..haha go le..haven study bio yet..better go study le..coz haha its e Os mar ;p tao yan la..why on e day after my day..anyway had a great day wif mummy n daddy..family haf made my day..but it wuld be greater if my friends + 3 big idols wuld made my day for e remaining time of this day..haha maybe i shuldn't ask for too much la hor..hee sigh..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.still refuse to believe.][
][.pls tell mi it ain't true.][

][.hApPy mEaL.][

][.hApPy mEaL.][

muhahah its 9:55 in e morning..hehe..jus had a full breakfast..n mummy promise to bring mi to eat mac de hApPy mEaL later ;p muhaha yeah..been so long since i eat happy meal..coz its like..happy meal ish for kids de mar ;p den i not a kid also ;p hee..but who cares..i shall go eat later..n collect e snoopy toys :D hee..

haha but haiyo..sianz sia..tml gotta bio pract..but haha later tonite den revise la ;p now go relax a bit 1st ;p hee..

Current Status :
Happy 101%

`the most wasted day of your life..is e day u spent without smiling`

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][

][.ni wang le.][

][.happy.][

][.happy.][

haha yeah..i m happy ",)..haha glad that i m happy..hee hao la..jus wanna blog down this happy moment..hee

tc every1 ! nitey byee..haha

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.if onli u noe.][

][.will it be e 2nd "best" one.][.i tink it will.][

][.will it be e 2nd "best" one.][.i tink it will.][

hi bloggy..finally here to blog again..past few days i slacked..haha din realli haf e mood n energy to study..den today hmm i even no mood now..abt 3 n a half hrs later..it will be IT..haha..but i guess i m gonna await it wif joy n tears ba..but they ain't tears of joy..n they ain't tears of sorrow too..now..i haf many reasons to be happy..n i haf many reasons to be sad too..ha..

reasons to be happy:
1)mummy n daddy finally bought mi a mp3..haha be glad..i m realli veri happy abt it..coz mummy haf refused to buy that for mi since i wanted it long ago..disc-man , mp3 ,i-pod..were all e things that mummy refused to buy for mi last time..coz she scared i will listen to it too much den ears drums huai diao ;p but today morning..she jing rang..ask mi..u wan mp3 or hp..haha so of coz i chose e 1st choice la..e 2nd choice nxt time den buy la ;p
2)da yi bought mi a pair of ear-rings ;p haha haven looked at it yet..but i guess..its nice ba ;p
3)gan die , gan ma n c mei wrote mi a card..n a hongbao..haha e card veri meaningful..wif lots of meaningful quotes..for eg"All our dreams can come true,if we have the desire to pursue them"..n many nice nice n encouraging quotes..
haha these are reasons that i m happy now..n i jus loaded e songs i love into my mp3 ;p hee..n there ish this nice nice song..its VJ de Bu Gou Yong Gan..haha n many wang zi bian qing wa de ost ;p

Reasons to be sad:
1)forever5 is not going to celebrate wif mi this yr..haha its ok..i understand..coz its O levels mar..but haha..nan mian a bit sianz la..coz every yr they will giv mi "surprise"..but this yr..they already say they wun le..haha
2) dunno how to say..dunno wad to say..jus feel sad..or rather worried..

][.i pray wif all my heart.][
hoping that U will be alright..
feel guilty..
feel sad..
feel that i caused it..

hope that everything will be fine..
hope that U ain't sad..
i pray..
i realli pray..

haiz..
nv seen U like this be4..
realli..

i m worried..
especially e moment when U walked away without saying gd-bye..
especially e moment when U stood n face e rain..
especially e moment when i walked past U'r back n felt that sumthing was not right..

yet there's nothing i can do..
i wanna talk to U..
but i guess U r not in e mood now..

hence i can onli praying..
n hope that everything will be fine..
pls be fine..
pls heaven..
pls buddha..
pls..

i pray..
*sobz*

haiz..hmm hao la..see i told u..haha i got things to be happy yet i got things to be sad..n they balance out..50:50..like my libra scale..so now..i m feeling so..haiz..realli hope that U will be fine..or rather..be great..i pray..

haha hao la..tc every1 ! go le..shall go rest..watch tv n study bio while i await that moment ;p byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.pls.U gotta be ok.i pray.][
][.haiz.][

][.wei le zai hu de ren.wo nu li.][

][.wei le zai hu de ren.wo nu li.][

hmm feeling better now..hiz bloggy..jus wanna say hi..haha lame shit rite..anyway today tink lots of things..

tink n tink..

haha hao la..laming..
tc every1..bye..jus wanna say i feeling better le.. ",)..haha

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.u made my day.][

][.every1 haf their own troubles.][

][.every1 haf their own troubles.][

haiz.
sigh.
i m sianz..
veri sianz..

deres no1 i can blame..
if dere is..
dere will onli be one..

i hate this person man..
truly
utterly
5uper
duper
hate this person..

i noe there shuldn't be hate
hate will only make u feel negative..

but yah..
i realli hate this person..
hen si zhe ge ren le..

how much i wish that this person was nv on this earth..
wif this person on this earth
theres jus so much problems
how much i wish this person is dead

i hate this person man..
get lost..
get lost..
get lost..
i hate u !
from e day u scolded mi stupid for not knowing wads a "yan di"
i already hated u..
n now..
i jus hate u more
day by day
i hate u more..

get out !
I HATE YOU..

haha alright..jus trying to let off some steam..pls ignore mi..n yah..dun worry..i not hating any friends..that stupid person is jus sum1 that will nv cum my blog..hmm hao la..feeling..i wun say i m feeling alright now..coz i ain't n i dun wanna lie..so pls pardon mi if i throw my temper on u nowadays..pls scold mi bac n let mi noe i m in e wrong..coz i realli a bit blur n sianz nowadays..

..grant mi a wish..
..jus one will do..
..or maybe 3..
..will u..

hao la..tc gd care every1..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.pls make my day.][

][."life".][

][."life".][

wads life all abt ?

kinship?
friendship?
relationship?
studies?
hobbies?
passion?
money?

haha i dunno..i tink all of em is veri impt..mus admit money realli impt too..yah..money isn't everything on earth..but without it..u will get nothing on earth too..we are living in a practical society..no certificate = no money..no money = no life..haha this isn't wad i always feel..i always feel that this world ish veri great..up till now still yesh..but without money..theres realli quite a no. of stuffs that u cannot accomplish la ;p haha..hmm maybe..

hao la..anyway jus watched wang zi bian qing wa..haha giving myself more breaks le..maybe i guess..i m tired le ba..dun wanna stress myself out becoz of e o..hee..but hai shi hui wei suo zai hu de ren nu li de ;p

tc every1..byee..


do u still remember..
i haf no idea..
jus haf to wait..
wait for e day to cum..


][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][

][.Yamato.][.Halu_Makato.][

][.Yamato.][.Halu_Makato.][

hee jus finshed watching tv n here i m blogging..haha today veri slack sia ;p hee

hao la..jus wanna blog abt sum stuffs..hee today Pride ish last esp..so jiu watched la ;p den hmm haha maybe ish becoz watch be4 le..so not as touching la..but still touching..hee anyway i love e part when makato cried when he saw himself wearing e no9 jersey which was formly halu's no..hee i see e part le..jiu veri got gan chu la ;p haha..a no. may be jus a no. to anybody..but sumhow..i feel that a no. is veri impt ba..haha i mean to a sports player ?..hee maybe la hor..or maybe thats jus wad i feel la..haha hao la..den haha makato..i tink he respect halu a lot ba ;p hee..hmm yeah..

den haha yamato ish still so ke ai ;p haha yamato = 13 = kenji sakaguchi ;p hee

hao la..go le ;p tctc every1 ! byee..jia u ",)

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.15.10.5.][
][.17.13.37.][

][.5ea.unset.tars.][

][.5ea.unset.tars.][

haha yeah ! i m backie wif a better mood :D hee..hmmm today ish an interesting day ba..haha

haha today morning go library study..but din realli haf e mood to study la ;p haha so study till ard 3..jiu went moi de hse to study..coz e library "chase" mi out ;p haha jkjk..long story..hee den after go moi hse..jiu do sum amaths den jiu go see sunset ! haha yeah asked moi pei mi go see sunset ;p haha din realli see e sunset la ;p but ke lian de moi..haf to cycle wif such a heavy pig la ;p haha xie le hor moi ;p hee veri shuang sia e wind..e stars..e so call sunset..hee realli fun la ;p den haha u put 2 zi lian kuang together u will get ?
zi lian kuan + zi lian kuan = lots of fotos !
haha jkjk..laming la..but quite lots of scenery de pic de la..hee

den haha now i m back home..haha feeling much better ;p hee hmmm yup..feeling =) now ;p haha alright la..veri tired le ;p tc ba every1 ! byee

haha orh yah..theres sumthing i mus blog abt ! i hate HATE hate ppl who cut queues sia ! so disgusted by these ppl..haha jus now take 17 de time wah..these ppl treat mi invisible de sia..haha cut n cut..shugs tor..tao yan si le ;p haha but nbm..suan le..jus hope these ppl wun do these again..or else they bei beat not my fault le ;p

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.glad.][

][.5ad.][

][.5ad.][

now is 9 plus in e morning..

it shuld be bright wif e sun shining into my room..
but yet it is dark wif e signs that a heavy rain is going to happen soon..

i shuld be preparing to go out to study..
yet i m here blogging..

wad a nice way to start a day..
maybe heaven knows how i m feeling now ba..

dark..sad..helpless..lost..
wad other words can i use to describe my current feelings?..

its gone..
n it wun be back again ba..

wad shuld i do..
i dunno..

n maybe even if i do sumthing..
it wuld be useless too..

shugs..
i hate this..

haiz..alright..ignore my craps..i tink i gotta go wash up n go out to study soon ba..asked moi le..but doubt she will reply mi so early..i nd to go out to study..i can't stay at home today..if not mummy will ask abt this n that..n i will jus blow my top ba..haiz..i dun wan to blow my top at mummy..i dun wan to affect any1 wif my mood now..but i jus wanna say..i m realli sad now..*5obz*..

alright..make a move le..will blog tonite..if things change..but i doubt it will..byee..tc..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.dui bu qi.][

][.i'm sorry.pls dun be angry.][

][.i'm sorry.pls dun be angry.][

today i blog..
coz i wanna say sorry..
sorry to sum1..

i m realli sorry..
i din know u will be so angry..
i had nv seen u so fierce be4..

pls dun be angry..
i m realli sorry..

sorry..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][

][.u need a break.][

][.u need a break.][

hey bloggy..haha i m here again..yeah..while bloggin..i m also hafing my dinner + listening to e forever roxz de Music Diary !!! haha

hmm hao la..jus went for a jog..haha nice nice de jog..haha went to jog coz tml gotta training..hee den if i dun jog..jiu no energy to train rite ;p haha jkjk..alright..anyway e moon n e stars are realli nice tonite..hee jus too bad i can't capture it wif my hp de cam ;p haha

hmm today is a my stupid day man..felt so vexed after sss...so typed a msg..den din wanna send de..but bu xiao xin sent it tor ! wahaha kill mi man..haha thats like so stupid of mi la..n e msg ish shuld not be sent to any1 de..haha yah..onli mi crapping coz i dunno how to put it across to any person la..haha agrh shit ! lucky for mi..i tink e no. ish not in use le..haha i called e person many times..n phew i tink e no. realli not in use le la ;p haha pls pls be the case sia ;p haha..

den hmm hao la..music diary de today ish about a old man n old woman..who loved each other so but yet divorce..coz..e man loves e wife wif his own way n e wife treat it as e husband not understanding her..haha hmm eg ah..
e man always give e wife e drumstick during a dinner
but he nv knew that e wife detest drumstick e most..
but e wife also nv knew that e husband loved e drumstick e most..n him giving her e drumstick becoz he wans her to haf e best..

so they jiu divorce le la..
den that night..
both of em veri sad..
den e old man called e old woman..
but e old woman refused to ans..
n she forgotten that e old man haf heart-attack..
so as expected de..
e nxt day.. e nxt day e old man was found dead in his house..
den nxt to him was an insurance who beneficial de ren = e old woman..
n it was bought on e day they married..

haha den yah..of coz e old woman cry yeah..haha so e morale of e story ish..dun be angry wif a person..n wanna save ya pride or wadever den dao e person..coz u nv noe when will e person die n u will regret it la..haha yeah..

hmm n yah..today mrs ganesan gave 4a a little grad..hee veri sweet..n mrs ganesan is realli a nice teacher..haha one of e best le..or rather onli she n mrs seah = best le ba..still got many gd gd de la..haha too much to mention..

haha hao la..go le..tctc every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.The heart has a reason which 1 will nv understands.][

][."dying".][

][."dying".][

yeah..y0z bloggy..so many days nv blog le..haha ok..i noe it ain't many days..but haha 2 days ish many days to mi la ;p hee alright..jus sum update on my life this wk..hee

status : "dying"
heart-rate : slow
energy level : 10%

haha alright..thats so lame ;p pardon mi..but i realli tired sia..haha everyday sch le jiu sss den cum home i haven do or study jiu slp le la ;p haha its like..sss ish draining mi off my energy le..hee 4 hrs in e air-con hall..haha actually i do nothing much sia..apart from trying to complete my hist sbqs n eng compre,eng compo and e-maths..haha thats like i haf been doing for e past 4 days..hee

haha hao la..say real de..i veri scared..realli veri scared..dun ask mi why..haha coz i tink ish becoz i tink i haf lots of things to catch up n study ba..n time is like running out..haha see i told u i m "dying" le ;p haha..hmm alright..got to go le..mummy is nagging again..
see i told u..i m "dying"..but i wun ;p haha contradicting hor ;p hee

take care every1 ! byee..n jia u too..",)

feeling so stress..
feeling so scared..
i dunno who n how to tell..
coz every1 is feeling that stress too..

i m jus counting down everyday..
hoping that e day will cum soon..
so that i can "tell" u..
yes u..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][

][.yuan lai.][.nite.][

][.yuan lai.][.nite.][

hmm now 2:26am le..haha been quite a long time since i stayed up till so late le..haha or shuld i say so early ?..

haha yah..anyway now i looking thru e bio de tys..den i discover..i realli deserve that kinda of lan results for bio ba..haha yes i did study..but it was definitely not enough as i looked thur e tys..haha angry sia..why didn't i hao hao de study bio ne..hmm n same for e others subs too..haha but wads over is over..now onli can try to work hard for o levels le ba ;p ha..

den hmm haha i tink hor..nite time is realli a gd time to study sia..when every1 is asleep..veri quiet..i liked it..hee hao la..shall end here le..hee going to slp in 30 mins time ba..or else tml sure veri tired de ;p hee..tc every1..byee..nitey + gd morning ! ;p

~nite~
ye wan de ning jing
rang ren bu zhi jue de
bian cheng le ling yi ge zi ji..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][

][.jigsaw.][.friendship.][

][.jigsaw.][.friendship.][

hi bloggy..here i m again..haha trying to study chem..but a bit tired le..so wanna blog down sumthings..

haha anyway i spent my weekend doing jigsaw puzzle..haha n yeah..finally completed my new jigsaw puzzle this afternoon..which i bought from mini toons ytr..haha veri cheap de jigsaw summore..$2.90 for 500 pieces den $5.95 for e frame..haha can buy la..quite worth it ;p..haha spent e nite n morning doing jig wif mummy..but haha she more enthu den mi..i do till tired jiu zzz le..but she still do till 3am..pro hor..haha yup..i love this jig sia..gotta stars as background de..haha den mickey n minnie at e foreground..

haha i decide hao le..after my o levels..i m going to buy many 108 pieces de..den hang at my bedside dere..hang till full full..hee..coz doing jigsaw realli test my patiences sia..n when u do till 2/5 will feel so sianz..dunno when will i ever finish it sia..but do till 3/5 le..jiu wanna jia u n finish it..n when u finally finish it..realli a kinda of veri big of accomplishment ba..den u look at it le..u will..haha feel a sense of satisfication ba..haha..yup jiu shi that kinda of feeling..

~some quotes~
haha n yah..jigsaw always reminds mi of this " friends are jus like jigsaw..if one piece is gone..e jigsaw will nv be complete..u r one piece of my jigsaw..n i nv wanna lose u..coz my life (jigsaw) will nv be complete without u.."..n yup..ytr i saw this quote in a book.."a friendship that cums to an end..is a friendship that had nv started.." and yah yah 1 more.."i'll nv let u go my friend..coz u noe all my secrets.." haha actually e last quote hor..i tink more of funny than touching ba..a bit selfish de gan jue also..u dun let go of ya frend not coz u treasure e friendship but becoz u scared they will reveal ya secrets ma ? haha..but its sweet anyway..i tink best friends realli noes ya deepest secret and "they knows e song in your heart..n sings it for u when your memories fail"..haha all this friendship de quotes that i read from e small quote book at TM realli touches my heart..n i tink yah..quite true de wow..hee jus one last friends de quote which i quite like de " Best friend is one whom u can sit with in silence..n yet walked away feeling like u haf had e greatest conversation ever.."

hehe..hmm hao la..feel quite tired le..shall go back to my chem ;p hee haven do any revision for this weekend..all thanks to e puzzle..haha jkjk..hao la..go le..n yah..fungi ah..tml we alight 1 stop earlier ok..i doubt e dead rat wif its 2 babies had decomposed at chang cheng la..eee..dun wanna see it tml morning ;p haha ok..take gd care every1 ! byee..

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][.npo.][
][.thanksz.][

][.shuld i ?.][

][.shuld i?.][

hmm hiz bloggy..i m here again..coz i m hafing 2 qns on my mind now..shuld i ? is e qn that i m asking myself now..haha i nd sum1 to give mi sum help n to tell mi wad to do..yeah..haha..n this 2 qn are interlinked..haha..hmm wad shuld i do..i realli dunno..haha maybe..perhaps..after more thinking i will noe wad to do ba..haha but i doubt so..shugs man..hate making decisions..actually in life..many a time..u already noe e choice u wan le..u jus dun haf e courage to carry it out ba..

haha anyway today went for a jc n poly hub seminar..hence nv go trng..sms-ed ms leo..but jas jus told mi that ms leo ish overseas..haha hmm how ne..jus hope shuang feng coach isn't veri angry..den hmm went for e jc / poly hub..den sort of haf a clearer pic of wad i realli wan..tok to ah min also..haha i suddenly tink ah min de thinkings a bit a like as mine ;p haha jkjk..hmm yah..anyway..sorta of made up my mind of wad i realli wan..i feels that poly life ain't suitable for mi..n ah min tinks so too..so..yeah..now i onli left wif one choice le..so jus gotta work hard for e choice ;p hee..but yeah..feel much better now..at least i m clear wad i realli wan..haha thanks e seminar..thanks ah min ;p haha..hope every1 can haf an idea wad u realli wan too ba..hee

den hmm went to shop wif moi..coz she wanna buy jigsaw puzzle..n i bought lots of things too..spent $20 plus..kill mi man..so broke now..n my new shoes gave mi 2 beautiful cuts on my leg now..haha pain sia ;p den bought plaster for e cuts..hee n i tink snoopy realli cute sia..esp e bday card which has e rainbow ! so cool sia..haha rainbow ;p

haha hao la..i shall end here le..gotta go..go n tink abt e 2 qns..hope that sum1 can giv mi an ans wad to do..haha hao la..tctc..byee..

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][.npo.][
][.shuld i ?.][

][.i wanna go on a cruise trip.ard e world.][

][.i wanna go on a cruise trip.ard e world.][

yeah ! jus finished watching Shi Wan Tun Qing Yuan ! haha wei cheng n yama together *claps*...but ah Din veri ke lian..hee..nbm nbm..anyway after watching e show..i feel like going on a cruise trip at e end of e yr..e 1st time i went on cruise was like..10+yrs ago..woho..hmm realli hope to go on a cruise again..hee

..look at e scenery at e background..
wanna go on a cruise trip..hee wif a few gd frends la..hopefully can at e end of this yr..but i doubt can de la..haha due to e "schedule" and $_$ + parental objections ;p..haha but i realli hope to go on board a cruise..maybe when i slighty older la..den i will take e nice nice pics of sunset , sunrise n e stars..haha imagine u lying on e deck at nite..gazing at e stars n chatting wif ya gd frends regarding anything..wahaha shiok rite..haha psps i imagining too much..but realli hope that my dream can cum true la..hee coz on board a cruise give mi de gan jue jiu shi..away from reality..dun nd to face so many things..jus on e cruise..n enjoy that moments..

~ah din , wei cheng n NG~Cruise Director~Friends~

den i mus learn how to swim..as in realli noe how to swim..haha hmm..maybe nxt time i be cruise director den nd to save ppl mar..haha o my..wad craps i toking..dun mind mi man..hee..but i wun be cruise director de ba..gotta be a xin li yi shen..who haf a tau huay branch..opps..ish many tau huay branch..haha but who noes..e future ish uncertain de..hee maybe..perhaps..i may be jus a office worker..working from 9 to 5..or maybe a nobody..hee maybe ba..dunno la..when i old le..den we see la ;p hee

den hmm i wanna go e wind valley in LA too..haha wonder if there's realli this place sia..i mean is it realli in LA..haha coz i searched online..den gotta nothing abt it..but its realli nice la..haha saw e part when wei cheng went to e wind valley..den gotta sunset..hee so nice !!! e sunset ish shades of colours la..den e wind valley de thing there like so big..den wei cheng so small there..haha i mean yah..he ish so small size n blends in like an ant walking abt our hse in our household..haha wanna go dere..den feel small..n jus relaxed n walk ard..haha

~Wind Valley~

Wei cheng at e wind valley..

Yama at e wind valley..hee hoping to let e paper flowers fly..coz e show says..if all e paper flower flys..u will meet ya destinated lover ;p







..Sunset..an end to a day..

den hmm..yah..after o levels..i wanna go many many places..but not hanging out at shopping malls..or in cinema catching e latest show la..i wanna go to e nature..to e sea..to e hmm..i also dunno..haha so long nv hao hao de see sunset le..or shuld i say..i had nv sat down and watch e sun sets ;p hee..shall do that after o levels..haha

hao la..go le..tctc every1 ! byee..rmb..if u are tired..take a break..e world will still rotate even when we take a short break..hee so dun nd to stress yaself out la..i mean..yah mus study..must work hard but dun too stress..hee take care n jia u le ! hmm end of sep & e start of oct le !

haha oct..hmm usually looking forward to this month de ! but haha not this yr..haha maybe..

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