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i wanted to say life is unfair..
but i can't..

i dun tink life is unfair..
but i feel that life can be rather saddening at times..

sumtimes..sumthings..
u may work veri hard..
but ya efforts will jus go into e drains..

suddenly felt this way coz of sum1..
it sets mi thinking abt myself..
we seems to be in e same boat..

e efforts we put in is inversely propotional to e results..
yes..theres sumhow this saying that its not e result..but e process that matters..
i believe in that too..
but after "hearing" wad sum1 had say..
my belief is shaken..

i remembered writting a chi compo..title : "every1 is hao sheng de (wanna win de)"..
in that compo..
i wrote..no1 will ever pay attention to e loser..
once u lose a game..
no1 will bother abt how hard u train..
once u score badly..
who cares how hard u studied..

so tell mi now..
is it e process or result that matters..
no1 will care abt e process if u nv produce e result..

thats jus wad i feel personally..at this moment..
of coz i still believe in e importance of process..
but how many wuld care..
i dunno..

anyway..
i m sorta at lost..
i dunno if i shuld ask "sum1" not to give up ma..
i told sum1 not to give up..
n up till now i m still asking sum1 not to give up..

but now i m thinking..
if i ask sum1 not to give up..
will sum1 be happy..
is it realli wad sum1 wans..

i dunno..
but i m afraid that sum1 will regret upon giving up..
yet i m worried that sum1 haf to go thru e process of disappointment once again..

i realli dunno..
so all i hope now is..
sum1 will be strong..
believe in "yourself" (sum1)..

hmm psps..today's blog is meant for mi to sort out my thoughts..haha ytr was a rather disappointing day for mi too..din go alj da dui trng today..went for a normal sun break n prepare for tml..den luckily it ended wif sumthing nice..i felt encouraged once again..
so now..how shuld i encourage sum1 ne..so that sum1 will feel encouraged n not demoralised..like how i felt for a moment ytr..

jia u sum1 ! i believe if u read this blog..u will noe i m refering to u..but i doubt u will cum here ;p so jus wanna tell u..i will always be here for u,my friend =D..

hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..gotta go slp le..tml gonna be a long day..

..i was demoralised..disappointed..
..but once again..
.."encouraged" by u..
..thank you..

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