][.Buzzer beater & Derek Redmond.][
two inspirational videos that drove me to tears.
yups it's exams but haha just some inspirational videos ba.
hooked on to these as the op date edge nearer and nearer.
moving on to another stage. =]
Thailand Women's Team in 2011 SEA games.
ping shot the buzzer beater that drove me to tears.
always can't help but cry at buzzer beaters.
it's the split moment of faith and hope and miracle.
i won't call it miracle cause that shot came from numerous practice.
and feel so happy for ping.
1st saw her when i was in sec3.
back then, who would have thought that she could take e crucial winning shot?
or rather, who would have trusted her with that shot when there are senior players around?
but she did it. she did it this year.
claps and salutes.
buzzer beaters driving me to tears and i really miss the game.
Derek Redmond
another video and another guy that made me cry like mad.
http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/espn25/story?page=moments/94
went on to read about him and cried even more.
how much heartbreak can a man take?
this guy had the nightmare of all the athletes.
he withdrew from 1988 Olympics 10mins before because of an Achilles tendon injury. He then underwent five surgeries over the next year. This was the same runner who had shattered the British 400-meter record at age 19. So when the 1992 Games arrived, this was his time, his moment, his stage, to show the world how good he was and who he was.
only to have his dreams shattered once again.
and this was the Olympics.
really feel for him.
and in comparison, what i lost is only a season.
or maybe two.
before the 3rd month comes, i will get my new acl. =]
all smiles.
i will make it through the rain.
i will stand up once again.
on my own.
and i know.
i will make it through the rain.
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will make it through the rain.][
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Monday, November 14, 2011
][.Thoughts & Updates.][
][.Thoughts & Updates.][
hello bloggy!
it's 251pm on a tuesday! (15/11/11)
woohoo! i am done with fyp! =]
my dearest "baby" that i had been working on since june.
it had been a wonderful process.
i meant, a good learning process.
one that i will not regret.
thanks "Elderspeak in Singapore" & thanks my wonderful supervisor - Francesco.
thank you everyone who assisted me in a way or another. you guys assisted me in completing this work. (haha acknowledgement)
never thought of producing 60pgs and 12,000+ words.
this is a milestone in life.
on a side note,
when i was on the way to submit my fyp, i heard sec sch kids talking about their 'O' levels and random thoughts emerged.
PSLE, 'O' levels, 'A' levels & finally Uni.
这些路，这些年，我都走过了！
有好友相伴的一同走过。
在生命中的每个阶段都有苦与乐，但都走过了。
很庆幸，很幸福。
aw..after submission, went to watch "In Time" with my course mates & had awesome korean bbq -- 2 days 1 night. =]
"In Time" is really quite a cool show concept.
you will never learn to cherish your time if you have all the time in the world.
just as how we always managed to finish our work in time when e deadline is there.
guess we or maybe i must learn to have the clock tickling away and know that we are running out of time before we learn to cherish what we have ba.
so cherish it guys!
cherish the precious time. =]
and wanted to blog about you are the apple of my eyes. =]
just a simple nice show.
something that reminds everyone of their youth.
friends doing stupid things together.
simple sweet moments.
believed every1 have those days.
a take-away from the show..sometimes misunderstandings and lack of courage causes one to lose things in life. but everything happens for a reason. what's meant to be would be what's meant to be. there may be this little regret but everything does happen for a reason. =]
will start to read my book after exams!
heh ok..so that's what's going on in my life.
9 days to exams and less than 3 weeks to op.
5/12/10 i ran after my dream.
5/12/11 i am going to be brave and embrace my chance to go after my passion again.
such a coincidence.
5-yr-old and me could't stop laughing when we thought about it.
within a year of marathon, both of us have to go through that.
it's been 2 months & 1 day.
you can never forget the day. never.
现在的我，已经不晓得自己是否还有那热程了。
我很喜欢，很想念。
但这些日子的无奈让我不知该如何。
只想快点动手术，好让我能够往康复的道路前进。
裹足不前久了，会闷，会累。
haha alright.
just a random post.
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
hello bloggy!
it's 251pm on a tuesday! (15/11/11)
woohoo! i am done with fyp! =]
my dearest "baby" that i had been working on since june.
it had been a wonderful process.
i meant, a good learning process.
one that i will not regret.
thanks "Elderspeak in Singapore" & thanks my wonderful supervisor - Francesco.
thank you everyone who assisted me in a way or another. you guys assisted me in completing this work. (haha acknowledgement)
never thought of producing 60pgs and 12,000+ words.
this is a milestone in life.
on a side note,
when i was on the way to submit my fyp, i heard sec sch kids talking about their 'O' levels and random thoughts emerged.
PSLE, 'O' levels, 'A' levels & finally Uni.
这些路，这些年，我都走过了！
有好友相伴的一同走过。
在生命中的每个阶段都有苦与乐，但都走过了。
很庆幸，很幸福。
aw..after submission, went to watch "In Time" with my course mates & had awesome korean bbq -- 2 days 1 night. =]
"In Time" is really quite a cool show concept.
you will never learn to cherish your time if you have all the time in the world.
just as how we always managed to finish our work in time when e deadline is there.
guess we or maybe i must learn to have the clock tickling away and know that we are running out of time before we learn to cherish what we have ba.
so cherish it guys!
cherish the precious time. =]
and wanted to blog about you are the apple of my eyes. =]
just a simple nice show.
something that reminds everyone of their youth.
friends doing stupid things together.
simple sweet moments.
believed every1 have those days.
a take-away from the show..sometimes misunderstandings and lack of courage causes one to lose things in life. but everything happens for a reason. what's meant to be would be what's meant to be. there may be this little regret but everything does happen for a reason. =]
will start to read my book after exams!
heh ok..so that's what's going on in my life.
9 days to exams and less than 3 weeks to op.
5/12/10 i ran after my dream.
5/12/11 i am going to be brave and embrace my chance to go after my passion again.
such a coincidence.
5-yr-old and me could't stop laughing when we thought about it.
within a year of marathon, both of us have to go through that.
it's been 2 months & 1 day.
you can never forget the day. never.
现在的我，已经不晓得自己是否还有那热程了。
我很喜欢，很想念。
但这些日子的无奈让我不知该如何。
只想快点动手术，好让我能够往康复的道路前进。
裹足不前久了，会闷，会累。
haha alright.
just a random post.
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
Friday, November 11, 2011
][.blurring eyes. fyp.][
][.blurring eyes.fyp.][
i love you so.
so much that my heart, my thoughts and my eyes are just all on you.
yes you, my dearest fyp.
it's 330am in the morning.
i am surviving with a mocha latte from coffee bean.
editing my what's supposed to be final draft AGAIN for the FINAL draft.
don't get me wrong, not complaining.
am vvv much grateful and thankful towards francesco (my supervisor) for going over my draft again and again.
if i have to edit it again and again, he has to read it again and again.
for this, i am thankful.
mon 14/11/11 is going to be the submission.
haha just as i typed down the date, it's going to be the 2nd month of my torn acl.
life goes on.
that's all i gotta say.
for now, just have to focus on my fyp and settle it asap.
on a separate note, you are the apple of my eyes is really really awesome.
went to catch it and love it much.
will have a separate post on it after mon.
for now, take gd care every1!
back to work. =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.sorry.][
i love you so.
so much that my heart, my thoughts and my eyes are just all on you.
yes you, my dearest fyp.
it's 330am in the morning.
i am surviving with a mocha latte from coffee bean.
editing my what's supposed to be final draft AGAIN for the FINAL draft.
don't get me wrong, not complaining.
am vvv much grateful and thankful towards francesco (my supervisor) for going over my draft again and again.
if i have to edit it again and again, he has to read it again and again.
for this, i am thankful.
mon 14/11/11 is going to be the submission.
haha just as i typed down the date, it's going to be the 2nd month of my torn acl.
life goes on.
that's all i gotta say.
for now, just have to focus on my fyp and settle it asap.
on a separate note, you are the apple of my eyes is really really awesome.
went to catch it and love it much.
will have a separate post on it after mon.
for now, take gd care every1!
back to work. =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.sorry.][
Monday, October 31, 2011
][.f.y.p.][
][.f.y.p.][
typing typing.
staring staring.
editing editing.
oh shit oh shit.
this is the current state of my mind.
and world.
not overly stressed.
not un-stressed.
elderspeak oh elderspeak.
yes i love you so n no i don't when words don't flow.
how to put everything down in words.
so much can be going through your mind but translating things down into words can be hard at times isn't it?
if only my fyp word count goes up as fast as my blogging word count.
all and all..
i am just thankful for my ever supportive family <3
nothing feels better than being at home.
i miss meeting and chilling with my comfort company. <3
nov is madness.
hang in there every1! =]
on a side note, 4/11/11 is finally coming.
time to get a date for op.
i need to move on to the next phase.
it had been more than a month. =]
ok! back to stones and stares and type.
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.Happy 14th! =].][
typing typing.
staring staring.
editing editing.
oh shit oh shit.
this is the current state of my mind.
and world.
not overly stressed.
not un-stressed.
elderspeak oh elderspeak.
yes i love you so n no i don't when words don't flow.
how to put everything down in words.
so much can be going through your mind but translating things down into words can be hard at times isn't it?
if only my fyp word count goes up as fast as my blogging word count.
all and all..
i am just thankful for my ever supportive family <3
nothing feels better than being at home.
i miss meeting and chilling with my comfort company. <3
nov is madness.
hang in there every1! =]
on a side note, 4/11/11 is finally coming.
time to get a date for op.
i need to move on to the next phase.
it had been more than a month. =]
ok! back to stones and stares and type.
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.Happy 14th! =].][
Thursday, October 27, 2011
][.Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort.][
][.Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort.][
been a while since i blogged.
wanted to blog about 22nd but din had e time.
thanks to all that made my day special. <3
really appreciate it!
will have a separate post on that.
aw..today's post is kinda random but just my current mood and all.
i know i am rigid with my principles, i know i get stubborn when it comes to some but..
Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort to make our world a better place.
heal the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race!
it really really takes just that tiny bit from every1 to make things better for each and everyone.
but why do some people just refuse to play that part.
it really irks me whenever i see such situations and things.
1) BASIC! MOVE IN WHEN THERE IS SPACE ON THE BUS!
there was this guy who stood guard by his gf and refused to move in when there was so much space on the bus. hello dude! your gf is not a 3 year old kid, she don't need your protection so much such that you have to stand guard over her and not move your ass in when so many people are waiting to board the bus and it's raining dude! really really cannot stand such inconsiderate people.
2) TAKE THE INNER SEAT SO THAT OTHERS CAN HAVE A SEAT!
super selfish and super cannot stand it when people just refuse to move in to the inner seat. fine if you are going to alight soon and find it a trouble then at least make it a pt to offer people the inner seat! you have no idea if that person is feeling unwell or maybe his/ her leg is giving her problems at that instant! Be more considerate, seriously.
3) DRIVE WITH CARE! WHEN YOU ARE ON THE ROAD, DRIVE WITH CARE! FOR YOUR OWN SAFETY AS WELL AS OTHERS!
really can't take it when drivers refuses to stop at pedestrian crossing! hello! i know that our driving instructors told us that once you get your license you won't be as careful as when you are learning but still?! lives are at stake! stop that bloody car when people are crossing & it's not even jay walking! it's at the pedestrian crossing! HELLO DRIVERS! and the speed is like super fast! are you in a race? are you in a rush? you may just kill someone with your recklessness dude! get some sense! wake up your idea dudes!
things really can be so so simple.
but people loves to complicate it.
to all the selfish people out there, spare a thought, make some1's day. spare a thought, save a life.
and all these being said,
i believe there are many kind souls out there still.
thanks to all <3
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15][
][.就这么简单.][
been a while since i blogged.
wanted to blog about 22nd but din had e time.
thanks to all that made my day special. <3
really appreciate it!
will have a separate post on that.
aw..today's post is kinda random but just my current mood and all.
i know i am rigid with my principles, i know i get stubborn when it comes to some but..
Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort to make our world a better place.
heal the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race!
it really really takes just that tiny bit from every1 to make things better for each and everyone.
but why do some people just refuse to play that part.
it really irks me whenever i see such situations and things.
1) BASIC! MOVE IN WHEN THERE IS SPACE ON THE BUS!
there was this guy who stood guard by his gf and refused to move in when there was so much space on the bus. hello dude! your gf is not a 3 year old kid, she don't need your protection so much such that you have to stand guard over her and not move your ass in when so many people are waiting to board the bus and it's raining dude! really really cannot stand such inconsiderate people.
2) TAKE THE INNER SEAT SO THAT OTHERS CAN HAVE A SEAT!
super selfish and super cannot stand it when people just refuse to move in to the inner seat. fine if you are going to alight soon and find it a trouble then at least make it a pt to offer people the inner seat! you have no idea if that person is feeling unwell or maybe his/ her leg is giving her problems at that instant! Be more considerate, seriously.
3) DRIVE WITH CARE! WHEN YOU ARE ON THE ROAD, DRIVE WITH CARE! FOR YOUR OWN SAFETY AS WELL AS OTHERS!
really can't take it when drivers refuses to stop at pedestrian crossing! hello! i know that our driving instructors told us that once you get your license you won't be as careful as when you are learning but still?! lives are at stake! stop that bloody car when people are crossing & it's not even jay walking! it's at the pedestrian crossing! HELLO DRIVERS! and the speed is like super fast! are you in a race? are you in a rush? you may just kill someone with your recklessness dude! get some sense! wake up your idea dudes!
things really can be so so simple.
but people loves to complicate it.
to all the selfish people out there, spare a thought, make some1's day. spare a thought, save a life.
and all these being said,
i believe there are many kind souls out there still.
thanks to all <3
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15][
][.就这么简单.][
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
][.Fe's Prehab Prog.][
][.Fe's Prehab Prog.][
haha hello bloggy!
been a week since i blogged.
all's good. =]
some stuffs that happened over the week..
awesome spaghetti by chef terry tho! haha
really quite nice! thou appetizer and dessert was left out in e end =P
thanks terry tho!
Happy 2nd! =]
sat was forever5's bbq.
life will nv be the same without these 4 pigs. <3
my 1st birthday card! thanks guys! haha too paiseh to take it out in front of u all!
"turn to the sun and the shadow will fall behind"
my cutest mummy says:"turn to the sun and i will be chao-ta" =.=
after bbq n 1/2 round of mj. went home in e rain.
tot tt i will fall asleep but it turned out to be a emo night.
super super emo night.
chatted with moi from 130am till 530am.
about our knees.
about returning or not to the game.
about changes tt can't be helped with the injuries.
about the moments.
about the pain.
about the wu nai-ness.
about the cruelty.
haha n all the craps in the world.
it was a rainy night.
went to jq's 21st and back to tamp for massage tt night.
happy 21st jq meimei! =]
den here comes this wk.
so much a breather compared to the last.
had not headed to the gym this wk but went to physio to get a proper prehab plan.
quads had decreased from 44.5 to 43.5.
need to work on it =]
e flexibility is obvious when seen through the mirror.
but it's ok! i will work it back.
prehab is tired but it's just the start!
the road ahead is long.
walk it slow and steady fe! =]
positive self-talk once a day. haha
my prehap prog! special thanks to sek for all her help in explaining and simplifying the terms for me!
so many people to thank!
already tot of wad i can do after op apart from physio le!
but be4 tt..thanks to all who helped me one way or the other thru out this month!
2 more days to a month of "pop" goes my heart.
i wun be able to pull it thru without each of ur help!
thanks guys!
haha ok! shall go try n do some work le!
take gd care every1!
and shout out to 5-yr-old: 不要累坏了!
p/s: looking forward to timbre with family on sat! <3
][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][
haha hello bloggy!
been a week since i blogged.
all's good. =]
some stuffs that happened over the week..
awesome spaghetti by chef terry tho! haha
really quite nice! thou appetizer and dessert was left out in e end =P
thanks terry tho!
Happy 2nd! =]
sat was forever5's bbq.
life will nv be the same without these 4 pigs. <3
my 1st birthday card! thanks guys! haha too paiseh to take it out in front of u all!
"turn to the sun and the shadow will fall behind"
my cutest mummy says:"turn to the sun and i will be chao-ta" =.=
after bbq n 1/2 round of mj. went home in e rain.
tot tt i will fall asleep but it turned out to be a emo night.
super super emo night.
chatted with moi from 130am till 530am.
about our knees.
about returning or not to the game.
about changes tt can't be helped with the injuries.
about the moments.
about the pain.
about the wu nai-ness.
about the cruelty.
haha n all the craps in the world.
it was a rainy night.
went to jq's 21st and back to tamp for massage tt night.
happy 21st jq meimei! =]
den here comes this wk.
so much a breather compared to the last.
had not headed to the gym this wk but went to physio to get a proper prehab plan.
quads had decreased from 44.5 to 43.5.
need to work on it =]
e flexibility is obvious when seen through the mirror.
but it's ok! i will work it back.
prehab is tired but it's just the start!
the road ahead is long.
walk it slow and steady fe! =]
positive self-talk once a day. haha
my prehap prog! special thanks to sek for all her help in explaining and simplifying the terms for me!
so many people to thank!
already tot of wad i can do after op apart from physio le!
but be4 tt..thanks to all who helped me one way or the other thru out this month!
2 more days to a month of "pop" goes my heart.
i wun be able to pull it thru without each of ur help!
thanks guys!
haha ok! shall go try n do some work le!
take gd care every1!
and shout out to 5-yr-old: 不要累坏了!
p/s: looking forward to timbre with family on sat! <3
][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
][.New Hair, New Start.][
][.New Hair, New Start.][
Hello bloggy!
Here's my new best friend - my knee guard.
and my new hair style - short hair (that looks like a mushroom, coconut n any sort of food =P)
haha wells, let's have a new start with my new hair! =]
things are really not as hard as it seems.
and nothing is permanent.
so is pain.
things may not be the same as before but it's ok. (haha maybe not but yups, it will be ok! =])
you always need some changes in life.
whatever that don't kill you, really makes you stronger isn't it?
i can't do things that i can normally do.
i can't jog when i feel sad.
i can't put resistance on the bike and go faster on cross trainer.
but it's ok.
i can still train 20mins on cross trainer.
i can experience cycling fast on the bike.
and i am still who i am. =]
went to shoot after gym-ing today and i really respect those who came back after the injury.
cz i know deep down that as much as how much i want things to be like before,
i may not be able to play without that psychological barrier.
sometimes, it gets confusing.
you have no idea if you wanna tell yourself that you are ok so that you will function normally or you wanna tell yourself that things are diff.
it gets scary when it suddenly gives way.
it is scary.
but it's ok..=]
the hardest part was accepting.
that part is over, so now things are good =]
how can it not be when you have the best family and friends around?
little cards and notes never fail to make my day. <3
thanks loads to all! <3
injury is a sportswoman greatest fear.
but it's also one that she have to overcome to grow.
however if given a choice, i hope that all the sports woman in my life do not need to go through this phase. =]
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
Hello bloggy!
Here's my new best friend - my knee guard.
and my new hair style - short hair (that looks like a mushroom, coconut n any sort of food =P)
haha wells, let's have a new start with my new hair! =]
things are really not as hard as it seems.
and nothing is permanent.
so is pain.
things may not be the same as before but it's ok. (haha maybe not but yups, it will be ok! =])
you always need some changes in life.
whatever that don't kill you, really makes you stronger isn't it?
i can't do things that i can normally do.
i can't jog when i feel sad.
i can't put resistance on the bike and go faster on cross trainer.
but it's ok.
i can still train 20mins on cross trainer.
i can experience cycling fast on the bike.
and i am still who i am. =]
went to shoot after gym-ing today and i really respect those who came back after the injury.
cz i know deep down that as much as how much i want things to be like before,
i may not be able to play without that psychological barrier.
sometimes, it gets confusing.
you have no idea if you wanna tell yourself that you are ok so that you will function normally or you wanna tell yourself that things are diff.
it gets scary when it suddenly gives way.
it is scary.
but it's ok..=]
the hardest part was accepting.
that part is over, so now things are good =]
how can it not be when you have the best family and friends around?
little cards and notes never fail to make my day. <3
thanks loads to all! <3
injury is a sportswoman greatest fear.
but it's also one that she have to overcome to grow.
however if given a choice, i hope that all the sports woman in my life do not need to go through this phase. =]
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
][.Brace up for the dawn!.][
][.Brace up for the dawn!.][
hello bloggy!
i am back here once again.
encountered a down night last night when all i could do is cycle for 15mins and walk on the treadmill.
when all i could do is watch my team train and trying my best to keep my mind of the game for that 2hours plus.
it felt so bad and helpless.
it had been officially 2 weeks.
each day is a lesson.
everyday, i find myself working hard to be stronger than yesterday.
and hate all the down moments but you just can't avoid them.
right leg is currently going through muscles atrophy and it's worrying.
and part of the reason for depression and down-ness cause despite all the attempts to keep it in shape, it failed.
after cooling down, i guess perhaps it was the lack of techniques and exercises.
googled and found some pre-surgery exercises that i can do apart from cycling and hydro.
going to try them all.
come on fe!
don't be so weak!
some quotes to push me on..
(1) When the world says "Give up", Hope says "Try just one more time"
(2) In the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity.
(3) The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is the power to harm us - Voltaire
(4) You have to have a darkness..for the dawn to come!
it's tiring.
it really is.
but get up and move on!
life is a journey! =]
take gd care every1!
i am trying my best not to be down.
but if i am, just give me some time on my own..i will be ok.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.You gotta be stronger than this.][
hello bloggy!
i am back here once again.
encountered a down night last night when all i could do is cycle for 15mins and walk on the treadmill.
when all i could do is watch my team train and trying my best to keep my mind of the game for that 2hours plus.
it felt so bad and helpless.
it had been officially 2 weeks.
each day is a lesson.
everyday, i find myself working hard to be stronger than yesterday.
and hate all the down moments but you just can't avoid them.
right leg is currently going through muscles atrophy and it's worrying.
and part of the reason for depression and down-ness cause despite all the attempts to keep it in shape, it failed.
after cooling down, i guess perhaps it was the lack of techniques and exercises.
googled and found some pre-surgery exercises that i can do apart from cycling and hydro.
going to try them all.
come on fe!
don't be so weak!
some quotes to push me on..
(1) When the world says "Give up", Hope says "Try just one more time"
(2) In the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity.
(3) The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is the power to harm us - Voltaire
(4) You have to have a darkness..for the dawn to come!
it's tiring.
it really is.
but get up and move on!
life is a journey! =]
take gd care every1!
i am trying my best not to be down.
but if i am, just give me some time on my own..i will be ok.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.You gotta be stronger than this.][
Friday, September 23, 2011
][.Happy 13th Birthday DiDi!.][
][.Happy 13th Birthday DiDi!.][
Happy 13th birthday my dearest didi!
生日快乐baby bro! =]
thanks for bringing me 13years of happiness!
you taught me that it's amazing to love some1 and see some1 grow.
you brought me countless joy and it's such a nice feel to see you grow.
jiayou didi!
no matter how old you get, you will always be the didi that i wanna watch over.
no matter what challenges come in life, jiayou!
jiejie will always be watching your back! <3
Happy Birthday!
Keep smiling!
fe had regained her sanity.
road to recovery.
a year ahead.
let's go! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.keep the smile.][
Happy 13th birthday my dearest didi!
生日快乐baby bro! =]
thanks for bringing me 13years of happiness!
you taught me that it's amazing to love some1 and see some1 grow.
you brought me countless joy and it's such a nice feel to see you grow.
jiayou didi!
no matter how old you get, you will always be the didi that i wanna watch over.
no matter what challenges come in life, jiayou!
jiejie will always be watching your back! <3
Happy Birthday!
Keep smiling!
fe had regained her sanity.
road to recovery.
a year ahead.
let's go! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.keep the smile.][
Thursday, September 22, 2011
][.Sane in times of Insanity.][
][.Sane in times of Insanity.][
if i am not wrong, this is the moment that i jumped up and heard the "pop" sound.
this was the moment that drove me to the brim of insanity.
but it's ok.
it's time to face it and move on.
从哪里跌倒，就从哪里站起来。
this is definitely going to be a chapter in my life and in my basketball journey.
because, it's only when you had lost something so dear that you will understand how important and cherish it more.
i am finally gaining back my sanity.
bit by bit.
but definitely.
enough of tears.
enough of sadness.
enough of these.
anymore weaker, i will hate myself.
thanks for keeping me sane in times of insanity.
many had anchored my life during the past week.
Special thanks goes out to..
1) my ever supporting family - daddy and mummy <3
2) moi - for pessimistic talk non-stop and being there with me throughout this whole thing for all the doc and helping me distract. for all these, thanks bro! haha i won't say much coz you won't see and you will heck me anyway! but for everything, thanks bro! =]
3) 5-yr-old - thanks kid! really thanks thanks loads! you really keep me sane in times of insanity! you were there with me to receive the news.i wouldn't know how i will react if you weren't there with me. you know how devastated i was at the moment. you saw the uncontrollable me and sit me down to listen to all the options. (this reminds me of after "A" levels results where you sat me down and helped me with planning) thanks for playing the anchor of my life! =]
you truly understand and showed me the light. you know how pain it is to sit out during the last seasons but you showed me the strength that you used to pull through all these. you found ways for me when i wanted to play so much - cause you know how much pain i am going within that i am going insane. however, you were rational enough to pull me back from the brim of insanity. you taught me to calm down and face it and think. you were the only one that could bring sense to me in times of insanity.
for all these, thanks llz! thanks so so much! thanks for taking my indecisiveness! thanks for everything! <3
4) roomie - thanks roomie! you know how i almost went bonkers these few days. you saw how weak emotionally that i can just cry out all of a sudden. you saw it all and all. thanks loads roomie! i am sorry that i made you worried and if it's me, i know i won't be able to handle. i am sorry that i can't fight the last two seasons with you but i am so proud of you and i will always be here supporting you. the only moment that made me wanna step up and jumped onto the court was when i saw you almost cramping. hang in there alright? help me win these two seasons. we had had enough championship together but can i be selfish and request that you win these two for me too? thanks <3
5) bear - i am so sorry for losing it these few days. i really cannot take it but i will take it from now on. thanks for understanding and giving me time thou i always say you don't und. (that's just because i needed time on my own) no1 can help me out of these apart from myself. =]
6) thanks to my nan da team mates! thanks for taking such good care of me throughout these period. thanks to jieying ahma! thanks for accompanying me to hydro and keeping a look out for me every moment. =]
thanks loads to every1! i had found my sanity bit by bit. i know that there will still be moments where i cannot take it but i know i will take it. that's one thing for sure! coz i mark my words and today's maximum = tears in the eyes but nothing flows more than that. cause 脆弱够了。接下来就要加油了！=]]
take gd care every1!
5-yr-old shared this song with me and it really reflects how i feel this whole week.
I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door
I was so sick and tired
Of a livin' a lie
I was wishin' that I
Would die
It's Amazing
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
It's Amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's Amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight
That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation
And how high can you fly with broken wings?
Life's a journey not a destination
And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings
You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't liten to all that righteous talk
I was out on the street,
Just a tryin' to survive
take good care every1!
nitez! =]
i will be back.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.jiayou fe.][
if i am not wrong, this is the moment that i jumped up and heard the "pop" sound.
this was the moment that drove me to the brim of insanity.
but it's ok.
it's time to face it and move on.
从哪里跌倒，就从哪里站起来。
this is definitely going to be a chapter in my life and in my basketball journey.
because, it's only when you had lost something so dear that you will understand how important and cherish it more.
i am finally gaining back my sanity.
bit by bit.
but definitely.
enough of tears.
enough of sadness.
enough of these.
anymore weaker, i will hate myself.
thanks for keeping me sane in times of insanity.
many had anchored my life during the past week.
Special thanks goes out to..
1) my ever supporting family - daddy and mummy <3
2) moi - for pessimistic talk non-stop and being there with me throughout this whole thing for all the doc and helping me distract. for all these, thanks bro! haha i won't say much coz you won't see and you will heck me anyway! but for everything, thanks bro! =]
3) 5-yr-old - thanks kid! really thanks thanks loads! you really keep me sane in times of insanity! you were there with me to receive the news.i wouldn't know how i will react if you weren't there with me. you know how devastated i was at the moment. you saw the uncontrollable me and sit me down to listen to all the options. (this reminds me of after "A" levels results where you sat me down and helped me with planning) thanks for playing the anchor of my life! =]
you truly understand and showed me the light. you know how pain it is to sit out during the last seasons but you showed me the strength that you used to pull through all these. you found ways for me when i wanted to play so much - cause you know how much pain i am going within that i am going insane. however, you were rational enough to pull me back from the brim of insanity. you taught me to calm down and face it and think. you were the only one that could bring sense to me in times of insanity.
for all these, thanks llz! thanks so so much! thanks for taking my indecisiveness! thanks for everything! <3
4) roomie - thanks roomie! you know how i almost went bonkers these few days. you saw how weak emotionally that i can just cry out all of a sudden. you saw it all and all. thanks loads roomie! i am sorry that i made you worried and if it's me, i know i won't be able to handle. i am sorry that i can't fight the last two seasons with you but i am so proud of you and i will always be here supporting you. the only moment that made me wanna step up and jumped onto the court was when i saw you almost cramping. hang in there alright? help me win these two seasons. we had had enough championship together but can i be selfish and request that you win these two for me too? thanks <3
5) bear - i am so sorry for losing it these few days. i really cannot take it but i will take it from now on. thanks for understanding and giving me time thou i always say you don't und. (that's just because i needed time on my own) no1 can help me out of these apart from myself. =]
6) thanks to my nan da team mates! thanks for taking such good care of me throughout these period. thanks to jieying ahma! thanks for accompanying me to hydro and keeping a look out for me every moment. =]
thanks loads to every1! i had found my sanity bit by bit. i know that there will still be moments where i cannot take it but i know i will take it. that's one thing for sure! coz i mark my words and today's maximum = tears in the eyes but nothing flows more than that. cause 脆弱够了。接下来就要加油了！=]]
take gd care every1!
5-yr-old shared this song with me and it really reflects how i feel this whole week.
I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door
I was so sick and tired
Of a livin' a lie
I was wishin' that I
Would die
It's Amazing
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
It's Amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's Amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight
That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation
And how high can you fly with broken wings?
Life's a journey not a destination
And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings
You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't liten to all that righteous talk
I was out on the street,
Just a tryin' to survive
take good care every1!
nitez! =]
i will be back.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.jiayou fe.][
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
][.fe, stop it.][
][.fe, stop it.][
this is killing me from within.
every moment of convincing myself.
every moment of crying it all out.
i need to stop crying.
but i just can't.
it hurts so much that nothing apart from tears can express.
nothing.
there's really nothing that can make this pain lessen.
i don't wanna be down.
but i am quite certain i am in e deepest pit one can ever find.
every day, every moment of silence, every single thing that triggers it,
i would wonder why? why now?
why?
why?
why?
歇斯底里的痛哭。
这是第一次，没人能治愈这痛处。
how am i supposed to get through this?
how am i going to?
i feel so sorry towards all that had been here with me.
but this is beyond words.
every one has their own story.
and this story is too pain for me to bear.
i can withstand all the heartbreaks but this is more than that.
this is devastating.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.brace up.][
this is killing me from within.
every moment of convincing myself.
every moment of crying it all out.
i need to stop crying.
but i just can't.
it hurts so much that nothing apart from tears can express.
nothing.
there's really nothing that can make this pain lessen.
i don't wanna be down.
but i am quite certain i am in e deepest pit one can ever find.
every day, every moment of silence, every single thing that triggers it,
i would wonder why? why now?
why?
why?
why?
歇斯底里的痛哭。
这是第一次，没人能治愈这痛处。
how am i supposed to get through this?
how am i going to?
i feel so sorry towards all that had been here with me.
but this is beyond words.
every one has their own story.
and this story is too pain for me to bear.
i can withstand all the heartbreaks but this is more than that.
this is devastating.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.brace up.][
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
][.哭着睡着，哭着醒来.][
][.哭着睡着，哭着醒来.][
哭着睡着，哭着醒来。
哭，似乎成了唯一能减轻我的痛的方法。
但是越哭越痛。
我快哭疯了。
泪流不止。
心碎到极点。
在这样下去，我一定会疯。
我需要找会自己。
找回真正快乐的自己。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.快疯了.][
哭着睡着，哭着醒来。
哭，似乎成了唯一能减轻我的痛的方法。
但是越哭越痛。
我快哭疯了。
泪流不止。
心碎到极点。
在这样下去，我一定会疯。
我需要找会自己。
找回真正快乐的自己。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.快疯了.][
][.14/9/11 - 20/9/11.][
][.14/9/11 - 20/9/11.][
it had been a tough week.
it really had been.
emotional upheavals.
optimism being built up and lost each day.
this is draining.
it's confirmed.
acl complete tear.
i am just thankful that it's only acl and not mcl and meniscus is going to recover on its own.
i am just thankful that through it all, i have my ever supportive family, moi, 5-yr-old, roomie, my ntu team mates, coaches and bear.
i am just thankful that they are here for me.
it's not easy.
it really isn't.
allow myself some down time.
but i don't want to wallow in self-pity.
sadness can and must be overcome.
there must come a day where i must be able to put down the thought that it's ok.
this two seasons don't matter to me thou it means almost everything that i had been working for for the past-i-don't-know-how-long.
knowing that i can't be back for ivp is really a blow.
a big big blow.
dear knee, why?
why now?
i don't wanna ask why me?
i am ready to take all these.
but why? why now?
我很累。
真的很累。
乐观得累了。
坚强得累了。
假装无所谓得累了。
但，我更讨厌自我可怜的自己。
所以我要用最多的力量重新爬起来。
这真是我整个篮球生涯中最痛的一刻。
但，我庆幸在我的生命中，一切仍是美好的。
若我再次脆弱，请原谅我。
给我多点时间。
因为，这次真的跌得很重，很痛。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.哭累了就睡.][
it had been a tough week.
it really had been.
emotional upheavals.
optimism being built up and lost each day.
this is draining.
it's confirmed.
acl complete tear.
i am just thankful that it's only acl and not mcl and meniscus is going to recover on its own.
i am just thankful that through it all, i have my ever supportive family, moi, 5-yr-old, roomie, my ntu team mates, coaches and bear.
i am just thankful that they are here for me.
it's not easy.
it really isn't.
allow myself some down time.
but i don't want to wallow in self-pity.
sadness can and must be overcome.
there must come a day where i must be able to put down the thought that it's ok.
this two seasons don't matter to me thou it means almost everything that i had been working for for the past-i-don't-know-how-long.
knowing that i can't be back for ivp is really a blow.
a big big blow.
dear knee, why?
why now?
i don't wanna ask why me?
i am ready to take all these.
but why? why now?
我很累。
真的很累。
乐观得累了。
坚强得累了。
假装无所谓得累了。
但，我更讨厌自我可怜的自己。
所以我要用最多的力量重新爬起来。
这真是我整个篮球生涯中最痛的一刻。
但，我庆幸在我的生命中，一切仍是美好的。
若我再次脆弱，请原谅我。
给我多点时间。
因为，这次真的跌得很重，很痛。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.哭累了就睡.][
Monday, September 19, 2011
][.Guardian angels?.][
][.Guardian angels?.][
世界是美好的。
就算现在的心情不是最美好的。
但，世界仍是美好的。
我的乐观只是短暂的。
医生的一句"Suspected acl and mcl tear" 就足以让整个心跌进无底深渊。
做了MRI。
明天将知道成绩。
每当气愤，难过，伤心时，
老天总会提醒我，
身旁仍有很多人关心自己，陪伴自己。
这几天也感受到陌生人的温情。
让位给我的女生。
在摇晃的地铁中扶我一把，问候我的女士。
在巴士上看见我流泪而给我一包纸巾的女生。
每当想不通时，难过时，老天总会让这些陌生人提醒自己-- 生命仍是美好的。
感谢一群陪伴我左右的朋友。
你们的帮助和存在让我安心。
感谢家人从不责怪，耐心的相伴。
感谢尽在不言中。
每天的心情都像坐过山车。
我最不喜欢。
但一定不会有事。。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.学会坚强是我现在唯一能做的.][
世界是美好的。
就算现在的心情不是最美好的。
但，世界仍是美好的。
我的乐观只是短暂的。
医生的一句"Suspected acl and mcl tear" 就足以让整个心跌进无底深渊。
做了MRI。
明天将知道成绩。
每当气愤，难过，伤心时，
老天总会提醒我，
身旁仍有很多人关心自己，陪伴自己。
这几天也感受到陌生人的温情。
让位给我的女生。
在摇晃的地铁中扶我一把，问候我的女士。
在巴士上看见我流泪而给我一包纸巾的女生。
每当想不通时，难过时，老天总会让这些陌生人提醒自己-- 生命仍是美好的。
感谢一群陪伴我左右的朋友。
你们的帮助和存在让我安心。
感谢家人从不责怪，耐心的相伴。
感谢尽在不言中。
每天的心情都像坐过山车。
我最不喜欢。
但一定不会有事。。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.学会坚强是我现在唯一能做的.][
Sunday, September 18, 2011
][.Optimistic.][
][.Optimistic.][
first time that i truly feel optimistic after so many days.
(the rest were just faked optimism =P)
woke up feeling that knee is good and bendable.
thank you lao tian ye!
nonetheless, still going for the doc consultation later.
hoping that everything will be good.
*crosses finger*
take gd care every1!
hopefully my next post will be with loads of =D
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
first time that i truly feel optimistic after so many days.
(the rest were just faked optimism =P)
woke up feeling that knee is good and bendable.
thank you lao tian ye!
nonetheless, still going for the doc consultation later.
hoping that everything will be good.
*crosses finger*
take gd care every1!
hopefully my next post will be with loads of =D
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.夜晚是最脆弱的时刻.][
][.夜晚是最脆弱的时刻.][
又到了夜晚。
到了最软弱的时刻。
今天忙了一整天。
让自己不去想。
明天将看医生。
negative thoughts please deplete yourself.
down moments please get out of my life.
i hate living in such self-pity moments.
i hate tearing at the thought of it.
i hate such a weak me.
i need to be zen.
i need to really smile.
i need to really be ok.
i need to be able to be more than ok.
i need to stop all these.
ps. thanks to all that had been here through these days. <3
][.10.fe.15.][
][.mood swings.][
又到了夜晚。
到了最软弱的时刻。
今天忙了一整天。
让自己不去想。
明天将看医生。
negative thoughts please deplete yourself.
down moments please get out of my life.
i hate living in such self-pity moments.
i hate tearing at the thought of it.
i hate such a weak me.
i need to be zen.
i need to really smile.
i need to really be ok.
i need to be able to be more than ok.
i need to stop all these.
ps. thanks to all that had been here through these days. <3
][.10.fe.15.][
][.mood swings.][
Saturday, September 17, 2011
][.Leg Spoil,Brain Spoil, Heart Spoil.][
][.Leg Spoil,Brain Spoil, Heart Spoil.][
快疯了。
心碎最痛，这就好像胫骨断裂，没有人看得到，但每次呼吸都会痛 。
每刻一静下就会想哭。
每刻一想起就想哭。
哭到心碎了，累了就去睡。
讨厌如此软弱的自己。
但，真的很怕，很心碎。
不能不去想。
只希望。。。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.pain maximum.][
快疯了。
心碎最痛，这就好像胫骨断裂，没有人看得到，但每次呼吸都会痛 。
每刻一静下就会想哭。
每刻一想起就想哭。
哭到心碎了，累了就去睡。
讨厌如此软弱的自己。
但，真的很怕，很心碎。
不能不去想。
只希望。。。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.pain maximum.][
Thursday, September 15, 2011
][.Give me some time.][
][.Give me some time.][
hey bloggy! i should not be here at this hour.
i should be studying for my quiz.
but there's nowhere else that i can think of expressing how i feel.
it's been so long so long since i feel so pain.
it's been so long so long since i feel so helpless and speechless.
it feels so bad that i just wish to go on a trip alone for the next few days.
all by myself.
injured my knee and ankle.
good news amidst everything = knee is ok apart from acl n lcl strain.
but the flexibility is not there.
friends who truly care is helping me max.
and i call these my true friends who knock senses into me at this pt of time.
they are trying their best to convince me not to play.
i am absolutely thankful for my team mates.
really really thankful.
i understand tt i should not be stubborn.
i understand tt if i wasn't in my shoes, i will definitely do all i can to stop tt team mate from playing too.
but now here i am.
the person in these shoes.
these f-ing shoes.
if i disappear for these 2days or so, don't worry.
i just need some time alone.
sorry to cost you all so much worry and headache.
just give me sometime alright?
some time without thinking about all these.
all i ask for is some time to let me heal.
let me heal emotionally and physically.
meanwhile, let's go team! go get it down! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.away.][
Monday, September 05, 2011
][.Cherish.][
][.Cherish.][
hello bloggy!
everything is going on well.
kinda lazy to blog cz every moment the nua-er just want to nua and rest.
season is starting in a week.
looking forward to it.
and will do everything within my abilities to help the team get it!
been a while since i feel this flame in me.
last 2 seasons in ntu.
6 seasons had passed.
to me, this team is like a precious baby.
we started off with nothing and became something.
we been through all the shit and fought through all the seasons to get where we are today.
it had not been easy. it really hasn't.
only people who had been through all the shits understands it.
so i won't allow anyone to destroy it.
in short, ntu basketball is my greatest achievement and joy in NTU.
and i truly cherish the team. <3
if you truly cherish something,
you would do everything you can for it.
and not otherwise.
let's go nan da!
we can and we will do it!
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.fight hard!.][
hello bloggy!
everything is going on well.
kinda lazy to blog cz every moment the nua-er just want to nua and rest.
season is starting in a week.
looking forward to it.
and will do everything within my abilities to help the team get it!
been a while since i feel this flame in me.
last 2 seasons in ntu.
6 seasons had passed.
to me, this team is like a precious baby.
we started off with nothing and became something.
we been through all the shit and fought through all the seasons to get where we are today.
it had not been easy. it really hasn't.
only people who had been through all the shits understands it.
so i won't allow anyone to destroy it.
in short, ntu basketball is my greatest achievement and joy in NTU.
and i truly cherish the team. <3
if you truly cherish something,
you would do everything you can for it.
and not otherwise.
let's go nan da!
we can and we will do it!
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.fight hard!.][
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
][.Wednesday.][
][.Wednesday.][
Hello bloggy!
It's currently 10am. I am up and awake!
Free day today! =]
time really flies! last Wednesday was away from the city with llz!
shall back track a little today!! hee
17/8/11
3-yr-old and 5-yr-old decided that they should make a trip to kusu island on a wed! =D
haha feels so good to be away from the city!
away from all the buzz and just nua by the beach, walk around, eat and catch up with a good friend!
enjoy such moments! once in a while, every1 should do this!
and..那里真的很美！
thanks loads to 5-yr-old for bringing me there!
it had been 5yrs but i am certain that this is a f/s to be cherished!
and as always..i'm thankful.
here's a nice sad song!
enjoy! =]
and woohoo..time flies.
we made it past e 4days. =]
we are still as diff as we can but e understanding over e yrs had made us und each other more.
i always believe that things happen for a reason.
n there are still many things that we have to overcome bit by bit.
but i hope this will be diff from the rest.
let time prove it yups =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
Hello bloggy!
It's currently 10am. I am up and awake!
Free day today! =]
time really flies! last Wednesday was away from the city with llz!
shall back track a little today!! hee
17/8/11
3-yr-old and 5-yr-old decided that they should make a trip to kusu island on a wed! =D
haha feels so good to be away from the city!
away from all the buzz and just nua by the beach, walk around, eat and catch up with a good friend!
enjoy such moments! once in a while, every1 should do this!
and..那里真的很美！
thanks loads to 5-yr-old for bringing me there!
it had been 5yrs but i am certain that this is a f/s to be cherished!
and as always..i'm thankful.
here's a nice sad song!
enjoy! =]
and woohoo..time flies.
we made it past e 4days. =]
we are still as diff as we can but e understanding over e yrs had made us und each other more.
i always believe that things happen for a reason.
n there are still many things that we have to overcome bit by bit.
but i hope this will be diff from the rest.
let time prove it yups =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
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