it had been a tough week.
it really had been.
emotional upheavals.
optimism being built up and lost each day.
this is draining.
it's confirmed.
acl complete tear.
i am just thankful that it's only acl and not mcl and meniscus is going to recover on its own.
i am just thankful that through it all, i have my ever supportive family, moi, 5-yr-old, roomie, my ntu team mates, coaches and bear.
i am just thankful that they are here for me.
it's not easy.
it really isn't.
allow myself some down time.
but i don't want to wallow in self-pity.
sadness can and must be overcome.
there must come a day where i must be able to put down the thought that it's ok.
this two seasons don't matter to me thou it means almost everything that i had been working for for the past-i-don't-know-how-long.
knowing that i can't be back for ivp is really a blow.
a big big blow.
dear knee, why?
why now?
i don't wanna ask why me?
i am ready to take all these.
but why? why now?
我很累。
真的很累。
乐观得累了。
坚强得累了。
假装无所谓得累了。
但，我更讨厌自我可怜的自己。
所以我要用最多的力量重新爬起来。
这真是我整个篮球生涯中最痛的一刻。
但，我庆幸在我的生命中，一切仍是美好的。
若我再次脆弱，请原谅我。
给我多点时间。
因为，这次真的跌得很重，很痛。
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