][.nonchalant.][

][.nonchalant.][

talked to wen last nite.
screamed into e phone.
lol, both of us are realli RV hor wen =P

aw thou we r RV, she said sumthing tt struck mi.
fang xia ba. =]
since it mean nth anymore.

aw jus came bac from e club events.
sighs.
missed so many or rather all e free throws n e 2 crucial lan di(s).
agrh it's a b c d e f g de freaking agrh!
e most cannot forgive de thing.
under baskets.
haiz.
n coach's "scoldings" after tt.
i m nt sadden by it.
cz i m more disappointed by myself then.

going bac to e game had gave mi too much heartaches le.
miracle had lost it's way. =]
jus wanna say thanks to sum1 who always unknowingly, gave mi e strength to move on. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i hope i can ignore everything.][

][.tui hou.][

][.tui hou.][

jus came bac frm airport =]
nice ranting to mei at starbucks w my fav mocha peppermint frappe =D
aw it's realli nice chilling out..haha n thanks loads loads loads for e nice nice gift mei! i owe u one =D it's on e way..haha santa papa on e way =P

aw chatted abt north south east west.
but most of e time it was ard e "special friend".
lol, mei asked mi a qn n i gave her e ans tt i always give myself.
no regrets? dun miss?
no.
hah..tink tt's e ans tt i always try to convince myself with ba =]
e truth is, it's nt no regrets.
it's jus contentment with e current life.
too contented to get out of e comfort zone.
no confidence to be e gd friend, so dun dare to.
kept on saying tt it wuld be e new yr resolutions.
n new yr is cuming yet e pics stays.

jus read one of e ancient msgs.
.semit esoht ssim od i sey n
haf a sudden urge to give u a call n randomly ask if u r still doing well. (which i noe u do)
haf a sudden urge to drop u a msg n ask how r u doing nw.
but hah.why e sudden urge?
i haf no idea.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..
n i realli learnt sumthing.
珍惜眼前人。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.shuld i?.][

][.e smile.][

][.e smile.][

got my 1st pay of my life today.
lol, it's much lesser than i calculated cz it's 1/2 e mth de =P
but wells..still happy =]

went to get gifts.
heh, glad tt mummy loves it =D
daddy n didi is jealous =P haha jkjk.

aw my horoscope for e day:
"u shuld spend time with ya gd friends today even if it means escaping responsibility"
hah..realli hoped to spend time w my gd friends de.
but wells..hah every1 is tired out.
so went shopping by myself after work. =]

lol..i realli wanna change my blogskin.
new yr is cuming! haha throw all e bad memories behind n prep to say gdbye to 2007 ba every1!

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.alone.][

][.u nv say gdbye.][

][.u nv say gdbye.][

woohoo..mus be mad to be here at this hr when i m working tml =P
jus finished watching "my girl" haha
thou it's quite draggy at e front, but e show is realli funny n cliche de nice =P
haha n e best thing is..
in e end, there's "hao jie chun xiang" tt 2 main characters as e real cousin n couple.
realli lol until haha.
korean dramas realli keep mi entertained loads during this period after As.
haha tink i m gg to borrow another set of dramas ba..
but dunno will be as nice as this 2 ma =D
haha happy n sad at e same time.
tears n laughters.
guessed this is life ba, everything is a mixture of everything.

slept my day away.
woke up late n went bac to slp in e noon till evening..
off for dinner n bac for e drama =P
wen would call mi a loser ba =]
but wells..haha such a carefree life is realli nice in a way.
but to quote llz "hen rong yi hu si luan xiang".

aw xmas eve was spent at cindy coach's hse..realli quite nice de =]
haha came hm quite late or rather very =P
realli appreciate e presents but haha no replies for e msgs.

woohoo..bac to e "hu si luan xiang" part.
while watching e show, sumthing struck mi =]
new yr is cuming n i haf a resolution.
keep all e past memories in a box n put it away.
cz as e time passes, memories realli do fade.
it's jus e stubborn attitude tt is trying to rmb stuffs.
so hah..let it be put away w e box ba.

another resolution is to stop hafing so much expectations n hope from others.
cz, it's tiring to expect n hope.
e higher e expectations, e greater e disappointments.
this applies to every1.
dun expect, so tt u wun be disappointed =]

haha rather random n lame de resolutions, when it's finally new yr, i wuld cum up with my proper resolutions ba =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

shall go n rent another set of drama n "entrap" myself within it ba =] jus can't wait for guitar lessons to start. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.nice song.][

][.i jus wanna forget e past, e memories.][

][.i jus wanna forget e past, e memories.][

sumtimes i think i realli haf a gd memory apart frm making gd use of em for my studies.
i realli realli hope tt there's sum water or wang qing shui or wadsoever to allow mi to forget parts of e past.

went orchad for 2 consect days.
for a person who dun often goes to town.
n dun like crowds.
it's realli tiring.
ytr was with chai luan n today with employer =]
grins!
so realli tired now.
so is e wallet.
but i haf no idea wad haf i got man =]

bac to "wang qing shui".
if dere is..
i wanna forget parts of e past.

听说你现在过的很好。
为你感到欣慰。
听说你换了很多新的东西。
你一定很快乐，
因为现在已没有一个批评你的东西丑，
叫你不要乱花钱的朋友了。
你一定过的很自在。

真的很希望我能把过去全都忘了。
因为，片刻的回忆有时会让原本枯燥的眼眸泛起一丝丝的泪光。
我不后悔，
但有时，真的很希望我们从没认识过。
真的希望能忘掉这段友情的点点滴滴。
忘掉曾有的欢乐与泪水。
更想忘掉的是，那一次次争吵后的坦诚相对。
想忘掉这一切。
真的很想。

很喜欢，很习惯现在平静的日子。
这一切就像回到了还没认识你之前。
简单，平凡的快乐。
不想改变任何的一切。
只想更珍惜那些从没放弃我的好友。
虽然已经很习惯和知足了，
但每回经过一些勾起回忆的地方，
还是会想起许久没联络的你..

只想忘掉一切,
因为,已经是过去事.
你也早已放下,往前走了.
我也应该完全放下,
不再想起.
谢谢你曾教过我的一切.
谢谢你曾对我的好.
对不起..

haha lalala crapping again ;p realli lame to rmb so many things..but haha seasons jus make ppl recall of e times..wells..jus this last time ba =D cz, i noe there r many more things n ppl tt i shuld cherish..wad's over is over, no pt holding on =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.let go.][

][.memories.][

][.memories.][

christmas is round e corner =]
had e last game of e season.
memories floating back.
hah.
wad a weird way to describe it.

while tinking of e gifts..
last yr's christmas's preparations jus "floated" back.
haha.
many things can be tried to put aside.
many memories can be placed aside for a while.
but during such seasons,
sumthings jus can't be bury beneath.

would u ever regret knowing sum1?
i wuld not.
cz every1 tt u met would have changed u in a way or another.

read a post n felt even more.
wun get to meet up w u be4 due to e schedule.
haha, dunno if that's a gd thing or bad thing.
wadever it is..
all these are jus memories.
things would nv get back to be4.
i m happy as i m now.
apart frm a little regret now a dere as to why things turned out this way.
but, i noe e ans.
we are jus too different to be friends.

so jus hope tt everything is gg on well for u too.=]
sighs.
e last bit be4 e completely gdbye.
holding on to e thin thread.
got used to e days tt r diff frm e past.
wad abt u? =]
i wuld nv noe e ans.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.tired.][

][.tired.][

super tired now.
as expected de, we lost e game.
pls, nv tot of winning it anyway (tt wuld be day-dreaming)
but nv wanted to lose in this way too.
can't hold it within anymore.

exploded to coach abt how i felt.
e disappointment nt due to e outcome of e game.
but e process.
e efforts.
tired of playing in such an environment.
wad's e pt when onli this few ppl tries so hard.
1 hand can't clap.

e outcome of e talk.
= 1 more yr.
1 more try.
if this persist.
give up.

aw generally, today is a nice nice day apart frm e disappointment w e team. of coz there's also those tt make loads of efforts. to those team mates..jus wanna say thanks loads. bac to e nice nice day. nua-ed till ard 11 (opps sorry llz ;p) was supposed to meet auntie joy at 11:30 de =P aw went for realli nice jap buffet =D haha e food was wow..see already dou v happy =P haha had my 1st taste of sashimi..n loads of green tea which disgusted sum1 =P jkjk..aw it's realli nice..shall go dere again..but wells..such "sinful" behavior is onli allowed once in a while =P

after e super nice lunch..walked ard in suntec be4 gg over to e guitar shop..wooohooo..cool shit..i tink i m realli going to enjoy my guitar lessons =D haha yups i jus enrolled into 1 =P haha spent a while dere..n when llz plays e guitar..(ahem i m secretly wondering when would i be able to n jus can't wait to learn how to =P)..n i realli v blur..bought a case for e guitar..but got e wrong one =X got e one for electric guitar instead =P..

haha after which..it was 2nd hand bks hunting time..haha got a few books..yeah =D man zai er gui! haha to sum up..today is realli a gd gd day to spend a holiday..simple n fulfiling =P apart frm e minor disappointment at nite..everything is =]

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.cross roads.][

][.cross roads.][

站在三岔口，
总是逃不过的选择的命运。
一次又一次的“打击”让人很累。
选择保持沉默是因为不想自己如此的脆弱。
最终的选择，
我只希望，不会让自己后悔。

你已不像从前，
我也不是小孩了。
所以，现在的我。。
只能靠自己的力量了。=]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.roller-coaster.][

][.roller-coaster.][

i haf nv had e courage to take a roller-coaster ride.
cz i can't even stand pirate ship n wuld vomit like shit.
but right now.
i feel like i m on a roller-coaster ride.

it started off at e bottom.
n slowly climbed bac to e peak.
n goes crashing down again. [n if u take those rides, i guess when it's cuming down, u wuld scream ur lungs out so tt u wuld feel better =] ]
but i m nt screaming.
instead i m smiling at my stupidity 4 doubting.
it's my choice to get bac.
i haf to face it.
n it's getting numb =]

sumtimes reality is harsh.
u jus gotta face it.
sumtimes attitude alone is not sufficient.
hardwork is also insufficient.
at e end of e day,
it all boils down to 1 thing.
u got e skills?
u get e playing time.
w regards to cuming trng or nt.
w regards if ya attitude is gd or bad.
u score, u perform, u play.

u once asked mi wad happened n who bullied mi.
i realli wanted to tell u everything.
realli did, as always.
apart frm 1 thing tt i kept it within myself.
cz, it doesn't matter.
at e end of e day, reality matters.
i understand.
n i recognise tt.

tears no more.
cz i m in e process of learning to be stronger.
no tears when we lose a game.
no tears when warming e bench becums a routine.
no more tears.
cz, i m learning to be stronger, in e mind n in e heart.

sumtimes i realli hope tt u wuld b aware of how i feel.
but i m nt letting e tears fall.
cz i m learning to be stronger day by day.
n at e end of e day,
wad matter most is e TEAM. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sumtimes, i realli hope tt we culd go bac to e past.][

][.scary.][

][.scary.][

it's scary when u see ya team-mates getting injuried,
one after another.
gwen's ankle, yaqi's knee.
it's jus scary.
pls get well n get back soon ok!
need u guys! =]

aw..it's realli scary.
it's so much contact.
n even more for centers.
ankle felt a little weird but chose to ignore it.
shall guard it well tml.
little finger is swollen.
right knee is acting up again.
at e end of e day,
why r we playing despite all these injuries?
i haf no ans for it. =]

con-fe-dence lvl is taking a roller coaster ride.
need to regain it.
ah, llz, jing n wen quickly cum bac!
haha. lonely, i m so lonely.
all on my own =P
haha..nowadays jus feel so tired mentally.
n jus hope to shut my ears from e world.
shhh..silence.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.wuld u?.][

][.lol.][

][.lol.][

i jus dyed my hair!
haha i mean highlight..
lol, yes i m a G (quote wen) =P
heh, it's a breakthrough ok =]
paiseh jing n fungi, wen n mi bian huai le =P (jkjk, we r always us =])

aw this wk had been quite a hmm nice n usual wk?
haha work, slp, tv n..
apart from today's dye hair (exciting)
n of cz, meeting up w CK's kids at orchad for pepper lunch =P
haha n e beautiful deco at orchad road =D heh
it's nice!
reminds mi of e time tt we sell e christmas stuffs along e orchad streets =P
lol..those were e exciting n lame times =D

aw, life is relaxing..
i m loving it..
chilling =P

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n it's been a decade.][

][.amazing.][

][.amazing.][

jus came bac from bball at 230 w wen n her team mates.
or rather mi n myself cz they left after a short while ( cz i went too late ;p)
aw, it's realli gd.
e touch,
e sweat.
everything.

haha n guys, is it in their nature to feel more superior than us?
i dunno.
but at least when u prove yaself n these guys respect n acknowledge u,
they r much much better than those arrogant shit who look down on u despite being least superior than u.
aw had a gd time playing.
enjoy street basketball.
cz it's jus so relaxing,
no restrictions, jus play e way u wan.
no formations.
no fixed moves tt u nd to do.
no fixed position tt u nd to play.
it's jus play it =]

aw it's realli amazing how we start frm scratch n "master" it eventually.
u ain't born to be able to walk.
but u learnt,
u fall n u bruised ya knees n u get up.
n be4 u noe, u master e skills of balancing n walking.
n it became so nature n simple tt u eventually forgot tt u ain't born w e skills.

same for everything.
eg. playing basketball.
u ain't given e ability to make e basket rite from e start isn't it? =]
life is jus abt trying n failing n getting up n cont e journey.

haha gosh, i m crapping again =P
pardon mi, cz i m gg to be a loner =X
haha llz is nt in s'pore.
jing is flying off tml.
haha wen is busy w chalet n her cousin.
fungi is busy w attachment.
gosh, tt left mi to be..
all by myself.
loner shit =P
jkjk..

well..time alone can be nice too =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n i smiled.][

][.take me dere.][

][.take me dere.][

haha been quite long since i last blogged?
actually nt v sure, but compared to e daily habit of bloggin,
dis shuld be quite sum time.

today is e end of e season.
hmm tink i realli learnt to be stronger after this season ba.
frm e initial tears of tired-ness n inability to get back.
till e tears due to e 1st lost of e yr.
till e 7mins chance n unable to perform.
tears no more.

on e contrary,
it's a stronger me.
1 tt finally understood e pain of a lost.
e pain of time ticking away while e opponent holds e ball n dere's nth u can do.
n finally understood tt every victory shuld nt be taken for granted.
cz, this is sports.
e ball is round,
jus a slip n careless mistake wuld cause e game to change.

tink tt's e most impt thing i learnt ba.
sumthing tt u wuld onli understand after u endure a lost.
u wuld mature n grow.
hahaha
as for e game today,
it's another enlightenment.
or rather for this season,
i enjoy e feeling of being a supporting pawn.

now tt it's e end,
it's time for a new yr resolution.
n yeah.
get bac! =D
take me dere!

haha ok..abv is abt basketball..aw realli wanna thank e team =] n haha life goes on..thou it's a little monotonous nowadays ;p but..i m still enjoying my slacking life..n gosh!!! i seriously nd to go on a massive diet be4 my face can be as round as a ball! n e diet plan shall start tml! =D

haha n great, had e greatest movie marathon w e pigs ytr! haha sorry abt tt! we din even finish 1/2 a movie, every1 jiu snooze le ;p left ke lian de jing ownself watch n cry =P haha but aw..jus wanna say thanks pigs e lifetime pigs! hahah

hao la..kinda of tired..take gd care every1! byeee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.guardian angel.][

][.feel it.][

][.feel it.][

with 2 beautiful blisters each on both legs.
i m jus amazed how e pain disappear during e game.
quote daddy "u bluff mi de la..on court run n run, game finish jiu walk like snail =P"

it's amazing how e pain dun matters when u focus on e thing u love.
jus finished my dinner after e game with teck ghee.
was realli tired after work n rushing down.
culd nt get e shots in during warm ups.

e game was nt too gd.
but realli glad tt we made it as a team.
thank you team-mates! =]
n it's cuming bac.
i mean, e con-fe-dence.
enjoying e game.
thanks guardian angel n all (eg. kem team n coaches) n llz, wen, jing for helping mi bac into e game =]

n i m hafing e shark fin soup nw.
n gosh, i m DARN ANGERY!
i wan my VINEGER!
i told e person i wan MORE VINEGER!
n she gave mi more pepper n no vineger!
AGRH A B C D E F G !

cool down cool down..
shall nt let tt spoil my beautiful day!

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cz every little thing u do, makes mi wanna fight for u.][

][.be4 u noe, it's over.][

][.be4 u noe, it's over.][

many things in life..be4 u noe, it's over.
today morning was 4th gugu last day of funeral.
e tears, e prayers, n be4 u noe,
tt's e end of one's life.

jus wanna say,
cherish those ard u (cliche n old but v true,at least to mi)
dun hold a tanturm n regret onli when all is over.

thankful for all that i haf.
realli.
esp my family n my friends.
thankful to heaven for allowing mi to haf such great family n friends n allowing mi to do things tt i love eg. playing basketball.
thankful for everything, realli.

hao la..kinda of tired le.n e blisters are jus nt bursting! agrh..go snooze le..take gd care every1! byee...

][.10.fe.15.][
][.protect mi, guardian angel.][

][.hah.][

][.hah.][

less than 5mins ago, i jus blogged n said tt there's a blockage inside mi tt e words can't flow.
n yet less than 5mins, i m here again.
read an entry n felt realli happy for sum1. realli =D
e feeling of being able to meet up w sum1 tt u had wanted to meet for so long, n not feeling a tinge of awkwardness is e best thing ever.

to quote e sum1 tt i m realli happy for => " it was alil sad to put it that way, but circumstances jt really know how to toy arnd with people. having a one-year age gap is frustrating. although we both said one can never really be too busy to meet up with friends. but stimes, just stimes, alot of things clash and happen at the wrong time.".

exactly how i feels. so i always believe tt hafing friends of e same age is e best. cz, dere wuld nv be a time which u guys wuld be at diff stages of life n doing diff things, leaving each other behind.no1 shuld be left behind. walk beside each other n be friends for life. but, life is jus harsh. a 1 yr age gap, sumtimes jus make e diff when e little efforts ceased, e gap widens.


tell mi, how many friends do u haf tt culd ceased communication for a period of time n yet get bac tgt n fill each other regarding each's life w/o feel strange n all?. if u ask mi, i wuld onli say dere's onli e pigs. or rather less than 5 person who culd give mi tt confidence. e confidence tt despite e lack of communication, i still noe tt u care n wuld be dere n we wuld be like be4.

it's been quite sum time since life moves on w/o communication w e once special friend. sumtimes,i realli feel like dropping a msg to wen hou ni. but in e end, i din, cz i tink tt's wad best for all ba. we r jus too diff to click. n i realli owe u too much, in terms of everything. xiexie ni. jus hope tt if we ever get to meet again, it wun be tt awkward. =]

hao la..end here le.take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.ni shi wo de guo ke.][

][.moods.][

][.moods.][

haha.
nowadays, dere's so much to say n note down.
n yet i tink dere's a blockage in mi.
like words jus can't flow out naturally to describe how i feel.
well..life.

aw, looking fwd to mon.
yeah jing =D
n wen, xie lo.
still enjoying my work =]

hao la.
shall go n bake.
it's been so long since i last baked.
n it jus reminds mi of so much.
peng you, ni hai hao ma?

end here le.
take gd care every1!
byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.past,present,future.][

][.i love my job.][

][.i love my job.][

hah.
1st day at work n here i m proclaiming tt i love my job =P
hope this lasts man.
thou as llz said n i feel so too tt i wuld get sianz abt working.
but as for nw,
i m enjoying it.
learning new things n adapting to working life rather than nua-ing.
feels better =]
haha enjoyed everything tt e 8hrs jus zoomed pass without mi noticing.
realli looked fwd to watching heros after tt.
but din get to.
n tink wun get to le ba. =X
but nbm.
shall get e dvd n haf movie marathon den =P

aw, my happy day at work.
learning how to use e typewriter =]
answering n transferring e calls.=]
sorting out stuffs.
looking at how adults pia for a living.=]
n best of all, Nice Collegues who tc of u n treat u to loads of food =P
n wen's mummy (ie. auntie) stocking up loads of food for mi =D thanks auntie!
shall bake for em nxt wk =D

after e eventful n tiring day,
went to 4th gugu's funeral.
n paused for a moment,
nt remembering how to fold e inscence paper.
it jus reminds mi since how long had sum1 left mi.
sighs,
life.
pls bless all ard mi.
pls bless em w happiness when they r alive.
pls allow em to live everyday n every moment meaningfully tt they wuld nt haf any regrets when they bid their final gdbye or even if they din get to say it.
pls bless em.
thanks heaven. =]

hao la..a little tired le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jia you!.][

][.life.][

][.life.][

can't get my thoughts down into words.
but mus blog to note down sum stuffs.

1st, special thanks to wen n jing n llz for being dere to help mi get bac to court n supporting mi. esp wen n jing, thanks for cuming down *muacksz*puke puke*
n llz for all e encouraging sms-es.
thanks for always reminding mi to Chins up!
n of cz alj kem de team mates n coaches.
thanks for allowing mi to get bac slowly.
xiexie ni men!
thanks for all e encouragements =]
slowly, step by step.
n thanks yun2 n jinghui, i will change e move.
no more hook shots for mi.
i promise.

2nd, special thanks x infinity to wen ji dan! =D
haha thanks loads wen!
thanks for being dere w mi my Best friend. =P
for e 1st game,
thanks for being my kai xin guo n try to get my mind off e game for e day =D
thanks for shopping w me for clothes for e interview.
allowing mi to slp on ya comfy mattress n kop ya fav blanket.
thanks for acc-ing mi to e interview.
thanks for easing my fears n asking mi to chill non-stop =P
thanks for pei-ing mi to get clothes for my work despite being so tired.
in conclusion, xiexie ni pig!
you ni zhe ge lifetime friend zhen hao =]

3rd, 4th gugu jus passed away today.
bless her.
take gd care.
life is jus so uncertain.

4th, tml is new work.
lao tian ah!
pls bless mi!

n suddenly, i feel tt i m moving on to another pharse of life.
when e world starts to change.
n reality sets in.
i jus feel so blessed to haf u guys w mi.
old friends like old swords are best trusted. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care ;p byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n now i m moving on.][

][.Breathe again.][

][.Breathe again.][

song of e day: Breathe again.
lyrics = exactly how i felt =]
jus wanna share.
n llz, gd closure =]

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

*I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little , cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little Try a little more
I�ll breathe again*

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck It's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don�t want to live on life replay

Repeat *
Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

Repeat *

][.10.fe.15.][
][.for u, i will.][

][.starting out again is nv easy.][

][.starting out again is nv easy.][

sorry for e tears.
sorry, i realli tried to hold it bac.
but it jus fell.
sorry coach.
dunno wads wrong w mi.
jus agrh.
a b c d e f g.
agrh agrh agrh.
tt was all i felt.
i realli wanted to tell u why it fell.
but i can't give u an exact reason as to why.
it's jus a mixture of so many reasons.
maybe afterall, i m nt ready.
felt so angry w myself for it.
but yet e tears so bu zheng qi de fell.
sorry.

thanks llz!
thanks for being dere once again.
realli, thanks so much for listening to mi rant.
zhen de xiexie ni!

n to lqjl,
u r e surprise tt i wun tink of in this dark nite.
thanks.
realli xiexie ni.
thanks to both coaches.
sorry for being so weak.
n to npo,
i realli told u exactly how i felt.
sorry, hope u wun be disappointed in mi.
sorry, realli din meant to be so weak.
i will make sure tt i becum stronger =]

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cont trying.][
][.u r my guardian angel.][

][.nonchalant.][

][.nonchalant.][

lol.
loads of things happened within this short span of 3 days.
1st, thanks for e wonderful farewell jnrs!
it was gd =]
after steam boat n watching our finals de vcd, we had ice cream n photo taking.
after which e snrs n jocelyn stayed over at yinling's place.
played taboo n had quite sum fun =]

haha nxt day went to had breakfast at e round mkt w sh,ling n xy.
den went hm be4 meeting jing.
had a haircut at storm. sorry x 100000 infinity wen!
den went off to kem w jing to get a lift frm llz.
cool, i dun tink i can drive =P i m a loser man.
aw went to grab sum snacks w jing be4 gg to watch e game.
gosh, e amt of food we bought or rather me shows tt i m a pig.
sh came too ;p
haha den wen n her team.
watched e exciting game which jing's heart cannot take.
aw llz, jia u for mon! =]

after which went to sh's mum's fruit juice stall.
haha nice fruit juice n e wanton mee beside it is realli gd too =]
came hm n zzz be4 i finish watching my ai qing mo fa shi! =X

sat.
hmm today, went to distribute sum flyers be4 gg to marina square to meet ck kids.
shopped ard a little for shu hua's prom dress.
den went to chill at starbucks w mamajan n sh.
after which, discussed coach's gift w sh.
lol, i bet sh mus haf diaoz loads ba =P
haha n subway =]
nw i m bac hm, hm sweet hm n lazy to bathe =X
haha but quite a fun day la =P

n suddenly,
while walking ard at marina square,
i jus felt like i owe u so much =X

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1!byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.can't be erased.][

][.old memories.][

][.old memories.][

jus came bac from jap buffet lunch w fnq.
haha it's realli nice n gosh we ate so so much,
i mus haf been a pig my previous life.

haha aw..thankful tt it wasn't awkward as i imagined it may be.
glad tt there r topics after topics to chat abt.
cz, silence w a pri sch friend who u had nt met for so long wuld be e last thing tt u want to haf.

haha chatted abt e past n e present life.
chatted abt friends.
haha n yups, e older u get, e more u und ppl n things.
n haha..conclusion:
1) old friends like old swords are best trusted => DOM
2) e older u get, e more u wuld discovered e need to haf friends tt u noe since young. =]
tt's my own conclusion la.
lol.

hao la..i shall go bac to my vcds, n maybe go jog a little ltr be4 gg out for farewell? haha cz jus like sh said "eh u wanna hurry up grow big n fight e big centers ah?" haha nah i dun wan!! i mus go jian fei =P

n haha talking abt basketball..ytr's trng was ok..tiring but i can say..i realli jing li le..for everything tt i m required to do, i realli focused n do my best. n i haf made a new decision, i will continue to be a center, but an agile center. jia u le! realli nd to jia u a lot to get bac to e court n play e game i love. but i will. =]

haha hao la..end here le! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.memories r e onli thing tt is left when u lost everything.][

][.life is tough.][

][.life is tough.][

hah. wad an irony to say life is tough when As r over.
but it realli is.
dun believe?
ask wen how black my face was =P

aw ytr was kem's 1st match for wbl =]
gd game ppl! jia u! jia u!
haha din play.
was doing stats.
but trust mi, no sense of sadness or wadsoever.
cz i m prepared for it.
cz i m not prepared to get back yet.
not now =]
went to shoot a few baskets after the game ended.
cool, i like e feel.
n coach, i will work hard to get back =]
no worries, cz i m who i m.

tt's for e basketball part.
life.
lol starting tuitioning n e prob of nt being able to get e pay per hr rite is jus frustrating.
agrh agrh! a b c d e f g !
earning money is agrh!
but well well..
jus part n process of life.
i will pull thur it =]

n haha, kinda dun feel e need to come online as much nowadays.
e virtual world used to be my daily habit.
but ironically, nw tt exams r over,
it's not =]

n lalala.
e past memories suddenly flashed back.
lol..can't say how it exactly felt.
so..= mixtures.
hao la..end here le..
take gd care every1! byee..
sighs so many things to do.
busy wk ahead =X
BUT
dun care, i wanna go watch my lovers in prague now =D
dong nan!!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.tired.][

][.reflect.][

][.reflect.][

lol..been typing..n backspac-ing n typing n backspac-ing.
ie. jus can't find e right words to match how i feel now.
ytr or rather 15th nov was my last paper.
i screwed it.
n all i can say is.
tt's e worst feeling.
e feeling of totally defeated by yaself.
e feeling of all ya hard work gg down e drain.
e feeling of disappointment.
realli felt like.
held bac n went for trng.
thanks sh for e msg.
thanks llz for entertaining me!
thanks for e 10 mins trng tt got my mind of it at least for tt while.
when everything finally settle down n when it's all alone again,
e tears fell.
can't stop it.
it realli hurted.
when e tears stop,
i look up.
n saw my poster = take each day at a time.make this moment so beautiful tt it wuld be worth remembering. =]

woke up today.
n wow.
it's jus so diff.
everything's changed.
on e bus while i see ppl mugging on their notes,
fighting for every sec to get sumthing in.
it jus struck mi tt..for e nxt few months, gdbye my notes.
when everything's over.
reality set in.
n i have decided.
i mus spend this period of time meaningfully.
so when it's over,
i hope i can tell myself tt..
no matter wads e results,
u can face e future =]

lol..ignore e above..it's jus some post As reflection =P lol..everyday praying tt it wuld end faster. n when it finally does, e 1 thing i feel is = lost.
went out today to get ready for job interview tml.
hopefully everything will go well tml.
pls let it all be well. =]
soon, i wuld be embarking on my new journey le.
n to all those out dere who r joining mi soon.
jia you! =]

the game plan is a gd show.
go catch it if u r free!
tink it's gg to be over soon =]
mixture of laughters n tears.
n it jus brings out 2 main idea.
1) parental love is so wei da.nth can replace it.
2) e world dun revolves ard u. =]

now tt everything's over.
everything is gg to start too.
with courage,i will =]

2 yrs of j2 life had came to an end.
so much had happened.
so many lessons learnt.
so many things changed.
so many ppl enter n left my life.
when everything's over,
jus wanna say..thank you for everything.
thanks to e concourse kids! thanks for all e joy n laughters n rantings =P
thanks to my class 06A13! thanks for being such a wonderfully unique class =]
thanks for everything n every1 tt entered n left my life.
for e every short moment, it changed mi sumhow =]

n for all those tt stood by faithfully during these yrs.
i jus wanna say a v big thank you.
thanks so so so much for standing by mi esp during e As.

1)thanks to my beloved family.thanks for being so understanding n supportive.
xiexie ni men!
2)special thanks to llz! thanks for all e msgs tt u dropped whenever i feel tt i can't go on. thanks for allowing mi to rant after every paper tt i feel agrh.thanks for always being dere thur out this hmm 2 yrs? haha zhen de xiexie ni PIG! haha jkjk
3)thanks to ruthie too! xiexie ni mei! thanks for all e msgs tt u dropped during e As! haha xiexie ni! they kept mi gg..haha cya sooon ok! =]
4)of cz mus thank this bunch of ppl la ;p forever5, xiexie ni men! wen, thanks for jus being dere..thanks so much for so much ;p jing, thanks for all e mugging sessions n all e time whr we stoned n pressed on tgt. thanks for all those moments of ranting =] fungi, heh thanks for all e encouragements n patience in guiding mi.thanks for everything tt u had done.thanks for easing my fears for e day be4 my madness de maths n hist. thanks so much. u guys r e onli thing tt dun change =]
5) thanks to employer n all those tt dropped gd luck msgs during this period of time. ir realli means a lot =]
6) thanks to all those tt had drifted n din drop any msgs. cz, this period of time had allowed mi to mature n let go of many things, special ppl, unforgettable moments.thanks for letting mi settle in w my new journey.thanks for all e past memories. jus hoped tt u wuld b settling down as well too.n hopefully, e nxt time we meet..if we get to..we can laugh n recognise tt, things can nv be like be4..but we wuld go on meaningfully w our lives. zhu fu ni =]

haha lol..such a random post. dun tink it realli linked ba..haha it jus goes to show tt everything is hitting in right now.haha n of cz e fats! gosh, nd to get rid of them le! =[ hao la..take gd care every1! jia you IN LIFE! live this moment so beautiful tt it will be worth remembering =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be brave.][

][.The Last Battle.][

][.The Last Battle.][

23.5 hrs more,
it wuld be e end of e battle.
the onli hopeful last battle tt i m left w = in 20 hrs time.
ie. 15+ hrs to study.
wadever it is,
heaven, pls grant mi e strength n e will to pull thur it.
Jia You every1!
it's gg to end be4 u noe. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jus be strong.][

][.HIT!.][

][.HIT!.][

e last thing tt u wanna is to fall sick during ya exams.
n wow.
wonderful.
fever,sore throat,flu = me.
but thankfully it was not full blown on tues during maths paper2.
n thankfully i got tues nite, wed n part of today to rest.
=?
i haven realli touch my lit,econs,hist.
wow.
wonderful!
alright.
dear heaven, pls grant mi e strength to pull thur e nite w hist!
cz i realli nd to get started on econs tml le!
ok..hang in dere every1!
u will make it de! =D
rmb, wadever it is, jus be strong!

n now i jus can't wait for it to end.
i nd to do so many things.
hao la..end here le..take gd care every1!
byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.take each day, one at a time.][

][.4 more to go!.][

][.4 more to go!.][

gosh
i m tired
but jus here to note : gd bye to maths forever!
haha dunno how i wuld do cz i realli can't rmb n dun wanna noe e ans(s)..so wadever it is, i jus hope it wun be too bad =]

shughs, falling sick le.
mus be due to my super size mi behaviour for settling my mealS at macs ytr.
shall nt haf anymore sinful act of eating so much le.

hmm aw was jus sitting quietly while e teachers collect e scripts n while ppl ard mi discuss e ans.
hah.
looked across e hall.
it's scary, dere's so so so many ppl taking e same exam as mi.
n gosh, tt's onli part of my sch pop.
n dere's so many jc out dere.
n so many other ppl who's taking as private.

sighs. isn't it jus scary?
n wad does results reflect?
haha suddenly feel tt life is kind of silly at times, if we onli choose to strive hard for results.
cz, what's e real purpose behind it?
or rather, in this real world,
dere's no time for u to tink wads e purpose. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

word of e day: jaded - Cynically or pretentiously callous (harden) n haha llz, no worries, i m nt harden. jus ready to let go =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jus be strong.][

][.n i smiled.][

][.n i smiled.][

guilty for not mugging for fri n sat.
but tt dun make up for anything.
so glad tt at least,
today i m able to settle down n get started.

fri was super tiring tt i jus zzz.
sat was a fun day?
hah i dunno. but wadever it's, old friends are still e best =]

n woo hoo..
i tink e epiphany had came.
n afterall,
some ppl r jus meant to leave their footsteps n say gd bye.
while some r jus meant for life.
let-ed go.
treasured more.
loves.

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cz, pain no more.][

][.13 days.][

][.13 days.][

wahaha i m sure mamajan n all out dere wuld shoot mi for posting this.
but paiseh la.
let this keep mi going.

n jus wanna say.
u r realli stronger than u believe.
jus ytr, i was realli on e verge of breaking down.
prayed.
n slept.
woke up convincing myself that i wuld jus do it.
n be4 i noe,
1+0.5+0.5 is down.

haha super tired now.
but yups.
be4 we noe,
it's gg to be over.
so..
hang in there people!

n mus thank fungi too!
xie xie ni for letting mi camp at ya hse =]
n wen n jing, hang in dere!
i wanna watch hero!

remember!
u r realli stronger than u believe =D
n thanks for llz's msgs!
it nv fails to plaster a smile on my face.


hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.15 days.][

][.15 days.][

had gp today.
haha dun haf too high an expectation.
so nt feeling too much.

haha ok.
dear heaven n divine n all gods of the earth,
pls bless mi w e strength to last thur e nite!

ok!
off to fungi's hse!
take gd care every1!
hang in there! =D

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be brave.][

][.woah.][

][.woah.][

haha that's e onli thing i can tell u now.
in less than 12 hrs, i wuld be taking my 1st paper - gp.
wish mi gd luck!
pray hard for mi yah!
i wuld gan ji bu jing!

haha ok..
off i go to study gp!
haven touched it for e whole day =P

n it's 16 days to e end!
start w e end in mind =P
jkjk

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.JIA YOU FE!.][

][.song of the day.][

][.song of the day.][



What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

pure random-ness XP take gd care every1! byeee..

ps. thanks llz for ya help! =D

][.10.fe.15.][

][.wadever it is, jus be strong.][

][.wadever it is, jus be strong.][

Epiphany.
dunno wad came over mi.
a sudden wave of thought came.

n it told mi.
everything is gg to be fine.
wadever e results is,
i deserve it.

so jus be strong for nw.
self-delusion or wadever it is,
con-fe-dence.
wadever u noe, u noe.
wadever u dun, u dun.

so..jus hang in dere.
heaven has it's plans for mi.
my fatalistic resign.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will be strong.][

][.sighs.][

][.sighs.][

went to airport to study.
but gosh.
it's e most unproductive day!
i spent my time stoning n thinking abt so many stuffs (apart frm work).

sighs.
SIGHS.
sighs.

e onli gd thing of e day.
i haf fungi on my right.
n wen on my left.
at least it din feel so bad.

agrh.
i haf to stop thinking.
saw u.
n memories surge back.

let go.
let go.
let go.
felicia, jus let go.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.i can feel it tickling away.][

][.i can feel it tickling away.][

mind blowing.
dead.

it's 2:24am in e morning.
n i had nt bathed.

had nt rest a wink for 16hrs.
n yet i done nth much.
for 16hrs of my life,
trying to.

it's too much,
counting down every min.
racing w every sec.

life is like a never ending race.
my stamina is running out.
faints.

i need a miracle.
i need a guardian angel.

end here le.
take gd care every1!
bye.

][.10.fe.15.][

][.epiphany.][

][.epiphany.][

dunno if i spelt e word correctly,
but it kind of meant a moment of realisation.

if dere's realli 1 such moments.
culd it pls let it be now?

1 thing worth noting down today.
8 yrs ltr de today,
jing n mi wuld be opening our own shop, 4ever5 vie.=]
it's a pact.
lets work hard towards it! =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.let go.][

][.song of e day =].][

][.song of e day =].][



enjoy! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.wad a day.][

][.wad a day.][

today or rather 4mins ago de ytr, is realli..wad a day.
e memories that gushed back like nobody's business.
e strong urge to turn back to say hi.
e emotional struggle of wanting to be seen n yet at e same time not.
e moment when our eyes met n turned away.
it's realli wad a day.

last nite, due to an acute headache, i culd not sleep.
it was so pain tt i woke up n read i-mag n listen to music n take deep breath n did all sort of stupid stuffs while trying to make it ok.
finally fell asleep at ard 2plus 3?
i had a dream.

it's been so long since i haf a dream.
in e dream, we were doing stupid stuffs..
suan-ing each another, "bickering", "fighting".
those were e day.
those moments tt would nv come bac.
due to my words.

i refused to wake up,
in e dream, there was so much laughters..
e friendship, so fun, so special.
when i finally woke up n realised tt it's jus a dream,
n tt it's impossible to go bac to e past,
i can onli say.
hit by reality.
dreams vs reality.

tried to get e dream out of my mind.
tried to stop all e reminisicing of e gd old days.
tried to.

went to airport n tried to study vectors.
after an hr plus,
was exhausted n mind started drifting off once again.

lunch time,
was stoning n u walked past.
i stoned for e moment.
dunno to be thankful or not tt u din see mi.
cz it's been a period of time since i studied at e airport.
n whenever i studied dere, i wuld tink if we wuld meet.
n if we do, how wuld i react?
msged llz immediately.
n she agreed tt dunno if tt's gd,bad or nth.

cont stoning n decided to drop u a msg.
e nd to consider if i shuld drop u e msg,
mirrors e difference from e past.
n this difference is created by mi.
tt's sumthing tt i culd nv erase off my mind.

bac to work while waiting for e reply.
exchanged a few msg.
it's so familiar yet so agrh.

left for lit.
n i m pretty sure tt i m in e stone,
reminisicing the past.
unactivated mode.
so sorry to ppl who tried to talk to mi n discovered tt i was kind of distracted
n kind of lagging.
cz..i was tinking of e past.

took 36 n went bac to airport to meet jing n cont my day, or rather start my day.
jus as i was abt to alight,
i caught sight of a super familiar figure.
i stared hard to cfm,
n i noe u looked bac too.
at e moment,
i can onli say..
it's a super mixed emotion.

alighted n "hid" behind e bus,
not knowing if i shuld jus walk up n say hi.
or shuld i jus walked past n drop u a msg after tt.

final decision: walk past.
was turning bac to see once i m up on e escalator.
but too late.
had e urge to turn bac to say hi.
but thankfully, ur msg came jus in time.
resolved all e ? n wad to do.

headed to bk n awaited jing's arrival.
thankfully for jing,
i was more or less settled down n get bac to work.
was studying half way n suddenly sum1 covered my eyes.
hah e split second was so scary.
like i m suddenly in e dark xp
tried desparately to get em off my eyes.
n guess who lai de =P
haha chee fungi!

n so w llz's msg support n constantly allowing mi to rant n rant,
my mood pi xi duo le..
xie xie ni llz!
thanks for always allowing mi to rant!
thanks for always being dere to guide mi in almost everything!

n of cz w jing who constantly bei mi suan.
xiexie ni jing!
haha

n of cz fungi's drop by
n sinkin mi into darkness..
thanks fungi =P

n suddenly, wen u r missed! =P

at e end of e day, e mood pi xi duo le..i noe i wuld look bac n laugh at myself.
but at least for nw, i noe i had nt completely fang shou.
but, thankfully, there r always these pigs - thanks so much!
u guys = wo yong yuan bu hui fang shou de lifetime friends! =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.memories,i will keep em tight.][

][.555.forever5.][

][.555.forever5.][

today's title is super random-ness..this is my 555th post =P
n 555 reminds mi of forever5..so..pardon mi..haha

had my maths mock today..woo hoo..paper1 was sucky shit..
paper2 was more humane..
felt super light headed after both papers..
ate medi n went airport to study..
wasn't realli productive but feels gd n stress when e engine gets started =]

after dinner..took sum random pic..shall post em up sumday when emo1 uploads it =P
aw..came across this while studying my onli subject of e day lit..

Old friends, like old swords, still are trusted best.
how true is it to u? =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.memories.][

][.5ick.][

][.5ick.][

woman's instinct is always v zhun.
i predicted tt i wuld fall sick.
n i realli did.
had to miss e lunch..realli sorry to van,employer n 1031.

slept my whole day away.
n gg to sleep e whole night away sooon.
not gg for maths mock tml.
wow.

mugging at airport ytr w llz was gd =D
but for e nxt few days.
it's e heck care, i m sick mode =X

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sumtimes, i jus hoped tt u care.][

][.bi feng gang.][

][.bi feng gang.][

hafing a splitting headache for dunno wad reason.
been slacking ard for e past 3 days due to celebrations n everything.
tml shall not be one.

haha aw v random.
but yups.
jus wanna say..
thanks to my bi feng gang..
haha u noe wad i mean =P

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will stand by u.][

][.numb.smile.][

][.numb.smile.][

thankie employer! haha u shall be e employer of e day! jkjk
aw today is another slacked day..
n another pig day..
ate loads..haha

aw super tired now..
n haha numbed..
it's a kind of relief..
n a tinge of mixed emotions..


hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..n o yah..how stupid can i get..i sprained my wrist while hafing dinner =P

][.10.fe.15.][
][.zzz.][

][.Happy 18!.][

][.Happy 18!.][

haha wo 18 le!
it's 2am in the morning n i m super tired.
but at e same time super high too!
i dun care..i mus blog be4 i slp =P
haha paiseh tt i wanna blog every detail down..cz i dun wanna forget anything abt today =]

ok so haha start from ytr nite..
heh w fungi's surprise visit at my door w a present n stating tt they cmi to pei mi on my bday =P
haha e cards realli made mi v touched..n e vcd =P woohoo..haha love it!

countdown!
haha thankie llz n jing for staying online n pei wo countdown =P
haha thanks loads llz for e e-card! haha e singing was..lol

den thanks to all those tt droped mi an sms..grace,jiao hua,xue li, iris,ah rum,jocelyn,ms tan,god parents n c mei,snail,buddy,tricia,employer,da 1031!
haha every msg light up my day! thanks loads for remembering! =D

haha morning while nua-ing jiu received employer's explict n not conventional way of greetings..haha xiexie ni! den jiu left for sch..haha stoned at e stone table n slept during maths cz vectors n complex is jus too complex for mi..

den..haha concourse kid's prezzie! haha soft toy! thanks loads! (finally i get my soft toy =D)haha n sh! thanks for e chocs! haha yums!den went for lit lect to study my hist..n hist lect while counting down to my hist mock..n it ended up tt i was e onli 1 to take e mock..haha realli had a little urge to jus go home..but nopes i noe i mus complete it today..if nt i wuld jus not do it! haha so did e paper from 3 plus to 6plus..seeing e sky turn dark n feeling my batt running out cz for e whole day i onli ate a burger n 3 addition liao..so after e paper jiu cabbed hm (haha under mummy's instructions cz gg out for dinner.)

haha so came hm n placed my prezzie all on e table n went for dinner! haha yum yum chillie crab, butter crab! haha crabbys! lucky there's c mei to pei mi eat..cz daddy n mummy both sick =P n received llz's call! wahaha another pleasant surprise! but psps llz hands were too oily n dirty w e crabs (but it was realli a big smile!) =P

haha after e super full dinner, went to get my cake! haha so bhb sia..but dun care la..i wanna cut my cake n blow candle..it's e 18th =P while choosing my cake, fungi called..haha sensed sumthing fishy..but hmm not that much for mi to guess too..cz afterall they realli haf super valid reason not to be here w mi today =P n i can understand..realli..so for e whole day i wasn't realli expecting em to appear..thou haha a tiny little part inside sumwhere in e heart does hope tt wuld happen *bleah* haha

den came hm w my cake..dunno wad went wrong..tink is e dinner too full le..so was realli high! (didi said i was siao) jus roll on my bed..den after a while i chao zhe wanna cut cake! haha jus den..fungi appeared to pass mi e thing tt apparently she had forgotten to pass mi ytr den left le =P haha so i jus watched tv n prepare to cut my beautiful cake =P haha n if e best is for e last..i guess it's realli quite true for today =P

haha my sweetest surprise *ta da* THE PIGS! haha while nua-ing on my sofa..ahem sum1's voice v low =P haha wen ji dan! although it was onli for a split sec..haha knew it was em! haha bleahs! they came jus in time to sing bday song n cut cake! haha so it started e cam whore-ing..n nua-ing on e sofa while watching tv n eating n haha loads of my fav food..but i cannot eat le..so wen jiu "helped" mi finish em - sushi, xia jiao, bbt n there's pea snack n wasabi seaweed =P haha onli e tibits r left now =P haha jkjk aw after tt jiu begin e process of "persuading" mi to go my rm..haha knew tt there's a gift..but ppl paiseh mar =P haha jkjk

so haha ta da! my super big gift of e day! haha was to open it..haha realli v touched..but i din acted touched n ahem caused those pigs to be "sianz!" haha jkjk but realli thanks lots! haha do u guys noe tt..it was e 1 tt i was gg to get when my old 1 failed mi for a day? =P haha jus double checked on e net to cfm =P haha so after tt..e lazy mi jiu asked jing to help mi dl e cd n register online n load songs! wahaha gan xie ni lo jing! haha realli ma fan her cz ahem we jus nua-ed on e bed n play dai dee! =P haha den for e nxt 2hrs, it was spent on laughing at how silly we were in pri sch ( while looking at my bi ye ji nian che) haha every single moment..i was realli happy..realli..from e heart de smile =D haha n guess wad..e mp3 is u3 n it's super baby de blue..haha n i conclude tt it's too sweet a colour for mi..BUT..heh if i was to buy it, i wuld buy black or white (e dull n boring mi!) but haha baby blue wuld perfectly describe n always remind mi of US! hah sweet, unchanging, forever, lifetime friends! love it! haha thanks pigs! i wuld definitely use it starting from tml! (thou i love my old one lots lots too!) but..haha

haha n happy times always flies..after cam whoring n mass blue toothing n crapping..be4 we noe..it was 12am! haha gd morning! n mass bus service check for e last bus timing..n off they go! (for e last bus!) haha n off i go! with a smile w my face! thanks forever5! thanks for staring my day n ending my day w a smile! love u guys so! =D haha

n of cz thanks to my beloved family n friends! thanks for remembering! thanks so much for making my special day a memorable one! thanks so SO so SO so much!

haha this is realli a great bday! thanks heaven! n haha i guess all tt i had hoped for today had came true ba! hmm maybe apart from 1 (npo forgotten =P) haha but yups thanks n to a special friend, thanks for remembering, when i saw tt msg, i smiled =]

hao la..end here le! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.blessed.][

][.n u guys made my day.][

][.n u guys made my day.][

thanks forever5!
haha thanks for ending my nite n starting my day w a smile!
thanks for not keeping mi wait n no worries tt i wuld nt wait tml too =P
thanks for e gift!
realli appreciate it!
loves!
pls take gd care of yaself n haf a great day ahead too!
n rest assured..i wuld spend my day meaningful w my hist mock =D

][.10.fe.15.][
][.thanks for standing by me.][
][.touched.][

][.jus when i needed you most.][

][.jus when i needed you most.][

heartbreaking song..=]
here's jus a part of e lyrics..

'Cause you left me just when I needed you most
Left me just when I needed you most.
Now most every morning, I stare out the window
And I think about where you might be
I've written you letters that I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me.

haha hao la..end here le..jus wanna say..i m thankful for all e silly laughters n joy brought to my life by eg. FANG DENG LONG =P..n if it's within my means..i wanna spread e smile too! SMILES! (rmb it's infectious) byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i promise to stand by u.][

][.i rather not tink abt it.][

][.i rather not tink abt it.][

today started w mi loading loads of new songs into my mp3.
den out i go to study hist.
not v productive.
den hm i came.
had dinner.
watched jus follow law w mummy.
den watched "my wife is onli 18".
den here i m online.
haha wad a boring.
dull.
lonely.
unexciting.
empty.
lifeless life.

i m so...
culd my guardian angel cum n ease my fear now?
culd U cum n tell mi tt it's ok.
sighs.
dun even noe where's my guardian angel =X

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.too afraid to.][

][.loves.][

][.loves.][

woohoo! confession to make! i haf not studied today!
woke up like noon? den watched high sch musical..
den nua a bit..
den off to sakae..
den arcade..
den ben n jerry..
wahaha n cam-whore-ing..haha
den bac hm to my tian ya xia yi..
my beloved ken n qing qing =P

aw thanks lots to my beloved family!
which includes daddy,mummy,gan die, gan ma...
n of cz C MEI and B DI!
heh n c mei..we wuld go n break e high score nxt time =P
haha thanks for e early one!
realli appreciate it =D

haha hmm..when everything goes wrong..u guys r jus e one who puts it right =]
thanks ohana (i tink it mean family..lilo n stitch said sumthing like tt ;p)

haha aw mid nite r realli vulnerable moments..=P n yups..i m gg to get a box n place all e stuffs inside n tie it up..n when i m ready, i wuld throw these away =] i believe it wuld be soon..=]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.no expectations.][

][。人。][

][。人。][

人体的构造真的很复杂，
但人的心灵更复杂。

因为了解而分开。
因为得不到而永远那么完美。

得不到的，总是那么的完美。
但人却总是想得到。

得到后，却又因了解而分开。
把完美的变成不完美。
就连快乐的回忆也会带着丝丝的痛。

既然得不到的总是那么的完美，
人为何又要坚持，
要得到那样东西呢?

][.10.fe.15.][
][.so near yet so far.][

][。宁静。][

][。宁静。][

宁静的夜晚总是让人有说不出的心情。
就像此时此刻，
有好多话，
但却又不知该从何说起。
所以，只好自己享受着夜晚的宁静。
聆听心灵那孤寂的心房。

我不敢想得太多，
因为我一个人。

][.10.fe.15.][

][.i need tt bit of encouragement,][

][.i need tt bit of encouragement.][

jus wad's wrong w everything.
or jus wad's wrong w me?
i haf no idea.
i jus wanna hibernate n wake up when everything is over.
yet i noe it's impossible.
sighs.
i jus hope tt u wuld make my day n give mi tt little bit of encouragement.
it's seems so far.
n as impossible.
it's an overwhelming emptiness.

no matter wad,
i wuld jus try my best =]

take gd care every1..byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.dependent kid.][

][.H.I.T.][

][.H.I.T.][

to all those ke lian cong out there "suffering" e same fate as mi..jus wanna say..HIT! Hang In There!

all i can say is..i m feeling dead tired.
n e work nv seems to end.
n i culd nv start w my revision.
n that's one word ="wonderful".

spent my day after sch at e airport w econs, coffee n onion rings.
bid gdbye to e old granny working at bk.
n sighs..if i haf e ability, i wuld make sure tt all e elderlys dun haf to work n culd jus enjoy life.
but i dun.
so i can onli work hard n make sure tt my parents do not haf to work when they r old.
for that, i wuld jia u.

haha such a way to "motivate" myself ;p
hao la..shall end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i was so afraid tt i wuld meet u.][

][.looking back.][

][.looking back.][

my mp3 died on mi today.
it's 10 more days to it's 2yrs anniversary.
haha i wuld rmb it cz 2yrs ago cz tt day was such a mixture of emotions =]
n my beloved n faithful mp3, i will miss u so =[

aw was reading thur e past post.
haha hmm n discovered jus how much i depended on my idol then.
n how distance we r now =P
haha not tt we had been close.
but compare the present to e past.
haha..i was realli a kid then.
so childish n dependent.

haha not that i m not now.
but it's jus.
haha people cum n go.
friends enter n leave.
sum ppl r jus meant to be short term, while some r for a lifetime.
whatever it is, jus wanna thank all those that..
enter..
changed..
n saved themselves in my M (memories) drive forever =]

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.06A13.][

][.06A13.][

today is such a wonderful n happy day!
it's been quite long since e whole day seem to be submerged in such a happy mood!
soo...i MUST blog abt it! =D

haha today's blog is specially dedicated to my beloved class -06A13! haha
farewell assembly was..haha nt too bad nt too gd..no tears but jus a little of..haha yah..
den received fungi's msg..n smiles!
haha after which..for e 1st time (and last time) we did a mass dance tgt! n haha woohoo..it's realli v wen xin..haha 1st time tt i so much wanna do mass dance n nt simply run away from it =P opps!
haha after which..dere's this special CT session n dere starts our mass pic taking session which took everything n anything for like 2hrs plus? haha n we went to an "art exhibit" haha it's cool shit..n realli v impressed and admire those tt take art..haha esp MATONG! haha n of cz eunice n chaoxu too..it's so impressive dudes..=P

haha o yah..back to e photo taking session which was so tiring n fun..i tink in tt 2++ hrs, we took enff pics to last for e 2 yrs..haha n after which went to raffles city..heh n guess wad..met wen dere! haha wad a pleasant encounter..haha n wen ni de ren bu hui hao ah =P thanks for e potato salad tt u shi she gei wo =P haha ok..bac to my class! heh we jus sat by e "fountain" n ate like junks? haha my fav calarmaries! yummy yummy yum yum! n i saw cute babies! o mian..babies r jus so cute n innocent..tt's e reason why i love em! haha nt becoz i wanna kidnap em la kids =P den took a few pics be4 gg to e mrt..haha culd nt join e others to go kino le..cz tt wuld cause jing to wait super duper long..haha so off i go w zhaoey..n heh chatted abt our pw grp, e class etc..haha it's jus pure happiness =]

haha after tt went to meet jing be4 cuming hm n gg to study again..haha after which wanted to go play basketball..but din get to..cz IRRITATING PPL KICK SOCCER AT THE BASKETBALL COURT! haha tt's e onli thing tt kind of irritate my day..but humph! nt realli irritated la..jus dun like tt kind of ppl! haha aw jing did a super brave thing..haha jing hor? =P

n now i m back home..woohoo! haha in conclusion..today is a HAPPY DAY!
thanks to..
06A13!
Fungi!
Jing!
Wen!
haha e simple things tt made mi smile for e day!
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.smile.][

][.goodbye.][

][.goodbye.][

wooo hooo..dunno wad struck mi..but haha
a big smile is plastered over my face now.
i tink i finally see the light.
i tink i finally understand.
we r jus too extreme to be friends.
too different.
too hard.
thanks for allowing mi to see all these.
thanks for all e wonderful memories.
from this very moment onwards,
i declare..
i m ready to let go.
n dere goes e card.
goodbye to our friendship.
jus hope e nxt time we meet (if we ever do) it wuld be a situation whereby each leads their own happy life. =] zhu fu ni!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.pain,no more.][

][.it struck mi.][

][.it stuck mi.][

haf to credit this to mamajan..she tinks it's beautiful..
i tink this following "passage" is super beautiful n meaningful..
so dun care if she wuld piak be for e copyright..but jus wanna share it..

There comes a point in life when you realise
who matters, who never did, who won't anymore
and who always will.
So don't worry about people from your past;
there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

during this period of mugging and detachment,
when everything n every1 seem so far.
when u jus feel like breaking down many a times.
when special friend leave ya life n u try to adapt to it,
when memories of e past yr flashes past e mind.
it all boils down to a wow.

wow at how time realli files.
n how things changed.
tml is gg to be graduation ceremony.
n i tink i wuld realli miss my class -06A13!
quote mr sayers :" we r e best class."
nt in terms of results, but in terms of e ppl in it.
despite e distinct cliques, there's always nt much of a prob to inter clique, esp this yr.
n onli this yr did this happen.
short but better than nv..
i wuld nv forget it =]

despite all e changes,
parting and all,
sumthings will always remain unchange.
faithful as ever.
i believe.

thanks to all e friends that stood by mi all these yrs. realli v grateful to u guys.

forever5
- wen: u r e best n always will be!somethings r more than words can say. =P
- jing: i m more thankful than anything tt u hang in..cz if nt i wuld haf lost a wonderful friend in u! thanks esp during these days =]
-moi: thou we r no longer like wad we r in e past n thou we culd nv ever be friends like wad we used to be..i jus wanna say, thanks for all that u had done in e past, u r realli 1 tt go all out for ya friends. jus rmb not to be too reckless in e future, u haf my well-wishes,always.
-fungi:u wuld always be my lifetime friend no matter wad. fight hard for ya aims, i believe in u n will always support u..n i m thankful for e friend i found in u..n hope tt u wuld nt be angry w mi anymore =[

llz-wow! 2yrs..sooo fast it's gg to be 2yrs..i guess like wad u said, i zhang da le..but haha i nv do feel tt i zhang da le in ya presence =P thanks for always being dere n hear mi rant n advice n guide mi..i m thankful to haf found a friend in u! quote u: "u r e best thing that came out of e trip" *big smiles*

n to all those special ones that seem sooo far in my life now..eg, ah rum,employer n da 1031..i jus wanna say..thanks for e wonderful memories that u all had brought to my life during my j1 period. every now n then when i walk ard in sch, i wuld still tink of all e times we spent tgt doing stupid stuffs..esp to da 1031, memories jus flood back like a dam without a barrier..it's an end, n i sincerly zhu fu ni..zhen xin de zhu fu ni,u were my special friend n wuld always remain as part of e memories. =]

hao la..end here le..tt was jus another random post..these days r jus so random. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i wuld keep e memories safe.][

][.n i feel better.][

][.n i feel better.][

with the voice over e phone,
e tears stop,
n e smile reappear.
thanks for e comfort, my best friend.

i shuld stop tinking abt all these. =]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.i can't stop it.][

][.i can't stop it.][

after so many days of telling myself that if i m unhappy,
that's only my own fault,
there's no1 i can blame.

if i m sad,
that's my own fault,
becoz it's me who allow myself to be sad.

but at this v moment,
i can't take it anymore,
n tears fell.

i feel like my communication system is breaking down.
why is it that whatever msg that i wanna convey,
it would always end up e other way?

2 person that matters to mi,
n yet when i try to get e msg across,
i jus failed,
n e wrong idea is given.

both of the cards to em lay there lying in my files for days.
to e 1st one,
my heart sank, n i tink it's time to give up after ur persistent refusal to reply.
it's not ya fault,
i noe it's mine.
i noe it's becoz of my words.
i knew that it was gg to hurt to lose a friend in you.
i knew that u wuld nv be e 1 to salvage.
however, this is e 1st time tt u refuse to respond no matter how i try to salvage.
maybe that's e best way out.
many moments when my thoughts drift away,
when memories appear, i wuld jus stone for a moment.
i do regret.
but maybe that's meant to be.
maybe we r too different to be best of friends.
allow mi to stone n tink abt e past.
when i m completely ready to let go,
i would cut e card n throw it away.
but for now, let mi keep e tinge of hope n keep it in my file.
n u will always be my special friend.

to e 2nd one,
i m sorry.
e card is still lay there lying in my file n brought ard w mi everywhere.
there r many things i dun und.
but i tink tt's jus my stupid-ness that caused mi to tink so much.
do u noe why i wanna meet u tt day to get back my file?
that's becoz i wanna pass u sumthing.but i din get e chance.
sorry.
but to e 2nd special friend,
rest assured, e card wuld always lay there lying in my file till e day u r free to meet mi.
n i m sorry if i hurted u in any way.

n tears cont to fall n blur my vision.
i nd a shoulder to lean on now.
i m tired.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n it hurts.][

][.happiness.][

][.happiness.][

no1 has e ability to make u unhappy.
if u r unhappy,
u r e 1 tt is making urself unhappy.
dun blame others. =]

if u r able to find a reason to be sad abt.
why nt find one to be happy over?

end here le..there's this disparity and this distance btw us that i can't bear to let u noe..jus wanna say..u will always haf my best wishes..mo mo de zhu fu ni..=]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.wu nai.][
][.ni bu ming bai.][

][.emo period.][

][.emo period.][

sighs..mugging period are such a gd time for emo-ing.[jing, agree?.]
it's weird, but it feels super empty.
n super lonely.
it's like u are all alone in this battle.
feels so..sighs.

but nbm..shall jus HIT!
we will brave this tgt!

n is it fate?
we wun meet tml.
n does tt mean i shuld nt hand u e card?
i guess so.
sighs.its over?

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sumtimes, i jus hope u can be here.][

][.drifted.][

][.drifted.][

sentences r too long.
let e words + pic summarize my day.

1) drifted.distance.sighs.
2) HIT [Hang In There; HIT by reality]
3) disgruntle; dun und e changing worlds n e eroding morals [but everything has its reason n i shall nt rant abt it further =]]

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.look up, so tt e tears wun fall.][

][.maybe, it's time to let go.][

][.maybe, it's time to let go.][

remembered reading that onli those ppl that haf no courage would blame a failure of something on fate.
if that's realli true, den i m e one with no courage ba.
fatalistic n boring. [tt wuld describe mi]
maybe our friendship was onli meant to be shortlived, if this is realli e case, jus wanna say -you'll always be my very special friend. =]tc.

that was jus random thoughts again.take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.guo wang de hui yi, wo hui hao hao zhen xi.][

][.dependence.][

][.dependence.][

i realli dun like e feeling of waiting.
especially when u haf no idea wad u r waiting for.
sighs.
if there's realli guardian angel, wuld u be here for mi now?

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i nd to learn to be independent.][

][.sometimes,somethings.][

][.sometimes,somethings.][

sometimes, there's jus somethings that i can never understand.

had a great chat on e phone till e wee hrs.
n many memories jus came to my mind.
be4 i fell asleep, i remembered whispering to myself..don't i jus miss those days? sighs.

another thing i cannot und.
but like u said, i shuld nt be bothered by such tiny little stuffs.
sighs.
jus wanna say, lucky u was dere to hear mi. thanks my old great pal.

n sumtimes, i jus dun understand myself.

take gd care every1! byee.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.wanna run away.][

][.mixed emotions.][

][.mixed emotions.][

sometimes..there's jus no words that could describe how u feel. =]

no matter wad happened..once my friend..forever my friend..=]
it's time to plan n start!
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.it's time.][

][.thankful.][

][.thankful.][

kind of lots of things happened during e past few days..
post prelims had been kind of fun..n i realli pei fu those ppl that take art! n i guess after mon i realli haf got to settle down jia u le! last lap!!!

aw..shopping can realli tire u out man..that's why at times i prefer joggin than shopping..(unless it's for stuffs that i like!)..haha aw today is a fun day..got to eat my calamaris! n eat sweets etc w no xing xiang ke yan! haha n e noobs who nv got further than TM..n getting lost at marina square..wad a noob =P

den bac to thurs..chuck n larry was funny..esp e ring..a ring..is a circle..haha ignore mi..but if u go n watch e movie..u will get wad i mean la..haha thou we r extreme poles..but i jus wanna say..u will always be my special friend =]

den fri..haha been a looong time since i get to play basketball that way le..=] thanks for letting mi play under e stars..it's jus a diff feelin when u play at nite n sweat a little n allow e steam to go..=]

hao la..end here le! n 23/9..haha quite a few ppl's bday! happy bday to all..n esp my beloved bro who is sleeping on my bed n leaving no space for mi! but still wanna wish him a super happy bday! n thanks for being so nice n forgiving to mi! haha *hugs* take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cong shang tian.][

][.wad does time means to u?.][

][.wad does time means to u?.][

today's blog is i copy n paste from auntie joy's blog de..found it realli meaningful..so ahem..nv ask for patent jiu copy n paste le =P psps ah..haha aw i read it n found it realli meaningful n true..hope u will und n like it as much as i do =]

The Best Expression of Love is Time

the importance of things can be measured by how much time we are willing to invest in them. The more time you give to something, the more you reveal its importance and value to you.

TIme is your most precious gift because you only have a set amount of it. You can make more money but you cant make more time. When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. Your time is your life. Thats why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.

The essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others but how much we give of ourselves. To your loved ones, nothing can take the place of your eyes, your ears, your time, your attention, your presence, your focus - your time.

Love concentrates so intently on another that you forget yourself at that moment. Attention says "i value you enough to give you my most precious asset - my time". Whenever you give your time, youre making a sacrifice, and sacrifice is the essence of love.
-The Purpose-Driven Life by Rick Warren-

haha hao la..jus wanna share it..take gd care every1! byee..

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][.if onli we could.][

][.things running thur my mind.][

][.things running thur my mind.][

when i said things running thur my mind..
i meant in both literally n haha nt literally..(dunno how to express myself)..
aw many things haf been going thur my mind these few weeks..esp with the lonely mugging sessions n e few moments of spacing out..hah..u wuld be amazed by how ur mind drift off to these things subconciously..=P

haha lots haf been gg thur my mind..but a few pertinent ones in particular..basketball n human relations..=]

basketball =]
haha this had realli been going thur my mind like every moment tt my mind drift off to sumthing =X..e struggle of whether to cont playing competitive basketball or jus play for e joy and fun of e game..=] started playing it becoz of them..forever5..those were e carefree days where title meant nth..where getting 3rd/4th placing is already sumthing to rejoice over =] those were e simple n happy days..those days tt u played n enjoyed e game =]

den sec sch..it were e days which i learnt e real game n respect it..those were e days which basketball seems to be indispensible n taught mi lots..those were e days when life revolves ard basketball =P..frm water gal to sum1 who got a chance to play..to sum1 who nv wanted to get bac to e sec1's feeling..those were e days..when winning title was sumthing tt's like a mus n when nat champs were an aim right frm e start..those were e days when u start to hold on to e desire to win..n when losing is more painful than be4..those were e days..realli learnt a lot and grew..=]

nxt up was jc..haha these 2 yrs( can include e last part of sec4 life too) were realli full of ups n downs..realli many moments of wanting to give up..when hard work meant nth n when e reality spam in e face tt talent is realli sumthing tt is needed n sumthing tt i dun haf..all those down moments realli made playing basketball least joyful as be4..j1 was e down valley..but it tot mi lots too..j2 was slightly better..everything of my teenage life w regards to basketball ended in close to perfect mode..w a smile =]

n here i m..no longer hafing e chance to play youthcup etc anymore..n 1 qn sparks my train of thoughts n made mi reflect lots..after 6yrs of hafing to play with the need to retain e title..when champs was e necessary thing..when winning no longer bring as much joy while losing brought so much tears n heart break..when u no longer play carefree-ly n happily..when u haf to seek constant improvement in order to get e chance..when u trained so hard tt injuries jus keep befriending u..when..when..haha so many ?..dun deny e joy tt i gained frm those titles thou..=]

however..this period of stepping away from basketball n into studying mode realli made mi tot abt lots..would i be able to dedicate as much effort and time into playing n training for basketball again? tt realli takes a lot of passion..choosin btw constant improvement n a chance to play a finals..vs a chance to play e happy game..w ppl who realli had e passion..which wuld be ur choice? haha i realli dunno wads mine nw..dere's always pros n cons..n to a libra..everything is balanced..i wuld jus wait for As to be over be4 i make my choice ba..wadever it is..i m thankful for e gift tt basketball brought to my life =]

human relations =]
haha ok..tt's another pertinent issue gg thur my mind especially during this lonely mugging period for prelims..realli made mi c thur lots of things..n determine sumthings..it's realli hard to maintain a relationship..in this case i meant friendship..u nd constant care n concern..e nd to haf both hands clapping..u nd to..haha it takes efforts dude..a constant effort by onli 1 party is nv enff ;p during this period when u mug n feel like dying..sum msgs realli brings a smile to ur face n made u feel tt u ain't alone in this fight..thanks llz =] while sum ppl r those tt u instantly turn to when u felt like u had screwed up n nd sum1 dere for u..thanks wen,thanks jing,thanks fungi! n wen..u this childish shit..stop suan-ing mi w vinegar la! =P n sumtimes sum ppl..u jus can't help it but drift apart due to e work..shi yi zhong wu nai..but aw..after this period of reflections..i tink i noe who r e ones tt matters n cares most le ba =] wo hui hao hao zhen xi zhe suo you de yi qie..xie xie ni men! in particular xiexie ni..wo de hao peng you =]

hao la..i dunno why dere's this acute pain in my heart n stomache nw..but shugs..haha so haf to end here le..a bit tired also..aw did i mention tt Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi has been making mi look forward to fri nw! cz youtube still can't find e complete links..haha n i like e song! mi gong! =D it's by 7duo hua..free de hua go check it out ba ;p take gd care every1!byee..

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][.i wanna be dere.][

][.thankful for e gift.][

][.thankful for e gift.][

A friend is sum1 u turn to when u feel u have no place to go..
but a true friend is sum1 u stop to when u have a million places to be..and yet you want to see how they are..

A friend is sum1 who tells u that it will be ok..
a true friend reminds u that sum days..e sky can be blue..

-ashely rice-

n i smiled.
thankful for this ship. =]
我只能说，有你真好。

我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远。

take gd care every1! byee..

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][.friendship.][

][.friendship.][

friendship?
it's when i shed a tear
n u r always dere to catch it..
and turn it into a smile..=]

thou i nv told u..
but i jus wanna let u noe..
you ni zhen hao =]
xie xie ni!

few days of prelims had passed..
had an equal share of ups n downs..
today realli sux..
when it end i realli felt like crying..
sighs..

but thankfully..dere's always lifetime friend =]

hao la..shall go do my maths le..take gd care every1! byee..

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][.i wanna be dere.][

][.fight it.][

][.fight it.][

in a few hrs time..
i m gg to take my 1st prelims exams..
can't say i m prepared for this exam..(cz there's tons more)
but all i wuld say is..
i wuld fight it w all i can =]

take gd care n jia u every1! fight on!

i m thankful for e gift! =]

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][.conFEdence.][

][.miss.][

][.miss.][

when all u do is eat n study n stone..
after all e "rush hours"..
e body jus felt like shooting some hoops..
jing..i wanna tou tou lan ji tml! dun care le XP

when e life becum a standard routine..
dun u jus miss e gd old times..
but lets jia u n make this period a meaningful 1..=]

after slacking n nt trng for so long..
i noe tt i m gg to be a worse shooter than be4..
n i truly m..
cz i mus be a bad shooter to be missing..! =P

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

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][.i'm nt missing u.][

][.n i smiled.][

][.n i smiled.][

when i feel tt i can't go on.
u guys made mi smile.
n let mi noe tt..
together we will =]

take gd care every1! byee..

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][.process.][

][.process.][

i m dead.
nv ever gg to make it for prelims.
but shall nt give up for e big one.

michael jordan - when u see a wall, dun turn ard n walk away! think of a way to get over it =]

o n yah..933 roxz! haha e onli faitful companion =P

take gd care every1! byee..

p/s: n tears realli lighten e burden a little.

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][.be strong.][

][.too scary to be true.][

][.too scary to be true.][

haha tt's jus a random title..
aw realli dead beat nw..
super duper tired..
mac cafe turned out to be a pri reunion..haha kind of funny..=P

aw..haha studyin makes one mad..
dun believe..ask jing =P
i drank my bnj =X
haha aw take gd care every1!
byee..

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][.hang in dere.][

][.daze.][

][.daze.][

jus glad tt everything is ok.
glad tt everything is gg on fine.
thankful for all tt i haf.
feeling..restless.
got my dream hp like finally.
but feel so bad for abandoning e old one =X
haha life goes on no matter wad goes wrong.

thanks for e help llz!
take gd care every1! byee..

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][.sumthings are meant to be.][

][。纪念日。][

][。纪念日。][

这是我们的纪念日，
纪念我们开始对自己诚实。

放下了原有的倔强，
拿起了手机，慰问许久没联络的你。。
得到的是疲惫的回复。

字迹中，我能感觉你的不快乐与疲惫。
责怪自己没进朋友应有的 “责任”。
没在你不快乐时陪伴你。。

但也不经意的有点难过。
为何你不快乐时没向我发泄，
为何你。。

我不知道你是如何看待我们之间的友情，
但对我而言，朋友是应该互相扶持，互相依赖的。
像我的好友所说的-“好朋友就是要一起度过苦与乐，香与臭的".


random-ness again =] take gd care every1!bye..

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][.passer-by.][

][。叹息。][

][。叹息。][

最近总会莫名的叹息。
总会突然之间感觉很彷徨，很累。
感谢出现在我生命中的好友。

其实人与人之间的感情真的蛮难维系的。
很多独处的时刻，
我都会在想你过的好吗？
但却又不懂该如何谓问你。

许多时后，拿起手机后又选择放下。
很想问候你，却又觉得随着时间的流失，
我们的距离仿佛远了。
比起从前，现在的我们真的疏远了吧。

记得我们曾经说过的。
我想这就是我们当初所说的疏远吧。
我不知道自己究竟为何倔强。。
或许是我对一些人的要求太高了吧。

好啦，发泄完毕。
想对这几位特别的人说声谢谢.

wen: xie xie ni! although u always beat mi n bully mi n say i fat n still say u v nice to mi..i still wanna say thank you to u! thanks for letting mi stay over n study at ur hse..thou we nv realli study dao =P but e food realli made mi..happy n FAT! haha thanks u lame shit!thanks for always knowing how i feel..thanks for saying tt u understand..but nxt time pls beat my left hand =P

jing: xie xie ni! haha thanks for everything..thanks for letting mi noe tt i m nt alone..i m realli glad for more than words can say..n dun worry..wad u missed out on for e past yrs..i guess we r getting it bac nw =]

forever5: 13179

llz: xie xie ni! thanks for allowing mi to rant! thanks for always being dere to lend a listening ear! =D pls take care!! wear goggles! cya!

end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

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][.too many maybe(s).][

][.if onli i culd.][

][.if onli i culd.][

it rained e whole day.
n i stayed hm e whole day for e 1st official day of e study break.
jus another day.
nt till i flipped thur my photo album.
n this thought jus came thur my mind..
if onli i culd..
yes wen..u r right..i care..

if onli i culd..
i realli wanna go bac to e past..
i wanna erase everything..
i wuld nv ever ever wanna get to noe this person..

if onli i culd..
i wuld nv wanna things to turn out this way..
sighs..

if onli i can turn e time bac to 3-4 yrs ago..
i wuld make sure tt i nv knew e existence of this person..

i nv told any1..
but yes..
u nv noe how much i dread myself for causing all these now..
n i looked at e pics..
n i hoped tt those moments nv happened..
if burning those pics n moments wuld change e situation nw..
i wuld..=]

while thinking abt all these..
another random thought came out..
n yeah..
we r jus too "busy" to even drop by to say hi to one another yah..
sighs..
how things change w time..
i hate these..

but thankfully..
there're special things n affinity tt dun..
thanks for all these special ones..=]
我把最珍贵的回忆深深的埋藏在心底的最深处。
把最灿烂和纯真的照片好好的放在皮夹里。
把最珍惜的这段友情紧握在手心里。
然后默默的祈祷，让这一切永远如此吧。

hao la..take gd care every1!
bye..

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][.peak.][

][.peak.][

if dere's sumthing known as guardian angel..
wuld he/she appear right now?
sighs..
pressure n stress wuld nv reach an all time high till e time is running out..
tml is my 1st prelims paper = gp =]
not realli anticipating it..
neither m i prepared for it..
but..
jus nd to blog n vent off sum of e stress =X

gd thing for e day was meeting fungi on e bus n hafing both breakfast n dinner w my dearest family =]

tt realli made my day better apart from drowning myself in gp at Mc cafe at downtown n mus thank tricia for e subway cookie! =] i m realli thankful tt tml is gp n nt any other subject..if nt i wuld jus col (cry out loud)..n reading articles r realli fun n nice esp when there r many funny facts n things gg ard in e world eg in Dahomey, a girl is most attractive if she is fat =P ..but trying to haf my own opinion regarding capital punishment etc realli got mi into lots of thinking n headache =X
so at e end of e day..realli felt saturated..n dere's so much more tt i haven read thur..sighs..

haha alrite..i can foresee tt my 2 wks starting frm tml wuld be super iNtErEsTiNg w studying plans tt i had nv ever endured be4..but i shall try to enjoy it =P..

all by myself..tt's exactly how i feel now..
still remembered tt it was a yr ago when we were at e pasar malam hafing durian e day be4 u guys de gp..n now..
it's my turn..
all by myself..
jus gotta be strong n pull thur this!

jia u every1! take gd care n press on! =]

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][.be strong.][

][.dark.][

][.dark.][


if life was a graph.
i m at e min pt now.
slapped hard in e face by reality.
all along i was e 1 daydreaming.
its time to wake up n give my best.
jus do it!

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][.lifetime friend.][
][.tt's wad we shall be.][

][.mix n match.][

][.mix and match.][

everything happen for a reason.
if dere's sumthing unhappy,
sumthing happy wuld cum along to neutralise it =]

jia u every1!
everything will be over soon.
hang in dere..
n stars r realli beautiful.
scenery nv fails to make my day =]

end here le..
take gd care every1!
bye..

p/s: mug like a mug..lol jing XP
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][.if onli.][

][.Secret.][

][.Secret.][

today is another slacked day.
met llz in e noon for maths n super gd happy buys!
went to watched Secret w forever5 after that.
haha thou fungi nv join us for movie.
but she was nice enff to wait for e movie to end n go dinner tgt w us =]

haha e movie is quite nice.
it's been quite long since i watched movies tt i like le.
i mean.
my type of movie =]

haha aw that movie made mi tot a little.
n i asked jing, what wuld she wan if she was given a chance to go bac to e past?
e ans touched mi.
as for mine?
haha it's bu neng shuo de mi mi. =P

aw..i asked fungi e same qn too.
n i tink her ans was v gd n true too. =]
everything is gd as it is now.

there's no backspace in life.
if life was a keyboard, we wuld onli enter n go forward.
no backwards n backspace.
n jus as i haf always believed.
everything happened for a reason.
wadever tt is now.
jus let it be.
wadever tt is gone n lost.
jus let it be.

jus wanna say.
i m v thankful for all that i haf now =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

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][.enter.][

][.time flies.][

][.time flies.][

i m guilty.
guilty for not doing revision n lazing ard online.
but be4 i go.
jus wanna blog a little.

jus read Times regarding how Princess Diana transformed Britain.
n there's onli 1 thing i can say.
admirable.

10 yrs bac when i was 8.
i remember vividly that i stood by the tv and witness her funeral.
it was so sad.
it was so sad even thou i knew nothing much abt her then.

now, as i look back..
i understand why was Britain's customary stoicism overwhelmed by raw, unbridled grief.
sumthing in particular caught my attention when i was reading it.
there was once Princess Diana visited a center for the blind.
n there was this person weeping.
Princes Diana asked him why..n he said 'I can't see you.'
So she took his hand and put it on her face.

she is really admirable.
n dere was this comment in e article.
By dying young, Diana ensured her immortality. Better dead than wrinkled.
hmm..do u agree with it? =]

yups..i noe that's quite random..but haha jus tot of how i stood by e tv n teared 10 yrs bac..n wow..time realli flies..=]

watched bao jia wei guo n laughed..it's realli my onli joy for e day nw =P too bad it's ending on mon..haha aw decided to pick up e phone n phone e great old lame shit..haha dunno why e sudden choice..but i guess that's jus instinct ba..n i wuld nv forget an email that i once read..
"There's no need for a reason to call and chat with a friend" thanks for everything lame shit! =]

n haha..suddenly jus wanna say..i hope all of u are still doing well! (to those tt i haven met for sum time =]) n llz..thanks for ur help! haha

end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

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