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when i said things running thur my mind..
i meant in both literally n haha nt literally..(dunno how to express myself)..
aw many things haf been going thur my mind these few weeks..esp with the lonely mugging sessions n e few moments of spacing out..hah..u wuld be amazed by how ur mind drift off to these things subconciously..=P
haha lots haf been gg thur my mind..but a few pertinent ones in particular..basketball n human relations..=]
basketball =]
haha this had realli been going thur my mind like every moment tt my mind drift off to sumthing =X..e struggle of whether to cont playing competitive basketball or jus play for e joy and fun of e game..=] started playing it becoz of them..forever5..those were e carefree days where title meant nth..where getting 3rd/4th placing is already sumthing to rejoice over =] those were e simple n happy days..those days tt u played n enjoyed e game =]
den sec sch..it were e days which i learnt e real game n respect it..those were e days which basketball seems to be indispensible n taught mi lots..those were e days when life revolves ard basketball =P..frm water gal to sum1 who got a chance to play..to sum1 who nv wanted to get bac to e sec1's feeling..those were e days..when winning title was sumthing tt's like a mus n when nat champs were an aim right frm e start..those were e days when u start to hold on to e desire to win..n when losing is more painful than be4..those were e days..realli learnt a lot and grew..=]
nxt up was jc..haha these 2 yrs( can include e last part of sec4 life too) were realli full of ups n downs..realli many moments of wanting to give up..when hard work meant nth n when e reality spam in e face tt talent is realli sumthing tt is needed n sumthing tt i dun haf..all those down moments realli made playing basketball least joyful as be4..j1 was e down valley..but it tot mi lots too..j2 was slightly better..everything of my teenage life w regards to basketball ended in close to perfect mode..w a smile =]
n here i m..no longer hafing e chance to play youthcup etc anymore..n 1 qn sparks my train of thoughts n made mi reflect lots..after 6yrs of hafing to play with the need to retain e title..when champs was e necessary thing..when winning no longer bring as much joy while losing brought so much tears n heart break..when u no longer play carefree-ly n happily..when u haf to seek constant improvement in order to get e chance..when u trained so hard tt injuries jus keep befriending u..when..when..haha so many ?..dun deny e joy tt i gained frm those titles thou..=]
however..this period of stepping away from basketball n into studying mode realli made mi tot abt lots..would i be able to dedicate as much effort and time into playing n training for basketball again? tt realli takes a lot of passion..choosin btw constant improvement n a chance to play a finals..vs a chance to play e happy game..w ppl who realli had e passion..which wuld be ur choice? haha i realli dunno wads mine nw..dere's always pros n cons..n to a libra..everything is balanced..i wuld jus wait for As to be over be4 i make my choice ba..wadever it is..i m thankful for e gift tt basketball brought to my life =]
human relations =]
haha ok..tt's another pertinent issue gg thur my mind especially during this lonely mugging period for prelims..realli made mi c thur lots of things..n determine sumthings..it's realli hard to maintain a relationship..in this case i meant friendship..u nd constant care n concern..e nd to haf both hands clapping..u nd to..haha it takes efforts dude..a constant effort by onli 1 party is nv enff ;p during this period when u mug n feel like dying..sum msgs realli brings a smile to ur face n made u feel tt u ain't alone in this fight..thanks llz =] while sum ppl r those tt u instantly turn to when u felt like u had screwed up n nd sum1 dere for u..thanks wen,thanks jing,thanks fungi! n wen..u this childish shit..stop suan-ing mi w vinegar la! =P n sumtimes sum ppl..u jus can't help it but drift apart due to e work..shi yi zhong wu nai..but aw..after this period of reflections..i tink i noe who r e ones tt matters n cares most le ba =] wo hui hao hao zhen xi zhe suo you de yi qie..xie xie ni men! in particular xiexie ni..wo de hao peng you =]
hao la..i dunno why dere's this acute pain in my heart n stomache nw..but shugs..haha so haf to end here le..a bit tired also..aw did i mention tt Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi has been making mi look forward to fri nw! cz youtube still can't find e complete links..haha n i like e song! mi gong! =D it's by 7duo hua..free de hua go check it out ba ;p take gd care every1!byee..
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