][.Sick.][

][.Sick.][

so much to blog down.
but so sick now.
kept blogging halfway n too tired to cont.

things to note:
1)Post exams
2)AUG fun filled 10days
3)ARSENAL road trip - out of our comfort zone

loads n loads of things to blog about.
so much thoughts.
but..i guess i need to rest.
shall blog to wrap up 2010 in a few days. =]

rars.
there r many things to settle but for now i jus wanna heck.
ok. bye. rest =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.rest time.][

][.无法形容的感受.][

][.无法形容的感受.][

yes 3 down!! 2 to go!!
the next 2 days = madness!
2 modules in less than 48hrs i will be done!
but the next 48 hours would be mad.
jus do it fe!

this sem is uncertain with the 1st 2 papers feeling like agrh.
n finally the paper today is a smile.
hopefully all will turn out well.

ok! take gd care every1!
“Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. Christopher Robin to Pooh”
haha jus keep believing ok! =]
u can do it!!

p/s: pls be ok! i pray!
for you let me see what courage is. get well soon!
anything, i wll be here. promise.

][.10.fe.15.][

][.2nd Marathon!.][

][.2nd Marathon!.][

hello bloggy!
i must blog this down. =]
2nd marathon!
every race is memorable in its own way.
but this is really memorable and smiles! =D

5/12/2010.
fe did her 2nd marathon!
n this would nt be possible without joy! *double happiness*
haha thanks loads kid! i will never forget this race!

always felt that life was a marathon!
there would be points of time when u feel like shit and feel like giving up and wonder what the hell are you doing here? but these time would pass and things will be ok =]
i used to have a dream to do a marathon!
n i did it.
n i decided to go every even yr 2008->2010->2012->2014..till i completed 10! =]
was worried when 2010 came n was thinking if i would really do the marathon.
it's really scary to do it all alone! =X
n it was when we decided to complete the marathon together in 2010!
haha whenever i say "yes" to marathon, i feel that i m mad.
n this time round, i pulled 5-yr-old kid into this whirl of madness too =X

n we started running on our own to train for the big race! =]
5/12/2010.
woke up at 2am and left hse to meet llz at 3am at bedok stadium.
it was raining when i left house! was chilling cold *brrr* ran in the rain and pray really hard that the rain will stop asap.
met llz and we boarded the 315am bus to head to our starting point.
nice songs on mp3 on the way.
somehow brought back the countless bus rides during the u18 trip.

n tada! reached orchad with all the purple-themed deco.
cool! orchad in the morning =]
went ard to look for toilet but din manage to find one.
put on the number tag and stretch a bit and we are set to go! =]
mp3 plugged in n we took our 1st steps to the countless steps!
was supposed to stop every 30mins but both of us felt strong n we kept going!
the view on the way was good! jus breathe in with good music and see the different places of singapore.
heard some cheers and encouragments! =]
always thankful for all the supporters! without them, the race would not be possible.
stopped for some water and a toilet break and made our way to ecp on time -- 7am.

haha we stopped n had breakfast + banana at ecp ard the 12km marker.
was really hungry! haha
n we continued our run!
the next 8km was a start on the mental strength when you see ppl running pass you on the other side. =X
kid was doing still well! thou there was pain in her knee.
while ankle was starting to give me tightness and the back of the knee.
but it was still bearable. =]

reached 21km and we jus aimed to get out of ecp cz it was really torturing.
haha the ecp stretch nv fail to kill.
both of our legs started to give prob but with the motivation of getting out of ecp, we hanged in there strong with the help of counterpain! =P

n finally out of ecp!
when we thought things will be better and as i assured kid tt things will be better,
it din turned out to be the case!
so sorry kid! haha din expect that we would be facing the construction site!
the heat was really madness and there wasn't any water points along the whole stretch!
kid's hand started to swell and it was really worrying.
learnt that it was signs of dehydration n just hoped that a water point would come soon. =X
felt guilty that i dragged her to this madness.
n jus hope that kid would be ok!

and pass 32km.
the sun was getting stronger and both of us were getting tired by the min.
the fatigue of the legs and the tiredness of body and the mentally torturing mind.
haha i can only say, the strength and support of a trusty friend pulled me to the end of the race.
for the last 10km, we pulled each other and we know that, no matter how tired we get, we will definitely make it to the end point TOGETHER! =]
that's why we came to this race together!
don't walk behind me, i can't see.
don't walk infront of me, i can't catch up.
walk beside me and we will complete this race together!
朋友一生一起走。
that's our promise for this race and we will keep to it!

the last few km was really torturing as ankle started to tighten.
n there was a upslope!
gosh. they must be kidding us.
thankful there was kid! =]
she pulled me up the slope and for the rest of the journey.
really thankful for i found a true friend who cared for me despite her own pain n fatigue!
i would never forget the moments when you pulled me into the shades to be away from the sun while you stayed in it!
for this, thank you llz! really thankful that we decided to do this race together!
without you, this race would not be possible!
hand in hand, we came to the end of the journey and with a smile..last 100m here we go! =]
we made it!!

这个马拉松真的很有意义。
因为，我们一起完成了！
谢谢你！
谢谢你陪我完成了这段路程！
这段艰难的路程，我们看见了彼此最脆弱的时刻。
我们给于彼此鼓励和支持！
我们坚持着那信念。
朋友一生一起走！（跑）
我们一起做到了！=]

n it's a really nice thing to finish a race together! =]
this will be something that we can put into our scrapbook and show our kids in the future! =]

haha jus wanna say, thank you llz!
thanks for being the constant support through my ups n downs of life!
thanks for trusting me and going thru this race with me!
thanks for hanging in there just so we could finish the race tgt despite all the pain that you are suffering!
thanks for being here so that i have a hand to hold on when the faith starts to go low!
n the amazing thing is, we felt tired at different points of time and push each other on to the end. =]
for everything, 谢谢你!

haha so 2nd marathon done!
8 more to go!
wanna bring mummy to run 10km! =]]
will train her up for it! hee

n 2012 would be my 3rd marathon!
moi says she wanna try it..so we shall see!
haha as long as u wanna try, we will cross the line tgt! =]

haha ok! end here le bloggy!
take gd care every! =]]
bye~

p/s: something wrong with uploading of pics. will do it nxt time!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cause the race was all about believeing in ourselves!.][

][.eve of 2nd marathon!.][

][.eve of 2nd marathon!.][

haha hello bloggy.
going for my 2nd marathon in 9hrs! =]
was looking at my previous entries 2 yrs be4.
"it will be my 1st but not last marathon!"
indeed! 2010 - 2nd marathon! =]
let's go kid! we shall stun them by running our own race!

1st marathon was to chase after a dream.
2nd marathon would be to regain the long-lost con-fe-dence. =]
things had not been smooth.
but i believe it will eventually be.

looking forward to the run tml.
jus sweat everything out.
n let yourself know that everything will be ok!
nothing is impossible! =]

drank loads of water n had 3 bowls of rice today!
let's go double happiness! (fe + joy!)
haha we can do it! =]

shall post more after tml!
take gd care every1!
bye~

it's not going to be easy, but we will do it. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.dreams - let' go 80798 and 80787!.][

][.它，听得到.][

][.它，听得到.][

最近的心情，没有大好，也没有大坏。
平平的。
在这错中复杂的情绪当儿，我知道某个角落的自己被伤得不轻。
没对任何人说，因为就自己承担吧。
没事的。
真的不是大事。
只是付出太多，所以伤得很深。
某个角落的自己，感觉心累了。
不想再付出。

最近，我爱上了跑步。
不停的跑，让全身的汗都痛快的流出来。

今天，去投篮了。
我觉得，它听见了。
它，是有感情的吧。

好啦！该去读书了！
我会慢慢找回为“你”再次努力的力气和勇气。
不能因为这件事而放弃“你”。
不会的。
给我一些时间。



take gd care every1!
bye =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will find e joy back.][

][.1 more month.][

][.1 more month.][

1 more month and we will say hi to 2011 and bye to 2010.
time realli flies.

weekend was gd with 5-yr-old kid and our collection of marathon package.
haha i must be mad whenever i say: "Yes, let's go for the full marathon."
but no regrets, life would be too tiring if we consider all the pros and cons be4 making a decision.
at times, you just need a little madness to do things that will make you look back and smile.

12 days left to the race.
haha..i m nowhere near prepared.
need to run more within this wk n allow the body to gradually rest be4 e race.
compressors, mp3 are my best friends when it comes to jogging.
jogging nv fails to make my day.
with the sweat, you feel as thou some troubles and worries are gone with it too. =]
love how running takes my mind of things.

n definitely looking forward to rdm with kid nxt wed and a race like no others nxt sun. =]
3 yr old to 5 yr old: "let's stun em!"

apart frm meeting kid, sat was also nice celebrating fungi's 21st!
finally our youngest had turned 21 too.
Happy 21st Fungi! weloveyou.
n with this, we had officially stepped into a decade of friendship and celebrated 52 birthdays together! =]
haha..it's amazing when we sit back and think about all the special occasions that we had seen each other thur.
if meeting for birthdays = 52 times..
in this 10yrs, how many times had we meet to make each other day's special?
treasure them and all the dear friends that make my simple day a nice one. =]

sun was a mad rush with tuitions and taking care of xiaobai.
xb is YanYi meimei's dog who is under probation at moi's house now.
praying for it that it will be gd n be able to stay on. =]
had a new experience of bringing dogs out to ecp.
haha an impromtu roadtrip with wen, moi, offie, tiger and xiaobai.
it's chaotic with so many dogs.
n at times such as these, babies are really much easier to handle!
haha..but yups.
a tiring but fun day with the dogs. =]

n now it's back to school and work.
reports after reports.
jus finished one.
more or less got the draft done.
would edit it tml.
my dear brain, pls give me more writer juices so that i dun have to tink so hard and get mental blocks. =]
thank you!

n saw this on tumblr..



“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other…Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.”

haha feels tt the pic brings out everything.
jus felt like sharing this nice pic and "quote".
hopefully you will meet your right one at the right time and not fall for him/ her only when it is too late. =]

ok! shall end here le!
take gd care every1!
Bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.it's almost over.][

][.it's almost over.][

hello bloggy!
it's finalized.
all is said and done. =]
jus one last thing to do to close the chapter of my life nicely.
that's to go to the malaysia trip.

after which, it would be byebye to national team.
took loads of courage to say bye.
but at the same time, it was much easier than i had expected.
cried too much over it.
felt so weak and loser for crying over it.

so from today onwards,
i shan't drop a tear over the game anymore.
nothing else shall put me down from playing e game anymore. =]

on e way back after everything was finalized,
忍不住的痛痛快快的流泪了。
两年。。
这两年的一切。。
想必会是我人生的一个很好的历练。
我将永远记着这一切。
学会了很多。
不止篮球。。
也学会了人生。

我学会了。。
不需要样样东西都认真，负责。
因为，付出并不一定会得到任何成果。
有时，它换来的是痛。

我学会了。。
现实是残忍的。
强者就会生存。
所以，我会努力的读书。。
把学业搞好。
若能认真的打球，我能更认真的读书。 =]

我学会了。。
学会了。。
哈哈。。很多很多。。
但，最重要的是。。
当快乐变成痛苦时，
就放手吧。
因为，放手后，你真的会比较快乐。

从这次的事，
我也体会到真正关心你的人对你的真诚相对。
她们不会骗你。
她们只会希望你做对你最好的选择。

so..thanks loads coach cindy, sh, moi, llz, forever5 and my daddy n mummy.
thanks loads for giving me e courage to say bye.
thanks loads for accompanying me to say bye.
thanks loads for being there with me when i m uncertain.
thanks loads for giving me the time to be by myself when i need.
thanks loads for supporting me no matter what.
for all these,
thank you! =]

these 2 years..
i really learnt loads.
i can say..i tried and that's all.
from now on, it'll be a new chapter of life. =]
i will use my new regained freedom to do things i always wanna try.
n work harder for studies!
have more time for my family and friends! =]

haha ok! take gd care every1!
bye~ =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.goodbye sbc.][

][.crushed.][

当让你快乐的事变成了让你难过的事，你还会有勇气继续下去吗？

it's really hard to make a decision, when you are too tired to hold on, but too in love to let go.

i m ultra tired now.
all ready to let go.
cz this aint the game i love anymore.

had the greatest fall.
the most amount of tears.
n this is not worth it.

it's nt worth it.
so goodbye to all my heartbreaks.
goodbye to all the internal pain.
i will never forget e pain.

i tried.
n this is enough.
don't cry becoz it's over.
smile becoz it happened.

i will smile n let you know when all is finalized.
for now, pray for me.
n keep me safe n strong. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.这一次，说真的算了.][

][.累.][

][.累.][




hello bloggy!
super ultra tired.
had nt had gd night slp since sun.

past 2 days had been madness w presentation.
felt like all my strength had been sucked out of me into e e slides.
facing e ppt, facing e class.
enjoy it when e presentation went well n felt tt things were gd. =]

yet at e same time,
feel so drained when everything is over.
like phewwww..finally allow me to breathe.
breathe, breathe hard fe.

some v random thoughts.
but i hope tt i have enough $ to travel e world.
i wanna travel n see e world.
i wanna take a break.

this sem had been a v tiring one.
esp this mth n e nxt when all e work is like a river that nv end.
rarrs.rarrs.

有时候，真的累到。。
不想去想，不想去做任何事。
只想一个人，好好的静一静。
想大声的喊出内心的纳闷。

haha rarrs.
ok it will be fine.it will be fine.it will be fine.
at times such as these, no idea why..but jus wanna play w a baby.
seems like their innocence n laughter is e solution to the tiredness.

ok! take gd care every1!
i m ok.
jus whiny.
haha jk.
nitez =]

n thanks loads 933 for accompanying me thru e nites! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.寂寞寂寞就好.][

][.a true friend is...][

][.a true friend is..][

was eating dinner n flipping thur a nice nice album.
saw these words n can't help but agree. =]

a friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow -- shakespeare

thankful for mine =]

haha ok! random post.
but realli cant help but agree w shakespeare.
take gd care every1!
nitez! time for work.
jiayou!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.第一时间.][

][.Change in Bodyclock.][

][.Change in Bodyclock.][

it's 415am n i m wide awake.
this is madness.
slept at 530am ytr..woke up at 9am today!
n nt sleep a wink n still awake?!
siao liao.
bodyclock, are you ok? =]

these few days had been hmmm.
不是三言两语就能解释的。
很多复杂的情绪。
i love this line..
it's always easier to smile than to explain why are you sad.

haha dont worry.
i m nt sad.
jus haha
aw..family away in batam so forever5 is now soundly asleep.
really glad that they came over to keep my company.
haha..10yrs ltr, would we look back n laugh at wad we are now?
jus as how we looked bac n laughed at all our stupid quarrels. haha

人与人之间的缘分真的很奇妙。
遇见了，就要好好珍惜。
失去了，就微笑祝福。

watched my fair lady.
3 more ep to go.
love korean dramas =]

haha ok! take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.Spaced Out.][

][.Spaced Out.][

越不想去想，却因如此而越在想。
spaced out.
能不能就不要想了。

felt realli unwell on e train today.
kept sweating - cold sweat tt i had to alight at bugis to rest.
den after a while went to city hall for project. =]

met sh for dinner n study session at starbucks at jp was gd!
grocery shopping n all sets e pace of being bac to sch.
e nxt mth would be a hectic mth.
but be4 which, let's jus survive this 2 wks 1st.
mad mad wks.
quiz,presentation,proj due!
DEAD-lines.

amidst all these..
there are still smiles..
from looking fwd to forever5 gatherings n listening to songs on youtube.
really wanna watch this show.
caught it in manila and love it.



时间是你能给人最宝贵的礼物。
因为，时间一旦付出就不会再有。
所以，总想把时间留给在乎的人。
也越来越想把时间留给会让自己快乐的事。
tink i blogged abt this long ago.
time is the most precious gift =]

the minute you feel like giving up, think of the reason why you held on for so long?

take gd care every1!
nitez =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.needs to run!.][

][.think,think,think.][

][.think,think,think.][

hello everybody!
i m back from manila! =]]
got a chance w e 7th seaba.
something i will always remember.
there's always something worth remembering each trip. =]

everything tt won't kill me will only make me stronger.
there's something weighing in my heart.
a decision to be make.
a very serious one.
deep deep thoughts needed.

whichever it is..
love my family n love forever5!





ok! take gd care every1!
rest well! nitez =]
it's gg to be back to reality tml!
face it! =]]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.decision.][

][.everything happens for a reason.][

][.everything happens for a reason.][

hello bloggy!
i m currently bloggin in manila. in e lobby.
haha current status: 平静。

当付出不等于回报的时候，
不准眼泪再次滑落。
做到了。=]
想通了。
把一切当成学习的一个过程吧。
微笑面对。
承认能力不足，但至少尝试过。

我没有说要退出。
但是，目前的我只要为十二月的比赛努力。
就此而以。
其余的，我会好好想想。
选择总是不容易。
但，别担心，我承受得起。
过了21岁仿佛有了多一些力量来面对事情。

毕竟，现在也已经是个大人了。
生命里还有很多事情要追求，要努力。=]

谢谢cindy coach！及时的鼓励真的很感动。
我会尽情的继续享受这个路程。
用+ 的心来面对！ =]

take care everybody! =]
meeting my ex-philipines player once again realli made my day! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.smiles.][

][.21 already! =].][

][.21 already! =].][

hello bloggy!
hah been a long time since i blogged.
from e last post till now..loads had happened.
sunig champs,bday celebration & i m flying off tml. =]

haha 1st of all, gd job nan da!
thanks for e early bday gift! =]

and haha..finally 21!
officially an adult..haha
you won't grow any taller, feel any differences but..
the whole party made me feel really loved.
really really loved =]
thanks loads to every1 tt came and made it possible!

special thanks to..
thank you daddy & mummy!
thank you didi!
thank you gan die & gan ma!
thank you ah yiSSS!
seeing the whole family helping you with everything is really wow! 感动！
thank you everybody!


thank you forever5!
thank you wen,jing,moi,fungi!
you guys were awesome!
from the preparation night to the actual day to the aftermath!
without you guys & my family, i really can't imagine how would things be. =]

thanks wen for driving me, & all the logistics & missing arsenal's game (which meant a lot) & everything that you had done to ensure that the party goes well. thanks for assuring me that things will all be well cz you guys have my back. those msgs were really assuring when i get gan chiong and all.u r really my 1st best friend. thanks wen!

thanks jing for helping me with the makeup and giving me a new look for the party =] thank you for helping with e quiz and the streamers, with getting the deco & being e photographer! thanks loads for the msgs jus as wen, assuring me tt things would be alright and when i say thanks, u scolded me cz u guys jus wanna do all u can to make it memorable for me. thanks jing & shem!

thanks moi for all the logistics, getting the deco, setting up the food stands, blowing the balloons & photographers. thanks loads for helping me with so much despite scolding me for being a g to be gan chiong over e party. thanks for assuring me and tell me that things would all be gd and you would let action speaks more than words for our 10yrs of friendship! thanks moi!

thanks fungi for helping me the my journey through life! thanks for helping me think and cut the letters out for 3hrs plus outside the chalet while the rest were helping me in the aircon! thanks for being my photographer! thanks for helping me with all the logistics & ensuring that everything flows! thanks for everything! thanks fungi!

thanks for the 10years of friendship! <3
thanks loads forever5!
you guys had really gave me a vv memorable bday & kept me safe!
thanks for assuring me & putting up with my gan chiong-ness to keep everything perfect for the day.
thanks for nt resting much due to my "engagement" party and yet being so efficient!
thanks for surprising me with the cards which touched my heart =]




thanks for exceeding our usual budget and getting me a 2nd helium balloon becoz u guys know tt i really want one. <3
thanks for the specially designed cards and the msg (each of it touched me so!) =]

behind the scenes..=]]






最珍贵的礼物是你们给我的友情。
大家忙忙碌碌，偶尔因意见不和而吵架，但到最后还是会回到彼此为彼此建立的避风港。
愿意为彼此付出，保护彼此。
谢谢你们让我有一份如此可贵的友情。
认识你们，真的是我的福气。

谢谢! iloveus!

thanks loads to 5-yr-old-kid too!
人生得一知己，真的足够。
thanks for the 5yrs of friendship!
thanks for helping me out with the cake!e design and all! cz i really can't decide and u helped me! (which turned out really awesome!)
thanks for liasing with mei2 and reminding us that we need to get chairs! (haha i know, i know)
谢谢你总是在我的生命里扮演着大姐姐的角色！
and thanks for e nice scrap album which beautifully 记载着这段友情的点点滴滴。
很美，很用心，很喜欢。<3
thanks loads llz!

i m certain we will fill the album with more to come and show e kids someday! =]


thanks loads to roomie too!
thanks for helping me get the guestbooks stuffs and helping me cut and design it!
thanks for sending out my wishlist to all and liasing with everybody to make sure tt i get my wishlist =]
thanks for helping me get stuffs and gg back to get e helium balloon! =]
thanks for helping me carry e cake!
haha thanks for e friendship! we been through ups and downs but rest assured.
a friendship that encountered ups n downs is a friendship to last =]
thanks loads for everything! =]



thanks loads to these special people!
and thanks loads to every1 that came!
really appreciate it! =]
the greatest gift that one could give is to come! =]
thanks loads every1! from my childhood best friend to my uni friends!
thanks for seeing me through 21yrs of life!
each and every1!
thanks for being part of my life and thanks for coming to celebrate this memorable day with me! =]]



thanks to diana and family for coming down!
as i flipped thru my childhood pics, all the memories were jus diana and felicia!
so glad that you came tt day and e little bk which recorded our childhood!
thanks diana dinosaur! can't wait for dinner with u when i m bac frm manila. =]

thanks to team ahs - sheryl, ling, sek, chu for coming! *sheng zhong woosh* would never forget how much i love the game. it was u guys tt made up e happiest part of bball for me =] thanks for coming! =]

thanks to team kem for coming down! xiao dui for coming down be4 and da dui for coming down after! thanks loads! *xing xin* really touched. miss playing in kem! would be back soon! thanks for being 6yrs of my life!

thanks to 230 guys for coming down - xiaopang, qy,wx, kg n jeff.
thanks guys! thanks for all the steamboat tt u all had treated me!
really missed playing bball with u all! =]

thanks to nan da bball!
thanks loads team!
thanks for coming, for the sb, for e running shoes and for being being present!
u guys roxz my world in ntu! =]

thanks to lms mates for coming down! (and being e earliest)
thanks for coming and thanks for seeing me thur e 3yrs of academic life!
u guys wuld be missed nxt sem! =]

thanks to hall mates for coming!
jiaying mama, jo and wl!
thanks for coming! hall life wuld have been diff without u all! =]

thanks to programmers for coming!
thanks for being present! hope u all enjoyed urself as much as i do! =]

thanks to my tuition kids and family for coming down too! =]

should i miss out any1, pls forgive me!
it's 4am in e morning le! =]
once again, thanks loads everybody!
thanks for making my day special with ur presence!

and lastly, special thanks to..

daddy and mummy!
thanks for 21yrs of love!
thanks for caring for me more than any1! =]
m glad tt i managed to rush home to celebrate e moment! <3



family <3


hao la! i shall go zzz le.
flying off to manila tml noon till 30th oct.
so..anything jus email me ok! =]
hopefully there is internet connection!
haha..i would be kidding if i say i m nt nervous abt e trip.
how i wish 5yr old kid is here with me at the moment.
overseas trip (bball) jus get me jittery due to the past experience.
but breathe in and out.
this will be ok!
it will be good!
let's go team!
let's go fe! =]
con-fe-dence!

take gd care every1!
dun let e haze get u sick like me ok!
see u in 9days! =]

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若我想说，那就不是秘密。
若我不想说，那我就是无论如何都不会说。

我没有很多秘密。
所以都可以很坦然相对 =]

很多事情都需要很多时间来遗忘。
忘记一个人就和努力想想起一个没有遇见过的人一样难。

最近想的比较多。
面对曾经很熟悉却变得陌生的人时，需要很大的勇气。
但是，一旦时间久了，其实真的没想太多了。
两个人都不在彼此的世界很久了，那段过往就真的变成了过往。

时间，你已经帮我冲淡了一段过往。
能不能请你帮我冲淡另一段？
我已经很努力了。
是不是我不够努力？
是不是我的记忆太好？
无论如何，请您帮我这个忙。
谢谢您！



haha just some random thoughts!
no worries!
take gd care every1!
rest well! nitez =]

last game for sunig tml!
let's go 3s! =D

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快乐不快乐。
没有人应该决定你的快乐或不快乐。
只有自己应该主宰自己的人生，自己的心情。

不快乐，就有责任让自己再快乐。
不要埋怨老天。
不要责怪任何人。
就休息一下，让不快乐的情绪随风而去。
就让它随风而去。

在世界上，还有更多令人难过的事。
一点小事，真的没关系。
没关系。

别问我为何不快乐。
因为，没什么快不快乐。
只是，偶尔的沉默。

take gd care every1!
nitez!

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][.i will be ok.][

][.1000 posts.][

][.1000 posts.][

Happy 1000 post bloggy!
You had served me well thur' out these yrs!
Thank You very very much! =]

been trying to focus n mug for tue's quiz.
but nt being in the top form mugging mode.
so decided to stop a while and do a random blogging.
this is another random post but it's my 1000th post.
so smiles!

another normal sat spent with tuitions, game n rest.
another day ahead tml tt's gg to be spent w tuitions n study n rest? =]

it had been a gd wk.
started sunig and won our 1st game.
could have fought harder and get a better win but gd job team!
let's keep going for e remaining 2 teams ok!
the team who wants it more will eventually get it!
let's go THREEs! =]
keep the spirits up!
n i wanna tape my number for every game! cz tt wuld give me sakuragi's power. =]

being back in a season makes me totally focused on e game.
haha n 2 wks be4 i bid childhood goodbye and officially step into adulthood and take charge of my life.
used to had loads of stupid wish to achieve by the time i reach 21.
but as i m reaching it, all these are not coming true but yet there's no tinge of sadness that these are not achieved.
cz, i m really contented with all that i have now =]

oo n i finally sent out invitations for my 21st!

thanks to sh for designing this for me =]
awaiting replies be4 i can proceed on to order food and all.
haha..hope tt everything falls into place on e day. =]

aw..was finding compos for my kid tml.
came across a few articles.
one of which that i like..=]

把心交给你

总喜欢做这样一个游戏：闭着眼睛，拉着你的手，让你助我跨越所有障碍，到达目标。
刚开始，总是紧紧握着你的手，担心地闭着眼睛，小心地向前跨步。可不管怎样，我还是害怕。害怕前面就是一块大石头，害怕前面是一滩深水。尽管我与你的手紧紧相连，尽管我把你的手勒得生疼，可是我的心充满了彷徨。阳光是那样烦躁的热，前方是那样恐怖的远。于是，我忍不住睁大眼睛，发现我正走在一大片宽阔的土地上。你轻轻地说:你犯规了。可我看到你眼中的失落。
我想，原来是我多虑了。
我说，我们再玩一次。于是，你拉着我的手。你温热的体温传到我的心里。我轻轻地靠在你的肩头。你让我抬脚，我就抬脚。你让我跳，我就跳。我的耳边飘着你跃动的音符，心中充满这对你的信任。最后，我轻轻睁开眼，发现我站在一片葱郁的草地上。你轻轻地说：你赢了。我看到你眼中的愉悦。
既然是朋友，就丢弃那无谓的多虑，把心交给你，让你引领你走一段美丽的路程。

我也渴望有天有机会就这样闭着眼睛，被带到一片宽阔的草原。
在那儿看日出，日落，星辰。
简简单单的过一天。
会有这样一天的到来吗？=]

some1 told me..
I always knew that looking back to the cries would would make me laugh.
but..
I never knew that looking back at the laughs would make me cry.

what's ur take on this?
i had tried looking back on the cries and laughed at my own stupidity.
but i refuse to cry at the laughs.
cz smile becoz it happened. =]

always believed tt those tt are worth ur tears wun make you tear.
n agree with fungi - "those that promised never to hurt you, ended up to be the one that hurted you the most"

but what could we do? =]
believe that they nv meant to hurt you thou they did.
n smile n moved on.
try to forget all the unhappiness and just smile at all the laughs that you guys had shared. =]
it's hard.
but bit by bit time will do the job, heal the wound.
cz, that person that promised really din tot of hurting you. at least at e moment they did promise. i believe.

haha such a random post huh =]
2 wks to adulthood.
still behaving like a kid.
but it's ok! i dun care!
haha..gg to train daily for the remaining 2 wks.
thus, how m i gg to countdown to it? - basketball.

haha a few more yrs..n i will bid it byebye.
so love it more for now =]
hang in there knees,ankles, back, hands, fingers.
pls don't fail me =]

ok la! done w all my random thoughts.
it's 329am at the moment.
shall end off here n rest!
take gd care every1!
nitez. =]

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][.ups n downs of life.][

][.959 post.][

][.959 post.][

this is my 959 post.
one more to a 1000.
thanks to bloggy, i get to note down things tt had happened to me for the last 5yrs.
those precious memories.
happiness, tears, anger, disappointment and everything that was worth my memo.

it's a normal day of tuitionsss.
spent time w my "kids" and decided to invite em to my party. =]
had family dinner n came home to rest. =]
randomly watched videos and all e nan da videos.
if there's something memorable when i leave ntu, it would be ntu basketball.
the different seasons with different things.

sunig is starting on wed.
jiayou nan da! jiayou threes!
as i re-watched our victorious season and our lost for ivp 09/10, there was an overwhelming emotions within.
sunig may not be as wow as ivp.
but one thing for sure,
let's fight hard together ok, team! =]
63 = the lost to ite - 6pts. 3 = let's win it threeS!

hao la. tired le.
take gd care every1!
nitez. =]

listening to 933 is really gd therapy.

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seeing more n more 21st parties.
signals the nearing of my own 21st.
the end of childhood and beginning of adulthood.

haha not tt 20 to 21 is going to transform me.
but jus feel diff.
haha it's gg to be e 1st party tt daddy n mummy is gg to leave it to me =]
from 1st to 12th bday..every party was done by them <3
thank you daddy n mummy!

haha n now tt it is only weeks away..
getting a bit excited n hope everything will go well?
thanks loads to 3 person in particular..moi, sh n llz. =]
thanks for helping me to settle down amidst e gan chiong-ness and offering me your help. really appreciate it!
thanks to moi - logistic and photographer =]
thanks to sh - image consultant and manager =]
thanks to llz - bday games and cake sourcing =]
thanks for helping me set things on e track!

heh..things had been really fast paced with school.
tired-ness within is beyond words can say.
but with the nearing of sunig.
there's something within which i m unable to express in words.
excitement? anticipation?
don't know.
let's go THREES!
i promise to give my very best. are you ready? =]
let's enjoy e season tgt!

ankle is nt doing v well.
so stay strong ankle. thank you. =]

ok la! take gd care every1! =D
nitez! tc!

p/s: looking forward to some changes to hair!

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