][.fearless.][

][.fearless.][

haha hao de..*mood update* current mood status : 100% happy ;p haha jkjk..alright jus came home n settle all e unpacking n stuffs ;p hee went to m'sia for 30+ hrs..haha went wif a not so gd mood..but returned wif a goody goody mood ;p..hee all recharged n ready to face e prelims..thou i onli haf a short 5 days left..(cancelling all e slping n eating time ;p)..but yeah..i m recharged ;p haha all those sleeping time on bus did wonders ;p hee jkjk

haha hao de..today de bloggy gonna be rather long de ;p hee how to start ne..i anyhow start ok ;p..ytr meet at 1pm at e cc dere..den took jersey etc..den went for lunch n we set of for m'sia..reached dere le..we eat n take bus n slp..den after that seniors played a game at 7:30..hee we din get to play but still had fun supporting em la..den deres this half court shooting thingy...den li lin(s'pore 11) shot 1..e person refuse to giv her 500rm coz say she stepped on e line..so she shot a 2nd 1 n it went in again..haha cool rite ;p..den seniors played a gd game n won e game..den hmmm we went for steam-boat ;p den i eat until wanna fall asleep ;p hee after that we reached our hotel..i shared room wif zhou lei..haha was so scared be4 that la..i mean haha yah..dunno la..den lingqin jiao lian say she ish nice de..so haha sh reminds mi of that n ask mi dun scared..so it was still quite nice la..we bathe le jiu went to play pictionary at jas n jiao lian de rm...haha quite fun la..den deres this time when i gotta draw sleevless out..den daisy senior guessed correct le..den i keep on yah yah yah de pt..nv say that is e correct ans..haha so stupid man mi..so e time dao le..den i say e ans jiu shi sleevless..den daisy snr fainted la..haha e game quite fun la..esp see those seniors..haha yun , daisy , cindy coach n lingqin jiao lian all so ji dong..they jus shout e ans out la ;p den daisy ish so pro..e endless e eng words jus came out of her mouth ;p haha den van v funny..not everybody guess she also down dere guessing ;p..hee

so after e game..went bac jiu slp le ;p haha morning wakey..eat breakfast den check out n went shopping..haha went to this food gift de shop..den bought quite lots la ;p hee den went to shopping centre to shop..haha wow i spent a bomb dere..dunno wad i spent on also ;p haha all those funny n cute little stuffs like--> tOrTiSe !!! haha yeah i bought myself 3 small magnet tortise..hee those display de la ;p haha den hmmm bought a shirt..n snoopy bloster..torch..haha etc..den hee wanna thanks sh..coz she asked mi to buy e snoopy bloster for oxjl..haha den hmmm haha..gave oxjl le..den she blurred dao la..n say thanks..den after that went for lunch and set of for e match at 3 wif em..reached dere le..changed into e jersey n stuff..den oxjl passed mi a small plastic bag..i a bit blur dao..den she mumbled sumthing la..haha i tink ish now giv u..or else later a lot ppl..haha psps i din catch her words ;p..den went bac to bus to keep clothes e time..open e bag..hee ish a tortise keychain ! wahaha tortise de ! hee ole..vvvvv happy..haha my new hu shen fu :D..hee den went for warm up..den cindy coach teach mi how to do a power jump shot underbasket..but i din succeed la..but still veri grateful that she teaches mi that..den hmmm was super nervous today de..coz its been a long time since i play a real match..thou i m jus a xiao ka..haha but that kinda of feeling ish so..haha alright..so e game started..den they play n made a lead :D..den after that change players..hee emily snr they all played..den finally i got to play..but make so many mistakes la..den after i subst out wif oxjl..she take e strategy board n tell mi where i went wrong..e timing to run..e defence ( ball far..person furthur..be4 e person take e ball..near her..after e person take e ball..1 step away..)..haha yah..den yeah..grateful again..coz mistakes can onli be changed for e better after u noe wads ya mistake ;p hee..den got to play..den deres one ball that i can jia..den daisy shouted mi to jia..but i too late la..den after that daisy told mi why she ask mi to jia..den haha *phew*..she ish not that scary..den hmmm subst out again..den hui2 snr sat beside mi..den she jiu asked mi why sh run like bouncing like this..den i also dunno why ;p..den after that oxjl bei elbow dao la..den hui2 was like..oei go in n whack e person..haha i *dio stunned*..coz haha hmmm she noes oxjl ish my ou xiang ;p haha so paiseh la..din noe wad to say ;p..*laming*..

den e game went on..got to play..den still ok ok la ;p at least quite glad wif myself..den li lin (s'pore 11)..asked mi if i gotta ping xue not..den tell mi mus take gd care of it..or else nxt time will affect my bball life..haha (thou there may not be one la ;p)..haha but still grateful to em..hee grateful to many ppl today...den e game ended..went to bathe at e temple..den went for dinner...all e weird weird meat..bats,deer,shan zhu etc..haha dun realli dare to eat..so onli eat e veg wif cuttlefish n e tofu..woho i love m'sia de that kinda of fried tofu..den after that take bus n came home ! hee..now i m here home sweet home..haha miss my home ;p hee..den unpacked my stuffs ;p

haha while unpacking..moi called..i ans le..den after i hang up e call..i saw 1 msg received..jiu take it as normal de quick quick read e msg..haha who noes i saw e sender guo hou jiu tio stunned le..hee..haha..hoho..yeah..den i went bouncing ard e hse..those kinda of happy till u dunno how e gan jue la..haha maybe a bit gua zhang..but realli veri happy n shocked by e sms...den haha went to bathe again..n read newspaper ;p leaving my hu shen fu on my table..den mummy took my hu shen fu n started reading..i tot she siao le..den yuan lai on e taggy that ish attached to my hu shen fu no.2 gotta words de..haha den i went happy again..haha

so now my mood ish happy happy n happy..haha alright i m laming..but i jus dunno how to say la ;p hee..this trip had been a nice one..hee at least it made mi changed my mood n ready to jia u le ;p haha..hao la..now i shall go rest le ;p tml den i jia u :D hee..every1 take gd care n jia u too ok :D hee..

][.i promise.][.10.][

][.i m sorry.][

][.i m sorry.][

haha yeah jus a quick update..going off soon to m'sia wif alj..hee sort of packed onli..haha den hmmm lets see..too many things happened these few days..

thurs - > project superstar finals !
hee went to watch e grand finals at s'pore indoor stadium wif butts tor..haha xie le butts for e tickets ! hee realli veri glad that i was at e xian chang..e atmosphere realli veri bang bang gd sia !..haha den kelly sang de songs so nice too..that nite i realli tink she improved lots..n yeah she ish e real superstar to mi ! ",)..haha but when wei lian won i m also quite touched la..coz i voted for him..i mean last time la :D hee..den hmmm there's this qian bian de wei lian fan behind mi..slap him ah..support ya own idol jiu hao la..why boo others de..he jus keep on boo n say bad things abt kelly la..i HATE this kinda of ppl ! yesh HATE ! i HATE ppl who ish sooo freaking definite of their thinkings n put others de down ! i HATE ppl who always tink for themself n ignore abt how others feel ! haha alright..those hate words are jus meant for e stupid fan behind mi..den haha wad else ne..had gastric rite after e thingy ended la..den took lots of pics !..but all quite blur de..hee but shall post em on bloggy sum other days la..hee..hao la..that was quite a happy day..

fri ->results day
haha ytr suxz ba..went wif wen fungi n moi to airport to study a maths..den quite nice de..we played true or dare at e last part..n there is this drink which all 4 of us had to drink..( coz in e end..wen "force" us onli can dare ;p)..yucks tor..its a drink wif a mixture of cola , chili n mayo sauce..u can drink till puke la..haha fungi n wen drink le ok..den mi n moi drink le ma sha puke..coz it taste a bit like vomit la..den wen ish a jian nu ren..haha take pics of e guy behind us ;p hee jkjk
alright so reached home at ard 8 : 20..and gotta scoldings after scoldings..for e results that i m getting now..alright..its my fault for not doing well..but mus she scold n scold n scold..sianz la..cannot stand it le..lucky i going off for a short trip during e weekends la..i swear..i will study 12 hrs / day during e 1 wk hols to get a better grade..i dun wanna get scoldings by mummy le..this world is cruel de..no gd performance..u r sacked from ya jobs..no gd results..ppl look down on u..even ya parents feel ashamed..its jus a world of reality..we jus got to face it..i m gonna prove u wrong mummy..

~to a gd friend i "scold"~
sorry for all e harsh words that i said to u..jus wanna let u noe how i feel as ya frend..u had always been a veri gd frend n will always be..all e best for e video n ya pract..jia u le !

hao la..take care every1..my bloggy ish not veri organised today..coz mood also not veri organised ba..haha hao la..take gd care of yaself & jia u le ! prove all those ppl wrong man..byee take care !

][.but i will prove u wrong.][
][.coz i m 17.][

][.nobody noes.][

][.nobody noes.][

it seems as thou i had not cum to bloggy for many days le..thou its onli for 2 days..haha maybe blogging had became a part of my life le ba..a kinda of habit..but nowadays..feel quite weird de..got lots of things..i jus find it so diff to put it down in words..haha maybe..i m jus lazy of trying to put it down in words ba..haha

alright jus a update..today ish teacher's day..went back to pri sch..jus wanna wish all teachers hApPy tEaChEr'S dAy !..den hmmm haha fungi met a shuai guy = our ex-classmate..den hmmm lots of mini mini bits that i m lazy to blog la ;p haha 37..

den went to gan tie organise de bbq..haha ate quite lots..gotta go for a jog tml le..to shed of e fats..den feeling quite so so de..till butts jus called n say he got tics for mi to go tml de le..haha realli quite happy de..but dunno if mummy ish agreeable not..coz she ish like going to slp le..haha..den i jus tell her le..jiu run away..haha tml den ask her again le..gonna persuade her till she agrees..

haha n yah..feel stress le..realli..
i haf changed
i m not who u all tink i m
but i realli dun wanna disappoint u all
shugs
i m drowning..
agrh..

hao la..a pic speaks a thousand words..e pic at e begining of my bloggy represents mi..

][.u wun noe.][

][.hanging on.][

][.hanging on.][

tml ish chem pract..haha o no..thru out so many yrs in sec sch life..had nv tried doing chem pract alone..haha how how ?..ok la..say real de..i m not scared..hee but feeling rather complicated now de..

i dun realli like chem..but i haf a nice teacher..ms tay..so how ne..shall study wad i can now la..at least like this got jing li le ba ;p hee..alright..still left 50% to study..n 1 hr more be4 i shuld slp ;p haha leave it to e hands of fate den ;p hee..hmm hao la..n wanna say paiseh hor moi..jus now shout at u..realli veri "angry" for that split sec la..u'r chem so pro le still so worried..den i m like haha erm..nbm..lucky e debate din go on..*proves a pt*..when 2 person quarrels..1 haf to say sToP 1st ! hee..

hao la..shall go study wadever chem i can for e hr la..hee dun feel like giving up on my chem pract for tml thou i dun tink i will fare well too..but jus wanna try..hee take care le every1 ! byee

][.perserverence will pay off.][
][.ediqgnafiuhubow.][

][.wo niu.][

][.wo niu.][

quite like this song de..so decided to blog e han yu ping yin lyrics n e direct translation that i found from a webby..hee hope u like it..its Wo Niu (Snail) by jay..

gai bu gai ge xia zhong zhong de ke
Should I shed my heavy shell
xun zhao dao di na li you lan tian
To find just where there is blue sky
sui zhe qing qing de feng qing qing de piao
Following the light breeze, swaying gently
ni jing de xiang dou bu gan xie te
You become still as if afraid to unwind

Chorus :
wo yao yi bu yi bu wang shang pa
I must crawl up step by step
deng dai yang guang jing jing kan zhe ta de lian
And wait for the sun to quietly survey its face
xiao xiao de tian you da da de meng xiang
The small sky has a big dream
zhong zhong de ke gua zhe qing qing de yang wang
The heavy shell carries with it a gentle forward gaze
wo yao yi bu yi bu wang shang pa
I must crawl up step by step
zai zui gao dian cheng zhe ye wang qian fei
And at the highest point, endure the darkness and ahead I fly
rang feng chui gan liu guo de lei hen
Let the wind blow dry the tears that have been shed
zong you yi tian wo you shu yu wo de tian
One day I will have my own sky

haha if i m finding a song to describe my mood today..this will be e song..hee maybe this is my song for these few days ba..haha today had trng..den after trng..trained a bit alone..i mean not alone yeah..sh..yaqi..n e others were still ard too..but every1 trained on their own la..do e things that they wanna..hee every1 train diff things..haha i guess thats becoz every1 got diff thingys that they wanna accomplish ba..jus like in life.every1 pursue diff goals.haf diff ambitions etc..hee..den after that went for lunch wif every1 present at trng today which = 8 ppl coz van left for tuition..den hmmm the jc de seniors all quite funny de..thou they speak eng (e lang that i cannot catch la;p)..but still had fun coz they veri funny den u will jus luff n luff..n hee hmmm today saw serene..e one that i injured during e nus thingy..feel less guilty le la ;p haha *wipe my sweat*..hee jkjk..alright..so today de trng was ok ba..but i m afraid of tml de..i doubt will haf e strenght la..n my right knee cap is pain pain now ;p *sobz*..but mus jia u le..every1 pain here pain dere also..they so jian qiang..i also mus :D hee..

den today sh told mi a vvvvv meaningful story...which i wanna share wif every1 here..my summary not gd..so it may be quite long...anyway start le..
theres this man who ish veri gd n pro in sailing..
but sailing takes up lots of his time..
time that he can spend on his work n with his friends..
one day..he decided to quit sailing n spend more time to excel in his work..
but who noes..
once he quits sailing..
he spends his spare time hanging ard n going out wif his frends..
he did not focus on his work..
in e end..
he fare badly..even worser then when he was sailing..
its now that he felt lost..he felt that he had lost sumthing veri impt in his life..
he went back to sailing..
n its onli den that he realise...
sailing is e sumthing in his life that he cannot lose..
sailing may take up his time..
but sailing affects his life..
sailing had causes him to be more organised..
sailing teaches him to use his spare time meaningfully to finish his work n fare well...

haha i forget e morale of e story le..but i believe clever clever de u ( yesh ya..reading bloggy de u) shuld understand wad i m trying to say ba..haha after sh tells mi e story..i felt deeply la..i tink i shuld not take study breaks or sumthing la..coz its not like i will spend all my time studying at home yeah..hee but maybe i will take a leave for 2 wks to prepare for my prelims ba..haha gotta do well rite..if not i also dunno how..hee..hao la..i tink e story veri inspiring..so xie le sh..for telling mi e story..its jus like us playing bball..we tink it will affect our studies..but its not true..in fact it helps us to organise our time better n use our spare time more meaningfully rite..hee thou i still uses em to watch tv la..haha but..i love e story yeah..hope ya like it too :D

*sumthings to vent my disappointment of e day*forever5*where r u all*
haha den hmm wad else..every1 ish hot on their heels preparing..muggin n stuffs for their prelims le..n from butts de blog..onli 10++ days left le..hao la..i need to find e attitude that i uses to study for my psle to study for my prelims le..hee da jia yi qi jia u ba :D..n jus went to forever5 de bloggy..no1 blogs today..hee or maybe these few days..apart from fungi..haha not feeling anything..jus disappointed n sad la..is it realli that blogging dere isn't wad u all wanna..last time when forever5 bloggy was our 1 n onli blog..almost everyday i go dere will haf new blogs de..at least i noe hows every1 of u..if not at least i noe abt 2 of u de..but u go see now..its jus so saddening..so wad if u change e blogskin..so wad if u change e music..u jus wun be able to change wad ppl realli wan..now every1 haf own blog le..who still bothers to blog dere ne..i dun giv excuse that i also seldom blog dere le..coz haha who cares abt mi anymore dere..i can blog all i wan n i m jus toking to myself..last time at least u 4 will bother to leave a taggy or a blog of encouragement or console..but now who cares..tell mi who cares..do u all still cares ?..i noe u all do cares but haha u get wad i mean..i mean who cares wad is on e blog abt wad i m realli feeling deep down ?..every1 haf their own thinkings..every1 haf their own reasons..every1 haf their own excuses..friendship needs love n care n patience..i guess i lost lots of these le ba..i m realli sorry that i say all these..but is realli bloggin at forever5 de bloggy so xin ku to u all le ma..can't u all express ya thoughts dere anymore le ma..so sad so sad..i can't take it anymore le..i goes to every1 of ya bloggy n deres update..but forever5 dere ne..nothing much..i noe wad i jus say is veri offending n unfair to u all..coz every1 haf a reason for not blogging dere..i haf no rights to force u all to blog..n i will nv ever do that..rest assured..but i m jus expressing how i m feeling now *here* ..coz like fungi say..a blog is where u express ya own thinkings freely n ignore abt everything else..therefore i m blogging today to let u all noe how i feels..i noe..4 of u may be too busy n no1 may cum to my blog even..but i jus wanna blog down to let u all noe..friendship needs to be frank too..i rather u all be angry wif mi than to keep everything to myself..coz i believe a true friendship ish one which u got to tell ya frend e truth no matter how much it hurts..coz all u hope ish em to becum stronger n better..hence i nd to say all these..i m sorry forever5..i m realli sorry..but i hope u all can understand..but if cannot also suan le ba..blog onli ma..does it mean anything ?..haha i dunno..maybe i m jus siao n tink too much le ba(over emotional / sensitive / paranoid? ha.)..anyway i jus went to our bloggy once again n look at those past memories..deres a poem that jing blogged..sumthing like this :

You helped me laughed
becoz of you..
I have no fear..
Together we live
together we grow...
teaching each other
wad we mus know..
You came into my life
and i was blessed...
I love u friend
You are e best...
Release my hands
And say goodbye...
Please dun worry..
I'll try not to cry..
I promise u this
its is not e end..
coz like i say..
you are my friend..
my best friends...

trying to forget sum1 is jus like trying to rmb sum1 u haf nv met..haha saw myself bloggin that on forever5 de bloggy 2 years ago..felt so much as i read all our past memories..felt so wen xin..e onli word that i can tink of now..felt the bond..felt e qing qie de gan jue..every1 blogging n jus like chatting coz not every1 can online at e same time..haha..i m sorry..i forgotten that we grow le..sorry..hao la..enff le..i said enff le..i m sorry forever5 de ren he yi ge zhu tous if i say le this..n u dun feel so..coz..haha thats jus how i feel now..no matter if u all still go blog or not..this friendship will be available to u all..as long as u dun let go..rmb i m here..jus like i said..forgetting sum1 is jus like trying to remember sum1 that u had nv met..u came into my life..took a huge part of it..n forgetting u gals is almost mission impossible now..jus hope that we can "chat" jus like be4 on our bloggy now..jus like be4..

hao la..i shall end my blog here today..missing em..thou i see u all everyday..missing jing..jing realli hope u can blog at forever5 de bloggy..n moi n wen..esp moi..dun tell mi why u dun blog le..realli hope that we can chat jus like be4..realli..take care every1..jia u too..rmb to 5milez too..

][.xiang hui dao guo qu.][
][.i still can't let go.][
][.how useless can i be.][

][.Rang Shi Jie Ying Ai Fa Guang.][.Rang Shen Ming Ying Meng Xiang Wei Da.][

the gan ren show...
U choose ya own ...
destination..u decide it yaself..


][.Rang Shi Jie Ying Ai Fa Guang.][.Rang Shen Ming Ying Meng Xiang Wei Da.][

muhahah wahaha heeehooo today gotta lots lots lots to blog abt..pardon mi yeah..i wun say i had a veri happy day today..in fact nothing special happened to make mi happy..jus another simple day..but i jus feel so woohooo..high now ;p haha alright let mi sum up my main pts for today de blog 1st..or else later forget le veri pek de ;p haha
1) jus move on.u will get it de (maths tuition)
2) e touching show of Hui Jia on sun channel u
3)no tv = tears
4)friendship story on today's music diary
5)i wanna go e buddha camp

muhaha hao la..can start le..hee nowadays ah..e mood like sit roller coaster like this..goes up n down..goes realli up den feels so down den up n down again..wo ho..haha dunno la ;p jus noe that i shall try not to feel this way le..hee

hao de i shall start from e back ;p
* i wanna go e buddha camp*
4B de shi hui ask mi if wanna go for a camp organised by her temple from 15-18 dec ma..i realli vvvvv wanna go..but i m in hk wif my team from 11-16..so cannot..haha sad la cannot go..but i m glad that i m wif my team in hk la..but jus sad..coz i realli wanna noe more abt buddhism wif sum real guidance..buddhism is realli too vast le..haha i wanna noe more abt it..haha is like 4b de shi hui realli asked mi lots of time of diff programmes le...but i always clashed wif bball or this or that..jiu cannot go..i hope she wun feel that i m escaping or sumthing..i truly wanna go de..maybe when i older le den i go ba..haha alright yeah..

*friendship de story on today's music diary*
haha today de story is so so so so so much like forever5 de..it involves a grp of frends whom becum best of friends in p5..it revolves ard bball n studies..it involves quarrels which are resolved within a few hours ;p haha veri much alike yet diff in sum ways..it said real friendship can endure everything..haha i believed in that too..but i had learnt to let go..lao shi suo..i last time sec1 n 2 de time super stubborn de..its like closing ya friends in e cage together wif ya..dun wan ya frend to mix wif others that kinda la..but haha now already no more la..coz friends nd other friends too..rmb rmb this impt pt ;p haha..alright den hmmm wad else ne..o yah..friends grow..age..but i hope e distance dun..haha but its hard..so yeah..jus treasure wad u haf now la every1..dun bother abt how much u receive..jus giv wad u wan..dun regret onli after u lose a frend..hee i believe every1 u out there haf at least a frend ba..haha *ahem* mi ? haha jkjk..yeah jia u n move on in life ok..i m able to move this on due to my gd frends n family de love..so i jus wanna remind every1..u all r being loved too..jus that u may not be aware la ;p hee

*no tv=tears*
today came home n sat in front of my tv..so qi dai my channel 55 de yong wang zhi qian..wait wait wait..den 5 plus de time..ah ha my channel 55 gone !!! they told mi i nv subscribe this channel ! kill em ah..my show wanna start le den say..so i jus like a baby la..did wad i did when i was young..=cry..haha mummy was like say shame shame..while daddy bth mi..haha daddy n mummy swoped roles sia..when i was young..i cry coz cannot watch tv..mummy was e bth n scold 1..whereas daddy ish e an fu mi..n say shame shame de..but now ish like..mummy ask daddy quick call to subscribe for mi e channel..haha woho..wad happened to both of their character sia ;p but nbm nbm..so daddy bth n had to call n subscribe..but i still din get to watch..coz e person say e channel will onli be available after 24 hrs..wahaha nice try..so missed today de esp la..sad hor..but hee ok ok ;p mummy n daddy swoped tor ;p haha

*the touching show Hui Jia cuming on channel u this sun at 9*
haha so din get to watch channel 55 i jiu watch channel u la..den gotta this show = Hui Jia de zhi zuo guo cheng..o m g tor !!! e show ish so gan ren la..is abt a little boy who was sent to e village to live wif his deaf n mute de grandma coz his mother ish in money woes...den its so gan ren la..e granny looked so chi xiang..e granny which acted e role ish not a veteran actress lai de..its like her 1st time acting in life la..den they show all those mu hou hua xu..so nice..den gotta scene when e boy say he wanna eat kfc etc etc..den e granny caught a chicken n cooked him steam chicken..den e boy angry n throw everything to e ground den say dun eat..i see le felt so heart break la..its like e granny so xin ku go catch a chicken n cook for him leh..haha den gotta lots of gan ren parts like e granny walking up a slope wif "rain"..den they show e mu hou hua xu..den e granny walked fast fast coz she scared to be drenched too much la..den see her expression etc..already v gan ren..den e last scene ish e boy leaving e granny n e village n going bac to e city le..these 2 actor n actress ( boy n granny) onli know each other becoz of e fliming..but at e last part when e boy gotta go..both of em realli cried like siao la..n its like my tears veri uncontrollably de flow like siao too..den after e take end le..e granny n e boy still crying..coz they realli sad that e show de fliming end le..n e boy realli gotta leave e village n e granny le..ah ha so sad tor..so no matter wad ! i wanna n i will watch this show on channel u at 9 this cuming sunday...i wanna watch n record if can la !!! e preview already so gan ren le..bth bth..lucky sia..this sun de trng at 5..den i can rush home on time for e show ! hee..so glad..this show ish fei kan bu ke for mi le..muhahaha

*jus move on.u will get it de(maths tuiton)*
haha jus had maths tuition n a little philosopy lesson wif my teacher..she ask mi..no matter wad..jus move on wif e qn..dun stop..as long as i dun stop n cont trying i will get sumwhere de..i will get it de..but if i stop i will nv get it...she told mi why sum ppl fair badly in maths (like mi) is becoz they dun dare to cont to try..so no matter wad u mus cont trying..e logic to do maths is jus like life..dun stop trying..yesh u may not get e ans after u try..but if u dun..u will nv get n u will nv succeed..hee yeah so thats e little meaningful thingy that i learnt from my maths tuition jus now la ;p haha..hope to share wif every1 n jia u le every1..hee

haha hao la..i shall stop here le..rest a while be4 i go watch shi wan tun qing yuan n tries to do sum work ;p haha..take gd care every1 !

][.u choose ya own destination.][

][.wo xu yao chao hui na suo bu chu kou de gan jue.][.wo yao ni wei wo gan dao jiao ou.][

][.wo xu yao chao hui na suo bu chu kou de gan jue.][
][.wo yao ni wei wo gan dao jiao ou.][
for those who dun understand my han yu ping yin de title..today my bloggy ish gonna be flooded wif these..it means..i need to find back e kinda of feeling which i m unable to describe n i wanna "u" to be proud of mi..yeah thats wad i m gonna blog today..gonna be bored..haha..so read onli if u interested la ;p hee

days pass without any notice..i tot i m gonna be alright n strong but i m not..i tot its onli a small thingy n it wun affect mi in any way but i m wrong..in actual fact..its nothing..it seems nothing but it is..why m i so useless..why can't i even manage this..its jus a little fever which took away 2 and a 1/2 trng session..its jus a little little minor thing compared to e injuries that my mates had suffered..but it seems that theres sum change..as much as i tries to conveince myself that nothing is wrong..i knew sumthing is wrong..veri wrong..esp after today's match wif ite (east)...

i knew i lost e special kinda of feeling..e special kinda of touch for e ball..e special kinda of..haiz i dunno how to say..today din get to play e actual game as much as be4..today during e 1st 3 quaters..tries to focus on court..but its short span..once i make a mistake..my mind starts to fluster..i m lost..i m afraid that i will make more mistakes n drag e team down..shugs wad attitude is that man..deserve a gd bashing man..so i tries my best to psycho myself during e 4th quad that i gotta stay fOcUs with e "power" ! yes nothing else..mistakes so wad..make le jiu make up for it..n yah..i can say i realli tried my best..but onli for e 4th quad..

noe what..i can't jump n sprint..e ball infront n i dunno wad i doing..maybe too long nv play le ba..so disappointed wif myself..i noe i m not a gd player..but at least when i played last time..i still haf e confidence n felt that yesh i worked hard n made it...i m to stand here to play n represent my team..my team mates..but that kinda of feeling is no longer within mi now..i felt that i m jus dragging em down..i feels that any1 can jus do better den mi..thou i seriously dun like to admit that...haha but i jus get e feeling yeah..

now i onli haf 1 thing in mind..yesh..its exams periods..but i dun wanna lose e special feeling even more..i will get it bac..i believe in myself..coz i dun wanna disappoint myself once again n ya..dun think its sumthing so major..jus wanna blog to place my negative thoughts to a rest..i nd to buck up..i promise u..i will make "u" proud of mi sumday..

hao la..jus here to let my thinkings rest in peace..coz i m gonna bury it n cont le..nd to jia u le..e coldness of e nite as thou my heart while playing is a feeling that i dun wanna try once again..i promise..i promise myself..

hao la..veri tired le..go rest le..u all also jia u n take care le..

][.be4 that..i dun deserve it.][

][.i will always be here for ya.][

][.i will always be here for ya.][

hmmm sianz sia..tml gotta prelims de bio pract le..wahaha so fast rite..n i m in e 1st shift..how nice..haha anyway jus a quickie blog today..wanna share a pic that i found on friendster at fungi de acc..hee its a cute n meaningful pic..i tink i may not be able to make ya smile if u dun wan...but hope this cute cute pic can cheer u up for e day la :D hee *5milez* it will make u feel better de..hee jia u n take care le every1 !!!

][.i promise.][

][.wei wo hao.][. i miss my ah zhor.][

][.wei wo hao.][.i miss my ah zhor.][

haha y0z bloggy..jus ard 5 hrs or maybe 4 hrs ago..my mood was bad like nobody's business..today went for trng..coz thurs gotta match wif simei ite..went trng wif moi n sh..join e sec1s..train train..den haf match..male coach dun let mi play..agrh !!!!!!!! i understand n noes why..he dun wanna mi to worsen my health condition like that day..but shugs shugs shugs..i wAnNa PlAy !!!!! thats wad i m "chanting" over n over in my heart jus now..i wanna play !!!!! if i dun play today..how m i gonna play on thurs ?!..den so quite shugs de..felt quite lousy yeah...den went to gym to do workout..coz i cannot stand myself sitting ard n watch em play..that will onli make mi wanna play more rite..i tink i veri bad leh..i mean coach ish dun let mi play for my own gd la..but i wanna go trng today instead of going home to study for my thurs de bio pract is becoz i realli wanna try n prepare for a match..its like i sick jiu missed 2 trngs le..i dun like to miss trngs..jus dun like..maybe is my stubborn de genes ba..dunno..anyway i tink i veri like ap towards male coach..sorry to him..realli sorry..but if i wanna go trng..i wanna do e full course..dun sympathise wif mi..coz a real game wun...

alright..so had a down down n bad bad mood..drank my green milk tea wif pearls..coz as i say..red tea = yes..green tea = no..therefore red tea = gd mood..green tea = bad mood..lame hor..haha last time watch mvp qing ren de time den jiu sticked to this lame rule le..

reached home..had dinner n chatted wif mummy..chat abt this abt that..my mummy roxz..thou sumtimes she screams at mi like sum siao woman..but she still roxz..i mean yeah..she is a liberal mummy..can chat wif her everything..den we chatted abt my ah zhor ( great-grandmother)..which ish my mummy de grandmother la..

ah..i miss my ah zhor..realli missed her man..she left us in 2001 at e age of 94..she was e 1st person whom i was realli sad from e heart that she was gone forever..coz dun realli haf gan qing for my daddy side de grandma n grandpa..anyway dun care abt that..i miss my ah zhor..miss e days she teaches mi maths in hokkien..miss e days when she tells mi real accounts abt e war..miss e days when she wuld jus chat wif mi..thou i dun realli understand..miss e days when she ask mi to sit far far away from e tv..miss e days when she cook tofu..dumplings n make e greatest mai ya tang for mi..miss her style of eating satay..coz onli she eats in e same way as mi..miss her words of wisdom..miss her..she is a veri veri veri veri veri clever n capable woman..she taught mi lots of things..i realli miss her man..esp jus now as i tok to mummy...can see mummy also miss ah zhor..which ish her ah mar a lot sia..haha..but yeah 4 yrs le..ah zhor now shuld be in heaven ba..she ish a kind woman in life..so i believe she in heaven la..hope she is still doing gd n hope that she haf met zhor-gong ( her husband)..hee n live happily ever after..",)

ah ha..lame shit hor..anyway after chatting wif mummy..i felt much better..realli much better..n realli sorry to coach..coz ish my own stubborn will n want that caused all those attitude..but jus wanna let u noe..i m jus angry wif myself..why din i take gd care..why mus i get sick ?..but now ok le la..after my mummy de words of wisdom..hee...den hmmm o yah..mus mention sumthing here..hee ytr i went to see doc de time i saw wen like de artist = aarron aziz...ah ha..den jus now wen went eat dinner de time saw i like de artist = randell..ah ha so qiao rite..but both of us din get to see e actor we like..if we swop jiu hao le la hor ;p ah ha..but nbm la..i enjoy being myself..hee..den hmmm today din haf chem..den listened to wen de i-pod..wen jus keep on find nice songs for mi..n wo ho..i m proud to declare that wen had choosen all e songs that i like..hee *claps*..guo ran ish my bf..ah ha (best friend)..e bf thingy ish last time wen write in to 933 den wu xu ma li say de ;p..*laming*..den hmmm..nothing much for today le ba..coz i already say a lot le..muhaha jus wanna mention this song - > nothing's gonna change my love for you..hee today jus heard it in wen de i-pod..it was my fav song for a period of time..dunno wad show de song lai de..

ah ha hao la..5top here le..nd to study for bio pract le :D..hee every1 take care n jia u la..dun be too sad la hor..coz not too shuang de gan jue ;p hee *5milez*

][.ah zhor.wo xiang ni.][

][.rec0verd.][

][.recOvered.][

ah ha yoz yoz yoz..hee decided to use a happy colour for today's de blog coz yeah like sh say...dun tink so complicated...

haha today i pon=skip sch ;p ah ha..1st time in 4yrs of my sec sch's life..ah ha hmmm i noe its nothing..but today wakey..changed n get prepared to go sch..but felt quite feverish de..asked mummy how..she took temp..den persuade mi not to go sch..was quite persistant in e 1st place..coz i dun wanna "smear" my nice nice record of perfect attendence wif 1 day de nv go sch..ah ha..but in e end still relented coz realli feel sick..n if go sch..i guess mummy haf to fetch mi bac ba..so dun wanna trouble her..

hmmmm always been stubborn n insist on going to sch every single day..but today nv go sch..den rest at home still quite ok de...i mean when u r sick u realli nd e rest e medi etc..went to see doc n take medi le..woho..medi works wonder..much much better le..hee n staying at home to rest isn't as bad as i also felt..u can recover sooner n go back sooner ah ;p hee

hao la..enff of my craps..stayed at home..den had a whole day infront of my tv..playing games wif my new scv thingy..den i gotta channel 55 le !!! ole..watched "Yong Wang Zhi Qian"..wahaha its a nice show sia..hee shall wakey at 5:15am tml morning to catch it ;p hee realli veri veri nice..

den hmmm gotta mc for today n tml..mummy say no trng for mi tml..how how..haha shall not be so paranoid..coz i noe i will still go de ;p after today de rest n slp..i haf took a step back in life le..gotta relax rite..hee everything will work out fine de..ship dao harbour will u-turn de la ;p hee..even if everything gone..it will be able to cum bac de rite ;p hee

woho..den fungi jus helped mi sent my hw ;p hee thankie nu ren..den i jus knew that i hafing chi test tml..wahaha nice sia..i tot onli gotta maths..hee lalala..shall try to study sum later..haven realli touched both of em ;p haha n hmmm wad else ne...shuld be nothing else le ba..today de mood quite happy de..haha dunno why also..feeling quite chirpy..hee

hao la..woohoo shall go bury myself wif e maths n chi n maybe sum bio later le..hee take care le every1 ! rmb dun tire u'rself out n drink more water ok ",)..take gd care of yaself ah..hee

][.happy.][

][.5ick.fever.everything goes on.onli i stopped.][

][.5ick.fever.everything goes on.onli i stopped.][

hmmm hiz bloggy..been sick since fri..till now still sick..down with fever n flu..din blog n online for 2 days..coz i had been spending my whole weekend sleeping away..i mean realli sleeping away..normally my weekend wuld be full of tv n little revision..but this weekend when i set my mind on doing revision..i jus slept like a dead log..realli like a dead log..if i m not wrong..i slept for at least 30 hrs..fri nite slept from 8plus till moring 10 plus = 14 to 15 hrs..den sat nite slept at 10 den wakey onli at 9 plus..11 hrs..den all those naps that i take..woho..had such a great "rest" man..haiz i hate being sick man..

why i hate being sick ? i guess many hates to be sick too ba...but i realli hate it man..if injuries is e 1st thing on e list that a player is afraid of..den i m certain that..sick is e 2nd thing on e list that a player detest ba..thats for mi at least..haiz..ytr gotta u-18 de trng..i was not able to train..onli went dere to watch em train..see how fast their movements were..e shots they made..e speed they haf..my heart sank man..i knew myself..i knew e effort that i haf to place in after i recover..jus like wad shuang fong jiao lian say.."once a player is sick..everything falls back to zero.."yesh..a nice big fat zero when u haf to start all over again..thru out these yrs..i had been sick for a few times..once ish during this sec4 yr during or close to our match season de time..fever also..cannot forget it man..haiz..

anyway now i m supposed to be at aljunied trng..but had to forgo it today..coz ytr after i see em ( u-18) train..n worry over this n that..i went bac sch to play wif mama dui (together wif moi)..n jus like wad coach say..my legs soft like jelly..i haf no more strenght n stamina which caused mi to almost sprain my ankle*phew*..i this n that..jiu shi dun haf wad i used to haf le..den felt quite depressed over it de..wad adds on is that my temp shot up to 39 degrees..n i jus slept n slept..felt so uncomfortable..hate it man..hot like nothing..mummy refuse to let mi on e air-con..say mus let my perspiration all cum out den my temp will drop..mummy tok n tok to mi..scared i fever till "siao"..i jus din reply..jus gesture to her..coz realli no strength..those kinda when u jus wanna slp n slp..seems like onli sleeping is e onli best resolution yeah..

hmmm den during these 30++ hrs that i slept..had many many many dreams..if ppl say dreams reflect wad 1 is thinking..den i mus say..its realli true man..coz these dreams may not be e best of dreams..but they are all things that i m thinking abt..

n yah..ytr was a day of "surprise"
haha hmmm dunno how to say also..deres this person who i dun realli noe n i dun think this person noes mi well too..but when i knew that this person quit..i was realli shocked n sad..yeah..coz i had looked up to this person..
den hmmm luisa toked to mi ytr..haha e vj senior..amazing hor..she asked mi why i dun dare to tok to her..n i jus told her e truth..i told her she too english..den she say nxt time i tok to her in chi..den she reply in eng la..haha hmmm feel less stressed now..shall tok to her nxt time la..coz i tink they will make nice seniors ;p shall try to overcum my barrier for e fear of seniors ;p
den ytr sum1 whom i tot had erased mi from e memory bank..smsed mi suddenly..haha quite shocked to receive an sms from e person de..coz its like..so long since we chat..din chat much actually..coz e person din follow e promise..but its ok anyway ;p haha this person always re-appear whenever memories haf start to fade..always de..dunno why also..

haha n yah...my daddy n mummy helped mi buy kelly de dan qu cd le..yeah..hope kelly win e superstar title la...n hmmm thurs gonna haf match wif simei ite..guess i m not gonna to get to play ba..i gotta get well by tml..train back my stamina by tues or wed..wo ho..thats so possible man..

now all i haf in mind is..how m i gonna get it back..i noe e more u tink abt sumthing..it will be harder..so hmmm let mi jus relax n rest fully now..take this weekend as a sleeping week..to recover all my lost strenght..n fight hard during this new week ahead !!!

hmmm take care n jia u le every1 ",)...no matter wad..believe in ya dreams n fight hard..ya attitude determines ya altitude...

][.gonna fight hard.][
][.wei le yi ge meng.][

][.yesh kelly made it.][.jia u le kelly.][.learning to be a deaf "tortise".][

][.yesh kelly made it.][.jia u le kelly.][
][.learning to be a deaf "tortise".][
][.last thing on my to do list is to haf quarrels.][

yesh yesh yesh !!! kelly made it as e female finalist to be on e grand finals stage ! yesh she made it ",)..alright i m supposed to be doing my ss SEQ now..but pardon mi...i haf gotta lots to blog n to "explain" today..realli lots..watching this project superstar thingy made mi learnt quite lots abt human de...human de "ideology"..human de this n that..n frends ard mi..n made mi discover myself even more yeah..ah ha..wo ho..impressive of wad a show can do yeah..hee u can take it as i m laming...but today de blog will be tons of my own "ideology"..so if u tink its gonna be offensive..or u got no time to spare...*stop here ba*

5tart le ...

=why i support kelly? n not sum guy contestants who are cute n shuai?=
many tinks i m crazy to support kelly for this project superstar..coz as in i m gal..why support gal ???.ah ha i guess thats wad many are wondering ba..allow mi to explain..kelly was e singer that impressed mi n caused mi to watch project superstar..i mean i nv watched project superstar till i came across it 1 day n jus heard kelly de mei li ben nu ren n got impressed by her unique voice..den after that wk..kelly sang Pu Tong Peng You..this was e song that realli captures my support for kelly..coz i love this kinda of songs..n e lyrics sumwad meaningful to mi de..haha for certain reasons la..den can i bhb de say i m loyal or rather stubborn..once sum1 impressed mi n caused mi to support em..i will not let go 1/2 way n switched support de..no matter how badly my idol fare...this is why 15.5.10 is my greatly respected idols from now till e day i leave this world ba..conclusion..once u impressed mi..my support will be on always..call mi stubborn or stupid..anything u like..n i dun usually support guys idol except for 13...coz i tink theres a diff btw guys n gals..as in..e things that guys can do..gals may not be able to..for eg..in playing bball..guys jump so much higher..stay in e air so much longer..how can u ever practise till that extent ne..its impossible..so why dun u jus learn n idolize a female idol..rather saying idolize..i wuld say they are my motivators..as females they can do it..den theres no excuse that i can't do it ! same case for kelly..i m impressed by her singing ( i can't differentiate wads gd singing thou n can't sing too) but i m impressed..n i like e way she dress..cool sia..i nxt time older le also wanna dress like that :D hee if i can be skinner la...

next up...
=i m sorry=
i mus say sorry to xin hui coz in protection of kelly as i tok against lx..i say sumthings nasty..ah ha..realli sorry..i mean jus like i said in my previous blog..i tink xin hui can sing too..or in fact better..but its jus that kelly impressed mi earlier..n as a stubborn person..my support wun sway..even thou like lx say..kelly is act cute..i agree but so ?...haiz..Jia u le kelly ! now that kelly made it..i can imagine e remarks thats gonna be heard tml..but who cares..e 1 i supports made it le !

][.learning to be a deaf "tortise".][
n yeah..i m learning to be a deaf "tortise"..remember that Music Diary once said a story abt a pool of tortises making a bet wif human that they can climb to e top of e mountain by noon..they started out in e morning..n every1 was like saying they can't make it..but e tortise were all veri confident n they started strong..till it was ard noon n deres still a distance..every tortise starts to slow down as they could not tolerate e discouraging words of human..dey starts to giv up on their own beliefs n dreams..however theres this tortise who jus cont n it made it finally !!! wanna noe why ?..coz e tortise ish deaf..he can't hear wad others are saying..hence he is not affected by it..hence he cont wif his belief n made it...
hmmm wad do u all tink abt this story ne?...
i love it..coz i tink 1 shuld jus believe in his beliefs n strive on..why be affected by others de words ne...thou many a times i m easily sway..but its not when its my own belief n dreams ( many may not tink so yeah..but its true.. ;p)..hope its e same for u too yeah ",)

=every1 is to be loved=
den i tink..evey1 on earth haf no rights to criticise another person..coz do u tink u are perfect ?..ah ha..n yah..jus shared wif sh 1 of my ideology of life..i dun tink ppl shuld be so definite abt their own thinkings n tink that others de thinking n taste suxz etc n jus rant n rant..i mean i say u shuld believe in ya own dreams n belief..but pls dun critcise n put down others de thinkings at e same time..coz u deserve to haf ya own ideology..so do others..pls respect others too..n jus for info..e ppl that i detest e most are those who are self-centered..e world do not surrounds ard u hao ma ?...hao la i m harsh wif my words dere..pardon mi..but thats wad i personally feel onli..if u dun agree i m sorry...

den hmm wads nxt ne..thats abt all i feel ba..haha gotta lots more de..but quite tired le..
Summary :
-kelly jia u..u was e 1st superstar to impress mi n always will be
-15.5.10 = my idols for life..who cares..others may feel that like this say idols..i m siao or siao..but thats mi..once impressed = unchangeable..n as i said..its onli my personal opinion..others can haf their own thinkings too yeah..",)
-every1 deserved to haf their own thinkings..so ppl who are self centered..pls pls..learn to respect others de thinkings too..dun always insist that u are right...thats onli how i feel..if u dun tink so or dun agree..u dun haf to...",)
-e last thing that i wuld do on earth is to quarrel wif my frends over my idols...coz idols esp singers like kelly will nv noe of ya presence..no pt upseting friendship over these rite..-
hao la.. i shall end here le..i m tired..n every1 take care le ;p n i m deeply sorry if i hurted u in any way in e process of reading this blog..realli sorry..take care..n byee..

][.15.][
ps. i m sorry..this blog is jus my feelings..no offence..

][.kelly pan jia li.jue dui superstar.][

][.kelly pan jia li.jue dui superstar.][

today de bloggy is dedicated to my jue dui superstar = kelly tor...haha but be4 that..need to thank many peeps 1st..

1st - mummy for allowing mi to go for e recordings today n making mi feel better after sum assurance..
2nd-wan ling n rachelle for giving mi a ticket..if not i will nv ever get to watch a live recording..n support my jue dui superstar - kelly tor..
3rd-wanna thank fungi for pei-ing mi go..n an wei-ing mi..

hao la..shall start blogging le..today to thursday de blog ( if i got blog)..it wuld all be in blue..coz its kelly de colour ( later then i explain)..let mi start abt my memorable day 1st..today morning after assembly..wan ling stood infront of mi and say..i got 1 extra ticket u wanna go watch e live recording for gals not..i was like omg omg omg..ah ha..but i din haf much hopes too..coz i dunno if mummy will let mi go ma..so i immediately return to class n call mummy..den miracurously she say ok la ! ah ha that min i also dunno how to express my feelings la..coz haha can see live recordings leh..so qi dai..

so i spent e whole day in sch feeling qi dai..my maths n chem test flung le i also..haha dunno how to say la..feel quite sad for my maths de..coz i realli practiced tys..but no excuses..maybe i jus din practise enff ba..den chem..i haf nothing to say..haha no pt crying over spilled milk rite ;p

so end of sch..rushed home n rushed out wif fungi again..took mrt to toa payoh..den took a cab down to mediacorp..e fare is $4.80..haha jus wanna blog down for memo sake...den we in e queue le..but wan ling they all haven reach..so we gotta out of e queue..which ish like e front..ah ha nbm nbm..den after that they came le..we took e tickets n went in..hee din sat infront..coz its for family n friends..n fan club n e ex-superstars...

den sat in e middle of e back 1st row..haha..e studio isn't as big as it appeared to be on e tv..den we did flimings of clapping..standing up..cheering etc..haha den e ex-superstars came out..den mi n fungi shouted wei choong..den he waved at us..hee den candyance waved at mi too..ah ha happy happy..wei choong n candyance...den e competition jiu start le..o yah..be4 that they showed their new mv..ish e - Zhi Zhao Lang Man de song..ah ha..i love that song sia..wonder who is e original singer...ok...den e competition start tor le..

1st part = 1 song..then 1 part they ( kelly n xin hui) mus sing as e normal den 2nd part change e style de...
Kelly sung Hui Jia by shun zi de..n i was realli so zheng dong n moved by it..realli super super super super super touching...n her outfit is like 1 word cool man..n watching live is realli so diff..den after that she gotta 41 !!! n i was like cheering like siao..haha coz i realli bei gan dong dao by e song n how kelly sung it..*bang*bang* thumbs up..
but who noes..xin hui came out n she used e stage fully..maybe coz e judges told kelly to use e stage fully den xin hui heard or sumthing la..jkjk no offence to xin hui de fansz..den she did quite a gd job..n gotta 42 !..i still felt ok..coz onli 1 pt diff..but quite worried le...

ok then 2nd song = eng song..kelly sung what's up n gotta 37...den xin hui sang beautiful n gotta 41.5...*50bz*..i 1st time felt so depressed over this superstar thingy la..coz i realli realli hope kelly can make it...i nv suppport idols except for 15.10.5 de..but kelly i dunno y..jiu realli hope she can make it to e grand finals la..

already veri worried le..den 3rd song..they are supposed to sing a zhi ding song..den ish Yi Shi De Mei Hao..e Hai Tun Wan Lian Ren de...1 of e song i love..den kelly sang it so nicely..i was so touched by it la..e one she quan shi e song..u realli will be so tao zui..den she gotta 38..den xin hui came out n gotta 44...*cries*5obz*...i realli ish so sad at e pt la..e kelly fans beside mi also..can gan shou de dao e sadness...

den e recording ended n we came home in a cab..wanted to watch e guys de...but after e gals de is already 10+++ den if watch guys de jiu till mid nite le ba..haha..fungi quite sad de coz we din get wei choong de signature..ah ha..mi too..we were still dreaming so much be4 we went la..haha nbm..at least i gotta to kelly de gan ren de performance !!!!! as well as wei choong n candyance who waved at mi..hee jiu enff le..

but i realli quite sad after e recording end de..in fact during e recording jiu sad le..say sad..i rather say scared..i realli veri veri veri scared kelly cannot make it to e grand finals la..finally gan shou dao butts de feeling..coz all 3 songs today de score she also lose to xin hui..but theres 1 thing for sure that she won..her dressing sense..woho..cool n elegant..n stylish..den e judges all quite funny too..esp li fei hui who today veri unlike e usual..

o n yah...my bloggy will be blue from now till e day e result is announced is becoz..today support kelly de fans ish supposed to wear blue..n i wore a blue shirt..a jeans ( which is blue )..den everything in my bag seems to be blue..ah ha coz its my fav colour wad..ok thats not e pt..but i will jus blog in blue to support kelly..n every1 she is F1..pls vote for her..coz both kelly n xin hui had already started on their 1st ever cd le..after thurs de results announce rite..e one who win will get to haf their 1st even cd splashed in all e cd stores on 21/8 if i not wrong..den e sales results will become 30% of e total for the grand grand finals de result..pls let it be kelly de..pls pls..n i will buy for sure..jus pls let it be kelly..not that i dun support xin hui..she not bad la..but kelly had impressed mi right from e start..n after watching her live recordings today..i realli bei gan dong dao..she isn't that act cute as she seems to be n how lx (aka nick's lover) describes her..today de her..standing on that stage performing de time..i realli can feel e gan dong n sincere de tai du that she wanna to becum e superstar..n fulfil her dreams..realli...

ah ha..now all i can do is to wait for e results on thurs nite at 11:30..omg..47 hrs more to go..agrh..how how..pls vote ok..pls let her go into e grand finals..pls !!! i hope it will realli be like wad my mummy say..superstar is see from e whole de..n e score lower dun mean will out..n my mummy n her friend ( aunties) also support kelly..so kelly jia u le..can't wait for thurs de results..but at e same time..i veri jing zhang..ah jia u le kelly !!! dun be dishearted by tonite's de scores..n cont to strive for ya dreams ok...every1 out dere too..strive for ya dreams..

and yah..take care every1..n i hope this isn't offensive if any xin hui de fans pass by..hee coz its not that she not gd..jus that i support kelly..n hope she can make it..den i tink i once came across this quote at stephanie junior de friendster if i not wrong..iverson " there will be thousands that love mi..but also thousands that hate mi.." haha sumthing like this la..den all 1 can do is to haf faith in oneself ba ;p..hao la..take care le every1..n yeah..kelly , wei choong , candyance n wei jian roxz la..hee ",) n all those who support other superstar jia u too ok..but pls support kelly too ! hmmm guess e guys de recordings still on ba..ke lian de jun yang n wei lian..n judges..n hosts..n workers..jia u le !

][.pls vote for f1=kelly.][
][.dreams are mend to be pursue n fulfil.][

][.In5piring 5ongs.][

][.Inspiring 5ongs.][

hmmm today is jus another normal day..after sch came home..den wanna revise for chem n maths..coz theres test tml..ah ha..cham..i got revise la..but onli a bit here n dere..which definitely wun be enff to even pass..haha anyway i din wanna blog today de..but i encounter a few inspiring songs these few days and i jus wanna blog n maybe "share" la..hee

1 = kelly aka pan jia li de -- Zi Ji..
2 = Eric moo / Junyang de -- Yi Wang Guo Qu
3 = Jay's -- Wo niu..

1..e kelly de song jus touched mi sumhow..haha e yuan chang ze is coco lee if u wanna noe la ;p hee...

haha e 2 n 3 song is jus now listen to music diary de ting dao de..feel so inspired by it ( haha music diary roxz !)..dunno why also..love e lyrics ba..hee Yi Wang Guo Qu..shen ming jiu shi yao Yi Wang Guo Qu cai neng geng yong gan de fei de yue gao ba..haha i haf a small copy of e yi wang guo qu de lyrics on top..hope u can see la..hee paiseh..i m inspired by it..n i hope it will inspire u in some ways too...

den e 3rd song..jay's wo niu..i listened to music diary de time...its a duet lai de..so its shuld be not by jay de la..but e lyrics sumwad alike..anyway..haha i like e part when it sings..Wo yao yi bu yi bu wang shang pai..Zhong you yi tian hui you shu yu wo de tian...direct translation = I wanna climb up step by step..sumday dere will be the "sky" that i belong to...haha yeah..sumhow veri touching..esp today when i told my mummy i wanna study arts in jc and she gave mi e support..yeah...i wanna study arts in jc..coz my sci realli cannot make it..n this is e 1st time that i felt so strongly for my future..thou i haf lots of dreams n dunno which 1 i m heading towards to..but feel so much better n clearer abt wad i wan after deciding on taking arts in jc..i hope my fickle minded character wun change my decision anymore..hee jia u le..arts here i cum !

hee but be4 that ne..let mi tackle my bao bei chem n maths test tml 1st..n my prelims..n o levels..haha felt e stress le tor..but wun let it affect mi too much..haha i m not paranoid as wad many see n feels ba..but maybe my actions shows that la hor..but haha..still water runs deep...",)

hao la ! wanna go watch tv le..e new channel 8 show..e baby blues de...hee be4 i work hard for my chem n e-maths tml..hee...jia u n take care le every1..dun feel stress..life is not all abt studies..learn to let n go at times..dun freak yaself out yeah..jia u le ! (opps am i saying myself ? ;p) haha *lame shit*..jus take care la every1 :D

][.jia u le.][

][.my weekend.][

][.my weekend.][

haha ask mi wads my weekend abt..i can be frank n tell u..its all tv shows..1 after another..more than 10++ hrs stuck to e tv..dunno wads wrong wif mi too..but realli enjoyed watching these shows...

1st of all..zhen qing la..my all time fav..

den deres bo ming lao gong zhui lao po..de last esp..ah ha fang zhong
xing is shuai..

den deres hong yi shou ji..omg !!! chris n anson..in this show both of em are docs..n this show is all abt nurses..so they onli super minor small character..but hu cares..i tink they are a couple once again..Dr Wan & Dr Xiang..ah ha..den deres this Nurse Gu aka GuGu..which is e ah qiong in zhen qing..she is jus so funny la..hee

den jus finished watching this show..which i m not sure wads e show name also...chen yi xun de (eason)..den gotta a twin de ah jiao if i not wrong..haha quite nice la..its abt this weird hand that eason attain after a accident..and a dream abt being a fire fighter..but what i love most is that..this show said wad i always tot n wanna tell those who haf a dream..
go for ya dreams..work hard for ya dreams as long as u dun harm any1..coz " Sum1 with a dream may seems silly..but those without a dream is in fact sillier.." i dun mean those ppl without a dream are silly..but this ish jus wanna tell those who haf a dream to jia u n go for it..dun care abt those who ridicule u..putting u down n telling u that ya dream is impossible..coz those are ppl without a dream n they are even sillier...

hmmm yeah..zhong er yan zhi..i watched super lots tv during this 2 weekends..super shuang..n of coz i neglected my hw sumhow la..or in fact..i din care abt it at all..jus wanna a rest..now i can say i m all recharged..n yeah i m quite ready to go for my dreams le..wad abt ya ?..jia u le ok..

den hmmm today had a little family day..coz no training..den quite fun de..n i realli like to take photos le..i mean i be e photographer..capturing down every single pics..every single moment into eternity..wad a special feeling sia..haha..

hao la..thats abt all i wanna blog ba..gotta be guai n go to my books le..take care n jia u ok every1..esp those who are feeling down n sianz...coz e eason show that i watched jus now said sumthing else veri veri meaningful too..thats "If u see a dead end ahead..dun give up..coz hope is just round e corner.."

ps. the fireworks pic is meant for moi de..sorry that i can't pei u go esplanade to see e fireworks today..dun too sad la..*cry ba* ( learn from ya de)..haha nxt yr we go together ok...wif all of em..*5milez*..
& to all my friends who are feeling down(which like gotta lots)..jia u & take care le !..rmb deres nothing impossible..


][.go for ya dreams.][

][.caRniVal @ mAriNa.][

][.caRniVal @ mArInA.][

haah y0z tor...today jus went wif sch on a e-learning trip to marina de carnival tor..e ndp de..haha its fun la..n now i m super duper tired..haha sorry sorry..keep on use tor..tribute to ah min n lx la..i bei influenced le ;p haha jkjk

alright anyway today went to e carnival..den went on a jungle ride n den wen , zh n mi went to paint e face wif e green n black thingy that e soldiers use to camo..ahaha its fun..but quite hard to wash off la..i cum home le..wash n wash my face..den i tink now still gotta a bit here n dere..but who cares..i so dark..no1 will notice de la..hee..ok..toking abt e jungle ride..it was bumpy n i haf a gan jue that i will fall off any min..but its veri nice..veri cool..haha

den hmmm after that we spent lots of time walking round e exhibts..den haha dunno la..suddenly felt that its realli hard to satisfise every1 de..hee so rather keep quiet tor..haha den today lx (aka nick carter's admirer) keep on say kelly act cute..haha i agree la..so nothing to say also..hee but still hope kelly can jia u..coz i realli hope she can go finals..den her performance ytr like not veri her..hee feels veri sad de gan jue..so haha hope kelly jia u le la ;p..haha

alright back to e carnival..after walking n walking..we reached e food village n be4 that we met a uncle clown who makes balloon..den wen,lx n mi gotta a sword..den jen gotta a dog..ah min gotta a flower..moi n sh gotta a bear wif heart..haha den wen buy n buy..den i bought a "magic wand" too ; haha *laming*den jen they all bought more too..anyway i tink e clown ish pro..haha n lucky he dun haf any make ups on..coz since young i jiu vvvvv scared of clown le..u show mi one..i cry let u see ;p ( i mean when i was young)..haha..den we went to tian bao our stomach den decided to walk bac to e navy dere..haha (actually we were heading towards e sports village de)

haha ooo yah...e ship ( i dunno how to call that thingy la..any1 noe tell mi ok..esp those who went wif mi)..its so magnificent la..haha so huge n cool..hee dunno how to describe it tor..but jiu shi veri cool..its fully air-conditioned..den they got bunks n cafeteria n a spot for helicopters to land and e scenery ish so nice !!!..but then..pls note ! ppl too tall cannot go to e navy sia...coz their thingys ish veri low de..n their stair case are all so steep that u may gotta wanna fall down any moment de gan jue la ;p hee..

den after the navy "trip" we went home tor...n gotta stares la..coz wen , zh n mi de face gotta e camo..ah ha..so embarrassing tor ;p..anyway hmmm jiu like this la..quite like this excursion de..its been a long time since i go on excursions wif sch le..haha yeah..

===cApTuRe e mOmEnT===
===iNtO eTeRnItY===

haha alright..den today ish e last esp for meng zai shou ni (destiny)..n take my words for it..haha i nv realli watch this 2 shows de..onli this wk den watch..haha cham..i yuai lai yuai xi huan watch onli last few esp de le la ;p haha ok nbm..anyway this meng zai shou ni = destiny said sumthing like..memories are special moments..n these special moments shuld be captured using a cam..n collection of these pics in a album..den even a footprint is worth e capture coz behind every foot print there is a unforgettable memories n moment..ah haha i realli like to take picture tor ;p hee *hinting*..17/10 ;p haha jkjk..

ok..den this take my words for it..e yang guang n keren de wedding so cute n funny la..like going on sum mission like this...hee workaholic la..den hmmm haha sweet tor too ;p den e guodong said sumthing like..sunset n sunrise..haha n i always felt so too..when u are optimistic..its sunrise..when u r pessimitic its sunset..e picture is sunrise / sunset its all depend on wad ya feel..hee n i jus discovered that tml den ish e bo ming lao gong jui lao po de last esp !!! haha i mus catch it tor...hee hao la..thats abt all for today..

shall go zZz..tml ish a day ahead le..pray that i haf e strength to last for e trng la ;p..hee take gd care every1 n hope ya haf a great day too..if not nbm nbm..tml will be better de...jia u le !!!

][.i am waiting for u all.][

][.eng o levels oral.+much better le.][

][.eng o levels oral.+much better le.][

haha yeah..finally done n over wif my eng o levels oral n i jiu so happy le..haha dunno how to say la..was realli so worried n siao for e whole day la..dunno i worry for wad also..no confident wif my eng lang at all la..n i tink i m being too paranoid..n if i were sum1 else..i will slap myself man..haha alright..anyway jus glad that its over..n wanna thank ah min n lx n wen for correcting my pronounciations n telling mi dun worry n nervous..thanks lots le my frends ! and haha of coz all my frends in particualar..fungi n butts n sh n moi for wishing mi gd luck..haha xie le..e examiner smiled or luffing at mi..both la..i hope they wasn't luffing at my sillness or sumthing..haha hope for gd marks too..but its all over..so all i can do now is hope for e best..hee

den hmmm today is a so so day la..haha but yeah..feel much more light hearted..not as sianz n heavy hearted as compared to e last few days..haha yeah..i guess yeah..i m walking out of it le..yeah..thank you..haha i also dunno thank you wad leh..thank you buddha..thank you heaven...thank you my frends..thank you..hmmm myself ? haha jkjk yah jus thank you every1..

but hmmm read a few frends de bloggy den hmmm feel quite down de..as in they down den i also dunno why feel down la..jus wanna ask em to take care..n if u all dun mind..i m here la..haha..n pls take gd care of u all de health ok :D hee theres nothing more impt than ya health..haha i noe its cliche..but its realli veri true la..at least to mi..hee hao la..off to watch project superstar le :D hee

][.theres nothing more than to see u all smile n be happy.][
][.jus like how i m feeling now.][
][.all thanks to u all.][

][.hApPy nAtIoNaL dAy.][

][.hApPy nAtIoNaL dAy.][

haha alright i m slow..ytr national day..today den i blog..haha pardon mi..hee anyway ytr ish quite a slacking day..or culd i say..i slacked from last fri to ytr..haha5 whole days..haha today cannot slack le..after i bathe shall go study..n ah...i hafing o lvls eng oral tml la..*shivers in fear*..haha

hmmm anyway ytr de national day was ok ok la..went to celebrate wif moi n sh at tampines dere..onli a few ppl pei us high..den not veri high de mood also la..onli fireworks de time den ppl went wooo wooo wooo..haha den hmm went to eat wif sh after that while moi go find her teacher..den took a cab home..den after that watched tv.."take my words for it" or wadever la..haha coz e ad veri nice..n its e last few esp le..so watch la..haha nowadays i keep on watch show when its e last few esp de..haha bth..anyway hope e keren n yang guang can be together in tonite's esp..

den hmmm haha i suddenly feel like taking up photography..actually i always wanted to take up photography de..coz i realli like to capture all those nice nice moments n make em into eternity..haha frame em up..display em dere..woho cool..haha maybe when i adult de time i shall go take up a course to be professional la hor..hee *dreaming*..

haha another reason is becoz..i wanna capture all e nice nice sunset n stars de scenery..haha n also wanna capture ppl de xi nu ai le..e little actions of life..haha i dunno..i realli love to take my cam n take pic here n dere..hee maybe no1 notice ba..onli noe i zi lian kuang..haha but nbm..haha..

hao la..quite sianz de..tink of my day ahead nd to chiong n do hw jiu a bit agrh le..but haha nbm i mus realli do it..coz deres realli no miracles in life de..haha sorry to those who believed in miracles..onli my personal gan jue ba..coz i once believed in miracles too..but it din happen in e end..

haha ok ! enff of saddening things ! take care n jia u wow every! :D hee

][.hai yao duo jiu ne.][

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][.its all destinated.][.thank you my friends.][

][.its jus all destinated.][.thank you my friends.][

after sleeping n sleeping..i feel much more recharged n much better le..wanna thank lots of ppl..but be4 that..pls allow mi to blog today de thingy 1st ok..thankie..

haha alright..today veri reluctant de wake up n drag myself to sch..climbed up chang cheng n almost kicked a cat coz i was walking sianz-ing ly la..den reached sch de time..julian asked mi if i m awake not..den jiu bought went back to class be4 going to e national day celebration..haiz sianz..today de celebration not fun not high de..onli e grp of ppl at my sections pei mi zi high onli..quite stupid la..but dun wanna my last yr of sec sch life de national day to be so sianz ;p so who cares..but mus admit..i tink i veri stupid..paiseh paiseh

den went to attend e prize -giving ceremony n slept thru out..*shuangz*..went 85 wif wen for breakfast be4 i came home n slept for 4 hrs plus..den haf dinner n now i m here online..haha slp till veri shuang..had a v funny dream..i dreamt of aljunied team..haha shall not disclose too much..but its a nice dream la..i tink i smiled when i was dreaming ba..haha had any1 felt happy when u dream n slp de ah..haha i tink i m stupidly smiling while my bro tries to wake mi up ba..haha

hao la ! finish my bloging for today le..now its time for mi to express my thanksz :d

===tHaNkS===
to all my friends ( pai ming bu fen xian hou ;p)
-sheryl aka nut for all e encouragements..
-moi for e support..
-sh for e nice bloggy which enlightened mi..n made mi sianz a while be4 i feel better..much better..
-butts for listening to mi moan..
-wen for listening to mi..
-jas for telling mi that we still haf many big matches ahead..
-all my friends who tried their best to cheer mi up today..
& of coz my mummy who told mi that its ok to lose..n in life its na mian de..jus gotta jian qiang de cont..
& of coz my both nice coaches for all e jing yu liang yan & encouragements..

haha hao la..i tink its abt time to draw an end to all e unhappy memories of ytr le ba..haha cannot realli say unhappy ba..coz ytr haf sum events which can make mi happy too ba..maybe its abt time to draw an end to e disappointment of ytr le ba..cannot keep em for so long la..its onli a game n i gotta move on..i believe that there is still many games ahead..jus like sh say " lai ri fang chang"..deres still many things ahead :d hee

abracadabra..give mi a magic potion to forget everything ytr n move on..haha jkjk *laming* once again..haha hao la..all i can say is..its all destinated..i haf know my mistakes n i promise to learn from em..n hope that nut n jas dun too sad too ok..hee i noe it hurts..so giv yaself sometime to heal it n lets buck up n cont to move on ok ! i wun say i haf forgotten everything coz i wun..haha i mean wun forget all those jing yu liang yan n lesson learnt as well as friends de concern..i wun deny that it hurts..but jus give mi sumtime..i m gonna let it go n move on..coz its onli when we let go of e sad past = "burden" that u can fly higher ah..*winks* jia u le da jia ! esp nut n jas..

n of coz..thank you all my friends + coaches + mummy..for all ya encouragements ! xie xie..yi qie jing zai bu yan zhong..

...its all destinated...

bu shi wo men de
si zhong bu shu yu wo men
zhe shi shang tian zu ding de
zhi guai wo men qi chu bu gou zhen xi
cuo guo de
zai ye bu hui hui lai

bu yao tai nan guo
shang xin le
ku gou le
jiu yao yong gan de zhan qi lai
qian mian de lu
hai you xu duo ji hui

xian zai shi xiu xi de shi jian
dan xiu xi gou le
jiu die yong gang de wang qian zou

jia u le...

][.wo hui jian jian hui fu.][
][.ni men ye yao jia u o.][

][.theres no miracles ba.][

][.theres no miracles ba.][

today went to play and1 3 on 3..n now my heart is so pain..i feel so weak as thou i might jus collaspe if u give mi a push..i knew i ain't supposed to feel in this way..but i can't help it..

actually felt quite ok de..after lost e match..den see nut n jas so sad..i was still feeling strong n wanna encourage em de..but after e numerous roller coasters rides..i m collasping..haiz..more hopes will lead to more disappointment is realli veri correct..after we were 1st out..i was ok...den theres this walkover thingy..which cause mi to be like flying over e moon..super gd mood..den i was struck wif e news that we r still not in...this kinda of going up n down de feeling realli makes mi so heart pain..why give mi hopes n dash it once again..why made mi believed in miracles..i will nv believe in miracles anymore..deres onli reality n u mus fight for wad u realli wan...

but to be frank..today lost le..but i heard lots of jing yu liang yan..n lots of experience..n wanna jus ask nut n jas to cont to jia u & yeah no1 is to blame emself ok..bball is a team de thingy lai de :D

console
today after lost e 1st match..i was devasted..i also dunno why..feeling ok de..but saw nut cry n walked out..den i walked out le..can't help it but cry n jus sat dere..den jiao lian came out n asked how was my eye..coz bei elbowed..n i realli feel a strain in my head la..den i tell her mei shi..den she saw e tears n asked mi dun cry..n wipe dry em..told mi its onli a game..n all e mistakes..i realli hoped to learn from em..den cindy coach also walked out...n told mi e mistakes..

den 2nd lost of e day..i feel so...dunno how to say..i played badly man..jus dun deserve a place to play ba..den walked ard aimlessly..watching e other aljunied teams play n cheer for em..den cindy coach saw mi n toked to mi..asked mi where do i tink i went wrong..i told her i dunno..n she say e worst thing is to not know ya mistakes..coz u wun be able to learn from it den..told mi lots of things..told mi to be tough..n dun be kind on court..told mi its isn't a matter of morales but its necessary to let ya oppenents noe that u r not any push over..thank you coach !

den after that..lqjl..taught mi to post out correctly n wad to do coz she says i looked blur when she told mi verbally..thank you oxjl..thank you..yi qie jing zai bu yan zhong

den after e roller coaster..e pt when we taught that deres chance, cindy coach told mi a diff..n she says e onli diff is that i haf no ball sense n do not dare to attack..lqjl told mi e same thing too..maybe i shuld try to change gradually n attack ba..den cindy coach also an wei mi by saying that i still young..still got many chances..haha thank u coach..

den after that i feel ok again..but bu zhi bu jue de..tears you cum out..feel so useless man..den luckily dere was nut who can pei mi go shan shan xin..n she knew how exactly i felt at e moment..realli thankie nut..i wanna be in e same team as u nxt time too :D..hee

hmmm jiu like this ba..den today i felt so sianz..1st time i can't bring myself to smile to take a pic..even wif my ox rite infront of mi..i can't smile..i jus dun wanna take a pic..din noe its so painful..den mi n jas sit dere refused to stand..den lqjl "scold" us n say she will punish us if we dun take..haiz..realli 1st time ever u can put all my idols in front of mi..n i wun haf e strenght to smile to e camera..believe in mi..

n now i m here back home..feel so shameful n vulnearable..shuld not teared in front of aljunied team esp e seniors..but i can't help it..sorry n veri paiseh..n yeah..every1 rest well n take care ok ! hee 20 mins later i will zzz n forget this day le..at least i will try to forget e unhappy parts :D hee byebye veri tired wanna slp le..

][.thank u coaches.seniors n team mates.][
][.but theres still no miracles.][