][.theres no miracles ba.][
today went to play and1 3 on 3..n now my heart is so pain..i feel so weak as thou i might jus collaspe if u give mi a push..i knew i ain't supposed to feel in this way..but i can't help it..
actually felt quite ok de..after lost e match..den see nut n jas so sad..i was still feeling strong n wanna encourage em de..but after e numerous roller coasters rides..i m collasping..haiz..more hopes will lead to more disappointment is realli veri correct..after we were 1st out..i was ok...den theres this walkover thingy..which cause mi to be like flying over e moon..super gd mood..den i was struck wif e news that we r still not in...this kinda of going up n down de feeling realli makes mi so heart pain..why give mi hopes n dash it once again..why made mi believed in miracles..i will nv believe in miracles anymore..deres onli reality n u mus fight for wad u realli wan...
but to be frank..today lost le..but i heard lots of jing yu liang yan..n lots of experience..n wanna jus ask nut n jas to cont to jia u & yeah no1 is to blame emself ok..bball is a team de thingy lai de :D
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today after lost e 1st match..i was devasted..i also dunno why..feeling ok de..but saw nut cry n walked out..den i walked out le..can't help it but cry n jus sat dere..den jiao lian came out n asked how was my eye..coz bei elbowed..n i realli feel a strain in my head la..den i tell her mei shi..den she saw e tears n asked mi dun cry..n wipe dry em..told mi its onli a game..n all e mistakes..i realli hoped to learn from em..den cindy coach also walked out...n told mi e mistakes..
den 2nd lost of e day..i feel so...dunno how to say..i played badly man..jus dun deserve a place to play ba..den walked ard aimlessly..watching e other aljunied teams play n cheer for em..den cindy coach saw mi n toked to mi..asked mi where do i tink i went wrong..i told her i dunno..n she say e worst thing is to not know ya mistakes..coz u wun be able to learn from it den..told mi lots of things..told mi to be tough..n dun be kind on court..told mi its isn't a matter of morales but its necessary to let ya oppenents noe that u r not any push over..thank you coach !
den after that..lqjl..taught mi to post out correctly n wad to do coz she says i looked blur when she told mi verbally..thank you oxjl..thank you..yi qie jing zai bu yan zhong
den after e roller coaster..e pt when we taught that deres chance, cindy coach told mi a diff..n she says e onli diff is that i haf no ball sense n do not dare to attack..lqjl told mi e same thing too..maybe i shuld try to change gradually n attack ba..den cindy coach also an wei mi by saying that i still young..still got many chances..haha thank u coach..
den after that i feel ok again..but bu zhi bu jue de..tears you cum out..feel so useless man..den luckily dere was nut who can pei mi go shan shan xin..n she knew how exactly i felt at e moment..realli thankie nut..i wanna be in e same team as u nxt time too :D..hee
hmmm jiu like this ba..den today i felt so sianz..1st time i can't bring myself to smile to take a pic..even wif my ox rite infront of mi..i can't smile..i jus dun wanna take a pic..din noe its so painful..den mi n jas sit dere refused to stand..den lqjl "scold" us n say she will punish us if we dun take..haiz..realli 1st time ever u can put all my idols in front of mi..n i wun haf e strenght to smile to e camera..believe in mi..
n now i m here back home..feel so shameful n vulnearable..shuld not teared in front of aljunied team esp e seniors..but i can't help it..sorry n veri paiseh..n yeah..every1 rest well n take care ok ! hee 20 mins later i will zzz n forget this day le..at least i will try to forget e unhappy parts :D hee byebye veri tired wanna slp le..
][.thank u coaches.seniors n team mates.][
][.but theres still no miracles.][
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