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be4 i start bloggin today..i mus apologise to sum n thank sum..sorry matong,mamajan n sh for hafin to put up w e black face n stone mode mi..n thanks auntie joy n ling for lendin mi a listening ear =)..

today is a grey day..

i haf been trying to hold em bac..but i can't..

i raised my head up n look at e stars thinking that e tears wun roll down that way..but it still did..

every moment that i haf nth to do..

i recall all e stuffs n it jus hurts..

ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch..it hurts hurts hurts hurts hurts..

it hurts so so so much..do u noe?..

do u hear e shattering n e wincing n e..i dunno..

it jus hurts..

i m realli sorry for gg on w e investiture n forsaking our meeting..

i m realli sorry but its my commitment..

its my responsibility..

i noe u always get disappointed when i onli do e politically right things..

i m sorry my friend..

but pls dun use that to measure e importance of things in my life..

sum things are jus obligations..n i need to fulfil em..

understand?..

haiz..i guess u dun..

even if u do..

all these that i said are jus reasons n excuses to u ba..

sighs..

n why do u wanna doubt mi?..

after a yr of friendship..

tell mi wad can i do to dispel ya fears?..

i realli tried v hard le..

but why is it time n again that we quarrel?..

tell mi why..

tell mi wad goes wrong..

why can't u trust mi..

thats hurts..

after all e things that i let go..

after all e things..

so this is wad i m to u..

sum1 that u fear..

sum1 that u can't trust?..

n it jus hurts..

i m at lost..

e whole day my head is in this whirl..

whenever there's a moment tt i m nt doing anything..

i wuld stone n think..

tell mi wad shuld i do..

i tink i shuld jus stop bothering u..

n let things cool off..

its not trying to escape..

its lost..

everytime i take a step forward..

u doubt..n u walk further away..

i m tired my friend..

but i wuld still trust u..

i haf to cont trusting u..

coz sum1 says tt i haf to trust u be4 u can trust mi again..

so i guess i will jus cont doing that for e meantime..

i will give u time to cool down..

i will stop bothering u..

i will pray hard n hope everything will be ok soon..

i m such a failure..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1..byee..n if i stone at u tml..i mus apologise 1st..dui bu qi..=)

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