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i rmb telling sum1 that i wuld feel better e day when sum1 gives up on mi..
n tt person tells mi tt i wuld feel v sad if e friend realli gives up on mi..
n i tink tt day haf finally cum..
n all i can say is..i m jus so glad..n relieved..
realli..
cz 1 day which e friend dun give up..it will onli make mi feel v bad towards her..
cz i can't deny how my heart feels..
i can't deny all e thoughts..
its realli better this way out..
sorry for all those tt u haf done..
thanks for all those tt u haf done too..
blame mi for being stubborn n heartless all u wan..
but i realli feel tt this is e better way out..
go on our separate ways..
cz i tink tt its meant to be..
its fate..
i haf been avoiding so much is becoz i wan no repeat..
thanks n sorry is all i can say..

hao la..thats for sum1..who i assume tt she will noe who she is if she read this..aw today is a greyish day..studied in e lib for a few hrs until i realli wanna cry..i ate like super slowly..cz i dun wanna go bac to e reality..i dun wanna face e endless notes n endless essays..so i jus ate n stone..n i wonder how..i realli din noe wad to do..so was in this dun tok to mi mood even till trng..den after trng went for dinner..haha was realli gd to laugh n laugh..sian ma was realli funny..haha den after dinner..my mood swing bac to e all time low as i tot abt all those work tt is piled in front of mi..n e day tt will be gone w sph tml..sighs..

i realli wanna more time..i wanna more energy..today i haf been listening to "wo xiang xing" by yang pei an..it jus makes mi feel better n more zheng fen (hmm dunno how to express tt in chi)..haha

aw buddy jus mentioned sumthing..i say i feel old..n she said..we r realli old as sports players..hmm so true isn't it..i m gg to be 18..how long more can i play?..haha n look at where i stand nw..jus a lousy nobody..but nbm..lets jia u! (attempt of trying to be positive) n e big As..its realli scary..i dunno how m i gg to face it..*sighs*..

hao la..shall end here! wadever it is..jus gotta face it!! shall stop escaping from reality!..take gd care every1! byee..

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