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haha hey bloggy..i m here again..haha had a full full dinner jus now..coz had pizza..wahaha my gd bro's bday..but he say let mi help him decide ;p so i decided to haf pizza..n he said ok..wahaha *guai guai*..anyway he ish sleeping like a piggy now..haha den mummy say he seems to haf enjoyed himself..haha yeah..hope so la ;p haha

den hmmm yeah ming dao !!! haha he ish a cute guy lai de ;p muahaha e wang zi bian qing wa inside de dang ou aka jun hao :D hee..so ke ai..but he in e show more ke ai..due to his actions la ;p haha n his facial expression..so ke ai jiu dui le..haha n e jacky de guess show today ish show e muscle guys or wadever la..haha looked at their muscles man..like plastic sia ;p haha

den hmm haha my hp realli going crazy le..e buttons so hard to press sia..my fingers can get sore jus by typing one msg la..coz i nd to hit e hp n type at e same time..wahaha *humph* naughty hp..but haha she bu de it sia..asked my mummy for a new hp for my bday le..haha i m so greedy man..its like i see this i jiu ask her for this..see that jiu ask her for that..haha den my "king" ask mi go smell la ;p haha e king da dan man..e queen nv tok he tok ;p haha jkjk..anyway yah..if mummy n daddy realli gonna get mi a new hp..i will dunno how also..all my msgs..i will she bu de like siao de..e hp de company better ti gong mi wif a service to transfer my bao gui de msg(s) dere ;p hee..den i will still keep my hp wif mi..haha call mi karang guni..i jiu shi dun wan to discard my things de..zhen yang..haha nag at mi lo ;p my mummy also nagged for 15 ++ years le ;p i hai bu shi zhe yang ;p haha jkjk

den yeah !!! thankie jing !!! haha my bloggy finally gotta e nice nice song that i haf been toking abt le..haha its kiss the rain..but ish wad show or wad OST de ne..i jiu dunno le..haha jus noe it roxz man..hee so mus thanks jing :D or else jiu cannot host this song here le ;p haha thank you jing ;p hee

haha n yah..today i came across this veri meaningful de buddha enlightenment la..haha yah..wanna share..but onli read if u feel like ok..hee i dun mean anything la ;p haha e meaningful quote = "All enemies out there are unreal - the real enemy is the enmity in us. -stonepeace"..den e meaningful story ish rather long de..read if u gotta time la..but its realli meaningful n touching ! i hope it will benefit ya in sum ways :D

e story :
A pregnant girl's parents demanded to know who her child's father was. Hesitantly, the desperate girl claimed it was Zen Master Hakuin, whom many revered for living purely. When the outraged parents confronted him, he simply said, "Is that so?" When the baby was born, they brought it to him, demanding that he take care of him. "Is that so?" Hakuin said calmly, as he accepted the child. Months went by and the girl could no longer stand her lie, admitting that the real father was a young man she was protecting. Her parents immediately went to Hakuin with much apologies, hoping he would return the baby. "Is that so?" Hakuin said, as he handed back the child. Initially losing half of his disciples due to the "affair", they now doubled.

A similar incident happened, which I didn't handle as magnaminously as Hakuin... A trusted friend told me a mutual friend had spoken ill of me at length. So disturbing was it that as a loyal friend, he felt he had to let me know. I was shocked - because the mutual friend was an almost equally trusted one too. As I beheld the "warning" of her ways, I was enraged. At the same time, I feigned ignorance when I encountered this "malicious" friend. It was obvious there was tension, as we spoke little to each other. "Guilty as charged!", I thought. For years, this tension persisted, as we drifted apart, while my poor friend was sandwiched between.

One fine day, I decided that the tension was pointless - it made us unhappy. I didn't want to sustain even a single enemy in my life. The matter had happened so long ago that I even kind of forgot exactly what there was to forgive. I wanted to let it go, to rebuild the friendship, if she was willing. I wasn't even sure who started the cold war. Was there slander? Or just some unclarified misunderstanding? Wasn't there enough punishment for us already? With some concerted effort, I cracked a smile when I saw her. She smiled back, with equal effort. It was as if nothing bad ever happened. Maybe it was a matter of pride - none of us apologised, but none of us needed an apology? We havn't really talked like we used to yet, but hey, no hurry. There was no need to dig up a dust-buried hatchet? Bygones by bygones? Maybe I did something genuinely wrong to deserve her wrath in the past. I would want to discuss it when we are more comfortable. Maybe we had matured over time. People change, and so does their perception of transpired matters. Initially having lost each other as friends, will friendship rekindled be doubled? Why not? Is not increased friendship a measure of our grown spirituality? The Buddha was a good friend to all, a transformer of enemies into friends too.

On hindsight, it isn't a good idea to speak ill of someone who isn't present - it is simply unfair, giving no chance for personal defence. Likewise, it probably equally isn't a good idea to tell someone he or she had been spoken ill of - unless there is an absolute need. One should simply try one's best to resolve the misunderstanding of someone else. If it doesn't work, just let it go - for the moment. Though we might tell, in good will, of another of someone's ill will, might we unwittingly spread hatred? Looking back, I probably did not need to know I was spoken ill of. But knowing so, I should had resolved it personally - instead of harbouring the burden of hate all this time. I was punishing myself by being unforgiving over an vague matter - what utter foolishness! May we have courage to face the truth, to resolve the unresolved, to apologise for the unapologised. What great Truth can we seek if we do not uncover the truths of everyday real-life matters? I wished I had better responded to my friend's "ill report" with Hakuin's composed "Is that so?" But, hey, I'm not that cool. Next, I'll ask - "How is it so?" Sure beats "What the hell!"

haha hao la..shall end here le..hope ya learned sumthing from e story yeah..hee take gd care every1 ! nitey :D hee..

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