][.Hang on.][

][.Hang on.][

alright..hee bloggy i m here to disturb ya again..haha..guess every1 jia you-ing for exams ba..hee jus listened to music diary n went to browse thru my "music diary" once again..saw this n i jus wanna blog down la..hee

Whenever u are tired and feel like giving up..
Look back..
N remind yaself of e reason that u started on this "journey" of working hard..
No matter wad it was for..
No matter who it was for..
Continue to perserve ba !
Jia u le !

take care..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.wei le ?.][

][.grey.][

][.grey.][

hmm now is 4:13..the teachers shuld be still having meeting regarding our prelims results ba..yup..gotta lots of teachers to thank..gotta lots of ppl to thank..

thank you teachers esp ms teo n mrs ganesan for trying so hard to help mi get my l1r5 to 20..
thank you my friends for standing by mi during this few days..
thank you..

hmm yah..jus read thru my last time de bloggy..haha..hmm yeah..haha now de weather i love it sia..going to rain de weather..veri dark..veri comfy..haha i love it..

den hmm..feeling lots of things now..but words can't put em across..

~Being kind to you is being kind to me, as we are one of a kind and kind of one. -stonepeace~

~Rain~
wash away my thoughts..
bring away my trouble wif u..
cry along wif mi..
show mi e rainbow after e rain..
..friends are jus like rain..
..being dere for u..quietly..

haha hao la..tonite is Shi Wan Tun Qing Yuan de last esp le ! yeah wei cheng n yama ! haha hope that Din can find sum1 too ;p haha hao la..end here le..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.pls stand by mi.][

][.En Ren.][

][.En Ren.][

][.En Ren.][

thanks for your help “en ren”..
I am really very grateful..
Yes..i will..
Thank you..

Hmm yeah..jus here coz I wanna thank my “en ren” = ms teo..yup..thanks..hee
Hao la..nothing much to blog for now too..

Shall go n do wad I ought to le..
Da jia jia u le..
Byee..

Yup..thanks for all e helps every1..i will try to believe in miracles now..coz sum1 told mi..u gotta believe it..n I will..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.i wanna tok to u.][
][.but I can’t.][
][.haiz.][

][.wei zai hu de ren nu li.][

][.wei zai hu de ren nu li.][

ps..gonna blog e below in han yu ping yin..

yin wei zai yi..
suo yi hen zai hu..

yin wei zai hu..
suo yi hen xin tong..

yin wei xin tong..
suo yi lei hen duo..

yin wei lei hen duo..
suo yi..
ku wan le..

xin sui le..
ni ren mei chu xian..

ren rang mei chu xian..
wo bu hui suo suan le..
yin wei..
wo suo suan le..
zhi bu guo shi qi bian zi ji..

wo hen zai yi..
hen zai hu..

haha hao la..enff of my craps le..jus wanna thank my friends using this blog..thanks for chatting wif mi n trying to cheer mi up..thanks..
thanks for trying to help mi recount my L1R5 once n again..n trying to console mi..i noe u all are trying to help mi..thanks..
xie le..i noe ya all de ku xin n help..but yah..thanks..nothing else i can say le..thanks..

u all also tc ba..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.ni zhi dao ma.][

][.bye.][

Good bye my 1st 3 months..
Good bye vjc..
Good bye..

Got back my almost all my prelims results today..fare super badly..failed 2..n get 5 n 6 for e remaining subs..my L1R5 is over 20..by a lot..a lot..disappointed in myself..esp my bio n a maths..

Mummy is disappointed too..
But she din say..
She jus asked mi go for poly if I really cannot cope..
She say maybe I ain’t cut for jc..
I think so too..

Thought over once n again..
Maybe jc aint e right choice..
Saying gd bye to jc..
Working towards poly..
Is a great leap..
But I m going to try..
Meanwhile I m not going to give up on jc..
But if I really still cannot make it..
Maybe it was just meant to be..
So jia u le Sheryl, sh n moi..

Giving up on vj..
Dun mean that I m giving up on bball..
I m jus emerging on another journey..

But be4 e o levels results is out..
I m not going to give up..


10 over hours pass..
I waited endlessly..
But there was still no reply..

I switched off my phone..
Coz I dun wan to get disappointed whenever I see e empty screen..

I m really weak now..
I need your encouragement..
I need your words..

But there ain’t any..
None now..
N there wun be again..

But its ok..
Maybe I meant nothing to you..
Perhaps it was e case right from e start..

But its ok..
U made e right choice..
I m jus a nobody..
Why bother about a nobody ne..

Jia u le..
I will support u still..
Always..

Hao la..shall end my bloggy here today..take care le every1..byee..yah..jus wanna note down a little comfort to my day..i finally made it after 4 yrs..it is jus sumthing to minor..no1 will discover..but it is a kinda of comfort..my pride..falcon mag..

Byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.weak.][
][.wad lies ahead.][
][.i need an answer.][

][.i wanna make it.][.for myself.][

][.i wanna make it.][.for myself.][

for e past few months..
i haf been telling myself..
i need to work hard..
coz i dun wan to disappoint..
i dun wan to make em worry for my future..

but today..
from today onwards..
i wanna make it..
i wanna do it..
not for any1..
but for myself..

i wanna prove myself right..
i wanna do it..
yes..i wanna be just like be4..
n i will..

yes..of coz i wuld still work hard for "em"..
but it wuld be more for myself..
coz its my own future..
no1's else..

haha yah..anyway today got back 3 subs for my prelims..chi eng lit..i wun say its gd..neither wuld i say its bad..i m onli glad for my chi..coz after a whole yr of not getting A1..i finally got it back..i wuld jus wanna say thanks to mummy..coz she realli ish my chi de living dict sia ;p haha..

den as for eng n lit..i wun say i m disappointed ba..coz wads over is over..but i m feeling veri mixed de gan jue now..i asked mr chan how i fare for my maths..n he said i barely scrap thru..shugs..i hate it man..i mean i hate myself..i noe i ain't going to do well for my sci too..ms tay din reply my sms..so all i can is wait till tml to noe my results..haiz..its gonna be a over 20 n a 1st 3 months gone kinda of thing..den ppl ard mi will ask.."ae..wad happened to u?..why so lan?.." n wad can i say.."hmm paper veri hard"..haha..wad a lie sia..i noe it ain't hard..jus like wad my pri sch teacher say " u noe how to do jiu not hard..dunno jiu hard..ppl got study jiu not hard..u nv study jiu hard..no excuse de"..haha n i agrees..so how ne?..haha

was rather sad de..after i noe i barely scrap thru my both my maths..coz..haha a maths..i realli placed efforts into it..maybe it jus wasn't enough..perhaps..haha must be becoz not enff efforts ba..i m sorry..i will try harder de..

anyway today went TM wif wen,moi,fungi n sh..i was like collasping le..realli feel like sitting down n jus slp..n when i walked i felt as thou i m going to disintegrate like e death hawk moth in "I'm e king of e castle"..disintegrate n gone forever..haha..ps..imagination too erm..but haha thats how i felt at that moment la ;p..that moment..was so tired..esp when i xiang dao i m going to face my lousy maths n sci results tml..ppl are jus telling mi that u can make it de la..haha realli thank em..coz thats kinda of console la..but i noe..i noe myself..i noe my own standard..haiz..

so was kinda of sianz de look n seems as thou i m dying la..sorry to em..coz not veri gd to be so sianz ba..haha yah..den anyway i had a strong urge to buy shorts..yeah op those kinda of shorts..so called mummy n asked her where she is..wanna her to cum n buy shorts for mi ;p haha so lucky de..she at whitesands..so jiu ask her cum down to TM ;p n haha maybe she gd mood ba..a while jiu reach le..den we went to buy shorts..haha wanted to buy this blue op shorts de..mummy tinks its nice too..but she found mi 2 others..n i tot it was not bad..esp gotta one ish brown den sides ish sunset de colour de..got coconut tree summore..den gotta seagull at e back..haha i saw e shorts le..i jiu told myself yesh i mus buy this..haha like "this is e one" de gan jue la..so bought 2 shorts at op ;p but din buy my blue shorts in e end..hee mummy like e other 2 better ;p haha so anything la..anyway she paying leh..haha jkjk..i liked em too la..

den hmm after i get my shorts..i brought mummy back to TM..(ps. e op shop at CS)..den wanted to show her sum sports wear de..den ended up buying a grey + orange de converse shoes..hee coz mummy tinks its nice n she tinks i onli wears e same pair of shoes everytime i go out..so she decided to buy mi one..haha n i quite liked it too la..coz its grey ! my new fav colour..hee so jiu buy lo..haha go out wif mummy quite gd de..haha she jus buy things that i wan for mi..as long as she tinks its practical n i will use ;p haha n mummy gotta gd taste..haha sh says de..n she realli does haf la..haha

den after that bought a hangten de collar tee..coz i love collar tee..i tink veri nice..hee den we bought dinner n came home to fetch didi le..

haha so long nv shopping le..i mean shopping wif mummy le..den haha yah..nxt time i old le..mus earn lots of money for mummy to shop too..coz she gotta gd taste sia..haha n her gd n "weird" taste de things hor..all veri ex de..but haha she treat mi so gd..i mus treat her gd too ;p hee..

den yah..anyway came home n showed my mummy my results..n yah..she realli veri nice today..haha..or maybe she give mi much less stress le ba..she looked thru my exam scripts n jus asked mi to jia u..she say she cannot help mi much le..i dou sec4 le..den i told her my prelims most prob over 20..she say jiu 1st 3 months revise e jc work at home ba..den i asked her wad if i cannot make it to jc..she told mi to try going to poly..haha..she jus said..if cannot make it no pt forcing myself into it..poly wuld be jus as gd too..den she even added that ite now also not bad le..i understand wad she means..she meant that everything will haf a way out ba..haha maybe she see i too sad den trying to cheer mi up ba..haha thanks mummy..deres sumthing that she said that made mi more touched..she say "jui zhong yao hai shi du zhi ji xi huan de..jiu xing le"..haha meaning jus choose e sub that u interested ba..haha den i told her wad i realli hoped for..but she say..i dun realli hope that u will play bball your whole life..haha..i noe why..coz she told mi be4..seeing mi play her heart veri scared..haha..ke ai de mummy ;p..anyway yah..so talked wif mummy regarding my results etc for quite long de..den i feel so sad-ed..yah..i noe i wanna make it..for myself..but i wanna make it for my parents too..they realli veri gd to mi..providing mi wif a gd family le..wad more can i ask..haha so i mus make it..for myself..so that they can be proud of mi..haha n of coz..theres many others whom i wanna em to be proud of mi too..so yeah..i need to jia u le..

thou i still veri worried n affected by my prelims results..but i promise..O levels de..gonna be a diff case..maybe..perhaps..yea it must be..

haha hao la..shall stop blogging for today le..rather long le ba..nd to go slp le ;p haha thou i jus woke up from a nap at 9:30 pm ;p but haha i nd to slp..i nd e energy to face my sci n maths tml..wish mi all e best ba..haha tc every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.sorry.][

][.maybe.][.perhaps.][.must be.][

][.maybe.][.perhaps.][.must be.][

haha jus blogged a huge deal of things..
but right after i post it..
blogger told mi that i nd to re-sign in..
it re-directed mi..

haha n now i m back at this blank pg again..
haha tried recovering my post..
but i couldn't..

hee maybe
perhaps..
it was meant to be ba..haha
must be..

hmm hao la..since fate dun allow mi to blog abt it..i shall not blog abt it den..hee haf quite a fun day walking to whitesands n back to home from whitesands today..hee thanks fungi for pei-ing mi..coz i dun tink there will be another frend who wuld pei mi like this le ba..

haha hao la..end here for today le..take care every1 ! rest well..nitey..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.maybe.perhaps.must be.][

][.peace.][

][.peace.][

haha hi bloggy..goody morning..hmm haha ytr din blog..coz wasn't feeling well..sort of fever n had bad stomach ache..haha moi also say she sorta of haf fever..haha moi la..all ya fault ;p mus be becoz we share e big coke la ;p haha jkjk..alright but now i ok le..hope moi also ok le la..haha thou my stomach still pain ;p haha

haha hmmm today ish marking day..so dun nd to go back to sch..haha but my rm ish in such a big mess now..coz i wanted to pack my files..so packed 3 full hrs ytr den packed finish 3 subjects de..bth le..went to slp in daddy n mummy de rm..coz my rm is in too messy a condition to even slp..haha n now i m facing such a big mess again..hee but hmm let mi blog 1st..i nd to blog..hee

yar..today ne..my mood is v peaceful de..yah..a kinda of inner sense de peace..feel so peaceful..haha..veri qing jing..haha tml ish e day to get my results le..yeah..my prelims results..i can foresee that i will disappoint many..thou i realli dun wanna..but i felt better after i read sumthing that i wrote last yr..

Do you know why ppl fail once and again ?..
Its becoz..
They ain't able to discard their failure..

There was a sports player..let mi name him -> inferior
One day..inferior is going to play against a player that he had lost to be4..
mins be4 e game..
he sat in a corner n shivered unconsciously..
his coach saw and came up to him..
Coach : " inferior, are you ok..why are u shivering so badly?"
Inferior : " Coach..i m scared..i m scared that i will lose to him..i am scared that i will lose to him again.."
Coach : " inferior..since you are scared to lose to him once again..it means that you dun wanna lose..and since u dun wanna lose..why do u still tink abt the possibility of losing.."

haha rather inspired by wad e coach say..i read this from one of e bk in kinokuniya (ps dunno how to spell it) n add in sumthings here n dere la..haha hope u all understand wad i m trying to say..haha yah..its in chi de.."Ji Ran Ni Bu Xiang Shu (since u dun wan to lose) Wei He Hai Xiang Zhe Zhi Ji Hui Shu De Jie Ju Ne ( why do u still bother to tink of yaself as losing the game ?)"..yup its sumthing like this..haha den i tink..wad e author is trying to bring across to us ish..success is possible as long as u let go of ya past failures..yup..failures are painful lessons to learn..but once u learnt from it..let it go..u will feel better...hee so jus wanna tell all..tml our prelims results may not be gd..but pls do not be defeated by it..pls stand up bravely after a painful cry..to face ya Os wif all u can..u will make it ! as long as u discard ya fear that u will fare badly for ya Os..

yah..so after recalling wad i wrote last yr..i told myself..yes..if i realli din do well for my prelims..i shall work hard for my o levels..like how i worked for my psle..now there are too many distractions in life le..my com..my hp..my tv..bball..i shall cut down my online de time..maybe onli online to blog 30 mins / day..den since my hp now spoil le..i guess i wun sms unless neccessary le ba..den tv..i can watch all i wan after my Os right..bball ne..i guess i already put down lots le..now theres onli trng once a wk..n its definitely not enff..but look at wad i haf packed..i tink i realli nd to jia u le..but still train..coz like wad shuang feng jiao lian say..yah..haha

den hmm..jus rmb that i meeting fungi later..to pei her to make her specs..haha psps nu ren..all my fault ;p haha..hmm den yah..shugs..stomach still pain now..wonder wads wrong wif it sia..

to ya:
haha hmmm yah..
i m getting my results tml..
i noe i may disappoint many if i nv do well..
i haf no idea if u will be one of em..
but i realli hope that i wun disappoint u..
if deres a list of ppl that i dun wan to disappoint..
u are among the top..
i dun wan u to be disappointed..
i promise to work real hard to make u proud of mi..
i promise..

n yuppy..ytr moi told mi that thai won s'pore by 34 for e 1st match..haha its a kinda of complicated feeling yeah..felt happy for thai..yet felt sad for s'pore..felt happy for 5 yet felt sad for 15..haha kinda of complicated de feeling ba..hmm dunno how to say la..gong xi 5 for winning ! (thou i din get to watch u play this yr..*promise*) den 15..jia u ! will support u always de..
haha yeah ! 5 n 15 jia u le ! both of u will always be e best to mi ",)

many may not agree with mi that yOu are the best
but it doesn't matter
coz yOu will always be the best to mi..
always..
thou many other gd player will appear..
but i will jus "woah"..
yup..coz yOu are e best..to mi..
][.15.5.10.][

haha hmm yeah..ps..sorta of crapping..pls dun mind..haha psps..haha hao la..shall end my bloggin here le..thou i still haf lots to say..but haha i can't find e right words to bring across it la..hee..maybe i will tink of e right words tonite la..hee maybe..

soo for now ! take care le every1 ! byee..have a nice day ahead wow ;p

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.back.][

][.Endless love.][

][.Endless love.][

haha woohoo..nowadays keep on ting dao nice songs ;p hee for eg..kiss e rain..haha den today heard Endless love ! wahaha nice song man..ish "the myth" de movie inside de song lai de..hee cheng long (jacky chan) and jin xi san sing de..haha nice man..

den hmm e lyrics veri nice also..haha love e korean part which jin xi san sings esp..haha veri gotta ma dian..haha like wad xu huan liang says..u dun understand..but jiu shi veri gan ren..hee but i see e lyrics le loved it even more..hee deres one line in e lyrics which i loved "Si Lian Yong Mei You Zhong Dian"..haha meaning deres no end to missing sum1 or sumthing la ;p hee sumthing like this la..

~ThE mYtH~
haha yah..anyway went to watch "shen hua" aka "the myth" wif forever5 today..haha quite a nice show la..haha quite la..got funny parts..got sad parts..haha actually say real de..i dun like this kinda of show..coz they fight here fight dere..den blood here n dere..haha yucks tor..dun like to see ppl fight..hee unlike wen..who ish inspired by how e soldiers fight n protect their country ;p hee maybe thats y wen can be a future NSman while i cannot ba ;p haha jkjk laming..hmm yah..anyway ish a nice show la..bringing u from e current back to e past den from e past back to e current for many times la..haha u will feel quite diaoz at times thou ;p haha jkjk..hmm den inside gotta veri meaningful de things..like wad e master said abt dreams..said sumthing like dreams n reality ish gotta link de..den if u keep on dreaming of e same thing..den maybe ish sum1 trying to tell u sumthing..unlocking your memories..den dreams are a mixture of ya own creativity..ya own thinkings n ya memories..haha e indian master speak until super chim sia..catch no ball..but veri meaningful la ;p hee

den after e movie went for dinner at yoshinoya..n now haha back home here blogging..haha quite tired le today..hee din rest much ;p den hmm moi still haven send mi e photos..haha so i m listening to Endless love ! while waiting la..hee but soon i m gonna watch popcorn le ;p haha love that show man..haha dunno why also..need no reason also ba ;p haha..hmm n yah..i tink i found myself a perfect gift le..hee after watching popcorn once again..i realli hoped to go find e "special thingy" again..after my Os ;p haha silver engraved pocket compass..haha cool sia..realli nice..hee

den haha hao la..shall end here le..take gd care every1 ! hee nitey..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][

][.la manco.][

][.la manco.][

haha hey bloggy..i m here again..haha had a full full dinner jus now..coz had pizza..wahaha my gd bro's bday..but he say let mi help him decide ;p so i decided to haf pizza..n he said ok..wahaha *guai guai*..anyway he ish sleeping like a piggy now..haha den mummy say he seems to haf enjoyed himself..haha yeah..hope so la ;p haha

den hmmm yeah ming dao !!! haha he ish a cute guy lai de ;p muahaha e wang zi bian qing wa inside de dang ou aka jun hao :D hee..so ke ai..but he in e show more ke ai..due to his actions la ;p haha n his facial expression..so ke ai jiu dui le..haha n e jacky de guess show today ish show e muscle guys or wadever la..haha looked at their muscles man..like plastic sia ;p haha

den hmm haha my hp realli going crazy le..e buttons so hard to press sia..my fingers can get sore jus by typing one msg la..coz i nd to hit e hp n type at e same time..wahaha *humph* naughty hp..but haha she bu de it sia..asked my mummy for a new hp for my bday le..haha i m so greedy man..its like i see this i jiu ask her for this..see that jiu ask her for that..haha den my "king" ask mi go smell la ;p haha e king da dan man..e queen nv tok he tok ;p haha jkjk..anyway yah..if mummy n daddy realli gonna get mi a new hp..i will dunno how also..all my msgs..i will she bu de like siao de..e hp de company better ti gong mi wif a service to transfer my bao gui de msg(s) dere ;p hee..den i will still keep my hp wif mi..haha call mi karang guni..i jiu shi dun wan to discard my things de..zhen yang..haha nag at mi lo ;p my mummy also nagged for 15 ++ years le ;p i hai bu shi zhe yang ;p haha jkjk

den yeah !!! thankie jing !!! haha my bloggy finally gotta e nice nice song that i haf been toking abt le..haha its kiss the rain..but ish wad show or wad OST de ne..i jiu dunno le..haha jus noe it roxz man..hee so mus thanks jing :D or else jiu cannot host this song here le ;p haha thank you jing ;p hee

haha n yah..today i came across this veri meaningful de buddha enlightenment la..haha yah..wanna share..but onli read if u feel like ok..hee i dun mean anything la ;p haha e meaningful quote = "All enemies out there are unreal - the real enemy is the enmity in us. -stonepeace"..den e meaningful story ish rather long de..read if u gotta time la..but its realli meaningful n touching ! i hope it will benefit ya in sum ways :D

e story :
A pregnant girl's parents demanded to know who her child's father was. Hesitantly, the desperate girl claimed it was Zen Master Hakuin, whom many revered for living purely. When the outraged parents confronted him, he simply said, "Is that so?" When the baby was born, they brought it to him, demanding that he take care of him. "Is that so?" Hakuin said calmly, as he accepted the child. Months went by and the girl could no longer stand her lie, admitting that the real father was a young man she was protecting. Her parents immediately went to Hakuin with much apologies, hoping he would return the baby. "Is that so?" Hakuin said, as he handed back the child. Initially losing half of his disciples due to the "affair", they now doubled.

A similar incident happened, which I didn't handle as magnaminously as Hakuin... A trusted friend told me a mutual friend had spoken ill of me at length. So disturbing was it that as a loyal friend, he felt he had to let me know. I was shocked - because the mutual friend was an almost equally trusted one too. As I beheld the "warning" of her ways, I was enraged. At the same time, I feigned ignorance when I encountered this "malicious" friend. It was obvious there was tension, as we spoke little to each other. "Guilty as charged!", I thought. For years, this tension persisted, as we drifted apart, while my poor friend was sandwiched between.

One fine day, I decided that the tension was pointless - it made us unhappy. I didn't want to sustain even a single enemy in my life. The matter had happened so long ago that I even kind of forgot exactly what there was to forgive. I wanted to let it go, to rebuild the friendship, if she was willing. I wasn't even sure who started the cold war. Was there slander? Or just some unclarified misunderstanding? Wasn't there enough punishment for us already? With some concerted effort, I cracked a smile when I saw her. She smiled back, with equal effort. It was as if nothing bad ever happened. Maybe it was a matter of pride - none of us apologised, but none of us needed an apology? We havn't really talked like we used to yet, but hey, no hurry. There was no need to dig up a dust-buried hatchet? Bygones by bygones? Maybe I did something genuinely wrong to deserve her wrath in the past. I would want to discuss it when we are more comfortable. Maybe we had matured over time. People change, and so does their perception of transpired matters. Initially having lost each other as friends, will friendship rekindled be doubled? Why not? Is not increased friendship a measure of our grown spirituality? The Buddha was a good friend to all, a transformer of enemies into friends too.

On hindsight, it isn't a good idea to speak ill of someone who isn't present - it is simply unfair, giving no chance for personal defence. Likewise, it probably equally isn't a good idea to tell someone he or she had been spoken ill of - unless there is an absolute need. One should simply try one's best to resolve the misunderstanding of someone else. If it doesn't work, just let it go - for the moment. Though we might tell, in good will, of another of someone's ill will, might we unwittingly spread hatred? Looking back, I probably did not need to know I was spoken ill of. But knowing so, I should had resolved it personally - instead of harbouring the burden of hate all this time. I was punishing myself by being unforgiving over an vague matter - what utter foolishness! May we have courage to face the truth, to resolve the unresolved, to apologise for the unapologised. What great Truth can we seek if we do not uncover the truths of everyday real-life matters? I wished I had better responded to my friend's "ill report" with Hakuin's composed "Is that so?" But, hey, I'm not that cool. Next, I'll ask - "How is it so?" Sure beats "What the hell!"

haha hao la..shall end here le..hope ya learned sumthing from e story yeah..hee take gd care every1 ! nitey :D hee..

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][.npo.][

][.7 years le.][

][.7 years le.][

haha yeah..7 years le..today de bloggy ne..quite long de..so read onli if u interested or free la..haha

To my ah di :
hmm 7 years le..today ish my little bro de bday..wahaha happy birthday didi ! (thou u will not know how to cum my bloggy) but still happy birthday la..haha ps ah..din buy those ex ex de things for u..no $ la..haha but made u a card as a compensation leh..haha count yaself lucky wow..been sooo long since i made sum1 a bday card ;p haha jkjk..haha see la..thats why i always hope to haf a jie jie or kor kor..a jie jie to pei wo..chat chat wif mi..a kor kor to protect mi..hee..but this will nv cum true de la..haha maybe a "jie" and a "kor" jiu got la..but a real de jiu nv ever la..haha *lame shit*..haha yeah..anyway happy birthday la didi ! may all ya dreams n wishes n wadever cum true always la..hee

To my aNdAs :
haha anda ish wen tell mi de..she says anda = xiong di / jie mei..haha sumthing like friends la..haha dunno la..hee..jus wanna say..haha andas' men..so fast..so fast..so many yrs past le wow ! thanksz for all e happy moments u all had brought for mi ok..hee xie le..love u all always ;p haha

haha alright..now i shall start my real blogging le..hee hmmm so sianz sia..early in e morning ms ng gave mi a morning call..haha was so tired la..ytr went wen de hse to do gym..while sh went to swim n wen,moi,fungi went to play tennis..haha woohoo i falling in love wif doing gym le..haha i wanna go wen de hse to do gym more often after my Os..haha ytr ran e trackmill for a gd 20+ mins..n yeah..miraculously..i survived..haha *phew*..but still scared la..dun tink i will be able to survive tml de training..haha anyway yah..i wanna train up..ytr at e gym..den i suddenly felt a strong urge that i shuld start to train up my muscles..yeah..moi needs to ton her muscles..i need to train my muscles..haha den hmm i wanna ton down my thigh also..yucks yucks..dun like my thigh..hee jkjk..den hmmm e gym veri shuang..got air con..got radio..haha n i think do gym alone quite shuang de..nobody disturb ya..den u quiet quiet de fOcUs on wad u wanna do..n when u accomplish it..u will feel a sense of sastification..haha yeah..man zu gan..*5milez*..but haha all e gym effort was wasted ytr la..coz ate so much during dinner ;p hee

hmm den yah..came home n made e card n zZz like a pig..haha wanted to watch popcorn de ! but too tired la ;p hee shall watch today or sum other days la..den hmm yeah..tonite gotta "Shi Wan Dun Qing Yuan"..haha kill that liu hua man..haha my ke lian de wei cheng n yama n ah din ;p haha hao la..i tink i rest 1 or 2 more days jiu enff le..mummy starts to nag that its onli prelims n not o levels finished le..haha so yeah..jus give mi one or two days more la..

haha n yah..mummy bought mi a new jacket..o mian i loved it man !!! ish grey colour de..super nice to mi la..haha i love all this old old de colours..grey ah..den e dull dull e green all this..haha love all these colours..haha yeah..n i tink i m falling in love wif grey colour le ;p hee

hao la..shall end here le..later still nd to go back to sch..sianz la..haha take care every1 ! byee..will blog again at nite ba..haha ",)

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haha y0z every1 ! haha noticed a change in blogskin ma..haha alright..jus finished changing my blogskin..hee so today i wuld like to dedicate a little bit of my bloggy to my previous blogskin ;p haha..

alright..actually..in fact..i loved my previous blogskin de..but today after i came home..i feel so..la..like gotta so much time to slack..so weird..but i liked it la..so i jus spent my time playing monkey king till my thumbs felt sore..den it started raining..den my mood jiu..haha like e rain like this..not so high la..(thou there are still things to be happy abt..heehe)..so decided that i shuld change my blogskin ;p haha coz its gonna take up lots of my time..den i wun feel so sianz..hee so spent lots of time browsing thru e blogskins..haha saw many..realli gotta sum quite nice de..hee..

den chose this new blogskin coz i liked e words.."I just want things to be SiMpLe and be like this till e world ends.." haha loved it man..jus like my previous blogskin de words.." I wish for a little fairyland where e word "unhappy" do not exist"..haha these are things that i realli hoped n wished for..living in this world ish gd..but sumtimes..things are jus so complicated ;p haha hmm i tink onli la..u dun nd to agree wif mi ;p haha

alright..hmm so ~ ta da ~ my new blogskin..hee hope u all liked it la..den hmm today i came across many meaningful de words..
1) forgetting ya unhappy past n things is impt..but whats even impt is to rmb e happy moments..( sum channel 8 de show at 3pm)
2) if i were to die today..rmb mi as i was ytr..( came across this while browsing e blogskin)

haha hmm ok..my memory ish failing mi le..forget wad else i wanna say le..hmm anyway Ups and Downs on e sea of love ish nice ! n liu hua ish so jian-ed..haha wonder if real life gotta this kinda of ppl mar..haha yeah wei cheng & yama :D

hee..den hmm yah..i tink i rather attitude problem tonite de..haha..jus tink so la..feels like talking back..haha i mean not to my parents..but to my friends..haha hmm dunno why la..maybe some wire in mi went siao again..haha they goes siao veri often nowadays..haha sh had planned tml after exams de schedule hao hao le..but haha i went against it ba..sorry..coz had a day break today..den feel so sianz..ya..so sianz..n rather bth myself also de..haha forget it..sum wires mus be wrong..hope they will be fixed after my slp ;p haha

den yah..jus wanna say sorry to sh..coz haha..u noe why la hor..i noe sorry no use la..but haha yah..hmm den sorry to moi also..haha den hmm haha feeling so ap now..haha *beat mi*..

ok..sorry that i sound so ap..haha coz so sianzed now..i m broke broke..n i nd to get my bro a bday prezzie..haha nice try man..wad can i get him..when i haf no $ ? ;p haha

hao la..take care n gd nite + gd morning every1..byee..

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haha if i m not wrong..deres a saying that "Dun count ya chickens be4 ya eggs hatch" or sumthing like this rite..haha but now i feel like going against that saying thou..i mean yeah tml ish my last day of prelims le !!! haha i saying this not becoz i wanna suan fungi , moi n sh la..but haha..i jus so glad..jus one more hr tml..n i can say gd bye to my prelims..i noe e results gonna be bad..i can predict myself looking at e paper n not knowing wad to do when e results ish back..if theres a paper that i can say i tried my utmost best..it wuld be chi n a maths..onli this 2..i will realli say..wo jing li le..but maybe it jus wasn't enff or anything..

haha alright..now i m trying to do mcqs for my chem paper1 tml..so moodless to study e whole chem text again..haha as i said be4..i dun like studying things over n over again..so sianz sia..den hmm but do a few qn onli..i jiu so no mood le..yesh i nd to blog..i feeling so woohoo now..woohoo is nOt = happy..ish a mixtures of feelings..not happy not sad de feeling..i wanna my prelims to be over..yesh as fast as possible..but i dun wan to face my prelims de results sia..haha alright..this ish craps..i noe its impossible..so i shall not go n tink abt it anymore..haha

haha hao la..today or rather now i blog ish becoz i wanna blog down my To Do List for tml..rite after prelims..haha i had it all planned le..but be4 that..i mus say sorry n thank you to fungi 1st..hee coz i kicked n wanted to kick her leg n below de..but my shoes so zhun n kicked right smack into her face n spoiled her glasses..haha phew that she wasn't angry..coz i sure angry n storm away de surely de..so i m jus thankful n sorry fungi..den hee tml..

~To Do List~
right after my prelims at 8:40..->go play bball wif fungi n moi n wen till siao..
den after that..go home..slack..play com..
evening go joggin !!! yesh i nd to jog jog jog..i nd to get back e stamina n shed of e kg(s) e many many kgs that i had gained over these weeks..haha o m g..i wonder how m i going to do this man..e amt of wt that i gained ish..haha..
den at nite = play + watch tv..

muhaha n i m going to give myself 1 / 2 days de break ;p hee but i guess i will break more than that de la..hee..

den yah..today i cum home..i sort of deco-ed my rooms wif e many many photos that i haf ! haha so nice..e whole row of photos haha gotta so many sweet memos..haha so proud of em..nxt time or rather tml cum back i will deco more..haha n i wanna msg che n reg tml..haha..

hao la..now i shall go le..feel so much better after bloggin ;p hee lalala..go le go le..take care every1 ! byee..hee

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haha tml ish my e-maths prelims paper1..now ish evening le..n i haf yet to start my revision..hee but its my happy day..haha shall blog be4 mummy(wang hou) and didi (wang zi) cums back n joins mi for dinner..haha n yah..that piggy daddy !!! that guo wang !!! so lor suo..haha ben gong zhu (aka piggy daughter = mi) slp de time..he call n call..hai mi cannot slp well..hee shall nag at him nxt time ;p haha jkjk..

alright anyway..today had my a maths n hist paper..agrh kill e hist paper..i studied hard for it..but i dun i will do well..shugs..fine..lets jus forget abt it man..haha den a maths..haha no comments la hor..hee i dunno la..den after hist went to canteen to haf lunch wif wen..while we "gossip" wif our prawn noodles..den went to stadium n play bball while waiting for fungi..coz sh say she left sch le ;p haha..den i shoot..o m g..underbasket also cannot ;p haha..den wen jiu walked down..haha i was so so so happy when wen walked down..coz for e past few months..wen had rejected playing bball..but she cum down le..den onli say wanna help mi pick ball..but i already feel happy le..coz i sumhow feel that..yesh..one barrier over..haha n true enff..i ought to be happy..hee fungi came down..n i passed her e ball..she shot in..i gave it to her again..haha i dunno how to express how happy i m at that moment..hee den hui wen they all de friends (sec2 sports class) de ask if we can play 2 on 2 or 3 on 3 ma..haha i was realli ok n ready..but i gotta see if wen n fungi wan ma..den due to wen's health condition..she decided not to..fungi din wanna too..coz she say she veri long nv play le..but i dun care..i insisted n jus start..hee n i m glad she nv walk out on mi..haha den yah..at 1st fungi dun wan to shoot n cut in..she jus keep on pass to mi..but after a few balls..i saw e confidence in her..its back..e fungi that i knew..serious abt bball..haha was realli happy..saw her cutting in..lay-up n i told myself..thank you buddha..thanks for this moment..den after a while..wen joined mi n fungi..haha thou wen din wanna shoot n jus pass..wen ish sweating like...due to her health condition la..den i veri scared she cannot make it..but i noe she can de..hee we had great fun..laughters filled e air..haha i realli enjoyed that 30 - 45 mins of playing bball today..realli..coz it been months..many months since i played bball wif wen n fungi le..i understand why they dun wanna play wif mi..n i din wanna force em to..but i knew their passion nv cease..n i realli looked forward to e day when they wuld play wif mi again..haha thou i haf many great friends n team mates who teaches n guide mi in playing bball now..but i will nv forget..its forever5 which brought mi into bball de world de..hee jus so glad that i get to play wif em today..hope that this will be possible again..hee..but also gotta thank all the other friends who guide mi along now la..haha coz forever5 brought mi in..u all n forever5 together guide mi thru..haha thats y i m able to play bball n enjoy it today..hee maybe u wun understand wad i m saying..but haha i understand jiu hao le ;p hee jkjk

den hmmm o m g !!! i m listening to this nice song now..ish a instrumental which i forced moi to send mi..coz chatting wif her on e fone..den heard e song as a background song..haha realli veri nice...e song title ish unknown..onli noe that its sum korean drama de song..--> kiss the rain..haha ish realli a nice song..how much i wish i can put it in my bloggy to share..but e format cannot sia..haiz..its a song that sumhow will make u recall e past..smile n cry as u tink abt it..n is rather heart-rendering de..u hear le can cry de gan jue..coz it jus seems so sad..haha maybe onli for a sadist like mi..but i realli love this song sia..so tempted to burn this song wif one cd-r but so waste..haha so shall go find a few more songs n burn after i cum back from my chem on wed ;p hee..

ooo yah..forget to mentioned..i was so malu on bus9..i dropped my bag n it gave a loud thud n e whole bus looked at mi..n that chou nu ren keep on luff at mi..n tease mi..so malu la..haha den we went loyang pt..den i saw e key chain that fungi had on her hp..hers ish "Ni Shi Wo De Wei Yi"..den i wanna one also..but i wanna e "Yi Lu Shang You Ni"..coz e others ish like love love de romantic words yeah..haha mushy si le..so i was praying for my "Yi Lu Shang You Ni"..den 1st 2 ish fungi sponser mi de..den i din get wad i wan..so i borrowed $2 from fungi n turned 2 more..hee n yeah yeah !!! e 3rd one i gotta "Yi Lu Shang You Ni"..haha but be glad..all 4 i get diff de..hee reminds mi of piggy daddy giving mi $30 to turn all e tamogochi last time..haha

den hmmm today de afternoon ish nice n sweet n simple la..haha hao la..shall end here le..go for my dinner be4 i start on my e-maths revision le..hee tc every1 !!! byee..maybe i will blog again at nite ba ;p haha maybe..

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ps bloggy..today i keep on chao u..this ish my 3rd bloggy of e day le..haha..alright..jus wanna say sorry for pms-ing so many times today..yah..haha

hmm sorry to those who read my bloggy n feel agrh..coz rmb ah..stay happy..hee theres sumthing that can make u sad..but theres sumthing to make u happy too..always..

~Friends are those special ppl who touches one anothers hearts and lives and become a part of em..
Friends are those ppl who shares in another’s happiness but also their troubles..
Sharing in deepest secrets and fondest dreams..
Thanks my friends..~

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..i hate it man..
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..if onli..

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hmm hiz bloggy..sorry that i din blog ytr..was in a mood too foul to blog..haha now still feeling as bad..but i tink at least calmer to "tok" to ya le ba..haha

alright..tml i m having my hist n a maths prelims..hmm n now i onli finished 8chaps of hist wif 7 more to go..but i intend to jus read thru e summaries for e 7 more chaps la..haha..den later after blogging..i shall go bathe and watch my Hong Yi Shou Ji while i revise my a maths..haha thats jus wad i hope..i dunno if i can do so la..haha alright..sorry i m not in e right state of mind..dunno wad i m blogging also..

anyway ytr went to watch e matches at toa payoh..hmm yah s'pore lost to e aust..n theres this cute little gal who can bounce n dribble e ball so well..i guess she will be a gd player nxt time ba..den after e matches..went to eat wif moi,sh n jas..den gossip over our "short mary gold" meals..den reached home ard 12+++..took a shower n jumped into my bed..haiz..i wasn't sleepy at all...i wasn't..but i jus wanna make myself sleep..hoping that sleeping will help mi forget my foolishness n help mi feel better for saying sumthing that i shuldn't..i was feeling so agrh man..wanted to call sum1 to tok to mi de..but decided not to..coz dun wanna disturb em...its quite late le..n they nd sleep..anyway it wasn't a big big matter..it was jus sumthing veri haiz..n i guess onli 1 person will understand how it feels ba..

ok...so i went to sleep..din online..din blog..coz i dun wanna tink abt it..so i slept till today morning..5 plus...saw sh de sms..den fall back to slp..den 7 plus..8 plus..i woke up..revise a few qn of maths..n forced myself to sleep again..shugs..i m such a coward man..i mean a loser..forcing myself to escape e problem by sleeping..haiz..i jus din wanna stay awake..coz i will jus tink abt it..over n over..n my mood was so bad..den changed my tuition from 10 to 11..coz i wanna slp..so sleep till 9plus..mummy bought breakfast..had breakfast den prepare for tuition..

was so moody n sleepy during tuition that nothing seems to be able to get into my mind..i was jus nodding n nodding..n trying to understand those things that my tuition teacher was explaining..den hmmm after tuition..had lunch..n started my revision for hist from 2plus all e way to 5plus..woho..quite proud of myself de..i was like sitting dere for 3 full hrs..not moving a single bit apart from my hands n brain..maybe coz hist was simply too interesting or maybe becoz i was moodless to even react..i jus switched off my hp..n immeresed myself in e world of hist for 3 hrs..so nice man hist..haha..

den 5plus..god daddy + god mummy + god sis came to join our family for steam-boat..coz mummy say mooncake fest..family mus gather together..haha n i m quite glad that she did that..coz over e 1 hr + meal..i feel much better..my daddy was so full of craps n lame..jus like mi..den every1 was joking..n chatting..a veri nice de gan jue..haha..den during e dinner..i received a call from yaqi asking if i got go watch a not..den i saw e sms n told her maybe sh going..den went back to my dinner..haha i so much wanna go de..but haha i m not going to go..no..many reasons..one of which = tml ish my prelims..e others..haha lazy to mention..

called moi be4 my dinner n wanted to tok to her de..but mummy they all rushing mi for dinner..so went for dinner 1st..den now i finish dinner le..wanna call moi..but she ish hafing dinner..so i m here blogging..blogging n blogging..i m feeling so agrh now man..yeah..so agrh..i need sum1 to tok to sia..so moi !!!!! u better hurry up finish ya dinner man !!!!!..haha jkjk..eat slowly ba..or else later indigestion den u blame mi..haha..

alright..shall end my bloggy here for now..gonna bathe n watch tv while studying maths le..hmmm hope they win later..yah..nothing much to say le..words cannot realli explain how i m feeling now..coz its a agrh n unexplainable gan jue..

byee every1..take care..see ya..

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haha today de blog gonna be long n lenghty..but i wun say myself crapping or laming tonite le la..coz too much to write le..hee ok..actually today my mood veri mixed de la..den it was jus lifted up..hee..den now..back to normal again..haha but still feeling sweet..hee

1st :
today afternoon my gan tie ( god daddy) called mi..coz he noes abt e end yr de all those trips..den he asked mi if i made my choice le ma..haha den jiu tok to mi la..haha quite touched de la..coz ish like..gotta daddy + mummy n gan tie + gan ma de guan xin..haha yah..realli gotta a few adults ish i veri grateful to de..n if i grow up le..i wanna support em n let em kuai kuai le le always..hee

2nd :
toady ish fri..so tml ish sat den no prelims..den i m so relaxed la..as thou prelims ended or sumthing..haha wadever..so i came home n slept a while..for an hr..den went to prps wif didi..for e lantern fest thingy..haiyo..i shuld haf went for e loyang dua pei gong de wif gan ma they all sia..haha yah..anyway went wif didi n mummy to celebrate e fest at prps..den i "forced" my bro to get mi a balloon..den i see him all being squashed by e others..den feel so agrh u noe..den he waited soooo freakly long while ppl jus cut his queue n snatched away wad belongs to him..yucks tor..i din noe children r so...de..i always scold my bro n feels that he ish too adamant n determined to get sumthing le..i mean yah..he ish veri unlike mi..he noes how to grasp opportunities while i jus wait for opportunities to cum to mi..haha den i dun support his ideology of grasping evey chance..coz i tink will stress himself up onli..but today i understand why le..coz if u dun grap e chance..ppl will snatch it from u..haha maybe i live in a nice world ba..wif nice ppl ard mi..so i m not expose to such er xin-ness of e society..ppl cutting queue..ppl snatching things..ppl this ppl that..i always love the life i living now..haha..but yah..anyway..i jus learnt a v impt lesson la..u gotta fight n grap on e chance..if not others will do it too..hee jia u le every1 !..grap e chance ba ;p hee...

den after going to prps a while..i quite sianz..so jiu tell mummy i cum home 1st..den i lay on my sofa n watch tv for 3 hrs..haha den i watched UP AND DOWN OF THE SEA OF LOVE..wahaha so sweet so sweet..yama n wei cheng so sweet..esp when wei cheng say.."i fooled ard many times..but i onli fell in love once.." wahaha sweet dao bao zha..haha i can't wait to watch finish e show man..but contradict a bit..i dun wan it to end sia..haha shugs..i love this kinda of show..those that u noe e ending le..yet wanna watch de..haha

sooo haha after watching e show..my mood ish more or less much better..forget a bit abt e ugliness of life..haha..den i came online n woho..today my com hanged twice..i mean my msn..haha its like been so long since i haf so many msn conver box shining e bright orange light at mi..haha so long since i haf a great fun chatting my life n time away..
haha yah..anyway i online le..den saw all 4 zhu tous online..so jiu a bit high la (mus be due to e sweet show)..den i add all of em..hee n we chatted n crapped like nobody's business..whee!~its been a long long time..since we toked online n crap like crazy together..haha so long..since i tok to em le..it was a great conversation..great feeling..everything ish jus so nice la..but my com bu zheng qi !!! dc twice..den i nv save e conversation ! agrh..haha but nbm..its in my mind..den jing blogged a storyline for uS..haha quite sweet n nice de..i read le..realli veri touched..haha..den jiu tok n tok..den now all 4 zhu tous go slp le..zZzZ..haha left mi here bloggin my life away..hee anyway jus wanna em to slp tight n nitey la..haha its been a great nite..hee..

ok..now that theres onli like a few ppl online..n onli sh replying n toking to mi..e nite ish like so quiet yet peaceful la..haha *craps*..den yah..cham i haven revise a single thing today ! cannot like this sia..i wanna watch match tml de..mus revise sumthing be4 i go tml..haha..hao la..i quite tired de le..shall add on to this bloggy if theres anything else nxt time la..haha for now..i better make a move le ;p hee tctc every1 ! nitey ! rest well..hee

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haha yoz bloggy..i m back again..sorry that i din blog ytr..wanted to blog so much de..but bio n e-maths stopped mi from doing so..haiz..but you zhen yang ne..study le = nv study..i can't do bio n e-maths..haiz..i tink i m gonna get 20 n abv for my L1R5..n mummy gonna be so disappointed..haiz..realli hope this wun happen..yet it seems like its gonna happen..imagine..wad m i gonna do wif that 3 mths..not knowing where to go..not knowing wad future sets ahead of mi..haiz..dunno la..realli scared now..but wad can i do..i had took all e papers le..all i can do now is work hard for o levels ba..

hee anyway bloggy ah..i haf so much to blog today..so much..
haha tml ish my hist (world hist) prelims..but i haven study..haha how nice rite..but haha i m gonna study right after i finish blogging..hee this ish a promise..haha promise to myself ;p..

alright jus now went to watch s'pore vs taipei at sbc..met mei at mac..was late by 45 mins..sorry sorry..haha den hmm..study 30 mins le..i jiu so wanna go watch match la..haha coz its like so near sbc le..n time ish still passing so slowly..onli for then..time was like so slow so slow la..haha den coz both of us already moodless to study le..jiu set off for sbc :D..

haha reach dere le..went washroom..den nobody there yet..onli e taipei team..den mei saw e goody bag n helped mi take mi..den hmmm s'pore team cum..den lqjl talked to us..den asked us cum so early for wad ;p..den hmm cindy coach looked and was too cool to talk to..den snrs were doing busy doin warm-ups..den e game starts ard 6:30..hmm quite a nice game ba..s'pore leading..2nd half also..den if i not wrong..2nd quad le den they slowly chase back..i mean e taipei team..agrh..so xin tong for s'pore..anyway yah..today go see em play bball den i reliased..yuan lai i so long nv play bball le..n yah..i m so fat now..gotta go joggin n play bball for a day after prelims end..or else..once bac at training i wuld nd 995..haha *laming*..den i tink..a game de most impt n crucial moment realli ish last few secs n mins ba..realli..once u lose ya focus for e last few crucial mins..it marks e end of e game..

haha ok..den i rushed home right after e s'pore game..coz i wanna watch tv..n i gotta study hist..den hmm share wif u all my stupidity ok..was rather distracted after watching e match la..haha dunno why also..maybe coz feel sad for e s'pore players ba..i mean yah..own s'pore blood players..they are so gd too..but why s'pore still use china players..haha i dunno la..not that i bias or hate em (china players)..but why can't it be a real s'pore team..haha dunno la..

o yah..my stupid-ness = i took e wrong side of e train..i was like standing outside e mrt that ish heading towards pasir ris..den i tink..ae shuld be e wrong train..so i din board..n board e opp one instead..n who knows..i on board le den fa xian dao..this train ish terminating at boon lay..wahaha nice try hor..dunno la..so blur n stupid of mi la..

den hmmm haha jus finished watching tv..n yah..i tink theres sumthing wrong wif my fone..n i dun like this kinda of gan jue..this kinda of gan jue where u dunno whether e opp party haf received ya sms le ba..coz ya fone showed that it was msg sent..yet there was no records in e folders..den u receive no reply after a long time..n u start wondering.."ae did i send e msg ma".."ae..did i?.."..haha u start to question yaself if u had sent e msg ma..den u wanna sent it again yet wun do so..coz u worry that it will be like disturbing e others..haha hate this kinda of feeling man..den u starts to tink if ppl ish purposely dun wan to reply u de..or ish realli din receive ya msg...haha super complexed n agrh de feeling..haha alright pardon mi..i was jus crapping again..haha but my fone realli not in gd condition le..so nxt time if i nv reply ya msg..pls dun be angry ok..coz i realli make it a pt to reply ppl de msg de..haha coz i dun like e gan jue of waiting for msg den in e end no reply ;p haha unless..hmm i not in gd mood la..haha jkjk

alright..i tink i shuld be ending my bloggy here today le ba..haha g2g..hee take gd care every1 :D hee..nitey too..i shall used my relaxed de mood to revise for my hist le..haha n yah..i m aching all over..my mummy say ish feng shi..i tink so too sia..so pain..yucks ! n yah..i tink i going to watch sat de match..miss e days playing bball n hafing trng sia..miss e 20 or 25 rounds..e sit ups..push ups..formation trng which takes up ya whole afternoon..and get scoldings from coach..haha miss all these man..haha..hao la..byee

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jus a short update..yesh s'pore won !!!!! haha yeah..happy for em..hee n hmm i tink indo had put up a gd fight too ba..coz e score was close..yeah no matter wad..s'pore cont to jia u ba ",) jia u ! supporting u all..

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alright...as i said..i will blog again..so i m here now..haha *lame shit*..anyway i m still like way far from finish studying my chem..haha still far..but got to slp by 1..coz tml still got eng paper..tink of e summary woho..i jiu tink mus slp le..haha

den hmmm today ish a day which i discover sumthings ba..haha got gd de..got bad de..

sumtimes..deres jus misunderstanding..sumtimes deres miscommunication..sumtimes i can't make myself clear..sumtimes certain things onli u noe..but sumtimes..u jus disappoint sum1..haha this ish life ba..i had always felt that clearing up misunderstandings ish impt..no pt tinking that abt it n be unhappy over it..so i jus wanna "reply" to certain things ?..haha take it as a "reply" ba..
-ytr after jas called mi n told mi that s'pore lost i was sad too..but do i need to express it out..i m sorry that i assume that u shuld noe le..so i jiu nv tell u..coz sheryl say even radio gotta le..so din tell u that i noe le..anyway thanks for putting in e effort to tell mi e score ;p..
-yah its my fault for not clarifying when is e trip..cindy say wad 23 n 24..den will confirm again..den jas called to say steven say 24..i m told 2 diff things..so i also dunno which 1 shuld i believe..n its now prelims..i dun wanna tink so much..so i m sorry for reacting wif such an irresponsible way..maybe when they arrange hao le..den let us noe better..den maybe we can inform ms ng den..i dunno..maybe..coz wadever is set is set..we cannot change it..yah..so jus sorry for that..(shugs i becoming so irresponsible..) but like wad music diary say..dun ask how when u face a problem..tink of how to solve it instead..

den hmm yah..thats e not so happy de events bah..den of coz today got happy de things too ba..haha shall not elaborate la..but ya..i m truly happy..coz its e 1st time ever i see a diff side of a person..yah..

n hmmm today s'pore vs indo at 8pm..haiz..now 11pm le..can any1 tell mi wads e outcome..pls pls pls pls pls..pls be s'pore win..e BAS webby had yet to update e scores..den acc to sheryl..power98 today morning at 7am gotta report abt ytr's game..so i m gonna listen to power98 tml morning if i can find my headset..pls..pls let it be a win for s'pore..i pray..pls..let mi hear a piece of gd news in e morning hao ma..pls..n haiz..those newspaper better dun anyhow write s'pore team le..*beat em* ..

hao la..i shall go shower n study e rest of e chem that i can le ba..meanwhile..wait..i shall wait for e outcome of e game..pls be a win for s'pore..pls..take care n jia u le every1 !

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haha hmmm today had my a maths n lit paper..haha i tink not too gd la..but haha i can say i realli tried n do my best for my a maths le..so haha nothing to comment on e result..but haha lit..woho..i tink gotta jia u for my core humans le ba..haha

ok..hao la..shall go rest n jia u for chem le..haha dun like sci sia..but still got to study la..den hmmm tonite s'pore team playing against indonesia team..jia u ok s'pore team !..jia u & yah..any1 who noes e result of e game le can let mi noe ma..thanks lots..

hao la..go le..tctc every1..byee..i will blog again tonite ;p

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haha alright..this ish my 2nd post of e day..wo ho..tml ish a maths n lit..den i still stuck wif my sec4 de a maths now..guess i m not going to study lit le..hee 2 hrs more be4 i slp..haha..maths wad..nd to rest well..den hmmm haha jus do my best ba ;p

alright..i jus received a call from jasmin..she say s'pore lost to taiwan..hmmm cont to jia u wow s'pore ! haha will support u all de..hee den hmmm jas says that nxt sat de finals(at m'sia de) e s'pore team de seniors not going wif us..she say they going phuket..o o o..haiz..is it true not..haha so weird sia..finals den onli a few snrs wif us..a bit weird sia..haha dunno la..hope it isn't true la hor..haha dunno la..

n yah..i made a decision..i wanna go watch s'pore team play against aust on sat at toa payoh..hee if i not wrong la..i wanna go watch..wanna go toa payoh..n recall many many things..n of coz..haha support the seniors n s'pore team la..haha hao la..end here le..gotta cont wif my a maths..2 hrs left be4 i slp le..hee nitey every1..tc too ",) n yah..gd luck for ya papers tml..hee wish mi gd luck too yeah :D

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haha alright..today had chi n ss paper..hee wads over ish over..i shall not comment much le..haha but tml ish a maths + lit ! omg tor ! haha i m still stuck wif my 2nd ex bk of a maths onli la..when i haf erm..7 of e ex bks to read thru..haha yar..i tink i m siao..ppl practice maths while i study maths..but haha wadever la..i tink its e best way for mi to revise maths le..

hee guess tonite i will onli be able to slp at 1 ba..without studying for my lit..haha i dun tink i will study for lit again le ba..not even enff time for my a maths..hee n yah..mus jia u n do my best for a maths le..hee ",)..so da jia jia u too la..haha do ya best n leave e rest to..haha erm..buddha or the god ya trust la..haha thou in e end..its still u who decide ya own destiny la ;p haha psps i crapping again..n sorry if u feel offensive..i dun mean anything abt religion wow..onli crapping..sorry sorry..

haha yeah..go le..take care every1 n jia u le wow ! 1 day , 2 papers gone le..still got 11 more for mi ;p hee

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haha 12 or 13 hrs later..i will be having my 1st prelims paper le..woho..haha wish mi gd luck yeah..haha i m scared now..finally i gotta a tinger of fear in me..i m like a bit gan jiong now la..haha coz wanted to revise finish my chi n ss by noon de..

but ish like..i spent my whole noon on my chi de ting xie..haha beg mummy to give mi ting xie de..coz its like..so long so long since i get an A1 for my chi le..veri sianz n sad la..so realli hope to get an A for this upcuming de chi prelims paper..which ish tml..haha so..hmmm wish mi all e best n gd luck ok..haha esp for all my other papers..haven realli finish studying ss..haha i mean i haven start for chem n e maths..n hist..haha woho..how great rite..but haha bo bian la..i chose this myself de..gotta face it myself too..not that scared for hist..coz still a few days later..but rather scared for chem de..haha woho..hmmm guess i jus gotta stay up late on tues to prepare for wed de chem le ba..haha n yah..gotta jia u for e-maths n bio de paper..so ish like..hmmm gonna be 2 sleepless nite..hee hao la..wadever it ish..jus gotta give mi best le..i mean do wadever i can..haha

n yah..i shall not panick..hee..i hope i wun la..coz now facing tml de ss n chi i already a bit scared le..haha o mian..bth myself now..haha hao la..i dunno wad to say also..but i can predict that its gonna be a sleepless week ahead..haha but it will be my own fault too la..haha hmmm..so every1..jia u le..n dun too stressed ok ! coz u all see har..stressed de opp rite = desserts ! haha so try to lac n cope ya stresses well as thou they are desserts ok..n yah..thanks to all friends who sms mi those nice n encouraging msg..hee thankie ! so da jia jia u le wow !..hee i will try to update my blog whenever i can during nxt wk la..haha i mean i guess i will still update everyday ba..muhahaha..",)..jkjk..hao la..tc every1 ! jia u le ^_<

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haha alright..1 more day to more prelims le..hee hmmm how to say ne..preparations not realli done ba..but i also not realli stressed ba ;p..haha coz now i tink i focus more on O levels ba..hee..jus like e pro say..dun panick..jus do wad i can..haha

haha alright..today ish a so so day..watched tv..haf tuition n study chi here n dere..hee woohoo..hmmm today den i discover that yuan lai last yr de sep hols..we were at e seba thingy..haha coz e women's open cuming le..so i tu rang xiang dao..woo..seba..haha memorable one..n haha..so fast 1 yr le..hee..so fast 1 yr le..1 yr nv see phi team le..1 yr nv see nantana idol san le..

haha ok..i crapping again..this cuming women's open gonna be at sbc every evening..but haha haiz..i cannot go watch la..cannot..coz haha bei "scold" by bp..not realli scold la..but e tone veri serious..so i promised not to go watch e matches le..even during weekends !..haiz i wanna watch de..but hmmm i shall ren..cannot anger bp..haha..so haha..hmmm i shall ren ! shall not go watch..hee

haha ok..den hmmm cindy coach jus called mi today to ask if we can make it for e m'sia trip on 23 n 24th mar..wahaha so qi dai..i realli looking forward to this trip..after i went for e last one..haha..realli qi dai sia..haha..hee hoo..haha looking forward wow..haha so hmmm..shall go study chi while i watch e replay of e jue dui superstar de finals le ;p haha..till 2:30 am den go zzz le ;p wahaha..ooo wad m i crapping man..i also dunno..

hee hao la..take gd care every1 ! ",)..hee see ya..n jia u le ! haha..

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wake up in e morning
feeling tired
not knowing wad i shuld revise today
on my com n tries revising ss
revised one chap
felt moodless
browse thru blogs after blogs
received replies from friends
stares at em
used my tired fingers to press on e gonna spolit de keypad
felt so sianz
having tuition later
cont staring aimlessly
den my phone vibrated once again
open e msg like a normal one
tot it was jus another msg to reply to
but it wasn't..
felt much awake now..
felt happy in fact..

now i truly understand wads better late than never..
yuan lai..jiu shi zhe yang de gan jue..
after waiting so long..
when u least expect sumthing..
it jus appeared..
n u can feel e joy over whelming u..
realli happy..

haha..hao le..shall go study ss le..hee take gd care every1 ! jia u too ",) hee..will blog later at nite again :D haha..

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haha i m listening to music diary now..+ blogging of coz..hee..today is a simple yet special day..haha see e pic le ma..can guess wads it ma..haha man man (slowly) guess ba..i will reveal e ans as i cont my bloggin..

haha alright..today wakey rather early de..coz i wanna do my amaths..but i do this jiu stuck do that also stuck..haha but jus kept on doing la..from 8 plus 9 do till 2 like this..slacked a bit here n dere..now n den..den haf lunch..wo ho..after lunch i was so sleepy la..i was like..o no i wanna slp le...but cannot la..i gotta reach kovan by 4..so jiu rest ard 10 mins den jiu go out le..

nd to cross e overhead bridge to take e bus..den be4 i cross..e bus jus zoomed pass la..den i jiu slowly walk cross e overhead bridge la..den heard a bike zoom pass mi..i climbed up e bridge le..jiu looked at e backview of e rider la..haha dunno why..i got a gan jue its sum1 i noe..at least it resembles sum1..haha..37..

haha so took bus le..den i tot i m gonna be late le..so jiu sms yaqi to tell her that i may be late n ask her help mi tell lqjl la..den she jiu ask mi dun hurry..coz she also jus finish her dental appointment..den lqjl will be reaching ard 4:30 too..so i reached ard 3:52..den jiu went toilet..den v slowly de walk to mac..coz i realli veri tired sia..i was like dragging myself dere..

so reach mac le..i jiu see e nearest seat le jiu slump into it..n get my maths out to do again..den a while later lqjl jiu cum le..she blur blur de looked ard la..den after i called her she jiu cum la..(alright this ish fei hua ;p)..den she see mi le jiu ask mi dun like so nervous..coz she see mi so nervous le..also will nervous ;p haha actualli i was more of tired n blur rather than nervous la..thou got to admit..a bit nervous la..haha..

den she taught mi e log qn..that butts asked mi that day..den yuan lai..she get diff ans ish becoz..i in e sms de time give e qn ish wrong de..wahaha *paiseh*..den hmmm jiu teach mi le..den ask mi do la..den yaqi lai le..so she teaches yaqi chem..den teach mi maths..n do those that i put ? la...den jiu quite ok la..den i talked to yaqi wif my normal volume..den yaqi cannot hear mi..den lqjl was like asking yaqi is it becoz she ish dere so i speak so softly..haha *faints* jkjk..i dunno why..but i realli focused on doing despite e noise lvl..dunno why also..haha miracle ba ;p..haha or maybe becoz ya idol beside u den cannot slack ba ;p haha dunno..i laming again..

den haha jiu from 4 plus till 7 like this..den lqjl needs to rush of for trng le..i tink cindy coach cum n fetch her or sumthing la..haha den she almost forget her shoe bag..realli veri blur de pro sia..haha but maybe coz sick la..coz i tink she sick le ba..haha dunno..hope jiao lian will get well soon ba..coz nxt wk jiu women's open le..den like she sick le..den heard from sh..hui also sick..so hope all of em get well soon la :D haha..

ok..so after she lqjl left for trng..mi n yaqi also go home la..den woho..i m tired..yeah tired..dunno why also..haha mus be maths exhaust my mind le ba ;p haha..den took bus n came home..haha..

quite nice de tuition de ba today..haha i tink gonna find jiao lian for intensive help for my maths n chem after this prelims le ba..haha why din i asked for help earlier ne..hee i tink realli useful la..but haha..its better late den nv rite..at least i can ask for help after prelims ah..jus like she said..dun be too stress for this upcoming prelims ;p haha

den hmmm yeah wanna thank her for her help today la..realli grateful..hee..den haha haf u all guessed wads my pic ne?..its a pic that i took from e bench that i sat while waiting for my bus today..haha cool hor..it seems like rainbow to mi..yeah i touched a rainbow today !..wahaha cool..i saw e reflection le..jiu keep on find e source which caused e reflection of rainbow on my bus de bench..but i jus couldn't find it..hee..e unseen rainbow..haha

realli veri happy to see e "rainbow"..took a pic of it..felt that it was a gd sign..haha dunno why..but its like fate that i get to see this "rainbow" de ba..den my mummy say..its yu guo tian qing..= sunshine after e rain..haha maybe ba..i dun believe in miracles le..but maybe this "rainbow" ish gonna rekindle my believe for miracles ba..haha i dunno..hee

hao la..i shall end here le..gonna watch Get Unstuck in time de last esp le ! hee..take gd care every1..today has been a simple yet special..tired yet relaxing day..in summary..a nice day..haha so every1..rmb dun too stress le..jus do wad u can ba :D hee

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hey yoz bloggy...here i m again..haha its now midnight le..but i dun tink i m gonna slp much tonite ba..i need to do my maths ! yes seriously i nd to do my a maths..i m now trying e chij paper1..n i spent 2 hrs le..attempt 6 qn..but onli managed to get 2 correct..haha cham hor mi...but i cannot giv up..yesh..cannot..i gotta press on..try my best..try my best to understand e topic..try to do as many paper as i can ish my aim for tonite..but i tink i can onli finish 1 paper e most ba..haha but who cares..i nd to do it..i dun wanna qi si e pro tml..i nd to do my best..yes i nd to..n i will..so jus online to relax a while be4 i move on to my tiring yet must do de a maths..haha..

hao la..i tink i shall end here le..every1 jia u n press on ok ! i noe we running out of time le..its our own fault for starting late for our revisions..so we gotta press on n do wad we can to make ammendments ok ;p dun stress..jus do wadever u can..hee every1 ish tired..jus move on..n take a rest if u nd 1..jia u le.. ",)

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haha jus came back from airport..went dere to study wif sh n moi la..din realli study quite lots..but after i cum home..i feel veri fortunate..yeah..i feel xing fu ( fortunate)..i was jus telling sh n moi how messy my rm ish..n now back home..woohoo..my mummy had packed everything for mi..spick n span..everything so organised..i realli nd that kinda of environment to study man..i was still thinking n telling myself that i nd to pack my rm tonite to pia my maths tonite..coz neat neat de environment easier to study ba..so that tml i can ask jiao lian all e maths qn that i dunno..n clarify everything..so that i wun panic for my prelims ( thou i noe i still will la..)..but realli feel veri xing fu that i haf a gd gd family..my mummy who always take care of my life so well..n teach mi e morales..haha realli thankful..

den jus now i reached home le..i jiu rushed into my rm to listen to my music diary..den my mummy jus helped mi prepare my dinner n gave it to mi..realli touched n thankful..coz haha yah..i can eat later de..but she scared i hungry la..so..haha realli thankful n realli fortunate to be in my family..realli..thou there are times when we quarrel..thou we are not veri rich..but still glad n fortunate to haf this home..this family..Father(daddy) And Mother (mummy) I Love You = FAMILY..haha yeah..thank you buddha..thanks for blessing mi wif such a nice family..

den apart from a gd family..i feel that i veri fortunate coz i gotta gd gd frends..hee i think i dun nd to say who they are la..but yah..i m thankful..thankful that they are there for mi..to listen to mi crap..to stand by mi..

haha den apart from my friends..still got e ppl ard mi la..eg..coaches..teachers..haha realli fortunate..shall not elaborate le..sumthings ish thankful in heart de ba..haha..

den hmmm jus now at airport de time..we were discussing abt e diff btw e 1st n 2nd child..haha actually wanna so much to disscuss abt e diff characteristic btw e 1st n 2nd child de..haha but dunno why de..i jus now cum home le jiu feel so tired..haha..dunno why la..but hee i feel xing fu now..realli..

thank you buddha..thank you for my life :D..hee..den hmmm hao la..look forward to tml le..hee shall update my bloggy tml..haha sorry wow ppl..i like sound veri sianz n dull in today de bloggy..haha coz i realli a bit tired now la..but no worries ! onli physically tired..mentally i m still alive :D hee..hao la..take care n press on wow every1 ! hee jia u !!!!!

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today went to fungi de hse study..haha hmmm paiseh wow fungi..i keep on chao u..ask u help mi this n that..haha realli sorry n thankie for not getting pissed wif mi..haha realli..jian qiang wow ! haha jkjk laming..

actually today i haf a mixtures of mood de..haha is like..i haven done much apart from revising my lit..den is like every1 is so tensed up wif e 5 days to prelims thing..i feel so agrh man..why ain't i feeling e urgency..do i wanna court death or sumthing..i noe i noe nothing abt any sub..yet i m still so relaxed here..blogging online..n watching 2 full hrs of tv jus now..dunno wads wrong wif mi too..

haha maybe wad i writting below will help mi express myself better ba..

~thank YoU~
i dun wanna see e disappointed faces..
esp yours..
dun wanna u to be disappointed by mi..
i wan u to be proud of mi..
i wanna u to be proud of mi..
yes you..
coz i m touched..
i m touched by wad u haf done..
thou it may be nothing to ya..
u may not see e tears in my eyes now..
but i wanna say thanks..
these tears are due to ya actions..
actions that moved mi..
thank you..
thank you..

haha hmmm a so call poem or lame shit..haha i dunno..but yeah..haha thats wad i m feeling now..haha hao la..i shall go study bio le..hee chem n maths i can onli try my best le la ;p haha..take care my frends ! n jia u le..dun be too stressed out too..jia u..

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haha y0z !!! hee now isn't even 9am in e morning n i m here bloggin away..wahaha siao hor mi..coz actually today ish wanna 8am jiu go fungi hse study de la..coz past 2 days studying at home wasn't a veri gd idea ;p..but as expected..i overslept..den now waiting for mummy to be back wif my breakfast be4 i go fungi de hse la..wahaha

hmmm hao de..today de morning bloggy will be quite long too de wow..haha coz i nd to intro Xiao Yong + haha sum "reply" ?..hehe..dunno la..

lets start of wif a "reply" 1st..
ah ha sh this ish for u ah..hee thankie lots la..i also gotta watch e Hong Yi Shou Ji..GuGu ish so cute la..i din miss out on that line --> "what is all this we going thru as compared to those who haf to be faced wif life n death?"..haha i mean..yeah..e friendship of so near yet so far ish like peanuts as compared to those facing life n death la..haha..but i m jus glad..i mean..we grow up le..haha i dunno la..i jus wanna em to move on..hee like e madagascar song..i wanna move it move it..i wanna move it move it..i wanna move it ! hee i wanna every1 of us to move it..i dun wanna every1 to haf a kinda of worry that e nxt moment or maybe e nxt sec our friendship will be back like be4 those kinda coz i noe its hard la ;p..jus wanna fang shou..fang kai..hee if got fate..sure will cum back together de..why make ourselves so tired by being so stubborn de holding on so tightly to e kite ne..hee let em fly la hor :D haha..dun wanna make em worry n pester em abt being together as 5 le..coz its not being together means together..its e heart that matters..maybe like u say..few yrs down e road..we will miss each other n giv a call to haf a lunch together..den be back again ne ?..wahaha who noes..so now i kan kai le..n wanna em to kan kai also..hee

den hmm regarding e feb n oct de diff..wahaha i tink hmmm quite true la hor..haha u ish others de guardian angel..i m e bei guardian angel protect de those kinda..hee maybe coz i oct ba..being together wif em de time i jiu feel like a xiao hai zi..coz *ahem* 2nd youngest wad..bo bian de jiu will feel protected la..haha not that i nv protect em..but its in a diff kinda of way la..hee every diff friends giv u a diff kinda of feeling..every diff friend protect ya in a diff way..like wad i always say..every diff friend is ya diff de Xin Ling Ji Tuo..u confide in diff things to diff friends :D..haha actually i like to protect ppl too de..hee jus that in e process of protecting em..u find that they are protecting u too..haha veri nice de gan jue..hee dunno how to say la hor..maybe onli i understand wad i saying..haha

alright now ish finally time to intro my Xiao Yong !!!!! wahahaha Xiao Yong ish my Hu Shen Fu no.2..hee Hu Shen Fu no1 ish on my hand la..den i also dunno wad name to giv it..but Hu Shen Fu no.1 realli blessed mi thru lots of things..haha realli..too much to be mentioned..den that day when i was given Hu Shen Fe no.2 = xiao yong..wahaha i feel even more blessed la..hee alright laming..shall zheng shi de start intro-ing Xiao Yong le..
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its a tortise keychain,given by 15 aka 13
its given on 4/9/05 at ard 3pm *claps* hee touched tor ;p
named it Xiao Yong becoz..
Xiao ish sh give de..she tinks Hu Shen Fu shuld haf a cute name..haha
Yong ish i give de..veri meaningful de ok..listen up ah..
Yong = Yong Qi de Yong (Courage)
Yong = Yong Gan de Yong ( Brave)
Yong = Yong Yuan de Yong ( Forever)
Yong = Yong Shen / Zhan de Yong ( forever FIGHTING hard to WIN)

i wanna xiao yong to protect mi n remind mi to have Yong Qi ( courage) to Yong Gan (brave) de face everythingy..esp bball matches..i wanna Xiao Yong to Yong Yuan (forever) acc zhe mi n remind mi to be brave n fight courageously to win every game..i mean not win as in win..but not giving up that kinda of win..hee so i named it Xiao Yong..*claps* haha n of coz got special reason for naming it Xiao Yong de..haha..

wahaha i noe sum may find mi lame la hor..haha but thats my Hu Shen Fu no2 de name..hee xiao yong..cute n meaningful ma..haha..hao la..mus thank sh for e xiao de part la hor..hee xie le ! haha

haha i tink its abt time to end le la hor..or else i will jus go on n on n on..haha nbm..tonite i will blog again de..hee if i wanna share anything la ;p muhahah byee n take care wow ! hee off to fungi hse le wow ! byee

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haha BOO ! i m here at my bloggy again.."wasting" my time that i shuld spend on my studies instead..but haha..wad can i do..i can't help n hold back my thoughts n secrets de la..haha..thou i realli wanted to do so..hee

hao de..today ish a 50% happiness + 50% sorrow de day..50% de happiness from e day it was given..not deplete..but 50% of heart-break..coz today went to read forever5 de bloggy..i can't help but agrees wif wad fungi had written..e poem..e blog..realli veri meaningful n true n touching..

throughout these 4 yrs..i haf been struggling to try to keep forever5 in e same position in my heart as it was during my pri sch life..those 2 yrs wif their companion had been wonderful..every single day i felt love..i felt happiness..life was jus so carefree..no worries..i mean realli no worries..we quarrelled..we fight..but its onli a matter of a few hrs or e most a few days to get us back together..therefore..there was nothing i was afraid of..i noe they are always here for mi..to protect mi..i became selfish..i became contented..i hid in their protection..rejecting all e other friendship n love from other friends..i had no regrets..not even now..

but as 4 yrs pass..we grew..our distance grew too..we head towards our own directions..our own goals..its been hard on all of us..esp jing..sum chose to let go of it slowly..sum waited patiently yet get nothing in return..
we promised to be dere for one another..but its onli all actions no word..
like wad fungi had said..its not easy..its not true..

~imagine u waiting at e curb all alone for ya buddies to cum along to join u on e journey..
watching all ya other friends walking pass u..heading on their journey..
u waved gd-bye to all these friends and told em to go ahead..
coz ya r waiting for ya best buddies to cum along to hold ya hand n walk wif u to e end of e journey..
sumtimes ya friends ard u..can't help but stop n asked u if u wanna cont on e journey wif
em instead of ya best buddies..
but for e fear that ya buddies wuld appear anytime..maybe e nxt moment..
u hesitated..u told em to go ahead while u cont waiting..waiting for these best buddies to cum along..
but e more u wait..e more disappointed u get..
u r tired of waiting..
u decided to go ahead..u wanna so much to go ahead wif ya friends..
but on e other hand..
u were afraid that ya buddies may be worried n miss u out..when they couldn't see u at the curb..
u sank into a dilema..
not wanting to wait anymore..yet dun wanna ya buddies to be worried n miss u out on e journey..
So..
u came to a decision..
u decided to leave a note behind for em..
telling em that u had went ahead without em..
on ya journey wif ya friends..
u turned back n look for em yet u din see em..
however u did not discover that ya buddies are trying their best to catch up wif u from behind..
u started to feel helpless..u started to feel tired n even more disappointed..
u decided to leave em..
but nv did u noe that..
they are realli trying their best to catch up wif u..
but ya are walking way too fast..
too fast..
ya steps are so big..
e distance is so far..
they culd no longer catch up wif u..
u culdn't see how they struggle to catch up wif u..~

ya buddies are tired out..so is u..all of us are tired out..tired of waiting..tired of chasing..all of us had wanted so much to keep this friendship going on..but in e end we failed..its not any1 of our fault..we did fight to keep this going on..we did..at least we tried din we ?..but maybe its jus too hard..too hard to wait n not seeing em catching up wif ya..tired of chasing yet not seeing u on e journey..

being tired..we started to question each other..how much this friendship valued..did u realli tried ya best to keep this friendship going on..endless qn popped up in my mind everyday..esp as time passes day after day..i told myself..i will nv haf e courage to let u go..coz a friendship is onli lost when u haf e courage to let go..so how do u expect mi to haf e courage to let go of u all..u all who noes how exactly i feel..time n again..i teared as i tink of it..

but now..i tink i shuld let u all go..let u all move on yaself..n jus be dere behind u without ya notice..haha..its not courage..its jus becoz..i wanna u all to realli be happy n forget this friendship thou i wun realli wanna u all to..all i wan ish u all to move on in e journey of life without hafing to slow down n stop n wait for one another..

move on my friends..dun wait for each another le..dun hesitate...jus move on..if fate allows us..we will meet at e end..at e end of e road..we will meet once again..e memories that u all had given mi ish more than enff to last n keep mi moving on..so jus move on ba..move on without one another ba..coz i had always believed in 50% fate & 50% hard work..we had fight so hard to keep our friendship going le..so jus leave another 50% to fate ba..let fate decide if we r meant to be friends for life ba..if we r..we will meet once again..if not..hafing this friendship is already my blessing le..

believe in mi..trust mi..i m not letting go of u all now..i m jus losening e string of e kites..letting e kites fly higher..n i believe..1 day..e string of e kite will haf an end..if e string is strong enff..e kite will fly bac to mi..but if e string ish weak..it will jus break..n u all will jus fly away..leaving mi wif e broken string to keep as a memo for life..

thanks for all e memories that u all had given me
thanks for all e love n concern that u all had given me
thanks for telling me what true friendship is wif e sacrifices that u all had made for mi
thanks for all e surprises that u all haf for mi during my bday
thanks for being dere for mi always..

e thank list will jus go on n on..jus like u all..and now i m letting u all fly to where u wanna..rmb..dun stop n wait for one another le..jus go on my friend..go on..i will nv forget wad u all say.."forever5 is onli forever5 when wen , jing , moi , fe and fungi..5 of us is together..without 1..we jiu bu shi forever5 le.." so now forever5 will be kept in sumwhere deep..till e day 5 of us cum back together..i will wait..

haha hao la..take care le zhu tous n every1..hee jia u in ya life journey too..ppl said "absence make e heart fonder"..fungi dun agrees..n now i dun too..i can onli say..absence make e heart exhausted..

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haha today ish e 1st day of sep hols..n a day nearer to prelims...wif mi still struggling wif almost everything..so decided to study chi today..but din make much progess la..but at least glad that i did sum..hee

its been long since i haf a dream and an aim which i wanna reach n fulfil it le..now that i gotta one..i feel so great..i mean yah..realli great..e energy to fufil this..e thought of getting it..e motivation to go for it..haha everything jus seems so great..i noe i may not get it..but i m willing to strive for it..i m realli ready to do it..to acheive it for myself..to acheive it for those that i promised..i wanna make em proud of mi..i promise..

den hmmm haha today ish a happy day la..coz my happy mood did not deplete from ytr..wahaha..den watched 2 shows in particular today = Yong Wang Zhi Qian & Ge Shi Zui Xiong..
hee anyway Yong Wang Zhi Qiang aka on the track or off..hee today e show got one veri meaningful line..it says : " e most pitful thing in life is not..not knowing wad u wanna do..but ish knowing wad u wanna do n fulfil yet u can't.."..this line is esp meaningful to mi today..hee so jus wanna share...
den e Ge Shi Zui Xiong aka get unstuck in time..
omg..e dahe sir de part so gan dong..e part when he asked his son to help him create a bad image of himself..to allow his wife to hate him n thus completely forget him to pursue a new relationship..can cry like siao la ;p hee at least i did la..den i din wanna dirty my bolster ;p hee so jus use my hand and anyhow wipe..no wonder i gotta so many pimples now la ;p haha alright jus laming..

hee den hmmm i din noe hafing secrets kept to yaself yuan lai can be quite ok n nice de..haha thats how i feeling la..thou not that i m hafing a secret now..but sumtimes i jus tink i that i tai rong yi show how i feeling n wad i haf le..maybe sumtimes its gd to jus keep sum things to yaself ba..hee i will try to do that nxt time..or shuld i say..gradually..i will try..haha

hao la..shall end my bloggy here le..gotta go do wadever i haf to do le..hee take gd care wow every1..haha

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