][.unexpected christmas eve.][

][.unexpected chirstmas eve.][

chirstmas ?..
haha i nv realli celebrate christmas be4..
but this yr's christmas is kinda of fun..
hmm maybe fun isn't e right word to use ba..
its kinda of unexpected n glad..
that when i tink of it..
i will jus smile..
but not those kinda of big big grin de smile la..
haha wad e craps m i toking man..
anyway i jus wanna blog down my chirstmas this yr..for 2005..

haha jus came back from wen de hse..i m veri tired now..n i realli mean it..but i know i mus blog..or else tml i wake up le..sure lazy to blog le =p..hee hao de..lets start wif ytr ba..

=alj christmas party=
haha hmm i tink it was ok..quite fun la..but it isn't vvv fun..cz i was kinda of dead-beat..n i was jus "hiding" here n dere..din realli join in e total fun la..so it started wif mi wrapping all e gifts at e last min..n den went to meet sh..haha i was vvv late..psps..den went to wen de hse..put our bags n rode her bike to e bbq pit 70..haha its not v far la..but due to my speed..hmm n on e way there e sea is quite nice..den we reached le..not lots of ppl dere la..so jus went to see was we can do..but actually theres nothing much we can do also..quite lots of ppl crowding round e bbq pt le..den cindy coach n lqjl went off to i also dunno where..den hui n emily (big) tried to help wif e fire thingy..den e fire got kinda of "big" n huihui jus threw a few ice cubes..haha..den wad else..orh..e fire ok le..they start cooking while i jus sat dere..tok to big cheryl..den a while wif nut..den yaqi..den mei..hmm in fact i was feeling rather uneasy ytr..mus be cz moi not ard la..den dun realli noe e xiao de..den wif nut they all also like fan fan zi jiao..understand ma ?..haha means can be gd team-mates on court..but dun realli noe each other in real life ;p..den sit ard wif em a while le jiu went to take food wif nut,big cheryl n yaqi..den we eat..eat le..jiu rain ?..haha if i nt wrong la..den mi n shao ji went to bbq e mashmallow using e buffet de fire..den cindy was like..ahs n dhs de..clever idea =p..haha but it was kinda of not successful la..cz e fire is not that strong n e mashmallow is not e right type..den shao ji had to help huihui keep e left over de mashmallow..haha den cindy ask every1 to gather to tink of ways to punish those not in e right attire..but i jus sat dere n cont to make e mashmallow wif big cheryl..coz shao ji was one of em who din wore e attire..haha..den no1 discovered us..so we got no grp also..but i told cheryl to join also la..so we jus did xingxin wif em..den went of to chase emily..cz mei was chasing her..so jus help la..den lqjl..n coach all came n help also..but its kinda of hard..emily(small) was like..my shoes..my socks..ahh i dunno how to swim..ahh..i cum dat one..blah blah blah..haha..den she tok tok tok..den later we saw a bunch of ppl running..n we saw that they planning to catch cindy coach..haha so every1 left le..onli left lqjl dere n emily n me la..den lqjl was like..ae every1 go le..emily how ?..den haha in e end as expected..emily "escaped"..she went to chase cindy coach also la..haha den lqjl jiu say "she (emily) ah.."..den i told her(lqjl) to be careful also..coz i tink she surely will bei throw de la..den she was laughing wif e blur look n say wun de la..

haha so after that went to wash my feets wif big cheryl..den we wash le jiu quick quick go..cz they were playing wif e showers la..den i cannot get wet ytr ;p..hmm den after that i went bac to bbq e mashmallow..den cindy coach asked why m i so dry..den i was like erm..i cannot be wet today..coz i dunno how to swim..den hmm woman's prob..den she was like prove to mi la..i diaoz..den emily (mah) was also diaoz la..cz she jus beside us..den after that went to "fetch" buddy wif mei..den went bac..after that dunno who jiu tell mi shi hui looking for mi..den she told mi lqjl bei throw into e water..veri ke lian..haha as expected..den after that i decided to treat my mortal well..so yayun say she will help mi..n i shall help her..so she help mi give yu hao..n i help her give cindy coach..but keep on cannot find cindy coach la..den they say she ran far far away le..cz she was afraid to be thrown in again..

so finally she is bac..den i jus passed it to her ;p den after that i decided to help moi treat her mortal well too..so i gave honeydew sago to fion n lqjl..but fion din noe that i gave it to her la..den i gave it to lqjl..haha she gave mi e blur + dun tell mi u r my angel look ;p haha den i also gave van..den she was like..omg so many ppl treat mi well..dun confuse mi leh..haha van realli funny la ;p shou bu liao ;p..

den after that we start to guess le..hmm we line up in 2 rows den start to guess..those guess wrong de mus be drawn by charcoal la..so haha bingo..i guessed both my angels correct ! they were jia hui n nut..haha cz jia hui keep on ask mi u wan to eat this..u wan to eat that not..den nut ne..its kinda of instinct la..haha den after that those who guessed cindy coach bei draw until veri cham la ;p haha den yu hao keep on nv guess dao that i m her angel la..haha ;p den hmm lqjl guessed that i m her angel..so i m to draw..but i drew a bit onli la..cz i tink its pain..den she was like..like this onli ah..den those that guessed mi..i all draw a bit la..den hui also guessed mi..but i could not find a charcoal..so din drew her la..den after that when she was drawing sum1..she looked at mi n say..u nv draw mi leh..den she yue say yue soft..haha den after that yu hao still din guess dao is mi la..den haha sh ish lucky tor..she gotta a nice angel ;p jkjk..at least she gotta e angel that i wished for..haha but nbm nbm la..fate..i haf nice angels too ;p den lqjl also nv guess dao..cz moi was nt there ma..den i keep on raise my hand..den onli left a few of us onli..but she still refused to guess mi..so in e end..she was like huh?..so i jiu hint her lo..den she say mei mei ah..den i helped moi give her e present la..den i also helped moi give fion e present..haha den if moi was dere..fion wuld be her angel too..so qiao sia..den hmm did i say ah..when we 1st started guessing..all e xiao de noes their angel..then hui hui n dasiy was like..nt fun de..dun play le la..haha..den e game jiu end le la..but my ke ai n ke lian de mortal still din guess dao is mi..so i jus told her..i m ya angel la..n gave her e gift i prepared for katie..ooo..if its yu hao i wuld get her sumthing else la..haha nbm..den i passed yun de present to cindy coach..

den allow mi to reverse..go bac to be4 our guessing of angel n mortal..i was hit on e head..top of e head..in e middle summore by a charcoal la..e pt beside us threw over de la..wa strike 4D also not so zun la..kinda of pain..i was on e verge of tears le la..den those beside mi was like u ok ?..den cindy also came n asked be4 she walked over..den i forced out a smile n say ok..thou i realli feel like crying la..not realli cz its v pain..but becoz its kinda of agrh..damm it..sickening idiots who threw it man..i was realli "angry"..den when cindy coach walked over i was like o no..den lqjl also go..den mah (emily) also go..den most of e seniors went la..den i was praying in my heart..dun dun fight..dun quarrel..coz those ppl who threw it are like ah bengs la..i dun wan any1 injured la..so jus walked away..but ah..damm those sickening ppl..dun they haf better things to do..den i heard from sh..that they threw an uncooked chicken wing over be4 also..haiz..these ppl realli is wu liao man..

haha ok..hmm den wad else..haha forward again ah..haha so after e angel n mortal guessing thing..i was standing by e pit n shelter..den lqjl was suddenly by my side..den she gave mi a little bear bear plastic bag..haha den she say give u de..haha..that split moment it jus reminds mi of xiao yong..i mean it was e same kinda of expression when she gave mi xiao yong..hee wif 2 hands..den haha..e same kind of expression jiu dui le..haha den i say thanks thanks..den she walked away la..den i jus kept it in my pouch..while i kept all e presents in e plastic bag ;p haha jkjk..den every1 was giving out present..jas gave a socks wif loads of sweets..den buddy gave a nice nice de hand-made thingy..hee..den after that i jiu took out my lollipop n gave it to those u16 de who are ard..den gave big cheryl n van too..den van was like..wahaha i nd this for my nite..haha i wanted to give her all 5 that i left wif de la..cz she helped mi n i wanted to buy her a present de..but no time..n money la..but cz no other flavours..so she onli took 2 ;p hee..after that i went bac n took e present that i prepared for lqjl..n gave it to her..den haha alright..i also forget le..shuld be she said thank you ?..haha nbm nbm..forget le..den after that cindy coach say wan take photo..so every1 was like getting ready..den while they were getting ready..van jiu shout papa mama sit..referring to coach n his wife la..den lqjl looked at e msg i wrote for her la ;p hee..kinda of ps..den we took pic le..agnes helped us de..but she nv say 1 2 3..den cindy coach was like can say 1 2 3 ma..den hui hui was like she nv tok de..haha if i not wrong la..den i tink its kind of funny..den after that sh asked lqjl to open e present..saying that its zhen chang ping..but phew lucky lqjl say she go bac den open..or else i will paiseh de..haha..so after e photo session..every1 was like leaving le..so we sat ard a while den left for wen de hse also la..

den while i try to get myself onto that little bike..those seniors were laughing la..or rather cindy coach n lqjl ba..cz haha..i tink its funny too..or rather stupid..but nbm ;p so after that we cycled bac wen's hse..sh went to bathe while i unwrapped my presents..den after that i bathe le..went to watch movie..inital D..n i jus fell asleep la..den moi called..den after that bac to e show n bac to slp..n i caught a cold..den finally slept till today morning la..

=christmas eve=
den woke up..eat this n that..watched tv wif wen..toked abt s'pore maybe facing tsunami in a few yr's time..*choi*..den haf e lan diao de carrot cake den rushed home in a cab..den after that unpacked my stuffs..showed mummy my christmas prezzie that i got ytr..den rushed bac to wen de hse..haha i was slping like a log on e bus..o mian i realli tired..den after that received a call from fungi..e voice from e other end of e line is chirpy n nice..its like i can sense a smile on e speaker's face while she is toking to mi..haha suddenly remind mi of a e-mail that i once received..hee..anyway i reached wen hse le..den fungi n jing was playing wif e jigsaw..while i jus sat there..kinda of weird..haha but it was not awakard la..den wen de mummy keep ask if we wan to eat this n that ma..den we had curry..but e rice was not cooked yet..so we decided to play board game !!! haha we decided on monopoly..haha n its a right choice !..haha so after we eat..we went to play monopoly..haha den e 1st few rounds de time..jing was moving at a super slow speed la..den after that..i keep on wanna buy this n that la..so i was e poorest one there..den wen came bac (she went to buy our prezzie ;p)..den she was like diao ! u all no life leh..play monopoly..but haha who cares..we were hafing fun..den after wen bathe we went to ecp to cycle..den we cycled to bedok jetty..haha due to my speed..they veri funny..i mean they keep on turn back to find where m i ;p haha den hmm it was my 1st time at bedok jetty after being at ecp so many times..haha jkjk..den we watch e sunset dere..den tried to take pics wif my hp..haha kinda of hmm fun..i loved taking pic esp wif forever5..n i tink its becoz of em that i love taking pic..cz everytime we take a pic..its like capturing a moment down for our memory lane..den whenever i looked at those pics..i jus feel veri happy n glad..haha..den after that we jiu went to cycle round..den i managed to go down e slope wif their encouragement..haha e slope that i came of e bike n pushed it down ytr ;p..den after that jing n fungi were infront..so i rode wif wen n tok a bit la..toked abt us last time..den roller bladding..den each one's fear..n i m realli glad i haf em wif mi..hee den wen tell mi every1 haf their own fears..haha den tok abt when we were young..so innocent n stuffs..den went to return e bike..

after we returned e bike..we wanted to walk e pain pain de stones to help circulate our blood..den we walked past a super muddy field ! yucks tor ! den there was a black cat la..so i jumped onto e bench..den jing n wen also joined mi..that stupid cat ! haha jkjk..so in e end..we din walk e stone la..den went bac to wen hse..every1 took a shower n we started eating steam boat from ard 9 to 11 plus..o mian..we r such big eaters sia..but i tink i not e best tonite ;p jkjk..den jing keep on help mi take food..felt so xing fu la..cz always e other way round de..but tonite ish jing help mi this n that..haha den after that jing n mi became prawn peeling machine ;p we peeled e prawn den e oldest n youngest de eat la..haah so many prawn la..but i enjoyed it la ;p den after that we finally eat finish le..den jing left wif her auntie 1st..while we help to clear up..den after that we played monopoly again !..haha wen took over jing..den wen stepped on fungi de hse n knight..den e whole knight became squashed ;p haha super gao xiao la..den we played till fungi bankrupt ;p haha den jing is e big winner la..she is so rich..haha mus be wen la..stepped on fungi de knight..den take over jing n be e big winner ;p..haha jkjk..lucky i wasn't poor la ;p
so we changed n play dai dee while we count down..haha den played till 0030 den came home wif fungi in a cab wif fungi de dad..hee

hao la..that ends my day..haha..n here i m bac home ! hee n yah..i mus thank ye siew ! hee a siao..thanks for e braclet n e letter ;p hee..den as i say its realli a unexpected christmas..daddy bought mi a ball n drew a smiley on it..haha kinda of cute..n he bought mi a snoopy too ;p haha that piggy daddy ah..haha n today i received unexpectly quite a lot of sms..which usually i dun..or rather chirstmas in e pass wasn't filled wif em..haha den i received unexpected msgs also la..haha hmm as for my christmas prezzie..i realli loved em man..haha thanks for e prezzie..thank you daddy..cindy coach..lqjl..jing..fungi..nut..jia hui..si hui..jas..ye siew..haha n thank u thank u !

hao de..end here le..its realli an unexpected christmas eve..i enjoyed it..n i m realli tired le..so shall end here le ! take gd care every1 !..byee..n merry christmas ! may santa papa grant all ya wishes =D

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.glad.][

][.tired mind wanna go on.][

][.tired mind wanna go on.][

today my mind is exhausted..
theres lots of things running thru my mind today..

was late for trng today..
shugs..all that 36's fault..
stuck at e airport for sooo long..

anyway trng was kinda of fun ;p..
den went to bathe n eat n went sbc..
got all e gears n stuffs..

den rushed home to put e stuffs..
den rushed out for dinner wif combine sch..
o mian..we ate lots at fish n co la ;p
haha full full..

hao la..kinda of tired..
end here le..
byee..
take care every1 !

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.santa papa.wuld u jus grant mi sum wishes.][
][.13.is this fate?.][

][.love em so.

][.love em so.][

today is a nt bad day..
compared to ytr..

thanks to a siao de words..
"dun test the presences of things by losing it"..
after those words..
i feel that i realli shuld not jus leave things as it is..
i mus do sumthing..

went to sch in e morning for meeting..
came home..
saw wad a siao left at my taggy..
had a sudden urge to call em..

n that spark my better day..
went to collect my 1st pathetic yet hardwork pay..which is $11.65..
den went kimage to haf a hair cut..

on e way received an unexpected msg..
i dunno how to say..
but i jus wish that moi was ard to give mi sum advice..
but that woman is in thai now..
haiz..

nbm..so i went kimage n saw wen n fungi !
haha kinda of happy..coz its since prom nite since i saw em..
finally had my hair cut..
den went to 7-11 n bought a bball straw..
n den went to buy xxl chicken..
den heard from em that jing is working now..
ha..shall go visit her sum day..

den went to see e guy who wanna break e guiness world record for staying in e tank for more than 212 +++ hrs..
den TM..
n i saw sumthing which i realli liked..
n i "forced" em to buy wif mi..coz its 3 for $10..
n 1 for $3.90..
bought it for memories..

den home i came..
came back home for dinner..
had steam-boat today..
nan de daddy is free for dinner wif us..
kinda of fun..

den had ice-cream wif em..
n watched tv..

ah..n now i m here blogging..blogging my blessed day..hafing ya love ones by ya side is a blessed moment..treasure it..cherish it..
i do cherish u..
my family..
my forever5..
my friends..
my idols..

hao la..end here le every1..take gd care..byee..coz i do cherish u =D..n my christmas eve is for forever5 !..haha shall not break this promise..n i will not..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.lost for words.][
][.santa papa.wuld u bless all my love ones.][

][.in life.theres no forever.][.sorry my family.my friend.][

][.in life.theres no forever.theres onli now.][.sorry my family.my friend.][

jus moments ago..
i was crying like a little kid..
realli..
been so long since i does this..

was realli down..
coz of sumthings..
i felt like a fool..

my life is packed wif obligations..
i haf no time for my family..my friends..
so mummy jus scolded mi that i m like a fool..

why dun i noe how to reject my friends..
why is it so..
i dunno..

den she questioned mi..
where r they when i nd them e most..
again i was dumbfounded..
cz..i haf no idea where they are..

i tot of sum events..
sum impt events of my life..
i tot of these friends..
n onli sum appeared..

i hold back my tears as i tried to convience my mummy that they are always there..
when i haf no idea where they are..

kinda of lost..
kinda of sad..

den i tink again..
it isn't their fault..
maybe its mine..

once and again..
they tried to arrange a time to go out..
but once n again..
i failed..
i haf gotta things on..
but i will try to meet em later..
i promise..

but i tink they are sick of this le ba..
tell mi santa papa..tell mi wad shuld i do..
i wan a life of my own..
i wan time wif my family..
i wan time wif my friends..

but once again..
we r living in a world of reality..
we nd money no matter where we go..
without money we wun survive..

and every outing..
every gathering..
everytime we wanna meet..
we need money..
n the fact is..
i m broke now..
realli broke..
who noes..who cares..

i m starting to get angry..
to get sad..
i jus wan a simple life..
jus a simple one..
with enff to get by..
with enff time for every1..
n of coz sum for myself..

haiz..

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ok..all these abv are jus small prob..i guess in e end..nothing is sadder than losing ya love ones..so cherish em when u can..dun onli regret after losing em..
-jus wanna apologise to my family for spending all my time outside wif my friends n trngs..
-wanna apologise to forever5 for not being able to spend time wif em..
-wanna apologise to all my friends..

wadever it is..pls dun be angry n hate sum1..coz u nv noe when u will die..or when will that person die..life is fragile..treasure it..if i made u angry or disappointed..i m sorry !..

shall end here..kinda of tired..tml is another long day..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.tired.][

][.wu gui.][

][.wu gui.][

hey bloggy..i discover sumthing..i haf been blogging lesser nowadays as compared to e past..i mean e "past"..i remembered i enjoyed blogging..i was blogging so much during e prelims n even during e Os..i can't help but cum online..but nowadays..haha..i seem to be able to not cum online for a few days..n i tink its ok ;p

haha ps..i m sorta crapping..hmm bloggy..maybe this is wad is known as habit ba..sumtimes..sumthings in life..its a kind of habit..n when u dun do it..u will feel kinda of lost..but once u stop doing it for sumtimes..u will think that its perfectly fine ba..haha i tink so..or rather..u will hypnotize yaself that..u can replace it wif other things ba..haha i dunno..i realli dunno wad i toking..haha maybe sumthings in life can be taken over n forgotten..while sum others can't..hmm for now..theres sumthing that i hope that can be taken over..but not forgotten..

haha hao la..enff of crapping ;p..shall tok abt today n ytr..o mian..ytr was a sad day..i mean..kinda of blue day..alj lost by 4..hmm they din play as well la..but still haiz..felt sad for em of coz..den wad else..i lost my wu gui that is named wu gui !..agrh..its been a long time since i lost sumthing le..n i realli mean sumthing..i remembered i last lost my wallet when i was in p2..it was a hello kitty wallet wif $5..i lost it in my old pri sch..since then..i make sure that i check that i left nothing behind..so ytr was realli a bad day..i discovered e lost of wu gui be e friendly of vj vs sp..haiz..sad..wonder where is wu gui now..which corner of s'pore it is at..did it find a gd owner..haiz..ok..i noe its kinda of lame..i can always get another "same" one..but it will nv be e "same"..hmm i shall always remember abt this wu gui..which went wif mi to hk..which took pic wif xinying's tortise..which wuld bring a smile to my heart whenever i looked at it..

hao la..thats e sad day ytr..today is a super slacking day..i woke up ard 10plus..den helped c'mei aka ah mei wif her mp3..haha she nxt yr jiu p6 le..time kinda of past veri fast sia..den watch tv..hang clothes..eat lunch..slp..den wake up..watch tv again..den dinner..den tv again ! haha practically wasted my whole day slacking away..n i jus wrote down my "schedule" for nxt wk..o m g..its packed..n i realli mean it..its like everyday i got things on..n its not 1..its always 2 n abv..agrh..shugs shugs..no rest time..haiz..i wan time to spend wif my friends..forever5..but i dun haf any left..a siao jus called mi..n asked if i can make it tml instead of tues ma..but i told her only evening can..den tues also onli late afternoon can..den she say..she will call fungi le..zai call mi..haiz..but till now haven call..i tink fungi mus be feeling sianz ba..n dun wan care mi le la..haiz..i m sorry also..but theres jus sum obligations..n sum that i realli enjoyed..

haha..hao la..lets forget abt that "schedule"..i believe every1 is busy too..hmm lets tok abt a gd show that i watched today ba..its called "yuan wang shu"..if i not wrong..e eng name is final romance..hmm got edison..n a gal..whose name in e show is jean..haha e show is kinda of cliche..but i loved it..i m a cliche person mar ;p haha jkjk..anyway its abt ed n this gal de love story la..how they met in jap due to their dead sis n bro who were once lovers..den ed n this gal..is at jap to help em fulfil their final wish..den as expected ed n this gal fell in love..but this gal actually gotta fiance le..i felt sad for em sia..i mean ed n this gal..but when i saw e fiance..haha i feel neutral..but still sad la..coz e guy starring as e fiance ish "chris"..haha i dunno his real name..but he is e actor that i liked..hee coz chris_anson..haha i guess sum will understand wad i toking abt ba..anyway e ending is expected..ed is together wif that gal..happy ending..but sad sweet n touching process..haha i hope life is always like this too..happy ending for all..anyway theres this thingy that ed kept say in e show..n i tink its meaningful..its "as long as u haf a target..u wun feel afraid.."

hee hao la..today bloggy is quite long le..shall end here le..gd nite bloggy..take care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.pypy.][

][.hong kong trip.+.home sweet home.][

][.hong kong trip. + home sweet home.][

haha hey bloggy ! time to update update u le..be4 u become lazy ;p..hee i m back from hk..n home sweet home..i miss my home..haha jkjk..i wanna blog abt hk de..but if i blog..its gonna be veri long n its realli veri long..so i decided le..i shall jus post some pics..since ppl say..a pic = a 1000 words.. hee jus laming..but enjoy e pics la..i enjoyed e trip..=D

us be4 setting off !
4 of us at e 1st dinner !
cancan dance !
us at victoria hai gang (at nite)




us at disneyland !
mi n chu at tarzan hse ;p

moi n mi..at e dunno where also..but theres a temple there..which i went to pray ;p


sheryl n mi at e dunno where ;p

qing ma da qiao !
me wif tigger n pooh ! ;p




haha hao de..i end here le..still gotta lots of pics to post..but i wanna watch e classic now..hee shall post again..be ready for my nxt update on hk la..it will be more interesting ;p i hope..hee take care for now..byee !!!

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.i m still afraid of waiting.][

][.i will miss bloster.][

][.i will miss bloster.][

y0z bloggy..i haf jus finished packing for my trip..hmm at least i tink i haf finished packing la..tml morning asked mummy help mi check again..hee now i m charging my mp3..my hp..n my cam batt..wahaha heaven noes how many times m i charging it le la..cz mus ensure full batt to last mi 5 days 4 nites ;p..

haha hmm bloggy..actually today is quite a bad day..everything went wrong..feeling agrh..till i packed my luggage once again..den tell myself i m going away for a break le..yeah..
why today is a sucky day ?..
1) early in e morning..on e way to trng..received mummy de call to ask mi rush home coz daddy met wif a accident again..its e 2nd time of this yr le..suckz man..but on e way le..so i told her i will rush home after gym..gym was ok today..rushed home after gym..daddy injured his leg n hands..n cgh de doc suckz sia..he is like so in pain la..n onli given 1 day de mc..wad is this man..he cannot even walk on himself now la ;p eee hospital man..den hmm i wanna thank e BMW auntie..thou i realli haf no idea who is she..but its her who send daddy bac home..n e uncle who helped daddy pushed his bike to aside..thou i dunno who they are..but i m realli grateful to em..thanks for ya help !..den i realli hope its "da nan bu shi..bi you hou fu"..i pray that daddy after this will be safe n sound n healthy n fortunate n all e gd things cum his way la..n of cz mummy !..hee n every1 i love..
so after i rushed home from gym..wanted to go work de..but cannot la..no mood..so i started trying to change my blogskin..n this is a real nice blogskin that i wanted..but e pic is not able to be seen la..so hmm i spent my whole afternoon trying to improve e blogskin..but after that i tink not veri nice too..so jiu changed back to this..hee

2)city harvest 3on3..haha its a long story..anyway i mus realli thank jen for her help today ! thanks lots jen..",)..as for e story..i lazy to say la ;p hee..hope everything will be fine..nut can make it de la =D..

hee so practically my mood was rather sucky this whole day due to this 2 things..n felt super down la..thanks to buddy who talked to mi..n moi la..den felt better..haha den jus now jiu watch n watch tv..den jus packed finish my things..n hmm still cannot slp yet..coz i jus bathe..n my hair is wet..so going to cut my nails etc..hee n hmm..i m gonna miss my bloster..but cannot bring it to hk la..they will laugh at mi de n mummy will say siao ah..o mian..sayang sayang my bloster..gonna sayang it lots tonite ;p hee..hao la..end my bloggy here today..tml still nd to wakey early..bring didi to wu shu..den buy sweets ;p den set off =D..take gd care every1 ! byee..

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][.wuld u ?.][
][.i hope u will.][
][.i pray.][

][.wu gui.][

][.wu gui.][

hey bloggy..today is a long day..started work in e morning..den go meet moi..went to develope photo..eat yoshinoya..den went vj..watched e guys vs mj onli..no trng..coz it was too hot..

den went to sbc watch match..haha lots happen..i mean sumtimes little things can mean lots..hee so..i shall jus write it down as summary..
1) "ae..who's this..oh..hahahaha"
2) wu gui
haha hao la..like this summary jiu enff le..i hope i will rmb when i look back at this bloggy la..

n yah..i mus declare that i hate dogs more than cats..cz today as i go work..e cats will go to hide as they see me..but e dogs bark like crazy..sickening !!!..haha i hate em sia..hai shi tortise zui hao ! haha love tortise..wu gui..wu gui..

haha hao la..go le..take care !!! tml still nd go gym..den work..den go home n sat go hk !!! wahaha wahaha..looking forward to sat..byee..

..a journey alone is long n lonely..
..a journey wif a gd companion is short n sweet..
..a journey wif a bad companion is long n torturing..

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][.npo.][
][.wu gui.][
][.would it happen?.][

][.friends forever.thats wad we shall be =D.][

][.friends forever.thats wad we shall be =D.][

haha y0z bloggy..today is a nice day..hmm morning wakey for meeting at 10..almost late..but lucky i m not ;p haha or else need to pay fine sia ;p.. jkjk..

meeting ended ard 12 ba..quite early de..den went stadium watch e guys train..received mei de call..den went to meet mei at TM and went for lunch at short mary gold..be4 brought mei back to sch to watch ahs b'gals vs rgs..hmm jiang sen asked mi to be refree..but i tink i suckz as one..haha nbm anyway..sorry to juniors if u ever cum my blog..for all e fouls that i nv blow..haha den after that rushed home..din acc mei bac to tampines to change bus..

haha den met fnq ard evening time..hee went for my 1st job "interview"..wahaha..quite funny de..coz he is not feeling well..haha too bad i haf no sweets ;p..den took bus to there..e person veri funny..by e way..she is called mdm foo..den haha..after that fnq wanted to walk bac to bus interchange instead of taking bus..coz his ez link card n he is not feeling well..haha hmm..its kinda of memorable..we were chatting n chatting..none stop de..kinda nice feeling..coz so long nv meet up wif pri sch friend le..i tink apart from forever5 n a siao..no more pri sch friend in contact le ba..haha i will rmb this day..haha hao la..tml i shall go "work" be4 i meet moi to develope foto..go vj trng..n sbc watch match la..haha tml is gonna be a busy day..but i hope its gonna be a busy n nice day la ;p buddha bless my day ba..thanks !

hao la..end here le..sorta lots of things to settle..take gd care every1 !..byee..

..i will always keep our memories in my memory bank..
..friends forever..
..thats wad we shall be =D..

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][.npo.][
][.too young.][

][.mortal.][

][.mortal.][

haha y0z bloggy..today went back to ahs to play n train a bit..haha hmm quite nice de feeling ba..talking to coach n stuff..n theres this nxt yr sec1 gal..which we call her zheng fang no2..wahaha i promised myself to work hard le..coz i dun wanna lose to her..haha nah nah..n i realli dun like playing wif big sized n rough ppl..haha but i cannot deny that she will be a gd player in e future ba ;p anyway i tink she will bu shuang mi also..but nbm la..not going to see her anyway ;p

hmm den went to get luggage from god daddy..den i promise myself man..i mus take gd care of my own daddy n mummy..n god daddy n mummy as well as da gu..these ppl realli done lots for mi sia..hee *touched*..

haha den hmm kinda late le now..tml still gotta meeting..agrh sianz..i mean i tink i m not suited to be a leader kinda of thingy..haha..anyway i plan hao le..tml after meeting jiu go find mei..haha den cum home..watch tv..den slp..den haf a busy day for thurs..den fri train gym..den yeah sat i m off to hk !!! wahaha wahaha..i wanna sit by e window on e plane esp on e return trip =D i wanna see e stars !!! haha..

hao le..end here le..take gd care every1 !..byee..

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][.npo.][
][.my angel?.][

][.dun like to make decisions.][

][.dun like to make decisions.][

haiyo..bloggy..i realli dun like to make decisions sia..hate it hate it..nowadays theres no big big choices to be made la..but still so many choices in life..hate it ;p

anyway enff of crapping..hmm i jus can't wait to go hk..dun ask mi why la..i also dunno..today went to see vj off to thai..den after that went to watch prime wif sh..erm..its not realli worth e $7 la ;p..haha coz when it finally reached e touching part..its e end le..its like ya tears wanna cum out le..den it jus go back la..haha n e morale of e story ? = jie , di lian wun haf any ending ;p haha..at least thats what i get after i watch e movie la..

den went for vj trng .. was late.. den hmm trng was ok ;p haha or rather veri slack la..did some drills..den played 3 on 3..haha den back home le..watched lots of tv..den hmm soon my hols gonna be over..so fast sia..sianz sianz sianz..

haha hao la..stop here le bloggy..anyway fungi jus sent mi "hao ai ta..hao xiang ta"..haha quite a nice song la =D..hee take care every1 ! tml going back ahs to train for our hk trip..looking forward to it ;p byee..

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][.npo.][
][.realli.][

][.sorry.][

][.sorry.][

today is a rather not gd day..haha dunno la..i can't say its not gd too..but its jus sorta of sumthing is wrong..

feeling veri guilt stricken now..wanna say sorry to sum1..but its gonna be so stupid if i do so..so all i can do is chanting n repeating to myself once n again in my heart..i m sorry..sorry..sorry..i tink i might go crazy tonite if i cont doing so..

anyway sad-ed..today alj trng..dunno bei cindy coach scold how many times la..its like i can lose count of e time of being scolded by her le la..so its like a lot..i dunno..but sorta of affected..its not realli scold la..but..aiya dunno how to say la..den we played 5 on 5..1st time ever in e same team as lqjl..haiz..i tink i screwed it man..i din get e rebounds..i din help lqjl as e 2nd center..its like..she is e onli center doing everything..n i m jus dere doing nothing..agrh beat mi man..i dunno wads freaking wrong wif mi..i din noe wad to do..or rather i din do my part as e other center ba..like wad cindy coach said..

aiya i dunno la..jus noe i m veri sorry n disappointed once again by myself la..haiz..sorry lqjl..sorry..

den hmm as i always say..theres things to be sad..theres things to be happy..mi n moi ok le la ;p we were so lame while in e cab..trying to find ways to tok to hui2 ;p haha i tink she bei us lame si le..nbm nbm..den wad else..haha stars award !!! haha chris n fann finally cum so clean n obvious le la =D happy for em ;p haha..n yah..fnq say he will help mi find job..haha xie le :p

hmm hao la..shall end here le..can't wait to go hk..its 6-7 more days ;p take care every1 ! byee..

sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry
jus how much i wish i could tell u..i m sorry..realli sorry..

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][.npo.][
][.sorry.][

][.sleep.][

][.sleep.][

morning bloggy..i woke up quite late today morning ba..which is like jus woke up..haha i tink sleeping can help mi "escape" from lots of thinkings ba..

anyway..i m here to blog abt ytr..cz ytr realli no mood to blog..ytr had 2 trng..guo shao n alj..at guo shao..learnt a bit regarding defences..den ytr alj trng was e most slacked trng ever man..i mean realli..we had 9 ppl onli..so i told cindy coach abt e shooting style thingy..den she realli gave mi personal training la..haha sorta of fun..i jus focus on shooting n she run ard picking e ball ;p..did ard 200 ++ shots ?..realli veri fun..den after that i joined em in doing e 1 on 1 thingy..den we pick our angel n mortal thingy be4 we play 4 on 4..n coach need to go coach p3 n p5 de ppl..so we were left on our own playing la..wow..it was fun..i mean..alj trng had nv been so lac de la..

it had been a fun day till we nd to decide on e 3 on 3 city harvest thingy..its decided le la..but den i din feel at ease..so i told moi abt it..n she seems angry..i mean i tink she is angry la..wadever..din reply to my msg anyway..nbm..so chatted wif fungi at nite..haha not veri long la..but we lame our way thur..quite fun..at least it allowed mi to be relieve for a moment or so..

haha feeling rather hmmm now de..i guess today de mood isn't gonna be veri nice ba..but i shall try to keep my mood la..breathe in breathe out..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

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][.npo.][
][.focus.][

][.trust.][

][.trust.][

hey bloggy..today's mood status : not bad =D..haha anyway today is a long day..started wif vj vs rj de match..den alj trng..today's bloggy gonna be quite long..coz..these few days i haf been thinking a lot..den haha mus tell sh..u realli noe how i feel ;p (being a center who can shoot from everywhere ;p)..thanks ",)

anyway lets start wif vj vs rj de match ba..hmm i tink vj won by 6 ?..anyway..i tink it wasn't a v gd game ba..e seniors are nice..i mean they are realli nice ppl..but sumhow..we lack a factor that can assure mi that we will win e champs..haha maybe i shuld stop comparing ahs.bgals'05 wif every other teams le la..but i realli hope that vj can cont to jia u and win e champs nxt yr..coz since being in ahs..i m sorta immune wif not losing..i dun wan to lose..n my team mates too..(i believe thats how every1 feel ba)..there's this "concept" in mi now.."If I wanna do..i make sure i do it to e fullest n achieve e best results..if not..i rather not do.."..anyway vj jia u ba..i dun wan to lose..so do u all rite..jia u jia u !

den hmm alj trng..be4 that took 153 wif moi to kovan..den ate kfc..saw a few rj peeps..den slacked a while at kfc be4 i drag moi to go walk walk ard kovan..coz i nv shop in kovan be4 la..i mean e mall..den we saw a neoprint shop n went to take neoprint..haha xin xue lai chao la ;p..den after that we walked to e court..den today's trng is at e top that court..den hmm quite slack de..not veri tiring la..but still tired ;p (wad e toots i talking ?)..nbm..anyway it was quite fun la..n today i mus say that..2 person that i m most afraid of..make mi not afraid of em anymore today..they are : amelia n hui hui ;p haha dun ask mi why..but after today i not afraid abt them le la..i noe its freaking lame to be afraid of them in e 1st place..but haha ignore mi..ok next..anyway trng ended ard 10:30 pm?..den i jus reached home ard a hr ago..which ish 11:30pm..tml gotta meeting summore..haha sumhow wanna go trng rather than meeting..

haha hao la..thats abt my day ba..now let mi proceed to wad i haf been thinking for e past few days..
its a matter of trust..
for eg. in e toilet today..i told van that u can trust sheryl..n i realli mean it..i trust my team mates in ahs..in alj..esp in ahs la..coz of e yrs we played together..i noe wad they can do..i noe they will do it..n i realli trust em..
n in a game..it isn't abt team mates trusting each other..its also abt coach trusting a player..thats my personal opinion..dun mind ;p
thats sumthing that i find saddening nowadays ba..its like..onli a few coach trust mi..at least they make mi feel that they trust mi..they r my coaches in ahs..n cindy coach..
although my coaches in ahs veri fierce at times..n will "scold" n "nag" abt my jiao bu..coz i m a slow learner n i take yrs to learn sumthing..but depsite e scoldings..they trust mi..they noe wad i can do..they trust mi to guard a center much bigger than mi..they believe in wad i can do..at least they make mi feel that they do give mi e trust..even if its onli a little at times..

cindy coach also..she teaches mi new stuffs..she is currently training mi on my shootings n zuan sheng during xiao dui trng..thats why i told myself..i mus go for xiao dui trng no matter how tired i m after guo shao trng..coz i need to polish up my veri basics things..shooting style..post out..zuan shen..dribbling..although i m a "senior" there..but i tink my skills is way below them la..n cindy coach does trust mi..i dunno la..but thats how i feel..from e words she said..etc..

n i m realli grateful to these 3 coaches who trusted mi..maybe i like this say a bit inappropriate..but i mus still say.."as long as u trust mi..i wun disappoint u.." so thought a lot these few days n e reason of mi being so disappointed n sad is regarding u18 team..i dun tink i will get into e squad ba..but i realli wanna..its my dream ?..haha i dunno..but i sumhow haf a hunch that i wun..n i guess its gonna be super disappointing ba..i m afraid i can't go thru that once again..anyway since last sat match..i thought a lot abt e team..shuang fong is a gd coach..but she dun trust mi ba..i noe trust ish need to earn de..not say trust jiu trust..but pardon mi..i m realli veri disappointed for not getting e trust ba..in there..i dunno wad position i play..is it center or forward..i remembered during one trng..shuang fong asked mi n sh to train wif the forwards..but during e games i sort of play center..so can u tell mi..wad e toots position m i playing ??? i m realli veri confused n vexed n of coz veri sad..i wun get into e squad as a forward..coz there are already so many outstandings forwards n pg le..n i nv dream like being like any1 of em..coz i wanna be a gd center..but theres gwen..zheng fang n rachel there as center too..tell mi then..how m i going to get in e squad wif so many gd centers too..its not that i dun trust myself..i trust myself..i believe that i ain't that bad..but does coach believe my ability to play center..i m not as tall as rachel n gwen..i m not as strong as gwen n zheng fang..but theres definitely sumthing that i can do but i dun tink coach believes in mi ba..realli veri sad after sat..tell mi man..wads e pt of training so hard..risking my o levels to go for trngs..while others take a long break of trngs ?..i realli dunno..its a veri sad feeling..its like your hardwork never pays off kinda of things..realli veri demoralised..i always believed hard work will pay off..but after that day..i dun believe as strongly as i do like be4..

i m realli sorry if u dun agree wif wad i say..but thats realli how i feel these few days..like wad my ahs coaches told mi be4..i haf no talent for bball..thats why i need to compensate e talent that i lack wif my hard work..but in e end..it seems like no1 will bother abt my hardwork..they onli bother abt players who can play best..this is quite saddening ba..now again..i m training wif this packed schedule coz..i dun wanna give up..i still 50% believe hardwork will pay off..if this coach dun trust mi..there must be another coach who do..n i m going to try to earn e trust of coaches who dun trust mi..

hao la..shall end here le..paiseh for this long blog..jus feel like expressing how i m feeling nowadays..n sorry if u dun agree wif mi..take gd care every1 ! haha i m feeling quite ok now la..wun give up bball de..coz of my idols..coz for myself..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.one day.someday.][
][.trust me.][

][.much better.][

][.much better.][

y0z bloggy ! haha y0z y0z ! hmm feeling much better today..thou its not anywhere veri gd la..but at least better yeah..e day started wif mi dreaming abt not finishing my o lvl hcl paper de zhao ju..den going to find mr lee yong kang..den all those examiners..den they help mi find my paper n agree to let mi finish e session within 1 min..haha den my alarm woke mi at 6:42am..but i went back to slp..coz mr lee yk haven found my paper yet..n i wanted to noe wad happened ;p den i woke up at 7:34..n rushed like siao..coz trng ish at 8:30..n i noe i m late for sure..rushed for my 53 n 36..n was still late la..by 10 mins ?..haha anyway today is e best vj trng that i ever go up till now..sumhow quite fun la..imagine being in a dustbin ;p

anyway after that went tamp wif moi to pay sek $..den met up wif mummy n didi for lunch..n i saw a snoopy de cartoon vcd..haha sort of amazed coz i din noe snoopy gotta cartoon de..hee wanted to buy..but no $ la..den after that..came home n i watched a whole day of tv up till now..n i realli mean it..its like one show after e other..channel U..channel 8..channel 55..i pity my tv sia..n i hope i can stay awake to watch my show at channel 55 later at 1 plus am..

haha anyway i watched yummy yummy too..n i felt touched by wad ji zai said..sumthing like we shuld rmb how well others treat us..n cont our future happily..sumthing like that la..hmm..so sorta feeling better..n he also say..life will pass in a twinkle..so gotta treasure..hee n i tink i shuld be thankful ba..for wad ne ?..i dunno..jus ought to be ba..

coz i tink i may not be feeling too happy..so are others..u can't always expect others to be ya perfect listener ba..they are ya friends..u may be down..but they may be down-er..(no such word ;p psps)..

anyway end here le la..feeling much better =D dun worry !
..i will be here with you..
..coz i believe in you..
..coz you are my friend..
..thank you my good friend..

haha n say real de..i realli looking ahead to hk de trip..i need a breather..a holiday ;p still got ard 2 wks ba..hao la..byee every1..tc !

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][.npo.][
][.thanks.][

][.wo xiang zhi wo cui mian.][

][.wo xiang zhi wo cui mian.][

today..i slacked my whole day away..
woke up ard 12..coz ytr slept quite late..due to prom..
watched tv e whole day..n i realli mean e whole day..
ate lots..
sorta moodless..
sorta lost..
sorta sad..

heard be4 rubbing salt on e wound ?..
feeling so "pain" now..
rather sad today..coz everything seems to be drifting apart..
tune radio to 933 n listened to music diary..
den there came this song - > vit C 's graduation (friends forever)..
sad..sadder..saddest..
ytr prom..everything realli ended le ba..
soon every1 gonna embark on a new journey le ba..

followed by vitC's song..there is this 933 programme..
for ppl to express their feelings de..
den today ish a gal wanting to thank her best friend..
den e story veri gan ren..
i was praying that she dun dedicate "Di Yi Shi Jian" to her friend..
but she did..
n when i heard it..
*sobz*..

this is for u all :
time for us to go our seperate ways again..
soon we will embark on a diff journey like wad we did 4 yrs ago..
sad..is all i can say..

drifting apart once again..
this should not be e case..
but it happened anyway..

to u :
u called..i wanted to cont e conversation..
but u hung up be4 i could..
we were once e best buddies..
but we seems to drift apart now..
i noe u still regard mi as a gd frend..
but its no longer like wad u did be4..
we no longer share e bond we once shared..
n u nv noe how it breaks my heart..

to u :
u r a gd friend..
4 yrs ago..we went on our separate ways..
i did not make e effort to maintain our friendship..
sorry..
now we are going on our separate ways again..
wanna wish u all e best..
n jia u..

to u :
everything is drifting apart..
due to our separate ways..
u seems to be e only one that is going on e same way as mi..
i felt lost n wanted to call u..
but u sounded so cold that i can't say a thing..
i hung up after telling u abt wad i shuld..
wanted to confide in u..
but u'r voice showed ya unwillingness to cont e conversation..
i felt disappointed n angry at e same time..
why is it so..

to u :
u r e only one that saw thru mi..
u knew sumthing was wrong wif mi..
but my mummy was beside mi..
so i acted as thou i was ok..
but do u noe how much i wanted to tok to u..
at this veri moment..
i feel like calling u..
feel like crying out to u..
but i dun haf e courage to do so..
i know u wuld acc mi..
but i dunno how to tell u everything..
i dunno how to tell u how i feel..
but thanks..
coz u r e onli 1 that i can sense e care now..

to u all :
how long more can we go..
how long more will it last..
i haf no idea..
maybe wad happened on that fateful day this yr..
had already give mi a sign that..
a sign of wads happening..

bloggy..feeling down now..thanks for letting mi type out wad i feeling now..i tink i m going back to drown myself wif e endless tv shows n slp n wake up for trng tml ba..n e "monotonous" life will go on ba..
tc every1..byee..shall blog abt prom nite when i m more in e mood..byee..

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][.npo.][
][.ying wei wo de xin hao tong.][

][.which route would u choose.][.give up.hang on.][

][.which route would u choose.][
][.give up.hang on.][
][.i chose e 2nd one.][

i wanted to say life is unfair..
but i can't..

i dun tink life is unfair..
but i feel that life can be rather saddening at times..

sumtimes..sumthings..
u may work veri hard..
but ya efforts will jus go into e drains..

suddenly felt this way coz of sum1..
it sets mi thinking abt myself..
we seems to be in e same boat..

e efforts we put in is inversely propotional to e results..
yes..theres sumhow this saying that its not e result..but e process that matters..
i believe in that too..
but after "hearing" wad sum1 had say..
my belief is shaken..

i remembered writting a chi compo..title : "every1 is hao sheng de (wanna win de)"..
in that compo..
i wrote..no1 will ever pay attention to e loser..
once u lose a game..
no1 will bother abt how hard u train..
once u score badly..
who cares how hard u studied..

so tell mi now..
is it e process or result that matters..
no1 will care abt e process if u nv produce e result..

thats jus wad i feel personally..at this moment..
of coz i still believe in e importance of process..
but how many wuld care..
i dunno..

anyway..
i m sorta at lost..
i dunno if i shuld ask "sum1" not to give up ma..
i told sum1 not to give up..
n up till now i m still asking sum1 not to give up..

but now i m thinking..
if i ask sum1 not to give up..
will sum1 be happy..
is it realli wad sum1 wans..

i dunno..
but i m afraid that sum1 will regret upon giving up..
yet i m worried that sum1 haf to go thru e process of disappointment once again..

i realli dunno..
so all i hope now is..
sum1 will be strong..
believe in "yourself" (sum1)..

hmm psps..today's blog is meant for mi to sort out my thoughts..haha ytr was a rather disappointing day for mi too..din go alj da dui trng today..went for a normal sun break n prepare for tml..den luckily it ended wif sumthing nice..i felt encouraged once again..
so now..how shuld i encourage sum1 ne..so that sum1 will feel encouraged n not demoralised..like how i felt for a moment ytr..

jia u sum1 ! i believe if u read this blog..u will noe i m refering to u..but i doubt u will cum here ;p so jus wanna tell u..i will always be here for u,my friend =D..

hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..gotta go slp le..tml gonna be a long day..

..i was demoralised..disappointed..
..but once again..
.."encouraged" by u..
..thank you..

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][.npo.][
][.thank you.][

][.mvp qing ren.][

][.mvp qing ren.][

yeah ! today's bloggy ish dedicated to mvp qing ren ! but haha of coz there will be other things here n there la..hee

firstly..today i din go vj de trng..cannot take it le la..so slept like a pig n woke up ard 10 plus..n jiu started watching mvp qing ren till now ! haha n i finally finish watching le..chao(super) shiok de..if i got e time..i m sure i will stay at home n watch all e vcds i wan..jus 3 days jiu ok le..instead of one wk..coz i finished half e vol. today..haha anyway i love it man..i love e show..

haha i think mvp qing ren veri gan ren (touching)..i din thought that it was so touching when i watched it on tv 2 yrs ago..anyway i saw e way they work hard..they play e matches..i jiu tink of ahs..n while i watch e last disc..their finals..i jiu realli hope to get e video that amelia's mother had taken during our finals n see our game..i miss playing wif em..

hee then their love stories part also super funny..xiao xi..cheng feng n tai zi..haiyo 3 of em ah..a while this one sacrifice for that..a while that one sacrifice for that one..haha see le veri touching but funny also la ;p hee..den gao xing n barbie also veri funny..den haha of coz iceman ish shuai ! hee..i veri lazy to go on n on le..but i like e show la..n mummy n c mei also addicted to e show wif mi today..hee we are like this disc finish le..quick quick nxt disc ;p haha veri funny..

hmm hao la..enff of mvp qing ren..hmm wad else..haha my arms pain sia..mus be strained ;p den tml going trngs..haha wish mi gd luck..lucky sun take "off" le..coz scared mon cannot walk properly..haha..o mian..i quite looking forward to mon de prom n 10/12 de..can't wait to go n play n play..haha


`to : most respectable person`

..memories can only be kept..
..sometimes..things only happen for a moment..
..for once..
..it wun happen for a 2nd time..

..now that "its" over..
..everything seems to be back like be4..
..no more sms-es..
..no more encouragment..
..many a times i wanna msg u..

..but i din..
..coz i tink its weird n inappropriate..

..sumtimes jus how much i wish..
..wish that u wuld still encourage mi..
..tell mi jia you..
..wish mi all e best..

..but haha..
..i noe it wun happen..
..but i noe u wuld still encourage mi on court..
..now all i wanna do is to play well..
..to make u proud of mi..

haha..hmm thats jus some laming la..n wanna add on sumthing..e last disc of mvp qing ren that i watched..e last past btw gao xing n duan chengfeng..reminds mi of e pass btw sakuragi n rukawa..haha realli ish chao touching de..hee

hao la..end here le..quite tired de..tc every1 ! byee..

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haha i had a slacked day today..i onli went for 1 out of 3 trainings..skipped alj trng for my class gathering..n say real de..i realli veri slack during vj trng too..dunno why sia..but my muscles super tensed..its like its gonna tear le la..*choi*..n its like both hands n my thigh de..super pain..den i din wanna go for vj trng tml le..but luisa say jus go n see em train la..n she ish nice..so i can't say no..

haha anyway jus wanna blog down abt ytr n today..

ytr..went to search for prom dress wif forever5..we went to orchad..n we saw many weird things..
1) we saw milk (niu nai)..energy de la..n sun ho..den all those fans there shouting n shouting..haha (this one not counted as weird la)
2)we saw "chun li"..
3)we saw a cleaner auntie wearing a "suit" made from rubbish bags..
4)we saw fa lun gong..n police..
5)we saw a guy wif onli e center portion of his head left..like e gastbi de ad de..
haha thats abt e weird stuffs ba..we din manage to buy our stuffs there..but went to many places..den i suddenly feel that..sum friends will onli stay for a period of time..whereas some will stay longer..sum..forever..haha coz went to sum places that i went wif my "jie" last time..but now already nv contact le..haha so..hmm yah la..short or long..each friendship still haf its own special memories..n i will treasure it la..

haha ok..den we went bac to TM..n we were all tired out le la..went metro..search for wad we wan but din realli found it..haha as u noe..u bring a grp of gals who seldom wear skirts(apart from sch uni) to go search for gown..ish like..erm..haha jing had a hard time..den i called mummy la..den she came down..n we did sum serious choosing of our gowns..haha n i got myself one black n simple one..den fungi de also black de..whereas wen n moi de..diff colour..sumthing close to red ba..
hee..den jiu went to eat wif didi n mummy..whereas they went home la..coz its already like..close to 10 le..so late le la..we spent one whole day searching for 1 gown..haha

den came home jiu tired si le la..den hmm today..morning went to meet mummy n moi to search for moi de stuffs again..den after that went trng..we were late..haha anyway e ball trng ok la..but my thigh veri strain..cannot take it le la ;p..den after trng jiu went zheng hui's hse..played dai dee..eat pizza..play truth or dare..den now home sweet home..haha n i m so dark once again..sun block ish useless for mi..:p

now i calling moi..wanna ask her things..but she nv ans !!! agrh i bet she ish slping la..wakey moi !!! haha hao la..end here le..quite tired de..although i din went alj trng today..hee anyway i tink i veri slack sia..not going trng on sun..moi also..cz scared mon we will walk veri er xin if we go trng on sun n tire our legs out ;p haha..quite lame la..but..haha..go le..tctc..byee..

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][.qian nian lao wu gui is tired.][

][.qian nian lao wu gui is tired.][

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yes tired..thats e word to describe how i m feeling now..hiz bloggy..few days nv blog le..not becoz i nd to study or wadever..but simply becoz..i m soooo tired..freaking tired..haiz..i had told myself..i gotta train this n that..i will work hard..i will not give up..but now all i noe is..i m very tired..n i m realli glad that tml i finally gotta a "day-off"..a day which i dun nd to touch bball..dun nd to train..a day when i can go out n do wad i wan..

past 3 days..+ today jiu 4th day le..for 4 consectutive days..my life surrounds ard e court..training..den bus..den home..den watch a bit vcd (if i still got e energy)..den slp..yah..thats my life after o levels..haha hmm n now..i can't even lift up my hands..n i m walking wif a speed so slow that my mummy call mi a qian nian lao wu gui(tortise)..ytr when i climb e over head bridge..a old ah ma was even faster than mi la..n she was looking at mi..haha probably tinking why this person so young jiu so slow..haha

hmm bloggy i m sorry..jus let mi moan ok..i noe a lot of ppl also like this train..maybe even tougher..but haiz..i m realli tired..i din noe i can be so tired..till today..my muscles realli cannot take it le..or rather my fats cannot take it le..n i gotta a class gathering on thurs..n deres 3 trng on thurs too..haha nice try..wad shuld i do..i tink gotta go vj de ba..but wad abt alj..go vj jiu cannot go xiao dui de..but still can go da dui de..but if go da dui..i jiu dun nd go my class gathering le mar..haiz..i dunno la..i realli dunno..shugs..tml den decide la..

den hmm i very sad now sia..moi dun wan to help mi print my ying mu..if onli i gotta my printer full of ink..i will definitely print my bao bei ying mu de..so cute la..haiz..suan le suan le..i no energy le..wadever will be will be..

n yah..haiz..despite all these trng..i gained 3.5 kg..o m g..thats a lot man..haiz..how m i going to shed these wt off be4 prom la..haiz..n tokin abt prom..when will i haf time to shop for it..tml forever5 going orchad..dun expect mi to go dere buy..coz i dun haf a budget so high..haha..i tink i will onli see em buy ba..den thurs..fri..sat..sun..all gotta trng..tell mi den..when m i free..agrh !!! sickening !!! sickening !!!

i dun mind trng..but i nd time off..i nd to spend time for other things too..why mus there be so many trngs..if its jus 4 or 5 days a wk i still dun mind..actually i din mind 7 days a wk de..but now..i discovered..deres still other things that i nd to do during my hols..eg. go out wif family..wif forever5..wif friends..but where is e time..haiz..give mi more time hao ma..i nd my rest time..

haha now i jus can't wait for dec..to go hk..taiwan..wherever it is..jus let mi go for a break..i seriously nd one..

haha *breathe in*breathe out*..enff of moaning..enff of complaining..i noe thats all craps..in e end..i will jus go trng still rite(i noe myself)..haha n i shall make full use of each to train..to improve..thats all i can do..make e best out of wad i can..n enjoy every moment of it ba..

hao la..end here le..i m so tired le..super tired..byee bloggy..nitey..

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][."dead".][

][.life after o levels.][

][.life after o levels.][

y0z bloggy ! haha i m free le free le..realli free until a bit lost le..coz past 2 wks ish like u study..mug..den u slp that pathetic few hrs..n u wake up..go take exam..on e way de time u read n read n read e book..den after that u go in e hall..take exam..cum out..again u take e nxt sub de book n u read n read..i mean study la..den all e way home..rest a while study again..haha n e cycle goes on..2 pathetic wk..which u dunno wad to do..apart from study eat slp..haha so realli hope it ish over soon..n muhaha its finally over =D hee but a bit lost la..too much "things" to do le..haha..den hmm wad else..o yah..jing n sh jia u ba !!! veri soon its gonna be over ! jia u jia u !

haha den today ish my 1st day after o levels..haha ytr went to tm wif em after chem paper..n i fell asleep like a dead log after i came home la..
den today wake up 9plus..almost late for trng..coz van say 11..but ish 11:30 la..haha den hmm i almost die during trng..n bei ms leo "scold" la..haiz..haha nbm nbm..will go n train it back..den wad else..haha we played wif paige..e cute cute gal..haha but she a bit fierce sia ;p jkjk..den after trng..i asked yaqi how to do e bounce twice den roll e ball thingy la..den she teaching mi..den van jiu came n teach mi how to train my wrist..so that my wrist can be stronger n less stiff..haha thank u yaqi thank u van ! i will go train on it de..

haha den after that went alj xiao dui trng..coz haha cindy coach saw mi at sbc today..so haha u noe la..tml jiu mus go back alj da dui trng le..so if today i dun go train a bit..tml sure die de..haha anyway xiao dui trng quite fun la..haha its better than sbc de..haha maybe becoz of e surroundings la..den hmm..haha i keep on bei "scold" la..haha not realli scold la..but haha u noe..haiyo..coz my jiao bu all these..agrh stupid mi ! haiz..anyway coach cindy taught mi how to do proper jump shot n shooting..haha i knew it..i gotta change it someday..n its here ! haha gotta change it now..since now gotta no match..no studies..no everything..haha so now realli ish time to change le..ooo wish mi gd luck ba ;p haha..den haha i din train finish e whole trng la..missed e last part..of chiong-ing..coz i dunno why ish bei who step or wadever la..i gotta a blue-black de toe now..n ish pain tor..i jus hope it will drop off quick quick..n grow a new one..if not veri er xin sia..jus like my pri sch de time ;p

haha hao la..so its my 1st day of life after o levels..wahaha hmm a bit lost la..but nbm..i realli gotta lots of things to do le..hee
1)train my wrist
2)change my shooting to e correct one..
3)train stamina
4)try to train speed
5)rest
6)watch tv

haha see see i gotta so much so much to do..haha so can keep myself occupied le ;p haha lame shit man mi..haha hao la..go le..take care every1 ! byee..

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][.last lap.][

y0z bloggy..jus feel like bloggin so here m i..shall restrict myself to 10mins of bloggin..coz tml gotta 2 papers..chem n hist n i haven realli prepare myself for it *bish*..

haha anyway today ish a happy day la..i mean apart from my a maths paper la..it isn't realli those super happy day..but jus feel great n energetic la..hmm today ish didi de prize giving..too bad i was hafing a maths n can't go..haha or else can go see cute cute de little kids ;p haha den hmm wad else..today i finally gotta my new hp le..haha sort of unexpected de la..coz mummy n daddy jus suddenly call n asked my preference as to which one i wan..den haha they jiu bought le..hmm this fone ish quite nice la..haha i onli noe how to use..dunno if it ish gd or not..but hope it is la..still waiting for it to charge for a full 8 hrs..super long sia..

haha n yah..tml ish e last day le ! finally its gonna be over =D haha jus now listen to 933 den got ppl sms in n say they now fantacising how to celebrate after e end of e paper le..n cannot focus le ;p haha mi a bit like this also la..*bish*..haha yeah after tml..gonna do so so so so so many things ! wahaha nobody's gonna tell mi.."jia u n study le"..hee i mean at least for a month ba ;p haha yeah..

haha hao la..10 mins ish up..shall end here ! take gd care every1 ! jia u ;p byee..

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][.huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si lian.][

][.Thru e rain.][

Through The Rain

When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And if you keep falling down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
And I live once again
And I live one more day
And I can make it through the rain (Yes you can)
You will make it through the rain

was listening to this song after my a maths today..felt quite upset de la..but listened to that song le jiu hmm haha felt much better..so haha..this song ish for all those feeling down now..jia u..believe in yourself..jus as e song said.."You can make it thru e rain"..yes i can..",)

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

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][.15.10.5.][

][.bu xiang gu fu ni.][

][.bu xiang gu fu ni.][

jus here to blog a while..
tml ish a maths..
its driving mi crazy..

n i realli mean it..
its e onli sub apart from higher chi that i m so worried..
its e sub that i realli veri scared man..

haha agrh how ne..
hee let mi let out some steam ok..
i dunno how also..

haha hao la..enff of craps le..
every1 jia u ba..

~..dun wanna disappoint u..~
bu xiang gu fu ni..
suo yi..xian zai de wo..
zai relax..ying wei wo bu xiang na mer stressed le..
ni fang xin..wo hui jing li er wei de..

today i m touched..realli touched by 10 n 15..i will jia u de..dun stressed le !!! haha hao la..feel much relaxed le..take gd care every1 !

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][.tong hua.][

morning bloggy! haha actually not early le la..its already 10 le..i slept till 9plus today..n i was still lazing..nv had such a gd sleep for days le ;p haha *lamin*..

anyway i m now listening to Tong Hua la..haha been a long time since i hao hao de listen to that song le..hmm ytr i say i regret..haha i mean yah..i regret for wasting my time watching tv n stuff..but not regret bball la..i realli wun regret playing bball esp 14/4/05..hehe but jus wanna say..jia u la every1 =D hee..i also dunno wad i crapping..jus jia u la..

take gd care too ! byee..

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hiz bloggy..been abt 1 wk since i blogged ba..haha psps..gotta o levels mar..haha o levels ;p

alright..today my main purpose of bloggin ish to..
haha i also dunno..
but i realli hope that i can bring across an impt msg la..

jus now..as i was walking home..
listening to all those sad sad songs..
den under e stars..
haha e feeling was realli great..
e songs..e sky wif stars..

haha alright thats all crap..
jus now as i walked home..
dere is sumthing which i realli felt..
regret..as i reflect..

regret..i realli regret..
regret for not preparing well enff for my o levels..
regret for not studying hard enff..
i realli regret..
i placed all my focus on bball for 3/4 of this yr..
n i neglected my studies till recently..
n e last min effort put in is definitely not enff for gd results de..

i m realli sad by the thought of it la..
coz haiz..o level results ish gonna be wif mi for life de..
why din i worked harder..
why din i..
i realli hate myself man..
why wasn't i like e others..
muggin practically e whole yr..
haiz..

so sad..
but its already 50% over le..
so all i can do now is cont to work hard for e remaining papers..
thats all i can do now..

so i realli wanna tell all that ish younger..
realli mus work hard ok..
starting of e yr jiu work hard..
dun do last min work le..
u will realli regret de..
jia u ok..
balance your work n bball (or wadever is impt to u) well la..
dun neglect ya studies..

haha hao la..enuff of nagging n crapping..i now regret also no use le..jus pray that i can get into a jc..n after today..i realli need to work hard for my a maths, chem n hist le..esp my a maths..

den hmm today realli tired sia..morning e-maths paper..afternoon lit paper..after that ish tuition wif lqjl..haha n i mus realli declare that my hp ish in a "wu yao ke jiu" de stage le..no more hope that kinda..i was 5 mins late for e "tuition" cz e examiners made us stay back..cz he veri bu shuang we tok..haha..den i reached waited till 5:30..wanted to sms lqjl..cz e mac so big..n i haf no idea where she is or she reach le ma..so i jus sat in e corner..den 5:30 le..i wanted to msg to ask..but my hp la..cannot even type ! agrh..so pek che u noe..haha or more of used to it le..but luckily for mi..lqjl msg-ed n asked la..den i went to find her..in another corner of e mac..lucky she nv wait n wait..or shuld i say..lucky her hp is in gd condition..haha lame sia..but i realli wanna change my hp le..but haha dunno how to tell daddy n mummy sia..my end-yr expenses are like so heavy la..wif e hk trip..e prom nite..haiz..i tink they veri ke lian le..

yah..den had tuition till 6 plus..cindy coach came..haha she also sick..worst den mi sia..but still ate mac..haha jkjk..den they veri funny la..hee..i "disappoint" lqjl coz i failed to count a fraction properly..haha regarding e age diff de..den jiu slacked dere while they had their dinner..n left for home after they left for trng..den tot abt a lots..haha tot abt - not studying hard enff ;p den now back home here..bloggin my life away..

haha dunno if shuld go for trng tml ma..van last wk said that we shuldn't go till after o levels..n i feel so too..so i told her i wun go for 2 wks le..last wk n tml..but i dunno la..den luisa msg-ed ytr n i din reply..coz my hp n coz i dunno la..den i realli dunno shuld go tml ma..sheryl dunno too..den sh haven reply..so i haven asked..thou she told mi she wun go la..but i wanna ask if nd to msg n inform van..luisa or ms leo ma..

haha hao la..stop tinking so much le..later den ask em again..go le..go rest be4 waking for my muggin..if i can wakey la..hee..take gd care every1 ! n for all e o levels peep..cont to jia u la..for others..hmm..jia u too..dun regret like mi..

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][.dun wanna disappoint u.][

][.virus virus go away.][

][.virus virus go away.][

virus virus go away..
cum again sum other day..
big me need to study..
virus virus go away..

haha alright..thats so lame..haiz sad ah..mi invaded by virus le..so slacked my whole day away..den went to see doc..haha at e clinic theres this super duper cute little boy..haha i tink he ish indian..yet he ish those kinda of fair indian la..he gotta beautiful eyes man..n haha he smiled at every1 at e clinic..showing his 4 teeth..haha so cute!!! even mummy also thinks he is cute..n he sick le..still so active..no wonder his mother so skinny la..coz need to look after such a active de him..den he wanted to "ta shan" with this chubby chi gal..haha so funny sia him..hee i guess he will grow to be a handsome guy ba ;p haha

den see doc le..doc help mi measure temp n he shocked dao..haha he was like..huh? 38deg ah..sure not..measure again..38.5deg..haha den he say confirm i fever le..den asked mi i nv gan jue dao i fever ah ?..haha he realli looked shocked ;p hee mi too..i tot i flu..sore thoart onli..n maybe a bit fever..but not that much..haha maybe ish fever too high le..i siao le also..

anyway ate medi le..hope its gonna get better..no..it mus get better ! or else i how to face my o levels ne ;p hee..hao la..now jus wanna blog be4 i watch kang xi lai le..n cont wif my revision..haha cham..i done nothing much sia..apart from e-maths..hist..n going to start on ss..haha wadever it is..i shall take it by my stride ba..haha

n yah..wang zi bian qing hua realli veri touching le..haiz..ziqian gonna be bad soon..*shugs*..

hao la..go le..take gd care every1..n i realli mean it..sick de feeling realli suckz man..haha..byee..;p

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][.wei le zai hu de ren nu li.][

][.sick n tired.][

][.sick n tired.][

o o o .. sick le sick le..haiz..
haha alright..jus feel like blogging..
i feeling veri hmm now..

haha a kinda of feeling that i cannot describe la..
now listening to 933..den gotta e live "telecast" of e Jin Qu Jiang..
den hmm trying to do bio notes..
wah..i wanna sleep !

but haiz i can't..

haha psps i dunno wad i crapping also..not feeling too well now..running nose..but shall hang on la..wad else can i do rite..hee now my motivation is..later can watch e fri nite movie..xiang zuo ai..xiang you ai..it better be nice ;p hee

den hmm nothing much happen la..jus a few normal day..went to pray..went airport for curry rice..haha normal yet nice la..n scenery realli veri nice..realli..s'pore de jiu veri nice le..everytime i take bus from aiport back home during evening..i jus love e sunset man..hee

hao la..shall end here le..go slp be4 i cont bio..if i ever wakey la..haha which ish veri hard..hao la..tc every1 ! drink more h2o..dun fall sick..n all sec4s..jia u la..i still gotta lots to study too..but we dun stress out ok..hee take gd care..

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][.Northern Light.][

][.Northern Light.][

i haf a new wish..
n that is to see the northern light and take pics of it myself..
moi say its expensive..
so i m going to save up..
maybe 10 yrs later i can make it dere..
i realli wanna see it..
its realli veri nice..
jus went to a webby..
its gotta over 1700 pics..i onli managed to see ard a 100 today..
coz realli a lot..
n realli nice..
blog a few of it..which i like..
actually i liked every1 of it ;p hee

haha hao le..apart from northern light..today i went econ n was so scared ;p coz theres this few workers..u noe..those from indian etc..den they were in econ also..den e uncle n auntie of e shop was keeping close notice of em..coz they were in e dere for so long le..n jus loitering ard la..den veri scary..later e auntie came back to e cashier n asked e uncle go take a look at wad they were doing..den e uncle went to get a penknife n put in his pocket be4 he go see wad they doing..i shocked dao..n was realli scared la..den i came home le..jiu told mummy..n she say e uncle do this for zi wei la..to protect himself..if not if e workers attack him how..o mian..e atmosphere inside econ was realli scary man..haha o n yah..didi jus came back wif a gd news..haha proud of him man..hee didi jia u !

hao la..end here le..tc every1 ! byee..

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][.i wanna see e northern light.][

][.yi lu shun feng.][

][.yi lu shun feng.][

haha alright..another day is going to pass soon..did nothing much..apart from sum e-maths n my hist..haha den later going for dinner wif daddy n mummy n of coz ah di..coz today public hols mar..haha actually supposed to go visit 4th gugu de..but haha i dunno why..i dun dare to go visit her..i dunno wad to say to her when i see her..haha den i told mummy n daddy that i veri scared to tok to adults..haha..i dunno..i jus think i rather coward or..put it in a nicer way..reserved..i dun realli like to tok..but if i noe u well..den i can tok a lot..if i dunno u well..i rather smile n keep quiet..haha maybe thats why i dun haf lots of friends ba ;p hee..but nbm la..e friends that i haf are veri gd le mar ;p hee

alright..blog now..coz wanna wish 2 grps of ppl yi lu shun feng n haf a safe n nice trip..haha 1st grp = my god-daddy,god-mummy n god-sis la..haha they went thai for hols le ;p haha..hope they haf an enjoyable + safe trip la..n buy mi some thai tortise ;p n of coz nice goodies ;p hee jkjk la..den 2nd grp = lingqin jiao lian..coach cindy..alj seniors n their s'pore team la..coz if not wrong..they are off to taiwan today ba..hope they haf a nice n safe trip too..hee..

hmm hao la..shall end here for now..tc every1 ! byee..

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today had hcl de o levels paper..haiz ish a disappointment man..realli veri disappointed..but told mummy le..she say wads over is over..as long as i tried my best..n i realli did..haha maybe i din do enff la hor..maybe..now all i can do is pray that it wun be too bad..haha

haha ok..enff of sad things ;p..hmm today morning had a surprise..realli v surprise la..n yeah..i was realli glad..din expect to receive that sms ;p..haha yah..today is a sad day..but like i say..theres always a reason to be happy..so haha..i m 50% sad 50% happy..haha lame shit !

hao la..tc every1 !..n take care ",)..haha n yah..thanks for all e encouragments every1 :D ..tctc hor..byee..

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hmm yah..feeling quite lost now de..haha dunno why..maybe coz o levels is jus 1 wk away..n yet i haf not done anything ?..haha..a lot of maybe..i dunno how to say la..feeling veri veri lost now..

haha alright..today had training at ccab..e attendance was gd..or haha best out of so many times..den hmm trng was tiring ?..haha den played match..den after that dismiss..den shot a few free throws..i tink i got e hang of it le..but haha no1 to help mi see..so i still dunno if its correct ma ;p nbm..after o levels den go practice..den hmm after that went for lunch wif sh n yaqi..den wen called n remind mi of e Ai Shang Zhong Jing Li that show..haha it was one of my fav show ! hee too bad..thats yrs ago le..den i forget e storyline le..or else i sure chat wif wen abt it like siao de..

haha den came home..chat chat wif mummy..den after that daddy..den after that they all go out le..daddy to work..mummy n ah di to library..now left mi all alone at home..was doing some chi..den suddenly went to took a disc out..den load e songs into my mp3..haha nice sia those songs :D hehe..

ok..den now i blogging..haha wad i blogging i also dunno..i tink i m jus writing down my day so that i can look back n recall ba..haha n yah..i hurt my finger today..haha shugs..1st injury in yrs or months le ba ;p but its not vv pain la..a bit onli ;p den hmm..haha yah..i realli feeling lost sia..mummy jus asked mi wad i wan for dinner..n i can't decide..in e end didi haf to decide for mi..haiz..

that ah di hor..haha proud of him sia..dun realli study still can score so well..hehe bet wif mummy that he will score veri high..she dun believe mi..den say i gotta score gd gd for my o levels too if he did well..wa mian..stressed sia..he did well la..haha..so i gotta do well too..haiz..can onli pray n try my best le la..

hao la..end here le..jus ignore those craps above ba..coz i realli dunno wad i blogging..xiang dao wad i jiu write wad onli..hee tc every1 ! byee..

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][.wo zhen de hao hai pa deng hou de gan jue.zhen de hao pa.hao bu xi huan.][

i m realli afraid of waiting..
realli..
i realli dun like waiting..

today i found out sumthing that i m realli afraid of..
its sumthing known as waiting..
i din noe that i can be so afraid of waiting..

waiting for some1 who is late..
worries mi..
is it becoz sumthing crops up for that person..
is that person on his/her way..
did sumthing happen to him/her..
shuld i call him/her..
wad shuld i do..
hate this kinda of uncertain feeling..

waiting for a reply..
staring at e blank screen..
waiting anxiously..
a min..
an hour..
a day..
a few days..
no reply means no reply..
why is there no reply..
it that person angry wif mi..
did i say anything wrong..
or is e person ok..
again it worries mi..
makes mi moodless..

i realli hate waiting..instead of saying hate..i wuld say..i m realli afraid of waiting..everytime i wait..n get no reply..my heart sinks..worries..moodless..all e negative feelings..pls..pls dun make mi wait..i m not that strong..

can't help but feel sad..
can't help it..
ignore mi..
i will be fine after tonite..
i hope so..
at least i promise myself..
to be strong after tonite..

ha..all e abv are craps..ignore it la ;p jus venting some mood yeah..hee..but i realli found out sumthing..i m realli afraid of waiting..afraid of waiting n not getting an answer..afraid of waiting in vain..wo hai pa deng hou..

hee anyway fungi jus sent mi a veri nice song ;p its Shan Hu Hai by jay n lara..hee n i haf not study today..not realli in e mood..so haiz..shuld go n try study for now la..hee take gd care every1..byee..

i shall cont waiting..
although i realli hate waiting..
afraid of waiting..
but i guess..
thats e onli thing i can do..

to ..
i hope u wun forget ya "promise"..
i m still waiting..
pls dun be e 2nd person to disappoint mi..

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ok..i realli gotta jia u le..i wanted to study finish chi ytr..but i onli touched my 4A..haha wad a nice try..haiz..i slp so early nowadays la..can't help it..haiz..

hee alright..shall stop moaning..blog abt ytr le..jiu mus go study ;p anyway ytr i went to ride bicycle wif moi..from pasir ris to tampines to pasir ris park den back to my hse..wahaha a veri big kinda of achievement sia..i mean at least i din fall down any slope or anything..den i tried using one hand to cycle..hee but my speed ish still veri slow la..wanna noe how slow i m jiu go ask fungi n moi ba ;p hee den it was raining when we cycled from pasir ris to tampines la ;p hee den hmm..i tried closing my eyes n cycle..den realli veri shuang sia..(lucky i din hit into any trees ;p)..hehe den hmm jiu zhe yang la..haha quite fun la ;p den see e pics la ;p hee e little fountain ish i found in e drain de..cool hor ;p haha everywhere realli dou veri nice..even in a drain u can find nice things too :D hee

hao la..shall stop here le..tc every1 ! byee..
hai..why wun u reply..

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hi bloggy..
why mus ppl be sad..
why we can't live in a world wif onli happiness..
why can't there be a fairyland where e word unhappy will nv exist..

is it becoz..
we will be stronger after each setback..
is it becoz..
we will nv noe how strong we can be without a setback..

even if it is so..
how much i hope that every1 ard mi will be happy everyday..
every single moment..
coz i tink..
every moment of unhappiness ish a moment wasted..
and i dun wan that to happen..
esp to my closed ones..
in fact..
every1..

haha bloggy paiseh for starting of like this..hee hmm lac..i m not upset..in fact i feeling rather ok de la ;p hee be4 i cont today de post..mus thank butts,ah min,lx and old man for e meaningful b'day present ;p hee i will write in it de ;p haha but today ne..i will still choose to blog..coz my handwriting suxz nowadays..n i dun wanna spoil e chio de diary ;p hee

hao la..shall start blogging for today le..haha hmm today i fell in love wif a new song..haha but lac..183 club de all those songs still in my playlist la ;p hee coz got da wei mar ;p haha jkjk..hao la..today or rather ytr i fell in love wif this song..veri nice de..hee..

`Thats when i love you..`

When u have to look away
When u don't have much to say
That's when I love u I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That's when I love youI love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love u I love u anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That's when I love u I love u
A little more each time
And when u cant quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that's when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
That's when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what
Ohhhh no matter what

haha hao la..stop here for today le ;p hee tc every1 ! o n yah..my hp realli veri can vomit blood sia..coz e buttons hor..haha gd gd sia ;p hee so if i nv reply hor..realli veri sorry..its coz i cannot press e buttons not becoz i dun wanna reply..;p haha i bet mummy will be pleased wif this month's bill ;p hao la..go watch news le ;p tc every1..byee..jia u jia u n take gd care of ya health wow ;p ",)

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