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hey bloggy..today's mood status : not bad =D..haha anyway today is a long day..started wif vj vs rj de match..den alj trng..today's bloggy gonna be quite long..coz..these few days i haf been thinking a lot..den haha mus tell sh..u realli noe how i feel ;p (being a center who can shoot from everywhere ;p)..thanks ",)

anyway lets start wif vj vs rj de match ba..hmm i tink vj won by 6 ?..anyway..i tink it wasn't a v gd game ba..e seniors are nice..i mean they are realli nice ppl..but sumhow..we lack a factor that can assure mi that we will win e champs..haha maybe i shuld stop comparing ahs.bgals'05 wif every other teams le la..but i realli hope that vj can cont to jia u and win e champs nxt yr..coz since being in ahs..i m sorta immune wif not losing..i dun wan to lose..n my team mates too..(i believe thats how every1 feel ba)..there's this "concept" in mi now.."If I wanna do..i make sure i do it to e fullest n achieve e best results..if not..i rather not do.."..anyway vj jia u ba..i dun wan to lose..so do u all rite..jia u jia u !

den hmm alj trng..be4 that took 153 wif moi to kovan..den ate kfc..saw a few rj peeps..den slacked a while at kfc be4 i drag moi to go walk walk ard kovan..coz i nv shop in kovan be4 la..i mean e mall..den we saw a neoprint shop n went to take neoprint..haha xin xue lai chao la ;p..den after that we walked to e court..den today's trng is at e top that court..den hmm quite slack de..not veri tiring la..but still tired ;p (wad e toots i talking ?)..nbm..anyway it was quite fun la..n today i mus say that..2 person that i m most afraid of..make mi not afraid of em anymore today..they are : amelia n hui hui ;p haha dun ask mi why..but after today i not afraid abt them le la..i noe its freaking lame to be afraid of them in e 1st place..but haha ignore mi..ok next..anyway trng ended ard 10:30 pm?..den i jus reached home ard a hr ago..which ish 11:30pm..tml gotta meeting summore..haha sumhow wanna go trng rather than meeting..

haha hao la..thats abt my day ba..now let mi proceed to wad i haf been thinking for e past few days..
its a matter of trust..
for eg. in e toilet today..i told van that u can trust sheryl..n i realli mean it..i trust my team mates in ahs..in alj..esp in ahs la..coz of e yrs we played together..i noe wad they can do..i noe they will do it..n i realli trust em..
n in a game..it isn't abt team mates trusting each other..its also abt coach trusting a player..thats my personal opinion..dun mind ;p
thats sumthing that i find saddening nowadays ba..its like..onli a few coach trust mi..at least they make mi feel that they trust mi..they r my coaches in ahs..n cindy coach..
although my coaches in ahs veri fierce at times..n will "scold" n "nag" abt my jiao bu..coz i m a slow learner n i take yrs to learn sumthing..but depsite e scoldings..they trust mi..they noe wad i can do..they trust mi to guard a center much bigger than mi..they believe in wad i can do..at least they make mi feel that they do give mi e trust..even if its onli a little at times..

cindy coach also..she teaches mi new stuffs..she is currently training mi on my shootings n zuan sheng during xiao dui trng..thats why i told myself..i mus go for xiao dui trng no matter how tired i m after guo shao trng..coz i need to polish up my veri basics things..shooting style..post out..zuan shen..dribbling..although i m a "senior" there..but i tink my skills is way below them la..n cindy coach does trust mi..i dunno la..but thats how i feel..from e words she said..etc..

n i m realli grateful to these 3 coaches who trusted mi..maybe i like this say a bit inappropriate..but i mus still say.."as long as u trust mi..i wun disappoint u.." so thought a lot these few days n e reason of mi being so disappointed n sad is regarding u18 team..i dun tink i will get into e squad ba..but i realli wanna..its my dream ?..haha i dunno..but i sumhow haf a hunch that i wun..n i guess its gonna be super disappointing ba..i m afraid i can't go thru that once again..anyway since last sat match..i thought a lot abt e team..shuang fong is a gd coach..but she dun trust mi ba..i noe trust ish need to earn de..not say trust jiu trust..but pardon mi..i m realli veri disappointed for not getting e trust ba..in there..i dunno wad position i play..is it center or forward..i remembered during one trng..shuang fong asked mi n sh to train wif the forwards..but during e games i sort of play center..so can u tell mi..wad e toots position m i playing ??? i m realli veri confused n vexed n of coz veri sad..i wun get into e squad as a forward..coz there are already so many outstandings forwards n pg le..n i nv dream like being like any1 of em..coz i wanna be a gd center..but theres gwen..zheng fang n rachel there as center too..tell mi then..how m i going to get in e squad wif so many gd centers too..its not that i dun trust myself..i trust myself..i believe that i ain't that bad..but does coach believe my ability to play center..i m not as tall as rachel n gwen..i m not as strong as gwen n zheng fang..but theres definitely sumthing that i can do but i dun tink coach believes in mi ba..realli veri sad after sat..tell mi man..wads e pt of training so hard..risking my o levels to go for trngs..while others take a long break of trngs ?..i realli dunno..its a veri sad feeling..its like your hardwork never pays off kinda of things..realli veri demoralised..i always believed hard work will pay off..but after that day..i dun believe as strongly as i do like be4..

i m realli sorry if u dun agree wif wad i say..but thats realli how i feel these few days..like wad my ahs coaches told mi be4..i haf no talent for bball..thats why i need to compensate e talent that i lack wif my hard work..but in e end..it seems like no1 will bother abt my hardwork..they onli bother abt players who can play best..this is quite saddening ba..now again..i m training wif this packed schedule coz..i dun wanna give up..i still 50% believe hardwork will pay off..if this coach dun trust mi..there must be another coach who do..n i m going to try to earn e trust of coaches who dun trust mi..

hao la..shall end here le..paiseh for this long blog..jus feel like expressing how i m feeling nowadays..n sorry if u dun agree wif mi..take gd care every1 ! haha i m feeling quite ok now la..wun give up bball de..coz of my idols..coz for myself..byee..

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