][.in life.theres no forever.][.sorry my family.my friend.][

][.in life.theres no forever.theres onli now.][.sorry my family.my friend.][

jus moments ago..
i was crying like a little kid..
realli..
been so long since i does this..

was realli down..
coz of sumthings..
i felt like a fool..

my life is packed wif obligations..
i haf no time for my family..my friends..
so mummy jus scolded mi that i m like a fool..

why dun i noe how to reject my friends..
why is it so..
i dunno..

den she questioned mi..
where r they when i nd them e most..
again i was dumbfounded..
cz..i haf no idea where they are..

i tot of sum events..
sum impt events of my life..
i tot of these friends..
n onli sum appeared..

i hold back my tears as i tried to convience my mummy that they are always there..
when i haf no idea where they are..

kinda of lost..
kinda of sad..

den i tink again..
it isn't their fault..
maybe its mine..

once and again..
they tried to arrange a time to go out..
but once n again..
i failed..
i haf gotta things on..
but i will try to meet em later..
i promise..

but i tink they are sick of this le ba..
tell mi santa papa..tell mi wad shuld i do..
i wan a life of my own..
i wan time wif my family..
i wan time wif my friends..

but once again..
we r living in a world of reality..
we nd money no matter where we go..
without money we wun survive..

and every outing..
every gathering..
everytime we wanna meet..
we need money..
n the fact is..
i m broke now..
realli broke..
who noes..who cares..

i m starting to get angry..
to get sad..
i jus wan a simple life..
jus a simple one..
with enff to get by..
with enff time for every1..
n of coz sum for myself..

haiz..

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ok..all these abv are jus small prob..i guess in e end..nothing is sadder than losing ya love ones..so cherish em when u can..dun onli regret after losing em..
-jus wanna apologise to my family for spending all my time outside wif my friends n trngs..
-wanna apologise to forever5 for not being able to spend time wif em..
-wanna apologise to all my friends..

wadever it is..pls dun be angry n hate sum1..coz u nv noe when u will die..or when will that person die..life is fragile..treasure it..if i made u angry or disappointed..i m sorry !..

shall end here..kinda of tired..tml is another long day..take gd care every1 ! byee..

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