][.balancing is nv easy.i m falling soon.][
supposed to do my compre n chem which need to be handed in tml..esp eng..if not demerit pt..haha but i m not even in a single mood to do...i haf no strenght left le la..all drained..nothing is left..i dunno wad to do..i dunno wad shuld i say..all i noe is..i m all lost..
being a libra..i always tot that i m able to balance everything in life..give everything a share of my time..a share of my concern (thou it means nothing much)..but i finally came to understand..e ans is N O..NO ! u may tink that u haf tried ya best but others wun tink so..or rather feel in that way..
those ppl waiting for u will always feel irritated coz they wait for so long le..those ppl rushing will always feel that they had tried their best too coz there's simply no rest time left for em...anyway everything is a two way thing..love = ni qing wo yuan..same for quarrels..its always becoz both sides feel that they r correct..i dunno if its true..but haiz..i tink too many misunderstandings is wad that leads to quarrels ba..dunno..i realli dunno..i m so sianz now..can sum1 duplicate mi ?..split mi into many many many many many felicia..so that i can haf time for everything..every single thing..if not i tink soon i will fall..or rather i already fell..n its hard n pain..jus wanna sit there n not stand up...
today is jing de bday..jing happy 16th bday !..went to jing de hse quite late..coz got combine trng..rushed a cab down n my $15 gone..lucky ah ma got share wif mi half..so its onli ard $8 gone..haha i cannot take 53 le ba...if not..haha will reach ard 10 ?...den i can foresee that tonite's weather will be not too nice ?...haha i dunno..we went up to jing's hse n wanna place e "present" outside..its onli at that few secs that wen look at mi n i can sense e communication..we were hiding at e dustbin dere..n jing was listening to her 933 attentively..its that few mins that i felt that everything was ok..onli that few mins when we do stupid things n haf fun together..after we enter jing's hse..there's no communication i mean direct communication..i was tinking so hard to find a thing that will make wen happy n it was hao hao xian shen..thats all ba..den jing de mummy cooked nice noodles for us ;p den fungi wanna take fotos but wen need to go..so we din take a single one..quite disappointed..but nbm also la..how to smile wif e mood ?..den after that moi took a cab..wen n fungi took a cab too..actually ish wen shun lu send fungi home...fungi asked mi to join em lots of times..but i din..i jus headed for my 53 ;p coz i vvv scared that if fungi alight le..e atmosphere in e cab will be veri qi guai ba ;p realli sorry...i guess i made a wrong choice..but at that split sec..i walk wif my zi jue..
den today tok to fungi in her class..e tears so bu zhen qi de liu chu lai..haiz..i m so tired out le..i m falling down down..realli sorry to wen n fungi esp..coz they plan so hard for e sat thingy..no reason..but jus wanna say e chi pharse.."sheng bu you ji"...there are many things which i m unable to explain..n i guess u dun wanna e explanation too...den on bus9 de time..(hey thanks sh..i guess today u wanna take 31 ish wanna let mi take 9 n tok to fungi ba..i mean zi jue tells mi so..;p haha) tok to fungi..den she say..wen veri angry coz plan so hard for us le..den we in e end late..den she feels that we place bball more impt than em..den its like everything we tok abt now is aljunied..i listen to fungi like this say..i also dunno wad to say..i realli dunno la ;p i mean wad can i say..my heart inside they are more impt..but my actions seems to be showing that bball is more impt(thou its realli impt la)..but sumtimes..its a kind of responsiblilty too..going for trng n stuffs is wad i realli look forward to..n its sumthing that i can't possibly giv up jus becoz i need time for u all..i mean..haiz dunno how to say also..
den today pe de time..hui min tell mi wen angry..i was like rather helpless de ba ;p haha i mean wad can i do huh ?..hee tok to ya ? i noe i can't..i will most prob break out la ;p haha den wad else ne..i tink like wad fungi n moi say..everything has a starting n an ending..i always say i dun wan e ending..but i guess if we dun wan e ending..we need to haf more understanding..like wad hui min say.."yi ren rang yi bu"..all giv in...i mean ya..fungi say last time still can feel e care n concern but not now...but i also wanna say...same here..i started playing bball becoz of u all..n i wanna cont..i will nv stop..coz its wad brought us together..n now its brinigng us apart..i need ya all de understanding too..or else i m falling soon...
sumtimes it may be nicer to be a loner ?
nbm..enff of sad things..ytr had aljunied outing..we went to eat n fish for prawns ! haha quite a fun day..den i din revise my chi test for today jiu slp le ;p hee *expected* de ba ;p haha
n yah..psps jiao hua..saw u today..but rather "busy" wif solving e misunderstandings..so din get to tok to ya ;p hee psps
take care every1 !
][.will u all?.][
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