][.夜晚的宁静，总让人胡思乱想.][

][.夜晚的宁静，总让人胡思乱想.][

对于夜晚的宁静。。
我是又爱有恨。
爱是因为，能让我静下来好好的反省。
想一想过去所发生的一切。
恨是因为思绪总在这时候起伏不定。

输了。
输了大学联赛的第一场比赛。
眼泪并没有落下。
因为我没资格。
因为成长了吗？
我不知道。
只知道，在差点落下的那一刻，被发现了。
一句鼓励，让眼泪往肚里流。
谢谢学姐！（老学姐，哈哈，开玩笑的啦！）

虽然只打了短暂的大学篮球，
但我真的领悟到了很多东西。
我们是输了。
但，绝对不能输掉精神。

而且，也学会了多一样东西。
能健健康康的享受打球的乐趣时就要好好的打。
把每一场球当作最后一场的努力一下。
加油！珍惜啊！

每场输赢都教会了我很多东西。=】
谢谢南大！
希望我能继续的成长。

当遇到这种情况时，
一小部分的我，想回到小时候。
希望你能指点我。
引导我。
守后天使，你在哪儿呢？

好啦，累了。
晚安大家！


recess wk is cuming to an end.
n it's gg to be sch again =[
BUT wells..did ketchup up w ppl during this wk!
1) a gd day Eating, Studying (thou i was a huge distraction =P) n Chilling out with llz! n of cz our da tous gui! haha super lucky de =D
2) met up w van, mf n employer for a supper =]
gdgd. at least caught up w ppl =]

ok! gd nite every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will be bac.][

][.过去的回忆，我会好好的保存着.][

世上有很多东西是钱买不到的。
其中一个就是珍贵的回忆。

那球场有太多充满着我们的回忆了。
今天打完球后，你们都不在我身旁。
我躺在地上，望着天上的星星。。
顺便看见了那颗依然耸立在哪儿的大树。
那是我们的野餐大树。

欢笑，汗水，回忆。
在哪儿，我找到了打球的乐趣。
在哪儿，我们随性的，自由的打我们喜欢的篮球。
在哪儿，我总能找到跌倒后再爬起来的勇气。

你们把我带进了篮球的世界里。
但，偶尔却引退起来。
我会好好的打，
继续的打。
直到你们回来陪我的那一天。

过去美好的回忆，
我会好好的保存着。
它们永远是我最宝贵的回忆。

现在的回忆，
我也会好好的珍惜。
因为，你不会知道，
一切几时会结束。

真的很感激！
感激猪头们！
也感谢陪我们磨练的伙伴们！
和你们打球时，
我真的很快乐！ =】
谢谢！

好啦，我也该去休息了。
晚安大家！

我，不该再想了。
因为，那是永远也不可能的。
专心的打球吧！
用心灵的力量来打明天的比赛。
不去想结果。
只要努力的享受过程。
加油！
南大加油！

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cherish em.][

][.tt instance.][

][.tt instance.][

woohoo!
break BREAK break!
finally! recess break is here! =D
e long awaited one!
so much to catch up on!
ppl tt u had lost contact w,
readings tt u had neglected.
sleep tt 1 is deprived off.
haha so much so much.

so tired.
jus came hm frm kem trng.
haha bball, still enjoying e game.
as much as e legs can't go as fast..=]
but e moments on court is still as nice.
learning frm e mistakes,
playing e game.
sweating it out.
how many more yrs can i go on?
no idea,
jus wanna enjoy it all =]

wells..jia u fe!
do not live in regret!
do not live in worries!
jus live in this moment!
start living! =]]

hao la..aching all over..shall go nua le!
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.is a motivation.][

][.crushed.][

][.crushed.][

since how long has i felt this lost?
i have no idea.
cz that was realli long ago.
screwed up all 3 tests for the 1st 3 in uni.
sighs, Sighs followed bac a even larger sigh!

the course is nice.
it realli nice.
but screwing up all.
it's jus a moment of silence n trying to plaster a smile across e face.
but, deep inside, it's crushed..
completely crushed.
full stop.

but wells, to get the rainbow, fe! u haf to pull thru this thunderstorm!
nth can put mi down! *self psycho!* lol
wells, haf to be positive! =]
if i can find a reason to be sad n down,
i will definitely find one to cheer up! =]

special thanks to llz for cuming down for e 1st match ytr!
haha yups, 10/9/08, 1st match played for ntu.
hmm haha was quite nice.
but e heavy pt is, thanks llz! =]]
realli appreciate u!

haha n to wen,
thanks!
sumtimes, a random call realli makes my day =]]
n to moi as well ;p

hao la..end here le..
take gd care every1! byeee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will get up again.][

][.growing up.][

][.growing up.][

time is passing faster than be4..
another wk of uni had zoom-ed pass again =]
handed in e 1st assignment of uni.
attend e interesting lects n tuts (thou i may doze off at times)
but..truly enjoying em all too.
all e walks frm hall to sch n bac.
all these routines haf became parts of life..
n memories tt will be etched to my mind forever ba =]

thou i m nt a gd linguistic students who keep up with all her readings.
however, frm all e tuts n lects tt i attend n enjoy,
e linguist ears n mind is slowly developing..haha i tink..=P
e ear starting to pay attention to the way ppl are speaking.
trying to und more frm their lang.
n always remembering tt we r nt supposed to be prescribtive but descriptive. =]]
we dun judge! =]]
n e mind twisting in weird ways such tt e additional suffixes of -ing is an ongoing process.
subconciously, all these jus echoes at me when i see words.
haha tt's why learning n growing. (cz it's still ongoing..haha e effect of hg234 : structure of grammar, a course tt i din envisioned myself taking in my life =P)

haha n all e catching up w e tones of readings can realli drive mi crazy at times.
BUT they r interesting..they realli are =]]
little amazing facts such as a children by e age of 18mths had acquire up to 50 vocab n they r capable of learning up to 12 new words each day! (rapid rate)
haha isn't lang jus interesting?
w/o these, how m i communicating to u at this moment?
how wuld i be noting down how i feel at this moment?
n jus to quote my tutor nala "what can be more interesting than chasing a kid ard with a recorder?"
haha thou things may be quite uncertain about the future..cz afterall we r e pioneer batch..
BUT..things will be ok =]]

n haha growing up..
in this month time,
i realli feel myself growing up wk by wk..
slowly but definitely..=]]
staying away frm hm (thou it's nt another country..but haha in a ulu place) teaches 1to take care of yourself.
furthermore, learning from mistakes and solving problems.
haha slowly but definitely..i sense e older n inner me getting out.
the desire to resolve things by myself instead of jus calling out to daddy n mummy to get everything done for me (thou to a large extent, i m still dependent on em but haha gradually, growing)

haha so many random thoughts..
guess this is e after effect of not blogging regularly ba =P
random thoughts =]

alrite..i shall end here! haha
take gd care every1!
no matter wad u faces in life..jus rmb, u r always stronger than wad u perceive..n escaping is nv a way out!
you will be able to pull thur it all!
n fav line frm jc: whatever don't kills u jus make u stronger!

i shall start planning n make full use of my day!
n be thankful for it!
but wells..plans may go wrong at times..jus work ard w it den! =]]
things will be ok =]]
take gd care every1!
byee..

o n yah..i wanna go ard e world to enjoy all e beautiful sceneries =]]
super random-ness!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.learning.][

][.Ironies of life.][

][.Ironies of life.][

..the sweetest thing is that friends and family bring us up..
..but people bring us down too..
-quoted frm a 5yr old kid =D-

hello stagnant blog!
move move!
haha yups..haven been bloggin for quite sumtime..
maybe it has all been internalised =P
haha jkjk..
gosh, time zoooooms past like no1's business! i haf already been in it for a mth!
haha..kinda used to hostel life..=]]
sch life..n all..=]
haha taking care of yaself n understanding tt "zai wai realli kao peng you" de theory =P

aw..haha life is kind of like a routine?
settling down into tutorials (is quite an accomplishment for sum1 who did onli her 1st maths tut =P)
n gg for basketball trngs..haha e lifestyle starts all over again. =]]
hmm enjoying life as it is? haha
there's so much to be thankful about in life! =]]
thankful for e friends found in uni! (eg. hall 9 mates, LMS mates, hss camp mates, basketball friends n snrs)
these ppl realli made my uni life mre enjoyable n memorable. =]]

thankful for e old n faithful friends tt stood by no matter wad =D
haha forever5, e 5yr old kid who gives e vibes (is tt a right word? haha i dunno..it feels rite ;p) to move on n jus do it!
thankful for sh n employer etc too..all those ard in their own ways..=]]
haha realli thankful..realli =]]
haha n putting a =]] behind every msg n word seems to be the structure of fe's lang.
but wells..haha it makes mi happier? =P i dunno..

aw..keep gg every1! jia u! haha

~~ haha ok..nw down to e inner self reflections n thoughts n down moments ~~
wells..cliche but no matter how positive one seems to be..
undeniably, there r many moments of reflections n moments of disappointment n dispair? haha is it a right word to use? (lol..nbm linguist dun prescribe ;p we describe! haha)

hmm with e injury of e recently recovered middle finger..undeniably, my heart sank once again..=[
e thought of hafing to get bac once again n e pain is agrh-ness.
spent time picking e pieces up to get bac.
n taking all e broken pieces up bit by bit to get em broken again is jus a big inner sigh.
finally recovering frm e post sickness sickness since e 1st day of sch..
n wanting so much for e body to get bac e fitness is jus put down by e injury once again.
it realli pains mi a little.
it realli did.

effort effort efforts..
sumtimes it take loads of effort to get sumthing gg..
n thus i believe tt wadever it is..
if i lose sumthing or gain sumthing..
it's jus my own fault for nt putting in e effort..

sumtimes, i realli hope tt things can be simpler.
n at moments such as this..
i wuld sit bac n relax..
take a deep breathe n thankful for everything, every1 tt i haf in my life..=]

yups..so no matter wad goes wrong, they will go right soon!
jus face it! cz escaping is never e way out!
if this way dun work..den e other will..=]
jia u fe!
jia u every1!
u r stronger tt u perceive! =D

hao la..enff of emo-ness! ( i wan e emo shirt thou ;p)
things will be well once again =]
jus keep gg!
nth will put u down, unless u choose to put yaself down! =D
take gd care every1!

~till i blog again~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jus keep gg!.][

][.lets get started!.][

][.lets get started!.][

time zoooooms pass!
it's the 3rd week of sch already!
getting used to walking ard sch.
enjoys n loves walking.
cherish the moments that i get to slack ard in the hall.=]

tut cuming in.
cool.
lects are nice apart frm the occasional dozing off. my bad.
but as compared to jc, e slping percentage = 10% onli.

haha n jus to note,
went for e 1st basketball training.=]
hmm haha it was quite gd =]]
the people there weren't as scary as i tot it wuld be =]]
haha guess i will enjoy playing ba.
after all..this is gg to be the last four yrs of sch life basketball. =]]

yups! everything falling in place already!
time to get started!
jia you every1!
take care and keep going! =]]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n life is a journey tt i wanna keep gg.][

][.Adapting to Changes.][

][.Adapting to Changes.][

Change is the only constant.
and the only way to be happy is to adapt to it.
enjoy e changes.
n make e best out of it. =]]

was quite tired with all e changes n adapting to uni life.
however..after 2wks, i can say..it's more or less settled down n i m ready for more =]]

haha enjoying sch..
enjoying hall life..
haha enjoying life as it is =]]
yah it's tiring at times..
BUT..be positive n things will be gd! =D

jus a quote to share..
why worry when there's a solution for e problem?
n why worry when there's no solution?
jus let things be..it will be ok! =]]

hao la.end here le! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][

][.Be 5trong!.][

][.Be 5trong!.][

gosh gosh gosh!
sch is gg to start on mon! =X
a mixture of all sorts of feelings..
haha aw, jus came bac frm hall camp today.
haha shag-ed till e max..

ah!!
be strong!
be positive!
jia you x3!
in fact x100 ba =P

a new journey is embarking soon.
a journey full of uncertainties.
a journey that is a complete change frm e past.
a brand new one.
a scary one.
but things wuld be 0k =]

so..jus wanna say..jia you to all freshies (like me)! u guys can do it all too! =D
jus remain positive n strong! =]

hao la..end here le! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.home sweet home.<3][

][.change is the onli constant.][

][.change is the onli constant.][

e finger is nt normal.
e positive lvl is getting lower.
n sumtimes, i jus feel like watching the world goes by.
all by myself.
a break away frm these.

i must learn to let go.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..
jia u ba!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.derit.][

][.n things will nv be the same.][

][.n things will nv be the same.][

haha post camp = ketchuping up time!
hasn't been doing much apart frm slping!
BUT..
of cz there r things to note down,
things tt r worth rmb-ing =]

catching a movie w sh..haha xie le, it was a gd 1 =P
a gd n fruitful ketchup-ing w llz on msn =]
being discharged by the physio. =]

however, things will nv be the same again.
e degree n flexibility is gd.
but it wuld nv be e same again.
n tt played thru my mind over n over again.
cherish wadever u haf.
cherish e moment =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1!n wen, jia you! fe supports u all the way! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.lufknaht.][

][.changes.][

][.changes.][

haha too much happened over e wk tt it's nt possible for e shag-ed mi to note it all down.
but..jus wanna say, i enjoyed myself with khazad!
haha ntu hss foc'08 is gg to be a memorable n nice memory.=]
umjiji um ji, tookie tookie, tongkat tongkat.
haha smiles!

n wells..e game..haha
sometimes, u jus haf to be mre positive abt things.

hao la..tired le..end here le! tc every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.Courage.][

][.Courage.][

i shuld be sleeping soon.
cz, i haf to reach boon lay by 7:50am tml.
haha it's e start of camp le.
14july ~ 18july.
haha been quite long since i been to camp.
n e packing was quite tiring n loads.
aw, dear heaven..pls bless me with the strength n energy to pull thur this long camp n haf fun n enjoy e process n haf an open heart! =]]

haha aw..hmm v random..but wells, getting back is nv easy. =]
it's been ard 8wks ba.
getting back is nv easy.
thankful for e ability to cont playing the game i love.
realli thankful, jus tt the need to tape and secure it in order to put the heart at ease is..nt too gd =\
e stiff-ness level n all.
haha
alright, enff of all these rantings =P
chiong ah fe!
jia u! jia u! jia u!
haha nv seen sum1 so G to cheer for herself ba =P

n o yah..jus a random note..2 consect days of bball is..haha S+S..
Shag + Shuang =P

hao la..end here le! take gd care every1! byee!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.keep gg!.][

][.haha wells.][

][.haha wells.][

haha wells..jus came home from a long yet short day =P
went super early in e morning to gesp.
n all i can say is, i tink i m loving e process of coaching le. =]

n a gd afternoon n nite chilling with ling xie =P
xie le!
haha made mi tink loads abt loads of things.
haha so so much..
but wells..
too tired to blog abt it =P
jus wanna say..
thanks loads to all e ppl that appeared in my life =]

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.life is gd.][

][.Smile my friends!.][

][.Smile my friends!.][

haha ok 7/7/08 = my 1st official day off work since 2wks after my As = 29/11/07 =P
haha had my last day of work on 4/7/08.
thanks DISCO for the wonderful memories for my 1st official office job!
heh thanks to my nice nice admin dept in particular!
thanks to jinjin,cheryl,sachiko-san n sales admin dept n all for moulding mi for this 7mths =P
wells..life moves on =]
1st exposure to e adult world is a mixture of memories which i wuld always rmb =]
let these pics memo my stay dere ba =D


][.a mixture of sales admin,ce n sales ;p.][


][.my nice nice dept.][


][.n of cz, my ufo phone which tangles all e time.][

haha n apart frm e official end to my work n hafing a gd ktv session with my grandparents place with c mei n all, 5/7/08 = jing's bday!
haha let e pics memo e day ba ;p (tink i m too lazy for words nowadays ;p)
but still! Happy belated 19 jing! We love You! =P


][.Smiles G(s)!.][


][.thanks for e childish moments.][

haha hao la..end here le! take gd care my friends! n smiles!!!! cz u r nt alone =D
be positive ya! cz u r fortunate!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.Seize e day.][

][.times3.][

][.times3.][

it's been quite some time since i blog.
hah bloggy.
life has been normal, nice?
tiring?
lol..i haf no idea.
maybe it's v simple n nice n i m jus too tired to blog =P
but still..i love my life! =D

immersing myself in e world of vcds n dvds.
life in e dramas are jus nice n far frm reality =P
hao la..end here le!
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.to make it true.][

][.i m back!.][

][.i m back!.][

haha i m back from e tai tai's lifestyle.
why is it e tai x2 life style?
u slp all u wan till ard 10am.
go for breakfast.
go shop till tea time.
haf lunch + tea break.
den massage.
n cont shopping!
den u go back to e hotel to rest.
n go for tonnes of food for dinner! (not forgetting to shop at e same time ;p)
haha overall this is a gd experience. =]
heh haf to apologise for e little "breakdown".
but wells..after an hr or so..things went back to normal =P
haha 6 days 5 nights jus zoom-ed past.
cool.
haf to tighten our wallets le =P
super tired nw =P so..let this pics memo this trip ba! =]


~Off we GO!~


~flying in e airplane~


~On the van to the hotel~


~Our 1st dinner at FUJI~
*gosh, we eat dao can roll le..BUT~


~we still went for earthquake at swensen~
*rolled back to the hotel =P*


~steamboat + buffet dinner!~
*met two holland ppl* haha


~dinner n photo taking with e bridge!~
*moi went up to sing! haha thou can't realli hear =P~





~after we alighted from our boat dinner e 2nd last day!~
*haha i skipped posting some of e pics in e middle, cz dere's too much le =P*


~haha lol, let this conclude e trip ba =P~

haha we had joy,
we had fun,
we had shag-ness.
but all = memories =]

hao la..i m super tired n fall sick le..so shall end here!
take gd care every1! byee..
haha my relaxing graduation trip =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.gd experience.][

][.time for a break!.][

][.time for a break!.][

haha in a few hours,
i m off to Thailand!
haha lao tian bao yu this trip to be safe and 5 of us would enjoy ourselves! =D
haha let's make this a memorable graduation trip ba!
off we go! =D
take gd care every1!
byee! =D

][.10.fe.15.][
][.6 days,5 nights.][

][.woah.][

][.woah.][

haha quite a lot of happening events had been gg on for e past few days.
wanted to blog but always too tired to. =P
shall jus do a random recall to remind myself of the little things tt happened. =]

~Sun~
went for guitar lesson which i can't play..den sph's table tennis event n bac hm to fetch didi n c mei for a movie.
haha those cute little kids. p4 n sec2. lol
we had tons of food man.
fried chicken, fried long beans, nachos combo, pasta.
haha n end up watching indiana jones. (a movie tt i tot i wuld nt watch ;p)
but wells..haha i enjoyed my day w e kids!
cz if nt nw..after they grow up..i m sure it wuld nt be e same experience =P
love em! =]

~Mon~
work was ok.
tuition was bad.
dun push my limits man!
walked hm frm tamp to pasir ris,
ranting to jing n moi =]
thanks pigs!

~Tues~
work was ok.
ketchup-ing w llz over mee sua was gd. =]
haha walked hm frm mrt after tt.
n yeah i love walking! haha
esp when i haf my mp3 w mi.
jus chill =]

~Wed~
everything was ok.
lol

~Thurs~
work was ok.
jus came hm frm a13's bbq.
haha n thanks to sh for walking e whole pasir ris w mi =P
lol.
as i mentioned, i fell in love w walking! =D
aw ketchuping w em was quite gd.
haha recalling e JC times.
gosh, it's jus a few mths..
but i feel old le =P
n i m hafing a tummy ache nw.
die le la.
haha aw it was a gd day =]

*random-ness*
i m nt a gd friend.
sumtimes, u jus wanna ketchup w those special peeps.
but e pace of life is too fast to be kept up w.
n sumtimes,
u jus feel like being laid back n enjoy e loner life.=X

hao la..end here le! live in e present and make it so beautiful tt it will be worth remembering. =]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.treasure.][

][.treasure.][

no matter how little that thing is to your life,
treasure it.
cz u wuld onli noe e importance when u lose it. =]

went back to cgh to check out my right middle finger.
yups..thankfully there's no nd for op or wadsoever.
jus haf to leave it in e splint for 6 gd wks.
sighs.
jus 1 wk of nt playing basketball is a =[ le.

now, it's 6 mre wks.
ran ard e court while they had trng ytr.
it was a sigh.
'it' fell despite mi holding e head up to look at e stars.
sighs.
was in a nt too gd mood.
sorry to those tt i showed black face at =]
decided to cab hm cz jus dun feel like squeezing on e train.
sorry npo.

aw back to e finger.
when e temp splint was taken out.
wow..it was.haha
numbness.
cz it's been quite long since it moves.
got a permanent splint for 6wks.
hopefully 2 wks later when i go for e appt,
it will be in better condition =P

n treasure everything.
cz even a little finger can cause quite a bit of trouble w/o it. =]
so..treasure everything. =]
n pray for all e victims of e sichuan n myannmar natural disasters.
may they recover soon! =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

n special thanks to e hao huo ban - jeff for waiting w me cz even w appointments, e waiting time 'roxz'. haha xie la huo ban. =P (thou u wuld nv see this ;p)take care n get well soon! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.impossible.][