][.woah.][

][.woah.][

haha quite a lot of happening events had been gg on for e past few days.
wanted to blog but always too tired to. =P
shall jus do a random recall to remind myself of the little things tt happened. =]

~Sun~
went for guitar lesson which i can't play..den sph's table tennis event n bac hm to fetch didi n c mei for a movie.
haha those cute little kids. p4 n sec2. lol
we had tons of food man.
fried chicken, fried long beans, nachos combo, pasta.
haha n end up watching indiana jones. (a movie tt i tot i wuld nt watch ;p)
but wells..haha i enjoyed my day w e kids!
cz if nt nw..after they grow up..i m sure it wuld nt be e same experience =P
love em! =]

~Mon~
work was ok.
tuition was bad.
dun push my limits man!
walked hm frm tamp to pasir ris,
ranting to jing n moi =]
thanks pigs!

~Tues~
work was ok.
ketchup-ing w llz over mee sua was gd. =]
haha walked hm frm mrt after tt.
n yeah i love walking! haha
esp when i haf my mp3 w mi.
jus chill =]

~Wed~
everything was ok.
lol

~Thurs~
work was ok.
jus came hm frm a13's bbq.
haha n thanks to sh for walking e whole pasir ris w mi =P
lol.
as i mentioned, i fell in love w walking! =D
aw ketchuping w em was quite gd.
haha recalling e JC times.
gosh, it's jus a few mths..
but i feel old le =P
n i m hafing a tummy ache nw.
die le la.
haha aw it was a gd day =]

*random-ness*
i m nt a gd friend.
sumtimes, u jus wanna ketchup w those special peeps.
but e pace of life is too fast to be kept up w.
n sumtimes,
u jus feel like being laid back n enjoy e loner life.=X

hao la..end here le! live in e present and make it so beautiful tt it will be worth remembering. =]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.treasure.][

][.treasure.][

no matter how little that thing is to your life,
treasure it.
cz u wuld onli noe e importance when u lose it. =]

went back to cgh to check out my right middle finger.
yups..thankfully there's no nd for op or wadsoever.
jus haf to leave it in e splint for 6 gd wks.
sighs.
jus 1 wk of nt playing basketball is a =[ le.

now, it's 6 mre wks.
ran ard e court while they had trng ytr.
it was a sigh.
'it' fell despite mi holding e head up to look at e stars.
sighs.
was in a nt too gd mood.
sorry to those tt i showed black face at =]
decided to cab hm cz jus dun feel like squeezing on e train.
sorry npo.

aw back to e finger.
when e temp splint was taken out.
wow..it was.haha
numbness.
cz it's been quite long since it moves.
got a permanent splint for 6wks.
hopefully 2 wks later when i go for e appt,
it will be in better condition =P

n treasure everything.
cz even a little finger can cause quite a bit of trouble w/o it. =]
so..treasure everything. =]
n pray for all e victims of e sichuan n myannmar natural disasters.
may they recover soon! =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

n special thanks to e hao huo ban - jeff for waiting w me cz even w appointments, e waiting time 'roxz'. haha xie la huo ban. =P (thou u wuld nv see this ;p)take care n get well soon! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.impossible.][

][.i shed a tear n u caught it.][

][.i shed a tear n u caught it.][

e best ship tt u can ever haf is..
friendship.
thanks wen! =] (my bff..haha ltr sum1 scold me =P)

aw e day hasn't been too gd.
work was ok.
but with e finger getting in e way.
n hitting it which causes pain.
e speed in work was cut down by much.
e agrh-ness.
apart frm tt, everything was rather normal n well.

driving lesson was darn bad n spoilt my day.
w e instructor scolding non stop.
i swear i was swearing in my heart for him to stop.
realli felt like screaming back at him.
wad a B*stard man.
get e hell out of it.
i was already super angry with myself n dere u r scolding n scolding.
i m sure tt helps.
in e end realli cmi n cried.
wad a b*stard man.
drain all my interests n anticipation for driving lessons.
agrh.

thankfully there's bff.
haha thanks for sitting thur e movie w mi.
i noe u jiu kuai cmi le.
thanks wen =D (a big smile for u)
n as i sat thur e show,
if dere's e 2yrs in e future,
i haf no idea how wuld i pull thur each day w/o my greatest ship.
每當我需要依靠你　你一定會在這裡
有你的地方 就有陽光
你總會在我身旁
i noe u wuld miss mi.
won't u? haha
dun worry for tt's e future =]
lets cherish now! =]

p/s: sorry sh =X

][.10.fe.15.][
][.again.][

][.6 weeks.][

][.6 weeks.][

right middle finger bony mallet finger deformity.
no basketball for u for 6wks.
may be a blessing in disguise?
haha i dunno.
everything happens for a reason.
but as i sat there for 40mins,
i realli felt like crying.
trng for e whole season,
ends w jus playing 1 game.
but nbm..everything happens for a reason =D
shuld be thankful tt it's jus a finger.
n it's just 6wks. =]
for now..i jus can't wait for fri to cum.=]
let mi noe wad i can do.

aw tt's jus e not too gd parts.
but basically, days r not too bad =P
got wen n jing to pei me for e non-govt days =P
thankie!!
"no govt" days:
.made of honour
.visitors of 230 (huo bans)
.macs
.pizza
.chilling!

haha n discussion for forever5's thai trip!
gosh..$_$ everthing needs $!
it's so diff as compared to ppl bringing u abroad.
haha we r all on our own!
l00king forward to our "bi ye lu xing" thou =P

hao la..fingers r tired le..end here!
take gd care every1! nitez!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.look to e sun n e shadow will fall behind.][
][.impossible,thus can't fall into it.][

][.possibly.][

][.possibly.][

"now i had to live a whole week with this new word 'mass' " - The Kite Runner
now i understand how Amir of The Kite Runner feels.

now i haf to live with the word 'possibly'.
sighs.
pls be ok my dear finger. =X

haha today is quite a ok day.
shall nt mention e nt as gd parts =P


Good things tt happened for e day!!
.ketchup-ing w llz!
.bbt
.ba ku teh
.durians
.coconuts
.fries
haha satisfying! =D

went to catch e jnr's game after tt =]
thumbs up for e team work n spirit apart frm a little blunder at e last part.
keep gg ok!! =D
jia you!!

after which..went for tuition tt was cancelled cz e mummy forgotten =X
den went to doc n dropped by 230.
cz to quote xiao pang "it's onli once a wk".

hao la..tired le..n pls pray for all those victims in sichun n myanmmar!!
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.pls be ok.][

][.voices of e heart.][

][.voices of e heart.][

this post is gg to be a random mixture of all tt i feel.
1st up.
uni life.
anticipating yet scary.
went for ntu's tea party today.
went dere as a lone ranger n met many other lone rangers.
haha i realli dislike e whole process of making friends all over again.
however..tink i did quite a lot of crapping afterall.=]
life has many obligations.
n i guess..mingling ard is jus one of it =]
realli haf to devote e whole of july to pulling up my socks for eng.
if nt, i m dead.
to sum up how i felt at e tea party,
it's like..fish out of e water.
but after a while, it was ok.
guess..it's e step i haf to take.
out of e comfort zone =]
jia you fe!

n tml..i m doing sum last min stuffs due to my indecisive attitude.
hopefully they wuld pick up their phones n everything wuld be successful =X
wells..realli haf to thanks llz n many more for their advice n suggestions =]
xiexie ni men!

hmm wad else ne?
basketball..
wells..haha i m e best cheer leader?
jkjk.
hmm fell down during warm up n had daisy n yun2 lol-ing at e toot move.
how great =P
n i realli haf to kudos to brave n strong ppl.
a smile despite e troubles is nv easy.
jia you!! support all those strong peeps! =D
cz i m nv one =X
wad else ne?
e knee is aching despite nt playing.
n i tink..e best period of bball is a history.
cz..i dun see anything else ahead tt wuld be as wonderful as those times be4 =]

den work..haha ending sooon!
hafin e whole july to relax n buck up! =]

n jus a random passing comment..
wen said i changed n prefer who i was be4.
i agreed.
i changed.
so..frm nw..
this moment.
i realli hope tt i culd be who i realli m.
ignore abt those talks n opinions of others.
but tt wuld nt be me.
no more.
sighs.
SMILEZ!

~look at e sun..n e shadows wuld fall behind~

end here le..take gd care every1! byeee...

][.10.fe.15.][

][.coz everything happens for a reason.][

][.coz everything happens for a reason.][

was about to blog about sumthings.
but e words pasted on my desk enlightened mi.
一切的一切都有它的因果。
所以我们永远都有路可以走。
你能找到一个理由难过，
也一定能找到快乐。

得到不一定能长久。
失去不一定不再有。

trng today was.
wells..haha like wad yayun says..
can onli use e subconscious mind to tell yaself.."JIA YOU!"
was telling yayun if this ends,
i wuld be ending my competitive basketball life here le ba =]
but like wad yayun says..maybe there's other things arranged?

haha n all of a sudden,
i recall this -> "Every ending is a beginning" =]

wells..i will hold on.
cz i love e game.
but how long more will it be?
i haf no idea.
i dun und why sum chose tt way.
but..i noe tt every1 thinks differently..
so smiles!
cz smile or cry, u still haf to live.
why not live it happily? =D

n there's always things to be happy over.
i passed my ftt.
n driving is so nice w gd soothing oldies =D

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.jus keep gg.][

][.jus keep gg.][

haha wanted to blog abt sumthings.
but wells..
jus feel e nd to guitar-rapy nw =]

rest well every1!
haf a great wk ahead!
n kem..jus keep gg! =]
n lol..a random comment BUT..ren bu ke mao xiang.
haha looks can n real person is diff =P

end here le..
take gd care ppl!
nitez! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.look up!.][

][.100% to remember the name.][

][.100% to remember the name.][

randomly searching on youtube for basketball videos.
MJ.
wow cool!
remember the name! =]

This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

today is a different day frm the mono life.
woke up to join sh for breakfast. sorry for being so late! =]
den went back to vj to play bball.
after which, lunch and chilling a little at coffee bean.
it's been quite long since i get a break frm "work".

went for trng after which.
gosh, mus be e heat.
n a little thinking gg thur my mind.
was burning.
kinda sorry twds coach too.
cz wasn't in e gdgd best of mood.
jus in a mood of wanting to train hard.
so did nt haf much of a smile on e face.
so sorry to jiao lian n high frequency de!
cz it's been a while since i played w/o a smile during trng le.=]

trying.
realli trying.
do u noe?
do u feel e difference?
do u noe?
sumtimes, i hope u wuld guide mi more.
teach mi.
how and wad i shuld do?
here i am.
dere u are.
hardwork.
efforts.
commitment.
boils down to?
i do not know.

hao la..shal end here le!
wad a chilling day!
tuition is cancelled.
NO WORK!! muhahaha
byeee..

][.fe.][
][.i m who i m.][

][.life.][

][.life.][

been thinking so much.
been thinking about so many things.
setting e direction for e future.

work is sighs.
jin jin n cheryl are jus so nice.
sighs.
think..jus a while mre ba =]
eg.went to get my pdl today which delayed for 3hrs after lunch..n cheryl asked mi to take my time n rmb to eat lunch!!

tuition is tiring.
but..satisfying when e kids learn! =]
n always nv determine ya future too early,
cz i had always dreaded being a tutor..
BUT..
i haf 5 diff and adorable kids nw =]

basketball is..
still finding my way out.
searching.
training.
learning.
fighting.

friendship is..
seemingly far..
haha but knowing tt a few old ones are floating on strong.
thanks! =]
sumtimes maintaining the bonds are realli tiring.
trying.=]

life.
is a learning process.
n i m jus gg to explore more.
till den..live each day as thou it was e last.
n u wuld treasure it e most =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jus keep going.][

][.thankful.][

][.thankful.][

thankful.
i realli am thankful.
thanks for being alive.
thanks for hafing my family.
thanks for hafing forever5.
thanks for hafing nice friends.
thanks for being healthy.
thanks for everything.

life is a journey.
a learning journey tt u jus haf to keep going.
if u nv plan, u plan to fail.
but if u planned and worked hard for it,
e end result happens for a reason. =]

been quite sian-ed at work.
cz, there's nth tt i can do.
sighs.
but tuition and coaching is giving me a little joy.
esp teaching kids tt realli wanna learn.
it's such a pleasure. =]

hao la..tired le..shall end here..take gd care every1! byee..

~a lucky person is not one that has everything.
but one that cherish everything that he/she has.
i am lucky.~


][.10.fe.15.][
][.look at e sun & e shadows will fall behind.][
][.LMS.=].][

][.come on!.][

][.come on!.][

jus came home from trng.
might haf said sumthings tt i shuld nt haf.
but wells.
jia you snrs!
i realli realli realli wanna u guys to win. =D

alrite..hands are so tired tt i can't raise it up.
been quite long since i haf this feeling le.
no stamina.
no speed.
miss passes.
sorry to hui2 n daisy (thou u guys wuld nv read this).
come on kem!
come on!
bring it on man!

hao la..jus a random post.
n gosh, i m tired.
end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.tt's e feeling.][
][.jiayou.][

][.too much.][

][.too much.][

haha hasn't been blogging much.
quite a lot has been happening thou. =]

spent a gd sun afternoon.
den went for buffet ytr.
n jus came hm frm driving.
gosh, i nd to get my confidence lvl up in everything man.

hao la..end here le..
take gd care every1!
byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.peace.][

][.无奈.][

][.无奈.][

我真的在乎。
或许我的行为和举动不能证明吧。
我的错误是我不懂得拒绝。
但，我真的在尽力了。

有时候，真的很累。
如果我能很洒脱的不管一切，
不管大家，
那么，或许会比较自由吧。

n as i think.
maybe i realli neglected you.
or rather, definitely.
i'm sorry =]

好啦。。去休息了！ 晚安！

][.10.fe.15.][
][.npo,jia you!.][

][.waiting.][

][.waiting.][

life is about waiting.
u wait for e bus to get to e destination.
u wait for ya chance.
u wait for practically everything. =]

waited at e waiting zone for e test.
waited for e interview.
waited for e train.
waited for e bus for nearly 40mins to get to tuition.
waiting seems to be a huge part of my life today. =]
but we jus haf to, cz it's part of life.

aw..watching Healing Hands 3 nw..
n there's this quote tt i like..
"my driving instructor told me to look infront, cz if you keep looking into the rear mirror or looking back, you would get into an accident."
doesn't tt reflects life too?
but it's not so easy to ignore the past and not look back at all =]
shall try thou.

hao la..v tired le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.praying for LMS.][
][.pls let mi in.][

][.the greatest mistake.][

][.the greatest mistake.][

wen is right.
my greatest weakness and mistake in life is tt, i dunno how to reject.
i dunno how to say no.
n hence all e problems.

had jus cooled down after tears of anger n words of anger spouting out of my mouth.
u wuld nt wan to know.
sorry and thank you to moi.
n also to sh.

aw..this quote tt i saw in i-weekly exactly reflects me..
"我一生中犯下的所有错误，都是我原本意欲说“不”的时候，说了一声“是”。
拒绝，是一门学问。
是一门，我必须学习的学问。
i must learn to say "no" and "reject".
realli reject.
why must i always arrange my schedules to fit others?
why do i have to give in?
why is it tt things tt i spend time n effort trying to get e pieces in place,
are destroyed by others easily?
without e least bit of apologetic.
wt_!
why do i feel so cheated?
why do i haf to make myself free n at e last min getting it all cancelled?!
it pissed mi to e max, i swear!
i dun scold vugularities easily.
but i did for a few times today.
it's sinful.
but e anger n disappointment is even more.

it's especially so, when ppl u trust so much for yrs does tt to u.
it feels so much like a betray man.
dude, do u noe how it feels?
i realli cried.
disappointment n anger.
wasted my whole wk, my msgs n everything.
a promise is a promise.
why did your promise changed during the last min?

i m freaking pissed and irritated till e max.
this is especially so becoz u r one of e few tt i trusted so so so much.
i can't be bothered anymore.

leaving everything to moi.
thanks moi.
n wen, i nd to talk to u now! so pls dun be angry w mi le la =X
n jing, i hope u r feeling better le!

end here le..haf to go bathe n prep for tml le =] take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.pissed and disappointed.][

][.n i felt like a fool.][

][.n i felt like a fool.][

全世界的人都知道。
只有我不知道。
感觉就像是一个傻瓜吧。
大家问我的时候，我是应该知道这件事的吗？
说不出口的感受。

double disappointments.
nt disappointed by kem.
cz, they played a fairly gd game despite e lost.
n i will always support em =]
thou i can't play my part on court,
i will play my part, as a bench warmer.
too much had changed.
but i m not giving up.
found my new motivation to fight on.

nt disappointed by arsenal despite e lost.
it's onli resign tt finishing is always v impt.
e efforts n process is nth,
once e finishing is made.

alright, n i feel like crying now.
how great.
u r such a G loser man!
agrh!

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.status: mixed emotions.][

][.holding on.looking ahead.][

][.holding on.looking ahead.][

jus reached hm from trng.
mus haf been mad to train despite e medication.
felt my hands trembling.
had a run.
reminds mi of vj's running.
n my upcuming 10km in june which i had yet to train for.
dead.

after e run, gosh cold *brr*.
went to sbc n had some shootings.
hmm tt was ok.
den 5 on 5.
stress lvl reached max.
if onli i culd noe wad to do, at e right time.

hao la..end here le! take gd care every1! byee..
if onli i can ignore all those.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.for e future tt has yet to cum.][

][.drive.][

][.drive.][

wad a day.
been kinda of tired cz of e medicine.
took mc today to c a doc n rest for e noon.
super nua-ing n drowsy.
woke up super grumpy n irritated.
dunno why also.
thanks loads to wen for waiting sooo long for mi n being so patient w e grumpy n bad mood G = me =]

went to apply for pdl..but once again was too late.
agrh.
haha e turning pt for e day = 1st pratical driving lesson.
woohoo..e 1st time when i step on e accelaration n went forward,
haha i wuld nv forget how it feels.
n i finally noe how it feels like to be in e driver seat =D
haha thankfully my instructor is quite nice =P
haha moving forward n reversing n smooth breakings n stalling e engines.
haha all i can say is, i enjoyed myself =D
n changed my moody n grumpy mood a little.

n i discovered tt,
i realli enjoy walking =]
give mi an mp3 n i will walk u a journey.
countryroad, take mi home..
to e place, i belong!!

end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.away from here.][

][.jus tt bit.][

][.jus tt bit.][

sumtimes, when u jus put in tt little bit more of effort.
tt little bit more of strength.
tt little bit more of determination.
u get tt whole lot more of satisfication.

jus came home frm trng.
love to run long dist.
esp w this cooling weather at nite.
love to run those dist where u can nv noe where's e ending.
cz, tt's when u push yaself to e limit.
been quite long since i ran this way.
thou it's jus a mere 10mins.
i miss those times.

n chilling by myself at kem cc's cafe,
reading "The Kite Runner", sipping my ice coffee (upon finishing mee rebus)
is jus relaxing.
an hr of chilling.
is enff at times. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byeee..

][.10.fe.15.][