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hello everybody!
i m back from manila! =]]
got a chance w e 7th seaba.
something i will always remember.
there's always something worth remembering each trip. =]

everything tt won't kill me will only make me stronger.
there's something weighing in my heart.
a decision to be make.
a very serious one.
deep deep thoughts needed.

whichever it is..
love my family n love forever5!





ok! take gd care every1!
rest well! nitez =]
it's gg to be back to reality tml!
face it! =]]

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hello bloggy!
i m currently bloggin in manila. in e lobby.
haha current status: 平静。

当付出不等于回报的时候，
不准眼泪再次滑落。
做到了。=]
想通了。
把一切当成学习的一个过程吧。
微笑面对。
承认能力不足，但至少尝试过。

我没有说要退出。
但是，目前的我只要为十二月的比赛努力。
就此而以。
其余的，我会好好想想。
选择总是不容易。
但，别担心，我承受得起。
过了21岁仿佛有了多一些力量来面对事情。

毕竟，现在也已经是个大人了。
生命里还有很多事情要追求，要努力。=]

谢谢cindy coach！及时的鼓励真的很感动。
我会尽情的继续享受这个路程。
用+ 的心来面对！ =]

take care everybody! =]
meeting my ex-philipines player once again realli made my day! =]

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hello bloggy!
hah been a long time since i blogged.
from e last post till now..loads had happened.
sunig champs,bday celebration & i m flying off tml. =]

haha 1st of all, gd job nan da!
thanks for e early bday gift! =]

and haha..finally 21!
officially an adult..haha
you won't grow any taller, feel any differences but..
the whole party made me feel really loved.
really really loved =]
thanks loads to every1 tt came and made it possible!

special thanks to..
thank you daddy & mummy!
thank you didi!
thank you gan die & gan ma!
thank you ah yiSSS!
seeing the whole family helping you with everything is really wow! 感动！
thank you everybody!


thank you forever5!
thank you wen,jing,moi,fungi!
you guys were awesome!
from the preparation night to the actual day to the aftermath!
without you guys & my family, i really can't imagine how would things be. =]

thanks wen for driving me, & all the logistics & missing arsenal's game (which meant a lot) & everything that you had done to ensure that the party goes well. thanks for assuring me that things will all be well cz you guys have my back. those msgs were really assuring when i get gan chiong and all.u r really my 1st best friend. thanks wen!

thanks jing for helping me with the makeup and giving me a new look for the party =] thank you for helping with e quiz and the streamers, with getting the deco & being e photographer! thanks loads for the msgs jus as wen, assuring me tt things would be alright and when i say thanks, u scolded me cz u guys jus wanna do all u can to make it memorable for me. thanks jing & shem!

thanks moi for all the logistics, getting the deco, setting up the food stands, blowing the balloons & photographers. thanks loads for helping me with so much despite scolding me for being a g to be gan chiong over e party. thanks for assuring me and tell me that things would all be gd and you would let action speaks more than words for our 10yrs of friendship! thanks moi!

thanks fungi for helping me the my journey through life! thanks for helping me think and cut the letters out for 3hrs plus outside the chalet while the rest were helping me in the aircon! thanks for being my photographer! thanks for helping me with all the logistics & ensuring that everything flows! thanks for everything! thanks fungi!

thanks for the 10years of friendship! <3
thanks loads forever5!
you guys had really gave me a vv memorable bday & kept me safe!
thanks for assuring me & putting up with my gan chiong-ness to keep everything perfect for the day.
thanks for nt resting much due to my "engagement" party and yet being so efficient!
thanks for surprising me with the cards which touched my heart =]




thanks for exceeding our usual budget and getting me a 2nd helium balloon becoz u guys know tt i really want one. <3
thanks for the specially designed cards and the msg (each of it touched me so!) =]

behind the scenes..=]]






最珍贵的礼物是你们给我的友情。
大家忙忙碌碌，偶尔因意见不和而吵架，但到最后还是会回到彼此为彼此建立的避风港。
愿意为彼此付出，保护彼此。
谢谢你们让我有一份如此可贵的友情。
认识你们，真的是我的福气。

谢谢! iloveus!

thanks loads to 5-yr-old-kid too!
人生得一知己，真的足够。
thanks for the 5yrs of friendship!
thanks for helping me out with the cake!e design and all! cz i really can't decide and u helped me! (which turned out really awesome!)
thanks for liasing with mei2 and reminding us that we need to get chairs! (haha i know, i know)
谢谢你总是在我的生命里扮演着大姐姐的角色！
and thanks for e nice scrap album which beautifully 记载着这段友情的点点滴滴。
很美，很用心，很喜欢。<3
thanks loads llz!

i m certain we will fill the album with more to come and show e kids someday! =]


thanks loads to roomie too!
thanks for helping me get the guestbooks stuffs and helping me cut and design it!
thanks for sending out my wishlist to all and liasing with everybody to make sure tt i get my wishlist =]
thanks for helping me get stuffs and gg back to get e helium balloon! =]
thanks for helping me carry e cake!
haha thanks for e friendship! we been through ups and downs but rest assured.
a friendship that encountered ups n downs is a friendship to last =]
thanks loads for everything! =]



thanks loads to these special people!
and thanks loads to every1 that came!
really appreciate it! =]
the greatest gift that one could give is to come! =]
thanks loads every1! from my childhood best friend to my uni friends!
thanks for seeing me through 21yrs of life!
each and every1!
thanks for being part of my life and thanks for coming to celebrate this memorable day with me! =]]



thanks to diana and family for coming down!
as i flipped thru my childhood pics, all the memories were jus diana and felicia!
so glad that you came tt day and e little bk which recorded our childhood!
thanks diana dinosaur! can't wait for dinner with u when i m bac frm manila. =]

thanks to team ahs - sheryl, ling, sek, chu for coming! *sheng zhong woosh* would never forget how much i love the game. it was u guys tt made up e happiest part of bball for me =] thanks for coming! =]

thanks to team kem for coming down! xiao dui for coming down be4 and da dui for coming down after! thanks loads! *xing xin* really touched. miss playing in kem! would be back soon! thanks for being 6yrs of my life!

thanks to 230 guys for coming down - xiaopang, qy,wx, kg n jeff.
thanks guys! thanks for all the steamboat tt u all had treated me!
really missed playing bball with u all! =]

thanks to nan da bball!
thanks loads team!
thanks for coming, for the sb, for e running shoes and for being being present!
u guys roxz my world in ntu! =]

thanks to lms mates for coming down! (and being e earliest)
thanks for coming and thanks for seeing me thur e 3yrs of academic life!
u guys wuld be missed nxt sem! =]

thanks to hall mates for coming!
jiaying mama, jo and wl!
thanks for coming! hall life wuld have been diff without u all! =]

thanks to programmers for coming!
thanks for being present! hope u all enjoyed urself as much as i do! =]

thanks to my tuition kids and family for coming down too! =]

should i miss out any1, pls forgive me!
it's 4am in e morning le! =]
once again, thanks loads everybody!
thanks for making my day special with ur presence!

and lastly, special thanks to..

daddy and mummy!
thanks for 21yrs of love!
thanks for caring for me more than any1! =]
m glad tt i managed to rush home to celebrate e moment! <3



family <3


hao la! i shall go zzz le.
flying off to manila tml noon till 30th oct.
so..anything jus email me ok! =]
hopefully there is internet connection!
haha..i would be kidding if i say i m nt nervous abt e trip.
how i wish 5yr old kid is here with me at the moment.
overseas trip (bball) jus get me jittery due to the past experience.
but breathe in and out.
this will be ok!
it will be good!
let's go team!
let's go fe! =]
con-fe-dence!

take gd care every1!
dun let e haze get u sick like me ok!
see u in 9days! =]

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若我想说，那就不是秘密。
若我不想说，那我就是无论如何都不会说。

我没有很多秘密。
所以都可以很坦然相对 =]

很多事情都需要很多时间来遗忘。
忘记一个人就和努力想想起一个没有遇见过的人一样难。

最近想的比较多。
面对曾经很熟悉却变得陌生的人时，需要很大的勇气。
但是，一旦时间久了，其实真的没想太多了。
两个人都不在彼此的世界很久了，那段过往就真的变成了过往。

时间，你已经帮我冲淡了一段过往。
能不能请你帮我冲淡另一段？
我已经很努力了。
是不是我不够努力？
是不是我的记忆太好？
无论如何，请您帮我这个忙。
谢谢您！



haha just some random thoughts!
no worries!
take gd care every1!
rest well! nitez =]

last game for sunig tml!
let's go 3s! =D

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快乐不快乐。
没有人应该决定你的快乐或不快乐。
只有自己应该主宰自己的人生，自己的心情。

不快乐，就有责任让自己再快乐。
不要埋怨老天。
不要责怪任何人。
就休息一下，让不快乐的情绪随风而去。
就让它随风而去。

在世界上，还有更多令人难过的事。
一点小事，真的没关系。
没关系。

别问我为何不快乐。
因为，没什么快不快乐。
只是，偶尔的沉默。

take gd care every1!
nitez!

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Happy 1000 post bloggy!
You had served me well thur' out these yrs!
Thank You very very much! =]

been trying to focus n mug for tue's quiz.
but nt being in the top form mugging mode.
so decided to stop a while and do a random blogging.
this is another random post but it's my 1000th post.
so smiles!

another normal sat spent with tuitions, game n rest.
another day ahead tml tt's gg to be spent w tuitions n study n rest? =]

it had been a gd wk.
started sunig and won our 1st game.
could have fought harder and get a better win but gd job team!
let's keep going for e remaining 2 teams ok!
the team who wants it more will eventually get it!
let's go THREEs! =]
keep the spirits up!
n i wanna tape my number for every game! cz tt wuld give me sakuragi's power. =]

being back in a season makes me totally focused on e game.
haha n 2 wks be4 i bid childhood goodbye and officially step into adulthood and take charge of my life.
used to had loads of stupid wish to achieve by the time i reach 21.
but as i m reaching it, all these are not coming true but yet there's no tinge of sadness that these are not achieved.
cz, i m really contented with all that i have now =]

oo n i finally sent out invitations for my 21st!

thanks to sh for designing this for me =]
awaiting replies be4 i can proceed on to order food and all.
haha..hope tt everything falls into place on e day. =]

aw..was finding compos for my kid tml.
came across a few articles.
one of which that i like..=]

把心交给你

总喜欢做这样一个游戏：闭着眼睛，拉着你的手，让你助我跨越所有障碍，到达目标。
刚开始，总是紧紧握着你的手，担心地闭着眼睛，小心地向前跨步。可不管怎样，我还是害怕。害怕前面就是一块大石头，害怕前面是一滩深水。尽管我与你的手紧紧相连，尽管我把你的手勒得生疼，可是我的心充满了彷徨。阳光是那样烦躁的热，前方是那样恐怖的远。于是，我忍不住睁大眼睛，发现我正走在一大片宽阔的土地上。你轻轻地说:你犯规了。可我看到你眼中的失落。
我想，原来是我多虑了。
我说，我们再玩一次。于是，你拉着我的手。你温热的体温传到我的心里。我轻轻地靠在你的肩头。你让我抬脚，我就抬脚。你让我跳，我就跳。我的耳边飘着你跃动的音符，心中充满这对你的信任。最后，我轻轻睁开眼，发现我站在一片葱郁的草地上。你轻轻地说：你赢了。我看到你眼中的愉悦。
既然是朋友，就丢弃那无谓的多虑，把心交给你，让你引领你走一段美丽的路程。

我也渴望有天有机会就这样闭着眼睛，被带到一片宽阔的草原。
在那儿看日出，日落，星辰。
简简单单的过一天。
会有这样一天的到来吗？=]

some1 told me..
I always knew that looking back to the cries would would make me laugh.
but..
I never knew that looking back at the laughs would make me cry.

what's ur take on this?
i had tried looking back on the cries and laughed at my own stupidity.
but i refuse to cry at the laughs.
cz smile becoz it happened. =]

always believed tt those tt are worth ur tears wun make you tear.
n agree with fungi - "those that promised never to hurt you, ended up to be the one that hurted you the most"

but what could we do? =]
believe that they nv meant to hurt you thou they did.
n smile n moved on.
try to forget all the unhappiness and just smile at all the laughs that you guys had shared. =]
it's hard.
but bit by bit time will do the job, heal the wound.
cz, that person that promised really din tot of hurting you. at least at e moment they did promise. i believe.

haha such a random post huh =]
2 wks to adulthood.
still behaving like a kid.
but it's ok! i dun care!
haha..gg to train daily for the remaining 2 wks.
thus, how m i gg to countdown to it? - basketball.

haha a few more yrs..n i will bid it byebye.
so love it more for now =]
hang in there knees,ankles, back, hands, fingers.
pls don't fail me =]

ok la! done w all my random thoughts.
it's 329am at the moment.
shall end off here n rest!
take gd care every1!
nitez. =]

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