][.do not give up on things that make u smile.][

][.do not give up on things that make u smile.][

*burps* jus finished a packet of malay kway teo n mee..feels so irritated by myself for making such a harsh decision..cz e chinese kway teo further down was soo much cheaper..*sighs*..but nbm..haha everything happens for a reason!!

went to lib but wasn't productive at all..screams..or rather..not productive enff..had "fun" searching e links btw everything in D.O.M which all seems to link tgt..aw nbm haha..when popular after that n moi n mi digressed into buying things for ourselves..haiyo..

ok..today is quite a simple day..woke up at 4 thou..but miraculously..nt sleepy yet..ok..time to throw my rubbish n get bac to my rubbish...opps yah i mean my work..n shall go jog tml..if nt i m realli gg to roll on court 2 wks later..hee

take gd care every1 ! jia u ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.follow ya dreams.dun settle for less.jus cont climbing.][

][.n i smiled.][

][.n i smiled.][

sumtimes i wonder why..
sum ppl jus haf e ability to make u smile..
jus like how u guys make mi smile..
unknowingly..

thanks wen, 13/2,tooty..
hee
hao la..end here le..take gd care every1..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.when i c u smile.][

][.confusion.][

][.confusion.][

mind is in a state of confusion..

for no reasons..

none of e songs on e playlist seems to suit my mood..

none seems to be e right song that i wanna listen to..

none of e pics seems to be e right dp..

none of it seems to be e right wall paper..

everything dun seems to be in place..

once again i feel like hiding..

nth seems to be right..

sighs..

breakfast at macs was gd in e morning..

afternoon was life at sph..

nite was nice w family..

my mind is already nt in e right state to use words..

so let e pics speak for mi..

sumtimes it hurts when every1 moves on w life..

seeing e once familiar figures busy w life..

leaving only their shadows casted behind..

which will soon disappears as e sun sets..

voices by e fone yet hearts nt in e conversations..

msgs appearing on e conversation box..yet..

i know..

i understand..

its nt their fault..

its jus..

every1 is too busy w life..

so m i..

i m guilty for all e aboves too..

sighs..

end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.FEarless.][

][.when everything goes wrong.][

][.i jus feel like hiding.][

][.zhuan shu ri xian.][

][.zhuan shu ri xian.][

read mamajan's blog..hao true o..
"keep in touch"..
how often do u say that?
n how often do u actually do that?..

to keep e bond..
it realli takes e efforts..
e time..
everything..
but all i can say is..
when its kept..
it jus all feels so gd..

tml gotta go camp briefing..
all e process of saying hi to ppl that u meet twice a yr..
ppl who are nice n who u call friends..
but..
it jus all remains dere..

i dunno..
maybe its jus mi..
but i dun feel comfortable under such situations la..
dunno how to say..
but yah..

den i tot of wad mamajan says..
n 2 person flashes across my mind..
they r impt ppl to mi..
but how often do i get to keep in touch with em?..

ahh..ignore mi..
jus crapping my way ard..

hao la..end here le..nt much of a mood to blog..take gd care every1!..byee..n if any1 happen to flash across ya mind at this v moment after reading this crappy post of mine..jus drop em a msg to let em noe that they r nt forgotten ba =]..

][.FEarless.][
][.yong yuan wei ni men kai zhe.][

][.edge.][

][.edge.][

it is realli a miracle that i m still wide awake at this hr of time after a trng day..jus completed my dom essay which wuld spells dome for me if i dom to my bed w/o doing it..*o ok..ignore my craps*..

aw yah..realli quite a miracle that i m still so awake nw..mus be e red bull effect..which cost a bottle of h2o and a can of h2o according to sum lame fellow like moi..haha aw xie le..

hmm..felt kinda of depressed all of a sudden after reading sumthing n thinking abt sumthing..today has once again been a bad free-throw day..sumtimes it gets so tiring n irritating when u can't get sumthing right..it jus suxz..n when it isn't e 1st or 2nd but upteem times that u haf been changing it..been changing n changing e way to shoot free throw..this coach says this..that coach says that..n i jus can't do it..it suxz..felt so lousy..i can't even shoot properly..i hate it..laid on my back n gaze at e stars..thou jus s sheryl had said..it was too bright to c lots..but there was still sum which acts s a comfort..=) decided to feel "+" n work hard once again to get it right..giving up is nv e way out..

n yah..4gotten to mention how mr kwok told us abt our maths CT n how depressing n demoralising n stressed that i felt..haiz..endless topics for revision w only abt a wk left when i 1st started couting down w 7 wks left..time realli past n i haf done nth at all! *screamS*

den..reached hm n did e essay..n read sumthing..n it strucks mi..many a times..i do feel e same way too..spacing out from e world..live by myself..ignore how others feel..ignore wadever is gg on..jus live in my own world cz e world out dere is too tiring..

haiz..hao la..shuld end my depressing thoughts..they are bad for health! =P jus trying to psycho myself..ignore mi..ok..shall end here..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.hanging on.falling off.dead.][

][.5miles.][

][.5miles.][

its over..finally..
yeah cross-country is finally over!..
realli v relieved n glad..i noe this is kinda of hilarious..
but i was realli scared..s in yah..haha
aw jus glad that its over..
kinda of sad too..cz our team..but nbm la..every1 did their best le !

but yup..hee aw went employer's hse today..hee played mahjong..haha quite fun see e da des again..haha =P den hmm wad else..lets go back to ytr la..

ytr was a family day..was quite gd..sang karaoke w my family..haha didi sang an jing for dunno how many times..was quite funny la..hee

hao la..nth much le..feeling quite gd nw..but..i noe i m so dead..so much uncompleted work..haiz..n ct is so near..i m so dead !

byee..take gd care every1!

][.FEarless.][
][.i m so dead.][

][.special people.][

][.special people.][

its gonna be chinese new yr tml!

had reunion w forever5 last nite..earned myself a 6mths old stomache..ate n ate..its was realli great to be w em..haha so fast..almost a decade had pasted..they grow n yet they dun seem to haf grew..=P..haha watched quite a few shows.."A moment to remember" => it was such a tear-jerking korean movie..*thumbs up*..den "sinking of japan" => fell asleep..*opps*.."Yours, Mine and Ours"=> it was quite a nice movie..sweet n simple..haha

came bac hm n did spring cleaning w didi n u will wonder how time realli passes without giving u a little space to breathe..i m becoming to feel that ah di is no longer e little cute bro that i used to haf =P but of cz he is still my bro la..haha..spring cleaning was gd..

den i came to my rm..looked thur my display set..maybe i shuld get a treasure box too fungi..get a treasure box to store all those meaningful stuffs from special people in my life..happened to c this bookmark n i smiled.."Excellence is not in being e best but is doing your best"..read n i felt realli touched..it was given to me last yr..sumwhere during my A div..e down down down into e deep valley period..it was given by npo..thanks jiao lian..your words were realli comforting n encouraging..xie xie ni..my idol..

haha hao la..kinda of tired =P shall go n rest a while..hee take gd care every1 ! byee...

][.FEarless.][
][.thanks for finding me.][

][.grouchy day.][

][.grouchy day.][

dere's couch potato..
n dere's grouchy me !
today is realli a v bad day!

*humph*..locker got busted by sum bastards..
was down w a flu..my nose dou wanna drop le..
den..file dropped..
den sum china scholar jus walked right into my face n sat on my seat at e concourse..
n i haf to find a new table..haiz..
suay dao maxz..
den today matong n sh dou nv cum..
onli left mamajan pei wo..
xie lo mamajan..=D

dragged myself thur e 4.8km run..
been so long since i ran for so long =P
hmm..it was..haha tiring la..
trng was ok..
i will try to like my team more..=D

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.watery eyes.][
][.falling sick.][

][.lifetime friends.][

][.lifetime friends.][

haha..today is once again a gd day!

xie lo shang tian !

haha

why is it that u guys can jus make my day so great?

e joys..

e laughters..

e foolishness..

e lame-ness..

everything..

haha u all made my day once again !..

haha so simple..

so sweet..

it jus reminds mi of e times when we were young..

soon it's gonna be a decade =D..

hee love u all..

looking forward to our reunion dinner ! =D hee

haha ok..today is a great day..shot my 1st 3pt in a game..went to orchad lib to read for e afternoon..=>lan qiu tian shi..that bk seems to be meant to be for mi =P..haha shall blog abt it after i finish reading it la..hee den met em for dinner n shopping in take was fun..haha our monkeys ! xie lo moi..haha..

hao la..tired le..end here liao..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][

][.forever5.][

][.hana kimi.][

][.hana kimi.][

these few days..
nth makes my day better than watching hana kimi
n listening to its ost..
haha..
its all abt it =P
jkjk..

sch is as usual de tiring..
just hope everything will go well tml..
*pray*
hee..n when it do..i shall blog again..

hao la..end here le..byee..tc every1!

][.FEarless.][
][.knee : pain.][
][.xiuyi =D.][

][.team.][

][.team.][

e post below is based on my current feelings..sorry that u may nt agree with mi..but haiz..this is how i feel nw..i mus say that this team does haf gd times too but..haha..

define it..
i m kinda of guilty that i din go for team outing today..(sorry sh)
but to be frank..
i was kinda of relieve at e same time..
hmm i noe it's bad to be feeling that way..
but..
since last sat after friendly..
i dun feel like i m in a team..
i realli dun feel like..
wanted to blog abt it that day..
but wasn't realli in a mood..
so shall blog today instead..

it was realli disappointing when all jus walk away n can't even bother to wait..
dun they noe that mei2 is nt back yet n that i m waiting for her..
not even a single soul bother to stay n wait..
all jus left..
i was soooo pissed that i almost cried..
lucky daddy was sumwhere nearby..
n i decided to go hm with him..
was too disappointed to go for lunch w such a team..

rmb sum1 once told mi..
friends wun leave each another behind..
true friends will wait for u even if e others haf left..
i learnt abt it frm a friend..
n it is realli true..
its realli sweet n nice..

actually since quite some time ago..
i haf been tinking..
are we realli a team?..
its just too superficial..
is there realli a need to prove that we r realli a team?..
it's all in e heart isn't it?..
it's jus disappointing..
so much so that i can't be bothered with em anymore..

i tink i haf realli changed a lot..
i used to love n look forward to trngs in ahs..
i wanna win e title tgt w em..
i wanna play w em..
i dare to shout at em on court..
we jus shout at each another..
nt becoz we hate one another..
but becoz we wan each to perform even better..
at least that was how i felt..
but nt e way nw..

i miss my TEAM..
my ahs team..
i miss playing bball w a REAL TEAM..
i swear..
at least those team mates will wait for u to leave e place tgt..
together..
haf fun tgt..

trngs then was tgt..
was for e title..
but to be frank..
i m getting selfish..
i m playing bball nw becoz of my ahs team mates..
n becoz of myself..
i wanna improve..
i wanna get better..

during runs..
i m jus pushing myself to e max..
cz i dun wanna lose to em..
i wanna prove em wrong..
its jus tiring..
its jus too competitive that sumtimes i feel that i m suffocating..
i dun wanna push myself that hard anymore..
but deep down i dun wanna lose..
i hate it when they say ahs ppl can't run..
who are u guys to judge?..
no1 on this earth can n shuld judge e other person..

ok..ignore mi..
u can choose nt to agree w me etc..
i m also sorry for wad i haf blogged..
but that's how i haf been feeling..
its jus that i din say it out..
apart to those that realli bother to wait for mi in times of needs..
those that wuld wait for mi even when every other soul left..
those that realli cares for mi..
those that wun leave mi alone crying..
those that wuld truly stand by mi after a disappointing game..
that's wad i call true friends man..

wadever it is..maybe i m jus too disappointed that i rant on n on now..i do haf gd times in e team too..but it is jus too disappointing many a times..but wad can i say..since i do nt realli regard em as a team..as much as i try to..so..i can't expect em to do so too =)..nice yet nt nice..it's hard to define..jus too hard..

alrite..shall stop ranting on..today i went to pray..pray for those that matters to mi..realli hope that everything will go well n gd for em..i realli pray w my heart..hope it will all cum true..new yr is cuming..hope everything will turn for e better..=) n yup..today is overall a nt bad day..cheer up matong ! cheer up sh !

][.FEarless.][
][.friends are not abt quantity.its abt quality.][

][.thanks.][

][.thanks.][

ok..1st thing 1st..thanks heaven..
thanks for my not bad sat..
hee..thanks for making my day nt bad =)

friendly was ok..
shall nt tok much about bball..
its confusing..
tiring..
haha whatever will be will be ba..

bus-ride hm with daddy was nice..
tok all e way hm..
haha..

shopping for new yr clothes was funny n nice..
haha..gotcha my new yr clothes le..hee

dinner w forever5 was gd..
haha looking forward to our reunion dinner..

sun is nt bad too..

started w breakfast w my family..
went for a hair cut..
trng..
dinner..
home..

hee n yeah..hair is short 0nce again..hmm lets make it a new start ba..haha ok..nt in a blogging mood..haf lots to say thou..so summarized le ! haha ok..end here le..byee..take care !!

][.FEarless.][
][.sumtimes it will get confusing.][

][.sleep debt : cleared.][

][.sleep debt : cleared.][

felt like a pig for sleeping right after my lunch instead of doing my hw as intended..but woohoo..i realli enjoyed it..felt so much better after e sleep..haha jus reminds mi of my pw on slp..

hee aw..sumtimes its just so nice to be home early n tok to mummy, relax n do stuffs that i enjoy n wanna instead of staying in sch..its jus..hmm dunno how to say..terrifying?..i jus wanna get out of IT asap..instead of staying bac n nua in dere..

alright..realli pray n hope that tml will be a gd day! haha pray that everything wun be as bad as always for e friendly against rj..its jus terrifying to play..i dun mean playing w rj..but playing in vj..hate myself for nt being able to adapt to e stress still n can't even score e underbasket at times..it realli make mi damm angry w myself..like wad e hell r u doing man felicia? its jus an underbasket! hate it..hate that feeling..it nv happened when i was in ahs..so much haf changed..jus hope e sch season will be gd..win or lose..i dunno..depends..whatever will be will be..

haha ok..enff abt basketball ! also pray n hope that tml's outing w forever5 will be gd..but agrh..moi still nv reply mi! lalala..pray pray that it will be possible..nope! it mus be possible ! been so long since we met..

hmm ok..shall end here for today! take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.mei you ren neng qu dai ni zai wo sheng pang.][