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hey bloggy..sorry that i hasn't been updating u as much as i wish i could..cz..too many things have been happening since my bday till now..which is why my last post was on the 16th..17th was my 17th bday..it wasn't an exactly great day..but still thanks to many for making my day..eg.
1st- mama jan, mamamatong, sh, tricia, jo, shu hua. mel..haha for e ice cream cake n card..
2nd- floating gang..
3rd- forever5..
haha n yah..all i can recall is..i feel that e most meaningful gift that one can ever receive is e bday cards which had melted my heart..yup..
18th till now has been a v dark period..quarrels out of no reasons which is not resolved up till now due to my stubborness n refusal to turn back..shitty results that i haf to face..wad else..its jus been such a shitty period..n i m v sorry to 2 grps of ppl in particular..forever5 and floating gang..becoz of us..or rather mi..e 6 0f u..3 frm each side has been so tire out..that sum even fell sick becoz of us..i m realli sorry..
actually there's lots of things that i realli can't understand..u told mi to forget everything n jus be bac friends as we were on the 16th..but its realli hard for mi..how do u expect sum1 to forget sumthing after its been done..e hurt inflicted jus can't be undone..same for mi n you..e hurt that u inflicted on mi..n e hurt that i inflicted on u..its not jus words and talks that can resolve everything..if i m nt wrong..ur current nick says..culd u stop torturing mi anymore?..haha i dunno wad to say..all i can say is..if wad happened on the 18th din happen..we will still be wad we used to be..maybe its my pride..maybe its my stubborness..maybe its my heart..maybe its my mind..i dunno wads it that is keeping mi frm turning back completely..but yup..i m realli sorry to all..all i can say is..let time do the job..i m sure that it will be able to..=)
n yup..i m jus such a disappointment as according to a few that i care..sorry for being a disappointment to u..but yup..that's jus mi..i will try to change..but sumtimes its jus best not hafing any expectations isn't it ? =)
hao la..end here le..gotta go bac to pw..n like i always say..there's of cz happy things that happened in e mist of all these unhappiness..but yup..shall blog em in my nxt entry tgt with all my happy thoughts..meanwhile take gd care every1! byee..
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