][.more than words.][

][.more than words.][

things seem to take a change of direction..finally..haha maybe its jus me..but yeah..kinda of glad that things are going back to wad it used to be..

tml will be nov le..i shall make a change to my life n enjoy e last 2 mths of yr 2006..=)..
haha yup..n i m a lucky fellow who nv knew how lucky i ever was =p..

hao la..thats all i can say now..cz..its more than words..

and jus as i say..there are things to be happy in life =)..

ytr sumthing happened..
n it set mi thinking..
sumthing impt seems to be gone..
does that snap symbolises sumthing?
maybe i m jus thinking too much..
maybe its time i learn to let go bit by bit..
so that it wun hurt that much when nxt yr cums..
but no worries..
sumthings that matter to mi wun change..
it still means a lot..
n it always will..=)

][.FEarless.][
][.outshine.][

][.if only i can leave.][

][.if only i can leave.][

hey bloggy..sorry for not updating u..since 17th till today..i haf been wanting to tell u so much..tell u wads going on with my life..but i m jus too tired to do it..

aw..17th was my 17th bday..n yup..mus thank a few grps of ppl who made my day..
-> mama jan,mamamatong, sh, tricia,jo,shu hua,mel
-> floating gang
->vj bball gals
->forever5..

yup..had pleasant n unplesant memories on that day itself n i found out that e most meaningful gift is non other than the cards..its wad i treasure e most..

aw..sorry that i can't go on elaborating..life has been in a mess since 17th till today..n its still in a mess thou it seems that e sea is beginning to become calm and all once again..but e heart isn't feeling any gd..everything jus suxz..

if only i can leave..
i will..
to a place only i noe..
n start my life all over again..
2006 has been a bad yr..
n oct which was supposed to be a gd mth..
has been dark..
maybe its jus becoz of my stubborness..
but ya..
things jus can't be undone..
wads done is done..
all i can do now is..
slowly forget every single unhappy memories between us..
on the other hand..
to another special one..
maybe its time i learn to be independent and stop leaning on u as much as i wish i could..

hao la..end here le every1 ! take gd care ! byee..hafing a bad headache now..shugs..but ya..jus gotta say..thou so many unhappy things happened..dere are still happy memories ! thats wad i always believe..life isn't all that smooth..but things will be ok in e end =)..

][.FEarless.][
][.i will.][
][.learn to be independent n strong.][

][.if only i can leave.][

][.if only i can leave.][

hey bloggy..sorry that i hasn't been updating u as much as i wish i could..cz..too many things have been happening since my bday till now..which is why my last post was on the 16th..17th was my 17th bday..it wasn't an exactly great day..but still thanks to many for making my day..eg.

1st- mama jan, mamamatong, sh, tricia, jo, shu hua. mel..haha for e ice cream cake n card..
2nd- floating gang..
3rd- forever5..

haha n yah..all i can recall is..i feel that e most meaningful gift that one can ever receive is e bday cards which had melted my heart..yup..

18th till now has been a v dark period..quarrels out of no reasons which is not resolved up till now due to my stubborness n refusal to turn back..shitty results that i haf to face..wad else..its jus been such a shitty period..n i m v sorry to 2 grps of ppl in particular..forever5 and floating gang..becoz of us..or rather mi..e 6 0f u..3 frm each side has been so tire out..that sum even fell sick becoz of us..i m realli sorry..

actually there's lots of things that i realli can't understand..u told mi to forget everything n jus be bac friends as we were on the 16th..but its realli hard for mi..how do u expect sum1 to forget sumthing after its been done..e hurt inflicted jus can't be undone..same for mi n you..e hurt that u inflicted on mi..n e hurt that i inflicted on u..its not jus words and talks that can resolve everything..if i m nt wrong..ur current nick says..culd u stop torturing mi anymore?..haha i dunno wad to say..all i can say is..if wad happened on the 18th din happen..we will still be wad we used to be..maybe its my pride..maybe its my stubborness..maybe its my heart..maybe its my mind..i dunno wads it that is keeping mi frm turning back completely..but yup..i m realli sorry to all..all i can say is..let time do the job..i m sure that it will be able to..=)

n yup..i m jus such a disappointment as according to a few that i care..sorry for being a disappointment to u..but yup..that's jus mi..i will try to change..but sumtimes its jus best not hafing any expectations isn't it ? =)

hao la..end here le..gotta go bac to pw..n like i always say..there's of cz happy things that happened in e mist of all these unhappiness..but yup..shall blog em in my nxt entry tgt with all my happy thoughts..meanwhile take gd care every1! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.tears.][

][.if only i can leave.][

][.if only i can leave.][

hey bloggy..sorry that i hasn't been updating u as much as i wish i could..cz..too many things have been happening since my bday till now..which is why my last post was on the 16th..17th was my 17th bday..it wasn't an exactly great day..but still thanks to many for making my day..eg.

1st- mama jan, mamamatong, sh, tricia, jo, shu hua. mel..haha for e ice cream cake n card..
2nd- floating gang..
3rd- forever5..

haha n yah..all i can recall is..i feel that e most meaningful gift that one can ever receive is e bday cards which had melted my heart..yup..

18th till now has been a v dark period..quarrels out of no reasons which is not resolved up till now due to my stubborness n refusal to turn back..shitty results that i haf to face..wad else..its jus been such a shitty period..n i m v sorry to 2 grps of ppl in particular..forever5 and floating gang..becoz of us..or rather mi..e 6 0f u..3 frm each side has been so tire out..that sum even fell sick becoz of us..i m realli sorry..

actually there's lots of things that i realli can't understand..u told mi to forget everything n jus be bac friends as we were on the 16th..but its realli hard for mi..how do u expect sum1 to forget sumthing after its been done..e hurt inflicted jus can't be undone..same for mi n you..e hurt that u inflicted on mi..n e hurt that i inflicted on u..its not jus words and talks that can resolve everything..if i m nt wrong..ur current nick says..culd u stop torturing mi anymore?..haha i dunno wad to say..all i can say is..if wad happened on the 18th din happen..we will still be wad we used to be..maybe its my pride..maybe its my stubborness..maybe its my heart..maybe its my mind..i dunno wads it that is keeping mi frm turning back completely..but yup..i m realli sorry to all..all i can say is..let time do the job..i m sure that it will be able to..=)

n yup..i m jus such a disappointment as according to a few that i care..sorry for being a disappointment to u..but yup..that's jus mi..i will try to change..but sumtimes its jus best not hafing any expectations isn't it ? =)

hao la..end here le..gotta go bac to pw..n like i always say..there's of cz happy things that happened in e mist of all these unhappiness..but yup..shall blog em in my nxt entry tgt with all my happy thoughts..meanwhile take gd care every1! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.tears.][

][.ye zi de li qu jiu jing shi feng de zhui qiu hai shi shu de bu wan liu?.][

][.ye zi de li qu jiu jing shi feng de zhui qiu hai shi shu de bu wan liu?.][

haha i haf always been asking myself this qn every now and then since e day i heard this frm music diary..it means e departure of the leaves from e tree is becoz of the pursue by the wind or becoz e tree jus refuse to hold on to it ? ..i realli miss e days where i can listen to music diary..now there's no more music diary..or maybe is jus that i miss it..haiz..i miss e days..

i knew it..i knew i m so gonna haf sunday blues..cz tml is monday..n i guess we r gonna get bac e results le ba..n it jus suxz..haiz..today suxz too..woke up early in e morning at 7am..cz pw grp supposed to cum at 9am..but in end..haiz..den its pw e day away..den rushed to watch match..in btw i gotta pissed over things that i also dunno why i m pissed at..maybe its with myself..yup..haha

ok..so ya..jus ain't feeling gd abt anything..n den..haha yah..knee hurting for no reasons now..din even exercise today..but..shugs..haiz..still waiting to print pw =)..jia u ba da jia..

haf sum kind of a hunch that there will be sumthing..but i jus walked past it..n din turned bac..cz i always believed that wadever is meant to be will be..thou deep in my heart i was praying that it will happen but it din in e end..n i expected it..i expected that it wun..n maybe..in e 1st place..i was tinking too much..haha yah..i m a passive person without courage..thats at least wad i feel ba..dere's lots of things that i wun fight for..n onli live in regrets..wad a coward isn't it ?? hate myself for that too..i realli do..maybe i shuld change..i will try..

n yah..blues..i love blue but not blues..psycho myself to smile..but haha e smiles that are forced are realli sucky..n when u jus can't do it..u jus can't..so no pt..hee another theory..dun force yaself to do wad u can't..haha n yah..i discovered one more thing today..when u r down..those that u hope to haf by ya side..jus sitting by u..lending u a shoulder..ain't e ones beside u..but i m still thankful for those by my side..i realli appreciate u all..yup =)

hao la..end here le..so many theories learnt in a nite..woohoo..shall go nap while waiting for tricia's call..byee..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.i hoped u was e one by my side.][
][.but u ain't dere.][
][.n thats when i decided to let go.][
][.i shall be independent.][
][.but u appeared jus as i was abt to give up.][

][.friday the 13th.][

][.friday the 13th.][

heyo bloggy..haha ps that i hasn't realli been blogging..hmm today is fri the 13th wow..black fri..haha mine is ok la..cz went to sch n came hm n had a great slp from 2plus all e way till 6plus..had a bad stomache thou..

hmm haha no black fri..but daddy gotta his black thurs n we in turn gotta too..that piggy daddy gotta into an accident again..haiyo..was at changi with the airplanes right abv my head..den mummy called..but lucky he was not realli seriously injured la..but got hitted at e old injuries again..i was scolding that guy while on my way there..can't help it..i m sorry la..haha den reached dere le..that guy apologised..den i learnt sumthing..what's done cannot be undone..a thousand apologises is useless..=P..so do drive carefully yeah every1 out dere !!!

hmm ok..lets recap on my wk..went to princess n watched my 1st movie at princess and watched 2 in a row..haha thanks la moi..dragged her to watch e 2nd movie with mi to minus e waiting time..haha so we watched little man and the banquet..n hmm haha e 2nd movie jus isn't e type for mi..n went cycling at ecp that nite..yeah man..went to bedok jetty..had been longing to go dere..e last time i was dere was with zhu tous..we gotcha e sunset..n this time round..gotcha e nite view..haha n learnt sum moon and its gravitional force thingy that affects e wave..haha a lesson by sum proclaimed tian cai =P..haha

hmm wad else ne..nothing much ba..had trngs..gym..running..n my quads is hurting..haha yup..thats abt all..wanna nxt wk to cum n yet i dun wanna it to cum..i dun wanna get back my results..i tink i will be in a damm sian mode on sun ba..haha..

hao la..n yah..i haf been listening to one song..its Bu Zai Hu You Mei You Yi Hou by Energy..haha i realli like that song..but e irony is..Wo Hen Zai Hu You Mei You Yi Hou..so..haha yah..hen duo shi qing wo dou..haha hao la..end here le..take gd care ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.i dun wanna feel e way that i feel.][
][.i jus wanna be right here for u.][

][.cuore confuso.][

][.cuore confuso.][

jus reached hm from trng..o mian..damm tired..feel like sleeping le la..but can't gotta go out for pw soon..agrh!..but bo bian la..nobody wans this too isn't it =P..

hmm lots of things running thur my mind nowadays..now that promos are over..i haf all e time in e world to think abt lots of things..n sumtimes i jus hope that these thoughts will cum to a stop..haiz..but i jus could not stop it..can't stop myself thou i wanna..

dunno if u ever encounter this..but..
why is it that we mus pretend as thou we dun bother n dun care abt sumthings when deep in our heart it actually matters a lot..so much so much..
why is it so??..
is it becoz we lack e courage to face it..
i guess thats e case for mi ba..
courage..
sumthing that i dun haf..=

haha hao la..dun bother abt mi..jus being crappy..hao la..end here le..shall go n catch a 10mins nap be4 i go out..take gd care every1 !..shall blog again when i haf e gan jue ba..tc..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.devo dimenticare ciò sentendo.][

][.i m a bad shooter.][

][.i m a bad shooter.][

hey bloggy..i dunno why i m here again..haha sumtimes sumthings..u jus nv noe why..
jus like u nv noe why u feel so comfortable when u r ard wif sum friends..
jus like u nv noe why u will dial a certain no. when u r down..
jus like u nv noe why tears roll down ya face when u tink of sumthings..
jus like u nv noe why u will lol to ya hp when u received a msg frm sum1..
jus like u nv noe why u will unknowingly do sumthings for sum special peeps..

haha there's jus so many times so many things that u nv noe why..haha maybe thats life ba..
i m thankful for mine..thanks for all those ard mi..thanks lots..

haha end here le..take gd care every1 !..

ps.i realli long for my silver compass santa papa..n nice bottles to bottle up my memories..=)

][.FEarless.][
][.smilez.][

][.Pid-Kon-Laaw.][

][.Pid-Kon-Laaw.][

hey bloggy..another random day that i couldn't think of a nice title..so jus do with this yeah..its a song that i m listening to now..its by dragon5..haha how random huh..slacked my day away..feeling that sucky over my maths..it jus suxz..haiz..damm disappointed..

ooo aw haiz..suan le..now i m listening to Yahk-dee-kwa-nee..haha meaning wei ni gai bian yi qie..n yah aw e blog title de meaning is (bu yao dui wo tai hao)..haha nbm..all quite nice..haha bought this cd when they were having sales la..lalala..

alright..jus feeling a sense of lost with promos over n noeing that i m over n so dead..haha ahhh!! *STOP*

ok..shall stop toking abt studies..lets think back on my life..haha how agrh has e past few wks been..its w mi man..quarrels which used to be sumthing so alien is happening to mi so often nowadays..sumtimes i noe its my fault..but that stubborn mi jus refuse to giv in..maybe e closer u get..e more u wun give in ba..at least thats for mi..

haha ok..i m not thinking straight..ignore mi !..haha shall end here n go watch sum vcds..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.zxusi.][