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translation of bloggy's title today..e loneliness felt at nite makes one feels hurt so easily..haha alright..i m jus being lame..but thats wad i m feeling now bloggy..its so quiet in e nite..i can onli listen to myself typing n e song playing from my com..nothing else..no more scoldings from coach..no more shoutings..no more chatterings..no more..nothing..its so peaceful..a nice time to reflect i guess..n i realli ought to..there's jus so much to reflect on..but yah anyway e pics abv makes mi feel like e whole sea belongs to mi..ah wad a nice gan jue..aw thats moi n mi..e 2 zi lian kuang as others may say..but wadever la..

today after e 6 consec periods..sh,jan n matong jian zhi can say is fa feng le..mus be too tired le..haha they are like so crappy n funny la..but nbm nbm..i was realli tired too..i m aware of e work that is pilling up..i also xiang die le..but maybe due to e whole day de stomache ache..i couldn't react as strongly as em..haha matong say i m zen..hmm new word learnt..thou i forget wads e meaning of e word le..

anyway after crapping wif em..went for trng..yup..another day of scoldings from coach..i jus can't get e things rite..can't get wad he wans mi to do rite..my legs are hurting..i m tired from all these..today i toked to mr ng..n he told mi that he heard that i hasn't been in my form..n i jus told him yah..i m playing like shit now..sumthing that i can't deny..i lost my temper once again..i dun realli mean lost completely..but i noe..n i told myself hey..this is e max..dun lose any further..i feel like shit during e trng..realli..i can't interpret everything well..i can't do wad i m supposed to do..jus felt so shitified n was so fed-up wif myself..realli..lousy defence..no center moves..not e rite moves at e rite time..no..NO..no..i haf gotta nothing..realli..i feel like a piece of shit after e trng..

den i saw qingzi jie n heard abt her injuries *hope she gets well soon by mon!*..yup anyway saw her jiu remind mi of moi..injuries are so irritatin n cruel..they hai dao my friends cannot play e sports they like..n i felt quite sianz de..den i reached hm le jiu watched slam dunk..realli v nice..i love sakuragi hanamichi !..10 roxz ! 15 too !

yup den i came online..blogs to blogs..n i read some entries n it jus touches my heart..

jing's blog..got one entry is regarding if u haf a band..wad wuld u name it ?..she said forever5..n i jus felt a surge of warmth going thur mi..yes..i wuld name it forever5 too..its e name n friendship that is etched to my heart since young..i miss em..realli..miss e times together..miss playing bball wif em..miss e relaxed n enjoyments when we play..e way e ball swoosh nicely into e net along wif our laughters..i miss everything..now every1 is busy wif their own life n all i can is..da jia de that little effort..to take sum time out of e busy schedule for one another..yeah ! tml we r meeting out..n watching daisy if i not wrong..i hope its a tear jerking movie..haha..looking forward to meeting em tml..

den auntie joy's blog..she said sumthing or rather blogged sumthing that is realli realli realli v meaningful n sets mi to think a lot.."we've been blinded..ive been blinded thoroughly, in the bid for success, glory and recognition. all temporary gains.
the medals will be given out, enjoying one night of recognition, before being placed in the display cabinet and basically left to collect dust. and perhaps making a good grandmother story to tell next time.but what will really go with us, for one lifetime is really...good/best friends made.
the bonds and camaderie, the friends made and that positively unbreakable bond that binds us tgt: because we've fought and played tgt for that one passion of our lives
who remembers why we chose basketball over other sports 6-8years ago."
this realli made mi think n reflect..yes..every1's aim is e nationals champs ! who wuld wanna lose..but in e process of wanting to win..are we enjoying e process..are we enjoying the game ?..do we still haf e passion n love for this game..or are we jus playing for e sake of winning..the pride ?..does winning realli means everything ?..after getting e title..e medal will be kept in e display set..e results will be announced to e sch..it will be used as an intro..i was from ** sch..n we were e ones that won e bball champs..wad else do we gain from e champs ?! i guess e most impt thing gain shuld be e friendship fostered ba..

hmm i still remembered why i chose bball over other sports 6 yrs ago..its becoz of THEM..i lied to mummy n went to sch earlier..uses my C.O's break time to see em play..n i told myself..i wanna play wif em..n we had trngs..always full of laughters..running to buy drinks in diff % n hafing e auntie to warn us that if we haf stomache ache..it isn't her fault le ah..n staying bac after schs to play games..shooting e balls in wadever way we like..n when e ball swoosh into e net miraculously..we will jus lol n cont playing..till i reached hm late n all tanned n get scoldings..but we cont to do so day after day..cz we knew that e 4 others r suffering e same scoldings too..we were not strong..in fact we were those kind of teams that ppl r always ready to trash..but who cares..we enjoy our game..realli..i meant it..although we onli made it to e east zone 3rd when there r onli 4 teams..we were already v happy le..e joy that we had then is sumthing that i will nv ever forget..e simple n sweet moments..

den sec sch..east zone champs became a must..n nationals at least top8 wif 2 yrs of nationals champs..expectations were set by coaches n teachers..trngs were tough n tiring..coach nv fails to scold mi for my mistakes..but i accept em..cz they onli scold when they noe that i m focusing n get to learn frm my mistakes..e achievements during sec sch wif e team was great..we were strong ! i loved those times..those times when we go back-packing..e times when we play stupid games..e time when we do stupid things..e time when we each secretly stayed bac after sat trngs to shoot balls n jus to find out that e others r doing e same..e times when we wuld jus play bball after sch in our sch u..e times which we spent at 85 n bbt shop..these were e times..e glorious moments i wuld say..

now as i tink bac..wad does champs mean to a team ?..if i ever were to coach a team in e future..i wuld emphasize on e happiness n joy that each player derive from e game instead of e win..i wun deny that champs is definitely sumthing that is worth fighting hard for..but i wuld nv make my player feels stressed out n negative jus becoz i wanna win..if i was to be a coach..i will wannna my player to feel confident of herself..n enjoy e game..cz i feel that its onli then that she will plays her best out..n a national champs wuld be an extra bonous..e friendship fostered n e joy derived during trngs n e games are e most impt things to mi..if i m ever a coach..

haha reflections..thats my reflections..i jus wanna play e game i love with happiness with joy..i dun wanna play e game i love wif tears n anger..i dun wanna e love n passion to transform into disappointment..i realli dun wan..wo zhi xiang kuai le de da qiu..if i can..i will return to my pri sch time..when winning or losing dun matter to us..there's no such things as us trashing others..but onli others trashing us..but at e end of e game..we will still be so glad n happy..cz we enjoyed e game..

hmm hao la..end here le bloggy..i dun mean anything la..maybe cz A div semis is approaching le..so feel a little..haha gan chu hen duo..hee dun mind mi..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

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