][.thank you my friend.][

][.thank you my friend.][

was doing this quiz online jus..like a few moments ago..hmm din believe that it will be so true..but e ans at e end of e quiz is realli v true..

its a quiz regarding e kind of friend that u wuld wan to be with u..n mine happens to be sum1 like this..

mY Supportive Sidekick
You know who we're talking about — the champion consoler, the person you can always count on, the person who knows how to clean up even after the biggest emotional superspill of your life. This friend gives you a one-on-one rush like no other. This confidante for all seasons can probably even read your mind just a little. Or don't you remember the last time they finished a sentence for you?

n yah..i tink its v true..i realli nd such friends..i dun deny..i m v dependent..but onli towards those that i trust..these few days i realli tot of lots..yup..lots..tot of all e friends that i haf met in my life journey..

sum came n stayed n i haf gave them a key known as forever..cold wars..quarrels..but in e end..everything will be back to be4..n in fact even better than be4..cz thur these..we understand e importance of one another even more..n dun wanna lose this friendship thou we nv say..as we cont wif our life..we find new friends who we can depend on..but nv will i forget these friends whom i can FaLl back on..anytime..those whom u do stupid things together..n laugh at ur stupidity together..those that shows u time will be e witness for our nv ending friendship..those that u suffer together n share e happiness together*thanks to em..zhu tous..*sae rang hoe yo..thanks for understanding mi n accepting mi e way i m..in front of u all..i nv had to put on my brave front..thanks for trusting mi..

sum came n stayed for a short while..making an impact in ya life..taught u things n were close for a period of time..but after that as we grow..differences surface n jus as ice n fire cannot be together..this friendship will somehow gradually fade away..but during this period of time..this friend realli taught u alot..n was realli dere for u when u nd a listening ear..a shoulder to cry on..but due to e ideology diff..i left..cz its realli hard to be close friends wif sum1 who has diff ideologies..but i m realli grateful that in my life..i met sum1 like her who taught mi things that i nv knew..n gave mi e special friendship that i will always rmb..thou it did not last..but i mus say n tell her if she ever read this..i m thankful..n sorry..*thanks n sorry hope we still can be friends*

sum friends are those that u will say "hi" n "bye" to..n crap together on e way to school..i m thankful for em too..*thanks lots*

sum are those we enter ya life n stayed..promised to keep in contact but nv..however when e occasion cums..u will still meet up n reminisince the great old n short sweet period of time that u all had spent together n update each other regarding each other's life..*thanks to u gals too..*thanks for bringing joy to my life*..hee

sum are those who enter ya life..n bring joy to ya life..they nv fail to encourage u n trust u..n care for u..*thanks lots x1000 to infinity*

ok..now my supportive sidekick..
ha..i always believed in fate..but i nv believed that time isn't a factor till this yr..or shuld i say last yr end ?..yup..cz i can say that i m lucky to haf found my supportive sidekick..n dere's 2..they are quite common n yet not that common..but to mi..they are both my ss..haha..i will turn to em..although i dunno both of em for as long as zhu tous..but i dunno..haha fate ? or maybe becoz they are more snr than mi ?..(thou they act like a child =P) but yup..they seems to be dere at my lowest pt..(my min pt of graph)..guiding mi along n jus being dere to make sure i bounce bac..n giv mi advices..i m thankful that i found em..realli thankful to haf met em..thou e time we noe each other is realli not long..but it seems like ages..*thanks 13/2 n 13/5* hee

hao la..v tired le..realli..shall end here..thanks to all my friends..take gd care..byee!

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.friends forever.][
][.guide mi.][

][.fixing a broken heart.][

][.fixing a broken heart.][

There was nothing to say the day she left
Just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain,
oohThen like an answered prayerI turned you around and found you there
* You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have broken apart
Fixing a broken heart
Now I don't understand what I'm going through
There must be a plan that led me to you
Because the hurt just disappearsIn every moment that you are neat, yeah
Just like an answered prayer
You must the londliness easy to bear
* repeat
Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And I'll forget the past'cause here we are at leat
* repeat

fixing a broken heart..fix a broken heart will u ?..will u my guardian angel ?..
do you heard my cries for u to fix a broken heart ?
i realli nd ya my guardian angel..
i realli nd ya..

i haf been trying to be strong..
i promised to fight my best..
but guardian angel..
where r u ?
tell mi where r u ?
i nd a break n i nd u to be here..
i nd ya advice..
i nd ya guidence..
guide mi..

today is e 1st milo cup game..against bradell hts at bradell hts..47 - 50..we lost 3 pts..thanks team mates ! lets cont fighting hard n win e remaining game yeah..thanks to all alj fellow team mates n friends who was there to cheer..zhen de xie xie ni men..

actually now..i m feeling lots..realli lots..but..i jus dunno how to say..or maybe wo bu xiang suo ba..i dunno..

hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..=)

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.where are u ?.][
][.lei shui ren bu zhu de hua luo le.][
][.dan ni ren ran mei chu xian.][

][.told myself to be strong.but.i m still hoping.][

][.told myself to be strong.but i m still hoping.][

hey bloggy ! alright..i m realli going crazy over my pw..at 1st i tot it will be fine *humph*..but wadever it is..we still nd to do it rite..so lets hope orange5 will jia u tgt ba ! 1 mre hr to e DEADline of our GpP..its getting us crazy..agrh !

alright..shall not tok abt gpp anymore..allow mi to blog a little while i cont my research..ok..had hm u trng today..be4 that met pres for lunch n supposed study session..but as i was rushing my pw this morning n e tian cai de pres overslept..we ended up onli being able to eat lunch =p after that i went for trng..while pres guai guai de stay n study n shop ?..haha dunno la =p..

hmm ok trng..today was a little tiring..haha i feel that my knee is failing mi..lots of lime n lemons..damm it !..n yah..mon is e 1st milo cup game le..i truly pray that everything will be gd n we will go far..that was wad caca was asking mi..i dunno n i dun dare to speculate how far we will go..but lets jus fight hard yeah..that was wad i told her..hee cz this yr hasn't been a great one..lots of disappointment..lots of heartbreaks in e world of my bball "life"..so realli dun dare to tink..all i expect of myself is to grab e rebounds down n bao wo every ball..as for e team..i hope for e same..fight till e end..if we r going to haf a battle..den fight till e end..dun giv in!..yah..n felicia was telling mi that i looked v moody n scary today..haha sorry..i wasn't realli aware of it..but dun worry la..nthing de..i jus can't get use to e rough plays well yet..lots of things not fulfilled yet..jus ignore mi..act i tink i was playing quite happy today thou =P

hee ok..so after trng..went to meet pres n got myself lots of food ! haha food jus makes my day at times ! ( haha it dun makes my day when i m realli super duper duper down! ) hee..den took 53 n reached hm quite early de..super tired..n started on pw once again..ah..slp n now pw again..oOo..n yah my ear piece is spoilt ! agrh !

n ya..today is supposed to be S day de..haiz..sorry auntie joy..haiz..agrh ! sorry sorry ! i will cfm a time nxt wk..n hope we can make it yeah..hee =)

..i jus wanna say..
..i will say wad i feel is appropriate..
..when i feel that it's appropriate..
..n that u r who i wanna share with..

..told myself to be strong..
..but i m still hoping..
..hoping that my guardian angel will give mi e encouragements..
..which matters lots to mi..

hao la..end here le..byee bloggy! take care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.be strong.fight on.][
][.hoping.][

][.in every stages of life.there will be diff ppl to acc u thur it.][

][.in every stages of life.there will be diff ppl to acc u thur it.][

haha bloggy ! u r in for trouble..cz i m in e mood to blog lots today..haha feel so much abt so many things today..haha u wan le..ting wo crap ba..muhaha

ok..anyway today is another normal yet special day..haha i always say every moment n day i special..cz u will nv get bac to that special moment n day ! haha treat it as its mi crapping if u dun agree wif mi..its ok..=P

yup..so it started out wif a norm day..n mi being late..took cab..bei "scold" by e pe teacher..felt whinny..n wanna whine..super tired cz of e gao..ya..jiu shi in those super whinney mode that i wuld jus whine n agrh none stop if i can..but i din la..i tink realli will fan si ren..haha yah..so had gp..den maths lect..

den met qingzi jie at concourse..haha e photos etc..den touched on e topic of friendship..haha i love e to tok abt it..n when i do..i discovered i realli miss em..yesh..miss forever5..hao xiang nian ta men..but i noe things are no longer e same..e promises of being by each other side whenever we nd one another is sumthing that i noe is v hard le ba..cz in diff jcs le..got diff close friends le..n when sumthing happens..it always is happen in sch de bu shi ma..n who will msg u to tell u.."hey i m v sad now fe..can u cum pei mi now.." n tok abt wad happened etc?..cz its always those that are literally ard u will pei u de..u get mi ? nowadays..to find out wad happened to em..i gotta do that thru blogs..to understand abt their life..to noe that they are sad n yet those by e sides acc em ain't mi..feel so sad u noe ma bloggy..its like..hey ya best friend is feeling so sad n down..n yet at that moment when she nds sum1 by her side e most..u ain't e one..cz u din even noe what happened..haha jiu shi that kind of gan jue la..i jus miss em so..so..so..much..sa rang hae yo zhu tous !..

n yup..after zhu tous..of cz there are other gd friends in life de ah..those who are dere to give mi a tap on e shoulder..n a push to support mi when i wanna fall..haha thanks to em all too..hee yi qie jing zai bu yan zhong..n ya..dui yu zhe xie peng you..is another kind of gan jue le..jus wanna say..i do appreciate u..n u noe who u r..=) hee

n hao la..cont blogging abt today 1st..haha so i ended lessons le jiu took 55 to bishan to meet pres to study tgt cz employer lazy to cum out frm hm..haha so we studied for like 1 hr n gotta ourselves balloons..den left for trng while pres go find mph for an hr onli to noe that it dao bi le n yah..i m say..i was made to bring e balloons along wif mi to trng..malu dao max le !..haha den today's trng is real fun..i tink i m quite high de..v lame..hee den after that rushed off to meet pres..cz she waited for like 3 hrs ? thou its 1 hr searching for mph..n shopping etc..but realli xie la..haha *hao xin you hao bao o pres* den pres hen hao de bought mi this super cute tortise..haha love tortise !! hee den study a little while n went ntuc..haha today is realli a fun day..did lots of stupid things..haha mei ban fa..who ask mi to be bbc de v.pres n tgt wif bbc de pres dang rang shi hen ben ben de la..but its fun ! haha den took 53 wif pres..phew lucky my memo did not fail mi..haha like this ne jiu end my day le..

n i came bac feeling so much..i realli feel that diff friends will acc u thur diff journey of life..n all i wanna say is..once a friend..forever my friend..be it that we lose our contacts or wadsoever..e impact that u haf made to my life cannot be denied n it nv will be..this is out to all my friends..thanks for acc mi thur part of my life journey if we had already lost contacts wif each other..n if we r still in contact..thanks for being wif mi in my life journey..n i realli appreciate u..n realli hope that we will cont to pei each other in this journey of life ! thanks to all my friends out dere !

haha hao la..blog dao lai i a bit tired le..gd nite or rather gd morning every1 ! byee!..take care..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.i love e game.][
][.15.][
][.i miss em.][
][.memories.][

][.bad dream.it seems like a nightmare.][

][.bad dream.it seems like a nightmare.][

hi bloggy..paiseh ah..haven been blogging for e past few days..haf so much to say..yet din realli wanna blog..super tired..now that its 21/5/2006..i guess i haf to blog n sort out my thoughts le ba..

19/5/2006
everything is like a nightmare..
it happened so fast..
n be4 i noe..everything is gone..
damm it..
it seems like a bad dream..
shocked.sad.ok.disbelief.
thats how i felt..

when e final whistle was blowed
xin hao tong..
up till now..
i m still in a state of disbelief.
damm it.

i will always remember this day 19/5/2006..e feeling of being there was realli great..but e feeling of failing was sucky..e endless hugs was a kind of comfort but not completely..anyway jus wanna thank all for supporting vj team ! n thanks vj team for this nice season ! its realli been nice memories being wif this team..thanks to all..wei chu oosh ! wei chu oosh ! wei chu oosh oosh oosh !!!

after that e prize presentation..took pics den went to buffet at suntec convention hall..was jiao lian's treat..jiao lian was realli nice n generous..that day there was no scoldings from coach..everything was in a daze ba..for mi n e team i guess..after e full buffet..went to v-ball de bbq wif van n vk =P while e rest of e team went for a team movie ba..e stars was so nice at e nite..realli nice ! crapped wif qingzi jie , qingcai , employee n xiying..felt better while crapping..tried to crap none stop..cz when there's no crapping..thoughts begin to go while again..

after that van , vk , n e qingzi jie, employee n xiying came over n stayed at my hse..was a better nite with their companion..i bet its gonna be a tough nite alone ba..thanks to all 5 of em ! =)..

sat..i lived in daze for e whole day..was not in e mood for work..slacked till afternoon wif em..den after that went for rach bday wif sim n soef..den went to find moi n kovan..n mei..sorry mei..din stayed to tok wif u..u take care yeah ! den after that went to pasir ris park wif moi..went to find rong n sh..but din go for dinner wif em..bid gdbyes den moi zai mi ard e park n chatted non-stop..ha i guess whenever we r sad..thats e best way out ba moi =p..cycling n chatting by e beach..den went hm n met em on e bus 403..

n today is sun le..still not in e right mood..but i guess i gotta be ba..got to face up to e reality..gotta buck up..gotta..so much things to do..so jus wanna say..jia u vj team..jia u ! pls take care n jia u ! =)

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 n thanks for everything !

* that understanding hug => thanks my guardian angel.thats wad i nd at that moment.thanks thou i nv told u how much it meant.

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.slumber party.][
][.bad dream][

][.its been so long.][

][.its been so long.][

heyo bloggy ! its been so long since i blog..due to my "busy schedule"..haha n i m so freaking tired now..realli tired dao jus wanna go slp le ! but decided to blog 1st..i dun wanna lose this feeling..hee =)

alright..today's theme is its been so long..yup..
indeed it had been so long..
so long since i get to fight hard on e court..
so long since i get e trust..
so long since i enjoy a game n smile in my heart after e game..
so long..
it took mi so long to find back wad i had lost..

anyway yuppy..thankie vj team ! hee yup..thanks for standing by my side n all e encouragements...lets fight hard together in finals yeah ! hee..n yah..mus thank sheryl for all e nice pass today..jus reminds mi of e ahs days ;p hee..yup anyway..thanks lots team ! lets cont to fight hard yeah !

n yuppy..apart from vj bball team..i wanna thank a few special ppl..
1) lingqin jl..haha for all e pointers n reminder as well as well-wishes be4 e game..hee thanks lots..thou u will nv see this ba..haha but yup..haha

2)qingzi jie..for e "banner"..wish..n encouragements..=)

3)auntie joy lame si ren..haha bleah..thanks thanks..hee as i had said..without ya encouragements during this tough yr..i doubt i will be able to do n hang on till now =P haha realli =) xie le..

4)chuchu , ling n nana for cuming down to support =P

haha n e thank you list will go on if i dun control myself..so mus stop here le..cz nd to do work later..n i wanna blog..haah so yup..jus a very BIG thank you to all who haf helped mi in a way or another ! xiexie ni men !

haha alright..thats e happy thing for my day..hmm after that..today wasn't exactly a great day..cz saw a few nice n gd friends down..yet there's nothing much that i can do for em..but yuppy..now ok le...cz noe they feel better le ba..cheer up yeah ! hee u noe who u r ! =>its e joy of e game that u derived which will keep u in a game..not e win ! n =>e race is all abt believing in yourself ! =) hee jia u !

n yup..had hm u trng jus now..n i m realli lei si diao le la..n jus now during trng i tink i a bit ap ba..realli tired le..n i jus suddenly miss alj alot alot alot..i miss e da dui trngs..miss e xiao dui trngs..miss e times dere..n most of all..miss e team mates dere..be it snrs or same age de or younger de..i jus miss em..haha so much..that i chose to take 53 home jus now..so that i can get to pass by e alj court..felt like calling coach cindy to tell her how i felt jus now but din..n be4 i did..she called..haha chatted a little..told her how i felt at hm u trng..haha den chatted abt today's semis n fri's finals..haha v random..n nice ba..made my nite..haha was feeling quite tired jus now de ;p

haha hm u trng..hee e coach is nice..n yah..felicia ask mi mus mention her..haha so dere u go..she is felicia..same age as mi..my another friend in hm u apart from elica ;p haha we play e same post. n like 15 =P haha yah..

hmm hao la..i m realli tired le..still got pw n lit essay to do..i realli wanna slp le la..hmm cheng xia qu ! haha hao la..gd nite every1 ! today is a nice day..=) byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.npo.][
][.15.][
][.fight hard.][

][.ye ni de ji mo rong yi jiao ren bei shang.][

][.ye ni de ji mo rong yi jiao ren bei shang.][

translation of bloggy's title today..e loneliness felt at nite makes one feels hurt so easily..haha alright..i m jus being lame..but thats wad i m feeling now bloggy..its so quiet in e nite..i can onli listen to myself typing n e song playing from my com..nothing else..no more scoldings from coach..no more shoutings..no more chatterings..no more..nothing..its so peaceful..a nice time to reflect i guess..n i realli ought to..there's jus so much to reflect on..but yah anyway e pics abv makes mi feel like e whole sea belongs to mi..ah wad a nice gan jue..aw thats moi n mi..e 2 zi lian kuang as others may say..but wadever la..

today after e 6 consec periods..sh,jan n matong jian zhi can say is fa feng le..mus be too tired le..haha they are like so crappy n funny la..but nbm nbm..i was realli tired too..i m aware of e work that is pilling up..i also xiang die le..but maybe due to e whole day de stomache ache..i couldn't react as strongly as em..haha matong say i m zen..hmm new word learnt..thou i forget wads e meaning of e word le..

anyway after crapping wif em..went for trng..yup..another day of scoldings from coach..i jus can't get e things rite..can't get wad he wans mi to do rite..my legs are hurting..i m tired from all these..today i toked to mr ng..n he told mi that he heard that i hasn't been in my form..n i jus told him yah..i m playing like shit now..sumthing that i can't deny..i lost my temper once again..i dun realli mean lost completely..but i noe..n i told myself hey..this is e max..dun lose any further..i feel like shit during e trng..realli..i can't interpret everything well..i can't do wad i m supposed to do..jus felt so shitified n was so fed-up wif myself..realli..lousy defence..no center moves..not e rite moves at e rite time..no..NO..no..i haf gotta nothing..realli..i feel like a piece of shit after e trng..

den i saw qingzi jie n heard abt her injuries *hope she gets well soon by mon!*..yup anyway saw her jiu remind mi of moi..injuries are so irritatin n cruel..they hai dao my friends cannot play e sports they like..n i felt quite sianz de..den i reached hm le jiu watched slam dunk..realli v nice..i love sakuragi hanamichi !..10 roxz ! 15 too !

yup den i came online..blogs to blogs..n i read some entries n it jus touches my heart..

jing's blog..got one entry is regarding if u haf a band..wad wuld u name it ?..she said forever5..n i jus felt a surge of warmth going thur mi..yes..i wuld name it forever5 too..its e name n friendship that is etched to my heart since young..i miss em..realli..miss e times together..miss playing bball wif em..miss e relaxed n enjoyments when we play..e way e ball swoosh nicely into e net along wif our laughters..i miss everything..now every1 is busy wif their own life n all i can is..da jia de that little effort..to take sum time out of e busy schedule for one another..yeah ! tml we r meeting out..n watching daisy if i not wrong..i hope its a tear jerking movie..haha..looking forward to meeting em tml..

den auntie joy's blog..she said sumthing or rather blogged sumthing that is realli realli realli v meaningful n sets mi to think a lot.."we've been blinded..ive been blinded thoroughly, in the bid for success, glory and recognition. all temporary gains.
the medals will be given out, enjoying one night of recognition, before being placed in the display cabinet and basically left to collect dust. and perhaps making a good grandmother story to tell next time.but what will really go with us, for one lifetime is really...good/best friends made.
the bonds and camaderie, the friends made and that positively unbreakable bond that binds us tgt: because we've fought and played tgt for that one passion of our lives
who remembers why we chose basketball over other sports 6-8years ago."
this realli made mi think n reflect..yes..every1's aim is e nationals champs ! who wuld wanna lose..but in e process of wanting to win..are we enjoying e process..are we enjoying the game ?..do we still haf e passion n love for this game..or are we jus playing for e sake of winning..the pride ?..does winning realli means everything ?..after getting e title..e medal will be kept in e display set..e results will be announced to e sch..it will be used as an intro..i was from ** sch..n we were e ones that won e bball champs..wad else do we gain from e champs ?! i guess e most impt thing gain shuld be e friendship fostered ba..

hmm i still remembered why i chose bball over other sports 6 yrs ago..its becoz of THEM..i lied to mummy n went to sch earlier..uses my C.O's break time to see em play..n i told myself..i wanna play wif em..n we had trngs..always full of laughters..running to buy drinks in diff % n hafing e auntie to warn us that if we haf stomache ache..it isn't her fault le ah..n staying bac after schs to play games..shooting e balls in wadever way we like..n when e ball swoosh into e net miraculously..we will jus lol n cont playing..till i reached hm late n all tanned n get scoldings..but we cont to do so day after day..cz we knew that e 4 others r suffering e same scoldings too..we were not strong..in fact we were those kind of teams that ppl r always ready to trash..but who cares..we enjoy our game..realli..i meant it..although we onli made it to e east zone 3rd when there r onli 4 teams..we were already v happy le..e joy that we had then is sumthing that i will nv ever forget..e simple n sweet moments..

den sec sch..east zone champs became a must..n nationals at least top8 wif 2 yrs of nationals champs..expectations were set by coaches n teachers..trngs were tough n tiring..coach nv fails to scold mi for my mistakes..but i accept em..cz they onli scold when they noe that i m focusing n get to learn frm my mistakes..e achievements during sec sch wif e team was great..we were strong ! i loved those times..those times when we go back-packing..e times when we play stupid games..e time when we do stupid things..e time when we each secretly stayed bac after sat trngs to shoot balls n jus to find out that e others r doing e same..e times when we wuld jus play bball after sch in our sch u..e times which we spent at 85 n bbt shop..these were e times..e glorious moments i wuld say..

now as i tink bac..wad does champs mean to a team ?..if i ever were to coach a team in e future..i wuld emphasize on e happiness n joy that each player derive from e game instead of e win..i wun deny that champs is definitely sumthing that is worth fighting hard for..but i wuld nv make my player feels stressed out n negative jus becoz i wanna win..if i was to be a coach..i will wannna my player to feel confident of herself..n enjoy e game..cz i feel that its onli then that she will plays her best out..n a national champs wuld be an extra bonous..e friendship fostered n e joy derived during trngs n e games are e most impt things to mi..if i m ever a coach..

haha reflections..thats my reflections..i jus wanna play e game i love with happiness with joy..i dun wanna play e game i love wif tears n anger..i dun wanna e love n passion to transform into disappointment..i realli dun wan..wo zhi xiang kuai le de da qiu..if i can..i will return to my pri sch time..when winning or losing dun matter to us..there's no such things as us trashing others..but onli others trashing us..but at e end of e game..we will still be so glad n happy..cz we enjoyed e game..

hmm hao la..end here le bloggy..i dun mean anything la..maybe cz A div semis is approaching le..so feel a little..haha gan chu hen duo..hee dun mind mi..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.guardian angel => i onli wanna play e game i love wif joy n not tears.][
][.i wanna enjoy e game n not disappointment from e game.][
][.15.][

][.light at e end of e tunnel.][

][.light at e end of e tunnel.][

hey bloggy..i shuld be slping..ought to be..but i feel like blogging be4 i slp..n i haf decided to blog be4 every match le..

yup anyway today is a fun-filled day at sentosa..haha wif team alj ! hee..den wad else..i shall blog abt that sum other days..cz its kind of late..n i need to slp =P hee n yah..i hurted my toe thou..pain =/..hee

ok yah..e stars are so beautiful tonite..saw em under my blk..n my blog title for today was inspired by one of e pics i took at sentosa today..took lots of beautiful scenery de pics today..wonderful..its jus so nice to be at e beach..e sand under ya leg..playing in e water like young kids..sitting dere n watch e sun set..jus how nice is it to be dere after a tiring wk..all e volleyball games which i can't realli play but enjoyed myself thou..

haha ok..i shall not rattle on..but be4 i cont..allow mi to say this..i love alj.k ! haha ok..cont..hmm yeah..tml is vj vs nyjc..last match of e 2nd round..jus wanna say jia u ba vJ bball ! cum on team..get bac e pace..no stresss..jus play as a TeAm..n fight hard till e end..=) n as for myself..fight hard ! focus ! rebounds !..thats all i ask for myself to contribute to e team tml..n yeah..tml nite got hm u's trng too..i will rmb wad coach cindy tell mi jus now de..i promise..i will fight hard n make sure that trust is not a wrong trust..to liling coach n e team..=)

haha hao la..wanna go slp le..its gonna be 12 soon..take gd care every1 ! smilez ! n hope every1 will haf a gd wk ahead yeah ! hee i hope i haf my gd wk n hope tml will be a gd day for all too =D hee..wan an..

ur tag says : made in heaven - cos ur an angel.
only handwash-cos ur fragile.
cold iron-dun wanna burn ur wings.
handle wif care-cos ur limited edition.
...my guardian angel..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.ur my motivation.][
][.fight hard.][
][.15.][

][.in ya eyes.][

][.in ya eyes.][

hey bloggy..today i wanna blog abt..hmm jus random stuffs n wadever that cums to my mind yeah..anyway today we played ajc..won..but wasn't a great one ba..hmm..


][.guardian angel.][
be4 e game..
i receieved a v encouraging message..
realli encouraging one..
thanks a million to e sender..my guardian angel..

whenever i feel like i m lost..
i will jus wanna tell u..
cz to mi u r my guardian angel..
i hope u will guide mi back to where i was..
i noe i m dependent..
but i realli trust n believe in U.. my guardian angel..

whenever i tell u i m lost..
u will not reply mi..
u will nv reply mi immediately..
but instead u will reply mi at e right time..
always..
without fail..

taking for example today..
when i m all perplexed..
calming myself down in many ways..
but not v successful..
however ya "guidance" (reply)..
jus calm my nerves down n show mi e ways..

thank you my guardian angel..

haha yup..jus wanna thank my guardian angel..thou once again i din play a gd game to reduce team's burden..but i realli feel better today..its jus a diff feeling..thanks guardian angel n team..hee n yah..jia u vj team ! lets jia u together for these last few games yeah ! fight hard !

n hmm yah..random stuffs..met hui wen on mrt today..haha den tok to her..haha chatted from alj to tamp..den called coach jus now to ask abt her hand..den haha i keep on erm erm..not realli sure wad to say..haha jus keep on say tc n hope she will get well soon ! =)

hmm n yah..wad else..lots of things going thur my mind now..haha but yet nothing seems to be processing..i guess i m tired le..haha nd a short nap..den maybe wakey to watch e show later..or hmm maybe a long one den wakey for tml's trng..

haha oook ! yah listened to my bao bei music diary jus now..den dere's this story abt friendship which i realli find it meaningful..as always ;p so jus wanna share..=> "True friends are those that u been thur a lot with..thur gd times n bad times..they are those that u love at times n yet hate sum of their actions at times "..haha i forget e real quote le..but its ok..i m glad i found mine..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! hee..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.npo.][
][.roxz.][

][.Attitude.][

][.Attitude.][

hey bloggy i m back..haha today's blog shall be a reflection n thanks n goodbye entry..yup..

1st of all..reflections..
past few games of e A div i haf been playing like shit..getting disappointed wif myself once n again..thats so damm stupid of mi..got a "wake-up" scold from coach ytr..was realli a hard one..but that was onli for the moment..i guess its time i wake up from my no confidence land..missed my lan di(s) ytr..n felt like a fool..i can say wif confident..that isn't who i m..i may not be a gd player..but lan di(s) is sumthing that i haf almost absolute confident in myself de..so ytr..after e great scolding that is "dedicated" to mi by coach during e half time break..i tink i m finding myself back ba..slowly..gradually..e last shot i made be4 i got sub out..it was e feeling..jus like last yr when we were playing b div against jurong..jiu shi na zhong gan jue..

2nd..thanks..
i haf got lots of ppl to thank..but 1st of all..my thanks go out to vJ bball gals team 2006..hey..jus wanna say a v big thank u to all of u..thanks for e encouragements on court n off court..thanks for tolerating all my stupid mistakes..thanks..thanks team ! n yah..special thanks to rong for encouraging mi during e 2nd going to 3rd quad n after e game..thanks to kaixin who walked over n gave mi a pat on my head..sumtimes its enff..thanks to sheryl for ya encouragements n lets jia u n play well to keep coach mouth shut together tml ok =)..thanks to van for teaching mi how to be a better center..thanks to lu for her encouragements..thanks to ms tan..thanks to..thanks to..e list goes on..jus wanna say a v big thank you to vJ bball team..n yah..thanks to pam (doggy)thanks to auntie joy,qingzi jie..etc..thanks ! thanks lots !

3rd..goodbye..
goodbye to U (my foolish-ness)
goodbye to U ( my soft moves)
goodbye to U ( the weak inner mi)
goodbye to U (my lack of confidence)..

yup..anyway today's entry is also for myself to brace up n get prepared for tml's game..wanna thank coach for scolding mi that day too..although i hate it..but its e fact..its time to wake up..n i had..e more u dun trust mi..e more i wanna prove u wrong..*xingxin*..n yah..youth cup..hmm jus wanna say jia u to all my friends who are playing..regardless of playing for cst red , leng kee or etc..jus wanna say jia u n take care yeah..n to buddy n nut..jia u too..sorry that i din msg u buddy..was kind of tired..haha..n yup..thanks cindy coach (thou u will nv cum here de la).but yah..jus wanna say thanks..u noe why..n to npo..my attitude will not change =)..i promise..

hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..jia u tml vJ !!!

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.i m not who u tink i m.][

][.10.fight on.15.][

][.10.fight on.15.][

yoz bloggy ! i m back..haha alright..shall blog abt today..
hmm today morning i jus refused to get out from my bed..
but after much thinking..
i decided to get up..
n haf a nice day..
n i had..hee thanks heaven..
i learnt alot from this fall..
n it jus makes mi stronger..=)

anyway went to tamp to "study" at short mary gold..wif fungi..den fungi n van..den van..haha be4 i met fungi..i went to bought a $8 bk..chi de..it says "mei you bu ke neng"=impossible is nothing..den i went to make stickers wif my name on it..haha..den read e bk while waiting for fungi..ok so she reach le..we went to buy foolscap..den went to haf lunch..den study..she went to cut hair n see her sham den after that wen n fungi came..haha sweet action no1 : fungi today pei mi go out ! sweet action no2 : wen bought mi my fav octopus de tako pachi ! hee..

alright..den study den van came..haha she taught mi e maths song..den tok a bit abt youth cup..n listened to this v nice n powerful song..hee den received a few msg-es now n den..after that went to meet daddy n mummy cz they were dere..den took cab hm together..hee felt so much better today..had my fill of food today..haha food nv fails to brighten up my day =p sweet action no3 : daddy's n mummy's understanding n concern..n yah..van's "sure can find e team de keng ding"

ok..so i reached home..n 1st time i do..on my com..hotmail..cz auntie joy asked mi to check my mail..haha i read e "random-ness"..n i cried again..1st time of e day..hee but its tears of gan dong..not sad..realli v gan dong..haha..its jus so sweet..so jus wanna say..thank you auntie joy ! thank you ah ma rong..xie xie ni men..hai you..auntie joy..my promise to u.."it will be e last time wo wei le...er ku le"..hee yup so thats my fourth sweet action of e day..: receiving auntie joy's random mail..hee xie xie ni..=P hen tian..

haha so overall ne..i had a great day..o yah..i tink i forget to say..but i wore my yellow no15.anthony band e whole day today..reminding myself to be strong..hee..n yah..i discovered wo hai you hen duo ren mei you xie..so here's my thank you list :

-my family
-wen,fungi,moi for their little actions (n of cz jing..i noe u r jus dere =p) my zhu tous..
-auntie joy n ah ma rong
-yaqi.ah sam
-mei
-sh
-si hui (buddy)
-sheryl
-qingzi jie
-van
-lqjl
-coach cindy

hee this is my thank you list for today..but those ppl i wanna thank is not jus all..refer to my ytr de thank you list too yeah =p hee there are jus too many ppl to thank..xie xie ni men..wo hao le ! its time to fight on..hee => Bu Neng Yi Zhi Yi Lai Bian Ren Gie Wo Yong Dai..Believe..Jiu Suan Feng Yu Yan Gai..Wo Ye Bu Pai Chong Lai !..hee n yah..abv are jus sum random shots from ytr..hee..n yah..for e pic of mi n lqjl..i shall edit it sumday n erase e face (qian xi's coach) behind us..=P haha..tc every1 ! dui bu qi..rang ni men dan xin le =)..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.10.fight on.15.][
][.challenge for myself =).][

][.min. pt curve.i m at my min pt now.][

][.min. pt curve.i m at my min pt now.][

now its 1:15am mon morning..1/5/2006..
i shuld be sleeping..
but i can't..

qian xi vs alj.k jus now..
we lost..but i m thankful for this team too..
can't help crying..
esp when i heard "i can't believe this"..
it realli shocks mi to see that..

tears started rolling down at that moment..
hard work realli dun pay off..
u can work so hard while others rest..
but in e end..
everything doesn't matter..

e mood was kind of liven by e cindy coach whole body cramp incident..
was realli funny..
was feeling much better after that..
den stone dere wif ah sam n tok abt 10 yrs down e road..
while we looked at cindy n lingqin..

anyway be4 i cont..i mus say..thanks alj.k..its been my happiest time to be in this team during this period of time..

alright cont..

was toking abt u18..
den after that this n that..
den lingqin jiao lian suddenly ask mi sumthing..
i was kind of calm..
she told that she felt that i shuld..
n i told her..thanks..thats realli enff with her tinking like that..

after that we took our medals..
take 1 or 2 pics onli..
n went for dinner..
i took wif lqjl our no15..i hope moi will send mi e pics soon..
den dinner time..

everything was back to normal till cindy coach break that news to mi..
i held my tears back..
tried to cont e conversation..
acting calm n all..
n suddenly tears started rolling down..
n den splash..like water fall..
esp when coach told mi she wan to help mi ask why..
i told coach.."jin nian yi ding yao chu dui"..
she promise she will as long as we find enff player..

after that we left for hm..
can't control myself..
such a weakling man mi..

its jus over whelming for mi..
its been a tiring n hard yr..
getting kick out of u18..
playing as a bench player in vj n getting scolded by coach every now n den..
not getting selected for cst red..

once..twice..thrice..
how many times mus i fall..
told myself maybe i jus suxz..
but can't get over it so easily..

feeling negative..fatalistic..
i m jus not gd enff..
i told myself that..
but fungi say..its not that u r not gd..but its jus that they are better..

hmm den i tink of it..yesh its quite true..but why..why do i lose to popeye's wife..
i realli can't understand..
m i being egoist..
maybe i m..

den qingzi jie say..
maybe this is my min pt of a curve graph..
after this min pt..i will curve upwards again ?..
n a gd player..a winner shuld not give up..
but instead hang on..

so i decided to find players for e team..
buddy is also trying hard wif mi..
but moi say i a bit stubborn..
hmm maybe i m..

i also dunno wad i wan..
i jus dun wan to give up without a fight..
jus wanna thank buddy for trying so hard with mi..
wanna thank qingzi jie for her encouragments..
wanna thank fungi..
wanna thank moi..
wanna thank van..
wanna thank auntie joy for taking e risk wif mi..
wanna thank lingqin jiao lian..
wanna thank coach cindy..
wanna thank my family for being so understanding..

maybe i shuld end here le..take gd care evey1 ! byee..maybe u jus wun get wad u wan ba..its fate..

..bruised n battered..
..dazed n shattered..
..now it hurts..

thanks npo..thanks..*all-out attitude*..wo zhen de jing li le..zhi shi..wo ye wu neng wei li le..dan xie xie ni gie wo de keng ding..its a kind of comfort to noe that u do believe in mi..

][.FEarless.][
][.<3 alj.k.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.give mi e courage n faith to fight on.][
][.15.][