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haha bloggy..today's blog shall be ? ba..wanted to give it a nice name..but can't tink of any..so yup..jiu use ? ba..its jus like my heart now..haha alright..pardon mi if u tink its lame..cz i jus wanna tok to bloggy n hopefully my guardian angel..if U r realli around for mi..

why is this so..
is it my heart..
my mind..
or my body..

i can sense that i m changing..
not for e better..
but for e worst..
is this e result of time..
or jus myself..

nowadays..
i get tired so easily..
haf so much doubts abt myself..

lost in wad i once loved so much..
i may sound fatalistic..
pessimistic to many..

but jus how much they noe..
in my heart..
i m screaming out loud..
"wo bu xiang fang qi..wo zai zhi zuo zhe"..

since young..
i haf nv realli accomplish anything..
thou i seems to haf..

now in jc..
i m jus a nobody..
realli..
nobody..

i lost it..
i m losing it..

i can't stand it when tears flow once n again..
i tink this is bad..
occassionally tearing..
i tink its a gd form of stress relieve..

but now..
its like almost now n then..
n i hate myself for being that weak..
i tried to hold em bac..
but i can't..
n it suxz..

dere's no pt in telling any1..
dere's no sol..
in e end..
i noe..
its sumthing that i haf gotta face..
by myself..

will i be able to find back wad i lost..
will i be able to love wad i used to love..
will i be able to walk on this bumpy road which i fall every now n den n get hurt..
will i be able to hold on to e love..
will i be able to be who i used to be..

i m still trying..
thou i always question my heart..
is it true?..ni zhen de bu xiang fang qi ma..

hao la bloggy..jus being random..life hasn't been vvv happy nowadays..its affecting mi..maybe i shall stop all these shit..stop myself from affecting myself..yup..anyway i saw these words at sum1's blog..n i tink its v meaningful..so jus wanna share wif all.. " 人往往都是要等到失去后，才会懂得如何去珍惜。但往往在拥有时，又会遗忘珍惜的可贵 " it means ppl usually only learn how to treasure sumthing after he/she lose it..but when he/she own that thing..he/she forget e importance of treasuring once again..

haha hao la..end here le..n yup..take gd care every1 ! tml is alj.k vs qian xi de finals..i pray..*xingxin*..n yah..rmb..there are reasons to be sad..there mus be reasons to be happy too..yah..so..*smilez* =)

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