][.i tink too much.][

][.i tink too much.][

hey bloggy..sorry to vent my anger on u ytr..yup..today is a better day..thou nothing much happen..hmm i mean i played a lousy 2 mins..but there are other things that r worth my smile too..

i m sorry n i guessed i realli think too much ytr le..realli..wonder wad was going on on my mind ytr too..but today yeah..i feel much relaxed now..e supposed "problem" are no longer dere..feel so relieved now..realli..*ahhhh*

paiseh to forever5..cz i was realli being over-sensitive..yup..sorry..hmm anyway..yah..today is a nice day..apart from e lousy 2 min n e air-ball..but wadever is over is over..went out wif mei today..den went airport to send jit off..den e game..

jus another simple day..but at least dere r reasons for mi to smile from e bottom of my heart..

hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..


][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.sincerity.best.present.][
][.i promise.][
][.1min.15sec.][

][.it hurts when others misunderstand.but.it hurts more when its u all.][

][.it hurts when others misunderstand.but.it hurts more when its u all.][

this few days..
so short..
yet so tiring..

sorry bloggy that i haven been blogging these few days..
so much happened..
so many qns in my mind..
i tot abt so much..
so much..

i came to one decision after another..
advice cum one after another..
every1 has their concern..
i appreciate it..
at the same time i m lost..

every1 has a pt..
this few days i haf been rather negative too..

today was another tiring day..
after e movie i tot it wuld be a better day..
but i was jus told of sumthing..
n it pushes mi back to e sad alley..

jus like wad i say..
it dun matters as much if its others..
but it hurts a lot when is u all..

it hurts..
we grow..
n we realli changed..
or is it jus mi..

if i can..
i wuld ask fairy god-ma to stop all this..
we r inflicting pain on one another..

i knew this wuld happen..
every1 cares for each another..
but as we go abt our schedule..
as we faces e ups n downs of life..
we r no longer there for each another..
yes..maybe morally..
but that seems to be all..

i miss e days at e back of e classrm..
when we wuld jus ignore abt e lessons going on..
n chat all we wan..
i miss e days when u wuld share wif mi ya i-pod during recess..

i miss e days when we wuld take bus together n bth abt y3..
i miss e days when u hate e smell of waffle..but yet acc mi to buy it..n even carry it for mi thou u wuld grumble..

i miss e days when we wuld chat wif one another till 10..n u nd to slp..

i miss e days..so much i missed..that if i list..it wuld jus go on non-stop..i miss those simple n sweet days..when i always go ard n feel happy cz i noe u all r jus there for mi..so near to mi..i noe friendship is not measured by distance..but now as i faces my life..i encouter all this stuffs..i dunno how..jus how much i wish u all were wif mi..how much i wished we were in e same jc jus like wad we had wanted to be when we left our pri sch for sec sch..we wanted to b in e same sec sch..jus how much n selfish i m to wanna keep u all wif mi..but its impossible..

i admit..i m not making enff time for u all..or in fact..its always u all making e time for us..i hate e way it is now..our friendship was always so perfect to mi..realli..i hate myself for letting things became this way..e way it is now..i hate it..it suxz..

u all dun like to hear sorry..n i hate to say it to u all too..i hope i wun haf to say that to u all anymore..
went to our blog..n fungi blogged sumthing..i tink they r all v meaningful..but i added my own comments..

1) If u shuld die be4 mi..ask if u can bring a friend along..
2)If u leave to a 100..i wanna live to a 100-1..cz i nv wanna live a day without u..*for this..i wuld say..if u live to a 100..i wuld wan to live to a 101 cz i wuld nv wanna c u cry*
3)True friendship is like sound health.the value of it is seldom known until its lost.*i nv ever wanna try to lose it*
4)A real friend is one who walks in when e whole world walks out.
5)Dun walk infront of mi..i may not follow..dun walk behind mi..i may not lead..jus walk beside mi n be my friends forever..*sumtimes u may not see mi beside..cz i jus wanna catch u when u fall*
6)Strangers are jus friends waiting to happen..friends r e bacon bits of a salad bowl..
7)Friendship is one mind in 2 bodies.its god's way of taking care of us.
8)I lean on u.n u lean on mi.n we will be ok.
9)If all my friends were to jump of e bridge..i wun jump wif em..but i will be at e bottom to catch em..
10)Every1 hears what u say..friends listen to wad u say..best friends listen to wad u dun say..*i agree totally*
11)We all take diff paths in life..but no matter where we go..we take a little of one another..*how much i wish we wun haf to take diff paths*
12)My father always say..when u die n u haf 5 real friends..u haf had a great life..*i tink i haf had a great life le*
13)hold a true friend with both hands..
14)A friend is one who noes e song in ya heart n can sing it for u when u haf forgotten e words..* u all always does that for mi*
15)Love starts wif a smile.grows wif a kiss.ends with a tear.
16)A best friend is like a 4 leave clover.hard to find and lucky to haf.
17)True friendship nv ends.friends r forever.
18)gd friends are like stars..u dun always see em..but u noe that they are there forever..
19)when it hurts to look back.n scared to look forward.u can always look beside n ya best friend will be dere wif u.
20)a friend is one who believes in u even when u ceased to believe in yaself..*i love this*


alright..shall end here bloggy..take care every1 ! ..byee..pardon mi today..


][.FEarless.][
][.i m always e one inflicting e pain.][
][.jus wanna say.][
][.it hurts too.][

][.gotta get the shots in.n the rebounds down.][

][.gotta get the shots in.n the rebounds down.][

hey bloggy..paiseh ah..abandon u for e past few days..cz realli super tired..haha..wanted to blog abt e past few days..but all i can rmb now is..luckily i finished my hist essay by today..

haha yah..anyway today's blog is jus a random one..hmm today vj trng..we played match..haha shugs my free throw is horrendous..yah realli..n i m not doing all e center moves n not getting e rebounds that i shuld..shugs..this can't go on..if not how to help n win together wif em as a team ne..tml mus jia u le..tml got optional trng..hope its gonna be fun n at e same time not so tired..or else at nite i sure puncture de =p..hee hao la..i m looking forward to e season..wondering how e season n A div is exactly like..

haha n yah..hmm kind of exicted ! cz finally its gonna be e weekend le..not that its gonna be of any diff..but jus excited by e thought that dun nd to attend tutorial n lect for 2 days..hee wad else..o yah !!! although i was so tired cz of e rushing of hist essay..haha i din slp a wink at all during today's lect ! hee find this such a great achievement that i told jan that its e 1st time in my jc life that i managed to stay awake n listen to all e lects n tutorials..haha great achievement to myself =D hee

hao la..i m kind of tired le..so end here le la..take gd care yeah every1 ! byee..

..off to start my sewing..heh heh

][.FEarless.][
][.drenched.][
][.took up bball becoz of u all.][
][.but now my time is taken up by it.][
][.but i haf nv regreted.][
][.coz everyday i play e game.][
][.i m reminded of US.][

][.wo she mer dou bu xiang qu xiang.][

][.wo she mer dou bu xiang qu xiang.][

yah bloggy..i dun wanna tink abt a single thing..i jus off my hp..i wanna ignore everything..yah..actually i jus wanna take my mind off sumthing..
sumthing that take up so much of my life..

imagine myself in a world wif onli it..now i wanna walk out of this world..close e doors behind mi..n go into e other world..e world of nature..peace..happiness..i can't exactly tell u wad i visualised..but i seems to be walking into a piece of greenland..so nice so nice..yes..thats wad i wan..take a deep breathe..take a walk..all alone or maybe wif a gd companion..sum1 wbom i trust n respect..sum1..i dunno who that sum1 is..maybe alone wun be a bad choice too..

walk..slowly..peacefully..enjoying every moment of being alone.laying on the greenland..with the clouds abv me..so nice so nice..after enff rest..get up n cont walking..along e beach..see e sunset..den walk towards another greenland..lay down dere n gaze at e stars..e whole sky wif onli stars..beautiful..how wonderful can it be..dun wan to tink of wads behind e doors..wadever that i had left behind in e other world..yup..so nice so nice..

thats wad i suddenly feel..so jus wanna blog down..dunno wad to say..i jus wan to take my mind of it..dun wan to tink abt it..dun wan to be affected by it..dun wan..once or twice is enff..1st is that team..now is this team..how many times must this happen..i rmb sum1 once told mi to treasure my playing time now..cz it will becum more complicated..n it wun be as enjoyable as be4..n i tink it already is le..its diff..thats all i can say..

yah..if onli i can..i will..take a break..a short one..not that i m tired..i jus wan one..dun be bothered by wad i say..but i may not wish to tok abt it this few days..so if u tink u noe wad i m tinking..thanks..wuld appreciate it if u dun tok to mi abt it for a day..n let it be tml yeah..*peace*..maybe i will feel much refreshed after that..

hao la..bloggy..i end here le..so much to do..so much..take gd care every1 !..byee..n yah..pls dun take wad i blog to heart..its jus my v this moment de gan jue..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.is it a process every1 mus be thru.][

][.jus wanna enjoy every moment of the game.][

][.jus wanna enjoy every moment of the game.][

y0z bloggy..hee i gotta pack my file n bag n do my inequalities for tml..but..hmm i m feeling a little happy tonite..so decided to blog 1st be4 i go complete my hw n slp be4 11:30..thats my aim =p hehe

alright..hmm today..sun..started out quite simple..slept till 11am..den was chao xing by my dad..cz he was vaccumming e floor..den breakfast..lunch..+ completed tues wif morrie !!! o mian..tues wif morrie n the five ppl u meet in heaven r realli vvv nice bks la..that day i saw em at popular..wanted to buy em..but mummy say read be4 le dun wan..so bought another one for mi..mus thank mummy for that bk..cz it cost quite a bit..but i shall save up for this 2 bks which i tink is so nice la..hee

so after that..left home for sbc at 3:30 like this..reached dere quite early..den changed n rest..played againist stackers..hmm not a bad game for e team..=D..den after that went to bathe..haha yun2 encoutered a millipede..scary scary..after that went to watch match..den had a waffle..hee cz lqjl say she wanted to buy after e game..so i asked for one la..mei xiang dao nobody else wan..so paiseh..hee so watch e game le..den went for dinner wif family..den took a cab bac..

haha yeah..sun is my family day..*5milez*..happy happy family day..+ today is a happy day..haha

haha hao la..go le..take care every1 ! byee..

happy happy..
jus a v simple kind of happy..
where i will jus smile frm e heart..
hee..
chat..waffle..happy..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.haha.happy.moments.][

][.i m loving it.][

][.i m loving it.][

haha lol bloggy !!! i m finally back to update =D hee gotta lots to say..but e past few days was realli busy man..i mean this holidays isn't any holidays for mi..as usual.. but nbm..i m enjoying it la..cz read tues wif morrie den it teaches mi lots..anyway abv are jus sum pics la..randomly de..dere r still many others..shall post nxt time..but mus thank sheryl n moi for sending mi 1st ;p hee

haha yah..so it started wif mon-wed at training camp..hmm this camp ah..i realli allowed myself to stretch to e limits le..was tired out by e camp..but once it ended i felt so energetic tor !!! haha jkjk..i mean i felt much more prepared for e season..cz like got more stamina n stuffs la..hmm fei hua..running so much everyday..no stamina also mus haf le la..din try running 6km be4..din tot that i can make it..but yeah..all of us did it..den hmm all those trngs..wa..realli v tired..haha yah..so spent 3 days of my hols in camp le..with e team..n my room-mates are nice..they are rong n vk (xy)..hee den quite an enjoyable one ba..but jus sad cz i din get to go to 4a's class bbq..den that nice lx ask mi go hell la ;p haha jkjk..but i do miss e class..miss 4a now that i m in jc ;p..haiz..

anyway yah..wed after e camp..went to watch match at sbc..den came home n pia my vcds.."devil beside u"..realli nice man !!! thanks jing for lending it to me !!! haha its such a tear jerking show la..touching n sweet show..bth bth..haha so watched till 3plus..den was asked to go slp..so slept till 12 on thurs..woke up n cont watching till evening den went for trng..another one which i screwed up..sianz..but nbm..

so today's fri..haha had friendly wif ijc..hmm realli not v well played thou we won..was quite disappointed wif it..cz its like i was looking forward to a much better team after e camp..kind of disappointed la..in myself..in everything..haha but its ok la..there's still a little time..to buck up..to jia u..i realli hope n pray..i can sense e anxious-ness in every1..but i hope that there's more trust..trust in each other..realli..not comparing anything..but it was e mutal trust that we haf in each another that allowed us to play a game at our own pace in ahs..n i realli hope that it will be e same in vj..we haf gd players..but we nd e trust n confidence..jia u ba da jia !

so after e game..went to saeke sushi..coach's treat..o mian realli eat till i wanna puke le la..was so hungry be4 e game de la..den after that took a lift from mr lim..den took 12..to meet wen at 230..hai sorry jing !!! cz of e treat which ended quite late..we nv go to e food fair as intended..sorry sorry jing !!! haiz..once again..sorry zhu tous !!!

hmm yah..anyway thats my wk..end here le every1 ! take gd care yeah !!! byee..

i m loving it..

][.FEarless.][
][.tues wif morrie.][

][.every ending is another beginning.we just dunno it at that time.][

][.every ending is another beginning.we just dunno it at that time.][

hey bloggy..i m jus back from ayeoneswee's gathering..had bbq at kallayn's place..hmm i haven blogged much for this wk..but its not becoz i got nothing to blog..but becoz i haf jus so much n too much that i haf no energy to blog..feel so tired nowadays..

alright..shall do a recap abt my wk..hmm i m in love with this song called ->Kiss Goodbye by wang li hong..its realli a nice n sad song..e gan jue la..n wen jus send mi loads of nice songs ytr..n i swear they are realli nice..each n every song dou shi i like de those kind..thanks wen..

][.my life.][
i had jus finished reading the five ppl u meet in heaven a few days ago..borrowed e bk from jasmin..its realli a nice bk..simple n sweet..i dunno i jus liked it..taking for eg. my blog title for today is based on e bk de..i m now embarking on tues with morrie..e starting is already v nice le..thanks yongqin for lending mi e bk..hee..hope i can finish it by this wk la..i tink its realli one bk that i will like a lot ba..hee

den wad else..had orientation on mon n tues during this wk..but i pon-ed e whole of o2..haha o mian..this is e 1st ever time that i pon-ed sumtime..1st day was becoz had trng den after that coach treat swensense..anyway that trng suxz..cz i m realli v sianz le..had been trng for dunno how many consect days..yah..anyway it wasn;t realli a nice trng..but e day ended quite nice la..jus v simple..

den hmm tues..had o2 too..but din go..slacked with 06A13 n bought our uni..slacked n crap in v21 till 12plus 1 den went to watch nau chiaug vs anderson de finals..it was quite a nice game ba..but nau chiaug lost la..felt kind of sad for em..cz..haha dunno..ke xi ba..den after that went back for gym den went for alj trng..e trng was slack..but i was realli tired out by e gym le..so v nua..we shot 100 balls..den played 4 on 4..5 sets of it..a nice day..a day that i enjoyed playing bball happily after so many consect day of trngs..

wed..had a fake trng at vj..went to mac to study wif van..den went for e game against lingyun..yeah alj won..but i screwed up on court..as usual..was disappointed in myself..but my stubborness in mi refuses to cry..its pointless la..i guess..hee n mus thank van..thou she wun see this..but yah..thanks..thanks for constantly seeing my worries n teaching mi wad to do..but overall it was a great day la..had dinner wif mei n yaqi n gen n xiaoqian after that..den took mrt home..all alone..was so tired..

thurs..had trng again..but be4 that went bac to ahs to watch ahs finals..e juniors were doing fine up till 2nd quad..but sumhow had a bad premonition..n yah..they lost in e end..was realli realli sad for them..n sad la..but i guessed they are much sadder than us (snrs) ba..after that watched a little of the guy's match..cchs is realli fast..n our boys had a little hard time catching up la..but at least it was realli nice la..den after that went back to sch for trng..n received e news that e guys lost too..hmm yah..jus hope that both e gals n guys will be able to perform much better during their nationals yeah =D ahs woosh !

fri..which is today..hee had such a sucky start today..cz i fell asleep last nite n din finish my hist essay..not even close to finishing it..so woke up at 5:42am n rushed like siao till 7..but still din finish..n took a cab to sch..n completed e rest of e work during pe..den hmm ended sch le n went bac wif moi..realli mus say sorry to lu..cz i promised to pei her go hse function de..but my class decided to meet at 5:30 for bbq..so can't in e end..i tink i suxz man..feel so bad..yah..anyway e bbq was nice..i tink i starting to like my class more n more le..met jo,xue li and hui hui be4 we went..haha brought em to e wrong side to take 113..thanks to ah sam la..hee jkjk..den we ate n watched brokenback mountain..o mian..e show is erm..nbm..but e scenery that it takes is realli so freaking nice la..hai..how i wish i can go to such places for a trip n get my mind of this hectic life too..hee yah..so watched e movie le..had foto-taking den came bac via 53..nice nite..hee

hmm today i came bac ard 4 n watched super sunday de super mission..o mian..i swear it is one of my most fav. tv shows la..e story abt how ppl meet always amazes mi..e story that they share nv fails to touch my heart..em losing contacts always make mi tink..wad if one day i lose contact wif my friends..who will i wanna find most..haha lots n lots of qn..den today de super mission v v v sad..its abt xu ru yun wanting to find her classmate which she had given a slap cz he say that she was a pig..after that incident she was realli regretful..but nv had e chance to say sorry..so today she wanna find e person n say sorry..but in e end..e person that came out from e door was sum1 that looked completely diff..apart frm e eyes..they were still talking so happily abt e change..den e truth was finally disclosed..e person was actually e guy that they wanted to find e bro..e guy had died in an accident 9 yrs ago..hear the truth le every1 was like so sad la..tears flowed out..mi too la..realli sad..den harlem was saying that e lesson earned = "dun ever hesitate to tell sum1 sumthing..cz u nv noe if u will live past today to face tml ma.."..haiz it realli makes lots of sense man..den was reading tues wif morrie..den it says that morrie had a live funeral de ceremony..cz he went to sum1's funeral n heard all e nice things that ppl said abt e deceased..den he felt a pity cz e deceased will nv be able to listen to e appreciation that others haf towards him le..hee yah..thats what i feel too la..nv hesitate to tell sum1 sumthing..n hence i wanna tell sum ppl sum things..but dere's so many ppl that i wanna tell so many things..so i haf decided to tell my family..thanks for tolerating all my nonsense..realli..my piggy daddy who has been doting on mi since young..my piggy mummy who is becoming more understanding day by day n always dere..my piggy bro for allowing mi to vent my angers n dotes on mi too..i love em so..

haha n yah..today watched channel u de "meng ping tu"..e one e superstars act de..haha quite nice de..i hope i can get to watch e nxt esp ;p

haha hao la..thats abt all for my this wk's update..its been a tiring wk..n i mus admit that i hasn't been strong this wk..i miss so many ppl..i miss so many things..i miss em..i miss jo n xue li too..i miss jus so much..too much to be expressed in words..but can onli be kept in my heart..hee hao la..take gd care every1 !!! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.missing u all every moment.][
][.hope to meet up wif u all during e hols.][
][.ai e shi te ru forever5.][

][.sumtimes.time realli dun matters.][

][.sumtimes.time realli dun matter.][

hiz bloggy..currently i m eating durians..jus had my dinner..yup i noe its late..11:09pm now..i m getting so fat..but it dun realli matter la..i mean wt can be shed of..but sumtimes disappointment can't..

it was once sumthing that i feared..
now i fear it too..
but for a complete different reason..

i rather fear it for e previous reason than e current one..
e current reason that i fear it realli suxz..
actually its not fear..
but i can't find e right word to describe it..

its affecting my mood..
i hate it..
it was once my reason to smile..
but it has became e reason for my depressing mood..

shugs..

haha hao la..was feeling kind of disappointed n depressed over sumthing that i dun realli deserve to la..wanted to tell sum1 abt it..but it seems like pointless..as in..haha i dun feel e need to..i jus wan this to change..change for e better..changed bac to e past..i pray..

hmm yah..anyway was feeling moodless..so switched on e com n chatted wif auntie joy..haha she reminds mi of so many things..things that were simple n sweet..times when things were jus so simple..not complicated..n maybe a little stupid but yet so nice..made tears welled up in my eyes..but din fall out la..cz these were nice n sweet memories..so mixed wif my disappointed mood earlier..it was jus nice..so jus sum tears that haf gathered..wif a smile while i reminicise these..e simple n happy moments n memories..n e changed world..

haha was jus chatting wif sh that day..den was saying that.."sumtimes u may noe sum1 for yrs n u jus feel that e person dun understand u..whereas sumtimes u jus noe e person for a short while n u can trust e person.."..haha i realli feel so..time dun realli matters at times..like wad aunite joy said..its e click..haha..thinking abt it..i tink its realli true..apart from forever5 which i tink its e time which built up our friendship n making it stronger by yrs la..i tink there r a few ppl that i trust becoz of e "click"..hee..n i had told em that la..cz realli appreciate e understanding..encouragements n friendship they give mi..hee u noe who u r..

hmm yah..so after chatting wif auntie joy..i feel much better la..e disappointment fades a little cz it set mi tinking of sum simple n nice memories n times..yah thou i m still kind of on a depressed mode now..but much much better le =)

haha hao la..shall end here le..gotta go rest le..take gd care every1 ! n stay happy always..rmb : " if there's a reason to be sad..there mus be a reason to be happy too""..n yah..to mi..crying isn't a weakling kind of behaviour..i always believe that it will make one feel better..but after that..mus be strong n move on..hee yah..jus crapping..but thats wad i always feel la..once again..take gd care..n byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.hoping that u will reply.][
][.thankful.][

][.i pray that u all stay.][

][.i pray that u all stay.][

hey bloggy..jus wanna blog sumthing be4 i go out for trng later..hmm bloggy i m realli praying..praying that jo n xueli yongqing and all e 06A13 who are appealing bac to vj can make it n cum bac..

its realli sad when i noe that jo n xueli din make it n went to tj instead..they haf sent in their appeal n i realli hope that they will call mi on mon nite n tell mi e gd news ! we will see each other on tues yeah..

hmm i jus discovered that i had nv blogged much about my 1st 3 mths..its been fun..thou its kinda of stressful at times..but i m realli glad to be in this class n to be part of fat french fries..i will miss fat french fries..its onli after cuming to vj that i start to tok n crap n haf fun wif jo n xue li..hee realli glad to noe em..they haf presented much memorable memories n i hope they will make it bac to giv mi more nicer memories..

its e same for all 06A13..thou i seldom tok to em..but they are realli nice ppl..thanks lots for all e laughters in class n e times we spent together..to all those that is going elsewhere..all e best n thanks for stepping into my life n giving mi these wonderful memories for these months..realli thanks..

to all those that appealed bac..i pray for all..n dun worry ok jo,xueli and yongqing etc..u all will make it back de..waiting to see u all on tues ok !

hao la..i gotta go le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.ohsixayeonethree.][

][.mood swings.][

][.mood swings.][

haha hi bloggy..yah..mood swings..but dun worry i not hafing mood swings in e sense of realli mood swings la..but its jus that e day be4 i was realli sad..over sumthings..den ytr i was realli v happy over sumthings too..n now currently..in e early morning of 4/3/06 2:46 am..i m feeling a kind of feeling that i can't define..

actually i had wanted to blog abt my happy n sad day de..but now i feel like bloggin abt sum other things instead..but i also not v sure wad i wanna blog..jus typing n typing..until i set my mind on wad i wan..haha

was toking to sh..den came across ideologies etc..hee..i also not v sure how i shuld express myself la..so maybe i shall try using a not realli "poem" de poem to express myself la =p

][.me.][
cliche as e title might seems , thats me
i m always trying to be positive
but in others eyes i m always feeling negative..
n sumtimes i can't help but agree..

dere are many things in life that i dun realli like..
but i wun say..
cz i tink they will be hurtful..

sum feel that i shuld say wadever i feel..
i thought that i shuld too..
but after much through thinking..
i tink i wuld jus stay e way i m..
cz thats e real mi..

i dun like to hurt others..
cz i hate to be hurt too ( like diao rite..who like to be hurted? =p)

i believe every1 haf their own sets of beliefs n ideology..
thats why i nv tell others that my thinkings are right..
i will jus leave it to e person..
if e person can accept it..
den gd la..
if e person can't..
its also ok la..every1 haf their own rights..
n i respect it..
jus like i hope that others will respect mine too..

haha yah..thats jus a brief outline abt myself..cz sh gave mi "feedback" that i dun realli tok abt my ideologies..haha hmm but i tot i always say a lot de ;p..haha hao la..i shall end here le..cz its kinda of late le..hee anyway shall jus give a brief summary abt these few days so that i can rmb n blog abt it..

-e day be4..realli v sad cz we grow.we changed
-ytr v happy..cz things seems like be4..n we had a great lunch..that made mi full till now..
-trng was fun n kind of slacked...got a ride home frm hui2 listen to her analyise abt sumthings which i tink is realli true..

haha hao la..summary ended..i shall go slp le..or else tml is a super long day..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.every1 haf their own set of thinkings.][
][.sumtimes i m not wad u tink i m.][

][.tired of everything.leave mi in my own simple world for a while.thanks.][

][.tired of everything.leave mi in my own simple world for a while.thanks.][

i m tired..
tired of everything..
scram scram scram..

did i make a wrong choice..
sumtimes i tink i did..
sumtimes i tink i din..

e feeling suxz when ppl starts toking abt it..
makes mi feel so inferior..
as though i m there to occupy e space that i shuldn't..
taking sumthing that dun belong to mi..

i m starting to feel e stress..
e pace that they are going at is so fast..
i can't catch up..
i m tired..

looking at e files..
i haf so much so much to read..to study..
so much that i dunno how to start..

ppl haf their doubts abt mi..
i jus feel like proving em wrong..
but i nd encouragements..
i nd support..
but every1 ard mi is jus as stressed up..

at least my gd friends are..
i dunno how to tell em..

jus talked to sum1 on e fone jus now..
so many misunderstanding..
so much miscommunications..
so much that we haf no patience for one another..
both parties are at fault..
thats all i can say..
or maybe its onli mi..
maybe..
perhaps..
must be..

leave mi alone for a moment..i feel that i suxz..i always told myself to be positive thou i m always paranoid..but i m tired..mentally..i nd a break n get up to cont e race..defeat every1 who looks down on mi..i hate being looked down..i feel like shouting to these idiots who looked down on mi that they suxz too..but tinking abt it..wads e pt..sum1 told mi to use my own abilities to prove these ppl wrong..n i promise i will..i hope 2 yrs later when i receive my a lvl results like wad e seniors did today..i will be able to stand tall n be proud of myself..

hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..jia u..be strong..n hmm my com is siao siao le..so tml e repair man gonna cum n take my com away..so may not blog for a few days..take gd care..byee..

ps.happy bday wen n butts ! butts did u change ya no.. or u dao mi..why nv reply ;p hee jkjk

][.FEarless.][
][.give mi e courage to defeat e obstacles.][