][.High & Low of 2011.][
hello bloggy!
it's 819pm on 31/12/2011.
usual routine of wrapping up at the end of each year.
haha gosh time really really flies.
it was countdown to 2011 with forever5 at moi's place and now here i am at the end of 2011 with 3hrs+ to go be4 forever5 countdown to yet another year of friendship =]
remembered myself listing 11 things that i want to do in 2011.
let's see what had been accomplished and what hasn't =]
1) Blading & Wakeboarding! - wake boarding done with wen,jing,fungi & shem! it was a really good experience and i am thankful that i was able to do it be4 acl injury =]
2) Swimming! = i tried going for swimming more often and swam laps and once again i am thankful that i tried it with my frog style be4 acl injury =]
3) Golf! - went with moi to driving range and had fun. thanks & i'm thankful for the chances. =]
4) Tennis! - not done! =P
5) Photography! -yups, still went around with moi for photo shots! =]
6) Save up for get away! - done! 12 days of awesome-ness with moi & jing! one of the most memorable travelling up till now! my 1st go at backpacking <3
7) Cooking! - haha tried to learn from mummy here and there but no where near her level =P
8) First Aid! - not done! but will be done in 2012 feb! =]
9)Learn more about beer, liquor, wine and coffee & tea! =] - haha not really apart from my growing collection of vodka. =]
10) Have time for myself to do things i wanna do n love to do! =] - i guess this is done in a way. trying new things and getting away for 12 days. all these are awesome-ness which i cannot imagine in 2010.
11) Work harder for GPA! =] - done! *pats on my own shoulder* these two sems yr3 sem2 and yr4 sem1 had been my best sems. let's continue and give my best for my last sem in 2012! =]
2 things that mummy want me to do in 2011:
1) Learn how to get a bf. - haha erm. did i manage to do it? i guess yes & no. it's not on a to do list but things found its way back. it had not been easy & will not be easy but it's ok. every1 have their ups & downs moments. what's most important is cherishing the moments! no1 is perfect. thanks for accepting my flaws! i'll learn to accept yours too. =] and thanks for allowing me to be just me. apart from forever5, close friends and my family, i seldom expose my "dark" side, so thanks for taking in all my rubbish! <3
2) Learn to start eating onions.
haha sorry mummy! i only eat onion rings! =P
haha so here's a sum up to my 2011. =]
it had been a good one.
it really had been.
with all the ups & downs.
ups that brought me happiness - finding the joy in playing basketball once again, scoring well in academics, doing fyp, 12 awesome days in thai, experiencing water sports which i nv tot i will, the chance to work at childcare center and caring for the kids. <3
downs which showed me the love - haha truthfully when it comes to down, all i can recall is 14/9/11. byebye acl! knowing that i can't play my last season was my biggest blow of 2011. all the down-ness,going bonkers moments, cry like mad, pain like mad moments,thanks for the moment which showed me true love. showed me those that care for me and what many things really mean in life. it had not been an easy journey but it definitely had been very much enriching and life-changing. going through it had made me realized that one can really be stronger than what you think and people who truly cares stay by you through the darkest moments, picking up your pain and showing you the way out. =] my journey continues. long way but not no way! =]
haha that sums up my 2011.
for 2012, all i hope is back to normalcy.
1) knee to recover and allow me to run and jump once again. (when even walking becomes a joy)
2) conquer mount k with llz & forever5.
3) have a nice closure to my last sem - last 6months of academic life.
4) learn cpr for i see the importance in it especially after watching discovery channel & animal planet (my new loves after acl injury)
5) for all i love to stay happy & healthy.
6) get a good job which i am happy with and clear my study loan. =]
haha that's all i ask of 2012.
being alive is one of the greatest thing & next is to find meaning and joy in it!
thanks for 2011!
Welcome 2012! i will work hard to be a better person! =]
let's go!
<3 family, forever5, friends & bear.
take gd care every1!
][.10.fe.15.][
][.我是幸福的.][
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
][.every relationship is a gamble.][
][.every relationship is a gamble.][
hello bloggy.
just some random thoughts with things going on and around me.
every relationship is a gamble with its ups and downs.
sometimes, things ain't easy.
problems surface and it's all up to each party to solve it or move on.
everything happens for a reason.
every1 appear in your life for a reason.
some memories and secrets are only between both of you.
it's something that others have no idea.
so whichever it is, don't hurt the one that used to be a special one.
it applies across friendship and all.
me: xxxxxxx
a good friend in the past: eh you still remembered what i say?
me: why not? haha
us: a look back at the past and a smile which shows that we moved on.
that special bond that both used to share is something precious.
even if the ending hurts, it still has its beautiful memories.
remember the good-ness in each and let the sour-ness and bitterness go.
it makes life easier.
and it makes me smile.
on the other hand,
leg is getting better but i had forgotten how to walk.
haha hydro was fun and bike again tml.
slowing down to enjoy life thou staying home all day is driving me mad at times.
thanks to every1 who dropped by to accompany me =]
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
hello bloggy.
just some random thoughts with things going on and around me.
every relationship is a gamble with its ups and downs.
sometimes, things ain't easy.
problems surface and it's all up to each party to solve it or move on.
everything happens for a reason.
every1 appear in your life for a reason.
some memories and secrets are only between both of you.
it's something that others have no idea.
so whichever it is, don't hurt the one that used to be a special one.
it applies across friendship and all.
me: xxxxxxx
a good friend in the past: eh you still remembered what i say?
me: why not? haha
us: a look back at the past and a smile which shows that we moved on.
that special bond that both used to share is something precious.
even if the ending hurts, it still has its beautiful memories.
remember the good-ness in each and let the sour-ness and bitterness go.
it makes life easier.
and it makes me smile.
on the other hand,
leg is getting better but i had forgotten how to walk.
haha hydro was fun and bike again tml.
slowing down to enjoy life thou staying home all day is driving me mad at times.
thanks to every1 who dropped by to accompany me =]
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
][.Tears of Joy.][
][.Tears of Joy.][
it's been quite a while since i cried due to overwhelming happiness.
thanks year 4 sem 1. thanks fyp. thanks for letting me feel so happy once again.
sat by the com with mummy and saw my cgpa and got a shock.
it's still second lower but it was pulled up. =]
went to check the results for this sem and fyp totally made my day.
all the hard work for 5 months from having no place to do my research to having ntuc eldercare till writing and non-stop editing, not sure what to do and till it's finally done, it had been a mad mad process.
thank you francesco for more than words.
my awesome awesome supervisor.
thanks loads for giving me a nice closure to my linguistics major life.
last sem with officially nothing to do with linguistics anymore.
and fyp closed it real well.
thanks fyp, thanks elderspeak.
you had really been a milestone in my life.
and i never regretted doing fyp. <3
now going into the last sem of uni life, jiayou fe!
let's do it! =]
on the other hand, stitches are removed.
movements are getting better and life is still good. =]
take gd care every1!
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
it's been quite a while since i cried due to overwhelming happiness.
thanks year 4 sem 1. thanks fyp. thanks for letting me feel so happy once again.
sat by the com with mummy and saw my cgpa and got a shock.
it's still second lower but it was pulled up. =]
went to check the results for this sem and fyp totally made my day.
all the hard work for 5 months from having no place to do my research to having ntuc eldercare till writing and non-stop editing, not sure what to do and till it's finally done, it had been a mad mad process.
thank you francesco for more than words.
my awesome awesome supervisor.
thanks loads for giving me a nice closure to my linguistics major life.
last sem with officially nothing to do with linguistics anymore.
and fyp closed it real well.
thanks fyp, thanks elderspeak.
you had really been a milestone in my life.
and i never regretted doing fyp. <3
now going into the last sem of uni life, jiayou fe!
let's do it! =]
on the other hand, stitches are removed.
movements are getting better and life is still good. =]
take gd care every1!
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
Saturday, December 17, 2011
][.Long way but not no way.][
][.Long way but not no way.][
hello bloggy i am back!
it's 18/12/11.
one more day to 2 weeks since new acl is in. =]
removing stitches tml. slightly scared.really don't like all these needles, blood, stitching =P
aw it had been a wow 2 weeks.
sometimes, taking a step back allows you to see things clearer.
i really am thankful for my parents.
especially mummy <3
daddy is as patient with me as always.
but mummy really dotes on me ttm these two weeks.
through the hardest time, she had not once lost her patience and love.
and i am thankful for every1 that stood by me during these period of time. <3
this journey back is not a short one.
but long way doesn't mean no way.
it's possible.
step by step.
everyday, every single improvement makes me happy.
being able to walk.
being able to bend more.
of course there are moments of anguish, moments of frustrations when the leg can't bend any further, when pain sinks in, when you can't even cycle.
but during moments like this, i will think back - hey, it's a step forward from not being able to stand and walk isnt' it?
no hurries.
really no hurries.
step by step, i will be back. =]
playing ball or not seems to be a far far away goal for me at the moment.
cause every single step i take, i am thankful.
i wanna learn taiji when i get better. =]
thanks to 5-yr-old =]
wanna build back my atrophy muscles be4 getting back. (if i am)
haha during the 1st few days after the op, during a brief moment, i recalled that every moment of school life had been filled with basketball.
the joy, the pride, the hard work, the happiness, the disappointments.
these are what allows me to be who i am today.
but i am in no hurries to rush back to the game.
there's more in life to pursue. =]
take gd care every1!
life is a route that i wanna keep going.
you can do it!
you really are stronger than what you think.
but it is also really ok to break down and rest when you need.
you don't have to be strong always. =]
back to exercisese.
take care! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][
hello bloggy i am back!
it's 18/12/11.
one more day to 2 weeks since new acl is in. =]
removing stitches tml. slightly scared.really don't like all these needles, blood, stitching =P
aw it had been a wow 2 weeks.
sometimes, taking a step back allows you to see things clearer.
i really am thankful for my parents.
especially mummy <3
daddy is as patient with me as always.
but mummy really dotes on me ttm these two weeks.
through the hardest time, she had not once lost her patience and love.
and i am thankful for every1 that stood by me during these period of time. <3
this journey back is not a short one.
but long way doesn't mean no way.
it's possible.
step by step.
everyday, every single improvement makes me happy.
being able to walk.
being able to bend more.
of course there are moments of anguish, moments of frustrations when the leg can't bend any further, when pain sinks in, when you can't even cycle.
but during moments like this, i will think back - hey, it's a step forward from not being able to stand and walk isnt' it?
no hurries.
really no hurries.
step by step, i will be back. =]
playing ball or not seems to be a far far away goal for me at the moment.
cause every single step i take, i am thankful.
i wanna learn taiji when i get better. =]
thanks to 5-yr-old =]
wanna build back my atrophy muscles be4 getting back. (if i am)
haha during the 1st few days after the op, during a brief moment, i recalled that every moment of school life had been filled with basketball.
the joy, the pride, the hard work, the happiness, the disappointments.
these are what allows me to be who i am today.
but i am in no hurries to rush back to the game.
there's more in life to pursue. =]
take gd care every1!
life is a route that i wanna keep going.
you can do it!
you really are stronger than what you think.
but it is also really ok to break down and rest when you need.
you don't have to be strong always. =]
back to exercisese.
take care! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
][.1st day at physio.][
][.1st day at physio.][
hello bloggy..
1 wk and 1 day after new acl is in me.
1st physio session and learning how to walk all over again.
haha walk. yes walk.
the wobbly feel till you weight shift and the faith you need to walk without ur clutches and brace.
haha walking was nv seen as a challenge even when ankle was bad for 3months.
but every step now takes so much.
that leg that once allowed you to run, jump and all.
learning how to walk all over again is..
it makes you cherish more.
everyday, i am reminded of how simple things were and how it no longer is but definitely will once again.
一切重新开始。一步一步再来。
feeling sleepy now.
take gd care every1!
cherish each moment.
cherish each moment that you are given.
it's not as simple as it seems.
your body is working hard for you. =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.1 more day to 3rd month.][
hello bloggy..
1 wk and 1 day after new acl is in me.
1st physio session and learning how to walk all over again.
haha walk. yes walk.
the wobbly feel till you weight shift and the faith you need to walk without ur clutches and brace.
haha walking was nv seen as a challenge even when ankle was bad for 3months.
but every step now takes so much.
that leg that once allowed you to run, jump and all.
learning how to walk all over again is..
it makes you cherish more.
everyday, i am reminded of how simple things were and how it no longer is but definitely will once again.
一切重新开始。一步一步再来。
feeling sleepy now.
take gd care every1!
cherish each moment.
cherish each moment that you are given.
it's not as simple as it seems.
your body is working hard for you. =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.1 more day to 3rd month.][
Sunday, December 11, 2011
][.Post-op day 7.][
][.Post-op day 7.][
hello bloggy!
i am finally back.
11/12/11. post op day 7?
things are finally gradually settling down. =]
too much thoughts.
overwhelming ones.
this journey had really been a long one till now.
and it will continue to be a long one.
when simple things don't seem simple anymore,
you really learn to cherish every single moments.
shall do a backlog to note down this significant event in my life.
thou i am certain that i will not forget anything about this.
5/12/11: Op day.
moi sent me to e hospital and all the waiting and all.
daddy and mummy accompanied me. <3
an arrow to make sure that doc ops on the right (right) leg.
no food since e night before and 100ml of drink at 9am.
all ready to go.
heart pounding as the moments pass.
finally after 3hours, time to go for the op.
lying in the op theater waiting for the anesthesia doc to come, at that instance, it was 2pm.
i really wanted to give up on the op.
just continue my life without basketball.
just cycle and all.
but..haha is it possible?
then comes the anesthesia..
the veins on the hand are too small.
so she tried the side and i felt like !)#&#()@#
it was worst than blood taking.
so they changed an anesthetist for me..handsome new zealand dr daniel.
changed a smaller needle and changed to the joint veins.
next moment..all i know is being wheel in, time out and next moment, your op is done.
feel my brace and fell asleep once again.
woke up to daddy and mummy and the start of my challenge.
super nausea from the anesthesia effect.
kept wanting to vomit but i can't and leg was so heavy.
fell back to sleep-sek-sleep-llz-sleep.
thanks loads sek and llz! my 2 advisers when i have no idea what's going on with my knee. =]
den much awake, hungry but no appetite.
nan da came - thanks loads wei wei, bao bao, lydia, jayne, cynthia, jieying, jieqi. =]
ahs came - thanks loads sh, ling, choo choo and moi.
terry too.
thanks loads to all that came down!
greatly appreciated! =]
ate 2 mouth of fish soup and felt nausea.
when food is not appealing - that's when something is vvv wrong with fe.
so daddy mummy stayed with me till 940pm and went back. <3
the night was uncomfortable.
1st night sleeping with the brace, can't eat, feeling warm all over and wanna vomit all the time. it sucks.
waking up every 30mins, using pee pan and 7am, doc came.
the night felt so long.
breakfast was not nice.
6/12/11 day 2
doc came, breakfast served, no appetite at all.
and the headache beings.
nurse shifting my leg to get me to xray and physio and can't help but cry.
pain max.
den wen and jing coming to get me home.
feel very weak and angst by den.
no food and pain.
pek che, frustration, gao wei.
all the "-" adjectives that you can think of.
just throw it out.
day 2 was a very bad day.
it was a day which i am really horrendous and should apologize to my parents maximum.
temper was on a all-time bad.
still can't eat. (that must be half of the reason)
moi and terry came over and helped me.
get ice, cyro-cuff from shem etc.
it was a bad day.
7/12/11 day 3
things getting better. slowly getting used to it.
sek, choo, moi came over to visit at night.
appetite is back and slowly getting used to it.
so the days after day 3 gets better.
usual routine of thrice a day stretching and all exercising.
eating, comic, drama - in time with you, sleep.
not a day of stretching without this song..
have to sing this to start my heel slide.
a really meaningful song.
every single line is so meaningful and so apt.
I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
the true love -- my parents. thank you daddy mummy! for tolerating with all my nonsense during the 1st few days. taking care of me ttm. daddy for giving in to me. they showed me the true love. the tolerance, the care and all that no1 else can. <3 for this, i will go all the way for them always. thank you daddy & mummy!
thanks loads to my bffs for caring for me in each of ur ways. for you guys, i will go the mile. forever5 <3
thanks loads to 5-yr-old for standing by all these while. you feel me and i know you really do thanks for being here! the never failing daily check ins =]
thanks loads to sek too for the help with physio stuffs!
thanks loads to terry for tolerating my nonsense too, my crankiness and all. =P
thanks loads to all that drop messages and encouragements. <3
really appreciate it!
things are slowly getting on track.
starting to get used to my new acl and my life.
cannot eat loads of stuffs,
sleeping and moving around with much difficulties.
when a distance that takes a while become thrice the timing.
moving up and down and even sleeping.
all these simple things ain't simple anymore.
i will learn.
i will. =]
thankful for those who are here =]
alright shall end here! icing is almost done and time for heel slide and all again.
take gd care every1!
and cherish it while you can! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][
hello bloggy!
i am finally back.
11/12/11. post op day 7?
things are finally gradually settling down. =]
too much thoughts.
overwhelming ones.
this journey had really been a long one till now.
and it will continue to be a long one.
when simple things don't seem simple anymore,
you really learn to cherish every single moments.
shall do a backlog to note down this significant event in my life.
thou i am certain that i will not forget anything about this.
5/12/11: Op day.
moi sent me to e hospital and all the waiting and all.
daddy and mummy accompanied me. <3
an arrow to make sure that doc ops on the right (right) leg.
no food since e night before and 100ml of drink at 9am.
all ready to go.
heart pounding as the moments pass.
finally after 3hours, time to go for the op.
lying in the op theater waiting for the anesthesia doc to come, at that instance, it was 2pm.
i really wanted to give up on the op.
just continue my life without basketball.
just cycle and all.
but..haha is it possible?
then comes the anesthesia..
the veins on the hand are too small.
so she tried the side and i felt like !)#&#()@#
it was worst than blood taking.
so they changed an anesthetist for me..handsome new zealand dr daniel.
changed a smaller needle and changed to the joint veins.
next moment..all i know is being wheel in, time out and next moment, your op is done.
feel my brace and fell asleep once again.
woke up to daddy and mummy and the start of my challenge.
super nausea from the anesthesia effect.
kept wanting to vomit but i can't and leg was so heavy.
fell back to sleep-sek-sleep-llz-sleep.
thanks loads sek and llz! my 2 advisers when i have no idea what's going on with my knee. =]
den much awake, hungry but no appetite.
nan da came - thanks loads wei wei, bao bao, lydia, jayne, cynthia, jieying, jieqi. =]
ahs came - thanks loads sh, ling, choo choo and moi.
terry too.
thanks loads to all that came down!
greatly appreciated! =]
ate 2 mouth of fish soup and felt nausea.
when food is not appealing - that's when something is vvv wrong with fe.
so daddy mummy stayed with me till 940pm and went back. <3
the night was uncomfortable.
1st night sleeping with the brace, can't eat, feeling warm all over and wanna vomit all the time. it sucks.
waking up every 30mins, using pee pan and 7am, doc came.
the night felt so long.
breakfast was not nice.
6/12/11 day 2
doc came, breakfast served, no appetite at all.
and the headache beings.
nurse shifting my leg to get me to xray and physio and can't help but cry.
pain max.
den wen and jing coming to get me home.
feel very weak and angst by den.
no food and pain.
pek che, frustration, gao wei.
all the "-" adjectives that you can think of.
just throw it out.
day 2 was a very bad day.
it was a day which i am really horrendous and should apologize to my parents maximum.
temper was on a all-time bad.
still can't eat. (that must be half of the reason)
moi and terry came over and helped me.
get ice, cyro-cuff from shem etc.
it was a bad day.
7/12/11 day 3
things getting better. slowly getting used to it.
sek, choo, moi came over to visit at night.
appetite is back and slowly getting used to it.
so the days after day 3 gets better.
usual routine of thrice a day stretching and all exercising.
eating, comic, drama - in time with you, sleep.
not a day of stretching without this song..
have to sing this to start my heel slide.
a really meaningful song.
every single line is so meaningful and so apt.
I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
the true love -- my parents. thank you daddy mummy! for tolerating with all my nonsense during the 1st few days. taking care of me ttm. daddy for giving in to me. they showed me the true love. the tolerance, the care and all that no1 else can. <3 for this, i will go all the way for them always. thank you daddy & mummy!
thanks loads to my bffs for caring for me in each of ur ways. for you guys, i will go the mile. forever5 <3
thanks loads to 5-yr-old for standing by all these while. you feel me and i know you really do thanks for being here! the never failing daily check ins =]
thanks loads to sek too for the help with physio stuffs!
thanks loads to terry for tolerating my nonsense too, my crankiness and all. =P
thanks loads to all that drop messages and encouragements. <3
really appreciate it!
things are slowly getting on track.
starting to get used to my new acl and my life.
cannot eat loads of stuffs,
sleeping and moving around with much difficulties.
when a distance that takes a while become thrice the timing.
moving up and down and even sleeping.
all these simple things ain't simple anymore.
i will learn.
i will. =]
thankful for those who are here =]
alright shall end here! icing is almost done and time for heel slide and all again.
take gd care every1!
and cherish it while you can! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][
Sunday, December 04, 2011
][.Pre-Op.][
][.Pre-Op.][
it's currently 1220am on 5th Dec 2011.
no more food from now on. =]
wow wow wee wow.
the day finally came.
let's face it & move on from now on.
let's go fe!
hp is off for repair.
so no whatsapp, no facebook, no twitter.
just some time alone.
days after exams n be4 pre-op were well spent.
my fav past time of mj, loads of good food, meet-ups & pre-op xmas shopping by myself as well as with terry & cycle-thon with llz! <3
cycle-thon with 5-yr-old! <3
=]
haha the day had finally come.
truthfully after blood taking, i was really freaking scared.
but no worries, i have e best supports from them all.
just a small op.
i will make it through and it's time to move on.
it has been 2 months plus plus.
14/9/11 - is the day i fell.
5/12/11 - is the day i get my new acl and get on stronger.
play ball or not? i have no idea.
but i definitely miss having the wind in my hair, i miss jumping.
i miss so many things.
let's pray hard that the op will go on smoothly & things will return to its norm soon.
6 to 9 months.
slow and easy.
things to look fwd to..
dec trip to mount k with llz and all. =]
n perhaps another marathon? haha
n back to the game.
all these slow and easy.
pray for me if you see this alright.
off to bed le.
shall be g a bit..
but jiayou fe! jiayou! you can do this! =]
alright!
end here le!
take gd care every1!
nitez! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.moving on.][
it's currently 1220am on 5th Dec 2011.
no more food from now on. =]
wow wow wee wow.
the day finally came.
let's face it & move on from now on.
let's go fe!
hp is off for repair.
so no whatsapp, no facebook, no twitter.
just some time alone.
days after exams n be4 pre-op were well spent.
my fav past time of mj, loads of good food, meet-ups & pre-op xmas shopping by myself as well as with terry & cycle-thon with llz! <3
cycle-thon with 5-yr-old! <3
=]
haha the day had finally come.
truthfully after blood taking, i was really freaking scared.
but no worries, i have e best supports from them all.
just a small op.
i will make it through and it's time to move on.
it has been 2 months plus plus.
14/9/11 - is the day i fell.
5/12/11 - is the day i get my new acl and get on stronger.
play ball or not? i have no idea.
but i definitely miss having the wind in my hair, i miss jumping.
i miss so many things.
let's pray hard that the op will go on smoothly & things will return to its norm soon.
6 to 9 months.
slow and easy.
things to look fwd to..
dec trip to mount k with llz and all. =]
n perhaps another marathon? haha
n back to the game.
all these slow and easy.
pray for me if you see this alright.
off to bed le.
shall be g a bit..
but jiayou fe! jiayou! you can do this! =]
alright!
end here le!
take gd care every1!
nitez! =]
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