][.marathon.][

][.marathon.][

it's a dream to run a marathon this lifetime.
but why when i m infront of this dream,
dere's hesitations?

sighs.
helplessly falling.
hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..aw happy leap yr! wanted to do sumthing special to memo it de..but wells..shall wait for e nxt leap yr den ;p tc!

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][.shuld i?.][
][.wuld u?.][

][.what can i do?.][

][.what can i do?.][

hmm sumtimes,sumthings r better left unsaid?
these days are tiring.
jinjin n cheryl talked to mi today regarding my A lvls results.
n i realli tink they r v nice heads.
e nicest u can ever get =]
n jus to quote jinjin "if u wanna help ppl, u mus 1st be able to ctrl ya own emotions." + "jus be yourself".
i tink i wuld realli miss my dept.
realli.

falling sick le.
so v tired.
went to jog w ah pek.
n all i can say is..it's been so long since i jog till so shuang le.
e more u jog,e faster u feel tt u can go. =]

ytr was dinner w e da de(s).
hmm it was a little like be4?
but sumthings r set in place le ba.
jus glad e awkwardness is no longer dere.
not as much as i imagine.
zhe yang ye hao ba. =]

den jus reached hm nw.
hmm what shuld i say ne?
life goes on no matter wad goes by.
so SMILES!

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

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][.if onli u noe how i felt.][

][.fate.][

][.fate.][

darn tired.
sat n sun jus passed without a break.
like a break to recharge.
walking pace was like super slow, literally dragging myself hm frm trng jus nw.

hmm thou v tiring.
but it's well spent to a certain extent?
fri nite was spent playing basketball at 230 as usual.
w a pain in e shoulder.

sat morning started w e routine 5hrs coaching n 2 hrs chatting, travelling with coach. e relieve when e 5 hrs r up n e things tt is learnt frm coach during e sessions r nice. =]

after tt coach dropped mi at enuos n made my way to ahs.
played 2 games.
it's always nice being bac at ahs.
sumtimes if i m decisive enff,
i tink i wuld jus decide n let u noe long ago.
n i swear, i wuld promise no more.

sumtimes, sumthings r jus nt meant to be.
sum ships r jus nt meant to be.

after tt, "tumble" down e hill with an acute pain in e knee.
agrh.
n went to meet llz for subway + guitar concert.
heh food! my 1st meal of e day, hungry dao nt hungry =P
n i ate super slowly..cz there was onions! *pukes*
den went to e concert.
wow e ucc was realli nice =]
heh n guitar was realli nice, how their fingers move swiftly across e guitar.
tt realli made us feel darn chui to quote llz =P
haha n due to e long day,
e super chui mi was struggling to keep awake at e end part.
but haha din zzz la ;p
e ride hm was nice as usual.
but was realli shag once bac hm.

sun, woke up early to practise my hw be4 gg for guitar lesson.
heh realli enjoy e lessons especially when u get to learn a new song each day.
guitar-rapy realli works. =]

rushed down to sph after lessons.
it's nice meeting up w li xue, ao nan they all.
after tt rushed down to trng.
gosh, center moves.
e missed lan di's tt r unforgivable.
e 1 on 1 tt shuld be taken.
so many things tt shuld be done yet e confidence lvl tt's nt dere.
getting bac.
getting bac.
tiring.tough.
but nt gg to give up.
5 yrs. =]

n here i m..hm sweet hm..w a few mre hrs to nua be4 i slp n start my whole wk again.
life, jus goes on no matter wad goes by.hao la..take gd care every1! byee..haf a gd wk ahead!

if i see u nxt to never,
how can i see forever..

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][.falling.][

][.falling.][

A's results is getting nearer.
mind n heart getting even messier.

helplessly falling.
impossible.
possible?
dere's jus so much i wanna noe.
heart, mind?
jus what's this that's gg on?

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][.for u.][

][.tired.][

][.tired.][

haven been bloggin much.
nt becoz nth happen.
but rather..a little tired.
started e wk with jing n mi agreeing tt sumtimes it's jus so tiring to interact w others.
so it's e best hanging ard with best friends.
cz even w/o e interactions,it's jus e same.
no tinge of awkwardness.
so tired n guilty.

work has been as usual n nice.
realli thankful for e heads of my dept.
they realli keep mi going.
n hence at work.
despite e tiredness n stoning,
i jus wanna complete my task with perfection. =]

basketball.
gg for trngs.
trying my best.
but at times..e body is still not up to e lvl as be4.
but realli trying hard to get back.
cz of a 5yrs pact which is in mi.
n i m waiting for ah sam to cum bac =]
street ball with pri sch guys at nite after work is realli relaxing.
play freely n put everything behind.
sweat it out. =]

gd friends.
like wad jing n mi agreed,
i m stoning n kind of nt taking e effort to keep in touch with many.
eg. llz, ruth mei, sh, employer, van, mf..etc.
realli v guilty n sorry.
but at e same time, v tired for heaven noe wad reasons.

best friends.
they r supposed to be my bi feng gang nw.
nua-ing inside n hafing isolation mode.
wen, still same as be4, nv fail to suan mi..but nv fails to be dere for mi.
jing, still e nice jing, always here to pei mi. n balancing btw her r/s n our friendship. keeping mi gg on everyday at work. entertaining mi.
moi, i m glad tt we r getting bac to being much more normal le. tink it was realli mi tt culd nt fang xia be4. sorry.
fungi, it was nice meeting up on sun. e distance seems so near, yet at times nt so. =]
a little disappointments here n dere. but when e understandings set in, all these r gone. cz e time spent had made us und each other beyond words can say =] dere's no reason why but we r jus linked =]

heart n mind.
a little confusion n perplexed.
n i dun und jus wad's wrong.
i tink i dun.
yet at times i tink i do.
i rather trust e 1st gut feeling.

hao la..end here le..realli tired. take gd care every1! byee..n to all those tt i haven been in touch with, hope u guys r doing well! jia u! =]

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][.jus why?.][

][.Happy 20!.][

][.Happy 20!.][

haha happy birthday to u!
happy birthday to u!
happy birthday to llz!
happy birthday to u!
haha mus be tired dao high le =P
aw da jia say w mi..HAPPY 20!

haha jus reached hm from a nice dinner w a nice companion ( as always ;p)
haha let pics tell u my nice day la ;p haha
not forgetting to mention tt i was late again! sorry sorry sorry llz! haha
plus unforeseen circumstances..so was super late! haha sorry sorry!
aw ta da..pics to memo this special day for the special "pig"! =D



haha food food =D



haha tt's e 1st expression =P lol jkjk




haha make a wish! *shhh* dun say it out =D



huff n puff n llz still fails to blow em down =P cz she's nt big bad wolf! *leng*



haha *note! dun cut dao wan! reason : forgotten le =P haha



a random shot of e nite =]




to sum up! relaxed.comfortable.nice..thur' e yrs n many more =D

haha once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LLZ!! Thanks for everything! Enjoy being 6! (while i enjoy being 4 ;p) lol jkjk..no worries..u r still young! haha

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..happy v day to all those attached! n to those tt ain't (jus as mi) no worries! it will jus be as nice w ya friends =D smiles! haha

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][.simple joys of life.][

][.Happy Chinese New Year!.][

haha HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
byebye piggy! welcome rat da ge!
lol..this yr's new yr came while i was sweetly in my dreams w zhou gong n our chess set =P haha

woke up ard 6plus am e nxt day w a smile plastered across my face =D
received 5 msgs n got 1 tt made mi smiled =] haha xiexie ni npo!

haha den woke up on chu yi to watch tv n vcds till ard 2plus zai went to da gugu's hse =P nt to forget tt chu xi was reunioun dinner at da gugu's hse also =D
den e usual thingy during new yr..eat, gamble n watch shows..
haha kinda weird at da gugu de hse..coz nt v close to daddy's side =P
thou sum ppl are realli nice eg cousin jack, eng seng kor kor etc..there's sum nasty ones too..but wells shall nt mention who =P
aw..went hm ard 10plus to my vcds =P

den wooohooo chu er le! ie. today!! haha let pics tell my nice day to u ba! aw e new way to get ppl to open e door for u this yr is.."huat ah!" haha



my little cousins watching n munching away =P




haha frm this pic..u could tell who won tt round ba =P




heh 1 out of 3 of our family portrait =P



haha n yu sheng time!! heh yum yum! not to forget..ah ma cooked loads of delicious stuffs today =D xiexie ah ma!



haha both of us loves this pic =P

heh so tt sums up 3/4 of my day..nt to mention tt i lost quite a bit while playing dai dee =P haha

den off to 4th gu zhang's hse =] haha din feel as comfy as i felt at ah ma's hse la..but wells..not bad la..they r nice ppl too..eg lengleng jiejie n gu zhang n etc..den quite sian de..till daddy let mi play mahjong w his capital =P haha den after tt daddy played e fast fast rounds de..wow..i mus admit..this piggy daddy is realli quite pro w it de =X haha den here i m..home sweet home =D haha
so jus sum more random pics taken during this new yr la! =D *huat ah!*



haha this was taken ytr be4 we left for da gugu's hse..kinda lol la =P haha like it thou!



got these flowers w mummy at sheng song e nite be4 chu xi =P went dere ard 11 plus 12 la =P haha got quite a lot of gd bargins thou..haha



haha e abv 2 are currently declared as my fav flowers! =D

heh..so this is my new yr up till today..tml gg ah yi's hse =D haha pardon mi for all these lor shor telecast =P cz..haha amidst these routines of my life nowadays..cny realli spices it up a little =D

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! n haf a nice new yr! enjoy ya food n hongbaos! n may u be blessed w great health n happiness in this new yr! =D tc!!

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][.simple joys of life.][

][.zui shou xi de mo sheng ren.][

][.zui shou xi de mo sheng ren.][

today is a looking bac day.
known n "lose" so many friends throughout these yrs.
it's amazing how close u can get w sum n e distance after which is so scary. =]

looking thur sum pics n hmm.
realli is zui shou xi de mo sheng ren.
supposed to meet up tml tgt w all.
but shifted to nxt wk.
hmm i dun wan to tink why.
cz i tink tt wuld be thinking too much.
cz..it doesn't matter anymore.
things which used to matter so much.

looked thur all e little stuffs.
all those r onli memories.
memories meant to be let go.
so tt i wuld be freed of all e strings tt's holding mi to em.
n now, u r nth more than a stranger to mi.
a stranger tt was once so close.
realli so distance.
so scary.
so strange.

ironically, i haf nv regretted e wonderful times.
but if possible, i hoped our world nv met too.
2 contrasting world.

in this ever changing, inconstant world.
there's onli 3 places tt i wanna be.
home.
with gd old pals. eg.forever5.
alone.

how much i hope tt i can go on a trip now! to a place w e nicest scenery n capture every precious moment w my cam. =]

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][.i hate myself for thinking bac at times.][

][.life.][

][.life.][

in e routine life.
a little excitement here n dere is necessary.

blading at ecp ytr was fun.
n jus felt so much.
hafing wen being e support n falling tgt =]
hafing xiao pang w his help n e bike as e support.=]
hafing kim guan falling down onto his "push up" position.=]
hafing jeff breaking w his "stuns".=]
hafing jing n qy far ahead of us.=]
such a simple day.
but it's been quite some time since my life has such fun rather than jus work n basketball n eating n shopping. =]

n throughout e process of blading.
i fell many many times.
n everytime..jus felt like getting up all by myself again. =]
it jus feels like a journey of life.
quote wen: "jus treat it like an obstacle, overcum it & dere will be many more that cums."
guess blading n falling down during e process is jus like life.
u stumble but u jus grow stronger frm each fall n with more tries..u jus get more confidence =]
haha n to quote llz "sumtimes we tink too much" =P

apart frm ytr.
today is also quite a nice day w guitar n reunion dinner =]
hmm apart frm a little agrh n hai in btw e day.
everything is gd.
nth can go wrong w forever5 rite? =P
haha too bad we onli took a polarid so cannot post e pic.
but will make sure i do it e nxt time la =P

hmm..life is a journey. n throughout this journey..diff ppl will acc u thur it =] but sum jus wun change =] iloveus! take gd care every1! byee..

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][.is a journey.][

][.routine.][

][.routine.][

since when did blogging ceased to be a habit.
hmm maybe it's when life becomes a routine ba.
it's as thou..i can let u noe where would i be, nxt time this wk.
everything is a routine.
tired.
but sumthings jus keep u moving on.
eg. hafing a nice dept n nice supervisors =]

aw today is lili's last day at work.
tears glistered tgt w jing.
it's amazing how time flies.
i had started working for 2 mths le.

hmm enjoy playing basketball in e rain.
in fact love e rain.
feeling a little emo here n dere.
cz there's a mixture of feelings held within.
n i jus can't find e words to pharse it.
can onli say..手心是肉，手背也是肉.
choices are always tiring.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..


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