][.nonchalant.][

][.nonchalant.][

talked to wen last nite.
screamed into e phone.
lol, both of us are realli RV hor wen =P

aw thou we r RV, she said sumthing tt struck mi.
fang xia ba. =]
since it mean nth anymore.

aw jus came bac from e club events.
sighs.
missed so many or rather all e free throws n e 2 crucial lan di(s).
agrh it's a b c d e f g de freaking agrh!
e most cannot forgive de thing.
under baskets.
haiz.
n coach's "scoldings" after tt.
i m nt sadden by it.
cz i m more disappointed by myself then.

going bac to e game had gave mi too much heartaches le.
miracle had lost it's way. =]
jus wanna say thanks to sum1 who always unknowingly, gave mi e strength to move on. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i hope i can ignore everything.][

][.tui hou.][

][.tui hou.][

jus came bac frm airport =]
nice ranting to mei at starbucks w my fav mocha peppermint frappe =D
aw it's realli nice chilling out..haha n thanks loads loads loads for e nice nice gift mei! i owe u one =D it's on e way..haha santa papa on e way =P

aw chatted abt north south east west.
but most of e time it was ard e "special friend".
lol, mei asked mi a qn n i gave her e ans tt i always give myself.
no regrets? dun miss?
no.
hah..tink tt's e ans tt i always try to convince myself with ba =]
e truth is, it's nt no regrets.
it's jus contentment with e current life.
too contented to get out of e comfort zone.
no confidence to be e gd friend, so dun dare to.
kept on saying tt it wuld be e new yr resolutions.
n new yr is cuming yet e pics stays.

jus read one of e ancient msgs.
.semit esoht ssim od i sey n
haf a sudden urge to give u a call n randomly ask if u r still doing well. (which i noe u do)
haf a sudden urge to drop u a msg n ask how r u doing nw.
but hah.why e sudden urge?
i haf no idea.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..
n i realli learnt sumthing.
珍惜眼前人。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.shuld i?.][

][.e smile.][

][.e smile.][

got my 1st pay of my life today.
lol, it's much lesser than i calculated cz it's 1/2 e mth de =P
but wells..still happy =]

went to get gifts.
heh, glad tt mummy loves it =D
daddy n didi is jealous =P haha jkjk.

aw my horoscope for e day:
"u shuld spend time with ya gd friends today even if it means escaping responsibility"
hah..realli hoped to spend time w my gd friends de.
but wells..hah every1 is tired out.
so went shopping by myself after work. =]

lol..i realli wanna change my blogskin.
new yr is cuming! haha throw all e bad memories behind n prep to say gdbye to 2007 ba every1!

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.alone.][

][.u nv say gdbye.][

][.u nv say gdbye.][

woohoo..mus be mad to be here at this hr when i m working tml =P
jus finished watching "my girl" haha
thou it's quite draggy at e front, but e show is realli funny n cliche de nice =P
haha n e best thing is..
in e end, there's "hao jie chun xiang" tt 2 main characters as e real cousin n couple.
realli lol until haha.
korean dramas realli keep mi entertained loads during this period after As.
haha tink i m gg to borrow another set of dramas ba..
but dunno will be as nice as this 2 ma =D
haha happy n sad at e same time.
tears n laughters.
guessed this is life ba, everything is a mixture of everything.

slept my day away.
woke up late n went bac to slp in e noon till evening..
off for dinner n bac for e drama =P
wen would call mi a loser ba =]
but wells..haha such a carefree life is realli nice in a way.
but to quote llz "hen rong yi hu si luan xiang".

aw xmas eve was spent at cindy coach's hse..realli quite nice de =]
haha came hm quite late or rather very =P
realli appreciate e presents but haha no replies for e msgs.

woohoo..bac to e "hu si luan xiang" part.
while watching e show, sumthing struck mi =]
new yr is cuming n i haf a resolution.
keep all e past memories in a box n put it away.
cz as e time passes, memories realli do fade.
it's jus e stubborn attitude tt is trying to rmb stuffs.
so hah..let it be put away w e box ba.

another resolution is to stop hafing so much expectations n hope from others.
cz, it's tiring to expect n hope.
e higher e expectations, e greater e disappointments.
this applies to every1.
dun expect, so tt u wun be disappointed =]

haha rather random n lame de resolutions, when it's finally new yr, i wuld cum up with my proper resolutions ba =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

shall go n rent another set of drama n "entrap" myself within it ba =] jus can't wait for guitar lessons to start. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.nice song.][

][.i jus wanna forget e past, e memories.][

][.i jus wanna forget e past, e memories.][

sumtimes i think i realli haf a gd memory apart frm making gd use of em for my studies.
i realli realli hope tt there's sum water or wang qing shui or wadsoever to allow mi to forget parts of e past.

went orchad for 2 consect days.
for a person who dun often goes to town.
n dun like crowds.
it's realli tiring.
ytr was with chai luan n today with employer =]
grins!
so realli tired now.
so is e wallet.
but i haf no idea wad haf i got man =]

bac to "wang qing shui".
if dere is..
i wanna forget parts of e past.

听说你现在过的很好。
为你感到欣慰。
听说你换了很多新的东西。
你一定很快乐，
因为现在已没有一个批评你的东西丑，
叫你不要乱花钱的朋友了。
你一定过的很自在。

真的很希望我能把过去全都忘了。
因为，片刻的回忆有时会让原本枯燥的眼眸泛起一丝丝的泪光。
我不后悔，
但有时，真的很希望我们从没认识过。
真的希望能忘掉这段友情的点点滴滴。
忘掉曾有的欢乐与泪水。
更想忘掉的是，那一次次争吵后的坦诚相对。
想忘掉这一切。
真的很想。

很喜欢，很习惯现在平静的日子。
这一切就像回到了还没认识你之前。
简单，平凡的快乐。
不想改变任何的一切。
只想更珍惜那些从没放弃我的好友。
虽然已经很习惯和知足了，
但每回经过一些勾起回忆的地方，
还是会想起许久没联络的你..

只想忘掉一切,
因为,已经是过去事.
你也早已放下,往前走了.
我也应该完全放下,
不再想起.
谢谢你曾教过我的一切.
谢谢你曾对我的好.
对不起..

haha lalala crapping again ;p realli lame to rmb so many things..but haha seasons jus make ppl recall of e times..wells..jus this last time ba =D cz, i noe there r many more things n ppl tt i shuld cherish..wad's over is over, no pt holding on =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.let go.][

][.memories.][

][.memories.][

christmas is round e corner =]
had e last game of e season.
memories floating back.
hah.
wad a weird way to describe it.

while tinking of e gifts..
last yr's christmas's preparations jus "floated" back.
haha.
many things can be tried to put aside.
many memories can be placed aside for a while.
but during such seasons,
sumthings jus can't be bury beneath.

would u ever regret knowing sum1?
i wuld not.
cz every1 tt u met would have changed u in a way or another.

read a post n felt even more.
wun get to meet up w u be4 due to e schedule.
haha, dunno if that's a gd thing or bad thing.
wadever it is..
all these are jus memories.
things would nv get back to be4.
i m happy as i m now.
apart frm a little regret now a dere as to why things turned out this way.
but, i noe e ans.
we are jus too different to be friends.

so jus hope tt everything is gg on well for u too.=]
sighs.
e last bit be4 e completely gdbye.
holding on to e thin thread.
got used to e days tt r diff frm e past.
wad abt u? =]
i wuld nv noe e ans.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.tired.][

][.tired.][

super tired now.
as expected de, we lost e game.
pls, nv tot of winning it anyway (tt wuld be day-dreaming)
but nv wanted to lose in this way too.
can't hold it within anymore.

exploded to coach abt how i felt.
e disappointment nt due to e outcome of e game.
but e process.
e efforts.
tired of playing in such an environment.
wad's e pt when onli this few ppl tries so hard.
1 hand can't clap.

e outcome of e talk.
= 1 more yr.
1 more try.
if this persist.
give up.

aw generally, today is a nice nice day apart frm e disappointment w e team. of coz there's also those tt make loads of efforts. to those team mates..jus wanna say thanks loads. bac to e nice nice day. nua-ed till ard 11 (opps sorry llz ;p) was supposed to meet auntie joy at 11:30 de =P aw went for realli nice jap buffet =D haha e food was wow..see already dou v happy =P haha had my 1st taste of sashimi..n loads of green tea which disgusted sum1 =P jkjk..aw it's realli nice..shall go dere again..but wells..such "sinful" behavior is onli allowed once in a while =P

after e super nice lunch..walked ard in suntec be4 gg over to e guitar shop..wooohooo..cool shit..i tink i m realli going to enjoy my guitar lessons =D haha yups i jus enrolled into 1 =P haha spent a while dere..n when llz plays e guitar..(ahem i m secretly wondering when would i be able to n jus can't wait to learn how to =P)..n i realli v blur..bought a case for e guitar..but got e wrong one =X got e one for electric guitar instead =P..

haha after which..it was 2nd hand bks hunting time..haha got a few books..yeah =D man zai er gui! haha to sum up..today is realli a gd gd day to spend a holiday..simple n fulfiling =P apart frm e minor disappointment at nite..everything is =]

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.cross roads.][

][.cross roads.][

站在三岔口，
总是逃不过的选择的命运。
一次又一次的“打击”让人很累。
选择保持沉默是因为不想自己如此的脆弱。
最终的选择，
我只希望，不会让自己后悔。

你已不像从前，
我也不是小孩了。
所以，现在的我。。
只能靠自己的力量了。=]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.roller-coaster.][

][.roller-coaster.][

i haf nv had e courage to take a roller-coaster ride.
cz i can't even stand pirate ship n wuld vomit like shit.
but right now.
i feel like i m on a roller-coaster ride.

it started off at e bottom.
n slowly climbed bac to e peak.
n goes crashing down again. [n if u take those rides, i guess when it's cuming down, u wuld scream ur lungs out so tt u wuld feel better =] ]
but i m nt screaming.
instead i m smiling at my stupidity 4 doubting.
it's my choice to get bac.
i haf to face it.
n it's getting numb =]

sumtimes reality is harsh.
u jus gotta face it.
sumtimes attitude alone is not sufficient.
hardwork is also insufficient.
at e end of e day,
it all boils down to 1 thing.
u got e skills?
u get e playing time.
w regards to cuming trng or nt.
w regards if ya attitude is gd or bad.
u score, u perform, u play.

u once asked mi wad happened n who bullied mi.
i realli wanted to tell u everything.
realli did, as always.
apart frm 1 thing tt i kept it within myself.
cz, it doesn't matter.
at e end of e day, reality matters.
i understand.
n i recognise tt.

tears no more.
cz i m in e process of learning to be stronger.
no tears when we lose a game.
no tears when warming e bench becums a routine.
no more tears.
cz, i m learning to be stronger, in e mind n in e heart.

sumtimes i realli hope tt u wuld b aware of how i feel.
but i m nt letting e tears fall.
cz i m learning to be stronger day by day.
n at e end of e day,
wad matter most is e TEAM. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sumtimes, i realli hope tt we culd go bac to e past.][

][.scary.][

][.scary.][

it's scary when u see ya team-mates getting injuried,
one after another.
gwen's ankle, yaqi's knee.
it's jus scary.
pls get well n get back soon ok!
need u guys! =]

aw..it's realli scary.
it's so much contact.
n even more for centers.
ankle felt a little weird but chose to ignore it.
shall guard it well tml.
little finger is swollen.
right knee is acting up again.
at e end of e day,
why r we playing despite all these injuries?
i haf no ans for it. =]

con-fe-dence lvl is taking a roller coaster ride.
need to regain it.
ah, llz, jing n wen quickly cum bac!
haha. lonely, i m so lonely.
all on my own =P
haha..nowadays jus feel so tired mentally.
n jus hope to shut my ears from e world.
shhh..silence.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.wuld u?.][

][.lol.][

][.lol.][

i jus dyed my hair!
haha i mean highlight..
lol, yes i m a G (quote wen) =P
heh, it's a breakthrough ok =]
paiseh jing n fungi, wen n mi bian huai le =P (jkjk, we r always us =])

aw this wk had been quite a hmm nice n usual wk?
haha work, slp, tv n..
apart from today's dye hair (exciting)
n of cz, meeting up w CK's kids at orchad for pepper lunch =P
haha n e beautiful deco at orchad road =D heh
it's nice!
reminds mi of e time tt we sell e christmas stuffs along e orchad streets =P
lol..those were e exciting n lame times =D

aw, life is relaxing..
i m loving it..
chilling =P

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n it's been a decade.][

][.amazing.][

][.amazing.][

jus came bac from bball at 230 w wen n her team mates.
or rather mi n myself cz they left after a short while ( cz i went too late ;p)
aw, it's realli gd.
e touch,
e sweat.
everything.

haha n guys, is it in their nature to feel more superior than us?
i dunno.
but at least when u prove yaself n these guys respect n acknowledge u,
they r much much better than those arrogant shit who look down on u despite being least superior than u.
aw had a gd time playing.
enjoy street basketball.
cz it's jus so relaxing,
no restrictions, jus play e way u wan.
no formations.
no fixed moves tt u nd to do.
no fixed position tt u nd to play.
it's jus play it =]

aw it's realli amazing how we start frm scratch n "master" it eventually.
u ain't born to be able to walk.
but u learnt,
u fall n u bruised ya knees n u get up.
n be4 u noe, u master e skills of balancing n walking.
n it became so nature n simple tt u eventually forgot tt u ain't born w e skills.

same for everything.
eg. playing basketball.
u ain't given e ability to make e basket rite from e start isn't it? =]
life is jus abt trying n failing n getting up n cont e journey.

haha gosh, i m crapping again =P
pardon mi, cz i m gg to be a loner =X
haha llz is nt in s'pore.
jing is flying off tml.
haha wen is busy w chalet n her cousin.
fungi is busy w attachment.
gosh, tt left mi to be..
all by myself.
loner shit =P
jkjk..

well..time alone can be nice too =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n i smiled.][

][.take me dere.][

][.take me dere.][

haha been quite long since i last blogged?
actually nt v sure, but compared to e daily habit of bloggin,
dis shuld be quite sum time.

today is e end of e season.
hmm tink i realli learnt to be stronger after this season ba.
frm e initial tears of tired-ness n inability to get back.
till e tears due to e 1st lost of e yr.
till e 7mins chance n unable to perform.
tears no more.

on e contrary,
it's a stronger me.
1 tt finally understood e pain of a lost.
e pain of time ticking away while e opponent holds e ball n dere's nth u can do.
n finally understood tt every victory shuld nt be taken for granted.
cz, this is sports.
e ball is round,
jus a slip n careless mistake wuld cause e game to change.

tink tt's e most impt thing i learnt ba.
sumthing tt u wuld onli understand after u endure a lost.
u wuld mature n grow.
hahaha
as for e game today,
it's another enlightenment.
or rather for this season,
i enjoy e feeling of being a supporting pawn.

now tt it's e end,
it's time for a new yr resolution.
n yeah.
get bac! =D
take me dere!

haha ok..abv is abt basketball..aw realli wanna thank e team =] n haha life goes on..thou it's a little monotonous nowadays ;p but..i m still enjoying my slacking life..n gosh!!! i seriously nd to go on a massive diet be4 my face can be as round as a ball! n e diet plan shall start tml! =D

haha n great, had e greatest movie marathon w e pigs ytr! haha sorry abt tt! we din even finish 1/2 a movie, every1 jiu snooze le ;p left ke lian de jing ownself watch n cry =P haha but aw..jus wanna say thanks pigs e lifetime pigs! hahah

hao la..kinda of tired..take gd care every1! byeee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.guardian angel.][

][.feel it.][

][.feel it.][

with 2 beautiful blisters each on both legs.
i m jus amazed how e pain disappear during e game.
quote daddy "u bluff mi de la..on court run n run, game finish jiu walk like snail =P"

it's amazing how e pain dun matters when u focus on e thing u love.
jus finished my dinner after e game with teck ghee.
was realli tired after work n rushing down.
culd nt get e shots in during warm ups.

e game was nt too gd.
but realli glad tt we made it as a team.
thank you team-mates! =]
n it's cuming bac.
i mean, e con-fe-dence.
enjoying e game.
thanks guardian angel n all (eg. kem team n coaches) n llz, wen, jing for helping mi bac into e game =]

n i m hafing e shark fin soup nw.
n gosh, i m DARN ANGERY!
i wan my VINEGER!
i told e person i wan MORE VINEGER!
n she gave mi more pepper n no vineger!
AGRH A B C D E F G !

cool down cool down..
shall nt let tt spoil my beautiful day!

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cz every little thing u do, makes mi wanna fight for u.][

][.be4 u noe, it's over.][

][.be4 u noe, it's over.][

many things in life..be4 u noe, it's over.
today morning was 4th gugu last day of funeral.
e tears, e prayers, n be4 u noe,
tt's e end of one's life.

jus wanna say,
cherish those ard u (cliche n old but v true,at least to mi)
dun hold a tanturm n regret onli when all is over.

thankful for all that i haf.
realli.
esp my family n my friends.
thankful to heaven for allowing mi to haf such great family n friends n allowing mi to do things tt i love eg. playing basketball.
thankful for everything, realli.

hao la..kinda of tired le.n e blisters are jus nt bursting! agrh..go snooze le..take gd care every1! byee...

][.10.fe.15.][
][.protect mi, guardian angel.][

][.hah.][

][.hah.][

less than 5mins ago, i jus blogged n said tt there's a blockage inside mi tt e words can't flow.
n yet less than 5mins, i m here again.
read an entry n felt realli happy for sum1. realli =D
e feeling of being able to meet up w sum1 tt u had wanted to meet for so long, n not feeling a tinge of awkwardness is e best thing ever.

to quote e sum1 tt i m realli happy for => " it was alil sad to put it that way, but circumstances jt really know how to toy arnd with people. having a one-year age gap is frustrating. although we both said one can never really be too busy to meet up with friends. but stimes, just stimes, alot of things clash and happen at the wrong time.".

exactly how i feels. so i always believe tt hafing friends of e same age is e best. cz, dere wuld nv be a time which u guys wuld be at diff stages of life n doing diff things, leaving each other behind.no1 shuld be left behind. walk beside each other n be friends for life. but, life is jus harsh. a 1 yr age gap, sumtimes jus make e diff when e little efforts ceased, e gap widens.


tell mi, how many friends do u haf tt culd ceased communication for a period of time n yet get bac tgt n fill each other regarding each's life w/o feel strange n all?. if u ask mi, i wuld onli say dere's onli e pigs. or rather less than 5 person who culd give mi tt confidence. e confidence tt despite e lack of communication, i still noe tt u care n wuld be dere n we wuld be like be4.

it's been quite sum time since life moves on w/o communication w e once special friend. sumtimes,i realli feel like dropping a msg to wen hou ni. but in e end, i din, cz i tink tt's wad best for all ba. we r jus too diff to click. n i realli owe u too much, in terms of everything. xiexie ni. jus hope tt if we ever get to meet again, it wun be tt awkward. =]

hao la..end here le.take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.ni shi wo de guo ke.][

][.moods.][

][.moods.][

haha.
nowadays, dere's so much to say n note down.
n yet i tink dere's a blockage in mi.
like words jus can't flow out naturally to describe how i feel.
well..life.

aw, looking fwd to mon.
yeah jing =D
n wen, xie lo.
still enjoying my work =]

hao la.
shall go n bake.
it's been so long since i last baked.
n it jus reminds mi of so much.
peng you, ni hai hao ma?

end here le.
take gd care every1!
byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.past,present,future.][