][.i love my job.][

][.i love my job.][

hah.
1st day at work n here i m proclaiming tt i love my job =P
hope this lasts man.
thou as llz said n i feel so too tt i wuld get sianz abt working.
but as for nw,
i m enjoying it.
learning new things n adapting to working life rather than nua-ing.
feels better =]
haha enjoyed everything tt e 8hrs jus zoomed pass without mi noticing.
realli looked fwd to watching heros after tt.
but din get to.
n tink wun get to le ba. =X
but nbm.
shall get e dvd n haf movie marathon den =P

aw, my happy day at work.
learning how to use e typewriter =]
answering n transferring e calls.=]
sorting out stuffs.
looking at how adults pia for a living.=]
n best of all, Nice Collegues who tc of u n treat u to loads of food =P
n wen's mummy (ie. auntie) stocking up loads of food for mi =D thanks auntie!
shall bake for em nxt wk =D

after e eventful n tiring day,
went to 4th gugu's funeral.
n paused for a moment,
nt remembering how to fold e inscence paper.
it jus reminds mi since how long had sum1 left mi.
sighs,
life.
pls bless all ard mi.
pls bless em w happiness when they r alive.
pls allow em to live everyday n every moment meaningfully tt they wuld nt haf any regrets when they bid their final gdbye or even if they din get to say it.
pls bless em.
thanks heaven. =]

hao la..a little tired le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jia you!.][

][.life.][

][.life.][

can't get my thoughts down into words.
but mus blog to note down sum stuffs.

1st, special thanks to wen n jing n llz for being dere to help mi get bac to court n supporting mi. esp wen n jing, thanks for cuming down *muacksz*puke puke*
n llz for all e encouraging sms-es.
thanks for always reminding mi to Chins up!
n of cz alj kem de team mates n coaches.
thanks for allowing mi to get bac slowly.
xiexie ni men!
thanks for all e encouragements =]
slowly, step by step.
n thanks yun2 n jinghui, i will change e move.
no more hook shots for mi.
i promise.

2nd, special thanks x infinity to wen ji dan! =D
haha thanks loads wen!
thanks for being dere w mi my Best friend. =P
for e 1st game,
thanks for being my kai xin guo n try to get my mind off e game for e day =D
thanks for shopping w me for clothes for e interview.
allowing mi to slp on ya comfy mattress n kop ya fav blanket.
thanks for acc-ing mi to e interview.
thanks for easing my fears n asking mi to chill non-stop =P
thanks for pei-ing mi to get clothes for my work despite being so tired.
in conclusion, xiexie ni pig!
you ni zhe ge lifetime friend zhen hao =]

3rd, 4th gugu jus passed away today.
bless her.
take gd care.
life is jus so uncertain.

4th, tml is new work.
lao tian ah!
pls bless mi!

n suddenly, i feel tt i m moving on to another pharse of life.
when e world starts to change.
n reality sets in.
i jus feel so blessed to haf u guys w mi.
old friends like old swords are best trusted. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care ;p byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n now i m moving on.][

][.Breathe again.][

][.Breathe again.][

song of e day: Breathe again.
lyrics = exactly how i felt =]
jus wanna share.
n llz, gd closure =]

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

*I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little , cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little Try a little more
I�ll breathe again*

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck It's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don�t want to live on life replay

Repeat *
Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

Repeat *

][.10.fe.15.][
][.for u, i will.][

][.starting out again is nv easy.][

][.starting out again is nv easy.][

sorry for e tears.
sorry, i realli tried to hold it bac.
but it jus fell.
sorry coach.
dunno wads wrong w mi.
jus agrh.
a b c d e f g.
agrh agrh agrh.
tt was all i felt.
i realli wanted to tell u why it fell.
but i can't give u an exact reason as to why.
it's jus a mixture of so many reasons.
maybe afterall, i m nt ready.
felt so angry w myself for it.
but yet e tears so bu zheng qi de fell.
sorry.

thanks llz!
thanks for being dere once again.
realli, thanks so much for listening to mi rant.
zhen de xiexie ni!

n to lqjl,
u r e surprise tt i wun tink of in this dark nite.
thanks.
realli xiexie ni.
thanks to both coaches.
sorry for being so weak.
n to npo,
i realli told u exactly how i felt.
sorry, hope u wun be disappointed in mi.
sorry, realli din meant to be so weak.
i will make sure tt i becum stronger =]

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cont trying.][
][.u r my guardian angel.][

][.nonchalant.][

][.nonchalant.][

lol.
loads of things happened within this short span of 3 days.
1st, thanks for e wonderful farewell jnrs!
it was gd =]
after steam boat n watching our finals de vcd, we had ice cream n photo taking.
after which e snrs n jocelyn stayed over at yinling's place.
played taboo n had quite sum fun =]

haha nxt day went to had breakfast at e round mkt w sh,ling n xy.
den went hm be4 meeting jing.
had a haircut at storm. sorry x 100000 infinity wen!
den went off to kem w jing to get a lift frm llz.
cool, i dun tink i can drive =P i m a loser man.
aw went to grab sum snacks w jing be4 gg to watch e game.
gosh, e amt of food we bought or rather me shows tt i m a pig.
sh came too ;p
haha den wen n her team.
watched e exciting game which jing's heart cannot take.
aw llz, jia u for mon! =]

after which went to sh's mum's fruit juice stall.
haha nice fruit juice n e wanton mee beside it is realli gd too =]
came hm n zzz be4 i finish watching my ai qing mo fa shi! =X

sat.
hmm today, went to distribute sum flyers be4 gg to marina square to meet ck kids.
shopped ard a little for shu hua's prom dress.
den went to chill at starbucks w mamajan n sh.
after which, discussed coach's gift w sh.
lol, i bet sh mus haf diaoz loads ba =P
haha n subway =]
nw i m bac hm, hm sweet hm n lazy to bathe =X
haha but quite a fun day la =P

n suddenly,
while walking ard at marina square,
i jus felt like i owe u so much =X

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1!byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.can't be erased.][

][.old memories.][

][.old memories.][

jus came bac from jap buffet lunch w fnq.
haha it's realli nice n gosh we ate so so much,
i mus haf been a pig my previous life.

haha aw..thankful tt it wasn't awkward as i imagined it may be.
glad tt there r topics after topics to chat abt.
cz, silence w a pri sch friend who u had nt met for so long wuld be e last thing tt u want to haf.

haha chatted abt e past n e present life.
chatted abt friends.
haha n yups, e older u get, e more u und ppl n things.
n haha..conclusion:
1) old friends like old swords are best trusted => DOM
2) e older u get, e more u wuld discovered e need to haf friends tt u noe since young. =]
tt's my own conclusion la.
lol.

hao la..i shall go bac to my vcds, n maybe go jog a little ltr be4 gg out for farewell? haha cz jus like sh said "eh u wanna hurry up grow big n fight e big centers ah?" haha nah i dun wan!! i mus go jian fei =P

n haha talking abt basketball..ytr's trng was ok..tiring but i can say..i realli jing li le..for everything tt i m required to do, i realli focused n do my best. n i haf made a new decision, i will continue to be a center, but an agile center. jia u le! realli nd to jia u a lot to get bac to e court n play e game i love. but i will. =]

haha hao la..end here le! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.memories r e onli thing tt is left when u lost everything.][

][.life is tough.][

][.life is tough.][

hah. wad an irony to say life is tough when As r over.
but it realli is.
dun believe?
ask wen how black my face was =P

aw ytr was kem's 1st match for wbl =]
gd game ppl! jia u! jia u!
haha din play.
was doing stats.
but trust mi, no sense of sadness or wadsoever.
cz i m prepared for it.
cz i m not prepared to get back yet.
not now =]
went to shoot a few baskets after the game ended.
cool, i like e feel.
n coach, i will work hard to get back =]
no worries, cz i m who i m.

tt's for e basketball part.
life.
lol starting tuitioning n e prob of nt being able to get e pay per hr rite is jus frustrating.
agrh agrh! a b c d e f g !
earning money is agrh!
but well well..
jus part n process of life.
i will pull thur it =]

n haha, kinda dun feel e need to come online as much nowadays.
e virtual world used to be my daily habit.
but ironically, nw tt exams r over,
it's not =]

n lalala.
e past memories suddenly flashed back.
lol..can't say how it exactly felt.
so..= mixtures.
hao la..end here le..
take gd care every1! byee..
sighs so many things to do.
busy wk ahead =X
BUT
dun care, i wanna go watch my lovers in prague now =D
dong nan!!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.tired.][

][.reflect.][

][.reflect.][

lol..been typing..n backspac-ing n typing n backspac-ing.
ie. jus can't find e right words to match how i feel now.
ytr or rather 15th nov was my last paper.
i screwed it.
n all i can say is.
tt's e worst feeling.
e feeling of totally defeated by yaself.
e feeling of all ya hard work gg down e drain.
e feeling of disappointment.
realli felt like.
held bac n went for trng.
thanks sh for e msg.
thanks llz for entertaining me!
thanks for e 10 mins trng tt got my mind of it at least for tt while.
when everything finally settle down n when it's all alone again,
e tears fell.
can't stop it.
it realli hurted.
when e tears stop,
i look up.
n saw my poster = take each day at a time.make this moment so beautiful tt it wuld be worth remembering. =]

woke up today.
n wow.
it's jus so diff.
everything's changed.
on e bus while i see ppl mugging on their notes,
fighting for every sec to get sumthing in.
it jus struck mi tt..for e nxt few months, gdbye my notes.
when everything's over.
reality set in.
n i have decided.
i mus spend this period of time meaningfully.
so when it's over,
i hope i can tell myself tt..
no matter wads e results,
u can face e future =]

lol..ignore e above..it's jus some post As reflection =P lol..everyday praying tt it wuld end faster. n when it finally does, e 1 thing i feel is = lost.
went out today to get ready for job interview tml.
hopefully everything will go well tml.
pls let it all be well. =]
soon, i wuld be embarking on my new journey le.
n to all those out dere who r joining mi soon.
jia you! =]

the game plan is a gd show.
go catch it if u r free!
tink it's gg to be over soon =]
mixture of laughters n tears.
n it jus brings out 2 main idea.
1) parental love is so wei da.nth can replace it.
2) e world dun revolves ard u. =]

now tt everything's over.
everything is gg to start too.
with courage,i will =]

2 yrs of j2 life had came to an end.
so much had happened.
so many lessons learnt.
so many things changed.
so many ppl enter n left my life.
when everything's over,
jus wanna say..thank you for everything.
thanks to e concourse kids! thanks for all e joy n laughters n rantings =P
thanks to my class 06A13! thanks for being such a wonderfully unique class =]
thanks for everything n every1 tt entered n left my life.
for e every short moment, it changed mi sumhow =]

n for all those tt stood by faithfully during these yrs.
i jus wanna say a v big thank you.
thanks so so so much for standing by mi esp during e As.

1)thanks to my beloved family.thanks for being so understanding n supportive.
xiexie ni men!
2)special thanks to llz! thanks for all e msgs tt u dropped whenever i feel tt i can't go on. thanks for allowing mi to rant after every paper tt i feel agrh.thanks for always being dere thur out this hmm 2 yrs? haha zhen de xiexie ni PIG! haha jkjk
3)thanks to ruthie too! xiexie ni mei! thanks for all e msgs tt u dropped during e As! haha xiexie ni! they kept mi gg..haha cya sooon ok! =]
4)of cz mus thank this bunch of ppl la ;p forever5, xiexie ni men! wen, thanks for jus being dere..thanks so much for so much ;p jing, thanks for all e mugging sessions n all e time whr we stoned n pressed on tgt. thanks for all those moments of ranting =] fungi, heh thanks for all e encouragements n patience in guiding mi.thanks for everything tt u had done.thanks for easing my fears for e day be4 my madness de maths n hist. thanks so much. u guys r e onli thing tt dun change =]
5) thanks to employer n all those tt dropped gd luck msgs during this period of time. ir realli means a lot =]
6) thanks to all those tt had drifted n din drop any msgs. cz, this period of time had allowed mi to mature n let go of many things, special ppl, unforgettable moments.thanks for letting mi settle in w my new journey.thanks for all e past memories. jus hoped tt u wuld b settling down as well too.n hopefully, e nxt time we meet..if we get to..we can laugh n recognise tt, things can nv be like be4..but we wuld go on meaningfully w our lives. zhu fu ni =]

haha lol..such a random post. dun tink it realli linked ba..haha it jus goes to show tt everything is hitting in right now.haha n of cz e fats! gosh, nd to get rid of them le! =[ hao la..take gd care every1! jia you IN LIFE! live this moment so beautiful tt it will be worth remembering =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be brave.][

][.The Last Battle.][

][.The Last Battle.][

23.5 hrs more,
it wuld be e end of e battle.
the onli hopeful last battle tt i m left w = in 20 hrs time.
ie. 15+ hrs to study.
wadever it is,
heaven, pls grant mi e strength n e will to pull thur it.
Jia You every1!
it's gg to end be4 u noe. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jus be strong.][

][.HIT!.][

][.HIT!.][

e last thing tt u wanna is to fall sick during ya exams.
n wow.
wonderful.
fever,sore throat,flu = me.
but thankfully it was not full blown on tues during maths paper2.
n thankfully i got tues nite, wed n part of today to rest.
=?
i haven realli touch my lit,econs,hist.
wow.
wonderful!
alright.
dear heaven, pls grant mi e strength to pull thur e nite w hist!
cz i realli nd to get started on econs tml le!
ok..hang in dere every1!
u will make it de! =D
rmb, wadever it is, jus be strong!

n now i jus can't wait for it to end.
i nd to do so many things.
hao la..end here le..take gd care every1!
byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.take each day, one at a time.][

][.4 more to go!.][

][.4 more to go!.][

gosh
i m tired
but jus here to note : gd bye to maths forever!
haha dunno how i wuld do cz i realli can't rmb n dun wanna noe e ans(s)..so wadever it is, i jus hope it wun be too bad =]

shughs, falling sick le.
mus be due to my super size mi behaviour for settling my mealS at macs ytr.
shall nt haf anymore sinful act of eating so much le.

hmm aw was jus sitting quietly while e teachers collect e scripts n while ppl ard mi discuss e ans.
hah.
looked across e hall.
it's scary, dere's so so so many ppl taking e same exam as mi.
n gosh, tt's onli part of my sch pop.
n dere's so many jc out dere.
n so many other ppl who's taking as private.

sighs. isn't it jus scary?
n wad does results reflect?
haha suddenly feel tt life is kind of silly at times, if we onli choose to strive hard for results.
cz, what's e real purpose behind it?
or rather, in this real world,
dere's no time for u to tink wads e purpose. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

word of e day: jaded - Cynically or pretentiously callous (harden) n haha llz, no worries, i m nt harden. jus ready to let go =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jus be strong.][

][.n i smiled.][

][.n i smiled.][

guilty for not mugging for fri n sat.
but tt dun make up for anything.
so glad tt at least,
today i m able to settle down n get started.

fri was super tiring tt i jus zzz.
sat was a fun day?
hah i dunno. but wadever it's, old friends are still e best =]

n woo hoo..
i tink e epiphany had came.
n afterall,
some ppl r jus meant to leave their footsteps n say gd bye.
while some r jus meant for life.
let-ed go.
treasured more.
loves.

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cz, pain no more.][

][.13 days.][

][.13 days.][

wahaha i m sure mamajan n all out dere wuld shoot mi for posting this.
but paiseh la.
let this keep mi going.

n jus wanna say.
u r realli stronger than u believe.
jus ytr, i was realli on e verge of breaking down.
prayed.
n slept.
woke up convincing myself that i wuld jus do it.
n be4 i noe,
1+0.5+0.5 is down.

haha super tired now.
but yups.
be4 we noe,
it's gg to be over.
so..
hang in there people!

n mus thank fungi too!
xie xie ni for letting mi camp at ya hse =]
n wen n jing, hang in dere!
i wanna watch hero!

remember!
u r realli stronger than u believe =D
n thanks for llz's msgs!
it nv fails to plaster a smile on my face.


hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][