][.Smile.cz ya smile is my reason to smile.][

][.Smile.cz ya smile is my reason to smile.][

Once received this msg..
Smile..cz ur smile is e reason for many others to smile..
at that instant..i onli tot that it was a sweet msg..
however..i realli felt so today..
believe mi..
nxt time when sum1 that matters lots to u..
ya family..ya friend etc etc..
when they smile..those that's deep from their heart..
u may nt haf noticed it..
but at that instance..
u wuld haf smiled too..
haha..
so yeah..smile my friends !
ya smile is e reason for many others to smile..
1 of which is mine =)

ooo alright..watched a show today..n it further affirms my beliefs of not leaving anything till a special occassion..or sumthing that u wanna say to sum1 till a special day..or quarrel w sum1..cz life is realli fragile..cherish it ! if there's sumthing that u wanna say..jus say it..so wad if ya frined may find u crazy n random?..its ok..jus say it..i believe that although they may say that.."ae..u siao ah.." but i believe that you would haf brighten up ya day n sweeten it =)

haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.so wad if they world puts mi down.][
][.ya smiles is able to lift mi up once again.][

][.I'll stand by you.][

][.I'll stand by you.][

how fragile life can be..
when death is sumthing that is so near yet so far..
sumthing that may struck without giving u a prior warning..
tink abt it..
wad if it happen to 1 of ya close one..*touchwood*
n u din get to say wad u wanna say to that person?..

jus remembered wad music diary once said..dun live in regret..dun leave anything that u wanna use to a special occassion..cz every moment is a special one..smile ! say wadever u nd to say..dun live in regret..

aw i realli like e lyrics..of this song..so there u go..think its damm meaningful..

I'LL STAND BY YOU

OH, WHY YOU LOOK SO SAD?
TEARS ARE IN YOUR EYES COME ON AND COME TO ME NOW
DON'T BE ASHAMED TO CRY
LET ME SEE YOU THROUGH
'CAUSE I'VE SEEN THE DARK SIDE TOO
WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
NOTHING YOU CONFESS
COULD MAKE ME LOVE YOU LESS

I'LL STAND BY YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
SO IF YOU'RE MAD, GET MAD
DON'T HOLD IT ALL INSIDE
COME ON AND TALK TO ME NOW
HEY, WHAT YOU GOT TO HIDE?
I GET ANGRY TOO
WELL I'M A LOT LIKE YOU
WHEN YOU'RE STANDING AT THE CROSSROADS
AND DON'T KNOW WHICH PATH TO CHOOSE
LET ME COME ALONG
'CAUSE EVEN IF YOU'RE WRONG

I'LL STAND BY YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU

I'LL STAND BY YOU
TAKE ME IN, INTO YOUR DARKEST HOUR
AND I'LL NEVER DESERT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
AND WHEN...
WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU,
BABY YOU'RE FEELING ALL ALONE YOU WON'T BE ON YOUR OWN

I'LL STAND BY YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
TAKE ME IN, INTO YOUR DARKEST HOUR
AND I'LL NEVER DESERT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU

WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU

love e lyrics..thanks auntie joy..thanks wen..thanks =D

][.FEarless.][
][.i promise.][

][.take mi away from this tiring world.][

][.take mi away from this tiring world.][

i m tired..
i realli m..
its nt physically tired..
but mentally tired..

i m realli starting to get sick of it..
sumthing that meant so much to mi..
but it seems to be e core source of disappointment nowadays..
esp ytr n tooday..
its realli sad..
i m realli angry w myself for feeling that way..
i hate to feel negative..
i hate it..
yet negativity is all i feel nw..

haiz..realli tired..
i realli nd a break from this tiring world..
guardian angel..
pls take mi away for a moment..
i wanna rest..

i knew wad was going to happen..
n it realli did..
i expected it..
but nt at e moment when i feel like shit..
it jus makes everything worst..
nw all i wanna do is to slp..
slp like a coward n hope to escape from all e problems..
i m realli sorry towards u..
but i realli do treasure our friendship..its jus like how chong shang tian describes it..
however u nv seem to be able to feel that..
maybe i jus ain't gd enff..
maybe wad i haf been doing is nth..
i m realli tired..
i wun let go..
but i dun haf e energy to do anything right now..

ok.. shall end here..realli v tired..wanns escape from e world for a moment or so le..byee..

ps. thankie auntie joy! being able to solve e qn is 1 of my joys of e day ! thanks !

][.FEarless.][
][.status: dying.][

][.nostalgia.][

][.nostalgia.][

today had friendly w jurong sec..
won..
haha..nth much to say..
i m awake..
i realli am..
thats why i ain't feeling as much..

ok..ignore that..so after friendly..went to eat prata..but i ate kway teow instead..den went to island creamy for ice cream..wow its realli nice..n when i was there..i was tinking abt those ppl that i wanna bring em down to share e joy sumday..den i tot abt their schedules..haha n i miss em so..took pics w e team at island creamy..haha it was not bad..but haha yah la..those who knows me shuld noe that i do like to take photos..but today..i felt this strongly => its nt how nice e place is or etc..its e ppl that matters that makes e pic even sweeter..even valuable..

haha alrite..i realli thought abt lots of things at e ice cream shop..so after that sh n me went to jts..haha it was at ps..hmm went to play arcade n i finally found e vcd that i wanted to watch! ahahaha realli realli happy! was grinning like no1's business..n yah..i tot of wen la..she once told mi that she insist on finding sum show on her own..cz she feels that when she find it..she will be realli happy..i guess she did..n i did today !

haha ok..so after that we had jts at swensese..haha nt bad la..n here i m back home =P ooo n yah..how can i 4get that sh n me went to "shop" that i happen to cum across this line..its from the card.."never let go of our friendship"..sumthing like this la..its realli nice..but e line that capture mi e most was => " i always held back and struggled to say..but i realli wan u to noe that i hope that we will nv let go of our friendship"..=)

haha ok..shall end here..tml will be a long and tiring day..but no matter wad..as long as i m alive..it will be a great day ! take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.sumtimes i m still nt used to nt being able to share my day.][

][.tired.][

][.tired.][

hey bloggy..wanted to blog about sumthings..but my eyelids are closing..so i guess i will do that e next time ba..nitey..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.1st day.][

][.Take each day, one at a time.][

][.Take each day, one at a time.][

blogged abt taking each day , one at a time..
but haf no idea why nth appeared on my blog..
so decided to blog abt it again..

hee..here u go..

One day at a time - this is enough

Do not look back
and grieve over the past,
for it is gone..

Do not be troubled
about the future
for it has yet to come..

Live in the present
and make it so beautiful
that it will be worthing
remembering..

yup..sumthing that i found v meaningful and jus wanna share..=D..hmm aw today (which is gg to end in 5mins) is kinda of a bad day..nt realli bad..but ya..jus not gd la..nth much went in e right way..but when i had my dinner n watched e news..indonesia's earthquake..malaysia's flood etc etc..wads my bad day compared to those ppl over there?..n suddenly i felt that i shuld nt moan about it..cz i m realli fortunate..so r u guys..so pls smile! =D

hmm..n yah..jus watched sum tv shows after news..its abt newborn babies..n hmm i feel so..how to say..haha sudden "calling" ??..i told mummy that i wanna be a er ke yi shen..docs for e kids..paediatrics?..haha dunno wads that call..but ya..i wanna be involved in a job that can involved me with little kids..cz they will nv fail to put a smile on my face..but mummy burst my bubble by reminding mi the fact that i dun take any science sub..i can't realli go into e medical fields..haha act i noe that la..so now i m tinking..wad course shuld i take ?..wad occupation can involved mi with babies n little kids?..haha mummy say kindergarden teacher..but haha that dun sounds too appealing to mi at e moment..i wanna be sumthing more..haha ok..shall go find out more abt it..

ok..nw i m smiling to myself at the thought of kids ! or shuld i specify => babies =D haha hao la..end here for today le..n its a brand new day le ! hope it will be a better 1 ! take gd care every1! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.innocent little angels.][

][.dun expect too much of me.][

][.dun expect too much of me.][

currently its 4:12pm on a sat afternoon..seldom at hm during this time during sat..or rather during this time..hafing e whole hse to myself for today..hmm current feeling => perplexed..if there is even this word..n if it realli meant wad i meant..not in e best of mood..so i m jus typing using my heart n not my head..

i noe i m nt a gd friend to any1..dunno why..but i always seem to make em sad..not only 1..feels sad abt it too..but maybe i m jus too tired le ba..too tired to say sorry jus as how tired u r to hear mi say sorry..tired..tired to do anything abt it..tired..i m realli v tired le..wadever will be will be..n hmm nw i finally understand how U wuld haf felt when things went wrong btw us..cz i m in ya shoes nw..its tiring..tiring both out..

ahhh..dunno wad m i ranting on also..maybe i shuld jus go n rest be4 i focus and complete my tons n tons of essays and homework ba..if i feel better after e rest la..haiz..

wo yi zhi dou zai ni sheng hou deng dai..
deng ni you yi tian neng gan jue dao wo..
dan huo xu..
you tian dang wo lei le..
wo zhi hui bu keng yi sheng de li kai..

][.FEarless.][
][.teach me e way of life.][

][.is there anything i can do for u?.][

][.is there anything i can do for u?.][

i m glad that everything is ok..
kinda relieved ba..glad that i din gave up in e end =)

hmm aw..with all e things gg on nw..
i m realli lost..
lost by wad shuld i do..
or shuld i even do anything..

many a times..
i saw u appearing online..
saw u in sch..
n i realli wanna ask..
is there anything i can do for u?..
but yet..i din ask..
i dunno how..
realli dunno how..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.jus tell me if there is anything i can do to help.][

][.Time-Out.][

][.Time-Out.][

i noe its my fault this time round..
i noe, knew, expected, that to happen..
but wad i din expect was my reaction..
maybe its tired-ness ba..

i waited..
u din cum..
n i left..
wasting no more time..

while waiting i thought of lots..
while bus-ing i thought of lots..
1st 1 realli does matters to mi..
but maybe not u..

its ok..i need a time-out..
maybe i m still nt used to being e 1 giving in..
i noe u r trying..
thanks..
take care..

met fungi today..n i miss em so..feeling nostalgic..end here le..take gd care every1 ! bye..

][.FEarless.][
][.teared in e rain.][

][. e road in front may be bumpy but i wun give up w/o a try.][

][.e road in front may be bumpy but i wun give up w/o a try.][

can't get to sleep..
a decision has been going on in my head since last nite..
n i guess i haf finally set up my mind..
jus bloggin it down to prevent myself from going bac on my words..
MB is lesser than MC therefore..
i need e courage to do it..
n i will..

thanks to a few special ppl that i haf turned for advice..mummy,daddy,wen,132,135..realli thanks a lot for supporting my choice n telling mi to go ahead with it..w/o u guys i dun tink i will haf e courage to do it..thanks for all ya advice n jus being dere..=]

ooo n yah..guess i woke up on e right side of bed ba..haha felt so great to be awake for all lessons..realli great..i noe it's nth..but it meant sumthing to mi..i dunno..wad i m doing nowadays r jus amazing mi..n e thought of myself with the decision also amazes mi..i dunno wad occured..maybe its jus time..

haha n happy thoughts and being "+" do help ba..cz i felt great for today..n a few happy things happened to mi too..haha being able to c 132 after so long ! thanks for e bolster ! n toking to wen..it was realli nice to tok after so long ! n exchanging a few msges with fungi n jing that day ! n toking to tooty =P..haha its realli nice..n chatting with mummy..haha wad can i say..these are jus e special ppl that do wonders to my life ba..thanks for jus being dere..=]

hao la..end here le..tml will b e day..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.faith.][

][.ni..ni de wen rou gan dong le wo.][

][.ni..ni de wen rou gan dong le wo.][

haha kinda hooked to this mayday song..its wang ci..n yuppy..today's blog title is one of e line in that song =P..hee..hmm fa xian dao i haf been blogging lesser n lesser as e days go by..

haha act been wanting to blog for e past wk since sch "officially" started for mi..but everyday after i cum hm..i will be so tired that i jus zZz..haha ok..aw..16/1/07 den i will clearly noe my fate..w e return of econs results..haiz..

aw..thats nt e main pt la..haha so many little yet impt things had happened that i dunno how to start..so ya lo..nxt time mus try to blog whenever i feel like it..ooo aw..i wanna go watch hana kimi le..its so cute la..i mean e show..haha ahh..but still haf tons of hw to do..ooo *sianz*..

haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1..bye..

][.FEarless.][
][.you duo jiu mei jian ni yi mian.][
][.yuan yuan kan zhe ni.][

][.2007.][

][.2007.][

wahahah !! this is my 1st post of 2007 wow bloggy..haha supposed to include all my new yr resolutions etc..but currently i m jus too tired to do so =P..will do it if i feel like it in e future ba..aw..haha new yr new blogskin..nt that i wan la..but i was adding sum pics to my previous screen n..everything gone crazy..so jiu change one lo =P..

aw..hmm 2007..haha started with much uncertainity..still waiting for e results..haiz..but so much has happened within this few days that make mi think a little here n dere..haha nth much..but yet sumthing that matters much..

to a special friend (the gift): thanks for jus being in my life..e little things that u do realli touched mi that nite when i opened e mail =)

haha ok..den hmm mass dance at suntec today..haha din wanted to go de..cz i dun realli like crowds n i can't dance for nuts..but haha still went in e end..n i din regret it..kinda of like it..haha it was fun..i love e train part..n yah..haha today i onli went to sch for a period of lessons..with the rest of e day..=> chatting at e tree hse..haha it was great..

ooo my eyes are reducing its width by secs..guess i shuld jus end here le ba..aw..haha..today is a happy day ba..haha take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.if you could see me now.][