][.perpetual.][

][.perpetual.][


~mei tian yi shou ge~
Everytime when I’m thinking of you
I just don’t know what to do
Tinge myself when I’m dreaming of you
Making sure that you can love me too.
How it slipped away
All my happy days
So I’m acting cool when I’m feeling blue
Just to show you that I’m through with you
Oh I never wanted to
How can love so beautiful ever slip away?
When I get to the place
I swear I’ll write you a song each & everyday
Oh god I’m missing you, is driving me so insane
Standing all alone in the pouring rain
Can’t explain..
Can’t explain..
All the pain..

haha this is e song that i haf been listening to..n repeating once n again..i finally dropped lit to h1 le..choice is made..=)..ytr n today had been great..i mean my fri n sat..our slumber party n our talks abt e past..i love these special moments spent wif these special peeps of my life..thanks for cuming into my life..6 ppl..+ 1 mixed species..

haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.perpetual.][

][.wad was i doing.][

][.wad was i doing.][

hey bloggy..psps haven been bloggin for a wk le..act everyday i wanna blog..but jus dunno how to start..or else jiu shi too tired le..

life hasn't been a gd one this wk..but at least its still nice la..hai..got bac my results..gotta drop 1 sub to h1..i hate such choices..why mus there be choices in life..why are there decisions..i realli dread n hate making decision..but its part n parcel of life ba..

aw as i looked bac at my jc life..i realli feel like a useless piece of shit..compared to pri n sec sch..i realli feel like a small fry..sum1 so small n insignificant..haha results are like shit..how did i wasted my mths away man..gotta wake up n prove e world wrong..at least mus scrape thru promos n get promoted !..if not..i dunno wad will happen to mi..n i realli mean i dunno wad will happen..

haha hao la..feeling tired le..mentally n physically tired..i gotta rest 1st..tml i will hand in my drop to h1 form..n everything is going to start afresh..

to those who have been by my side n giving mi advice :
thanks..i realli appreciate..=)

take gd care every1..theres lots of nice song that i haf been listening to nowadays..shall share wif u guys nxt time..bye..eye lid dropping le..zZz..

][.FEarless.][
][.weak.][
][.thanks for being here for mi,my friend.][

][.if u need to crash den crash and burn.u r not alone.][

][.if u need to crash den crash and burn.u r not alone.][

hey bloggy..hee today's blog ne..i also dunno wad i wanna blog abt..but abt my treasured friends ba..i guess..hee ytr n today..sumthings happen n it realli make mi noe sumthing..n understand sumthings..haha..shall try to express how i feel via poem ba..dun like it to be in words sumhow..

ytr..
for everything there's a limit
even the most elastic rubber band will snap and break if u stretch it overboard

i saw e tears and i felt a sense of guilt..
overwhelming guilt and a sense of heartache..

was stunned and shocked..
was lost and din noe e right words and right thing to do..

first time ever i felt so helpless..
pray and hope that u will be ok..

finally when i saw ya smile..
i felt a sense of relieve..

haha yup thats how i felt ytr..hee ok..now shall try to write a poem abt today..

today..
everything was not going in the perfect way..
its not a nice day..
its jus another normal day which i haf many things on my mind..

was worried due to things that happened ytr..
was not realli in the mood..

but when i saw that msg..
i forgotten abt everything..
i felt a sense of helpless again..

u told mi to say anything..
n i was dumbfounded for a min..
i din noe the words that wuld cheer u up..

i was worried..
realli worried..
i hate e physical distance..
cz i realli hope to be by ya side at that moment..

u told mi u was crying..
n it jus worries mi even further..
i was helpless..
i jus wanna rush over n be by ya side..
i dun wanna noe e reason that u r sad..
but jus hope that u will feel better..

u told mi u r feeling better..
told mi not to worry anymore..
but that wun stop e worries my friend..
cz u r my friend forever..

hmm yeah man..thats how i felt ytr n today..din noe that i wuld ever feel so helpless when my friends tears..ha..was realli lost n din noe wad to do..haha maybe cz its always mi that is crying like a baby n em who always comfort mi ba..hai..useless man fe..onli noe how to cry..hao peng you cry le que dunno how..

but yuppy..jus wanna say this to my best n most treasured friends..
i may not be the best comforter
i may not have the right words for u..
i may not noe wad to do..

but i promise u..

i will be the best listener..
i will sit beside u..
i will stand by u..
i will be with u till u r feeling better..

if u need a shoulder to cry on..
take mine..
if u need a listener(a ear) for ya complains..
take mine..
if u need a punching bag to vent ya anger..
punch mi..

if u feel that your world is crushing down on u..
if u need to crash and burn..
rmb..
u r not alone..

yuppy..so hee bloggy ah..i pray..pray that both that i cherish is feeling better le..i pray that they will be ok..i pray that they will smile from the bottom of the heart soon..i pray n hope that if the pain is too much for them..jus give mi a call..n yuppy jus to let those that i treasure noe..if u need to cry..jus cry..there's no need to hold em back..cz i always believe that after a gd cry..u will feel much better than holding bac ya tears..dere's no nd to be strong in my presence..cz i haf nv been strong in front of u too..yup..thats how i feel..so u dun haf to agree with mi..=)..

hao la..aw..today's trng was not too bad..take gd care every1 ! a bit tired le..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.=) u all r my reasons to smile.][

][.relishing my precious memories.][

][.relishing my precious memories.][

remembered that i came across this quote sumwhere..
"you can take away everything from my life..but never will you be able to take away the memories that i had"..
yuppy..i like that quote..haha u can take away everything..but the memories that i shared will always be with me..

ooo aw..ytr (55 mins ago)..was a day full of memories..n looking back..n yah la..moi's bday..happy bday la moi !..haha

memories so sweet
memories so nice
memories worth keeping for life

as i look back at those memories
i smiled
i miss them so

jus how much i wish to have em by my side
sumthings change
but sum jus dun
n i believe that they nv will..

haha alrite..haf a nice chat wif wen today..hee or rather is i tok she listen ?..haha i dunno..reminds mi of the days at the back of e class..when lessons was going on n we lived in our own world chatting abt everything..haha its been years..so much memories that are treasured and remembered..now that we are on separate paths..sumthings changed..but sum remains..hee its jus all amazing fate..

thanks for this fate..
thanks for bringing my friends to my life..
thanks for turning my life ard like a windmill..

was realli kind of disappointed and worried for my freakingly poor mye results..realli but wad can i do?..jus gotta start working hard n buck up le ba..was kind of sianz inside..but hai hao ba..get to meet wen n recall all the beautiful memories..it nv fails to make my day..but lets cont to make more memories that will be with us forever yeah..hee n of cz had lots of laughs n was e "clown" during moi's mini celebration in sch..haha another page of beautiful memories to be kept..

diff friends
diff characters
diff joys and tears shared
but similar precious memories treasured.

n yup..din noe if i shuld msg sum1..cz realli nt feeling that great abt my results..so jus msg-ed n got a reply..was realli happy..

din noe that i wuld still be so happy abt receiving a msg frm U..
however my immediate reaction had betrayed the calmness that i tot i wuld haf..
i miss those days..
days which i will mug hard n scroll down my hp to look for encouragin msg by U..

its been long since that happen..
but whenever i m down..
i jus hope that u will be here..
jus be here
to tell me to go on..

if wad i do is a little act of kindness..
then wad u do wuld be..
e greatest motivation..

haha hao la every1..gd nite..go le..byee ! tc..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.guardian angel.][

][.nice.][

][.nice.][

head is still aching..
damm it..
headache seems to be wif me..
hee aw today's bloggy is to post a nice song de lyrics..
i tink e lyrics are realli nice..
but when i listen to that song..
its realli slow dao..
n i realli like sentimental n slow songs de la..
but its even slow to me la..
haha but i realli tink e lyrics is v meaningful..
so dere u go..
dedicated to all out there (esp my friends)..
forever5 !

When you're down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend
If the sky above you
Should grow dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind should begin to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud, yeah
Soon I'll be knocking at your door
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running, oh yes I will
To see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh yeah, but don't you let them
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yes I will.
You've got a friend
You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again (oh baby don't you know)
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is callLord,
I'll be there yes I will.
You've got a friend
Oh, you've got a friend.
Aint it good to know you've got a friend.
Aint it good to know you've got a friend.
You've got a friend.

haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 !..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.where u go.][
][.i miss u so.][
][.i hate e physical distance btw us.][
][.how much i hope that i will haf all of ur to be by my side always.][

][.swing.][

][.swing.][

i m sitting on a swing now..
hafing mood swing..
haha thats so lame..
ha
ha
ha..

been hafing headache for the whole of last wk..i mean realli headache..those head pain that kind..dunno wad kind of pain is that too..damm sianz jiu shi le..

aw today had trng..hmm haha wad can i say..i will rmb wad cindy coach n daisy snr say ba =)
thanks lots to both..den went to eat mee sua..

hmm head still pain..damm it..haha hao la..go le ba..take gd care every1 ! byee..

When I smile
I smile for you

When I cry
I hope you are nearby

You see
You are everything to me

You are my special friend
You are my beginning
and my end..

i jus hope you are nearby..
jus be here for me..
whenever i m lost n unmotivated..
all i do is recall all those that you had told me..

][.FEarless.][
][.headache.][
][.jus be here for me.][
][.n i will be strong.][

][.friendship poems.][

][.friendship poems.][

haha hmm after printing out all e wilfred owen's war poems..i haf a sudden urge to write a poem regarding friendship..haha but realli v tired le..so decided to go search for sum friendship poems online..hee yeah..so e below are wad i haf found..they r realli nice..n i tink they does reflect how i feel abt friendship or maybe my friendships..haha read on if u haf e time to spare..hope u enjoy e poems as much as i do..n of coz..enjoy n cherish ya friendship as much as i do..=)

Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.

Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.

Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.


Forgiving Friends
by Hunniebe

You are my best friend
You always will be
Yet sometimes I get mad at you
And you get mad at me
Sometimes I don't understand
Sometimes I don't know what to do
But remember always
That I will forgive you


Promise
by Jessica Sills

As you sit in silence,
Wondering whyI'll be your shoulder to cry on
Until your tears run dry.

When you've been hurt,
And can't believe what they've done
If you need someone to talk to
I'll be the one.

If a close friend hurts you,
And you don't understand
Remember I'm here,
I'll lend a helping hand.

Burdens are lighter when carried by two,
And I just want you to know
I'm here for you.


Friends 4-Life
by Doryan Hallicy

Friends 4- life is what we are
Through thick and thin you were my friend
Leaning on you, you gave me support
The strength to get up and go again

If my heart was shattered, you'd heal it
If my heart was happy, we both rejoiced in it

You are my best friend
always and forever
It's been good
the best friendship ever
Never end, now and forever


True Friend
by Rochelle Bue

Excitement and fear fill our hearts.
Soon a new way of life will start.
Thirteen years have almost past.
But in our mind the memories last.

We've been through it all.
And realized who are true friends are.
The one that was there.
When no one else seemed to care.

So as our senior year comes to an end.
I want to say, thanks for being a true friend.


What You Mean To Me ...
by Nikkie

You turned my darkness into light;
You made everything all right.
You picked me up when I was down;
You turned my life around.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A blessing is what you are to me.

When I needed you the most, you were there;
Even if it seemed like you didn't care.
When I didn't think I could make it another day,
You chased all my doubts away.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A treasure is what you are to me.

The world is full of many people, it's true;
But there is only one of you.
You fill my heart with love;
You're a God-sent gift from above.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
An angel is what you are to me.

Lost and alone, I will no longer be;
Because you are here with me.
There is no reason to be sad;
You've taken away all the bad.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A best friend is what you are to me!!

haha yuppy..thats sum of e poems that i tink are realli nice..so jus wanna blog em down n share..haha hao la..kind of late le..gd nite every1!..byee..take gd care..

where u go..
i miss you so..
memories treasured..
now and forever..
all i hope for is a reply to e msg..
a random phone call..
wherever you go..
whatever you do..
i will be right here..
waiting for you..
my most treasured friends..

][.FEarless.][

][.against the odds.][

][.against the odds.][

hey bloggy..haha hasn't blog for a v long time le..hee thou its onli a wk..but it seems quite long to mi ba..but nbm..shall blog now while waiting for humphery kor kor to cum n be4 i can go slp..haha

alright..kind of decided to blog abt my last wk ?..hee it was kind of beautiful day ?..haha i cannot rmb exactly wad happened..but i will jus note down wad i rmb ba..hee

5/7/2006
jing's bday..haha be4 that went for a jog and bike at ecp..met auntie joy lame si ren aka letter box..haha den kind of beautiful day ba..a day filled wif laughters..haha wif jing dian moments of ppl blading into a tree..falling down etc..haha den met up wif wen n went to celebrate jing's bday..haha jus a sweet simple day..which i say is beautiful..

6/7/2006
haha if i nv rmb wrongly..went to wen's hse again..cz moi left her wallet dere e day be4..den decided to pei moi go swim..she do her rehab..i practice my swimming..den jacuzzi..haha another slacked n nice day..

haha ok..den fri..hmm kind of forgot wad i did..but mus haf been a nice day too la..den sat..went cycling at ecp again..cycled to one end of ecp wif 2 pros..haha or rather i m jus slow..but i swear i did tried to pick up speed n i did ok..jus that still lagged..aw thats nt e main pt..e main pt is..we get to c aeroplanes flyin past us at e end of ecp..den went to sbc to watch e nationals team against sum aust team..den went for swimming lessons n pia cab down to meet fat french fries,yq and hui2 n of cz janice..haha had bbq..n did i mention..e cabby brought mi to sengkang instead of pp in e 1st place..so i almost vomit on e cab..cz of car sick n heart pain coz of e cab fare..yup..

haha ok..sun was kind of a norm n sianz day..cz trng was cancelled n was kind of lost..but haha wc finals kind of made my day..hee slept at ard10pm..n woke up wif daddy to watch e game till ard 5plus..haha go against e odds *beams*..hee..ok..so is today morning ! woohoo i was praying for a day off ! but dere wasn't la..but at least there was off at 12:25..haha gao xing dao siao ! haha..yup..n quite a nice n normal day la..hee

hao la..shall end here..kor kor reached le..but went out to eat again..*faints*..haha..bye every1 ! nitey..tc !

..a friend who misses his/her bus to acc u to wait for ur bus..
..thanks for giving mi so many wonderful friends..
..n of coz..at least 2 who had acc mi to wait for my bus by missing em on purpose..
..thanks..
..its more than words =P..

][.FEarless.][
][.jus be here for me.][

][.dun close your eyes.if not u will miss e happiness in front of you.][

][.dun close your eyes.if not u will miss e happiness in front of you.][

jus watched Ps. i love you (tian shi wo ai ni) haha..guardian angel = > jus a turn around n i will be dere..to protect u..haha lalala..where's my guardian angel ?..hee

alright..stop my crapping..but sumtimes i realli wonder where's my guardian angel..hee..ok..yup..aw ps. i love you got quite a few nice nice words n pharses..but i like this one la.. "dun close your eyes.if not u will miss e happiness in front of you"..

n yah..that day watched jus my luck..den got this cliche line -> "when one door closes..another two opens" & "if u use one min to be sore abt life..u lost another min of happiness in life"..

n when i watched rebound..dere's this nice pharse which i had heard else "it takes more muscles to frown than to smile"

yup..these are a few nice lines that i gotta from this few shows that i watched nowadays..haha been slacking quite a bit..n then today back to trng..haha since how long haf i last touched a ball man..hmm e last time i did was during e hols when we went back to ahs to play ba..haha

hmm aw..alj trng is at kkcc today..haha kampong kembagan community club..haha went pretty early..cz din noe we wuld reach so early..den yah..trng..almost died during e warm up rounds onli..cz realli din run for a long time le..den dere's trng..den hmm 5 on5 3 sets..ok la..quite fun..maybe thats becoz i hasn't gotta play bball for a long time le ba..but gotta 3 wounds now..toes due to e shoes..elbow..dunno who scratched n collar bone dere got one more scratch..but that one shuld be lqjl ba..cz she say so..haha but nbm nbm..sorry to all that i was rough on today..esp buddy n sian ma..yup..

ok..so after trng went to had dinner wif moi,jas,shao ji..den hear jas toking abt their combine..u18..u20..haha lalala..yup..den came hm n watched ps.i love you..

haha den ytr..quite a nice day too..went to swim at downtown east..n i can tell u..e water is realli dirty..after being to nice pools such as the one at yio chu kang..haha i jus hope downtown east de can quick quick change water..haha n e sunset..clouds..was realli nice..hee swam 45 small laps..hee which acc to sum "unreliable info"..its 15 real laps..haha den yah..in e morning was supposed to go swim de..but ha ha ha..e pool at that place is not for e public =p..so ended up eating n slacking till noon..watching rebound..haha quite a nice day la..ROW ! haha..

its time to move on
i m out of the world of playing the game in that way
i must accept it
n i will

its been quite a period of time
been trying to get over n move on
its not easy
but i noe its jus the stubborn mi
the stubborn side which refuse to let go

but now
all i wanna do is
let go..
fang shou..
rang zhi ji fei xiang..

wo bu gen ren he ren shou jin tian de tong
na shi yin wei
wo ren wei
wo bu ying gai zai wei na jian shi er liu lei le
wo yao xue hui jian qiang
wo yao kuai le de da wo yao da de qiu
guo qu jiu rang ta guo qu

wo zhi xiang zhen xi wo yong you de xian zai
..i only wanna treasure wad i haf now..
..wads in e past will jus remain as memories..
..e good ones will remain as memories..
..e bad ones will become a part of my life..
..i jus gotta look forward..
..life is all about moving on =)..
..be strong..
..move on..
..i promise to smile..
..the next time i hear abt all these..
..i promise i will jus smile..
..n it will be from the bottom of my heart..
..i dun wanna allow myself to be hurt again..
..wun =P..

haha hao la..take gd care every1 !..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.where are you?.][
][.be strong n move on.][

][.7 yrs le.][

][.7 yrs le.][

hey bloggy..sorry ah..threw temper on u this morning..cz realli felt veri pek che..but yeah man..no worries..i ok le..realli sorry..jus that agrh..my bro is still nt well..still running a high fever..i wonder wads the stupid disease man..pls pls let him recover soon !..

yup..aw..today isn't that screwed up anymore..went to wen's hse at ard 7 plus..reached there ard 8 plus..watched daisy till ard 10plus..den duo qiang shi jie till ard 11..den pillow fight..n deciding on wad to watch on mon..haha den here i m bac hm..woohoo..s'pore is jus so small..jus a 15 mins cabby ride n here i m hm..

haha realli makes mi tink of sumthing..as long as u make an effort..u will still be able to keep in touch wif ya friends..so do make an effort yeah..haha act thats kind of reminding myself..do i make an effort ?..haha lalala crapping..

hmm yeah man..aw fungi was telling us wad wen said while on our cabby ride hm..those words that wen said while jing n fungi was playing street fighter..haha too bad i wasn't dere to hear wen say those..but yeah man..thats how i felt too..so dun nd shy la wen..haha

dere's always star ard..
u jus gotta find ya fav ones..
once u found yours..
be dere for em..
cz i noe..
they will be dere for u too..
i jus love the simplicity of this friendship..
i love the stupid times..
i love the crazy times..
i love the silent times..
i love the truthful time..
memories treasured..
lets cont to make more =)..

haha hao la..shall go le..n yeah man..today is not such a screwed up day afterall..dere's always a reason to smile ! *pls remember that man*..haha i was toking to myself..psps..hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..yeah..going swim swim ! ha

][.FEarless.][
][.i love.i treasure.i hold on.][
][.pls let didi get well soon !.][