][.DAMM SCREWED DAY.][

][.DAMM SCREWED DAY.][

haf u ever tried planning for a perfect day ?
looked forward to that perfect day ?
slept at nite wif a smile ?
woke up wif a smile ?
looked forward to that whole nice day ?
n then everything that is planned cannot be carried out ?
u need to forsake your whole perfect day ?

if u haf not..
i hope u wun ever haf to..
cz that feeling suxz !!!!!!!
suxz to the core !!!!
thats how i m feeling now..
damm sucky..damm screwed..damm irritated..damm pissed..damm agrh..
YES !!!!!
thats how i m feeling now..DAMM !!!!!!

today's supposed to be forever5's day..we r supposed to go swim n watch movie de..DAISY ! the one that i had been looking forward to..there's nothing on my mind apart from waking up and go wen hse n slack n rest for a day after all these days of sickening mye !..but guess wad..i woke up wif a tear..n i m still tearing now !! damm screwed !!..why ?!

let mi tell u why ?! (if u r not interested..i m sorry..but i m v pek che now..so dun provoke mi any further !)
i woke up knowing that my bro is down wif a high fever !..yes i dun blame him..its not his fault that he wanna get sick wad..i m jus freakingly pissed of wif the stupid disease that cause him to be sick today !!! why today !!!! wad the hell !!!!!!! its my perfect day man..n now its ruin !!!!!! R- U- I- N !!! GONE !!! G-O-N-E GONE !!!!! gotta bring him to e doc n stay at hm the whole freaking day !!!! cz mummy nd to go for tuition later !!!!!!!

n on top of that !!!!!! i m blasting my mp3 to the loudest now !!!!! cz she is scolding n scolding none-stop !!!! cz of my fone bill n coz she say i onli care abt myself !!!!! WAD THE HELL !!!!..if i onli care abt myself i wun be stuck at hm the whole freaking day now !!!!! i m damm damm damm damm pissed now !!!!!!! i m so pissed n screwed that i jus feel like punching sumthing !!!! n i m quite sure that thing will suffer !!!!!!

AGRH AGRH AGRH AGRH AGRH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I M GOING CRAZY !!!!!!!
I M SO ANGRY !!!!!!!
I M SO SAD !!!!!!!
I M SO SCREWED !!!!
WAD A SCREWED DAY !!!!
WAD A WAY TO "ENJOY" YOUR DAY RIGHT AFTER EXAMS !!!!!!!
DAMM SHITY !!!!!!
AGRH AGRH AGRH !!!!!!!

][.FEarless.][
][.status : damm pissed.damm screwed.][

][.just my luck.][

][.just my luck.][

haha helloo bloggy ! hasn't blog e past few days due to sumthing known as e mYe..haha it seems like i had brought a screwdriver into every single exam hall..coz i practically screwed everything up..haha esp maths ba..e most cham paper that i had ever done =P..realli..but there's nth i can say la..i din put in that effort ba..hee

hao la..lets nt tok abt exams le..it had caused mi much slp for e past few days n wks..n now that i m toking..my knee hurts ! damm..jus discovered tat i hasn't been touching bball for quite a long time le..since we went bac to play at ahs during e fri during e hols..haha..realli v long le..lost touch wif e ball le ba..kinda of miss it..but be4 i get bac to it..i gotta train bac my stamina n shed off all e wts that i put up during this exam period ba..haha so much that i wanna do..yeah..glad that exams is over..at least for now..

haha n yeah man ! tml is forever5 day..it seems like a gd day =P haha n went to watch jus my luck today..haha had a great laugh..e underlying story quite nice de..but haha sumhow i hoped that e show wuld go on..cz got lots of cliche stuffs that i like..n McFly de songs quite nice de..thou they r rock songs n not my type..but i tink its not bad..haha so is realli nt bad de =P at least to mi la..

n yah..toking abt songs..dere's a few nice songs that i jus came across recently..
~yi ge xiang xia tian..yi ge xiang qiu tian~
~la ji che~
haha n McFly de songs..haha n tension de gan qing xian etc..haha ok..i realli tired le..cmi le ! take gd care every1!..shall blog again soon..tctc..

][.FEarless.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.it's all about u.][
][.status : super tired.][

][.everything happens for a reason.but maybe for sumthings there's jus no reason.][

][.everything happens for a reason.but maybe for sumthings there's jus no reason.][

haha hey bloggy..i m damm tired le..so dead for mye..haha..dunno how m i going to face it man..but wadever it is la..hmm ok..jus wanna blog a little..hee

yeah i noe today my bloggy's title v contradicting ba..everything happens for a reason n yet sumthings jus haf no reason for it..haha i also dunno wad i toking now..i guess i m crapping ba..but thats what i feel..

there's a reason that heaven let u meet ppl ba..
i rmb i came across this..
good friends are siblings that heaven giv u..

for every1 u meet in life..
there's a reason..
they are either here to acc u..protect u..
or they are here to hurt u..so that u can grow stronger in e process..

haha everything that happens in life..
it happens for a reason..
and u will grow n learn from it..

but sumhow..dere's jus no reason n explaination to certain things ba..
haha thats wad i feel la..

haha hmm a bit tired le..so dunno wad i m toking abt..but shall blog again abt this..hee take gd care every1 ! byee..wan an n zao an..

][.FEarless.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.jus be here for mi.]
][.n i will be jus fine.][
][.never be replaced.][

][.haha funny.][

][.haha funny.][

haha ok..actually wanted to blog abt e 3 movies that i watch ytr n today de..i mean sun n mon..haha 1 vcd , 1 tv , 1 movie..haha they are : Summer I love you , Wo de ah pa zhen bao zha and almost love...haha yup..note down 1st..so that nxt time when i m in a mood to blog abt it again i will la =P..hee

alrite..1 last wk to exams..i m so dead ! haha realli cham le..haven touch hist n lit..maths n econs is like nowhere..yah..n i had a GP nitemare jus last nite..sianz..why mus we haf mye rite after hols..so no mood to prepare n yet haf to..haha haiz..

but nbm yup..esplanade at nite shi man mei de..hee alrite..shall not digress le..actually today i blog is to ask bloggy = U..and those reading this entry now..

Qn :
haha haf u ever had a friend which u dunno how to address ??..haha like u dunno wad name to call that friend..like wadever name u use to call that person jus sounds weird n not right..haha but when others use that name to address that friend of yours..its jus sounds so natural la..haha i noe this sounds quite idiot..but hmm still wondering..how do u communicate wif sum1 without calling e name 1st de =P..haha bloggy ah..u got this kind of stupid situation be4 ma? =P lalala..

haha yah..thats my qn..hee so if any of you gotta this kind of stupid situation..do tag yeah =P..haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! n hmm yah..watched Almost love..n there's this meaningful line la.."Smile n good things will cum your way..not the other way round"..haha i kind of like this..so jus wanna share n hope u will like it too =P..tctc byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.guardian angel.][
][.wo shi 1031.][

][.300th post !.i found my cd le !.][

][.300th post !.i found my cd le !.][

haha tai bang le tai bang le ! wan sui wan sui wan wan sui !!! i found my music diary cd 1 le ! tai bang le ! ahh..shi er fu de ! gan jue hen hao!!! xing qing bian hao le !!! thankie mummy for finding my bao bei cd !..music diary cd 1 , 2 , 3 ! yeah zhao dao le !..300th post is my happy post..

lalala..take gd care every1 ! shall blog again later =P bye..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.happy me.][
][.why ?.][
][.found IT le !.][

][.my music diary cd 1.][

][.my music diary cd 1.][

today is father's day..
my hse hafing father's day party now..
lots of food..
lots of noise..

i m in my rm..
listening to music diary cd3..
mood : super sad..
status : going mad soon
reason : i lost my music diary cd1..

there's nth else i wan now apart from finding my music diary cd 1..ah..where is it?..i noe i nv ever lend music diary cd to any1 de..mummy say daddy hao xiang borrowed it from mi..but daddy say nv..
i searched my whole drawer..searched everywhere in my rm..but still can't find it..agrh ! i realli wanna fa feng le..its my music diary cd 1 leh! e 1st one !..e one which has signature on it..e one which i took a pic..e 1st one..its not e 3rd one..cz if 3rd one..now it will still be in e market..

i called wen..cz she is e onli hope le..cz i sort of rmb that she got buy music diary cd 1..cz i told her its super nice..wen say she will give mi her copy if i can't find mine..thanks lots wen..but i wanna find mine..wo zhen de yao fa feng le !..

music diary cd 1 !!!! pls pls pls be safe !!! pls cum back to mi !!! o bring back..o bring back..o bring back my yin yue ri ji cd 1 to mi !..

..fe..
..wo yao wo de music diary cd 1 now..
..apart from this..bie chao wo..
..dui bu qi..
..xing qing zao tou le..

][.smiley.kai xin shi FEI chang zhong yao de.][

][.smiley.kai xin shi FEI chang zhong yao de.][

haha bloggy ! i m in e mood to lame si ni..so i m gonna post lots of pics..haha..ok la..wanted to take all e smiley that i haf de..but cam spoil la..so went to e webby to find..n theres lots la..so jus wanna post on ya..so that more can smile (cz i smiled when i saw em) ! hee happiness is e most valuable possession..laughter is the best medicine..my wish : every1 i care to be happy..n is those truly happy de..not faking a smile kind..=)




haha smile ! smile ! look at e smileys n smile ba ! hee today's bloggy purpose is jus to make sure U..yes u..e one reading this entry now *5milez*..haha smile ba..i forget e exact no. le..but it takes lesser no. to smile than to frown ! so..smile ba..hee *5mile cz ya 5mile is e reason for many others to smile*..haha i still gotta many more smiley de pics..but too many le la..so jus post a few..haha amazing huh..so many smiley products..ranging from keychains..to cookies..to rings..to yard design..haha all these created jus to make sure we smile ! hee

haha hao la..end here le ! take gd care every1 ! bye..n rmb to smile ok..cz u r special n ur smile is e reason for many other's smile..haha i love e 2 kids pic in particular..so innocent n happy feeling =p

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.5mile.cz u r my reason to smile.][
][.but dun nd to force a smile when u r down.][
][.cz i will be here for u.][

][.feelings.][

][.feelings.][

ok now is 7:33pm..
gan chu hen duo..
hasn't been hm so early for this hols..

haha but today got pw..n e lazy mi decided nt to go bac to study out..
so came bac hm n pig..den hmm went to a few blogs..
haha read 2 in particular n kinda of earned my tears..

I would gladly want a hug from you.You would make things ok...You always do.But I realised that I haven't done anything for us for the past few years.
I haven't been there when Wen's going through her awful period.
I haven't been there when Moi lost her favourite passion due to her injury.
I haven't been there when Fe felt that nothing's going right for her.
I haven't been there when you were hurt by your commando.
I selfishly went on alone without you all, thinking that scars would eventually heal and you would carry on by yourselves.I'm not strong, neither are all of you.

i read this n i teared..thats jing's reply to fungi..i noe i m a crybaby..can lol if u wan..but it jus makes mi feel so much..i immediately went to our bloggy to blog..trying to re-assure zhu tous that i will still be dere..jus a call away..which is wad i promise n always will be..but after bloggin..i felt e same too..where m i when they needed mi e most?..where was i?..was i dere by their side?..i dun seem to rmb so..maybe apart from that stupid woman (moi)..i was nt dere for em..i m realli sorry zhu tous..i hate to say sorry to u all..cz sorry is jus myself trying to reduce my "guilt"..n it serves no purpose to u all..but jus once again..for e dunno how many times..*always in my heart*always dere*my onli forever*

den hmm yup..realli glad that we got to meet up during this hols..thou its at moi's ward..but who cares..i love e simple moments with u all..playing cards..laming our way thur things..like little kids..wo jiu shi xi huan zhe yang jian jian dan dan de wo men..n i suddenly feel that..friendship is e effort made..but it dun matter who sacrifice more or less..thats wad i feel la..cz if its sumthing i realli cherish..i dun mind doing more..n its not counted as sacrifice..but thats onli how i feel..dun haf to agree wif mi la =p

haha alrite..hmm jus kit tung em all of a sudden..haha act is always la =P..hee aw mye is real near..n i hasn't been productive yet..still got tons to study..n jus receieved e msg that we r officially out of milo cup..haha stoned for a moment..its all over..=)..guess i jus gotta smile.."dun cry cz its over..but smile cz it happened"..tctc every1 ! byee..

*excellence is not found in being e best.but is in doing your best*

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.forever5.][

][.deres always a reason to =).n u r my reason to =).][

][.deres always a reason to =).n u r my reason to =).][

now is 12:30am..gd morning bloggy..
haha had been wanting to blog these few days..
but blogger dou dun allow mi to..so haha yah..
yes..thats why i m onli blogging now..

haha jus lost to stackers..47-64..
haha end of milo cup..
hmm disappointment ?..
yup..but ok le la..i guess..
jus din get a chance to thank all my team mates n coaches..
so jus wanna say a big thank you to em now..
ha..such a fast gd bye..
its been a nice "stay"..
hope i get to thank each of em personally sum day..

den to mei..
haha for e 106 time i m telling u..
i m serious de ok =p..hee
c..a..n..
*thats so random* but nbm..U will und de =p

alrite..this wk has been quite a relaxing one ba..hasn't realli gotten down to my bks..but now that milo cup has ended for mi..i guess i shuld be guai n heed auntie joy lame si ren's advice ba..get down n study =P..

*sink into low mode again*
dun tok abt it..
it still hurts..
dun remind mi of e game..
dun ask..
dun touch e unhealed wound..
und ?..

alrite..thats random again..but thats how i felt at that moment..sorry moi..its not becoz of u..paiseh that we haf to hang up..nt realli in e rite mood to tok abt that too..yup..

ok..my wk..s day =P..sea.sunset.sandcastle.slacking.study day =P..hee its been a nice day..
haha hao la bloggy..i noe that i can blog..but not realli in that high mood to blog anymore now..realli sorry for this mood swing wow bloggy..

take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.teach mi to be strong.][

][.stars are brightest at your darkest moments.][

][.stars are brightest at your darkest moments.][

haha act i wanted to blog ytr de..but can't..so nbm..i shall blog nw..n blog abt both ytr n today..
hee..dou shi man happy de la..

ytr..hmm went to study wif pres n employer n van..den went trng..den went bac study..act i din realli study much la..hee den went to supermarket to shop..haha i love to play e trolley ! hao hao wan o..den home be4 i went to find moi..haha e stars ytr nite was realli nice..n i was e "passenger" of moi's bike ma..so its like..i feel so tall n so near to e skies..haha act nt v near la..jus that i imagine =p

haha..den i saw my singapore tei ta..haha singapore tower..u noe..tokyo tower..paris tower..i saw singapore tower n i took a pic of it..haha n yah..lie down see stars realli nice ! haha den we went to downtown east n ate lots of food..

haha den went to arcade n play..haha its been so long since i play like soooo much le la..or rather its been so long since i spent money on arcade..hee we played racing car..den moi's drum..den jurasic park..den tou tou lan ji..haha basketball thingy..haha we jus shoot like mad la..haha so lame..can get to shoot during trng de time you find it so tiring..but we shoot dao v shuang ytr..den sweat like siao too..thou we din get to break e high score..but still v shuang la..den after that i took e manual bike hm..den haha yah..end e day quite nice de ba..e shooting of baskets shot all e unhappy things away ba ;p den received a v nice e-card..shall nt say its from who..but it was realli nice ba..hee..thanks lots =P

den today..hmm woke in e morning n went for breakfast wif zhus..haha i mean my family..den went to town wif jing n wen..haha den jus eat n eat.shop a bit..cz jing n mi realli v tired le =p..den went for e game..haha i realli wanna tired dao peng le la..dunno why today so tired..haha den warm up de time i v nua..den later came e rim spoilt thingy..den coach was asking if we shuld postpone e game etc ma..den i also dunno..they discuss den i jus no yi jian (opinion) la..haha so in e end we jus played..n it was like so anyhow jiu ok play..i realli nt warm up yet..but haha yeah..i m glad we played..n won..61-47..haha yeah thank you home =P..haha n yah la..mus thank lots of ppl today..my family , n gan die.gan ma n c mei..n ah yi.ah duin n yi song..den moi..van..employe for her brownie..pres..mei..buddy n ah sam..haha realli thanks lots thou i also dunno why =P ! n yeah..e win made my nite =P..hee jia u home ! den went for dinner n now haha i m hm..jus wanna blog down this 2 beautiful day !

hao la..take gd care every1 ! byee..

i read e msg be4 e game today..
it was sent so long ago..
i changed e team n read on..
i told myself to fight hard..
jus for e v last sentence that u once msg-ed mi..
i teared..
shou hou xing..


][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.my guardian angel.][
][.where r u?.][
][.disappeared into e thin air ?.][

][.sayang.][

][.sayang.][

i like this pic..
sayang..
bei teng de gan jue..
wo xiang mei ge ren dou xi huan ba..
ni xi huan ma ?..
wo xi huan..=)
*random*



Have you ever felt like you knew someone a long, long time ago
Another place, another time, a friendship of the souls?
Two people who share a bond for reasons neither know,
A feeling that they were friends, a long, long time ago?
Did they stumble onto each other by pure circumstance,
Or was it fate and destiny that played a certain hand?
Two souls intertwined, they are worlds apart
But the soul, it knows no difference, in matters of the heart.
Somehow they are drawn together, fate has brought them back,
Each living worlds apart, they journey separate paths.
When this life is over, and a new life begins,
Their souls will find each other, two souls that we call friends.

=>provided by auntie joy lame si ren..haha i tink its very nice..so jus wanna share n hope u like it too..

haha here's another one..also v nice ! haha i tink v nice la..

some things we will never understand why.
why do tears fall when sadness reigned
why do smiles shine out when happiness soars
why somehow.
i met you.

like a blazing lonestar on a moonsoaked night.
you came along and brought all that light.
when all seemed dark and the road seemed long
you spread your wings round me and i could go on.

sometimes it seems it was all meant to be.
the word 'coincidence' was not for you and me.
my time here ceases day by day
but dreams of many tomorrows together keeps the faith.

i never knew why it was meant to be.
i dont question why it was meant to be.
i just know it was meant to be.
being friends, you and me, was meant to be.

haha hao la..end of random-ness..take gd care every1 ! byee..



][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.guardian angel.][

][.hao xiang zhe yang kao zhe ni.][

][.hao xiang zhe yang kao zhe ni.][

bloggy..
i haf no idea wad i m blogging..
or wad i wanna blog..

i jus woke up from my nap..
cz today walked from mj to pasir ris park..
realli tiring n i wonder how i did it..

haha mus be becoz got companion ba (fungi)..
today is a nice slacked day..
so nice n slack that i do feel a little guilty now..
but wadever..
at least i enjoyed my day..

still feeling a little sleepy now..
but..
can't get back to slp..

i m jus typing on n on..
hao la..
stop here..

take gd care every1 !
bye..

*i went to e beach today*
..i wrote ya name in e sand..
..but e wind blew it away..
..e waves washed it away..

but no worries..
ya name is engraved in my heart..
n kept dere..
always..

~hugz~

][.FEarless.][
][.npo.][
][.15.][
][.guardian angel.where r u?.][