][.yuan fen yi jing.][

][.yuan fen yi jing.][

do u believe in fate?..
i do..
maybe like wad my mummy says..
sumtimes when fate is over btw ppl..its jus over..

i dunno..
but all i freaking feel nw is..
sum ppl are jus nt meant to be in ya life..
or rather..
u jus ain't suppose to be in that person's life..

i dunno la..
feeling lousy over all these shit..
wadever it is..it is..

anyway..jus wanna say thanks to wen..
when every1 change (including mi)..u r e onli one that stilll makes mi feel like everything will be ok..thanks..hao la..end here le..nt realli in e mood to blog nw..v tired..gg off to thai tml..take gd care every1..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.off for 6 days le.bye.][

][.hearts can't lie.][

][.hearts can't lie.][

hearts can't lie..
at least mine can't..
e mind try to psycho it..
but e heart will remain e same..
e same ans..e same mind..e same thoughts..e same mi..

not in e best of mood..
not in e worst of mood..
its jus not feeling gd..
wanna say it out loud..
yet i dunno wad to say..
or how shuld i say..

deres so much jus so much that i wanna tell u..
but yet when i see u..
i dunno how shuld i tell u..
even when i dun see u..
deres jus so much i wanna tell u..
but i haf no idea how..
so i jus keep everything to myself..

i m afraid..
after so much that had happened this yr..
i m afraid..
afraid of how things change..
how weak things n ppl can be..
how fragile a heart can be..
be careful..
it will break..

if there's backspace..
allow mi to return back to e past..
n re-live that moments..
enjoy e happiness..
i hate myself for wanting to go back to e past once and again..
but sumtimes i realli yearn for e simple moments..
e moments so happy..

take away my jealousy..
take away my negativity..
let mi be happy with wad i haf..
n nv to expect anymore frm u..

one is trying hard to salvage
while another is pushing mi bac to wad everything used to be..
sorry to one..dunno wad to do with another..
maybe i shuld jus leave n everything will be jus gd..
but i can't..so i leave it to time..
maybe slowly..
gradually..
i will learn to live as wad i shuld be..


ps. i m contented with my life..n ignore my craps..

alright..shall end here.. take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.maybe its jus a moment of foolishness.][

][.wei zhi.][

][.wei zhi.][

ni zai wo xin li zhan le zhe ge wei zhi..cai neng dui ni tou lou suo you xin shi..
[ u stand a certain(impt) place in my heart..thats why i can tell u all my problems]

wo zai ni xin li you duo shao wei zhi..zhi you ni ji zi jui neng gou jie shi..
[how much place do i stand in your heart?..i tink only u can explain..]

haha thats how i feel nw..and its li sheng jie song de lyrcis..so jus blog down ba..aw..another qn..why is it that ppl expect n noes sumthings will happen but yet do nth to stop it frm happening?..isn't it an irony?..thats wad i do at times too..haiz..

aw..hmm wuld u say.."always remember" or "never forget"?..

hao la..end here le..bye..

ps. i realli dun und myself..=

][.FEarless.][
][.u matters lots.][

][.u haf to endure e rain if u wan e rainbow.][

][.u haf to endure e rain if u wan e rainbow.][

sum1 once told mi this..
u wan e rainbow?
endure e rain 1st..

i tink its v encouraging n nice..so i always try to tell myself that..but these few days..every1 ard mi seems to be so troubled..like..every1 is v e u noe..bu kai xin..yah la..at least those ard mi..those that matters lots to mi..dou nt happy..i tink all those that matters to mi de ren de guardian angels go on a hol tgt le =P if thats realli e case..guardian angels men..pls enjoy ya hols n cum bac asap to protect my dear ones pls pls pls x infinity !!

hmm i realli pray..pray that all ard mi will be happy..n things will go smoothly for em..n of cz..mummy will get well soon ! e best is NOW !!..n all n each n every1 to be happy n may all e troubles go away !! pls pls pls..guardian angel pls! fairy god mother pls !

dear fairy god mother..pls bless all my dear ones with gd health..happiness n troubles free !..thanks x infinity !

hao la..end here le..take gd gd gd care every1 ! byee..

ps. happy thoughts do help =D

][.FEarless.][
][.still waiting for my guardian angel.][

][.sumtimes,i jus dun und myself.][

][.sumtimes,i jus dun und myself.][

why is it that ppl always dunno how to appreciate those that realli care for em..
why is that e person u care most for wun be the person that care most abt u ?..
maybe thats life ba..
there will be sum1 that care most abt u..
similarly..there will be sum1 that u care most abt..
but it will be a diff person..
maybe..
at least thats how i feel now..
ignore mi..

haha aw..ytr n today was gd..watched endless movie n endless food..thanks wen =) n i m so FAT now..gained 10+ kg..i swear i m gg on a diet..so pls help to stop mi if i eat yeah..thanks !

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1..i wanna go watch love on diet le..tml mus start to mug hard le..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.sumtimes i wish i can ignore everything.][

][.wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren shen huo.][

][.wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren shen huo.][

haha today de blog title is how i m feeling nowadays ba..translation = i tink i can get used to living all by myself..

haha that song is kinda of stucked to my head nowadays..maybe thats how i m feeling now ba..stayed at hm e whole of today n watched Er Zuo Ju Zi Wen=>" It started with a kiss"..haha sumthing like that la..n yeah i kan wan le ! wahaha =D ya da! haha Bi sheng bi sheng ! gambate ! hee..ok..qingzi v high..so make mi v high too..haha zi shu also v nice..haha all in all its a nice show..n i jus eat non-stop today la..omg..gg to be so darn fat..

aw..thats nt e main pt la..haha sh say i blog onli a few sentence..haha paiseh la..sumtimes e moment over le..e gan jue to blog wun be so strong le ba..aw..feeling quite a bit now..a levels is over..congrats to all e yr2s..but that seems to symbolise sum new start or wadsoever..i dunno..but thats how i m feeling now..or rather nowadays =P..

was toking to wen abt it that day..haha wen say it all takes e effort to maintain all e relations..thats v true..but sum changes can't be helped isn't it =P haha i dunno la..feeling lost once again..wake up! wake up! hee i guess i jus gotta get past this..hee another stage of my life..xing xing ba ! jia u ba ! hao la..end here le..wanna go watch chong shang yun xiao le =P..hee n find that song de lyrics =D..hee take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.lla uoy ssim lliw i.][

][.why is it so.][

][.why is it so.][

so many ??? in my mind..
no ans to the endless qns..
or rather i m escaping from all e ans..
if i culd..
i wanna hui dao guo qu..
go back to e day when things were so normal n so gd..
i m realli sorry..
i can't forget all that u had say..
everytime when i see u..
i will recap e moments when those words were said..
n i m sorry..
i can't forget as u asked mi to..
n hence i can't..
can't be friends like wad we used to be..


thats a msg dedicated to a friend..n i haf no i dea if u will c this or not..but yup..thanks for all that u had done for mi..=) i do appreciate..

aw..here's another one..
time jus pass so fast..
sumtimes i realli hope that it will slow down..
so that i can have more time to spend with my love ones..
n be dere for em..
n rmb every single moment..
every moment..

haha hao la..end here le..tc every1! byee...=P

][.FEarless.][
][.i miss u.][

][.chong xin kai shi.][

][.chong xin kai shi.][

haha yup..e title of today's blog = restart..starting from the scratch once again..thats my new motto..=) went bac to ahs to play bball ytr n learnt so much more again..haha was a v happy day..but i shall jus blog abt my insights n reflection (I&R) ooo..PW =p..haha jkjk..yup..shall jus blog abt e main pts..cz gotta go out soon..

aw yah..went bac to ahs n play..n played like shit..literally shit..was put down by male coach like nobody's business..n jus as sh has said..i m becoming less receptive..n i tink its v true as i tink bac..haha i tink that's wad had changed after undergoing all those scoldings in VJ ba..like rong say..u will get immune and used to coach's scoldings de..haha maybe its so immune that i practically shut everything off n can't stand scoldings..but..haha i shall start to listen to all these valuable scoldings again..esp my male and female coach de..=)..

yeah..going bac to ahs to play again nxt sat..shall rmb wad male coach told mi ytr n try to improve on it so that at least by nxt sat he wun be so angry =p..n of cz for my own gd..haha as for myself..i realli gotta improve..haha "its not that i like to win..its jus that i hate to lose"..haha..yup..so lets jia u ba! chong xin kai shi ! chong xin nu li de lian qiu ! chong xin kuai le de xiang shou lian qiu de le qu !..

haha shi de..i wanna chong xin kai shi..same for my life..this had been a total screwed up yr ! shall not screw futhur more =P..haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.restart.][
][.on a journey to find my old self.][

][.i am a fortunate kid.][

][.i am a fortunate kid.][

a simple msg that touches my heart n warms my day..
when things go wrong..
all i tink of is that few special angels..

had a screwed day with OP..
but wads over is over..
shall be positive n cont to haf faith jus as wad U told mi..=)

no matter how ugly the world may seem to be..
i dun care..
or rather can't care anymore..
its too much..

so all i can say is..
thanks for being there..
that special few..=)
U told mi u r fortunate..
so am i =)..
love u all so..

][.FEarless.][
][.isolation.][