][.looking back.][

][.looking back.][

my mp3 died on mi today.
it's 10 more days to it's 2yrs anniversary.
haha i wuld rmb it cz 2yrs ago cz tt day was such a mixture of emotions =]
n my beloved n faithful mp3, i will miss u so =[

aw was reading thur e past post.
haha hmm n discovered jus how much i depended on my idol then.
n how distance we r now =P
haha not tt we had been close.
but compare the present to e past.
haha..i was realli a kid then.
so childish n dependent.

haha not that i m not now.
but it's jus.
haha people cum n go.
friends enter n leave.
sum ppl r jus meant to be short term, while some r for a lifetime.
whatever it is, jus wanna thank all those that..
enter..
changed..
n saved themselves in my M (memories) drive forever =]

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.06A13.][

][.06A13.][

today is such a wonderful n happy day!
it's been quite long since e whole day seem to be submerged in such a happy mood!
soo...i MUST blog abt it! =D

haha today's blog is specially dedicated to my beloved class -06A13! haha
farewell assembly was..haha nt too bad nt too gd..no tears but jus a little of..haha yah..
den received fungi's msg..n smiles!
haha after which..for e 1st time (and last time) we did a mass dance tgt! n haha woohoo..it's realli v wen xin..haha 1st time tt i so much wanna do mass dance n nt simply run away from it =P opps!
haha after which..dere's this special CT session n dere starts our mass pic taking session which took everything n anything for like 2hrs plus? haha n we went to an "art exhibit" haha it's cool shit..n realli v impressed and admire those tt take art..haha esp MATONG! haha n of cz eunice n chaoxu too..it's so impressive dudes..=P

haha o yah..back to e photo taking session which was so tiring n fun..i tink in tt 2++ hrs, we took enff pics to last for e 2 yrs..haha n after which went to raffles city..heh n guess wad..met wen dere! haha wad a pleasant encounter..haha n wen ni de ren bu hui hao ah =P thanks for e potato salad tt u shi she gei wo =P haha ok..bac to my class! heh we jus sat by e "fountain" n ate like junks? haha my fav calarmaries! yummy yummy yum yum! n i saw cute babies! o mian..babies r jus so cute n innocent..tt's e reason why i love em! haha nt becoz i wanna kidnap em la kids =P den took a few pics be4 gg to e mrt..haha culd nt join e others to go kino le..cz tt wuld cause jing to wait super duper long..haha so off i go w zhaoey..n heh chatted abt our pw grp, e class etc..haha it's jus pure happiness =]

haha after tt went to meet jing be4 cuming hm n gg to study again..haha after which wanted to go play basketball..but din get to..cz IRRITATING PPL KICK SOCCER AT THE BASKETBALL COURT! haha tt's e onli thing tt kind of irritate my day..but humph! nt realli irritated la..jus dun like tt kind of ppl! haha aw jing did a super brave thing..haha jing hor? =P

n now i m back home..woohoo! haha in conclusion..today is a HAPPY DAY!
thanks to..
06A13!
Fungi!
Jing!
Wen!
haha e simple things tt made mi smile for e day!
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.smile.][

][.goodbye.][

][.goodbye.][

wooo hooo..dunno wad struck mi..but haha
a big smile is plastered over my face now.
i tink i finally see the light.
i tink i finally understand.
we r jus too extreme to be friends.
too different.
too hard.
thanks for allowing mi to see all these.
thanks for all e wonderful memories.
from this very moment onwards,
i declare..
i m ready to let go.
n dere goes e card.
goodbye to our friendship.
jus hope e nxt time we meet (if we ever do) it wuld be a situation whereby each leads their own happy life. =] zhu fu ni!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.pain,no more.][

][.it struck mi.][

][.it stuck mi.][

haf to credit this to mamajan..she tinks it's beautiful..
i tink this following "passage" is super beautiful n meaningful..
so dun care if she wuld piak be for e copyright..but jus wanna share it..

There comes a point in life when you realise
who matters, who never did, who won't anymore
and who always will.
So don't worry about people from your past;
there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

during this period of mugging and detachment,
when everything n every1 seem so far.
when u jus feel like breaking down many a times.
when special friend leave ya life n u try to adapt to it,
when memories of e past yr flashes past e mind.
it all boils down to a wow.

wow at how time realli files.
n how things changed.
tml is gg to be graduation ceremony.
n i tink i wuld realli miss my class -06A13!
quote mr sayers :" we r e best class."
nt in terms of results, but in terms of e ppl in it.
despite e distinct cliques, there's always nt much of a prob to inter clique, esp this yr.
n onli this yr did this happen.
short but better than nv..
i wuld nv forget it =]

despite all e changes,
parting and all,
sumthings will always remain unchange.
faithful as ever.
i believe.

thanks to all e friends that stood by mi all these yrs. realli v grateful to u guys.

forever5
- wen: u r e best n always will be!somethings r more than words can say. =P
- jing: i m more thankful than anything tt u hang in..cz if nt i wuld haf lost a wonderful friend in u! thanks esp during these days =]
-moi: thou we r no longer like wad we r in e past n thou we culd nv ever be friends like wad we used to be..i jus wanna say, thanks for all that u had done in e past, u r realli 1 tt go all out for ya friends. jus rmb not to be too reckless in e future, u haf my well-wishes,always.
-fungi:u wuld always be my lifetime friend no matter wad. fight hard for ya aims, i believe in u n will always support u..n i m thankful for e friend i found in u..n hope tt u wuld nt be angry w mi anymore =[

llz-wow! 2yrs..sooo fast it's gg to be 2yrs..i guess like wad u said, i zhang da le..but haha i nv do feel tt i zhang da le in ya presence =P thanks for always being dere n hear mi rant n advice n guide mi..i m thankful to haf found a friend in u! quote u: "u r e best thing that came out of e trip" *big smiles*

n to all those special ones that seem sooo far in my life now..eg, ah rum,employer n da 1031..i jus wanna say..thanks for e wonderful memories that u all had brought to my life during my j1 period. every now n then when i walk ard in sch, i wuld still tink of all e times we spent tgt doing stupid stuffs..esp to da 1031, memories jus flood back like a dam without a barrier..it's an end, n i sincerly zhu fu ni..zhen xin de zhu fu ni,u were my special friend n wuld always remain as part of e memories. =]

hao la..end here le..tt was jus another random post..these days r jus so random. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i wuld keep e memories safe.][

][.n i feel better.][

][.n i feel better.][

with the voice over e phone,
e tears stop,
n e smile reappear.
thanks for e comfort, my best friend.

i shuld stop tinking abt all these. =]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.i can't stop it.][

][.i can't stop it.][

after so many days of telling myself that if i m unhappy,
that's only my own fault,
there's no1 i can blame.

if i m sad,
that's my own fault,
becoz it's me who allow myself to be sad.

but at this v moment,
i can't take it anymore,
n tears fell.

i feel like my communication system is breaking down.
why is it that whatever msg that i wanna convey,
it would always end up e other way?

2 person that matters to mi,
n yet when i try to get e msg across,
i jus failed,
n e wrong idea is given.

both of the cards to em lay there lying in my files for days.
to e 1st one,
my heart sank, n i tink it's time to give up after ur persistent refusal to reply.
it's not ya fault,
i noe it's mine.
i noe it's becoz of my words.
i knew that it was gg to hurt to lose a friend in you.
i knew that u wuld nv be e 1 to salvage.
however, this is e 1st time tt u refuse to respond no matter how i try to salvage.
maybe that's e best way out.
many moments when my thoughts drift away,
when memories appear, i wuld jus stone for a moment.
i do regret.
but maybe that's meant to be.
maybe we r too different to be best of friends.
allow mi to stone n tink abt e past.
when i m completely ready to let go,
i would cut e card n throw it away.
but for now, let mi keep e tinge of hope n keep it in my file.
n u will always be my special friend.

to e 2nd one,
i m sorry.
e card is still lay there lying in my file n brought ard w mi everywhere.
there r many things i dun und.
but i tink tt's jus my stupid-ness that caused mi to tink so much.
do u noe why i wanna meet u tt day to get back my file?
that's becoz i wanna pass u sumthing.but i din get e chance.
sorry.
but to e 2nd special friend,
rest assured, e card wuld always lay there lying in my file till e day u r free to meet mi.
n i m sorry if i hurted u in any way.

n tears cont to fall n blur my vision.
i nd a shoulder to lean on now.
i m tired.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n it hurts.][

][.happiness.][

][.happiness.][

no1 has e ability to make u unhappy.
if u r unhappy,
u r e 1 tt is making urself unhappy.
dun blame others. =]

if u r able to find a reason to be sad abt.
why nt find one to be happy over?

end here le..there's this disparity and this distance btw us that i can't bear to let u noe..jus wanna say..u will always haf my best wishes..mo mo de zhu fu ni..=]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.wu nai.][
][.ni bu ming bai.][

][.emo period.][

][.emo period.][

sighs..mugging period are such a gd time for emo-ing.[jing, agree?.]
it's weird, but it feels super empty.
n super lonely.
it's like u are all alone in this battle.
feels so..sighs.

but nbm..shall jus HIT!
we will brave this tgt!

n is it fate?
we wun meet tml.
n does tt mean i shuld nt hand u e card?
i guess so.
sighs.its over?

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sumtimes, i jus hope u can be here.][

][.drifted.][

][.drifted.][

sentences r too long.
let e words + pic summarize my day.

1) drifted.distance.sighs.
2) HIT [Hang In There; HIT by reality]
3) disgruntle; dun und e changing worlds n e eroding morals [but everything has its reason n i shall nt rant abt it further =]]

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.look up, so tt e tears wun fall.][

][.maybe, it's time to let go.][

][.maybe, it's time to let go.][

remembered reading that onli those ppl that haf no courage would blame a failure of something on fate.
if that's realli true, den i m e one with no courage ba.
fatalistic n boring. [tt wuld describe mi]
maybe our friendship was onli meant to be shortlived, if this is realli e case, jus wanna say -you'll always be my very special friend. =]tc.

that was jus random thoughts again.take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.guo wang de hui yi, wo hui hao hao zhen xi.][

][.dependence.][

][.dependence.][

i realli dun like e feeling of waiting.
especially when u haf no idea wad u r waiting for.
sighs.
if there's realli guardian angel, wuld u be here for mi now?

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i nd to learn to be independent.][

][.sometimes,somethings.][

][.sometimes,somethings.][

sometimes, there's jus somethings that i can never understand.

had a great chat on e phone till e wee hrs.
n many memories jus came to my mind.
be4 i fell asleep, i remembered whispering to myself..don't i jus miss those days? sighs.

another thing i cannot und.
but like u said, i shuld nt be bothered by such tiny little stuffs.
sighs.
jus wanna say, lucky u was dere to hear mi. thanks my old great pal.

n sumtimes, i jus dun understand myself.

take gd care every1! byee.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.wanna run away.][

][.mixed emotions.][

][.mixed emotions.][

sometimes..there's jus no words that could describe how u feel. =]

no matter wad happened..once my friend..forever my friend..=]
it's time to plan n start!
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.it's time.][

][.thankful.][

][.thankful.][

kind of lots of things happened during e past few days..
post prelims had been kind of fun..n i realli pei fu those ppl that take art! n i guess after mon i realli haf got to settle down jia u le! last lap!!!

aw..shopping can realli tire u out man..that's why at times i prefer joggin than shopping..(unless it's for stuffs that i like!)..haha aw today is a fun day..got to eat my calamaris! n eat sweets etc w no xing xiang ke yan! haha n e noobs who nv got further than TM..n getting lost at marina square..wad a noob =P

den bac to thurs..chuck n larry was funny..esp e ring..a ring..is a circle..haha ignore mi..but if u go n watch e movie..u will get wad i mean la..haha thou we r extreme poles..but i jus wanna say..u will always be my special friend =]

den fri..haha been a looong time since i get to play basketball that way le..=] thanks for letting mi play under e stars..it's jus a diff feelin when u play at nite n sweat a little n allow e steam to go..=]

hao la..end here le! n 23/9..haha quite a few ppl's bday! happy bday to all..n esp my beloved bro who is sleeping on my bed n leaving no space for mi! but still wanna wish him a super happy bday! n thanks for being so nice n forgiving to mi! haha *hugs* take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cong shang tian.][

][.wad does time means to u?.][

][.wad does time means to u?.][

today's blog is i copy n paste from auntie joy's blog de..found it realli meaningful..so ahem..nv ask for patent jiu copy n paste le =P psps ah..haha aw i read it n found it realli meaningful n true..hope u will und n like it as much as i do =]

The Best Expression of Love is Time

the importance of things can be measured by how much time we are willing to invest in them. The more time you give to something, the more you reveal its importance and value to you.

TIme is your most precious gift because you only have a set amount of it. You can make more money but you cant make more time. When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back. Your time is your life. Thats why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time.

The essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others but how much we give of ourselves. To your loved ones, nothing can take the place of your eyes, your ears, your time, your attention, your presence, your focus - your time.

Love concentrates so intently on another that you forget yourself at that moment. Attention says "i value you enough to give you my most precious asset - my time". Whenever you give your time, youre making a sacrifice, and sacrifice is the essence of love.
-The Purpose-Driven Life by Rick Warren-

haha hao la..jus wanna share it..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.if onli we could.][

][.things running thur my mind.][

][.things running thur my mind.][

when i said things running thur my mind..
i meant in both literally n haha nt literally..(dunno how to express myself)..
aw many things haf been going thur my mind these few weeks..esp with the lonely mugging sessions n e few moments of spacing out..hah..u wuld be amazed by how ur mind drift off to these things subconciously..=P

haha lots haf been gg thur my mind..but a few pertinent ones in particular..basketball n human relations..=]

basketball =]
haha this had realli been going thur my mind like every moment tt my mind drift off to sumthing =X..e struggle of whether to cont playing competitive basketball or jus play for e joy and fun of e game..=] started playing it becoz of them..forever5..those were e carefree days where title meant nth..where getting 3rd/4th placing is already sumthing to rejoice over =] those were e simple n happy days..those days tt u played n enjoyed e game =]

den sec sch..it were e days which i learnt e real game n respect it..those were e days which basketball seems to be indispensible n taught mi lots..those were e days when life revolves ard basketball =P..frm water gal to sum1 who got a chance to play..to sum1 who nv wanted to get bac to e sec1's feeling..those were e days..when winning title was sumthing tt's like a mus n when nat champs were an aim right frm e start..those were e days when u start to hold on to e desire to win..n when losing is more painful than be4..those were e days..realli learnt a lot and grew..=]

nxt up was jc..haha these 2 yrs( can include e last part of sec4 life too) were realli full of ups n downs..realli many moments of wanting to give up..when hard work meant nth n when e reality spam in e face tt talent is realli sumthing tt is needed n sumthing tt i dun haf..all those down moments realli made playing basketball least joyful as be4..j1 was e down valley..but it tot mi lots too..j2 was slightly better..everything of my teenage life w regards to basketball ended in close to perfect mode..w a smile =]

n here i m..no longer hafing e chance to play youthcup etc anymore..n 1 qn sparks my train of thoughts n made mi reflect lots..after 6yrs of hafing to play with the need to retain e title..when champs was e necessary thing..when winning no longer bring as much joy while losing brought so much tears n heart break..when u no longer play carefree-ly n happily..when u haf to seek constant improvement in order to get e chance..when u trained so hard tt injuries jus keep befriending u..when..when..haha so many ?..dun deny e joy tt i gained frm those titles thou..=]

however..this period of stepping away from basketball n into studying mode realli made mi tot abt lots..would i be able to dedicate as much effort and time into playing n training for basketball again? tt realli takes a lot of passion..choosin btw constant improvement n a chance to play a finals..vs a chance to play e happy game..w ppl who realli had e passion..which wuld be ur choice? haha i realli dunno wads mine nw..dere's always pros n cons..n to a libra..everything is balanced..i wuld jus wait for As to be over be4 i make my choice ba..wadever it is..i m thankful for e gift tt basketball brought to my life =]

human relations =]
haha ok..tt's another pertinent issue gg thur my mind especially during this lonely mugging period for prelims..realli made mi c thur lots of things..n determine sumthings..it's realli hard to maintain a relationship..in this case i meant friendship..u nd constant care n concern..e nd to haf both hands clapping..u nd to..haha it takes efforts dude..a constant effort by onli 1 party is nv enff ;p during this period when u mug n feel like dying..sum msgs realli brings a smile to ur face n made u feel tt u ain't alone in this fight..thanks llz =] while sum ppl r those tt u instantly turn to when u felt like u had screwed up n nd sum1 dere for u..thanks wen,thanks jing,thanks fungi! n wen..u this childish shit..stop suan-ing mi w vinegar la! =P n sumtimes sum ppl..u jus can't help it but drift apart due to e work..shi yi zhong wu nai..but aw..after this period of reflections..i tink i noe who r e ones tt matters n cares most le ba =] wo hui hao hao zhen xi zhe suo you de yi qie..xie xie ni men! in particular xiexie ni..wo de hao peng you =]

hao la..i dunno why dere's this acute pain in my heart n stomache nw..but shugs..haha so haf to end here le..a bit tired also..aw did i mention tt Ai Qing Mo Fa Shi has been making mi look forward to fri nw! cz youtube still can't find e complete links..haha n i like e song! mi gong! =D it's by 7duo hua..free de hua go check it out ba ;p take gd care every1!byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i wanna be dere.][

][.thankful for e gift.][

][.thankful for e gift.][

A friend is sum1 u turn to when u feel u have no place to go..
but a true friend is sum1 u stop to when u have a million places to be..and yet you want to see how they are..

A friend is sum1 who tells u that it will be ok..
a true friend reminds u that sum days..e sky can be blue..

-ashely rice-

n i smiled.
thankful for this ship. =]
我只能说，有你真好。

我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远。

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.friendship.][

][.friendship.][

friendship?
it's when i shed a tear
n u r always dere to catch it..
and turn it into a smile..=]

thou i nv told u..
but i jus wanna let u noe..
you ni zhen hao =]
xie xie ni!

few days of prelims had passed..
had an equal share of ups n downs..
today realli sux..
when it end i realli felt like crying..
sighs..

but thankfully..dere's always lifetime friend =]

hao la..shall go do my maths le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i wanna be dere.][

][.fight it.][

][.fight it.][

in a few hrs time..
i m gg to take my 1st prelims exams..
can't say i m prepared for this exam..(cz there's tons more)
but all i wuld say is..
i wuld fight it w all i can =]

take gd care n jia u every1! fight on!

i m thankful for e gift! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.conFEdence.][

][.miss.][

][.miss.][

when all u do is eat n study n stone..
after all e "rush hours"..
e body jus felt like shooting some hoops..
jing..i wanna tou tou lan ji tml! dun care le XP

when e life becum a standard routine..
dun u jus miss e gd old times..
but lets jia u n make this period a meaningful 1..=]

after slacking n nt trng for so long..
i noe tt i m gg to be a worse shooter than be4..
n i truly m..
cz i mus be a bad shooter to be missing..! =P

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i'm nt missing u.][

][.n i smiled.][

][.n i smiled.][

when i feel tt i can't go on.
u guys made mi smile.
n let mi noe tt..
together we will =]

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.process.][

][.process.][

i m dead.
nv ever gg to make it for prelims.
but shall nt give up for e big one.

michael jordan - when u see a wall, dun turn ard n walk away! think of a way to get over it =]

o n yah..933 roxz! haha e onli faitful companion =P

take gd care every1! byee..

p/s: n tears realli lighten e burden a little.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][

][.too scary to be true.][

][.too scary to be true.][

haha tt's jus a random title..
aw realli dead beat nw..
super duper tired..
mac cafe turned out to be a pri reunion..haha kind of funny..=P

aw..haha studyin makes one mad..
dun believe..ask jing =P
i drank my bnj =X
haha aw take gd care every1!
byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.hang in dere.][

][.daze.][

][.daze.][

jus glad tt everything is ok.
glad tt everything is gg on fine.
thankful for all tt i haf.
feeling..restless.
got my dream hp like finally.
but feel so bad for abandoning e old one =X
haha life goes on no matter wad goes wrong.

thanks for e help llz!
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sumthings are meant to be.][

][。纪念日。][

][。纪念日。][

这是我们的纪念日，
纪念我们开始对自己诚实。

放下了原有的倔强，
拿起了手机，慰问许久没联络的你。。
得到的是疲惫的回复。

字迹中，我能感觉你的不快乐与疲惫。
责怪自己没进朋友应有的 “责任”。
没在你不快乐时陪伴你。。

但也不经意的有点难过。
为何你不快乐时没向我发泄，
为何你。。

我不知道你是如何看待我们之间的友情，
但对我而言，朋友是应该互相扶持，互相依赖的。
像我的好友所说的-“好朋友就是要一起度过苦与乐，香与臭的".


random-ness again =] take gd care every1!bye..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.passer-by.][

][。叹息。][

][。叹息。][

最近总会莫名的叹息。
总会突然之间感觉很彷徨，很累。
感谢出现在我生命中的好友。

其实人与人之间的感情真的蛮难维系的。
很多独处的时刻，
我都会在想你过的好吗？
但却又不懂该如何谓问你。

许多时后，拿起手机后又选择放下。
很想问候你，却又觉得随着时间的流失，
我们的距离仿佛远了。
比起从前，现在的我们真的疏远了吧。

记得我们曾经说过的。
我想这就是我们当初所说的疏远吧。
我不知道自己究竟为何倔强。。
或许是我对一些人的要求太高了吧。

好啦，发泄完毕。
想对这几位特别的人说声谢谢.

wen: xie xie ni! although u always beat mi n bully mi n say i fat n still say u v nice to mi..i still wanna say thank you to u! thanks for letting mi stay over n study at ur hse..thou we nv realli study dao =P but e food realli made mi..happy n FAT! haha thanks u lame shit!thanks for always knowing how i feel..thanks for saying tt u understand..but nxt time pls beat my left hand =P

jing: xie xie ni! haha thanks for everything..thanks for letting mi noe tt i m nt alone..i m realli glad for more than words can say..n dun worry..wad u missed out on for e past yrs..i guess we r getting it bac nw =]

forever5: 13179

llz: xie xie ni! thanks for allowing mi to rant! thanks for always being dere to lend a listening ear! =D pls take care!! wear goggles! cya!

end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.too many maybe(s).][

][.if onli i culd.][

][.if onli i culd.][

it rained e whole day.
n i stayed hm e whole day for e 1st official day of e study break.
jus another day.
nt till i flipped thur my photo album.
n this thought jus came thur my mind..
if onli i culd..
yes wen..u r right..i care..

if onli i culd..
i realli wanna go bac to e past..
i wanna erase everything..
i wuld nv ever ever wanna get to noe this person..

if onli i culd..
i wuld nv wanna things to turn out this way..
sighs..

if onli i can turn e time bac to 3-4 yrs ago..
i wuld make sure tt i nv knew e existence of this person..

i nv told any1..
but yes..
u nv noe how much i dread myself for causing all these now..
n i looked at e pics..
n i hoped tt those moments nv happened..
if burning those pics n moments wuld change e situation nw..
i wuld..=]

while thinking abt all these..
another random thought came out..
n yeah..
we r jus too "busy" to even drop by to say hi to one another yah..
sighs..
how things change w time..
i hate these..

but thankfully..
there're special things n affinity tt dun..
thanks for all these special ones..=]
我把最珍贵的回忆深深的埋藏在心底的最深处。
把最灿烂和纯真的照片好好的放在皮夹里。
把最珍惜的这段友情紧握在手心里。
然后默默的祈祷，让这一切永远如此吧。

hao la..take gd care every1!
bye..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.13179.][

][.peak.][

][.peak.][

if dere's sumthing known as guardian angel..
wuld he/she appear right now?
sighs..
pressure n stress wuld nv reach an all time high till e time is running out..
tml is my 1st prelims paper = gp =]
not realli anticipating it..
neither m i prepared for it..
but..
jus nd to blog n vent off sum of e stress =X

gd thing for e day was meeting fungi on e bus n hafing both breakfast n dinner w my dearest family =]

tt realli made my day better apart from drowning myself in gp at Mc cafe at downtown n mus thank tricia for e subway cookie! =] i m realli thankful tt tml is gp n nt any other subject..if nt i wuld jus col (cry out loud)..n reading articles r realli fun n nice esp when there r many funny facts n things gg ard in e world eg in Dahomey, a girl is most attractive if she is fat =P ..but trying to haf my own opinion regarding capital punishment etc realli got mi into lots of thinking n headache =X
so at e end of e day..realli felt saturated..n dere's so much more tt i haven read thur..sighs..

haha alrite..i can foresee tt my 2 wks starting frm tml wuld be super iNtErEsTiNg w studying plans tt i had nv ever endured be4..but i shall try to enjoy it =P..

all by myself..tt's exactly how i feel now..
still remembered tt it was a yr ago when we were at e pasar malam hafing durian e day be4 u guys de gp..n now..
it's my turn..
all by myself..
jus gotta be strong n pull thur this!

jia u every1! take gd care n press on! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][

][.dark.][

][.dark.][


if life was a graph.
i m at e min pt now.
slapped hard in e face by reality.
all along i was e 1 daydreaming.
its time to wake up n give my best.
jus do it!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.lifetime friend.][
][.tt's wad we shall be.][

][.mix n match.][

][.mix and match.][

everything happen for a reason.
if dere's sumthing unhappy,
sumthing happy wuld cum along to neutralise it =]

jia u every1!
everything will be over soon.
hang in dere..
n stars r realli beautiful.
scenery nv fails to make my day =]

end here le..
take gd care every1!
bye..

p/s: mug like a mug..lol jing XP
][.10.fe.15.][
][.if onli.][

][.Secret.][

][.Secret.][

today is another slacked day.
met llz in e noon for maths n super gd happy buys!
went to watched Secret w forever5 after that.
haha thou fungi nv join us for movie.
but she was nice enff to wait for e movie to end n go dinner tgt w us =]

haha e movie is quite nice.
it's been quite long since i watched movies tt i like le.
i mean.
my type of movie =]

haha aw that movie made mi tot a little.
n i asked jing, what wuld she wan if she was given a chance to go bac to e past?
e ans touched mi.
as for mine?
haha it's bu neng shuo de mi mi. =P

aw..i asked fungi e same qn too.
n i tink her ans was v gd n true too. =]
everything is gd as it is now.

there's no backspace in life.
if life was a keyboard, we wuld onli enter n go forward.
no backwards n backspace.
n jus as i haf always believed.
everything happened for a reason.
wadever tt is now.
jus let it be.
wadever tt is gone n lost.
jus let it be.

jus wanna say.
i m v thankful for all that i haf now =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.enter.][

][.time flies.][

][.time flies.][

i m guilty.
guilty for not doing revision n lazing ard online.
but be4 i go.
jus wanna blog a little.

jus read Times regarding how Princess Diana transformed Britain.
n there's onli 1 thing i can say.
admirable.

10 yrs bac when i was 8.
i remember vividly that i stood by the tv and witness her funeral.
it was so sad.
it was so sad even thou i knew nothing much abt her then.

now, as i look back..
i understand why was Britain's customary stoicism overwhelmed by raw, unbridled grief.
sumthing in particular caught my attention when i was reading it.
there was once Princess Diana visited a center for the blind.
n there was this person weeping.
Princes Diana asked him why..n he said 'I can't see you.'
So she took his hand and put it on her face.

she is really admirable.
n dere was this comment in e article.
By dying young, Diana ensured her immortality. Better dead than wrinkled.
hmm..do u agree with it? =]

yups..i noe that's quite random..but haha jus tot of how i stood by e tv n teared 10 yrs bac..n wow..time realli flies..=]

watched bao jia wei guo n laughed..it's realli my onli joy for e day nw =P too bad it's ending on mon..haha aw decided to pick up e phone n phone e great old lame shit..haha dunno why e sudden choice..but i guess that's jus instinct ba..n i wuld nv forget an email that i once read..
"There's no need for a reason to call and chat with a friend" thanks for everything lame shit! =]

n haha..suddenly jus wanna say..i hope all of u are still doing well! (to those tt i haven met for sum time =]) n llz..thanks for ur help! haha

end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.friends for life.][

][.自己.][

][.自己.][

有好多好多的话想对你说。

但最终却没说出口。

如果要我从今天拍的照片中选出最能表达我的心情的，

应该就是。。

一个人生活..独立或孤独?

][.10.fe.15.][

][.speechless.][

][.speechless.][

are there moments whereby u feel so tired n speechless?
not exactly unhappy but jus dun feel like talking?
if dere's a moment like that..
i guess tt's how i m feeling nw ba..
jus wanna talk to e great old pal..

take gd care every1..byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.status: stoning.][

][.belief.][

][.belief.][

took quite a lot of random shots today..

thought abt quite a few things today..

today is jus another day spent nt studying..

but today is yet another special day..

e 1st thing i saw as i stepped out of my hse..isn't it beautiful? =]

sum random pics tt i took on e way to e 36's bus stop =]

e yummy munchy doughnuts tt sh brought mi to buy =P n doughtnuts shop r like springing out everywhere nw =P

haha so yups..tt's jus sum pics tt i took today n realli like it..=] i realli love taking pics..esp scenery..n in e process..i learned sumthing..if u wanna do sumthing..jus do it! there's no time for any 2nd thoughts..cz..e moment tt u hesitate etc..e sun might had set, e clouds might haf shifted..n e moment tt u wanna capture down is gone..n u will nv find it bac again..so..jus do it! wadever u wanna do..dun hesitate! =]

n yups..another thing tt i felt today is..u realli cannot ignore e wonders of fate..sumthings r jus not meant to be..believe mi..every1 wish to feel loved..n cared..no1 like the feeling of being neglected n taken for granted..so pls nv ever take things for granted..ppl dun haf to do e things tt they do for u..=] so if possible..say thanks n let ur friend noe how grateful u r to em..=]

n indeed i m realli v grateful..wasn't feeling exactly wonderful ytr..but after e chat w my bestest friend..i realli felt so much better..like yes..sum1 understand how i feel..like yar..tt's exactly how i feel..thanks so much for listening..thanks so much for everything..i m realli grateful tt i found u n of cz forever5..n thou u always say we can't live without u..n we always say u v bhb..but tt's v true =] thanks heaven for letting u be in my life =] n pls take gd care of yaself!

another thought tt i had was..it takes 2 hands to clap..that holds even in friendship..if 1 hand always take e other for granted n throw temper at e other frequently..how do u tink e other hand wuld feel? many a times i felt tt i wuld nv give up n nv allow this hand to get hurt..but nw..after so many things tt had happened recently..i tink it's realli fate..maybe sum ppl jus can't be friends forever..n i wuld leave it to fate..maybe it's becoz i had been spoilt by e others n hence sumtimes i jus can't accept e way u treat mi..cz tt's nt e friendship tt i had been exposed to..maybe its mi..maybe its u..maybe its jus tt they r too gd..i dunno..wadever it is..if one day i ever walk away from u..n i noe tt u wun do anything to stop everything..i jus wanna say..thanks for letting mi learn n grow..n thanks for e short n sweet memories..for now..i wuld jus let everything cont..but from today..i wuld nv allow myself to be hurt by everything anymore..=]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..n c..tt's always e case when i cum hm early..= nt doing work! sighs..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.learn to cherish be4 u wanna be cherished.][

][.think.][

][.think.][

hmm..e 5days nat break is gg to be over soon..n it's so depressing!
sighs..aw these 5 days ain't too bad..
haha slacked n rest for 1 day =P
spent a fruitful day w forever5 =]
spent 2 days coping myself up at e fav corner of pasir ris lib =]
n spent e last day w trng n w a tinge of nostalgia =]

hmm realli v glad n thankful for many things in my life..realli..was talking to mummy today..n felt realli v fortunate to haf forever5 w mi..thou sumthings change regarding my relationship w one of em..but it makes mi cherish e friendship even more..(ahem nt tt i dun in e past ;p) but yah..jus feel tt we can't take certain things for granted..=] i love u guys! thanks for everything that u guys had d0ne for e decade =] e times tt we spent tgt are always so relaxed n filled w joy..e moments when u wuld do stupid things and act like a 8 yr old when u r already 18 =P these r e kind of things tt i wuld nv haf e chance to do w e others..this is wad made em always so special =] lifetime friends..thats wad we wuld be =D

apart from em..there's still others tt u met as u grew..those tt guided u n were dere for u..realli thankful for all of em too..1031,llz,employer,ah rum..w special thanks to 1031 n llz..to 1031..thou ur temper is realli quite bad..but thanks for tolerating my bad temper too =P..haha thanks for everything tt u had done for mi =]..n to llz..u r e onli gd thing tt happened in u18..thanks for always knowing e right words n always being dere to give mi e con-fe-dence to fight on! thanks so so so much =] realli thankful to these ppl for guiding mi..=]

also v thanful to all those friends tt i haf met then n now..ahs, vj and alj.kem basketball team mates n friends! as well as concourse kids! thanks for being in my life =]

hmm haha i din start of thinking tt i wanna post n blog abt all these..but my hand went across e keyboard n these words of thanks jus appeared on e screen..haha realli thanks so much to every1 for everything..=]

aw..yah..was talking abt e 5 days hols..hmm today's trng n ytr's 9 mins jog realli made mi feel that sumtimes realli li bu chong xin..it's nt tt u dun wan to..its jus tt ur actions can't coordinate w ur mind..it's been so long tt i jogged n played basketball..n for a split sec..i tot..maybe i wun wanna play anymore..haha tt's jus for a split sec..but no1 wuld noes wad wuld happen in e future..cz if not for forever5..i wuld nt haf joined tt game..=]

n i took out my ruan n played a few songs..haha missed those days which i practice hard for syf too..maybe i wuld pick it up again afterAs ba..=]

n haha..sumtimes dun we jus miss so so so much n get so so so tired over sumthings..if dere is such a moment..i m feeling such nw..a sense of nostalgia n lost..n sumtimes i mus admit tt i love isolation too..being alone n think abt stuffs..haha every1 need a moment alone isn't it? if u nv haf..try to haf a moment all to urself ba =]

hao la..end here le..n if u r nt feeling too happy nw..listen to ->living next door to alice by smokie ba..haha nowadays whenever i feel v tired n stone..i wuld listen to tt song n e catchy tempo wuld make u nod n shake for a few moments like an idiot..haha jkjk..quite nice..listen to it ba =] (it got sad lyrics thou =P)

take gd care every1! byee...

][.10.fe.15.][
][.a promise is a promise.][
][.we wuld go for another celebration.][

][.finally.][

][.finally.][

一切总算到了一段落。
回到了过去。
我只能说，谢谢老天给我的一切。=]

当梦想与现实遇到彼此时，
你会选择哪一个呢？
勇敢追随梦想。。
还是放弃梦想，踏实的面对现实呢?

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.food.][

][.food.][

haha food nv fails to make my day!

this yr's celebration was realli diff from all e others..love e food!

but i miss e sing along sessions in sec sch..n e days in pri sch when u dress up for e occasion XP..

haha realli do..

but here's sum pics for memo..(been posting quite lots of pics nowadays..cz..haha dunno XP)

haha e lame n quite cool de "opening ceremony" =D

that's e satays! =D

haha that's e prata! (mamajan i was taking e food..nt u! haha so cannot kill me =P)

haha my hand! e last time i made this was during either sec2 or sec4's racial harmony =P

hmm today is quite a gd day?..haha i dunno..everyday is a mixture nw..=]

Will I always be there for you

When the tears get near your eyes

Will I be the one that's by your side

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night

Will i keep the rain from fallin down into your life

I promise, I promise I promise I will

Take your darkest night

And make it bright for you

Will I be there to make you strong

And to lean on

When this world has turned so cold

Will I be the one that's there to hold

i used to made a promise to protect all those tt matters to mi..

but it seems like i failed this time..sorry

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..looking forward to tml =]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.every song reminds mi of everything.][

][.journey.][

][.journey.][

life is a journey.

w diff memories at diff pt of time.

went bac to pasir ris pri to watch sing s'pore today.

n wow..dun we miss e times?..

haha i can't deny how much i can't help but drift into so many diff memories..

pri sch..

sec sch..

jc1..

n i can't stop e pain..

but thankful enff..there's also sumthing to make my day =]

monkey w yummy! this realli made my day =]

glow for me..wuld u?..i seems ok..but it's nt ok at all..sighs..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.i dun even noe why i do e things i do.][

][.thanks.][

][.thanks.][

thanks for listening.
thanks for accepting.
thanks for everything.

take gd care every1! byee..n if u haf mi lu bing's -> shi ying..do send mi! thanks lots =]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.stone.][

][.stone.][

listened to e same song over n over again..
hybernate at e library right after sch..
every moment tt i m not doing work..
i wuld recall abt e harsh words tt i said to u..
i wuld regret it..
sighs..
it's been so long since we realli talked..
ytr was e day..
n yet i ruin it..
i m sorry..
i realli m..
i realli wanna let u rant abt all e probs tt u faced in work recently..
but..
i dunno wad went wrong w mi..
was realli angry tt u made mi wait for nth..
realli was..n hence threw my temper..
cz i believe u wuld too..
haiz..if onli i held it bac as always..
is dis revenge?..
heaven's punishment to me for treating sum1 else this way?..
i guess it is...
n it hurts..
but wad shuld i do?..
i dunno..
i realli dunno wad to say..
jus let me stone..=[

n once again..thanks llz..e random msges despite u being so tired is realli appreciated..=] as always..u made mi smile at e hp after stoning at it for so long..hoping for a impossible reply..=

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n a tear fell.][

][.thanks.][

][.thanks.][

jus wanna say thanks to sum1 special =]
thanks for always being dere.
thanks for always knowing e right words to comfort mi.
thanks for giving mi e constant boost of con-fe-dence.
thanks so much for everything. =]

as u embark on ur new journey.
i jus wanna say.
jia u and all e best!
take care old pig! =P

spent my whole day brooding n stoning over it.
guessed its time to get on w my work.
i m sorry.
tc.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.fate.][

][.fool.][

][.fool.][

maybe it's e pressure.
maybe it's mi being emo.
maybe.

but i jus can't stop e tears.
tml is econs test.
but i haf no mood for it at all.

i feel like a fool.
throwing temper at u.
den apologising to u for it.

i realli feel like a fool.
why do i always try to salvage e situation after worsening it.

switched off my hp.
cz i tink i m realli tired.
tired of myself being such a fool.

hate myself for being so bad tempered.
why.
hate it.

n mi lu bing's songs are so sad.
v suited for nw.

i need to stop being a fool.
no more tears.

take gd care every1!
bye.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.这些眼泪我无所谓.][

][.alone.][

][.alone.][

nw i wanna shut my hp n try to shut myself from e world.
but i can't.
maybe i shuld soon.

can't get e thoughts arranged properly.
e last thing tt i ever wanna is to hurt em.
how much i hope tt sumthings had never ever happened.
so that it wun hurt so much nw.

end here le.
take gd care every1!
bye.

][.10.fe.15.][

][。独处。][

][。独处。][

有时对着这世界，
对这人世间的种种，
真得很累。

独处的时光相反的更轻松。
让思绪冷静下来，
让心情平复，
好好的享受那瞬间的平静。

现在的我，
只希望能有力量熬过这一切。
只希望我在乎的人都快乐。
只希望守候天使会出现。
只希望你会在这时候出现。

真的怀念过往的一切。
真的。

][.10.fe.15.][

][.serious.][

][.serious.][

for e past wks..it has been ASSays after ASSays..sbqs after sbqs..no time to think abt lots of things..onli stress here n dere n frustrations at being unable to start on my revision etc etc..

however for today..no work on my mind..jus wanna sort out my thoughts n ask myself wad i realli wan in my life..=]

haha went for career fair..hmm it was jus a yr ago when they were still ard n dragged us along telling us to start planning..however..apart from lol-ing at em n getting freebies..i did not tot much..haha tot abt taking up journalism's scholarship thou..that's like e onli thing tt i gave serious thoughts about?..haha

aw went for career fair again today..went for moe's talk..den caas talk..n walked ard n get e stuffs..haha matong say we went "shopping"..lol..aw hmm e moe talk did realli made mi feel like getting out of my comfort zone to be a teacher..den e jornalism scholarship tt i had been thinking abt..haha this n that..actually top3 tt i realli considered n wanna is..teaching? journalism? social work?..

but..on e way bac hm n up till now as i flip thur e brochures etc etc..i tink..i realli wanna be..wanna be a social worker..haha..hmm i hope i can make it la..=] shall let e blog note down my dream =P

ok..end here le! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i tink tt's wad i wanna be.][

][.eye opener.][

][.eye opener.][

haha realli v tired..

but jus wanna post sum pics to rmb a day..

wad an eye opener!

is how i could summarize everything in 1 sentence =]

haha tt's e beautiful "sunrise" taken while i was on e big big truck Xp n e cute basketball candies tt i bought on sat =P

shades of blue..haha taken be4 e storm! =X

random pic taken while stoning by e stone table n chair w jocelyn! haha nice ma? =D i like =P

we saw lots of cute dogs! haha n this is one of em! so furry n nice =D

haha random pic of xinying, jocelyn n mi! we love e spray! =D

this is supposed to be VJC made using h2o bottles..but no matter wad..we can't get a bird's eye view..so haha..

haha my shoes! love it! but after being soaked in mud n w e soles all gone n a hole on e right one..mummy decided to throw it away..= so..jus a pic to commerate it..it's my special pair =D u will be missed! =]

haha jus a msg for all n myself - COME ON! YOU CAN MAKE IT! jia u! haha

ok! end here le..officially dead tired..n wen..thanks for letting us stay over! =D take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.time.][

][.S for?.][

][.S for?.][

heh heh..S for subways..
S for smiles!
dun u jus feel so happy when those tt matters to u r happy too? =D

aw..did quite a lot of unexpected things today =P
1) went bac to ahs n sat in e canteen n stadium while waiting for c mei to go bac tgt..haha met mr chan n zheng lao shi..haha quite nice to see em n chat w em even if it's for a little moment..=]
den went to e stadium n saw sum jnrs playing dere..haha in uni..sounds familiar isn't it? felt a sudden urge to play..but din la..haha nt a sudden urge..but i miss playing it..=[ aw..went bac w c mei after tt..haha seeing her in her uni..n wow..tt's my little god sis tt had grew up..chatting w her on e way bac has been nice (as always)..haha n we wanted to run tgt in e evening de..but due to e weather..we called it off..haha

2) came bac hm n ate n chatted w daddy, mummy n bickered w didi (as always =P)..den slept till 7 ( too tired la..wanted to wake up at 6 de)..haha aw 7 le..so was wondering if i shuld still go on w my plan to run n do subway delieveries! haha in e end..my spare big tyre urged mi to..so i did..wore my jacket cz i nd to put stuffs n it was realli cold n drizzling..haha ran frm hm to downtown east..n wow..it was quite fast de..took mi ard 8 mins..haha faster than e waiting time n travelling time of e bus! =P..aw was like quite tired after tt de la =P stamina cmi le..but decided tt i shuld run a little more..so got my 12 subway cookies frm e super funny n nice "guy" den ran to ws..haha luckily it was a short one..if nt i wuld look like an idiot running w a subway plastic bag =P..went on to my subs delivery after tt =P..hee too bad jing was nt at hm..so jus left it dere..den went to c mei's hse..haha glad tt she enjoyed it..hee tt's why i love surprises..cz i like e stunned smile =P jkjk..aw got dinner for ourselves n came hm after tt be4 meeting fungi n "deliver" e subs..haha

feels realli gd to run..although i ran for onli ard 10 mins..but..haha enjoyed it..walking was also nice..although no stars..but i can feel it too..it's always dere isn't it =P + got my mp3 to pei wo..haha perfect! feels so gd..haha ran n walked ard pasir ris for an hr or so..n i mus say..try walking at times..it's faster than waiting for bus n travelling..haha but of cz tt onli holds for short dist la =P..felt so relaxed n refresh after e running n walkin..woohoo! wonderful! haha i m feeling happy nw..hee simple de happiness..thanks to subway n smiles for de-stressing mi! haha n subway cookies reminded mi tt i still owe sum1 tt =P..hmm haha wanna drop u a msg..but scared u tink i too random = stress again..so decided nt to..=P

n o yah..my mummy can be so lame..i asked her to try e oatmeal raisin cookie told her oat is mai (chi for oat)..n she was like..of cz u mai (buy) de la..if nt drop frm e sky o?! i was like =_=" mummy..nt funny..n she said..whey laugh leh..i say de leh..ha ha ha..e kiddy side of an adult..n u can't help loving em ya =D love my family..love my friends..love my life..thanks for everything! =D

haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.when i c u smile.][
][.i can do anything.][

][.hang on.][

][.hang on.][

life is challenging..
but..hang on dere..
everything will be alrite ya?..
if u wan e rainbow..
u gotta endure e rain..
cliche?
but i like..
n i enjoy rainy days..
so..hang on ppl!
n hang on me!

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.ASSays.][

][.ASSays.][

if this madness goes on.

i m gg

1) fat

2) mad

fat becoz this overdosage of overwhelming amt of ASSays due which left mi w no time to do my revision is stressing mi beyond wad u can imagine. n hence there's chocs = my best friend these days! n haha endless food food food..n e tyre is out le la =[

mad cz..this is madness..nv felt so tire out be4..eee agrh..rahs!!

ok..hist down..gpS to go..sighs..n off i go to my madness..bye..take care every1!

][.10.fe.15.][

][.moments.][

][.moments.][

there are many special moments in life.

cz every moment is special.

is there a moment tt u wuld nv forget? =]

there r many moments tt i wun.

running in e rain was nice.

love e rain.

it calms mi.

it makes mi think.

afternoon n evening w "$ sucker" jkjk.

w an old nice pal is nice,

as always.

n i conclude.

i m mre productive studying outside.

hafin a gd laugh over a tv show nv fails to destress mi =]

ok..off i go! to work hard for my subway cookies tt mamajan had generously offered to motivate mi to do my work! =D hee thanks mamajan! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.make mi smile.][

][.shadows.][

][.shadows.][



went to get my fav choc waffles from loyang pt ( sudden craving)..
got sum chips..
n got myself an i-weekly mag..
been sum time since i bought such mag le..
spent an hr or so indulging in my food n digressing w all e juicy entertainment news..
relaxed e tensed up n tiring mi..
n i m realli glad i got a copy of it..
cz there's a para written by bryan wong regarding pictures of shadows..
n wow..i realli agree w it..jus wanna share w u la..=]

很多事情不用说得太白，就像低调含蓄的影子，就比脸部表情更有意境。观察久了， 你会发现除了笑容和眼神，肢体语言一样能表达快乐和悲伤。

alrite..shall end here le..=] take gd care every1! n today..i feel tt life is...challenging =] byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][

][.life is...][

][.life is ...][

if given this blank to be filled up..
wad wuld your ans be?..
mine is..tiring..
life is tiring..

been a wk since all commitments ended n it's time to get down to serious work..
hasn't been able to keep up w my plans or rather haven been able to get started w it..
jus finished doing my 1st hist sbq nt too long ago..hmm spent 2 full days doing it..sat reading thur e notes n dozing off..n whole of sun afternoon to do it..wow n i m supposed to onli spent an hr on it..=X

hmm aw..sbq down n over..but there's still lit, econs, maths n endless tons of hw to be done..sighs..dun even haf time for revision..shugs..if i say i m nt stressed up..i mus be kidding u..however i jus hate to resign to e fact tt all these stress are too much..nv felt it be4..

but nbm..its ok..no matter how bad it is..jus gotta pull thur it rite? =] things can't be any worse..i hope i pray i..haha whatever it is..life goes on..jia u ba every poor soul out dere who are suffering e same fate as mi! =]

aw..jus for laugh (my bro's monitress told him this)
an apple a day keeps the doctor away..
however if e doctor is handsome, throw e apple away!
*lol*

hao la..end here le..can't wait for dinner be4 i get bac to all these shit again =P food roxz! but weight dun! =X

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be here for mi,wuld u?.][

][.Brother Bear 2.][

][.Brother Bear 2.][

slept till 11 plus this morning..haha haf no idea how did i managed to slp for sooo long..but aw it felt gd..=]

had lunch while watching Brother Bear 2..woo hoo..haha it's kinda touching n e northern lights are so so so nice..i m gg to go to e place w northern lights sum day! haha

aw..e songs r realli nice too..n jus wanna post e lyrics of 1 of e 3 songs.. =]

It Will Be Me..

If you hear a voice in the middle of the night
Saying it will be alright
It will be me
If you feel a hand guiding you along
When the path seems wrong
It will be me
There is no mountain that I can't climb
For you I would swim through the rivers of time
As you go your way and I go mine
A light will shine
And it will be me..

If there is a key that goes to your heart
A special part
It will be me
If you need a friend
Call out to the wind
To hold you again
It will be me
Oh how the world seems so unfair
Creating a love that cannot be shared
As you go your way and I go mine
A light will shine
And it will be me..

Past the ever after there's a place for two
In your tears of laughter
I'll be there for you

In the sun and the moon
In the land and the sea
Look all around you
It will be me..

There is no mountain that I can't climb
For you I swim through the rivers of time
As you go your way and I go mine
A light will shine
And it will be me
It will be me
It will be me...

haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.i'll be dere.][

][.i'll be dere.][

happened to came to this site n like these..

I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay."- Dave Matthews Band
"
"Let me be the one you call If you jump, I will break your fall, lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart, I can mend a broken heart, If you need to crash, then crash and burn, you're not alone" -Crash and Burn by Savage Garden -

haha tt's exactly wad i wanna say..=]
就是要宠你宠你宠上了天
天堂整个搬到你眼前!

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.for u.][

][.exhausted.][

][.exhausted.][

i dunno why m i so tired when dere's like no more trngs etc..
haha jus super tired..
everyday after i cum hm from sch i feel like collapsing n sleep till i shuag..
realli v tired..

aw.. i tink my eyesight nt too gd le..dunno why also..
haf a bu xiang de yu gan tt i may nd specs soon..
no pls no..
aw jus wanna blog..
cz i heard e zhang yu hua song tt i haf always wanted to listen to it once more since p6..
hee nv knew e title nt even till today..
but it is jus so happy to get to listen to it once again..

hao la..end here le..
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.not panicking yet.][

][.nothing beats sharing a moment tgt w em.][

][.nothing beats sharing a moment tgt w em.][

haf been questioning where my guardian angel is nowadays..

hasn't been feeling too happy due to being sick n lousy results etc..

however..

i tink i found my "guardian angels" tonite..

they nv fail to make mi laugh n smile from e bottom of my heart..

e simple n sweet moments shared tgt..

doing "corrective work order" under e stars..

singing the familiar song "Di Yi Shi Jian" together once again..

n i wonder..

are we realli 18 or turning 18 soon?

it's almost a decade..

but things remained unchanged =]

n i love em so! <3

happy 18 moi!

take gd care every1! byee...

][.10.fe.15.][

][.headache.][

][.headache.][

back from school!
thankful tt i was able to deter e drowsy effect of e medicine n tried my best to listen during lessons..
but..nw tt i m bac..
i m feeling e terrible headache all over again..
it's realli hard nt to be stressed when others are scoring all e A B Cs while i m here strugglin to pass..
it's realli nt positive at all..
thou many wuld tell mi that it's ok..
u wuld work ur way up..
i m realli thankful for all these ppl who keep my hopes alive..
but yet at e same time..
i can't sink into self denial n tell myself tt it's ok..
coz..all these ain't ok at all..
n my head is exploding..
be it e SBQ or e results or everything..
agrh..
alright..i shall stop ranting n get sum rest be4 my head explodes..n pardon mi for all these rantings yeah..sorry..

ok..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sum1 pls watch over mi.][

][.an end to youth.][

][.an end to youth.][

haha currently i m bloggin while others are having their lit tutorial..hmm yup..my 1st time pon-ing sch n staying hm..haha feeling rather floaty nw..dunno how to say but shuld be e drowsy effect of medication ba..went to c e doc ytr..waited for damm long..but e doc is nice n gd la..gt 2 days mc..so decided to realli stay hm n rest today..or rather..forced to stay hm by e drowsy medicine..=X aw..yups..jus wondering where's my guardian angel nowadays?..=P

hao la..shall stop ranting abt it..aw today's blog is to draw "an end to youth"..haha i meant playin basketball as a youth..sun was e last youth cup..glad tt it was quite a gd ending..=] hmm thur out these yrs playing youth cups..although onli played for 3 yrs (as i can rmb)..there has been ups n downs..but it sumhow taught mi lots of things..=]

2005

haha hmm..sec4 played under combine white..hmm nt much of a memory how was it like..but i knew tt i went in without e hope n expectation of being able to play much..cz..haha tt's my 1st ever time in combine n it's already an honour..so nt much of a qi wang to play..jus went in w e mindset of doing my best for every sec tt i was given..=] yups..so ended e youth cup w a 2nd placing..haha losin to combine red..=P but nt too bad too..an experience was gained..=]

2006

hmm den j1..haha i declare 2006 as my down down period in basketball..can't play well even in normal games against jc tt are of average standards..got benched..got endless scoldings frm coach..n e weak mi culd nt take it man..haha e lousy pok mi..but luckily at e end i managed to brace up a little w snr's, llz n da 1031's encouragements..haha after e turmoil of e A divn being kicked out of u18..i was met w another blow of nt getting into combine schs..haha it's jus a sucky feeling..but after a while..i jus haf to admit tt maybe i was jus lousier than others..haha but dere's always this small part of mi tt still can't take it lying down..struggling so hard..n even questioning myself..wanted to jus nt play youth cup for tt yr..cz alj also dun haf enff ppl to form a team..it was realli..haha a period of struggles..but i was glad tt i played..=]

thankfully cindy coach was dere to help mi find a team..i still rmb e nite when she broke e news to mi..my tears tt jus fell out uncontrollably..n told mi tt she wuld get mi a team to play in..n tt e coaches dun appreciate mi..but it's ok..so i ended up trng n playing w home u for youth cup..it was realli quite an enjoyable experience..started out being scared n found myself unable to click w those tt are older than mi by a yr..however thanks to elica n coach liling n all e friendly team mates dere..i finally was able to play w e team well..it was realli quite fun de..haha it was also den tt i regained bac e confidence tt i lost by getting e trust n dependancy tt i had nv felt be4..in addition to all these..coach cindy n lqjl came down for sum of e matches..n checked out how i m doing now and then..realli v grateful to them..as well as my alj team mates..n da 1031 who came down too =D..as well as my whole family for cuming down to support..haha i wuld nv forget e day which my whole family, da 1031, ah rum n employer came down to support..=] and of cz llz who gave mi my constant boost of confidence..haha realli v thankful to so many ppl! hence although 2006 is e down down period in basketball..it was e up up period whereby i discovered e love n warmth of so many ppl..it was realli a memorable yr thou we din managed to get past e 1st round..but it was realli unforgettable..=]

2007

haha den 2007..my last youth cup..hmm trained n realli wanted so much to play w alj kem..din even thought of getting into combines cz was always nt playing e main 5 in e initial part of A div..thankful for llz who was dere to tell mi tt main5 dun matter..wad matters is e contribution to e team for every sec tt i m on court..thankful to tt..i held on n was able to perform quite ok during A div..so was realli trng hard w alj kem..n was given e precious chance to be e captain of alj kem..hmm when i was given tt post..i realli wanted so much to train hard tgt w e team n tgt w them win e champs..cz they r realli a gd bunch of players..however ren suan bu ru tian suan..i got into combines..was realli thankful cz it is sumhow a kind of affirmation..however at e same time..it strips mi of e post of being kem's captain n at e same time unable to play for kem for 3 youth cups tt i had played..quite a pity..dere was a little struggle here n dere..however i noe tt if i din get in..i may start to doubt myself again..yups aw thankful for everything tt i haf got in 2007..went down to support kem w liying whenever we culd..n many a times cheering tgt for em =] so..2007 is quite a gd n beautiful ending to everything ba..got champs for both A div n milo cup! ended of w a champion title for both! wad more can i ask for?..but wadever it is..i m still thankful to kem n llz as well as my family who gave mi e support thur out all these games =]

haha to end of..jus sum pics for memories..=]

sheng zhong woosh! go vj! haha 6 yrs..so fast..we haf been playing tgt for 6 yrs! thanks for all these wonderful memories n teaching as well as guiding mi so much in e game! thanks to both of u! u gals r realli deserving of e mvps! =D thanks soOoO much!!

haha hao la..end here le..e drowsy effect is realli gettting hold of mi..jus wanna thank so many ppl for all e wonderful memories! take gd care every1! drink mre water! byee..

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][.wonderful memories.][

][.transformers.][

][.transformers.][

there's more than meet the eyes. =]

haha throat is hurting.
saved mi from e fats of popcorns.
loved e oldies played at e start of e show.
loved bumble bee n e leader(which i culd nt catch his name).
admire e bravery n courage of those standing at e frontline.
loved e beautiful sunset.
loved e companion.=]
got myself another bk from cecelia ahern - A place called here!
hope it wuld be as nice as all e others!
thanks for another nice day. =]
get well soon fungi!
n o yah..i met e old blind lady again..she's brave =]

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.chocs.][

][.chocs.][

i guess chocs n gd companion realli has e effect of cheering sum1 up ba! =]
these few days haf been a mixture of feelings.
stunned at another shitified grade of my own doings.=[
however at e same time.
a sense of warmth n love of friendship.
chatted w llz till wee hours in e morning on msn was gd. =]
(thou i was laming n leng-ing) but it was realli nice.xiexie ni!
watching harry potter n shopping ard at vivo was nice too.
thou was realli tired out by e burden of my bag.
but still thanks for everything lin lao fern.=]
guessed i gotta go bathe n get started on my work soon!
coz meeting e pigs for a movie later.
haha can't wait for it =]

3 things to =] n 1 thing to =[ so i guess..life isn't tt bad afterall ba..=]

hao la..take gd care every1! jia u lo! if ur life suxz nw..it can't get any worst! =]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.be strong.][

][.be strong.][



knee is hurting like nobody business now..
ms tan says tt's becoz i din wear shoe n did skipping on e hard grd which is bad for e knee..
shugs..realli regretted it..haha



aw..got e prelims time table..
n got bac my int hist results..
it's..haha kinda disappointing..



felt realli tired tt i jus collasped on my bed..
n slept without e fan..
practically in an "oven"..



woke up n went for a run..
i love running..
cz it helps to take ya mind of loads..
haha..



n now i m bac home..
n my heart feels a little tired..
but it got perked up when i saw this..
coz the race is all about believing in yourself. i dream i can run like the wind and be strong when my <3>



haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..n yah..tml is fri e 13..do take care huh! byee..

i pray for a nice tml =D



][.10.fe.15.][

][.deception.][

][.deception.][

for e past 2 days or so..e same song has been repeating over n over again on my mp3..it's jay's
Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi..不能说的秘密..haha been quite sum time since i repeat a song over n over again..n whenever i do tt..dere's onli a few reasons..1 being it's realli nice..another being i m feeling realli..haha shitty..

slept at 9plus ytr nite..was realli tired..had friendly w e teachers but can't even get myself to warm up properly..realli tired..guessed maybe it's been a long time since i play for so many consec days ba..fri,sat,sun n mon..woohoo..can't take it..haha maybe it's physical tired-ness..maybe it's mental fatigue..i dunno..got bac my maths results ytr..wow..a wonderful U..i kinda expected it..but yet at e same time..it jus ain't feeling too gd la..like u practice over n over again..yet u get this kind of shitty results..my conclusion is..it's jus not enff..n it's realli scary..sighs..aw wad struck mi e most was..i walked past a sci class n i saw ppl scoring like 80+? tt's like A while i m like a U..n while A lvls is like a wow 3 mths away?..tell mi tt i dun feel like dying..felt so shitified..yups..but ytr was nt tt bad la..it was jus..sighs..

so today..tues..wow it's e tues bad stomache day..had diarrhoea again..sianz..aw despite loads of slp e previous day..i felt so so tired today..yups..aw lessons were ok..haha din haf much of a lesson aw..haha llz came to help mi w maths after tt! haha thanks loads n loads! haha 2 mre mths..i jus hope to do maths everyday..haha jkjk..but yups..maths get fun when u noe how to do..but it gets real bad when u r lost..=\

hmm aw i was saying abt repeating e song over n over again..haha n 1 line in particular nv fails to haf an image pop out in my mind whenever i listen to it..你用你的指尖 阻止我说再见..haha i dunno how u feel..but i felt tt it was realli sad..cz i always rmb this line..再见是留给会再见的人..想必你应该明白我的意识吧。。阻止那人说再见是因为-不会再见了。。

haha ok..enough of crapping..off i go..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.nice.][

][.nice.07.07.07][

today is relatively a nice day..
rushed out despite e heavy downpour..to go for e last session of coaching..haha went for nice breakfast be4 tt..den for e 1st time in my life..i bought 12 subways cookies at one go! haha lol thou in e end i onli ate 2 =P..but haha shall note this down..*random-ness*

den after tt went for coaching de time..haha suffered 2 scratches..one on each hand..n loads of free itchy er xin wen zi de bites..haha after dropping cindy coach n yaqi at nyp..got another ride from lqjl bac to lor ah soo..hmm talked to jl abt a subject tt i tot wasnt realli appropriate..but yet i jus felt like i can't dun care abt it..but yups..jus like wad jl say..hope tt things wuld turn out as expected la..haha amber lights =P

aw went bac to ahs to play after tt..was waiting for fungi at e mrt be4 walking up w wen n her..haha along e way we were boastin to wen abt our 5mins reach sch de ability..cz we wanted to slim down den..haha n den lame lame stuffs..aw we reached le..den saw sh's msg..haha lol dun worry we will go de..hee yups..watched e jnrs trained a little..den play w em..haha n i tink we play w clean outdoor courts for v long le..so felt tt e court was like realli dusty? haha at least i felt tt la..ok..after tt play e game..haha onli 4 of us..so plus clara..o mian..my stamina is failing mi la..aw..yah..was trying to stop 1 of ting yi's fast break n i felt my shoulder or hand jerked backwards..was like super ouch..jus sat dere n din wan to move..clutching on to it..i can't tell u how afraid i was at tt moment..jus v scared wad if it dun jerk bac..den how to play..haha din felt so scared be4..but luckily..after a while..it came bac to normal..but still a sharp pain..so din realli dare to move it..but aw..yah..haha jus v thankful tt at least it came bac..hee after tt went to 85 w sh n wen n coaches!..haha ate like a pig..partially thanks to wen who always can't finish her food nowadays ;p haha jkjk..

aw it was home sweet home after tt..haha ate dinner w mummy n didi AgaIn! haha..aw woohoo..today is e 1st time tt i saw didi unable to finish a packet of chicken rice! haha reason being..mummy bought him char siew rice in e morning..den daddy knowing tt he loves chicken rice..bought him chicken rice for lunch..n mi..great minds think alike..bought him chicken rice for dinner too! wahaha so e poor didi was like..1st time ever => har?! why chicken rice again..nxt wk i dun wan le la..haha" den after tt brought him to econs to get sum stuffs be4 cuming home to bake cheesecake w mummy! haha mummy is realli so much patient than mi la..she made dao v xi xin while i jus agar agar =P haha den we asked e poor didi who wanted to help us to help us by keeping himself quiet =x haha e poor boy..aw after cake baking session..talked to mummy for a while regarding how glad i m tt i played basketball..n those zhu tous..haha it's always nice talking to mummy when she's in e right mood..haha =P

and now i m bloggin..haha quite tired le..tink gg to rest ltr..haha aw hope tt every1 wuld be happy! esp those tt matters to mi..love e smile on ur faces..but as always..i can be dere to c e down side yeah..n yah..today i realli feel tt..sumtimes it's better not to haf any expectations..cz when u haf expectations n it's reached..u wuld tink..it's sumthing tt shuld be..but when it's nt..u wuld b v disappointed n sad..so..it's better nt to haf expectation..=]

haha hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

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][。混乱。][

][。混乱。][

最近的心情总是特别的混乱或复杂。
可以在这一刻非常快乐，
却又能在瞬间内变得非常的奇怪。。
说不出口的不舒服。。

啊！受不了这样的自己。。
有时真的真的很讨厌这样的自己。。
好啦，现在有点累了。。
晚安！

我要变得更强。
因为我不想输。。

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][.无可取代.][

][.无可取代.][

today is a mixture of everything..

haha both happy n .. haha i dunno a mixtures of feelings..

started out quite grouchy in e morning due to e lack of sleep ytr nite..

but i noe tt everthing wuld be worth it in e end..=D

haha aw..morning was grouchy n sleepy..jus dun feel like doing anything..
in addition to tt..my super clever hp black out w no reason..so sianz by it la..

but at e same time i love it..becoz of e camera! haha..

den quite dunno how to describe de feeling de..

11 reached den tot of llz who wuld be facing e op soon..

ooo hooo..jus prayed tt everything wuld go on smoothly..

n thank so much, it did!

llz jia u! speedy recovery huh!!

after tt was e end of e short day in sch..

rushed down to pp to meet wen..

haha went to look for jing's stuff..

but ended up looking for wen's green shirt which sparked our shopping mood..

haha w mi ending up w a shorts tt i quite like de..n wen w a collar tee..

5/7/07..2:50PM..e 1st time in a decade tt we went shopping for clothes tgt =P

haha a moment worth remembering =P

haha aw we got jing's stuff in e end la..

haha moon river n braclet..

sooo tired by e end of e whole shopping..

haha came hm instead of gg to wen's hse..

cz i wanna get a shirt to pei my new shorts..haha

rested a while be4 rushing out to meet e others to embark on our plan!

haha supposed to reach e palace by 7:30pm de..

but due to e "hey jing!" msgs we past e princess hour! haha

aw made our way dere n cont to plan plan..

haha every1 was so jing zhang..

fungi jing zhang w her video cam-ing..
all jing zhang n hoping tt everything goes on smoothly..

haha n yeah man..

Di Yi Shi Jian + "To us, you are special"..

haha think it was quite successful ba!

thou e bday song was not sang on cue..

n dere was xiao chang..

but overall..it was quite..

haha i dunno..

went to ws's xing wang for dinner after tt..haha

n we r gd influences of each another! =P

after dinner we started our pic taking time again..

haha n as usual..

its taking every little thing be4 taking us..haha

den it was time for home sweet home..

n dere goes tan tan wong chee chee bac to their homes..

but be4 tt..

e lame but traditional sms-ing..

haha..Happy Birthday Jing !

haha poor fungi hafing to send "!"..haha

aw gotcha our reply..but dere was no spare camera to take down e msges..so haf to save it 1st..

haha after tt took 3 hm w fungi..

haha w a happy happy mood..

to me, they r jus so special!

thanks for making my day!

haha yups! tt's my day of mixtures which ended off w a sweet n happy nite! haha..pardon mi for bloggin every single detail down..cz..haha it's been so long since i enjoy myself tt much..n i dun wanna forget anything..=] never..

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

ps. thank for this blessed n wonderful day!

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][.倒流.][

][.倒流.][

想哭之前，抬头看星星。
那样，泪水就会倒流了。

但，没有必要忍住泪。
想哭就哭，
痛快地哭一场后再坚强的站起来。
那就行了。。

好累啊！
但，谁又何尝不累呢？
这就是所谓的人生吧。。
加油！

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有些人你会莫名的喜欢，有些人你会没有原因特别讨厌，都讲缘分。

要相信人与人的相处确实讲求缘分，有些人一拍即合，有些人就算用强力胶黏在一起还是会撕破脸皮，完全不可强求。

相聚别离，别离相聚，一切早有定数。聪明的话，别问到底，暗中吸取教训，下次更聪明，日子更美丽。

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haha went to sch for a period of maths today..so diaoz..but haha like matong says..this kind of things happen onli once in 5 wks..so its like ok..haha

aw went to library w sh n got myself 3 chi books..haha wu qing kang's bk ->23:59 is realli quite nice de..v my type of book..haha

aw came hm n nua-ed a while be4 i went for a jog..haha be4 i culd even start..it rained..but i ran la..cz i noe tt if i turn bac n go hm nw..i wuld end up feeling fatter than ever..haha so ran like snail speed n came hm for sum light gym..was jus doing stats ( i meant e gym kind..nt maths =P)..den my right hand cramped..haha tt's how super unfit i m nw =[ like a pig..fat n unfit la..

haha ok..so gg to rest a while be4 gg to meet moi n ly to go n visit snail..cz cmi on thurs..due to ahem's bday..haha wad else ne..o yah..i haf this super bad stomache since this morning..been rushing to my toilet..all my bro's fault la..haha jkjk..it jus so happened tt he is hafing gastric flu nw..so this v mei you liang xin de da jie jus blamed him =P aw yah..do take gd care of ya stomache huh..dunno why but nowadays like lots of ppl dou keep on stomache..maybe e weather la..haha but jus take care..=]

hmm haha n yah..did i mentioned tt kem won! haha realli v happy! haha but it's jus different..haha cz can't be dere to fight w em..but nbm la..u haf to give up sumthing to get sumthing..so i m jus praying n hoping tt wbl division B wuld be after my A lvls so tt i can play w e team..i realli wanna..haha but if it's not..i wuld still support em de =D hee..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

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days after cts haf been quite eventful =]
sat went for coaching but din do much cz of my unstable ankle..haha
o yah..be4 tt went for breakfast..haha quite nice de la..
rushed off to help up w e closure of national stadium after tt..
woohoo..e fireworks were nice =D haha

sun..nua-ed at hm be4 gg to support kem! haha
den had a game w home u..be4 gg down to team bbq tgt! haha
o yah..thanks llz =D haha
e bbq was more like a buffet i tink..
haha thanks lots to coconut's bro!
haha i tink it was quite nice..
talking abt clubs etc..
haha i din haf much to talk abt..cz..
haha but no worries..i love my club..
but at e same time..i m open to comments de la =P

after that..sorry to those tt stayed over..
haha sorry for pangseh-ing!
sorry sorry!

hmm ran for bus n went to wen's hse..
haha watched nada sou sou..
haha e guy is so uncle to wen..
but he is shuai la..
den hmm e story was quite sad but nt truly sad at e end..
haha i felt tt e ending was too abrupt..hee
but overall nt bad la..
after tt i can't get to slp..dunno why also..
so jus watched beyond e glory..
kobe n kelvin garnet de..
haha KG de was quite nice n touching de..

haha so spent my day eating my life away at wen's hse..
den bac hm..
haha hm sweet hm..=D

hmm n sumtimes i jus feel so fortunate..
n at e same time..
i feel so lousy..
thanks n sorry for everything my friends! =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

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