][.Change in Bodyclock.][

][.Change in Bodyclock.][

it's 415am n i m wide awake.
this is madness.
slept at 530am ytr..woke up at 9am today!
n nt sleep a wink n still awake?!
siao liao.
bodyclock, are you ok? =]

these few days had been hmmm.
不是三言两语就能解释的。
很多复杂的情绪。
i love this line..
it's always easier to smile than to explain why are you sad.

haha dont worry.
i m nt sad.
jus haha
aw..family away in batam so forever5 is now soundly asleep.
really glad that they came over to keep my company.
haha..10yrs ltr, would we look back n laugh at wad we are now?
jus as how we looked bac n laughed at all our stupid quarrels. haha

人与人之间的缘分真的很奇妙。
遇见了，就要好好珍惜。
失去了，就微笑祝福。

watched my fair lady.
3 more ep to go.
love korean dramas =]

haha ok! take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.Honesty.][

][.Honesty.][

my day is normal n nice =]
woke up 6am.
dragged myself to school.

jap was nice.
went jp with dinner w employer. =]
had carls jnr cz employer had craving!
but she onli ate cheese fries with loads of salsa while i had a whole meal!!
rars =P
den we went to shop for wed's lunch!
employer is cooking pasta for me! =D hee
i m e luckiest employee man =P

came back n skip the fats away.
joined jy mama,zx n roomie to do work in study rm.
n nw i m back here =]

heard a sad song which reminded me of music diary.
Honesty by Rodney Atkins.
simple lyrics which can break your heart.
it's like a story being unfolded.

He said,"Just think it over,and write me a list"
"So we can figure out what we both deserve"
She hardly could believe it,that their love had come to this
Dividing and deciding his and hers
But she grabbed a paper napkin and asked the waitress for a pen
An one by one she wrote down what she wanted most from him

Honesty,sincerity,tenderness and trust
A little less time for the rest of the world
And more for the two of us
Kisses each mornin' I love you's at night
Just like it used to be
The way life was when you were in love with me

She reached across the table and placed it in his hand
And said,"You know this isn’t easy for me"
As he thought about the new car the house and the land
And wondered what that bottom line would be
And a thousand other things that she'd want him to leave behind
But he never dreamed he'd open up that napkin and find

Honesty,sincerity,tenderness and trust
A little less time for the rest of the world
And more for the two of us
Kisses each mornin', I love you's at night
Just like it used to be
The way life was when you were in love with me

Well,he fought back the tears as he looked in her eyes
And said “I don’t know where to start.”
And she said,"Everything on that list in your hand"
“Is written somewhere in your heart”

Honesty,sincerity just like it used to be
The way life was when you were in love with me

v beautiful lyrics.
reminded me so much of music diary.
how ppl regret only when things are over.
but it's just too late.
how many second chance are you given in life? =]

sometimes, you take so long to find a word to describe how you feel.
you take ages to find a sentence to sums up all.
i guess i finally find a sentence to sum up all i feel. =]
if i am sorry.
the only thing that i m sorry for is..for all the things tt i can't say.
somethings are better left unsaid.
thanks jy mama for letting me und why i m feeling this way.=]

aw..one song's lyrics is stucked in my head nw.
but i dunno what's e song..
so blog down e lyrics 1st =]
我想着想着泪都干了
我想着想着天又亮了
我不想再想了
这一次说真的算了.

haha no worries ppl!
all is gd =]
jiayou with sch work man!
i shall go rest n jiayou for my presentation tml! =D
smiles and the shadow will fall behind! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.always hurt the most but is the best.][

][.Moments of being a kid.][

][.Moments of being a kid.][



haha smiles!
it is 4:03am now.
haha..tired..but cool.
thanks roomie for bringing me along!

heh..shugs!
i m hungry again!

but i shall leave the bread for tml =D
i mean later =]

moments of being a kid?
it's when u smile over the small little things *shy*
and ignore all the other factors!

hao la..
i shall end here le!

take gd care every1!
nitez!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.it's when u say 坚持 -npo.][

][.Status: Think be4 I eat - Day 3.][

][.Status: Think be4 I eat - Day 3.][

haha not too bad.
it's going towards day 3!
i mean my diet plan =]

haha..
the hardest thing in this diet plan is the need to consider..
Felicia as a player.
and Felicia as the person who wanna shed some weight =P

day 1:
Breakfast - breakfast bar and 100% apple juice!
Lunch - Salad =]
Dinner - A bit of rice and loads of vegs =]
After training - resist the temptation to eat malay food..came back and pack bitter gourd soup w bee hoon!




day 2:
Breakfast - minimal amt of bread
Lunch - Noodles
Dinner - A little bit of Chee Cheong Fun and Plain waffle
After training - Subway (without cookies and no sugar drink)

haha *pats on the shoulder for myself*
think it's getting there =]
BUT..as a player..i m still watching my diet and eating enough.
cz if nt..realli no energy man.
serious! haha

ok! enough of my "Think be4 I eat" le..
thurs and today is..
haha normal?

thurs is kinda happier?
haha i mean when it comes to bball =]
with npo teaching me e defense.
sprinting with npo by my side - my greatest motivation =D. (realli feel the spring in my steps ;p)

haha ok! end here le!
take gd care every1! =]
Nitez..


][.10.fe.15.][
][.determination.][

][.北极星的眼泪.][

][.北极星的眼泪.][



my current favourite song.
woohoo..zhang dong liang's voice is power o.
trust me.
realli got the sad sad de feel.
wanna sing along with him..
but can't cz dun haf tt feel =P
been watching a new drama now..
微笑pasta =]
haha it's vcd..so dun nd to come online so often..
so got a bit 与世隔离's feel. =P
haha..anything just msg me ba!

n haha today had a realli good chat with mummy =]
haha realli nice chat..i have a cool mummy ok!
to be able to chat with me about all these..and giving me her views abt <3..=]
next time i must be a good mummy too..
communicate with my child well enough..so when they r my age..they can open up to me too =]

spending quite loads of quality time with my family recently. =D
happy..cz with all the trainings, the time i get to spend with my family is realli little. =]
BUT..these few days, i m touched =]

below is just 本人 wanna blog down to remember de things..so haha paiseh le =P

by mummy who is ready to listen to my long long story and laugh at me and telling me tt my choice is right. =]

by ah di who ran down to buy ice-cream for me and chased after the ice-cream uncle and happily told me tt.."jiejie, i m realli v happy cz this is the 1st time i buy ice cream for ppl and not ppl buying for me" gosh..my heart just melted with the ice cream =P

by daddy who gave me a smile and told me to jia you for training..realli enlightened =] so what if it's realli tiring, since it's my choice, i should enjoy it! daddy enlightened me..=] if u r not happy and dreading it..den you won't enjoy it =] but since it's your choice..go all out and enjoy this process..cz this is gg to be a v special experience =]

i realli love my family.
whatever i face, i know they are there for me.
(although at times realli cannot stand mummy's nagging =P)
but i still love them! <3 *muackz*

haha
haha ok!
end here le =D
take gd care every1!
Byee..=]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.等待.][

][.if only..][

][if only..][

after a few whole season of being benched.
got my 1st chance to play today.
believe it or nt,
i was in complete shock.

played like shit for e 1st quad.
played even worse for e subsequent.
yups, did a few ok stuffs.
but if u were to weigh,
tt few is nt enff to mi bu e rest.

felt so agrh when coach haf to make e comparison.
真的很累。

a whole pg of how i feel is nt enff to describe how i realli feel.
就算了。

人生究竟有多少个第二次机会。。
我努力的跌倒后再爬起。
但却有要一次又一次的面对类似的抨击。
泪水只能往心里流。
表面要装作不在意。

累了。
晚安。
守候天使，此刻只希望你能给我一个鼓励的简讯。

][.10.fe.15.][

][.Status: Minimum Point.][

][.Status: Minimum Point.][

if there are days which you feel super drained.
this is such a night.
mentally & physically.

guardian angel,
pls come back from your holiday.

n i m jus hoping for a spin by the beach,
shouting at the top of the voice and have the wind blowing against the car direction.
n let it all out.
if only..

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.rars!.][
][.hao xiang ku, dan bu neng.][

][.夜晚的宁静，总让人胡思乱想.][

][.夜晚的宁静，总让人胡思乱想.][

对于夜晚的宁静。。
我是又爱有恨。
爱是因为，能让我静下来好好的反省。
想一想过去所发生的一切。
恨是因为思绪总在这时候起伏不定。

输了。
输了大学联赛的第一场比赛。
眼泪并没有落下。
因为我没资格。
因为成长了吗？
我不知道。
只知道，在差点落下的那一刻，被发现了。
一句鼓励，让眼泪往肚里流。
谢谢学姐！（老学姐，哈哈，开玩笑的啦！）

虽然只打了短暂的大学篮球，
但我真的领悟到了很多东西。
我们是输了。
但，绝对不能输掉精神。

而且，也学会了多一样东西。
能健健康康的享受打球的乐趣时就要好好的打。
把每一场球当作最后一场的努力一下。
加油！珍惜啊！

每场输赢都教会了我很多东西。=】
谢谢南大！
希望我能继续的成长。

当遇到这种情况时，
一小部分的我，想回到小时候。
希望你能指点我。
引导我。
守后天使，你在哪儿呢？

好啦，累了。
晚安大家！


recess wk is cuming to an end.
n it's gg to be sch again =[
BUT wells..did ketchup up w ppl during this wk!
1) a gd day Eating, Studying (thou i was a huge distraction =P) n Chilling out with llz! n of cz our da tous gui! haha super lucky de =D
2) met up w van, mf n employer for a supper =]
gdgd. at least caught up w ppl =]

ok! gd nite every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will be bac.][

][.100% to remember the name.][

][.100% to remember the name.][

randomly searching on youtube for basketball videos.
MJ.
wow cool!
remember the name! =]

This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

today is a different day frm the mono life.
woke up to join sh for breakfast. sorry for being so late! =]
den went back to vj to play bball.
after which, lunch and chilling a little at coffee bean.
it's been quite long since i get a break frm "work".

went for trng after which.
gosh, mus be e heat.
n a little thinking gg thur my mind.
was burning.
kinda sorry twds coach too.
cz wasn't in e gdgd best of mood.
jus in a mood of wanting to train hard.
so did nt haf much of a smile on e face.
so sorry to jiao lian n high frequency de!
cz it's been a while since i played w/o a smile during trng le.=]

trying.
realli trying.
do u noe?
do u feel e difference?
do u noe?
sumtimes, i hope u wuld guide mi more.
teach mi.
how and wad i shuld do?
here i am.
dere u are.
hardwork.
efforts.
commitment.
boils down to?
i do not know.

hao la..shal end here le!
wad a chilling day!
tuition is cancelled.
NO WORK!! muhahaha
byeee..

][.fe.][
][.i m who i m.][

][.i need tt bit of encouragement,][

][.i need tt bit of encouragement.][

jus wad's wrong w everything.
or jus wad's wrong w me?
i haf no idea.
i jus wanna hibernate n wake up when everything is over.
yet i noe it's impossible.
sighs.
i jus hope tt u wuld make my day n give mi tt little bit of encouragement.
it's seems so far.
n as impossible.
it's an overwhelming emptiness.

no matter wad,
i wuld jus try my best =]

take gd care every1..byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.dependent kid.][

][.peak.][

][.peak.][

if dere's sumthing known as guardian angel..
wuld he/she appear right now?
sighs..
pressure n stress wuld nv reach an all time high till e time is running out..
tml is my 1st prelims paper = gp =]
not realli anticipating it..
neither m i prepared for it..
but..
jus nd to blog n vent off sum of e stress =X

gd thing for e day was meeting fungi on e bus n hafing both breakfast n dinner w my dearest family =]

tt realli made my day better apart from drowning myself in gp at Mc cafe at downtown n mus thank tricia for e subway cookie! =] i m realli thankful tt tml is gp n nt any other subject..if nt i wuld jus col (cry out loud)..n reading articles r realli fun n nice esp when there r many funny facts n things gg ard in e world eg in Dahomey, a girl is most attractive if she is fat =P ..but trying to haf my own opinion regarding capital punishment etc realli got mi into lots of thinking n headache =X
so at e end of e day..realli felt saturated..n dere's so much more tt i haven read thur..sighs..

haha alrite..i can foresee tt my 2 wks starting frm tml wuld be super iNtErEsTiNg w studying plans tt i had nv ever endured be4..but i shall try to enjoy it =P..

all by myself..tt's exactly how i feel now..
still remembered tt it was a yr ago when we were at e pasar malam hafing durian e day be4 u guys de gp..n now..
it's my turn..
all by myself..
jus gotta be strong n pull thur this!

jia u every1! take gd care n press on! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][

][.ASSays.][

][.ASSays.][

if this madness goes on.

i m gg

1) fat

2) mad

fat becoz this overdosage of overwhelming amt of ASSays due which left mi w no time to do my revision is stressing mi beyond wad u can imagine. n hence there's chocs = my best friend these days! n haha endless food food food..n e tyre is out le la =[

mad cz..this is madness..nv felt so tire out be4..eee agrh..rahs!!

ok..hist down..gpS to go..sighs..n off i go to my madness..bye..take care every1!

][.10.fe.15.][

][.transformers.][

][.transformers.][

there's more than meet the eyes. =]

haha throat is hurting.
saved mi from e fats of popcorns.
loved e oldies played at e start of e show.
loved bumble bee n e leader(which i culd nt catch his name).
admire e bravery n courage of those standing at e frontline.
loved e beautiful sunset.
loved e companion.=]
got myself another bk from cecelia ahern - A place called here!
hope it wuld be as nice as all e others!
thanks for another nice day. =]
get well soon fungi!
n o yah..i met e old blind lady again..she's brave =]

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.dun look mi in e eyes.][

][.dun look mi in e eyes.][

e moment when i told u that..
my heart still hurts..
n i culd feel my tears gushing out..
but yet i held em bac..
i dun wanna cry in front of u..
as much as i wanna..

e moment u told mi it's ok..
there are many more chances..
i knew that e tears fell..
n i smiled n turned away..
telling u not to worry..
cz i m ok w it already..

dun look mi in e eyes npo..
i can't bear to let u see e tears..
as much as i wanna..
irony huh?..
yup..but..
up till this moment..
i can still take it..
at least i haf been taking it for e past few weeks..

dun wanna let e tear fall infront of u jus yet..
i m tired..n disappointed..
every trng is jus making mi feel that i m getting worse..
not that i haf been gd..
but jus as i went for my 2nd trng..
i held e ball..
n i stood at e court..
n i was shocked by wad i thought at that instant..

i held e ball..
looked at e basket..
n i asked myself..
can u shoot?..
do u noe how to shoot?
do u still rmb how to shoot?..
n i din haf e courage to try..
i walked to e free-throw line instead..

n yah..
thats mi now..
a useless nobody..
all e trng drills for center is to do all e jiao bu..
all e underbaskets..
e onli place that we shoot wuld be e free-throw line..

this ain't e game i love..
this is restriction..

during e 2nd trng..it was tiring..
but it was beneficial..
after all these months of shouting at my mistakes w/o letting mi noe wads realli wrong..
finally there's sum1 who demo to mi where did i realli goes wrong..
thanks npo..=)

dinner was full of laughters n fun..
it was great..
n nw i do look forward to sat..
thou it's realli tiring..
but they gave mi a reason to..

n i jus read sumthing..n i realli feel that..if i culd blog in chi..i wuld..it wuld be so much easier to let u noe how i feel..

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..
ps. HAPPY 17 LING! =D

][.FEarless.][
][.jus be here for mi.][
][.be my reason to hold on.][