][.Be thankful.][

][.Be thankful.][

was pondering upon life.
was thinking over again, what is it that i actually chased after in life.

all this was sparked when a comment was made.
which set me thinking.
things are going in circle.

life is realli like a life cycle.
am i realli chasing after the right priorities?
or am i going with the flow and handle whatever tt comes my way?

what is it tt i realli want to achieve in life?
thought abt this on the way back hm after trng.
my motto in life:
if you wanna do it, jus give it your best shot & dun regret.
if u ever regret, tt means u had nt given ur best.

humans all have fear.
i have mine too.
but we just gotta conquer them.
n keep going..
isn't it?

keep going is the only way out!
so..jus hang it there!
felt kinda lost abt what exactly i m pursuing.

but caught this ad on bs 358's tv mobile.
it was an inspirational quote..
a realli gd one..
"Be thankful that you do not have everything you want..
If not, you will have nth to look fwd to!"

the quote made my day.
be thankful is the key!
keep going fe!
be thankful!
for everything,
every1..=]
i m!

<3s..
it always feel so gd to be back home.
home sweet home.
my protected shelter.
my wonderful parents.
my cute little brother.<3s
this sat is reserved for em =]

hao la..end here le!
take gd care every1!
byee..

in this midst of insanity,
remain sane every1!
jiayou! =D

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i m.][

][.Xiang Tai Duo.][

][.Xiang Tai Duo.][

loads of thoughts passing my mind nowadays.
realli.
this is a mad mad wk.
with another madder wk ahead =X

whenever u look at such wks,
you jus haf to take a breathe and fight on.
there's nth else tt we can do.
apart from conquering it.

jus keep gg.
keep gg.
dun grumble.
dun rant.
dun stone.
cz every1 is gg thru e same flow.

wad can it do?
if you could see the love in my eyes.
you should know that i m by your side.

haha so g!
that's realli a song..
typed wad can i do..
n e other 2 lines jus came out.

feels so gd to be back home.
i miss nua-ing at hm.
haven gone bac to e wk.
but i m already looking fwd to e nxt wkend.
if onli wkend could pause.
n remain there.

haha aw..do check out tt song =]
it's nice =]

ok! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.wad can i do?.][

][.Home Sweet Home.][

][.Home Sweet Home.][

it feels so gd to be back home.
realli feels so gd.
so protected. <3

the past wk had been a wk of madness.
with sleep debts that can nv be paid.
mental and physically exhaustions.

it was realli on the verge.
thanks loads to all who asked me to pressed on!
it realli meant alot.
at times such as this..
you jus have to keep each other going =]

thanks loads to all!
you know who you are =]]
thanks to mamajan n matong too!
the offline msgs realli made me felt a sense of nostalgia.
it's like how we pressed on during As with all the Assays!

haha..if any1 ever told you that A lvls is the worst,
dun take their words for real.
cz it realli ain't e case.

but i m thankful.
thankful for everything i haf.
for every1 that is around.

my apologises for any stoned face.
or black mood.
cz..loads is being coped up inside.
but it felt much better after letting it all out.
n sleep realli helps too.

keep going every1!
haf faith in yourself!
u r stronger than u believe =]

take gd care! =D

][.10.fe.15.][
][.H.I.T.][

][.time..=].][

][.time..=].][

take each day,
one at a time.
it's passing too fast. =]

let us..
see wads up ahead ok =]

for now..
jus focus on work =]

tonite is a nice nite =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.fate.][

][.Finally!.][

][.Finally!.][

amidst all these madness.
n down-ness.
there's finally a thing to smile over.
i finally passed my driving test =]
haha 20/3/09.
finally an end to these.
n jus so glad! =]
it feels gd knowing tt u can finally drive =]

thanks loads to wen for pei-ing me =]
n jus a few things to remind myself of..
amidst these madness.
i managed to catch marley n me with 2 nice buddies =]
haha xie lo nfb n kg =D
n watching arsenal play w wen n kg at arsenal fc was nice. =]
the hotel stay was gd too!
thanks loads to wen! =]
n thanks fort bump bump too wen!!
n these were the gd things tt happened last sat n this wk.

bad things jiu..
suan le..
dun blog =]

take gd care every1!
byee..=]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.Status: Minimum Point.][

][.Status: Minimum Point.][

if there are days which you feel super drained.
this is such a night.
mentally & physically.

guardian angel,
pls come back from your holiday.

n i m jus hoping for a spin by the beach,
shouting at the top of the voice and have the wind blowing against the car direction.
n let it all out.
if only..

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.rars!.][
][.hao xiang ku, dan bu neng.][

][.Status: I need a Kit Kat.][

][.Status: I need a Kit Kat.][

sick.
ha ha ha.
superwoman no more.
in fact, never had been.

holding on.
not seeing an end to anything.
no ends to trainings.
no ends to projects.
no ends to work.

and when all these ends,
it will be exams.
and women's open during exams (once again).

i am looking forward to women's open.
hopefully i can play and gain some experience from it.

i am not looking forward to exams.
yet at the same time, i am.
cz i can't wait to end this crazy sem.
n get away.

get some time alone =]
it feels so gd to be home at night,
on my comfy bed with the air con.
it jus feels so gd to be at home.
n it feels gd at nite.
the time alone to think and rest.

too much thoughts being stirred up.
too many rantings to be shouted out.
but wells..
i will be fine.
every1 is going thur this shit now.
if they can, so can you you n me =]]
let's pull thur it tgt man!
jia you!
Hang In There! =D

now all i wish for is..
more time..
i need more time to accompany my family.
i need more time to rest.
however, it's fair..24hrs a day.
we jus have to arrange it =]
maybe i shuld haf family lunch instead of dinner this sun =]

alright.
take gd care every1! byee..

on a sidenote..
realli nice to attend kat's 4 seasons party.
it's realli an eye opener =]
to see how ppl out of asia party and enjoy =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.kit kat, pls come fast!.][

][.用心.][

][.用心.][

haha i m aching frm top to toe.
from heart to soul.
woohoo it rhymes huh?
haha jkjk la.

but i m realli aching.
jus nua-ing on my bed.
haha can't move le.
lao le ah lao le.
consecutive days of playing bball is no longer as easy.

but i realli enjoy it.
seriously.
it has been 3wks since all this madness started?
nt v sure..
BUT i realli enjoy learning frm all these trngs =]

it is tiring.
no doubt.
but i know..i realli wanna improve myself within this mth. =]
jus learn wadever i can.
n go away with em =]

n jus a little random sidenote..
Defend with your heart.
Make sure u dun let em cut pass u n score.
Yong Xin Lai Fang Shou.
tt was wad coach said.
i heard of it all along.
but when she said it..
it realli rings in ur ear n goes into e heart.
i will work hard on my defence.
cz that's where con-fe-dence will grow.
"zuo de bu cuo" sometimes,something so little can realli make me wanna fight on =]

n apart frm Yong Xin de defence,
i will 用心 for everything =]
like what mamas always say in jc..
wadever tt dun kill u..will onli make u stronger! =]
conquer e projects,training,tuitions and quiz man!
go fe!!!!!!!!!!!!

keep going fe!
haha so g to say keep going to yourself ;p
but wells! haha i m g always ;p

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.I am happy!.][

][.I am happy!.][

haha..wad a g "title" huh =P
not tt i hasn't been happy all these while =P
haha but today is realli quite a happy day with double joy!

haha e double joy in academic stuffs is like wooohooo!
vvv long nv get such happiness from academic le =P
haha jus finished e presentation for hw111.
thankful for the non-verbal communications which made e audience laughed.
thus, it was quite gd =D
happy with it!

haha den came bac n saw the hg220 quiz results.
wah..when i was scrolling down e list..i was realli praying hard for the heart nt to sink man!
haha n for e 1st time in many many times!
my heart leaped with joy instead of sinking!
haha fe shall work hard for her studies! (like duh huh ;p)

haha hao la..
end here le!
gotta go do tut n go teh n trng soon!

take gd care every1!
byee..

p/s offie is here to say hi! haha
n happy 20 wen! =D

][.10.fe.15.][

][.Somethings are best left unsaid.][

][.Somethings are best left unsaid.][

Sometimes, somethings..
are best left unsaid.
haha.

Sometimes, somethings..
it's best to keep it safe in my heart.

Sometimes, somethings..
it doesn't matter what others think.
i know.
i did.
just that..
in a different way.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i prayed.][

][.Random.Nice.][

][.Random.Nice.][

haha the post that i wanted to post went blank after i pressed post ;p
aw tonite is a gd random nice night.

finally watch a movie with wen n moi =]
nice nice.
n met jing be4 tt =]]
smiles! slumdog millionarie!
i jus wanna watch Look For A Star now!haha

den met gd running buddy for supper!
haha champions are making me crave for supper more than be4 =P
it was nice chatting w running buddy!
haha recalled all the marathorn events.
n jus nua n talked randomly =]

thanks loads!
realli appreciate u all =]]

hao la..tired le!
end here le! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.pls forget.][

][.The beautiful rainbow, after the rain.=].][

][.The beautiful rainbow, after the rain.=].][

haha yu guo tian qing.
chinese realli has the best words to describe things =]
today is like zai cai guo! (mixtures)
woke up.
went for 2 projects.
super tired n drained to think of anything.

den went to meet kim guan for a last min dinner.
haha.
it was nice.
den e random little question that caused e healing gap to open up again.
millions of sorries.
haha but it's jus too much a coincidence le.
realli can't take it tt instance.
haha but wells i will be fine =D
today is such a drama day.
walking in e rain.
pouring the heart out with the rain.
den suddenly!
hey, look there!
RAINBOW!
the whole rainbow!
haha super duper duper nice de!
the last time i saw a rainbow was when i was still working in disco as admin!

haha if nt wrong,
i was also feeling down den =P
same as today!
haha n there is the rainbow!
it was so so so nice!
esp for today!
it's perfect timing man! =D

special thanks to kg n moi,wen,jing!
thanks loads to em all!
for accompanying me in the little ways. =]

gym trng was woohoo.
i m aching all over again =]
but i realli love n enjoy learning!
it feels gd to learn mre things n know why u r doing this thing this way =]
keep learning fe! hee

hao la..time to go off for work le!
undone undone undone!
projects! u r so killing me!
roars!

take gd care every1! byee..
My beautiful rainbow!
Hope it makes your day as much as it made mine! =]




][.10.fe.15.][
][.smiles,no1 is to be blamed.][

][.Reason.][

][.Reason.][

fe always say..
everything happens for a reason.

tonite is realli a nite of truth.
overwhelming in some way.
hence i have to hide in the dark.
haha. cz i can camouflage in tt way.
moi said:"fe, dun blog! u will onli be hurt more when u r reminded of it!"
but i said, i haf to =] cz i know..when i look bac, i will be lol-ing at how stupid i was.

thanks loads to moi!
realli realli!
thanks for knowing me so well.
thanks loads for just doing nth n listen n make me laugh n ask me to stop singing =]
n wen, jing, fungi, i m waiting to let u all know that, i m moving on le =]
this time round, there's no turning back, no stopping there.
nothing =]

thanks to nfb too =]
thanks for letting me scold u! wahaha n i m nt a g.

haha moi says i m leng jing.
i tink i m.
n i m jus v leng jing.
my tears already free flow dao i tink no restaurant can win me =P haha jkjk
fe is strong!
haha nah i m not =P
jus fe is iron! haha
jus feels super stupid.

haha..if u ever see this,
just wanna let u noe..
i never ever wanted to let you know.
realli.
never ever ever wanted you to know.
knowing that u know realli makes me..
dunno how to face u?
haha..n tt i knew right frm the start that nothing will change.
that's why i had never told u.
that's why i had always kept it a secret from u.
that's why frm the very second that i fell in, i stopped n pulled myself out.
it took quite a while.
but for now, jus wanna say..
let's hope u can forget this too =]
glad to haf u as my friend. if u ever consider me one =]

tonite,
is realli the final nite le.
all the truths are out.
all sorts of feelings.
betray? nah..too strong a word to use.
hurt? yups very.
relief? yups! super! moving on for real.
haha the greater the hit.
the faster the delete process.
once n for all, gone!
haha byee..

hao la..end here le every1!
take gd care!
n seriously, fe is on 5th gear for nth but work nw! chiong ah! projects! hee =]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.Song of the week.][

][.Song of the week.][

haha actually it had just been my song of the day (for ytr!)
but..haha i guess it will be ongoing for a week?
hee nice nice oldies! this is by zheng zhong ji! =]
share with my blog ba =]

絕口不提! 愛你

閉上眼睛忍住呼吸
暫時要和世界脫離
就快要學會不再想你
卻聽見不斷跳動的心

我允許了你　讓愛的自由還給你
我允許了自己　承受這悲傷到天明

我不願放棄卻要故意　默默允許
我答應自己愛你的心　絕口不提
總是以為終究化作雲淡風輕
愛你到底　痛了自己

我不願放棄卻要故意　默默允許
我答應自己愛你的心　絕口不提
所有結局在這夜裡都已成形
愛到了底　痛的是我的真心

閉上眼睛忍住呼吸
暫時要和世界脫離
就快要學會不再想你
卻聽見不斷跳動的心

我允許了你　讓愛的自由還給你
我允許了自己　承受這悲傷到天明

我不願放棄卻要故意　默默允許
我答應自己愛你的心　絕口不提
總是以為終究化作雲淡風輕
愛你到底　痛了自己

我不願放棄卻要故意　默默允許
我答應自己愛你的心　絕口不提
所有結局在這夜裡都已成形
愛到了底　痛的是我的真心

所有結局在這裡都已成形
愛到了底　痛的是我的真心

haha nice oldies n nice lyrics.
so happy when i discovered that i had it (cz daddy has it in the hp's memory card!)

hao la..off to work le! do check out the nice song! hee
while i wait for the lao snr who is still glowing to be up for breakfast!
i m hungry!! i need food! wake up! jkjk
n Happy Month-sary my dearest champions! <3
take gd care every1! =]]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.絕口不提.][

][.babies nv fail to make my day.][

][.babies nv fail to make my day.][

no matter how bad the day is.
babies nv fail to brighten up my day =]
was quite sianz cz had to waste money on travelling as trng was cancelled.
However, the non-verbal communication of babies had made my day!
gave the baby tt i saw on mrt a tired smile. n she smiled back radiantly =D
realli made my day! kids are just so innocent tt they dun mind tt wad u r giving em is a tired smile. they still give u their 100% smile <3
nxt up..saw a little baby boy extending his hands to his daddy wanting to be carried.
so sweet =]

alright! enough of sian-ness!
past 2 days had been exciting!
doing things out of the usual way.
went to my 1st concert with jing!
woohoo! it was gd!
e gan jue when yoga stopped singing n quan chang sing tgt was so nice.
to add on. that was a emo song -> "wo ai de ren"

den heard many nice nice songs too.
n e refresh-ed of memory with "bei ying"..
gan xie wo bu ke yi..(thankfully that i can't)
zou jing ni de yan jing (be seen by you)
suo yi cai neng, wang zhe ni de bei ying (hence, i m given e chance to jus gaze at ur back)
yi zhi xiang qian zou, (i kept walking)
zou bu wan ju li ( but there's no way that i could close up the distance)
yi zhi xiang hou tui (i kept running away)
tui bu chu hui yi (but i just can't get out these memories)
haha used to be my fav song =]
thanks loads to jing!
we enjoyed ourselves =]
n shaking of lightsticks can make one hungry! haha
3++ hrs gd of songs =] n she n olivia r power too =]

sat..went to zoo!
haha it's been a decade since i went dere ba =P
excursion!
it was exciting n quite fun!
e sea lion was e best part! so clever la ;p
n it's jus so gd to get away n do something different =]
but it's realli tiring too =]
after which, went for lx's concert w wen n butts.
it feels gd =]
when it comes to some ppl, no matter how long it is, e gan jue is still e same.
travelling bac n talking to wen was nice =]
been vv long since we did this le.
those were e days behind e sec3 n 4 classrm where we jus chatted non-stop =] miss em so!

den bac at pasir ris, saw e guys who were gg supper =]

hao la..nua-ed.
shall nua a little mre n strum the guitar a little mre jiu go do work.
guitar-rapy =]

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.memory status: deleting in process.][

][.Looking forward to the break-less break.][

][.Looking forward to the break-less break.][

haven been bloggin.=]
not that there's nothing going on =P
jus..too tired!

haha life has settled back to the sleep,eat,play ball, study =]
haha nt very much of study thou ;p
promise to make gd gd use of recess wk to ketchup on work!
i am aware of what i m missing out.
yet at the same time,
i know there's nothing much that i can do =]

champions are always making my day! <3sss
misses forever5 very very much too =P
n to all my friends who i had neglected =X promise to make up sooon ok! =D

hmm..this week had been quite physically tiring.
but that's gd in a way too =]
no time to think about other stuffs.

Let go..=]
n it feels gd to have forgotten.
just keep deleting.
memory, you are doing well!
just keep going..
erase the last bit =]
haha actually no more left.
for the past yr..
it felt..
haha..a mixtures of everything ba.
but for now..
i think i prefer it this way =]
but still..thanks for appearing in my life.

][.放弃.][

][.放弃.][

thanks loads to moi for e nua-ing and car talk.
thanks loads to forever5 for always being dere to listen to me.
thanks loads to 5 yr old kid..dun worry! like what i told u, i m brain -"washed".
thanks loads to nfb for always listening to me rant.

我肯定可以!
this shall be the last time.
goodbye!


][.10.fe.15.][
][.忘记.][

][.Happy 21 kid!.][

][.Happy 21 kid!.][

haha happy 21 kid!
times realli flies!
haha thanks for another yr of friendship and being such a dependable constant as always =D

went to enjoy a gd meal of BKT!
ice!
tau huay!
and went to a nice nice structure --> Lasella ..
haha another simple and nice day!
things remain the change despite the changes that we have in life.

"We all take different paths in life,
But no matter where we go,
We take a little of each other everywhere."
~Tim McGraw~

Let the pics memo the day!





after which went off w moi to meet snail,pamela n xiao hua. it was a random one..but funny too! haha

n nw i m bac home!
tired tired tired!
dead dead dead!
work work work!
ok! gotta go!
take gd care every1! byee..

ming ming zai yi.
que zhong shi zhuang zuo bu zai yi.
zhuang dao lei dou bu neng reng le.
wo ren rang zai zhuang.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.the best ship of all times - friendship.][

][.it's time for work and thoughts.][

][.it's time for work and thoughts.][

these few days are a mixture of up and down.
can't escape from work anymore.
tons n tons to be done.
screwed my phonetics quiz.
dang shit.
it was a feeling of shitty-ness.
thankfully there was champions gathering at night.
the street ball session with laughing was realli gd. =D

den today was another madness of tuitionS and trng.
gosh.
tiredness.
but i m learning.
love learning n pushing myself beyond the max.
jus enjoy this 1 mth fe.

n yay!
meeting llz tml for her 21st! wahahaha
n gg to play bball in e morning!
gotta head back for work n assignments after tt thou =]

hao la..got to go n start work le =]
n to all my friends out there..
esp forever5!
sorry that i hasn't been contacting u all much =[
for e past wk i had been wanting to call (randomly) to ask how's things.
BUT..it just slip past my mind time n again =X
i promise it wun happen again =]
iloveus! =]

off for work!
happy vday to all!
haha tc!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.leng jing de si kao.][

][.it's time to get back on the track!.][

][.it's time to get back on the track!.][

haha move bloggy move!
it's time to get back to work!

haha loads of suffs happened over e wk / wks =P
jus din blogged ;p
haha hmmm..
haha..
recent few events..
sending DE (Mole)ment to shanghai =]
it just makes me feel like gg for exchange prog too..
always felt tt stepping out of s'pore will be a gd experience to grow =]
aw..hope she's gd n come back fast!!
haha n e steamboat tt we had on thurs n sun was exploding! haha jkjk
i love my nan da team-mates!
BUT..haha honeymoon period is over n it's time for work again!
jia you champions! =]

den ytr was a gathering of steam boat w e cks!
i love it!
haha like..can nua at hm de gan jue v shiok ;p
worth e money to eat to ur fill too!
plus dun nd to travel! wahaha
gd to ketchup w em!

n today..went to moi's hse to bai nian after trng ;p
hee forever5 <3sss..
it always feel so gd =]
10yrs le =D
keep going pigs!
iloveus! =]

haha ok..gotta end le..looking fwd to nxt sat! heh e kid's 21st!
heh..thinking hard! BUT be4 tt..gotta study! lol (if i can ;p)
take gd care every1! byee..

dream is always beautiful.
reality is sad.
i truly understood after tt dream.

][.10.fe.15.][