Saturday, August 07, 2010

][.childhood friends.][

][.childhood friends.][

haha today is a v amazing and random day.
many little joy here n there despite all the tiredness.

woke up super early to go for hss camp briefing.
den started my tuitionsSsS.
yes 4 (s) cz 4 tuitions!
haha declared brain dead.
n top off w a little joy when my last student told me tt "wow jiejie..u had 6hrs of tuition = 6hrs of study! i can nv do tt." haha these little kids always make me happy in their own way. =]

amidst all these tuitions, today was a randomly nice day.
cz mummy called me in e midst of my camp briefing and told me tt she finally got thur to ah eng auntie.

haha which is the mum of my childhood best friends.
apart from diana and tiffany..another 2 person tt saw me thru my childhood - weijian and weiliang korkor.

haha the friend who fights abt power ranger with me..always forcing me to take e pink one so tt he can take e red one.
the friend who asks me to not be so studious cz he keeps getting scolded for nt doing his work while i do mine.
the friend tt practice martial arts with me and kept asking e coach when will we end cz he wanna rush home to watch power rangers!
the friend tt celebrated my 8th bday w me. =P
everything seems so vauge yet so clear. haha

haha n the korkor tt protected me when his didi beats me.
all these nice memories of a kid. =]
it's amazing!
we had not talked since we were p2? after i shifted from boon lay all e way to pasir ris! =]
and we were so young tt we had no way to keep in contact..no msn, no hp.
but jus by mummy's sheer memory of e phone number..we managed to keep in contact again!

haha invited him for my 21st thou i have no idea when m i having it.
n his mummy said tt he wanted to invite me but they can't find us.
haha what a random day. =]

maybe my 21st's theme should be..footprints in my life! =]
ok jus random!
n talking to a friend tt you had not talked for 14yrs ain't as difficult as i had thought =]

ok! shall go rest le!
take gd care every1!
bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.smiles.][

Friday, August 06, 2010

][.Truthful.][

][.Truthful.][

口不对心 - that's how we describe a person when he/she say things tt he/she don't really mean.

we always feel that every1 should be truthful about how they feel.
we feel that people should say what they mean and mean what they say.
however, when we are in the shoes..do we do it?

it's always easier to tell some1.."hey! could you say what you really mean?"
but..when it comes to yourself..
sometimes, somethings are just so hard to be truthful.
ever felt this way?
cz..u need to consider another person's feelings.
cz..u can't put down ur pride.
cz of this and that.

there are just more things to consider.
we learn from experiences.
we fall and we pick ourselves up.
we quarrel to understand each another.
and when you get to know each other better, you know what will spark the person's anger.
you know what they like or not. =]

this is life.
we all grow from experience.

things can be v simple.
i know.
i understand.

oo..n i haven blog abt 9ends 2 outs yet.
will do so when i m in e mood =]
it's a gd show.

ok! take gd care every1!
nitez~ =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.tired.][

Thursday, August 05, 2010

][.sleep is my form of escape.][

][.sleep is my form of escape.][

sleep.
sleep.
sleep.

i slept my whole day away.
decided nt to have any tuitions today.
just sleep all my way.

woke up for lunch.
read newspaper n sleep.

finally woke up during dinner.
ate n revise work w didi.
watched channel 8 n channel u.
den randomly dug out all my vcds n watched. =]

ok. what a random night.
it's 3am le.
not asleep yet.
i guess i m feeling better le ba. =]

take gd care every1!
bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.ain't u glad tt we are friends?.][

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

][.have u?.][

][.have u?.][

累,但是睡不着。
痛,但是说不出口。
想哭,但是哭不出来。

感觉整个人没力了。
好像就快瓦解了。

比赛,不是你赢,就是我输。
我们输了。
谁比较好,比较想赢就得到了胜利。

比赛就是这样。
明年再来。
失败并不代表不会再成功。

谢谢所有支持我们的朋友和家人。

晚安大家!
今晚会是很长的一夜。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.we win as a team, lose as a team.][

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

][.random tues!.][

][.random tues!.][

what a random tues =]
but *thumbs up* and *big smile*

no trng n no tuition.
jus nua and ketchup w friends = =]

met llz for lunch and a random decision to watch inception.
love the random-ness.
n the show which made our head go in whirl but decided that it's a dream in e end.

a dream within a dream.
had you ever had tt?
recently, i find tt dreams are really a reflection of reality.
as i grow older..everything tt i think in e day, would be reflected in the dream in a diff way.
dreams and reality.
dreams can be funny, scary, happy, sad.

a gd afternoon spent w llz!
thanks kid! =]

came home n cont to watch my 9ends 2outs.
it's like e joy of my life now.
yes yes.
a drama is a drama.
but when a drama seems to reflect what happened in life.
you can't help but lol.
tt's e sort of feeling tt i get.
will blog in detail when i finish e show.
jus one mre ep to finish it but 舍不得 =]

o great..n my best friend jus called frm uk.
pray pray tt e 2 of em exist in peace.
n all is resolved soon.
sometimes, even bff for a decade is not enough.
character differences, thinking differences.
haha..expectation from ppl who you care more.
it gets tiring huh.
lao tian ye..pls let both of em be all gd soon!

aw..today is a random day.
really random day.
after coming home, went out again at 8plus pm.
met jo, ky, xl to go zx's hse to chill.
it was random.
but nice in a way la.
vodka,oolong tea,tobasco.
haha jus great.

had tea be4 coming home.
吵吵闹闹是我们沟通的方式吧。
this is e most comfortable way of communicating. =]
after quarrelling for so many times, i really hope we know each other better.
hurted each other be4.
but let e past be e past.
for one last time, i hope we are both matured enough to not quarrel anymore.
for everything is a growing process.

ok la..rest well every1!
let tomorrow be a gd gd day!
let's go team!
let's go fe! =]

gosh..really love the show 9ends 2outs.
been a while since i m stucked to a drama such as this =]

take gd care every1!
bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

Monday, August 02, 2010

][.11 hours of sleep!.][

][.11 hours of sleep!.][

woohoo! i jus woke up! *opps*
had 11hrs of slp!
haha it feels so gd ttm!

mummy and didi is amazed by how long i can slp!
they nagged and wake me up to no avail. haha
slp slp slp.
dream dream dream.
haha it was a funny dream, but i would say it's a nightmare in some ways.

haha yes!
n now, i am all already to face the upcoming games!
bring it on!
s.t.f will be changed into s.s.
and i will use s.s to gain f.t.
all that i lose, i will get it back.

cz we cannot go back and make a brand new start!
but, we can always start from now and make a new ending! =]

let's go!

n haha..i realli love watching 9ends 2out! it's like nice ttm.
half way thru!
will dedicate a post to it when i finished watching! =]

take gd care every1!
bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.FEarless.][

Saturday, July 31, 2010

][.needs to get it back.][

][.needs to get it back.][

当最简单的事,变成了最难,只有自己能让它再次简单。
再这样下去,我会失眠和疯了。
我真的快疯掉了。

泪水不停的往心里流。
快决堤的泪,拼命的不在当下流下。
但,有谁晓得当下,我真的哭了。

没人能帮我。
没人。
只有自己。
但,手却不振作。

篮底。
最这样,最简单的事。。我却办不到。
第一次学打球就是投篮底。
中学时,是唯一取分的保障。
初院再不顺利的日子里,在一场比赛就能调会感觉。
但,现在已经四场比赛了。
连自己都无法原谅自己。
因为,起码二十分。
真的快疯了。

队友和教练的不停鼓励,让我更。。
自责。
惭愧。
每个人不停的鼓励,告诉我要相信自己。
我快疯了。
我需要冷静。
我需要找回那感觉。
我需要把这简单的事变回简单。

出手太快?
身体不平衡?
有人就无法保持冷静?

我不想再辜负大家了。
我知道那重要性。
我真的只想找回那简单的感觉。

晚安大家!
祝我好运。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be stronger.][

Friday, July 30, 2010

][.2 days of rest = (Y).][

][.2 days of rest = (Y).][

woohoo!
i had 2 days of rest!
yesterday and today!
i never touch the ball.
never run and shoot and all.

it had been a while since i get to get away from training without feeling guilty.
cz..it was not me who skipped trng.
but it jus happened that there ain't trng =]

a rest in need is a rest indeed.
i guess 老天爷 sort of sensed the break that i need in the midst of all these craziness ba. =]

not touching the bball for 2days.
time to slp.
time to rest.
time to lead the life of a normal person.
have dinner at dinner time instead of supper. =]

it's a form of relaxation.
at the same time, i did feel that if i lose the game of my life..i will become 痴呆 for a while.
when your life revolves ard one thing for a whole period and you suddenly lose it..you really feel very lost ba =]

woke up and saw hotcakes breakfast. <3
mummy knows me best.
too bad..i had to rush to tuition..only get to eat it when i was back =]
the amount of margarine i want. the meal that i love.
mummy knows me best =]]
ate hotcakes and sleep till it was time to fetch didi.

came back and nua and received the msg that trng is cancelled!
jumped ard the hse! =]
called roomie (which woke her up) to share the joy!
and felt a sense of lost right after the joy settles in.
not knowing what to do on a free fri night.
haha..had a gd laugh at myself.
cz for the past 2 yrs, life had been a routine.

i wanna enjoy e game.
i just wanna enjoy e game.
no more stress.
no more tears.
just enjoyment. =]

let's find the joy of playing back!
this break is much needed! =]

alright!
off to watch more dramas!
for the 1st time thru out the holiday (apart from genting get away!)..i feel that i am having a break =]

take gd care every1!
bye~~ =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.and i smiled.][

Thursday, July 29, 2010

][.benefits of holiday!.][

][.benefits of holiday!.][

benefit of holiday (1): sleep in and watch favourite movie and drama! =]
stress free!

haha just finished watching almost love - korean movie.
nice show =] haha

there's a part in it which says..
something like..
memory = something in a past which is remembered. so if i wanna make memory present..is that equivalent to living in a memory of memories?

haha reasons to watch the show..it's funny (really can lol lol), heartwarming =]
n i like lee sang woo!! he is nt the lead!
but he is so (Y). haha






love the 腼腆 smile =]
ok! time for bed!
nitez ppl! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.life.][

][.life.][

something happened recently which made me ponder upon life.
2nd ahyi's husband's sudden departure from this world.
it's really sudden.
no1 would imagine that things can happen suddenly.

we always take things for granted.
take life for granted.
thinking that it's 理所当然 that we are still alive at this moment.

nothing should be taken for granted.
so cherish every min and every1 you have in your life.
live life to the fullest.
do things which you enjoy and love.

smile and be happy.
there can be moments when you get upset.
have a gd cry and stand up again!
cz as long as you are still alive..there's always a chance to change things =]

seeing how mummy and all the siblings stand by each other for ahyi strengthen my belief for the importance of kinship.
患难见真情.this was what 2nd ahyi say.
in ur hardest time, those that would support you would be non other than your family.
no matter how much you all used to have conflict and all.
in times such as these, the people that would rush and be there for you would be non other than your family.

with all these that's happening..
mummy and ahyi(s) are telling me that i have to have a very strong n broad shoulder.
coz..i m the oldest cousin. 大姐姐..so i have to tc of them all.
and that made me think of loads n loads.

i am turning 21 already.
but am i acting like an adult?
i used to envision myself being able to do loads by the age of 21.
but it don't seem like the case now.
i am not as mature as i should be.
i am not doing enough.
there's so much more that i would wish to do.

now that i am gg to be officially an adult in 2months plus time.
i guess it's time to do some serious planning about life.
mummy says..i always 过着随遇而安的生活。which is v true.
things seem to be planned for me.
like 船到桥头自然直.
things come naturally.
mummy says that's my life.
but i guess..it's time to do some serious planning and be more mature, be stronger and be more decisive in life.
i can't depend on that luck anymore. =]

step1: saving.
haha..i must admit that i am very bad at handling money. i have no qualms about spending on ppl i love and food. =]
i guess it's time that i learn to save up. 未雨绸缪。
some financial plans.
to save up so tt i can pay off my study loan asap after i graduate. =]
jiayou fe! save save save!
jus digged out my piggy bank which was zzz-ing in my cupboard.
it's time to feed it!

step2: there's more to life.
apart from basketball.
there's more to life.
feed myself with more knowledge.
stop being so laid back. =]
had been reading story books and nua-ing.
when school reopens, it time to buck up for a better sem! =]

and i wanna travel. i wanna see the world. there's so much more things in life.
i wanna be able to bring my family to many other countries.
and all these would boils down to money too.
so..save save save! =]

there's so much more to life.
there's this sudden wave that is hitting me.
asking me to wake up.
be some1 more mature.
be some1 who thinks and plans for e future.
work harder for life as a whole.
not jus basketball.
but life. =]

jiayou fe!
jiayou every1!
we cannot go back and make a brand new start.
but we can always start from now and make a new ending!
let's create a new ending from now! =]

n hmm finished reading "dear john".
gosh..it's sadder than the movie.
cz..the movie din had a ending..n i adopted the happy ending scenario in my mind.
but in e book, the ending was certain.
it was a happy ending in a way. but sad in another.

getting started on the time traveller's wife.
i guess i will cry once again.
it's amazing how words string together to create a story.
and how the combination of the alphabets can create a diff word each time.
this is language =] and that's why i love linguistics.

as i get more books, there's this concept of building a bookshelf in my own house in e future and jus place all of them there.
each book that you read nv fail to give you a new understanding about life.
read 4 to 5 books this holiday?
not a lot..but each is nice =]

alright.
take gd care every1!
nitez =]]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.smile and enjoy.][

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

][.when nothing seems right.][

][.when nothing seems right.][

head is hurting.
body is hurting.
but nothing hurts more than e heart.

hate e immaturity.
hate e sucky performance.
hate e lack of strength.
hate it.
hate it.
hate it.

hate losing when you knew that if you did better, you could have won.
hate it.
agrh.
a lost is a lost.
there's nothing you can say.
agrh.

after this season,
it's time to get e strength back.
feeling the effect of over training.
needs the passion to be fuel up again.

for now,
just rest.
take gd care every1.
night.

想哭但是哭不出来。

p/s: i need a haircut.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.status: feel like vomitting.][

Monday, July 26, 2010

][.once in a while, every1 needs some time alone.][

][.once in a while, every1 needs some time alone.][

since it's 125am now..
ytr was a long day in the west.
gosh. super tired now.
slept ard 3plus am ytr..woke up at 6plus 7am today morning to go back to ntu.
and stood the whole journey till dover.
missed 2 ntu shuttle cz ppl cannot stand on e bus.
had yog trng till 1plus pm.

bid fungi gdbye cz she has test and was too tired to watch inception le ba.
inception of inception. haha
sh was saying..ltr she tot she was dreaming tt she watched tt show =P

went to popular after that.
wanted to get some papers to write notes for team kem.
but got a story book for myself instead.
wanted to buy 2!
but nono..must learn to save.
bought "the traveler's wife" =]
had not read it yet.
but it seems like a gd book!

i love to buy books which i love.
love to keep things which i enjoy.
always feel tt i can share w ppl tt i love regarding the things i love.
for eg. didi do take my mitch albom books n read.
haha nv intro nicholas sparks to him..cz it's all romance?!



after getting my book, went to starbucks n settled down.
read, felt sleepy but continue reading till sh came. =]
met kat and sara in btw too.
haha..after roomie came, we went to eat xlb and sour spicy soap. *slurps*


went back to ntu again for e 2nd time of e day!
lpbt to welcome mao wang!
it was fun. =]
jus tt my wrist is really hurting and my knee and my left shoulder.
agrh.
abcde.
pain, pls stop!
i wanna train.
i wanna do better.
pls.
thank you! =]

n now i m back home.
super tired and all.
but jus some thoughts for the day.
every1 needs some time alone.
remember to give yourself some time alone.
to think, to relax and all.
sometimes, being alone is relaxing..becoz you don't have to account to any1.
you don't have to bother about what e other person is thinking.
you jus retreat into a kind of calm-ness and reflect upon life =]

enjoy-ed my time alone today.
but friends and family are definitely still v impt to me.
so is basketball =]

ok! rest well every1!
night! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.ko-ed.][

Sunday, July 25, 2010

][.rest and family.][

][.rest and family.][

finally.
a day not meeting basketball. =]
rest is needed.

tuition-ed e whole day.
morning till noon.
noon till evening.
den rushed back to have dinner w family =]

2 things on my look forward list is done.
sat's game. =]
sun's family dinner.=]

a funny and random conversation..
mummy: eh..you are turning 21 soon and you are not attached?!
me: who set the rule tt a girl must be attached?
mummy: i was already engaged to your dad when i was your age!
me: uh huh..so? i wanna have my own life, own money n leave e rest to when i m out to work? so early rom for what?
daddy: to give birth to 2 useless bums (didi and me)
didi: =_="

enjoy such family moments.
when u spend every night each wk with nothing but basketball, these precious moments are really moments to rmb =]

on another note..saw e stats tt coach did for us.
hmmm..not a gd game for myself after all.
much more trng needed.
jiayou fe!
keep going! =]
go team!

alright!
shall go watch au revior taipei on natnatvip and zzz le.
tml is gg to be a long day in e west!

take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.status:rest,recharge and focus.][

Saturday, July 24, 2010

][.what a night!. =].][

][.what a night!.=].][

开心。
好开心。
真开心。
很开心。

好久,好久没这么开心了。
哨子吹了的那一刻,很想哭。
快乐的想哭。
我不能形容我的心跳在比赛之前跳动得多快。
快到 -- "it's in e mouth"。
我不能告诉你,过去的几天日日盼望和分析的比赛。
还有,半年以来的努力。

努力,终于有结果。
就算只是一个起步,还是很快乐。
在场边支持了六年。
在板凳支持了四年。
终于,盼到这一天。
过去的努力,终算没有白费。

不能掉以轻心。
我们都清楚。
接下来的比赛不容易。
但,我们要继续努力。
继续努力。

你曾告诉我,你要让你的球员看到努力的打球的球员。
我对你说,你这些年都让我看到努力不懈的你。
在场边支持的六年,每回看到你因笔数被拉远,输球而难过的表情,我都会对自己说。。
只要有一天和你站在同一个球场,我一定会尽全力。
我们继续努力吧。
把汗水换成微笑。

加油!信心!=]

it's 2:50am now.
jus came back from ling's home. went to play taboo =]
it's a good night.
even a bruised knee is ok.
it's a good night.
we smiled.
n i will continue to work harder.
even harder.

knees,wrist,fe..pls hang in there!
we shall make it a good season!
it's 2010! =]
let's go team! =]]

take gd care every1!
night! =]

p/s: sorry tt it's all about e team. cz..that's all my life is about at the moment.
and on a sidenote, 人生真的很无常。今日不知明日事。现在,只想对阿姨说 “加油”.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.big big smile.][

Friday, July 23, 2010

][.believe.focus.enjoy.][

][.believe.focus.enjoy.][

just came back from e airport after sending wen n moi off.
they are gg away for 3wks.
have fun!! =]

today was ok. normal nice day.
tuition,massage n training.
n i sweat till i felt like crying during training today. (seriously, not e kind of trng tt you would expect be4 an impt game e nxt day)
it's like turbo.
you play,train,play,train every single day.
n it's e ttm kind every single day.
haha it makes me wonder why at times.

but in between e sweat n verge of tears, i smiled.
this is everything.
this is everything that i have.
in 2 yrs, i am gg to retire out gradually.
n if i wanna enjoy and hear the nice atmosphere, it had to be double e hard work.

when others train, i train.
when others rest, i still train.

i just want to enjoy e game. =]
let's go team!
let's enjoy e game!

and talked to fungi during airport today..
i smiled.
there shall be no more again. =]
this is it.

looking forward to e game tml.
looking forward to maybe family dinner on sun.
looking forward to watching incepetion with fungi after our yov trng on mon.
looking forward to enjoying e season as each game passes.
i know i din play well but it will get better =]

ok! rest well every1!
nitez =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.time for bed - rest.][

Thursday, July 22, 2010

][.rest and focus needed.][

][.rest and focus needed.][

it takes a lot of strength to play a season.
u focus on e game. focus on e trng in preparation for e nxt game.
but it feels so gd.

give all i can.
this is what i promise both of you and the team.
nothing but my best =]

tired.
bloggy, all you are going to see on my blog for this month would be - tired.
e body is working more.
100plus is trying to fill up e work load.
but no matter what.
let's fight till e end.
i believe..just as you do!

haha jus some encouragment for myself =]
aw..watched "the socerer's apprentice" today w hall 9 og.
it's a nice show.
i m nt a fan of such shows..but it's nice. =]



就把我当成小气吧。
但,我不想交谈,不想再吵架。
希望你能理解。

我没有生气了。没理由,没必要。
毕竟,这不是第一次。
若你问我,我只能说,我忘不了被骗的感觉。
指的不是这次,而是那个转换一切的‘谎’。
那个把我们竟有的友谊推进火坑的‘谎’。

好累吧。
我们都累了吧。
每隔一段期间就争吵是累的。
我很讨厌吵架。

这段期间,只有专心的,努力的为不会背弃我的篮球努力。
为我在乎的人努力。
其余的事,我不想去想。
也不要去管。
竟然早就决定离开和离开了,就离开吧。
这样,很累吧?

别担心,我过得很好。
孤单,不一定不快乐
。=]

ok la! shall go rest le!
take gd care every1!
bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.focus.][

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

][.how?.][

][.how?.][

had e 2nd game of e season.
the 1st game was bad.
so the 2nd can't be worst =]
it felt ok.
nt exceptionally good or bad.
jus ok.
a few mistakes here n there.
anger with myself here n there.
but apart from that, it's ok.

however, no matter how hard i try..
it nv seems enough.
nv.
i guess that's e only way i can push myself more ba.
is this ur way of pushing me?

really thankful for npo.
thankful for ur encouragment after every game.
thanks for noticing the saddness in me which i tried to hide.
thanks.
for u, i will work harder.
nothing else, but harder.

almost cramped on court today.
since how long did i have cramp? i have no idea.

jus came home from supper w van,lao fern and employer.
had tcc - treat from van. thanks van!
den went macs n i ate 9 nuggets! 9 9 9 !
gosh..like a pig.
i guess realli too hungry le.
not to mention i had pasta be4 tt.

gosh.
whole body tired ttm.
knees are not doing well.
it's like lime and lemon squeezed all over.
n tml's hall og outing.
secretly not really looking fwd to it..cz..
.jy can't go =[[[
.body is really tired. like really. there's gg to be trng tml, trng on fri, game on sat, trng on sun,mon,tues, game on wed. how on earth is e body gg to recover?! i m not superwoman.

alright. for now..nth matters. apart frm family and those tt realli matters.
i need my rest, my focus for e game.
n i nd to find npo.

n i m who i m.
if i gets angry, i m sorry.

ok..take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.我决定再也不。。.][

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

][.love in a puff.][

][.love in a puff.][

now it's 3:49am.
a random choice to watch a movie online had been right.
love in a puff is nice. simple to digest n funny n sweet.
love e last scene especially - !U 55iW I - this is sweet ttm.

aw..ok back to life.
everything is gd.
jus gotta buck up and win the remaining games!
it's possible.
we jus got to put the ball into e basket!
come on fe!
come on kem!
let's go!

n i jus wanna eat hotcakes!

alright..take gd care every1!
nitez =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.focus.][

Saturday, July 17, 2010

][.it had never felt worst.][

][.it had never felt worst.][

if there's aword tt can describe how i feel now.
it would be crap.
n when i m in a crappy mood.
there's no one else apart from myself who can pull myself up.
so..jus yups. give me some time alone.
i will get back.

bye.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.ultra disappointment.][

Thursday, July 15, 2010

][.陌生人.][

][。陌生人。][

最近,每天都有一首最爱的歌。
真的很喜欢这首歌。
喜欢它的歌词 - 蔡健雅:陌生人。



一朵雲能載多少思念的寄托 再忽然相遇街頭
當我們擦身而過 那短短一秒鐘 都明白 什麼都變了
一轉身誰能把感慨拋在腦後 在事過境遷以後
這段情就算曾經 刻骨且銘心過 過去了 又改變什麼

地球它又 公轉了幾周了(濃情愛戀 都已陌生了)
我不難過 甚至真心希望你能幸福
當我瞭解你只能活在記憶裡頭
我不恨你了 甚至原諒你的殘酷理由 當我瞭解不愛了
連回憶 都是負荷 我不難過 甚至真心希望你能幸福
當我瞭解你只能活在記憶裡頭 我不恨你了
甚至感謝這樣不期而遇 當我從你眼中發現我已是
陌生人了 我已是 陌生人了

好好的歌词。
好伟大的放手。
好让人心痛的歌词。
特别喜欢这几句。。

當我們擦身而過 那短短一秒鐘 都明白 什麼都變了
你有过这种感受吗?希望没有。
因为,真的很痛。当初的要好变成如今的陌生。
那感觉真的很不好受。
但,很多事发生了就是发生了。
不可能忘记也不能当作没发生过。
唯一能做的就是不停的往前。
因为,生命不能停留在过往。 =]

我不難過 甚至真心希望你能幸福
我不恨你了 甚至原諒你的殘酷理由
要做到这一点,真的不容易。
真的不容易。
恨一个人需要力气。
所以,我不喜欢恨。
因为毕竟曾经是如此的友好。
但是,当你想到结束的理由时,有多少人能不难过?

haha ok! jus some random-ness again.
dun mind dun mind ok ;p
jus analyzing e lyrics and life!
nothing in particular.
life is good as it is. cz there's nth else tt matters more to me than e games now =] (apart frm my family n friends)
love tt song so.
gosh. tired.
but can't wait for sat now =]
let's go team!

rest well every1!
nitez!
k.o-ed. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.rest rest.][

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

][。原点。][

][。原点。][

好好听的一首歌哦!

若你和你的好友,同时喜欢上同一个人。。你会选择?
享受这首歌吧。。=]



现在(他/她)在你身边就对(他/她)好一点。=]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.t.i.r.e.d.][

][.t.i.r.e.d.][

hello bloggy!
tired.
tired.
tired.

pain.
pain.
pain.

motivated.
motivated.
motivated.

jing once told me that when you say something 3times mean you really mean it.
i really mean it.
tired.pain.motivated.
teamwork will get us there.
believe in yourself team-mates! =]

let's go and enjoy a season!
i am looking forward to it.
fight till we drop.
let's go! =]

can't wait for massage tml!
my body is not mine le =X



and these few days, this is my favourite song =]
*warning* it's emo! but i am not! so no worries!

take gd care every1!
Bye~~ =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jiayou npo!.][

Thursday, July 08, 2010

][.believe.][

][.believe.][

相信 - 是推动我努力最大的动力。=]
bought my new shoes today!
haha my habit.
new shoes for new season.

haha every1 feels tt it's gay apart from ling n sheryl =]
but it's ok.
whenever i buy bball shoes..it's e destiny and fate.
haha or rather love at 1st sight.
i must love it.
i guess this is true love ba..when what other say dun matter.
haha lol..so lame to link my love for my shoes to true love.
but true true..jus like how much i like sakuragi even when he is a joker =]

so tada!
here's my new love <3 =D




haha my new love cost me $119 =]
i had yet to think of a new for it yet..so for e meantime, it shall be called 911!
we are here to create some "explosion" =P

for this whole month, my focus will be on nothing but wnbl.
i had came to realise tt the game mean much more to me than i thought.
i don't care about what others think.
i just wanna keep believing.
keep working.
seriously, i am tired from all the trainings. aching from head to toe n skin to nerves. haha opps.
but there's smth that keep me going..faith and believe.
we have to believe that we can.
why doubt yourself?
why doubt your hard work?
why give up without a fight?
i don't care how good the other teams are.
like seriously.
you have to give it your best shot.
this is life.
if you keep feeling that others are better than you, den you will nv ever improve n nv ever win.
nv ever.
因为,你输在你自己。
i may not show it out.
but deep down, i seriously believe.
let's go out and fight.
fight hard.
fight with faith!
don't be bothered by the outcome.
jus give it your best shot!
come on team!
JiaYou!

as the year past, i had came to learnt tt others may not put the game in the same priority as me.
so there's no pt to be disappointed when the commitment is diff.
thou, there are times i feel really upset.
but it's ok.
you just have to be able to account to yourself.
have you gave ur best shot? =]
tt's all tt matter!

let's go fe!
let's go 911!
let's fight hard together! u have me and i have you.

ilovethegame.

rest well every1!
bye! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.信心.][

Monday, July 05, 2010

][.nostalgic ttm.][

][.nostalgic ttm.][

haha nostalgic ttm is all i can say about how i feel now.
after coming back from genting and all.
i guess we are all nostalgic ttm.
thinking about the past.
relating songs to ourselves.
haha..it's amazing how easily songs could be linked to the memory back den.

haha memories o memories.
i love how i can smile when i look back at the memories.
things tt had happened, not forgotten but buried well.
memories and things that made u grow.
those were the beautiful memories, beautiful past.

remember those things tt people had done for you.
not those that they had not.
everything happen for a reason.
everybody meet for a reason.
哭过,笑过,痛过,累过。
与其记得难过的争吵,不如记得快乐的那些日子。
往事,只能回味。
喜欢笑看当年。 哈哈。

nua-ing with roomie after trng is gd =]

take gd care every1!
night!

and i really love sakuragi hanamichi!
he is the only one that can rekindle my love for e game whenever i feel lost.
if only, he is a real life character! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.memories.][

Sunday, July 04, 2010

][.it was gd to be away!.][

][.it was gd to be away!.][

hello bloggy! finally back to you again.
been back for quite a few days! but was hiding from the world.
hiding from all the commitments.
it was a gd trip.
a gd get away! =D
i needed that really badly.

the trip was jus pure nua-ing.
the place really did not matter, it was the people that made it fun!
thanks ling n sh for asking me along!
thanks for pulling sheryl and moi along too.
haha it's like a *sheng zhong woosh*.
i love the trip.
this is e trip tt i buy really nth apart frm my "lao gong's" shirt and food.
but the nua-ing, e weather, taking viking, e chill and value-added coffee bean sessions. all = smiles.

let the photo memo the trip ba!
and jus some feel, the last time i went genting was 16yrs ago.so gg back there, seeing all e familiar places jus reminded me..it had been long since i went on a trip with my family. will try to go on one soon. =]


fly!! hah fly to the moon! fly away from all e world!



daddy made me took such a pic when i was 5yrs old =] will find it and make a comparison nxt time =]



haha ah b! i love it! will get one when i graduate =P




haha and us + moi! (camera-man)

thanks for making this trip so much fun n bringing me away for a get away!
seriously, it had been a long while since i can heck trngs. =]

after coming back from genting and hiding away from the world,
another highlight was jing's 21st =]
HAPPY 21st JING!
we love you!
glad tt things are sort of resolved. =]
will post mre abt us when pics are up!

n it was cycling all over tamp for tuitions ytr.
in e rain, in e sun. =]

n now..jus as i was glad to get away and ready to get back, smth happened which made me vvv sian. sian ttm.
seriously, just duplicate me ok.
give me 3 copies of fe. thank you.
all 3 teams matter to me a lot.
dun doubt my excitement and commitment for woman's open. it matters to be a lot.
but there are responsibilites to be fulfilled.
here there and there.
i love for things to be simple.
but sometimes, it jus can't be simple.
every1 wuld only see their side.
no1 wuld truly und unless they are in ur shoes.
sigh. big big sigh.
that's all i can let out now.
and crying dun mean tt i m weak as a player.
i m jus tired.

alright..end here le.
night every1! Bye!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.3 copies, thank you.][

Sunday, June 27, 2010

][.Get Away!.][

][.Get Away!.][

in 7 hours, i am getting away!

e get away was a plan to get away from the routine of just training non-stop.
but now, it serves another purpose.
i will use it to get away from the volcano eruption and let things cool down 1st.
stay strong jing n fungi!
moi n me will be back and we will face all this together.

take gd care every1!
bye!
esp fungi n jing! take gd care *hugs*

when you cry till you have no more strength to cry anymore.
that's when you know, you need a break.
it breaks my heart to see them so sad.
we are in this together.

ok..off for the trip.
will not bring too much emotions over.
it's not fair to affect others. =]
let's go sh,ling,sheryl and moi!
let's have a gd trip!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.take a break.][

Saturday, June 26, 2010

][.speechless.][

][.speechless.][

i typed a whole page.
but i deleted everything.

cz people who truly care will continue to care even though they are disappointed.
just that they get tired.
but they will continue to care.

i hate quarrels.
iloveus.
jus don't say "disappointed" easily.

in 20++yrs of life.
only 2 person ever told me tt they are disappointed in me.
n it made me really upset.
never easily say that word to people who truly cared for you.
never.
i hate the word.

ok..rest well every1!
nitez.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.status: tired. 1 day to get away!.][

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

][.Happiness.][

][.Happiness.][

happiness can be very simple at times.
for me, it's doing something that you love and enjoy doing it. =]

i had been happy for e past few days.
end of work.
dinner with family on father's day due to cancellation of training.
massage, chill out by myself at starbucks, tuition, training, world cup with fungi yesterday.
shopping with mummy, met pri sch teachers who treat me sushi and tuition and training today.

things can be very simple.=]

love to see the smiles on the faces of my loved ones.
especially my family and best friends.
ur smile brings on my smile =]

ok! end here already!
today is a v random day with a v random post.
but these random-ness is bringing me happiness.

and not to forget.
the talk that jasmine gave me.
thanks jas. =]
thou u will nv see this.

take gd care every1!
nitez =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i am happy.][

Thursday, June 17, 2010

][。最熟悉的陌生人。][

][。最熟悉的陌生人。][

昨晚临睡前,翻看了i-周刊。
不经意看到了叶咏梅写的这篇稿。
觉得很有意义。
所以决定和大家分享。。
希望你从中也能领悟些。。

相爱需要靠运气,分手后有没有机会成为朋友,那就要看有没有这个必要了。
情人在提出分手后总会说出这句 - “不如我们做回朋友吧!"
听起来,对方似乎是想把伤害减到最低。
但是,如果你曾深深地爱过对方,在勉强自己接受分手事实的当儿是绝对无法在短期内把对方视为朋友看待的。
除非你们协议分手或因为工作的关系而必须保持朋友关系。
最近跟一位十年没联络的旧爱在电台碰上了。
我们终于打破了十年的沉默,简单的一句问候,跟同事简要的交代我们的过去,就真的没有好聊了。
说真的,当初很渴望与他保持朋友关系,但对方选择不告而别。
几年后,我们在路上不期而遇,我还主动跟他打招呼,但他却视而不见。
生日的时候,对方也没有发简讯祝你更别说主动联络你。
在这样的情况下,真的有必要勉强成为朋友吗?
如果你刚刚提出分手,为了避免不必要的藕断丝连的暧昧关系,最好彻彻底底地断了所有联络的管道,感觉对方好像在人间蒸发了一样。
虽然这种方式很残酷,但分手后不再成为朋友绝对是让对方心死的最佳途径。
在网上看到这段字:分手后不可以做朋友因为彼此伤害过。
分手后也不可以做敌人因为彼此曾经深爱过。
因此分手后只能做最熟悉的陌生人。
我觉得这是再贴切不过的形容词了。
除了爱与恨,爱情也有它的灰色地带,做不成朋友就做彼此最熟悉的陌生人吧!

haha ok! end here le!
take gd care every1!
Bye~~

waiting for fungi to join me for e nxt world cup match! =P

p/s: finally there's no trng and i could dye and cut my hair. =]

][.10.fe.15.][

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

][.3 more days to the end of 人性的丑陋.][

][.3 more days to the end of 人性的丑陋.][

i really can't wait for ahyi to come back!
i think i will go to the airport to welcome her back and hand all the docs to her.
i swear, i seen some of the worst side of human beings during this 2 wks.
all sorts of excuses when ppl can't make it for things.
all sorts of shit.

i could tolerate everything.
at most just 委屈 a little.
but today was the last straw.
allow me to express my anger in the most crude way.
it's really wtf.
i swear i don't scold the word easily.
but it's really can't help it.

this person today is the worst person that i had ever met.
she did not hurt me.
but she insulted me.
questioned me.
i swear, no1 had every insulted me in this way in 20 plus yrs of life.

i am not perfect,
i am not good.
but in the sense of responsibility, i can account to myself.
fine.
u scold, u insult.
i will do it in a more educated way.
if education means demanding, insulting and questionning another person,
i think u are not educated.
and it's seldom tt i have courage to tell any1 this.
but ur f-ing attitude was more than enough for me to be sparked.

i am gg to keep all the insulting message and show ahyi once she is back.
i am gg to inform the coordinator and parent and make sure that you can take things in ur hands.
i will see how u take things in ur hands.
if u wan to make things diff for me.
i can make it even more diff for you.
rubbish.crap.

for once, i feel that irresponsible ppl are most annoying.
but for now, they ain't.
cz at least they don't insult.

agrh.

i ranted at least 5times but it still can't get e steam off.
ok..cool down.cool down.

there are bad ppl.
but there are definitely gd ppl too.
this is life.
this is world.
this is humanity.

hate to blog unhappy incidents down.
but i will blog this down to remind me of the ugly side of the world.
and teach myself to not be nice to ppl who are unkind.

take gd care every1!
bye! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.3 more days!.][

Monday, June 14, 2010

][.the past.][

][.the past.][

randomly reading blog post to find our msia trip with kem.
saw many other post and discovered how much i had forgotten.

saw something tt i blogged in 2005.
to forget some1 is as hard as remembering some1 you had nv met be4.

woohoo..been 6yrs since i joined kem.
loads of gan chu.
but all boils down to thanks to npo n coach.

esp npo.
seeing 2005 post really brought back loads of memories.
how you tutored me maths and all.
you din have to put in e effort to tutor me and bring my qn back home to solve.
but u put in e effort and encouraged me.
i guess without your help, i could not have done as well for "o" levels ba. not tt i done v well. but acceptable.
how you coach me patiently, which seats we always sit at macs.
haha everything is in my memory.

from my coach to my team mate.
don't worry. i will watch ur back and we shall play a gd lan zhong bei.

i heard what u say when i din have e courage to do e move during trng tt day.
dun worry.
i will work hard n ensure tt my bad habit will be kicked be4 lan zhong.=]

alright 5hrs for slp!
rest well every1!
this is a super random post written by a super random person at a random time of 3:23am. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.npo.][

][.Can't wait for get away!.][

][Can't wait for get away!.][

i can't wait for ahyi to be back.
i can't wait for get away!
but be4 tt, i will just make do and have a gd laugh each day be4 i go for a gd break =]

watched kangxi..n saw this.
nice song! so wanna share!



den randomly found this song..


haha ok! tired le..rest well every1!
nitez =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sat. pls come faster.][

Friday, June 11, 2010

][.Busy.][

][.Busy.][

it's 2am in the morning.
need to get up at 6am to get to camp.
finished packing my bag, finished tidying work tt i have to do in camp.
pls let e phone be peace for tml n sun.
dun tink i m able to entertain e hp and camp at the same time.

camp + work + camp + trng + farewell dinner.
nxt 2 days is gg to be busy n busy.
wells..sometimes 忙忙碌碌过一天又一天没有不好。
还不错。因为至少不是盲目。 =]

alright!
end here and go rest le!
2 loong days ahead!
it's world cup again!
still remember placing my bet on italy during e finals n won $5..haha tt was 1031.
n i m gg to snr's camp and there will bound to be night games. but this time round, i will be a brave girl. there will be no1 tt i can msg to ease e fears.
but o wells..i can do it.
time will fade away e memories.
take these away pls. =]

nitez every1!
anything jus sms me. thou i may not get bac to u immediately.
but definitely =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.孤单,不一定不快乐.][

Thursday, June 10, 2010

][.thanks santa papa, i m getting away!.][

][.thanks santa papa, i m getting away!.][

nothing beats the green light for me to get away! =]
really vv happy after coach let me go ahead with my short getaway!
woohoo.

so for now, it's just work, train n get away! =]
it feels gd to have something to look forward to when life becomes a routine.

can't wait for ahyi to be back.
she says will treat me go big meal.
but i just want her to be back.
haha cz these work is haha not easy.

what's more..i m gg to hss snr camp 11th till 13th.
haha..all e best man fe!
i realli is 吃饱没事做。
明明就很多事做。
哈哈。o great.
it will be fine.
lao tian ye..pls pls.
i will settle more case.
n pls let me have some peace for sat n sun during e camp!
拜托了!

最近很喜欢听周笔畅的歌。

haha ok! end here le!
take gd care every1! =]
Bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.为自己努力.][

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

][.成长.][

][。成长。][

在某个地方,看到了这一段有意义的感触。。
任何承诺都一样,在我们说“我永远爱你”的时候,大都千真万确。
真心真意。
后来,变的其实不是承诺而是人心。
台湾作家 -- 吴淡如。

承诺是真的,只是心变了。

我想,我终究明白了。

我以為很忙 儘量不要想 就是遺忘
不過一年後 我們終於 變了朋友
却是朋友的朋友 再想不出什麼藉口 還有要求
不過一年後过一年后 我们终于 只是朋友
回憶里有相同鏡頭 現實是 不同出口

现实是不同出口。

昨晚,我做出了决定。
这决定让我再次肯定了。。
有些人注定相识后就是离别。
捉不住的,我不会再强求了。
再也不会。
这是我最后一次这样说了。

因为,不想再为回忆难过。

还有,我不会轻易说任何承诺。
因为,我明白心会变。

好啦!继续去忙工作了。
忙完工作就去练球。
好好的练。
练完就休息。
期待放个假。
教练,拜托了。

][.10.fe.15.][

][.why?.][

][.why?.][

been on high level stress for the past few days since ahyi went away to shanghai.
trying to cope with her work.
which i swear is causing me to go bonkers.
so if i nv reply ur sms or ans ur calls in time, forgive me.
cz the other phone is already eating my life away.

sudden waves of thoughts came crashing towards me.
the past came back to find me.
made me wonder why did things turn out the way it is now.
why?

thanks to fungi!
i m feeling so much better now.
thanks to her i see things in some way tt i don't.
i used to ponder upon why?
why did things change?
why did promises break?
but i failed to see that people change.
promises break.
nothing is forever.

fungi taught me e lesson today.
there's no forever in promises.
things changed.
i made a choice and i made another tonight.
i have decided to leave it to fate.
n fate told me tt e decision i made in e past is right.
let time fade away things ba.



super nice song.
loved it in e past.
n addicted to it now.

ok! take gd care every1!
bye..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.get away!.][

Thursday, June 03, 2010

][.Forest Adventure! - ZIPP!.][

][.Forest Adventure! - ZIPP!.][

超人不会飞。
但是,我们会!=P
haha jkjk!
been a while since i enjoyed myself, doing things tt's fun!

2 kids set off on a forest adventure.
conquering their fear for heights.
doing things that they would never thought they could till they tried.
sweating it out.
some cuts and scraps.
but ended it with a smile and confidence of doing things tt they din knew they could =]

let e pics memo the good morning ba!



all ready to go on OUR OWN! =D



forest adventure!



red-on! safety briefing be4 we go off by ourselves =P
it was scary cz unlike adventure camps, you're on ur own. =X (thankfully i have a gd buddy to remind and encourage me thur out =D)



the tarzan trial!




the 4 storey tarzan fall =X
gosh..i must be siao at the moment i jumped off.
all i tot of was..i mus scream TARZAN!! n jumped off.
haha i had e scream of my life and it echoed.








a few of the climbs. haha there were quite a lot ;p



the scars tt we got from the double black = extreme difficulty obstacle!
haha but we din captured it cz was too focused on encouraging n getting over =]
on that obstacle, i got a sudden gush tt if i don't do it myself.
no1 would be able to help me with it.
being up there really made me feel tt even if you cry, you have to complete it yourself. =]
n when u finally do, i was quite certain tt somehow something is growing within. =]
thanks loads to kid & instructor's encouragments and instructions as to what to do.
cz it was all a blur.
rmb seeing e pinky and feeling faint once i reached the platform.
tt was e 2nd scariest apart frm tarzan jump!







some zip-line pics!
initially, i tot zipping would be the scariest thing =X
BUT..it turned out to be e best one!
all you do is relax and enjoy e view at a height tt you would nt be able to usually.
*shiok* haha as long as u dare to take e 1st step out to zip.
it's just so nice =]



haha and here's a big smile be4 we went off for e last zipline to conclude e day! =]
i like this pic. =]
tired but smiles.
it was really fun!

haha love to try things tt you din noe you could.
but you really could =]
thanks loads for e wonderful morning kid! =D
nxt up! 42.195!

ok! end here le!
take gd care every1!
give it a try! =D
it's fun!
n many times, you won't know till you try. =]
u will be amazed by yourself!
n i love tt. =]

p/s: i need more random funs =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.random funs!.][

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

][.The Choice.][

][.The Choice.][



been a while since i read my hours away.
did that till 5am this morning jus becoz i wanted to finish the book.
daddy popped by ard 4am and asked.."too interesting to not finish it huh?"
indeed =]

bought myself 3 bks to on sun.
wanted to just get dear john.
cz i like e movie but sad at the not so perfect ending.
so wanna get the bk n read since many said tt e bk is much better than e movie.

however, there was this get 3bks and a 30% discount.
so..haha here's 3 for me.
"Dear John", "The Choice" and "Nights in Rodanthe"

finished "The Choice".
it's nice.
those kind where humour is here and there making you lol.
those kind whereby ur tears will just flow..
ur heart will just pound as you await the answer..
and at the end..it's a smile.
i love books which made me smile in e end.
no matter how much i have to cry in the midst.
just make sure it's a happy ending.
cz i do not like to dwell in sadness =]

reading the book made me consider certain things too.
touching on the issue of euthanasia.
how far would you go to keep the hopes of love alive?
i am against the idea of euthanasia.
i would want to keep the hopes alive.
but mummy always told me tt she would be for it as she don't ever want to be a burden to those living.
if seeing it from her point, i would nt want to be a burden to my love ones too.
but when faced with the choice, i would wish to believe that miracles do exist.
n tt as long as u dun remove the feeding tube, there would be a chance.
wells..it's something tt i will always think about once in a while.
but given a choice, i hope i would nv have to make a choice in this.
*pray hard*

choice choice choice.
life is all about this isn't it.
you make a simple choice of what to eat, what to wear, what to say.
you make the choice of which sch you wanna enter.
you make the choice of whether you want to work hard or give up without a try.
you make the choice of who enters your life and who leaves yours.
you make the choice for every single thing.
and the choices you make determines who you are and who you will be. =]

moving on to read the 2nd bk now - night in rodanthe.
jing says all this is too unrealistic to be true.
but it's ok. =]
i like it.
haha..i dun nd this to be true.
i just want to enjoy reading it.
shall read a bit more n slp.
tml shall be forest adventure with kid! =D
looking forward to it!

haha n ankle, pls brace up n get well soon.
one inflammed ligament.
regaining stability and strength is needed.
but breaks are needed too.
time alone are much treasured too. =]

take gd care every1!
Bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

][.聊天.][

][。聊天。][

what a random tues!
no training!! haha unbelievable huh!
i also cannot believe..but yups.
a vv gd tues spent.

woke up..helped didi with his maths.
den went to meet e pigs!
nua at ws.
great right..ws also can nua.
ate at superdog, went popular den went cotton on.
haha ok..maybe shuld say jus wen n i shopping at cotton on.
jing n fungi jus can't take it.
n moi had left to fetch her cousin by den.
was on a shopping spreed! bought myself a vest and a pair of sunglasses =]






here's my shopping buys! =]
n e necklace tt jing gave me - jigsaw. (for me to find my right half - lol. e others jus =_=)

den went to ntuc to buy franks and drinks n went to jing's house - like finally.
played mahjong all e way.
with us eating franks, kimchi, jing's mum's cheese cake and hating each other as always and jing wanting to play bball. =]
left jing's hse ard 9plus.
took a stop den..wen n i saw pasar malam!
immediately alight and went to play at pasar malam!
haha play e lame games n eat!
we just love pasar malam don't we? =]

came home.
ate dinner w daddy.
n he gave me a lecture on how to play mahjong!
haha cool daddy huh =]

so all in all..it's a gd gd day spent w ppl i love.
wen say i step.
but i dun care.
i really love what jing says..
when one heart breaks, four other echoes with it.
mushy but true.
ours is a tough love.
but through the tough times, you can be sure tt you won't be alone.
i promise.

ok! end here le!
take gd care every1!
bye~~
love this song..


][.10.fe.15.][
][.the best ship.][

Monday, May 31, 2010

][.we are in a whirl of changes.][

][.we are in a whirl of changes.][

we are in a whirl of changes.
we are in a 3hrs movie.
we are like 狗仔队。
but what are we?
we are best friends.
n best friends would never leave each another in a lurch.
just never betray their trust for you.

i love this quote recently..
love is blind.
but..
friendship closes its eyes.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.forever5.][

Friday, May 28, 2010

][.adventure.][

][.adventure.][

things had not been going on well these few days.
but getting out of it all.
thanks to llz n moi in particular. =]

chill-lax noon watching ip man be4 friendly was needed!
haha good company always make one feel better.

thanks loads to moi too.
for more than words can say.
just being a decade of best friend.
i m more than thankful that our f/s did nt end due to our childish-ness last time. =]

n thanks to fungi, sh n every1 tt sms-ed me.
sorry tt i may nt reply cz realli quite down on luck these while.
so nt in e best of mood.
but ok le..getting back e =].
realli appreciate all!

getting back to e game is not easy.
stamina had clearly went down hill within a few wks.
will get it back.

for now..things to look forward to..
bbq with the pigs tml!
forest adventure with kid nxt thurs! =]



ok! end here le!
take gd care every1!
Bye~

][.10.fe.15.][

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

][.drown in sorrows.][

][.drown in sorrows.][

the harder you work, the greater the disappointment.
drinking is never an option.
but for tonite, heineken is my best friend.
nite every1!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sad.][

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

][.Sleep and nua = smiles!.][

][.Sleep and nua = smiles!.][

woohoo!
after feeling grouchy and tired for a few days.
today is gd =]
supposed to work BUT got not feeling too gd so took leave in e morning.
n ended up e whole day cz jy says they have enough ppl.
so slept till shiok.
woke up, eat breakfast, nua, check out e travel packages.
eat lunch, watch tv, sleep.
wake up n go trng.
went xh's 21st bday after tt.
n it's up till now.
ate n played mahjong w sunarko, ahqin n xh n her friends.
thanks thanks to ahqin.
today don't have to jiao xue fei le =]

days such as these are really gd =]
mummy say i m super nua.
but i told her i m deprived of rest.
so haha..dun care.
jus slp all i want.
watched 星光大道and listened to many nice songs.



went trng.
been a while since i trained this way.
the trng is nt tiring.
but e ankle n time tt i sat out made me v tired.
n great ankle is swollen again.
right calf too cz i tried to use all e strength from the right.
o great.
nbm la.
i miss e game. =]
get well soon legs.
so i can change directions and guard my opponent.
n i nd to adjust my shooting for underbaskets.
strength is diff.

n some random thoughts..
在我无法确定我能彻彻底底的把一切当成过往云烟之前。。
我选择固执。
一种连自己也不喜欢的固执。

其实,我已经没多大的气了。
但是,知道自己的脾气。
不希望再次争吵。
所以,选择执着。

世界上,没有任何人需要另一个人才能快乐。
更何况,我不是那个人。
给彼此多一些时间吧。

ok la! go rest le!
take gd care every1!
byee~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

Monday, May 24, 2010

][.你问我有多累,就有多累.][

][.你问我有多累,就有多累.][

累了。
真的很累。
考完试到现在都还没好好休息。
没有一天是属于自己的。
没有一天是无需想明天要赶这或那的。

考试时睡最多六个小时。
考试后,还是一样。

是人,都会累。

脚迟迟还没康复。
想必也是心情不佳的其中一个原因吧。

我,想放自己一个假。
逃离这无法停下脚步的世界。
享受,我因有的人生。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.getting away.][

Friday, May 21, 2010

][.口不对心.][

][。口不对心。][

在facebook偶然看见这个故事。
想和大家分享。
也当作是提醒自己。=]

时间:一天晚上。
地点:躺在床上。
人物:相互喜欢的双方。


女生很想他,于是决定给他发一条短信:
你睡了吗?在干嘛呢?呵呵,我们还在说话呢。据说明天要降温,多穿点衣服呀!!其实--- 其实--- 我现在挺想你的!!

考虑了一分钟,把短信改成:

你睡了吗?在干嘛呢?呵呵,我们还在说话呢。据说明天要降温,多穿点衣服呀!!

又考虑了一分钟:

你睡了吗?在干嘛呢?呵呵,我们还在说话呢。


又一分钟:


你睡了吗?在干嘛呢?

又一分钟:

睡了吗?在干嘛?

然后,她按了确定发送的键!

( 叹气....)

男生的手机响了!男生抓起来一看果然是她,莫名的激动起来!赶紧给她回短信:

我还没有睡呢,现在正在上网。呵呵,我们宿舍也正热闹的起劲!!听说明天要降温,别忘了多穿衣服呀!其实-- 其实-- 咱们明天一起吃饭吧?

考虑了一分钟:

我还没有睡呢,现在正在上网。呵呵,我们宿舍也正热闹的起劲!!听说明天要降温,别忘了多穿衣服呀!

又考虑了一分钟:


我还没有睡呢,现在正在上网。

又一分钟:

上网。

然后,他按了确定发送的键!

( 叹气....)

有没有试过这样的情况,你喜欢的那个人,你居然会不敢和他说话。

写一个短信给你,到了最后一秒,居然就会删除。

左想右想,怕你知道我的心轻视我,怕哪句话说不好让你不开心,
更怕的是,如果忙忘记了或者因为别的原因没有回应,有多么尴尬。

写一封邮件给你,写了一千字,删除掉八百字。

去掉我想念你,去掉所有的心情,去掉天气,去掉自己刚刚看的电影,
去掉自己昨天心情不好以及今天心情好的原因,去掉所有和感情相关的字眼,
仿佛公事公办的,变成三行的邮件,到了最后,居然也没有发出去。

不喜欢的人,可以容易地讲个笑话,随便地发个短信,
甚至,打去电话问对方有什么节目以便随时去参加。

喜欢的,却变成心里的死穴一个,动都不敢动,甚至,看到的时候,话都说不出来。

喜欢某个人,偏偏见到他,一句话没有。

看着旁边的朋友和他谈笑风生,心里又嫉妒又着急。
暗示或者表白心际,一句我爱你,永远不丢人。


很喜欢这个故事。
因为,好像自己。
选择不把心里话说出来。
真的好贴切。
相信每个人一生总会有类似的情况吧。

你,选择说,还是不说?
选择不说,那人永远都不知道。
但,你也错过了。
只要自己不后悔就好。
对于自己的不说,我不后悔。=]

选择太迟说,时机一旦错过了就再也无法找回那感觉。
错过了才惋惜,一切也太迟了。

所以,作了决定就要面对。
不要后悔。
我学会了。

haha just a random post! =]
ankle, pls get well soon!
take gd care every1!
Bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.你真的知道吗?.][

Monday, May 17, 2010

][.Random FunS!.][

][.Random FunS!.][

been a while since i work =]
had nt worked over e weekend due to cancelling of tuitions frm kids who needs a break.
jus nice, a break for me.
spent a nice sat with family.
bowling, arcade n all.
n it's nt just e kids, e adults had loads of fun too!
family days such as these are treasured mre than anything =]






more photos..but v lazy to upload. =P
sun was ok.
sentosa, trng n home.

today is ok too.
nua at hm e whole day.
went out to take photos of marina bay at night.
realli nd to work hard and buy a gd cam and learn photography nxt time.
always loved to take pics of sceneries!
n one of e greatest dream is to take a nice nice sunset and the northern lights =]



haha for now..jus one pic =]
will upload mre nxt time! or when moi send me hers w e better qualities =P

ok! tired le!
take gd care every1!
n yes..watched dear john online.
nice..but jus felt tt there's a bit of a pity.
time, misunderstandings, choices made.
all this constitutes life.
leg is healing apart frm one ligament.
but i guess i m returning to court tml.
lao tian ye, pls look after my leg.
Bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i think, i m starting to put down.][

Friday, May 14, 2010

][.自己决定.][

][。自己决定。][

一个人的快乐与否是自己决定的。
你决定让自己快乐或继续不快乐。

外头正下着雨。
我的心情也一样。
不说出来并不代表没事。
今晚,我决定放坚强一天假。

累了。
晚安。
脚又肿了。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.tired.][

Thursday, May 13, 2010

][.回忆,可以是最美的过往也可以是最可怕的敌人.][

][.回忆,可以是最美的过往也可以是最可怕的敌人.][

不明白。
有时候,我真的不明白。
为何曾经如此在乎彼此的两个人,到最后却变成伤彼此最深的人。

哈哈,不是指自己。
是因为看到好友受伤,为她们感到很气愤。
很心痛。
每回看到好友受伤都很想痛骂伤害她们的人。

不懂得珍惜你的人,真的不值得你珍惜。
或许,这就是人生。
只希望,自己在乎的好友不会再被欺负了。
老天爷,拜托您了。

回忆,有时真的很可怕。
因为,它总是偷偷的浮现。
但,我相信时间总能冲淡一切。

haha ok! end here le!
take gd care every1!
night! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.protect.][

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

][.Steve Irwin & Terri Irwin.][

][.Steve Irwin & Terri Irwin.][

today's post would be a tribute to Steve Irwin - The crocodile hunter and his wife -Terri Irwin. =]







i bought a book for $8 and i had the best experience reading a bk since a long time.
a gdgd bk.
by random chance and encouter, i bought it while waiting for mamas to finish their movie. n it's really a gd bk.







written by his wife Terri Irwin, recounting how they first met, all their adventures, and everything.
beautifully written.
started reading and can't stop.
but i delayed a few days.
can't bring myself to read the last chapter.
cause, i know tt would be his death.
something tt you really wished did not happen after you read so much about this wonderful man.

by fate, terri met steve.
she recounted the first time she saw steve and their love for one another.
she recounted all the adventures that they went on which made me really respect steve irwin and all his efforts and his love for the animals.

a few adventures in the book tt i remembered. =]

Funny:
there was once they were in e desert and emu ran past them.
everyone thought tt it would be impossible to catch up with the emu.
but steve told the crew to grab the video cam and follow him.
be4 they knew, he was off chasing the emu and moments later, the emu was storming back with steve.
steve explained the charateristics of emu and allow them to run away again.
but the cam crew told him tt they did not manage to flim it.
n so he darted away to chase e emu again.
a very funny scene went thru my head while reading that.

Mateship:
there are many encouters of steve and his beloved crocs.
there was once some very bad storm is coming and the whole australia zoo was trying to settle the animals to higher land so that they would nt be endangered by the storm.
the water level was up to their waist and they were helping the animals.
steve and wes (his best friend) were in the crocs area when wes was bitten by one of the older crocs.
steve saved him and wes managed to limp to higher ground.
by then, he was already bleeding very badly.
but he saw steve fighting the croc and told him that he is coming down again.
steve stopped him and told him that he could do it.
mateship it is.
touching.

amazing man:
steve made terri conquered her fear for snakes by laying a snake on their couch while fixing a dinner for terri.
this allows terri to interact with the snake and after tt incident, that snake became terri's fav pet. =]
he made her catch her 1st venomous snake.
n gave her all the courage to do so.
n terri knew that he would not ask her to do something which she is nt capable of.

steve taught his child all he knew.
he jumped on his 1st croc at 9yrs old.
n his daughter did it earlier when the family were out on the bushes.
his son only 2.5yrs wanted to drive the motor boat.
n although he told him tt he is too young, the nxt thing he did was to scooped him up and taught him how to operate it. =]

sad part (which i kept refusing to read):
steve had requested that his wife and child stayed for 2 mre days after their 5wks in the bushes.
terri - since i knew steve, i had never once rejected his proposal.
cause i noe it is bound to be something nice and adventurous.
but for this time, i have no idea why i did not agree to stay for 2 mre days.
after which steve set off to flim deadiest ocean life.
while terri set off with the kids for a holiday.
on the fateful day, at 12pm, terri n bindi repeated it's 12o'clock for no apparent reason.
but when the crew finally reached them later in the noon.
they knew e news tt steve had pass away.
he was stung at 11am.
n pronounced dead at 12pm.

it really breaks my heart to read this part.
can't imagine the pain that terri irwin went through.
if i m her, i would be thinking, why din i stayed for 2 mre days.
n this made me really sad.
but terri irwin is a strong woman.
n bindi is a strong little girl who is carrying on what her dad is doing.
so is robert.
their love for the nature is really remarkable.

steve irwin..
wonderful family man.
wonderful environmentalist.
great man whose love for animals and wildlife is really admirable. =]

much respect towards this wonderful man and his wife and kids.
what they are doing is really impressive.
if there's a chance, i would definitely visit australia zoo. =]

check out the book n you won't regret =]

take gd care and live each day to the fullest! =]
crikey!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.一个人就好 - 刘力杨.][

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

][。礼物。][

][。礼物。][

刘力杨的礼物真的很好听。
我,发现自己真的很幸福。
简简单单的幸福。

这段期间一直受伤。
伤的不只是身体。
还有心灵。
但也让我学会了放慢脚步看一看。
想一想。

执着的总是放不下。
快乐的过每一天才是最重要的。

我很幸福。
因为我有一个再好不过的家。
家家有本难念的经。
但,无论如何,我都很庆幸老天爷把我安排到这个家。

受伤后,爸爸妈妈总是会照顾我。
虽然我就快是大人了。
但在他们的眼里,永远是小孩。
我,喜欢这种被保护的感觉。
有他们在,一切都会没事。

好期待星期六的晚餐。
将庆祝干妹妹的生日和母亲节。
父母的爱是无私的。
总是默默的为我们付出。
我们又何时为他们付出呢?

很希望赶快长大。
赚很多的钱来让他们花。
带他们到世界的各个角落游玩。
为了这些,我会努力的。

today's post is dedicated to daddy n mummy!
the selfless love. =]

daddy working hard to ensure tt we are well fed and always telling us that no matter what happen, he will be here for us. <3

mummy taking care of the family, working 24/7. no off day since the day i m born. care for me as a friend, as a mentor. watch me smile, watch me cry, watch me succeed, watch me fail but no matter what happen, she's always here. <3

they are really selfless.
we earn money for ourselves to spend.
they earn money to share with us.
they take gd care of us, show us the way since the day we are born.
really.
i saw how didi have to be taught how to stand, to walk, to wear a shirt, to eat.
all these basic things in life dun come naturally.
it's only thur their love and patience tt we learn.
so..go give ur parent a hug now and tell them how much you love and appreciate them ba! =]

Love you all, Daddy and Mummy! <333

haha super random post.
but yups!
aw due to ankle, din train today.
will be out for a wk.
if u noe me, u noe tt i hate to be out of it.
but for e sake of not risking it and injuring it further.
i will be gd n listen to e doc.
spent e trng shooting 600 underbaskets with right hand.
gosh, it realli felt like breaking.
n doing some ball handling.
i guess it's a gd time to catch up on all these ba!
n now..there's some change in plans for june.
n i m looking forward to a get away with e pigs! =]

hao la..end here le!
take gd care every1!
Bye~~

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][.selfless love.][

Monday, May 10, 2010

][.天时地利人和.][

][。天时地利人和。][

成长的过程。

family dinner was gd.
spending time at home after work is gd.
family time, rest time, tv time.
watched 红白喜事 and 明知我爱你is a nice song from the show.
been watching 就想赖着你。礼物 by liu li yang is nice too.
世上最残酷的 恐怕是时间
困住人 一切却还向前.
haha n nw i m watching all e channel8's show on xinmsn =]
gdgd. love it!
想握你的手和红白喜事都蛮好看的。 =]

gg to see doc tml for my swollen leg.
hope it's ok.

haha ok!
rest well every1!
take gd care n haf a great day ahead! Bye~~
smile and the world will smile with you!


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][.spend each day happily.][

Saturday, May 08, 2010

][.oh my 老天爷!.][

][.oh my 老天爷!.][




oh my 老天爷!
are you teaching my legs to revenge on one another?
cz after the right recovered.
e left is nw injured.
tired.
completely.
it's like taking half a step forward and a complete 2 steps back.
i guess this is a sign for e body to take a break.

thankfully tt there's a meet up with llz.
ip man2 and a short ketchup is =].
compared to staying at home and stone with e swelling ankle.
this is really needed.
thanks loads llz =]
n we will cross 2 finishing line tgt! 42.195. here we come!

roars.
pls let it get well soon!
pls let it be fine.
don't be anything serious.
3days ok ankle.
i give u 3 days.
thou e sound i heard when it first twisted is really nt too gd.

but compared to other things,
this is really ok.
was on e train today.
n it came to a halt.
e chao ta smell frm the emergency breaking came into e cabin.
very silly.
but tt moment, i really tot tt i m gg to die.
n wanted so much to call my parents.
but it was undergrd.
i guess its a reminder ba!
that u haf to =] n cherish everyday.
don't let things get u down.
cz nth is more valuable than being able to stay alive and cherish each day.
so smile every1!
minus e =[ and add e =].
we can do it de.
从内心真正的笑。

ok! take gd care every1!
shall go cheer myself up!
Bye~~

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][.legs,is this a silent protest?=].][

Friday, May 07, 2010

][.Splitting Headache.][

][.Splitting Headache.][

head is exploding any min.
super pain.
maybe it's due to e lack of slp. (was reading "steve and me" by terri iriwin - abt crocodile hunter and their love, their adventure =] a gd bk tt captured me within. will blog more abt it!)

worked e whole of today.
stood e whole way.
n i calculated.
every min tt i stood = 10cents!
this make me more determined to teach tuition and earn more.
sorry but i m a lazy pig.

went to friendly after tt.
just wanna thank a few ppl.
esp jasmin and bf, celine and cynthia.
for guiding me.
just reached home from watching the video.

e minimal amt of minutes is enough to view.
everything seems to be starting frm zero again.

this is not it.
this is not fe.
this is not what i can accept of myself.
con-fe-dence is nt dere at all.
what's within is nt showing.
e emotions is overwhelming.
the devil within = give up.
but the angel is fighting so hard to keep trying harder.
n i noe, the angel will win.
i will keep trying harder.
but the inner struggle is nt gd.
n it's tiring.
so i m gg to slp nw and not let it affect me.

有些事,越不想去想,就会想到。
所以,面对并不是不好的决定。

take gd care every1!
night. =]

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