][.possibly.][

][.possibly.][

"now i had to live a whole week with this new word 'mass' " - The Kite Runner
now i understand how Amir of The Kite Runner feels.

now i haf to live with the word 'possibly'.
sighs.
pls be ok my dear finger. =X

haha today is quite a ok day.
shall nt mention e nt as gd parts =P


Good things tt happened for e day!!
.ketchup-ing w llz!
.bbt
.ba ku teh
.durians
.coconuts
.fries
haha satisfying! =D

went to catch e jnr's game after tt =]
thumbs up for e team work n spirit apart frm a little blunder at e last part.
keep gg ok!! =D
jia you!!

after which..went for tuition tt was cancelled cz e mummy forgotten =X
den went to doc n dropped by 230.
cz to quote xiao pang "it's onli once a wk".

hao la..tired le..n pls pray for all those victims in sichun n myanmmar!!
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.pls be ok.][

][.voices of e heart.][

][.voices of e heart.][

this post is gg to be a random mixture of all tt i feel.
1st up.
uni life.
anticipating yet scary.
went for ntu's tea party today.
went dere as a lone ranger n met many other lone rangers.
haha i realli dislike e whole process of making friends all over again.
however..tink i did quite a lot of crapping afterall.=]
life has many obligations.
n i guess..mingling ard is jus one of it =]
realli haf to devote e whole of july to pulling up my socks for eng.
if nt, i m dead.
to sum up how i felt at e tea party,
it's like..fish out of e water.
but after a while, it was ok.
guess..it's e step i haf to take.
out of e comfort zone =]
jia you fe!

n tml..i m doing sum last min stuffs due to my indecisive attitude.
hopefully they wuld pick up their phones n everything wuld be successful =X
wells..realli haf to thanks llz n many more for their advice n suggestions =]
xiexie ni men!

hmm wad else ne?
basketball..
wells..haha i m e best cheer leader?
jkjk.
hmm fell down during warm up n had daisy n yun2 lol-ing at e toot move.
how great =P
n i realli haf to kudos to brave n strong ppl.
a smile despite e troubles is nv easy.
jia you!! support all those strong peeps! =D
cz i m nv one =X
wad else ne?
e knee is aching despite nt playing.
n i tink..e best period of bball is a history.
cz..i dun see anything else ahead tt wuld be as wonderful as those times be4 =]

den work..haha ending sooon!
hafin e whole july to relax n buck up! =]

n jus a random passing comment..
wen said i changed n prefer who i was be4.
i agreed.
i changed.
so..frm nw..
this moment.
i realli hope tt i culd be who i realli m.
ignore abt those talks n opinions of others.
but tt wuld nt be me.
no more.
sighs.
SMILEZ!

~look at e sun..n e shadows wuld fall behind~

end here le..take gd care every1! byeee...

][.10.fe.15.][

][.coz everything happens for a reason.][

][.coz everything happens for a reason.][

was about to blog about sumthings.
but e words pasted on my desk enlightened mi.
一切的一切都有它的因果。
所以我们永远都有路可以走。
你能找到一个理由难过，
也一定能找到快乐。

得到不一定能长久。
失去不一定不再有。

trng today was.
wells..haha like wad yayun says..
can onli use e subconscious mind to tell yaself.."JIA YOU!"
was telling yayun if this ends,
i wuld be ending my competitive basketball life here le ba =]
but like wad yayun says..maybe there's other things arranged?

haha n all of a sudden,
i recall this -> "Every ending is a beginning" =]

wells..i will hold on.
cz i love e game.
but how long more will it be?
i haf no idea.
i dun und why sum chose tt way.
but..i noe tt every1 thinks differently..
so smiles!
cz smile or cry, u still haf to live.
why not live it happily? =D

n there's always things to be happy over.
i passed my ftt.
n driving is so nice w gd soothing oldies =D

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.jus keep gg.][

][.jus keep gg.][

haha wanted to blog abt sumthings.
but wells..
jus feel e nd to guitar-rapy nw =]

rest well every1!
haf a great wk ahead!
n kem..jus keep gg! =]
n lol..a random comment BUT..ren bu ke mao xiang.
haha looks can n real person is diff =P

end here le..
take gd care ppl!
nitez! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.look up!.][

][.100% to remember the name.][

][.100% to remember the name.][

randomly searching on youtube for basketball videos.
MJ.
wow cool!
remember the name! =]

This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

today is a different day frm the mono life.
woke up to join sh for breakfast. sorry for being so late! =]
den went back to vj to play bball.
after which, lunch and chilling a little at coffee bean.
it's been quite long since i get a break frm "work".

went for trng after which.
gosh, mus be e heat.
n a little thinking gg thur my mind.
was burning.
kinda sorry twds coach too.
cz wasn't in e gdgd best of mood.
jus in a mood of wanting to train hard.
so did nt haf much of a smile on e face.
so sorry to jiao lian n high frequency de!
cz it's been a while since i played w/o a smile during trng le.=]

trying.
realli trying.
do u noe?
do u feel e difference?
do u noe?
sumtimes, i hope u wuld guide mi more.
teach mi.
how and wad i shuld do?
here i am.
dere u are.
hardwork.
efforts.
commitment.
boils down to?
i do not know.

hao la..shal end here le!
wad a chilling day!
tuition is cancelled.
NO WORK!! muhahaha
byeee..

][.fe.][
][.i m who i m.][

][.life.][

][.life.][

been thinking so much.
been thinking about so many things.
setting e direction for e future.

work is sighs.
jin jin n cheryl are jus so nice.
sighs.
think..jus a while mre ba =]
eg.went to get my pdl today which delayed for 3hrs after lunch..n cheryl asked mi to take my time n rmb to eat lunch!!

tuition is tiring.
but..satisfying when e kids learn! =]
n always nv determine ya future too early,
cz i had always dreaded being a tutor..
BUT..
i haf 5 diff and adorable kids nw =]

basketball is..
still finding my way out.
searching.
training.
learning.
fighting.

friendship is..
seemingly far..
haha but knowing tt a few old ones are floating on strong.
thanks! =]
sumtimes maintaining the bonds are realli tiring.
trying.=]

life.
is a learning process.
n i m jus gg to explore more.
till den..live each day as thou it was e last.
n u wuld treasure it e most =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jus keep going.][

][.thankful.][

][.thankful.][

thankful.
i realli am thankful.
thanks for being alive.
thanks for hafing my family.
thanks for hafing forever5.
thanks for hafing nice friends.
thanks for being healthy.
thanks for everything.

life is a journey.
a learning journey tt u jus haf to keep going.
if u nv plan, u plan to fail.
but if u planned and worked hard for it,
e end result happens for a reason. =]

been quite sian-ed at work.
cz, there's nth tt i can do.
sighs.
but tuition and coaching is giving me a little joy.
esp teaching kids tt realli wanna learn.
it's such a pleasure. =]

hao la..tired le..shall end here..take gd care every1! byee..

~a lucky person is not one that has everything.
but one that cherish everything that he/she has.
i am lucky.~


][.10.fe.15.][
][.look at e sun & e shadows will fall behind.][
][.LMS.=].][

][.come on!.][

][.come on!.][

jus came home from trng.
might haf said sumthings tt i shuld nt haf.
but wells.
jia you snrs!
i realli realli realli wanna u guys to win. =D

alrite..hands are so tired tt i can't raise it up.
been quite long since i haf this feeling le.
no stamina.
no speed.
miss passes.
sorry to hui2 n daisy (thou u guys wuld nv read this).
come on kem!
come on!
bring it on man!

hao la..jus a random post.
n gosh, i m tired.
end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.tt's e feeling.][
][.jiayou.][

][.too much.][

][.too much.][

haha hasn't been blogging much.
quite a lot has been happening thou. =]

spent a gd sun afternoon.
den went for buffet ytr.
n jus came hm frm driving.
gosh, i nd to get my confidence lvl up in everything man.

hao la..end here le..
take gd care every1!
byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.peace.][

][.无奈.][

][.无奈.][

我真的在乎。
或许我的行为和举动不能证明吧。
我的错误是我不懂得拒绝。
但，我真的在尽力了。

有时候，真的很累。
如果我能很洒脱的不管一切，
不管大家，
那么，或许会比较自由吧。

n as i think.
maybe i realli neglected you.
or rather, definitely.
i'm sorry =]

好啦。。去休息了！ 晚安！

][.10.fe.15.][
][.npo,jia you!.][

][.waiting.][

][.waiting.][

life is about waiting.
u wait for e bus to get to e destination.
u wait for ya chance.
u wait for practically everything. =]

waited at e waiting zone for e test.
waited for e interview.
waited for e train.
waited for e bus for nearly 40mins to get to tuition.
waiting seems to be a huge part of my life today. =]
but we jus haf to, cz it's part of life.

aw..watching Healing Hands 3 nw..
n there's this quote tt i like..
"my driving instructor told me to look infront, cz if you keep looking into the rear mirror or looking back, you would get into an accident."
doesn't tt reflects life too?
but it's not so easy to ignore the past and not look back at all =]
shall try thou.

hao la..v tired le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.praying for LMS.][
][.pls let mi in.][

][.the greatest mistake.][

][.the greatest mistake.][

wen is right.
my greatest weakness and mistake in life is tt, i dunno how to reject.
i dunno how to say no.
n hence all e problems.

had jus cooled down after tears of anger n words of anger spouting out of my mouth.
u wuld nt wan to know.
sorry and thank you to moi.
n also to sh.

aw..this quote tt i saw in i-weekly exactly reflects me..
"我一生中犯下的所有错误，都是我原本意欲说“不”的时候，说了一声“是”。
拒绝，是一门学问。
是一门，我必须学习的学问。
i must learn to say "no" and "reject".
realli reject.
why must i always arrange my schedules to fit others?
why do i have to give in?
why is it tt things tt i spend time n effort trying to get e pieces in place,
are destroyed by others easily?
without e least bit of apologetic.
wt_!
why do i feel so cheated?
why do i haf to make myself free n at e last min getting it all cancelled?!
it pissed mi to e max, i swear!
i dun scold vugularities easily.
but i did for a few times today.
it's sinful.
but e anger n disappointment is even more.

it's especially so, when ppl u trust so much for yrs does tt to u.
it feels so much like a betray man.
dude, do u noe how it feels?
i realli cried.
disappointment n anger.
wasted my whole wk, my msgs n everything.
a promise is a promise.
why did your promise changed during the last min?

i m freaking pissed and irritated till e max.
this is especially so becoz u r one of e few tt i trusted so so so much.
i can't be bothered anymore.

leaving everything to moi.
thanks moi.
n wen, i nd to talk to u now! so pls dun be angry w mi le la =X
n jing, i hope u r feeling better le!

end here le..haf to go bathe n prep for tml le =] take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.pissed and disappointed.][

][.n i felt like a fool.][

][.n i felt like a fool.][

全世界的人都知道。
只有我不知道。
感觉就像是一个傻瓜吧。
大家问我的时候，我是应该知道这件事的吗？
说不出口的感受。

double disappointments.
nt disappointed by kem.
cz, they played a fairly gd game despite e lost.
n i will always support em =]
thou i can't play my part on court,
i will play my part, as a bench warmer.
too much had changed.
but i m not giving up.
found my new motivation to fight on.

nt disappointed by arsenal despite e lost.
it's onli resign tt finishing is always v impt.
e efforts n process is nth,
once e finishing is made.

alright, n i feel like crying now.
how great.
u r such a G loser man!
agrh!

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.status: mixed emotions.][

][.holding on.looking ahead.][

][.holding on.looking ahead.][

jus reached hm from trng.
mus haf been mad to train despite e medication.
felt my hands trembling.
had a run.
reminds mi of vj's running.
n my upcuming 10km in june which i had yet to train for.
dead.

after e run, gosh cold *brr*.
went to sbc n had some shootings.
hmm tt was ok.
den 5 on 5.
stress lvl reached max.
if onli i culd noe wad to do, at e right time.

hao la..end here le! take gd care every1! byee..
if onli i can ignore all those.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.for e future tt has yet to cum.][

][.drive.][

][.drive.][

wad a day.
been kinda of tired cz of e medicine.
took mc today to c a doc n rest for e noon.
super nua-ing n drowsy.
woke up super grumpy n irritated.
dunno why also.
thanks loads to wen for waiting sooo long for mi n being so patient w e grumpy n bad mood G = me =]

went to apply for pdl..but once again was too late.
agrh.
haha e turning pt for e day = 1st pratical driving lesson.
woohoo..e 1st time when i step on e accelaration n went forward,
haha i wuld nv forget how it feels.
n i finally noe how it feels like to be in e driver seat =D
haha thankfully my instructor is quite nice =P
haha moving forward n reversing n smooth breakings n stalling e engines.
haha all i can say is, i enjoyed myself =D
n changed my moody n grumpy mood a little.

n i discovered tt,
i realli enjoy walking =]
give mi an mp3 n i will walk u a journey.
countryroad, take mi home..
to e place, i belong!!

end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.away from here.][

][.jus tt bit.][

][.jus tt bit.][

sumtimes, when u jus put in tt little bit more of effort.
tt little bit more of strength.
tt little bit more of determination.
u get tt whole lot more of satisfication.

jus came home frm trng.
love to run long dist.
esp w this cooling weather at nite.
love to run those dist where u can nv noe where's e ending.
cz, tt's when u push yaself to e limit.
been quite long since i ran this way.
thou it's jus a mere 10mins.
i miss those times.

n chilling by myself at kem cc's cafe,
reading "The Kite Runner", sipping my ice coffee (upon finishing mee rebus)
is jus relaxing.
an hr of chilling.
is enff at times. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byeee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.status:i don't know.][

][.status:i don't know.][

wen always remind me tt:"fe,there's a limit to which one can take"
haha n i noe tt.
nowadays, it's been busy earning days.
work,tuition,coaching.
den learning.
guitar n trainings.

supposed to feel like a sardine fish.
but yet i m nt feeling so yet.
starting to enjoy a busy life with jus a day or two to relax.
tink i wuld allow myself 1month break be4 uni starts.(if i ever get into 1 *pray*)

yeah..in tt 1 month.
peace.
nua.
slack.
for now,
inner peace during moments such as this.
pia.
work hard for e money!
at e same time, i m enjoying life.

ppl always say, "qian shi zuan bu wan de" (u can nv finish earning money).i always agree, but sumtimes i wonder too..w/o money, u can't do anything too =P..so decided to earn n spend at e same time! haha chill =P n wen..dun worry! i wun tire myself out completely de =]

guitar-rapy is realli useful.n i jus discovered tt, it's been sumtimes since i contact w some impt ppl le. tink it's time le. haha keeping bonds r always nt easy.but wad's worth it is, it's still e same no matter how far e distance is.

for now..i m jus hoping tt forever5's trip would be a success! *pray hard* cz after this stage..u nv noe when wuld all be free again at once =]

hao la..end here le! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.take each day, one at a time.][

][.29/3/08.][

][.29/3/08.][

haha yups u r right tt today is 30/3/08.
but i wanna note down e special day ytr.
cz 2 things happened.
1) i got e 1st n hopefully e onli stitch in life.
2) forever5's bbq.

haha had friendly ytr w u18 n got myself a stitch on the upper right lip.great one.
haha din exactly rmb wad happened.jus noe tt i felt this sharp pain after being elbowed frm e opponent while she got e rebound n came down. but e game was play on. wipped e blood, thinking tt it was jus e usual inner mouth bleeding till coach saw it n asked me to wash it.haha it was v scary. super reluctant to go n stitch it but coach say haf to. thanks loads to coach, daisy,jing hui n gwen! esp gwen who acc mi to e clinic. e lousy pok mi here is super scared of stitching. *yikes* dun wanna recall e scene.

aw after tt cmi..so cancelled tuition n came hm to rest. eat super demure n slow den off to forever5's bbq! haha it was nice..but a little tired to go into e details today ;p so e main pt is..they had fun saying jokes n making mi ctrl my laughters cz i cannot laugh!! er xin de pigs!! n i was laming n they say i jiu you zhi qu (which was quite true thou) but felt thankful too! cz they peel e food hao hao for mi..wahahaha nt shuang ma..small small pieces de..even e seldom serve mi de wen dou peel la..so dun nd to mention abt e rest la hor ;p jkjk aw xiexie ni men le! haha iloveus! hmm after tt stay over at moi's hse n went for guitar, bac hm to prep e presents n trng..trng was quite ok..all on shooting so quite shuang de n it ended early! wahahaha.. aw haha happy bday lqjl! ;p

n nw i m super tired..tink wanna go zzz le ba. take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i m who i m.][

][.rest-less.][

][.rest-less.][

haha restless n restless.
= no rest n restless itself.
haha started e wk w work n tuitions.
den today trng.
haha dunno wads wrong w myself too ;p
but tink keeping e time occupied is quite nice ba.
at least u noe wad u r supposed to do.
n when u haf e break..
u realli rest completely ;p

jus came hm frm trng.
agrh.
defence.
attack.
everything is like so bad.
feels guilty for hai-ing e da de(s).
thankful for high frequency de!
haha tink w/o high frequency de hua..
i wuld be super lost nw ba ;p
so xie le high frequency de!
tgt we jia u yah!
it's amazing how fate brings ppl tgt =]
hence i always believe tt..if it was meant to be, it wuld be =]

den wad else ne?
haha many bdays cuming up!
gosh gosh..haha this sun jiu got one le =P
lol time flies..n i haven prep for it =X
but everything is bought la ;p
haha n my 2 idols de bday is jus 2 days apart ;p
haha lqjl n sakuragi! haha so qiao =P

hao la..better go practice my nice nice de solo piece le.
guitar-rapy time =]
n jus wanna say,
i m so glad tt i m done w e uni applications.
they squeezed my life out of me =X

take gd care every1! byeee...

][.10.fe.15.][
][.learning.][

][.chill.][

][.chill.][

been quite long since sat haf been so chilling.
relaxing.
time alone.

woke up early to go bac to vj.
guilty for nt gg back for so many wks =X sorry2!
aw played 5 on 5 w e jnrs..n gosh, e sun can jus bbq mi to death.
i m lobster colour now.
which means..i m gg to be real dark tml! or rather nw.

haha after which cabbed down w moi to 230 to another bbq session.
enjoy playing dere.
it's e relaxing n jus be yaself de street ball time =]
wonder how long more wuld we be playing this.
cz..nth is forever, u see? =]
will cherish these moments.

after which, it rained n so i walked hm in e rain.
haha nt emo..is too tired to take a umbrella ;p
plus..i loves walkin in e rain (as long as i m nt gg out or wadsoever la)
came hm n cooked myself maggie mee! (my 1st meal of e day!)
haha n watched dou niu yao bu yao!
haha gosh..loved it!
Zi Cong!!!
haha he's realli like a guardian angel la =P
i wanna such a guardian angel!! haha jkjk

n i m slacking ard nw.
blogging after i jus finished my garlic bread. *fei si le*
n listening to bei ying - by yoga lin you jia.
it's e dou niu yao bu yao de cha qu.
exactly describe Zi Cong.=]
my wei da de Zi Cong. =]

感 谢 我 不 可 以 住 进 你 的 眼 睛.
所 以 才 能 拥 抱 你 的 背 影.


haha hao la..cont my nua-ing sat le ;p
cz after tml..nxt wk onwards will be..busy shit =P
take gd care every1! byee..


][.10.fe.15.][

][.our diary.][

][.our diary.][

they made my day. =]
things changing.
change is e only constant.
but i m thankful tt to a big extent,
sumthings remain unchanged. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.iloveus.][

][.cross-roads.][

][.cross-roads.][

headache now.
18yrs of my life has passed.
but jus wad i wanna do in e future is kinda of a ?.

choices haf to be made w regards to uni now.
to add on to e headache is not hafing gd results.
with em, u realli haf so many doubts abt ya chances.

leaving these headaches for tml nite.=]

for today..
things tt made my day a little.

guitar lesson thou i m unable to catch up w e change of chords.=P

watching AuGuSt RuSh w moi, it was a random choice but it definitely had nt disappoint mi =P haha e guitar is nice nice! n e little boy is duper cute de! music-rapy =D
check this out ba => http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WnoeD9Xb6Xw

after which met llz for a brief moment be4 gg for trng.
gosh..e cough(nt to mention tt i spent at least 3mins tryin to subdue it in e cinema *embarassing*) made my thoart super dry n hard to breathe.
n e few moments realli reminds mi of e joy of competitive bball.
give mi 5yrs more =]

hao la..end here le..kinda of tired. thou tml got leave..but btt test is much earlier than working!! =X tc every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.fool.][

][.fool.][

if dere's a tunnel now.
i jus wanna go into it n reach another place.

if dere's a memories eraser,
i jus wanna erase e past few wks.

if dere's a place i wanna go.
i haf no idea where it is.

if dere's constant in this world.
i tink it's jus tt everything is not a constant.

taking full day leave on mon.
jus wanna get away frm this for a while.

tired.
guess i m still adapting.

e onli comfort nw.
is to play ball under e stars.

e onli comfort nw is to get away for a moment.
maybe sumday i shuld be a lone ranger n cycle out.
all by myself.

cz..it's getting hard.
things jus can't stop changing.
cz life is moving on.
time wun stop jus becoz u wish for it to.

northern lights.
i wanna be dere now.

][.10.fe.15.][
][.hope to nv see u again.][

][.Laugh.][

][.Laugh.][

it's amazing how we gradually forgotten how to laugh as we grow.
do u noe..
laughter adds 8yrs to our life?
haf a gd laugh over this -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXXm696UbKY&feature=related if u had not haf one for long =]
cheer up my friend!
gd bye monday blues! =D

][.10.fe.15.][
][.everything will be well.][
][.give up.][

][.Thankful.][

][.Thankful.][

today, i felt my heart in my mouth.
today, i felt e shivers down my spine.
today, i felt a tinge of relieve.
today, i feel love.

i did nt do well.
but i met my own expectations.
tried e best.
so, nt much regrets.
wadever will be will be.
cz e future is up to see =]

realli thankful to many.

1st of all..daddy + mummy for their constant support thur e mugging periods n till today..nv giving mi stress..always telling mi tt trying ya best is all tt matters.
thank you piggy daddy n mummy n of cz ah di =P and of cz my godparents n ah yi n cousin =]

thankful for e ships tt kept mi afloat =]
forever5 for e nite be4 today w e movie n msges.
thanks to moi for treating mi to arcade to calm mi down n e herbal tea for my throat. =]
thanks to wen for cuming down to meet us.
thanks to jing for being my best mugging partner n constant support thur' out these days.
thanks to fungi for e sweet encouraging msg in e morning =]

all e msges received by xy,cousin jack,kim guan, chai luan , li xue,employer n 135 etc..thou simple,but realli appreciated =]

e wonderful teachers tt i had in vj.
thou i din did well..but i met my own expectations =]
thankful to mr sayers, ms goh,mr young, mr ho, mr lee, mr kwok n etc.
esp hist n gp n lit..e period of time spent late at e tables outside staffrms.
realli v thankful tt i haf such nice n dedicated teachers who nv gave up.
special thanks to ms goh for her note. cz w/o which..i wuld nt haf e courage to flip over my result slip =]

thankful for e hugs by e jnrs.

thankful for e CKs for calming mi down n being so nice thur out these 2yr =]
w/o em, jc life wuld nt haf been nice =]
n also to my wonderful class 06A13..we always haf a special kind of bond =]
settling comfortably in our cliques yet able to inter-link.

n of cz..thankful to llz for making my day! =]
haha helping mi start by "throwing" away wad's irrelevant XP
nice meal at central be4 gg to e airport to chill.
n all we nd is a mp3 n seats =]
haha thanks for keeping mi afloat,always pig!
haha fate fate fate!
our f/ship is = wine..e older it gets..e better it is. =]
let e pics memo my day ba!
when u put felicia n joy tgt = double happiness!
why?!
cz felicia = happy 1 + joy = happiness therefore = double happiness.


tt's in parkway parade =]


a random nice shot taken be4 gg to airport =P


haha lol..e nice n spacious t3 ;p



e waterfall beside e jungle!



"bing ma yong"




on e way to t2's viewing mall..cz t3's was too noisy to enjoy e ya kun =P



mp3 + seats = shuang =] hahaha



summary of e nice day =] haha

hao la..e throat is hurtin more. shuld end here le..take gd care every1! n no matter wad..jia you! tc!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.loved.][

][.jus wanna get away for a while.][

][.jus wanna get away for a while.][

now it's 12am ++.
so i m officially left w 2days be4 i get my result.
got leave for tt day itself.

after trng..
i jus feel like taking leave for thurs too.
i wanna get away..
i wanna haf time to myself.
i wanna go do e things i like..
i dunno wad's it thou..
but i jus noe tt..
i realli feel like getting away.

v tired recently.
everything is gg on rather well n normal.
but..it's tiring.

work.
tired of e adult world at times.
thou it's a little bit least stress than mugging non-stop.
but wells..still glad tt i m in a gd dept who will protect mi frm all those yikes ppl.
so..w em..things r well.
but been rather tired.
so quite lazy to talk.
but when u r working in e society,
u haf to be professional..even if u r unhappy n tired n moodless..
when u ans e call, u haf to be warm n sincere.
when u transfer e call to others..u haf to be nice to em even thou they shuld pick up e call tt they din.
when u do e ppt..u haf to tink if it's too childish.
u jus haf to put up a happy front no matter wad.
cz..this's work.
this is not hanging ard w ya best friends whereby u can jus be dao n nt talk at all.
jus be yaself.
quiet.
stone.
not possible at work.
maybe tt's why i wanna take off on thurs ba.
wanna get away n haf sum time to myself.
but no matter wad..thankfully i m in a gd dept =]

nxt up is competitive basketball.
today's trng was power.
e feet was tired.
but e runnings had made e stamina recovered a little la. =]
sighs.
e rebuilt con-fe-dence is shaken once again.
jus where m i n wad can i be?!
i m tired.
realli.
when u fu chu mre but in e end when reality sets in..
e truth is dere.
u r jus nt gd enff than those tt dun train jus as hard.
dun ask mi to be positive or be wei da.
cz it's tired.
tired of saying "it's ok" cz at times.."it's realli nt ok".
i dunno wad i m ranting.
but i guess i m jus ranting how i feel at times ba.

sighs.
life is so beautiful!
but i jus wanna get away frm my routine!!!
do sumthing crazy on thurs!
n face e reality on fri.

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i hate myself for loving u.][

][.Happy 19!.][

][.Happy 19!.][

this wk had been quite a tiring wk.
but..
ytr was our da zhu's bday!!
haha happy bday wen!! =D
thankful for e guys' help cz w/o em,
ytr wuld be quite jia lat ba ;p
wells..aw..let pics be part of e memo ba =]

















den after tt went for jap buffet at elias dere. haha hmm too tired tt i spent leng-ing all at e dinner ;p after which went to moi's hse dere to play beach bball le zai came hm..haha so..i m v tired nw! haha lack of slp ;p

aw yups..HAPPY 19 Wen! haha thanks for every1's help!
iloveus! =D
take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.xiang ni de bu shi shi hou.][
][.falling.missing.u.][

][.marathon.][

][.marathon.][

it's a dream to run a marathon this lifetime.
but why when i m infront of this dream,
dere's hesitations?

sighs.
helplessly falling.
hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..aw happy leap yr! wanted to do sumthing special to memo it de..but wells..shall wait for e nxt leap yr den ;p tc!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.shuld i?.][
][.wuld u?.][

][.what can i do?.][

][.what can i do?.][

hmm sumtimes,sumthings r better left unsaid?
these days are tiring.
jinjin n cheryl talked to mi today regarding my A lvls results.
n i realli tink they r v nice heads.
e nicest u can ever get =]
n jus to quote jinjin "if u wanna help ppl, u mus 1st be able to ctrl ya own emotions." + "jus be yourself".
i tink i wuld realli miss my dept.
realli.

falling sick le.
so v tired.
went to jog w ah pek.
n all i can say is..it's been so long since i jog till so shuang le.
e more u jog,e faster u feel tt u can go. =]

ytr was dinner w e da de(s).
hmm it was a little like be4?
but sumthings r set in place le ba.
jus glad e awkwardness is no longer dere.
not as much as i imagine.
zhe yang ye hao ba. =]

den jus reached hm nw.
hmm what shuld i say ne?
life goes on no matter wad goes by.
so SMILES!

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.if onli u noe how i felt.][

][.fate.][

][.fate.][

darn tired.
sat n sun jus passed without a break.
like a break to recharge.
walking pace was like super slow, literally dragging myself hm frm trng jus nw.

hmm thou v tiring.
but it's well spent to a certain extent?
fri nite was spent playing basketball at 230 as usual.
w a pain in e shoulder.

sat morning started w e routine 5hrs coaching n 2 hrs chatting, travelling with coach. e relieve when e 5 hrs r up n e things tt is learnt frm coach during e sessions r nice. =]

after tt coach dropped mi at enuos n made my way to ahs.
played 2 games.
it's always nice being bac at ahs.
sumtimes if i m decisive enff,
i tink i wuld jus decide n let u noe long ago.
n i swear, i wuld promise no more.

sumtimes, sumthings r jus nt meant to be.
sum ships r jus nt meant to be.

after tt, "tumble" down e hill with an acute pain in e knee.
agrh.
n went to meet llz for subway + guitar concert.
heh food! my 1st meal of e day, hungry dao nt hungry =P
n i ate super slowly..cz there was onions! *pukes*
den went to e concert.
wow e ucc was realli nice =]
heh n guitar was realli nice, how their fingers move swiftly across e guitar.
tt realli made us feel darn chui to quote llz =P
haha n due to e long day,
e super chui mi was struggling to keep awake at e end part.
but haha din zzz la ;p
e ride hm was nice as usual.
but was realli shag once bac hm.

sun, woke up early to practise my hw be4 gg for guitar lesson.
heh realli enjoy e lessons especially when u get to learn a new song each day.
guitar-rapy realli works. =]

rushed down to sph after lessons.
it's nice meeting up w li xue, ao nan they all.
after tt rushed down to trng.
gosh, center moves.
e missed lan di's tt r unforgivable.
e 1 on 1 tt shuld be taken.
so many things tt shuld be done yet e confidence lvl tt's nt dere.
getting bac.
getting bac.
tiring.tough.
but nt gg to give up.
5 yrs. =]

n here i m..hm sweet hm..w a few mre hrs to nua be4 i slp n start my whole wk again.
life, jus goes on no matter wad goes by.hao la..take gd care every1! byee..haf a gd wk ahead!

if i see u nxt to never,
how can i see forever..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.falling.][

][.falling.][

A's results is getting nearer.
mind n heart getting even messier.

helplessly falling.
impossible.
possible?
dere's jus so much i wanna noe.
heart, mind?
jus what's this that's gg on?

][.10.fe.15.][
][.for u.][

][.tired.][

][.tired.][

haven been bloggin much.
nt becoz nth happen.
but rather..a little tired.
started e wk with jing n mi agreeing tt sumtimes it's jus so tiring to interact w others.
so it's e best hanging ard with best friends.
cz even w/o e interactions,it's jus e same.
no tinge of awkwardness.
so tired n guilty.

work has been as usual n nice.
realli thankful for e heads of my dept.
they realli keep mi going.
n hence at work.
despite e tiredness n stoning,
i jus wanna complete my task with perfection. =]

basketball.
gg for trngs.
trying my best.
but at times..e body is still not up to e lvl as be4.
but realli trying hard to get back.
cz of a 5yrs pact which is in mi.
n i m waiting for ah sam to cum bac =]
street ball with pri sch guys at nite after work is realli relaxing.
play freely n put everything behind.
sweat it out. =]

gd friends.
like wad jing n mi agreed,
i m stoning n kind of nt taking e effort to keep in touch with many.
eg. llz, ruth mei, sh, employer, van, mf..etc.
realli v guilty n sorry.
but at e same time, v tired for heaven noe wad reasons.

best friends.
they r supposed to be my bi feng gang nw.
nua-ing inside n hafing isolation mode.
wen, still same as be4, nv fail to suan mi..but nv fails to be dere for mi.
jing, still e nice jing, always here to pei mi. n balancing btw her r/s n our friendship. keeping mi gg on everyday at work. entertaining mi.
moi, i m glad tt we r getting bac to being much more normal le. tink it was realli mi tt culd nt fang xia be4. sorry.
fungi, it was nice meeting up on sun. e distance seems so near, yet at times nt so. =]
a little disappointments here n dere. but when e understandings set in, all these r gone. cz e time spent had made us und each other beyond words can say =] dere's no reason why but we r jus linked =]

heart n mind.
a little confusion n perplexed.
n i dun und jus wad's wrong.
i tink i dun.
yet at times i tink i do.
i rather trust e 1st gut feeling.

hao la..end here le..realli tired. take gd care every1! byee..n to all those tt i haven been in touch with, hope u guys r doing well! jia u! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.jus why?.][

][.Happy 20!.][

][.Happy 20!.][

haha happy birthday to u!
happy birthday to u!
happy birthday to llz!
happy birthday to u!
haha mus be tired dao high le =P
aw da jia say w mi..HAPPY 20!

haha jus reached hm from a nice dinner w a nice companion ( as always ;p)
haha let pics tell u my nice day la ;p haha
not forgetting to mention tt i was late again! sorry sorry sorry llz! haha
plus unforeseen circumstances..so was super late! haha sorry sorry!
aw ta da..pics to memo this special day for the special "pig"! =D



haha food food =D



haha tt's e 1st expression =P lol jkjk




haha make a wish! *shhh* dun say it out =D



huff n puff n llz still fails to blow em down =P cz she's nt big bad wolf! *leng*



haha *note! dun cut dao wan! reason : forgotten le =P haha



a random shot of e nite =]




to sum up! relaxed.comfortable.nice..thur' e yrs n many more =D

haha once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LLZ!! Thanks for everything! Enjoy being 6! (while i enjoy being 4 ;p) lol jkjk..no worries..u r still young! haha

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..happy v day to all those attached! n to those tt ain't (jus as mi) no worries! it will jus be as nice w ya friends =D smiles! haha

][.10.fe.15.][
][.simple joys of life.][

][.Happy Chinese New Year!.][

haha HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
byebye piggy! welcome rat da ge!
lol..this yr's new yr came while i was sweetly in my dreams w zhou gong n our chess set =P haha

woke up ard 6plus am e nxt day w a smile plastered across my face =D
received 5 msgs n got 1 tt made mi smiled =] haha xiexie ni npo!

haha den woke up on chu yi to watch tv n vcds till ard 2plus zai went to da gugu's hse =P nt to forget tt chu xi was reunioun dinner at da gugu's hse also =D
den e usual thingy during new yr..eat, gamble n watch shows..
haha kinda weird at da gugu de hse..coz nt v close to daddy's side =P
thou sum ppl are realli nice eg cousin jack, eng seng kor kor etc..there's sum nasty ones too..but wells shall nt mention who =P
aw..went hm ard 10plus to my vcds =P

den wooohooo chu er le! ie. today!! haha let pics tell my nice day to u ba! aw e new way to get ppl to open e door for u this yr is.."huat ah!" haha



my little cousins watching n munching away =P




haha frm this pic..u could tell who won tt round ba =P




heh 1 out of 3 of our family portrait =P



haha n yu sheng time!! heh yum yum! not to forget..ah ma cooked loads of delicious stuffs today =D xiexie ah ma!



haha both of us loves this pic =P

heh so tt sums up 3/4 of my day..nt to mention tt i lost quite a bit while playing dai dee =P haha

den off to 4th gu zhang's hse =] haha din feel as comfy as i felt at ah ma's hse la..but wells..not bad la..they r nice ppl too..eg lengleng jiejie n gu zhang n etc..den quite sian de..till daddy let mi play mahjong w his capital =P haha den after tt daddy played e fast fast rounds de..wow..i mus admit..this piggy daddy is realli quite pro w it de =X haha den here i m..home sweet home =D haha
so jus sum more random pics taken during this new yr la! =D *huat ah!*



haha this was taken ytr be4 we left for da gugu's hse..kinda lol la =P haha like it thou!



got these flowers w mummy at sheng song e nite be4 chu xi =P went dere ard 11 plus 12 la =P haha got quite a lot of gd bargins thou..haha



haha e abv 2 are currently declared as my fav flowers! =D

heh..so this is my new yr up till today..tml gg ah yi's hse =D haha pardon mi for all these lor shor telecast =P cz..haha amidst these routines of my life nowadays..cny realli spices it up a little =D

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! n haf a nice new yr! enjoy ya food n hongbaos! n may u be blessed w great health n happiness in this new yr! =D tc!!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.simple joys of life.][

][.zui shou xi de mo sheng ren.][

][.zui shou xi de mo sheng ren.][

today is a looking bac day.
known n "lose" so many friends throughout these yrs.
it's amazing how close u can get w sum n e distance after which is so scary. =]

looking thur sum pics n hmm.
realli is zui shou xi de mo sheng ren.
supposed to meet up tml tgt w all.
but shifted to nxt wk.
hmm i dun wan to tink why.
cz i tink tt wuld be thinking too much.
cz..it doesn't matter anymore.
things which used to matter so much.

looked thur all e little stuffs.
all those r onli memories.
memories meant to be let go.
so tt i wuld be freed of all e strings tt's holding mi to em.
n now, u r nth more than a stranger to mi.
a stranger tt was once so close.
realli so distance.
so scary.
so strange.

ironically, i haf nv regretted e wonderful times.
but if possible, i hoped our world nv met too.
2 contrasting world.

in this ever changing, inconstant world.
there's onli 3 places tt i wanna be.
home.
with gd old pals. eg.forever5.
alone.

how much i hope tt i can go on a trip now! to a place w e nicest scenery n capture every precious moment w my cam. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i hate myself for thinking bac at times.][

][.life.][

][.life.][

in e routine life.
a little excitement here n dere is necessary.

blading at ecp ytr was fun.
n jus felt so much.
hafing wen being e support n falling tgt =]
hafing xiao pang w his help n e bike as e support.=]
hafing kim guan falling down onto his "push up" position.=]
hafing jeff breaking w his "stuns".=]
hafing jing n qy far ahead of us.=]
such a simple day.
but it's been quite some time since my life has such fun rather than jus work n basketball n eating n shopping. =]

n throughout e process of blading.
i fell many many times.
n everytime..jus felt like getting up all by myself again. =]
it jus feels like a journey of life.
quote wen: "jus treat it like an obstacle, overcum it & dere will be many more that cums."
guess blading n falling down during e process is jus like life.
u stumble but u jus grow stronger frm each fall n with more tries..u jus get more confidence =]
haha n to quote llz "sumtimes we tink too much" =P

apart frm ytr.
today is also quite a nice day w guitar n reunion dinner =]
hmm apart frm a little agrh n hai in btw e day.
everything is gd.
nth can go wrong w forever5 rite? =P
haha too bad we onli took a polarid so cannot post e pic.
but will make sure i do it e nxt time la =P

hmm..life is a journey. n throughout this journey..diff ppl will acc u thur it =] but sum jus wun change =] iloveus! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.is a journey.][

][.routine.][

][.routine.][

since when did blogging ceased to be a habit.
hmm maybe it's when life becomes a routine ba.
it's as thou..i can let u noe where would i be, nxt time this wk.
everything is a routine.
tired.
but sumthings jus keep u moving on.
eg. hafing a nice dept n nice supervisors =]

aw today is lili's last day at work.
tears glistered tgt w jing.
it's amazing how time flies.
i had started working for 2 mths le.

hmm enjoy playing basketball in e rain.
in fact love e rain.
feeling a little emo here n dere.
cz there's a mixture of feelings held within.
n i jus can't find e words to pharse it.
can onli say..手心是肉，手背也是肉.
choices are always tiring.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..


][.10.fe.15.][

][。我们长大了。][

][。我们长大了。][

在你们面前，我无需伪装。
我可以任性，可以放肆，可以轻松的做我自己。
累的时候无需言语也不会尴尬。
难过时，你们总会陪伴我，给我最好的建议，最棒的关怀。

有你们在的时刻总免不了欢乐。
发自内心的开心。
就算现年已十八了，在一起时，感觉还是个小孩。=]

下班后一顿简单的晚餐，
一起闲逛，然后一口同声的说 - 我们长大了。
我们真的长大了。
我们竟然会一起逛街，给彼此意见，一起买衣服。
这更从前的我们相比起来，
真的不一样，
但是，又那么的相同。
那么,轻松。

谢谢。
因为你们，所以我知道，避风港永远都在。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.iloveus.][

][.不爱也是一种爱 - 橘子.][

][.不爱也是一种爱 - 橘子.][

现在应该在梦中的我却在这。
因为，我刚读完橘子的- “只是好朋友？！”
甜蜜，快乐的结局。
我的最爱。 =]
故事，很美，很简洁。

但，真正让我这时候得在这的原因是因为，以下的文字让我感同身受。
想分享，所以来了。。

《不爱也是一种爱》
。。我承认和对方不再适合当朋友，因为失言因为误解因为失约因为心灰意冷因为侵犯我的死穴却还好不自觉；我于是不想再假装我们还是朋友，像从前那样。

我们都是那么多年的朋友了，我们的了解为何会这么薄弱？ 或许，我们只是不再适合当朋友了。句点。

不要爱也是一种爱。有些我直接这么告诉对方，让对方理解为设么往后我消失我忙碌我冷漠我缺席，有些我仅是无力的沉默，连说也没有气力。

然后删除了号码封锁了名单，然后看着手机我监视我们之间最后的对话或简讯，然后我把他们放入回忆的抽屉里，然后从心底希望往后，他们回想起的我们，不会是最后的决裂，却是曾经的交心。

因为，我会是这么做的。

不爱也是一种爱。 在朋友面前我撒娇，我脆弱，我霸道，我任性，我放开我最不想被看到的样子，因为我们是朋友。因为我们是朋友，所以我会愿意放下工作抽离忙碌，花很长的时间陪伴，花很多的心思倾听，花很多的情绪坦城，我也不介意为了朋友请假只是要去喝杯咖啡，然后隔天被老板发飚。

我觉得很值得，因为我们是朋友。

可是如果当我开始不再认为对方值得我这么做了呢？
我不喜欢感情由浓转为淡，我于是会把它停止在最深刻的那一刻。

不爱也是一种爱。
因为我们是朋友，所以当我们的对待开始倾斜时，我迟钝我思考我判断我停下脚步，然后等待一个引爆点，接着，我们不再适合当朋友了。

因为不爱也是一种爱，当朋友这个关系开始令双方疲倦，失控，紧张，压力，那么何不干脆不爱以爱？而不要让友情变得只是互相伤害。

为了双方好，不爱也是一种爱，我是这么认为的。。

以上就是让我感触良深的一段话。
橘子完完全全的到出了我对于失去曾经很珍惜的两位朋友的心声。
就那天，我就对其中一位说了类似的话。
在信里，我感谢，我道歉，我希望她也和我一样选择记得美好的时光就好。
因为，我同意橘子的说法。。
所以，当一段友情画上句点后，就让美好的回忆留在我们的记忆就好了。=]
祝福你，我曾经的知心好友。

好啦，就此结束。希望你和我一样，从这美丽的文字中领悟到一些道理。=]
笑着说别了。
因为，再见是留给会再度见到的朋友。

][.10.fe.15.][

][.simple joys of life.][

][.simple joys of life.][

sunshine after e rain.
sum ships realli withstands. =]
230 in e rain with forever5.
sundays with family.
simple joys is more than enough.
n guitar is realli nice. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.too tired to talk at times.][

][.我.][

][.我.][

今天的post会random到不行。
一切将是有感而发。
很感谢所有在我身边的朋友。
因为，能当我的朋友的人真的很厉害。
因为，我真的很坏。
脾气倔强的我，
只有知心好友会知道。
所以谢谢你们。=]

现在的我在流着泪。
叹息着一段友情的心痛。
太累了，抱歉不能继续。。

][.10.fe.15.][

][.tired.][

][.tired.][

super tired.
OTs for 2 consect days.
thankfully today got tricia, sally n tresy to "entertain" mi late into e nite =]
enjoying e working n carefree life now.
meeting ups is always nice =]

for e rest of e wk,
it's booked with meeting ups with ppl tt i had nt met for long.
haha it's gg to be happening.

at times,
being alone is not a bad thing.
every1 needs a moment alone.
n hence, i m here =]

hao la..off to guitar-rapy..thou i onli noe one song nw. it's jus nice to play it, it calms mi =] byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.a moment alone.][

][.irreplacable.][

][.irreplacable.][

无可取代。
一辈子的知心好友。
唯有forever5 =]
那种纯真的快乐。
那份无需隐瞒的孩子气。
那一起打球的感觉是胜过赢得冠军的欢乐。

因为篮球，我认识了你们。
也因为篮球，我差点失去了你们。
感谢老天给我四个那么棒的朋友，和这么棒的一段友情。
诚心的感谢。

haha random-ness again.gosh my bones are cracking n every inch of my fats is aching now. played bball for e whole day vj in e morning n e whole of afternoon n nite at 230. =] haha vj had made mi dark n sunburnt once again. 230 with forever5 n e pri sch guys is jus as nice as ever. sumtimes i realli find it amazing tt we still get to play ball tgt w our pri sch team =]

at every stage of life, i wuld question if 5 of us would still hold on tgt with e different environment n more ppl cuming into our lives. no doubts, doubts arise at times. but when we meet n get tgt, all these disperse. thanks for letting mi noe tt we will stand tgt at least for e nxt yr. =] every sat, 230 bu jian bu shan pigs!

hao la..end here le..super tired le..haha take gd care every1! byee..

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][.best ship = friendship.][

][.为何.][

][.为何.][

人为何总在失去后才懂得珍惜呢？
珍惜眼前人。
是个容易理解的道理。
但又有多少人真的办得到呢？

人总是把竟在眼前的眼前人视为理所当然。
就好比氧气，
只有失去后才知道它的重要吧。

熟话说得好 - 远在天边，竟在眼前。
而人总是觉得远方得不到的是最好的。
但，得到远方的，失去眼前的时候才明白一切经是错觉。

haha i m not emo-ing. jus random-ness.
reading a v nice chi bk now = 橘子 只是好朋友？！
haha i realli still prefer chi bks =]
maybe cz my lousy chi is still much better than my lousier eng ba.
but i tink chi words realli will bring out e meaning n make mi feel with it deeper =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cherish.][

][.chilling.][

][.chilling.][

haha..changed a new blogskin but yet to edit it.
woohoo it's 2008 le.
enjoying every simple moments n simple day of my simple life.
work.eat.work.eat.watch vcds.slp.work.
tt's e standard pattern for most days.
haha realli is chilling.
enjoying e current life when stress n running out of time dun applies.
but bac to reality, it wuld onli be for this period.
when both feets are completely into adulthood, things wuld be much different. =]
already feels e pinch of adult fares tt wuld make mi rather walk den take public transports, cz it's bus concessions no more =P

aw past few days had been nice.
e last few moments of 2007 n e 1st few days of 2008 =]

..time machine..
31/12: woke up ard 10 in e morning..went to met llz for botakjones at bedok dere..lol it's nice man =P e noob here din noe tt there's such a nice western food in a hawker center =P hee..den went to cycle from kem to ecp..n while crossing e overhead bridge..i realli wonder where did i get e strength to run all e 4.8 n 6kms those days..i mus be..lol..aw biked n found a spot to drink "devil" n chill..haha both were kinda of tired..but tt pig drew a pig n pointed twd mi n this pig here asked.."whats tt? (ref to e arrow)" haha aw was a nice nice day ;p time w llz is always relaxing n nice =]

31/12 part 2: rushed hm n rushed out to meet wen n jing to watch warlords..haha it's realli not my type of movie..but haha of cz mus watch tgt rite =P got my since young all time fav..takeshi kaneshiro..gosh still as charming as ever..thou quite g in tt show..but haha still like =P after movie went to macs to chill n nua be4 making our way down to downtown east n met moi dere to countdown..due to tu fa zhuang kuang, fungi culd nt meet up w us..aw we jus sat dere n exchanged gifts be4 walking into e crowd to countdown n get choked by all e gases released by e sprays = suffocating..after tt jiu v lame de take pics den make our way hm after nua-ing at e bus stop for a while..haha for e past few yrs countdowns had been with this pigs..thanks for all these things all these yrs..=] haha n i m glad i fulfilled my new yr resolution =]

1/1/08: haha family day! been quite long since we go shopping tgt le..went vivo for e noon n realli shopped till i broke with mummy while didi n daddy drag themselves along =P got 2 pair of shoes n 2 bags n 1 top n 1 bottom..n i m super broke now..cz mummy says..bill it yourself n share it w mi =_=" but wells..wad she gives mi thur out this 18 yrs is more than wad i can share w her man ;p went for teochew porridge n came hm to nua after tt..

2/1/08: 1st day bac to work after a loong break..hee as usual de simple n nice.

3/1/08: after work went to met sh at orchad..went to eat nice nice de prawn mee den shop ard zai go kino to get nice books =D got myself a ju zi de book..shall read n post abt it again =] aw met ah wee kor kor..haha n employer..zhen de hen qiao =]walked all e way to dobhy ghaut (gosh, how to spell ne?) cz adults fare realli gives a pinch man =P haha jk..but realli nice walking la..quite fast jiu reach le ;p..hee n now i m super tired =X

haha these are e normal days..but be4 i end..i nd to thank sum1! JING! haha thanks for pei-ing mi everyday u this g de auntie! if nt i m sure work wuld nt be as interesting n exciting w/o a gd friend ard =] "A friend is like a cushion who makes e hard seat softer" (jing shuld noe wad it means ;p)

hao la..end here le..thanks to all tt had made my 07 a great yr n my 08 a great start! thanks for jus being here my friends =] byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.enjoying.][

][.nonchalant.][

][.nonchalant.][

talked to wen last nite.
screamed into e phone.
lol, both of us are realli RV hor wen =P

aw thou we r RV, she said sumthing tt struck mi.
fang xia ba. =]
since it mean nth anymore.

aw jus came bac from e club events.
sighs.
missed so many or rather all e free throws n e 2 crucial lan di(s).
agrh it's a b c d e f g de freaking agrh!
e most cannot forgive de thing.
under baskets.
haiz.
n coach's "scoldings" after tt.
i m nt sadden by it.
cz i m more disappointed by myself then.

going bac to e game had gave mi too much heartaches le.
miracle had lost it's way. =]
jus wanna say thanks to sum1 who always unknowingly, gave mi e strength to move on. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i hope i can ignore everything.][

][.tui hou.][

][.tui hou.][

jus came bac frm airport =]
nice ranting to mei at starbucks w my fav mocha peppermint frappe =D
aw it's realli nice chilling out..haha n thanks loads loads loads for e nice nice gift mei! i owe u one =D it's on e way..haha santa papa on e way =P

aw chatted abt north south east west.
but most of e time it was ard e "special friend".
lol, mei asked mi a qn n i gave her e ans tt i always give myself.
no regrets? dun miss?
no.
hah..tink tt's e ans tt i always try to convince myself with ba =]
e truth is, it's nt no regrets.
it's jus contentment with e current life.
too contented to get out of e comfort zone.
no confidence to be e gd friend, so dun dare to.
kept on saying tt it wuld be e new yr resolutions.
n new yr is cuming yet e pics stays.

jus read one of e ancient msgs.
.semit esoht ssim od i sey n
haf a sudden urge to give u a call n randomly ask if u r still doing well. (which i noe u do)
haf a sudden urge to drop u a msg n ask how r u doing nw.
but hah.why e sudden urge?
i haf no idea.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..
n i realli learnt sumthing.
珍惜眼前人。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.shuld i?.][

][.e smile.][

][.e smile.][

got my 1st pay of my life today.
lol, it's much lesser than i calculated cz it's 1/2 e mth de =P
but wells..still happy =]

went to get gifts.
heh, glad tt mummy loves it =D
daddy n didi is jealous =P haha jkjk.

aw my horoscope for e day:
"u shuld spend time with ya gd friends today even if it means escaping responsibility"
hah..realli hoped to spend time w my gd friends de.
but wells..hah every1 is tired out.
so went shopping by myself after work. =]

lol..i realli wanna change my blogskin.
new yr is cuming! haha throw all e bad memories behind n prep to say gdbye to 2007 ba every1!

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.alone.][

][.u nv say gdbye.][

][.u nv say gdbye.][

woohoo..mus be mad to be here at this hr when i m working tml =P
jus finished watching "my girl" haha
thou it's quite draggy at e front, but e show is realli funny n cliche de nice =P
haha n e best thing is..
in e end, there's "hao jie chun xiang" tt 2 main characters as e real cousin n couple.
realli lol until haha.
korean dramas realli keep mi entertained loads during this period after As.
haha tink i m gg to borrow another set of dramas ba..
but dunno will be as nice as this 2 ma =D
haha happy n sad at e same time.
tears n laughters.
guessed this is life ba, everything is a mixture of everything.

slept my day away.
woke up late n went bac to slp in e noon till evening..
off for dinner n bac for e drama =P
wen would call mi a loser ba =]
but wells..haha such a carefree life is realli nice in a way.
but to quote llz "hen rong yi hu si luan xiang".

aw xmas eve was spent at cindy coach's hse..realli quite nice de =]
haha came hm quite late or rather very =P
realli appreciate e presents but haha no replies for e msgs.

woohoo..bac to e "hu si luan xiang" part.
while watching e show, sumthing struck mi =]
new yr is cuming n i haf a resolution.
keep all e past memories in a box n put it away.
cz as e time passes, memories realli do fade.
it's jus e stubborn attitude tt is trying to rmb stuffs.
so hah..let it be put away w e box ba.

another resolution is to stop hafing so much expectations n hope from others.
cz, it's tiring to expect n hope.
e higher e expectations, e greater e disappointments.
this applies to every1.
dun expect, so tt u wun be disappointed =]

haha rather random n lame de resolutions, when it's finally new yr, i wuld cum up with my proper resolutions ba =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

shall go n rent another set of drama n "entrap" myself within it ba =] jus can't wait for guitar lessons to start. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.nice song.][

][.i jus wanna forget e past, e memories.][

][.i jus wanna forget e past, e memories.][

sumtimes i think i realli haf a gd memory apart frm making gd use of em for my studies.
i realli realli hope tt there's sum water or wang qing shui or wadsoever to allow mi to forget parts of e past.

went orchad for 2 consect days.
for a person who dun often goes to town.
n dun like crowds.
it's realli tiring.
ytr was with chai luan n today with employer =]
grins!
so realli tired now.
so is e wallet.
but i haf no idea wad haf i got man =]

bac to "wang qing shui".
if dere is..
i wanna forget parts of e past.

听说你现在过的很好。
为你感到欣慰。
听说你换了很多新的东西。
你一定很快乐，
因为现在已没有一个批评你的东西丑，
叫你不要乱花钱的朋友了。
你一定过的很自在。

真的很希望我能把过去全都忘了。
因为，片刻的回忆有时会让原本枯燥的眼眸泛起一丝丝的泪光。
我不后悔，
但有时，真的很希望我们从没认识过。
真的希望能忘掉这段友情的点点滴滴。
忘掉曾有的欢乐与泪水。
更想忘掉的是，那一次次争吵后的坦诚相对。
想忘掉这一切。
真的很想。

很喜欢，很习惯现在平静的日子。
这一切就像回到了还没认识你之前。
简单，平凡的快乐。
不想改变任何的一切。
只想更珍惜那些从没放弃我的好友。
虽然已经很习惯和知足了，
但每回经过一些勾起回忆的地方，
还是会想起许久没联络的你..

只想忘掉一切,
因为,已经是过去事.
你也早已放下,往前走了.
我也应该完全放下,
不再想起.
谢谢你曾教过我的一切.
谢谢你曾对我的好.
对不起..

haha lalala crapping again ;p realli lame to rmb so many things..but haha seasons jus make ppl recall of e times..wells..jus this last time ba =D cz, i noe there r many more things n ppl tt i shuld cherish..wad's over is over, no pt holding on =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.let go.][

][.memories.][

][.memories.][

christmas is round e corner =]
had e last game of e season.
memories floating back.
hah.
wad a weird way to describe it.

while tinking of e gifts..
last yr's christmas's preparations jus "floated" back.
haha.
many things can be tried to put aside.
many memories can be placed aside for a while.
but during such seasons,
sumthings jus can't be bury beneath.

would u ever regret knowing sum1?
i wuld not.
cz every1 tt u met would have changed u in a way or another.

read a post n felt even more.
wun get to meet up w u be4 due to e schedule.
haha, dunno if that's a gd thing or bad thing.
wadever it is..
all these are jus memories.
things would nv get back to be4.
i m happy as i m now.
apart frm a little regret now a dere as to why things turned out this way.
but, i noe e ans.
we are jus too different to be friends.

so jus hope tt everything is gg on well for u too.=]
sighs.
e last bit be4 e completely gdbye.
holding on to e thin thread.
got used to e days tt r diff frm e past.
wad abt u? =]
i wuld nv noe e ans.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.tired.][

][.tired.][

super tired now.
as expected de, we lost e game.
pls, nv tot of winning it anyway (tt wuld be day-dreaming)
but nv wanted to lose in this way too.
can't hold it within anymore.

exploded to coach abt how i felt.
e disappointment nt due to e outcome of e game.
but e process.
e efforts.
tired of playing in such an environment.
wad's e pt when onli this few ppl tries so hard.
1 hand can't clap.

e outcome of e talk.
= 1 more yr.
1 more try.
if this persist.
give up.

aw generally, today is a nice nice day apart frm e disappointment w e team. of coz there's also those tt make loads of efforts. to those team mates..jus wanna say thanks loads. bac to e nice nice day. nua-ed till ard 11 (opps sorry llz ;p) was supposed to meet auntie joy at 11:30 de =P aw went for realli nice jap buffet =D haha e food was wow..see already dou v happy =P haha had my 1st taste of sashimi..n loads of green tea which disgusted sum1 =P jkjk..aw it's realli nice..shall go dere again..but wells..such "sinful" behavior is onli allowed once in a while =P

after e super nice lunch..walked ard in suntec be4 gg over to e guitar shop..wooohooo..cool shit..i tink i m realli going to enjoy my guitar lessons =D haha yups i jus enrolled into 1 =P haha spent a while dere..n when llz plays e guitar..(ahem i m secretly wondering when would i be able to n jus can't wait to learn how to =P)..n i realli v blur..bought a case for e guitar..but got e wrong one =X got e one for electric guitar instead =P..

haha after which..it was 2nd hand bks hunting time..haha got a few books..yeah =D man zai er gui! haha to sum up..today is realli a gd gd day to spend a holiday..simple n fulfiling =P apart frm e minor disappointment at nite..everything is =]

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.cross roads.][

][.cross roads.][

站在三岔口，
总是逃不过的选择的命运。
一次又一次的“打击”让人很累。
选择保持沉默是因为不想自己如此的脆弱。
最终的选择，
我只希望，不会让自己后悔。

你已不像从前，
我也不是小孩了。
所以，现在的我。。
只能靠自己的力量了。=]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.roller-coaster.][

][.roller-coaster.][

i haf nv had e courage to take a roller-coaster ride.
cz i can't even stand pirate ship n wuld vomit like shit.
but right now.
i feel like i m on a roller-coaster ride.

it started off at e bottom.
n slowly climbed bac to e peak.
n goes crashing down again. [n if u take those rides, i guess when it's cuming down, u wuld scream ur lungs out so tt u wuld feel better =] ]
but i m nt screaming.
instead i m smiling at my stupidity 4 doubting.
it's my choice to get bac.
i haf to face it.
n it's getting numb =]

sumtimes reality is harsh.
u jus gotta face it.
sumtimes attitude alone is not sufficient.
hardwork is also insufficient.
at e end of e day,
it all boils down to 1 thing.
u got e skills?
u get e playing time.
w regards to cuming trng or nt.
w regards if ya attitude is gd or bad.
u score, u perform, u play.

u once asked mi wad happened n who bullied mi.
i realli wanted to tell u everything.
realli did, as always.
apart frm 1 thing tt i kept it within myself.
cz, it doesn't matter.
at e end of e day, reality matters.
i understand.
n i recognise tt.

tears no more.
cz i m in e process of learning to be stronger.
no tears when we lose a game.
no tears when warming e bench becums a routine.
no more tears.
cz, i m learning to be stronger, in e mind n in e heart.

sumtimes i realli hope tt u wuld b aware of how i feel.
but i m nt letting e tears fall.
cz i m learning to be stronger day by day.
n at e end of e day,
wad matter most is e TEAM. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sumtimes, i realli hope tt we culd go bac to e past.][

][.scary.][

][.scary.][

it's scary when u see ya team-mates getting injuried,
one after another.
gwen's ankle, yaqi's knee.
it's jus scary.
pls get well n get back soon ok!
need u guys! =]

aw..it's realli scary.
it's so much contact.
n even more for centers.
ankle felt a little weird but chose to ignore it.
shall guard it well tml.
little finger is swollen.
right knee is acting up again.
at e end of e day,
why r we playing despite all these injuries?
i haf no ans for it. =]

con-fe-dence lvl is taking a roller coaster ride.
need to regain it.
ah, llz, jing n wen quickly cum bac!
haha. lonely, i m so lonely.
all on my own =P
haha..nowadays jus feel so tired mentally.
n jus hope to shut my ears from e world.
shhh..silence.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.wuld u?.][

][.lol.][

][.lol.][

i jus dyed my hair!
haha i mean highlight..
lol, yes i m a G (quote wen) =P
heh, it's a breakthrough ok =]
paiseh jing n fungi, wen n mi bian huai le =P (jkjk, we r always us =])

aw this wk had been quite a hmm nice n usual wk?
haha work, slp, tv n..
apart from today's dye hair (exciting)
n of cz, meeting up w CK's kids at orchad for pepper lunch =P
haha n e beautiful deco at orchad road =D heh
it's nice!
reminds mi of e time tt we sell e christmas stuffs along e orchad streets =P
lol..those were e exciting n lame times =D

aw, life is relaxing..
i m loving it..
chilling =P

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n it's been a decade.][

][.amazing.][

][.amazing.][

jus came bac from bball at 230 w wen n her team mates.
or rather mi n myself cz they left after a short while ( cz i went too late ;p)
aw, it's realli gd.
e touch,
e sweat.
everything.

haha n guys, is it in their nature to feel more superior than us?
i dunno.
but at least when u prove yaself n these guys respect n acknowledge u,
they r much much better than those arrogant shit who look down on u despite being least superior than u.
aw had a gd time playing.
enjoy street basketball.
cz it's jus so relaxing,
no restrictions, jus play e way u wan.
no formations.
no fixed moves tt u nd to do.
no fixed position tt u nd to play.
it's jus play it =]

aw it's realli amazing how we start frm scratch n "master" it eventually.
u ain't born to be able to walk.
but u learnt,
u fall n u bruised ya knees n u get up.
n be4 u noe, u master e skills of balancing n walking.
n it became so nature n simple tt u eventually forgot tt u ain't born w e skills.

same for everything.
eg. playing basketball.
u ain't given e ability to make e basket rite from e start isn't it? =]
life is jus abt trying n failing n getting up n cont e journey.

haha gosh, i m crapping again =P
pardon mi, cz i m gg to be a loner =X
haha llz is nt in s'pore.
jing is flying off tml.
haha wen is busy w chalet n her cousin.
fungi is busy w attachment.
gosh, tt left mi to be..
all by myself.
loner shit =P
jkjk..

well..time alone can be nice too =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.n i smiled.][

][.take me dere.][

][.take me dere.][

haha been quite long since i last blogged?
actually nt v sure, but compared to e daily habit of bloggin,
dis shuld be quite sum time.

today is e end of e season.
hmm tink i realli learnt to be stronger after this season ba.
frm e initial tears of tired-ness n inability to get back.
till e tears due to e 1st lost of e yr.
till e 7mins chance n unable to perform.
tears no more.

on e contrary,
it's a stronger me.
1 tt finally understood e pain of a lost.
e pain of time ticking away while e opponent holds e ball n dere's nth u can do.
n finally understood tt every victory shuld nt be taken for granted.
cz, this is sports.
e ball is round,
jus a slip n careless mistake wuld cause e game to change.

tink tt's e most impt thing i learnt ba.
sumthing tt u wuld onli understand after u endure a lost.
u wuld mature n grow.
hahaha
as for e game today,
it's another enlightenment.
or rather for this season,
i enjoy e feeling of being a supporting pawn.

now tt it's e end,
it's time for a new yr resolution.
n yeah.
get bac! =D
take me dere!

haha ok..abv is abt basketball..aw realli wanna thank e team =] n haha life goes on..thou it's a little monotonous nowadays ;p but..i m still enjoying my slacking life..n gosh!!! i seriously nd to go on a massive diet be4 my face can be as round as a ball! n e diet plan shall start tml! =D

haha n great, had e greatest movie marathon w e pigs ytr! haha sorry abt tt! we din even finish 1/2 a movie, every1 jiu snooze le ;p left ke lian de jing ownself watch n cry =P haha but aw..jus wanna say thanks pigs e lifetime pigs! hahah

hao la..kinda of tired..take gd care every1! byeee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.guardian angel.][

][.feel it.][

][.feel it.][

with 2 beautiful blisters each on both legs.
i m jus amazed how e pain disappear during e game.
quote daddy "u bluff mi de la..on court run n run, game finish jiu walk like snail =P"

it's amazing how e pain dun matters when u focus on e thing u love.
jus finished my dinner after e game with teck ghee.
was realli tired after work n rushing down.
culd nt get e shots in during warm ups.

e game was nt too gd.
but realli glad tt we made it as a team.
thank you team-mates! =]
n it's cuming bac.
i mean, e con-fe-dence.
enjoying e game.
thanks guardian angel n all (eg. kem team n coaches) n llz, wen, jing for helping mi bac into e game =]

n i m hafing e shark fin soup nw.
n gosh, i m DARN ANGERY!
i wan my VINEGER!
i told e person i wan MORE VINEGER!
n she gave mi more pepper n no vineger!
AGRH A B C D E F G !

cool down cool down..
shall nt let tt spoil my beautiful day!

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cz every little thing u do, makes mi wanna fight for u.][

][.be4 u noe, it's over.][

][.be4 u noe, it's over.][

many things in life..be4 u noe, it's over.
today morning was 4th gugu last day of funeral.
e tears, e prayers, n be4 u noe,
tt's e end of one's life.

jus wanna say,
cherish those ard u (cliche n old but v true,at least to mi)
dun hold a tanturm n regret onli when all is over.

thankful for all that i haf.
realli.
esp my family n my friends.
thankful to heaven for allowing mi to haf such great family n friends n allowing mi to do things tt i love eg. playing basketball.
thankful for everything, realli.

hao la..kinda of tired le.n e blisters are jus nt bursting! agrh..go snooze le..take gd care every1! byee...

][.10.fe.15.][
][.protect mi, guardian angel.][

][.hah.][

][.hah.][

less than 5mins ago, i jus blogged n said tt there's a blockage inside mi tt e words can't flow.
n yet less than 5mins, i m here again.
read an entry n felt realli happy for sum1. realli =D
e feeling of being able to meet up w sum1 tt u had wanted to meet for so long, n not feeling a tinge of awkwardness is e best thing ever.

to quote e sum1 tt i m realli happy for => " it was alil sad to put it that way, but circumstances jt really know how to toy arnd with people. having a one-year age gap is frustrating. although we both said one can never really be too busy to meet up with friends. but stimes, just stimes, alot of things clash and happen at the wrong time.".

exactly how i feels. so i always believe tt hafing friends of e same age is e best. cz, dere wuld nv be a time which u guys wuld be at diff stages of life n doing diff things, leaving each other behind.no1 shuld be left behind. walk beside each other n be friends for life. but, life is jus harsh. a 1 yr age gap, sumtimes jus make e diff when e little efforts ceased, e gap widens.


tell mi, how many friends do u haf tt culd ceased communication for a period of time n yet get bac tgt n fill each other regarding each's life w/o feel strange n all?. if u ask mi, i wuld onli say dere's onli e pigs. or rather less than 5 person who culd give mi tt confidence. e confidence tt despite e lack of communication, i still noe tt u care n wuld be dere n we wuld be like be4.

it's been quite sum time since life moves on w/o communication w e once special friend. sumtimes,i realli feel like dropping a msg to wen hou ni. but in e end, i din, cz i tink tt's wad best for all ba. we r jus too diff to click. n i realli owe u too much, in terms of everything. xiexie ni. jus hope tt if we ever get to meet again, it wun be tt awkward. =]

hao la..end here le.take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.ni shi wo de guo ke.][

][.moods.][

][.moods.][

haha.
nowadays, dere's so much to say n note down.
n yet i tink dere's a blockage in mi.
like words jus can't flow out naturally to describe how i feel.
well..life.

aw, looking fwd to mon.
yeah jing =D
n wen, xie lo.
still enjoying my work =]

hao la.
shall go n bake.
it's been so long since i last baked.
n it jus reminds mi of so much.
peng you, ni hai hao ma?

end here le.
take gd care every1!
byee..

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][.past,present,future.][