][.High & Low of 2011.][
hello bloggy!
it's 819pm on 31/12/2011.
usual routine of wrapping up at the end of each year.
haha gosh time really really flies.
it was countdown to 2011 with forever5 at moi's place and now here i am at the end of 2011 with 3hrs+ to go be4 forever5 countdown to yet another year of friendship =]
remembered myself listing 11 things that i want to do in 2011.
let's see what had been accomplished and what hasn't =]
1) Blading & Wakeboarding! - wake boarding done with wen,jing,fungi & shem! it was a really good experience and i am thankful that i was able to do it be4 acl injury =]
2) Swimming! = i tried going for swimming more often and swam laps and once again i am thankful that i tried it with my frog style be4 acl injury =]
3) Golf! - went with moi to driving range and had fun. thanks & i'm thankful for the chances. =]
4) Tennis! - not done! =P
5) Photography! -yups, still went around with moi for photo shots! =]
6) Save up for get away! - done! 12 days of awesome-ness with moi & jing! one of the most memorable travelling up till now! my 1st go at backpacking <3
7) Cooking! - haha tried to learn from mummy here and there but no where near her level =P
8) First Aid! - not done! but will be done in 2012 feb! =]
9)Learn more about beer, liquor, wine and coffee & tea! =] - haha not really apart from my growing collection of vodka. =]
10) Have time for myself to do things i wanna do n love to do! =] - i guess this is done in a way. trying new things and getting away for 12 days. all these are awesome-ness which i cannot imagine in 2010.
11) Work harder for GPA! =] - done! *pats on my own shoulder* these two sems yr3 sem2 and yr4 sem1 had been my best sems. let's continue and give my best for my last sem in 2012! =]
2 things that mummy want me to do in 2011:
1) Learn how to get a bf. - haha erm. did i manage to do it? i guess yes & no. it's not on a to do list but things found its way back. it had not been easy & will not be easy but it's ok. every1 have their ups & downs moments. what's most important is cherishing the moments! no1 is perfect. thanks for accepting my flaws! i'll learn to accept yours too. =] and thanks for allowing me to be just me. apart from forever5, close friends and my family, i seldom expose my "dark" side, so thanks for taking in all my rubbish! <3
2) Learn to start eating onions.
haha sorry mummy! i only eat onion rings! =P
haha so here's a sum up to my 2011. =]
it had been a good one.
it really had been.
with all the ups & downs.
ups that brought me happiness - finding the joy in playing basketball once again, scoring well in academics, doing fyp, 12 awesome days in thai, experiencing water sports which i nv tot i will, the chance to work at childcare center and caring for the kids. <3
downs which showed me the love - haha truthfully when it comes to down, all i can recall is 14/9/11. byebye acl! knowing that i can't play my last season was my biggest blow of 2011. all the down-ness,going bonkers moments, cry like mad, pain like mad moments,thanks for the moment which showed me true love. showed me those that care for me and what many things really mean in life. it had not been an easy journey but it definitely had been very much enriching and life-changing. going through it had made me realized that one can really be stronger than what you think and people who truly cares stay by you through the darkest moments, picking up your pain and showing you the way out. =] my journey continues. long way but not no way! =]
haha that sums up my 2011.
for 2012, all i hope is back to normalcy.
1) knee to recover and allow me to run and jump once again. (when even walking becomes a joy)
2) conquer mount k with llz & forever5.
3) have a nice closure to my last sem - last 6months of academic life.
4) learn cpr for i see the importance in it especially after watching discovery channel & animal planet (my new loves after acl injury)
5) for all i love to stay happy & healthy.
6) get a good job which i am happy with and clear my study loan. =]
haha that's all i ask of 2012.
being alive is one of the greatest thing & next is to find meaning and joy in it!
thanks for 2011!
Welcome 2012! i will work hard to be a better person! =]
let's go!
<3 family, forever5, friends & bear.
take gd care every1!
][.10.fe.15.][
][.我是幸福的.][
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
][.every relationship is a gamble.][
][.every relationship is a gamble.][
hello bloggy.
just some random thoughts with things going on and around me.
every relationship is a gamble with its ups and downs.
sometimes, things ain't easy.
problems surface and it's all up to each party to solve it or move on.
everything happens for a reason.
every1 appear in your life for a reason.
some memories and secrets are only between both of you.
it's something that others have no idea.
so whichever it is, don't hurt the one that used to be a special one.
it applies across friendship and all.
me: xxxxxxx
a good friend in the past: eh you still remembered what i say?
me: why not? haha
us: a look back at the past and a smile which shows that we moved on.
that special bond that both used to share is something precious.
even if the ending hurts, it still has its beautiful memories.
remember the good-ness in each and let the sour-ness and bitterness go.
it makes life easier.
and it makes me smile.
on the other hand,
leg is getting better but i had forgotten how to walk.
haha hydro was fun and bike again tml.
slowing down to enjoy life thou staying home all day is driving me mad at times.
thanks to every1 who dropped by to accompany me =]
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
hello bloggy.
just some random thoughts with things going on and around me.
every relationship is a gamble with its ups and downs.
sometimes, things ain't easy.
problems surface and it's all up to each party to solve it or move on.
everything happens for a reason.
every1 appear in your life for a reason.
some memories and secrets are only between both of you.
it's something that others have no idea.
so whichever it is, don't hurt the one that used to be a special one.
it applies across friendship and all.
me: xxxxxxx
a good friend in the past: eh you still remembered what i say?
me: why not? haha
us: a look back at the past and a smile which shows that we moved on.
that special bond that both used to share is something precious.
even if the ending hurts, it still has its beautiful memories.
remember the good-ness in each and let the sour-ness and bitterness go.
it makes life easier.
and it makes me smile.
on the other hand,
leg is getting better but i had forgotten how to walk.
haha hydro was fun and bike again tml.
slowing down to enjoy life thou staying home all day is driving me mad at times.
thanks to every1 who dropped by to accompany me =]
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
][.Tears of Joy.][
][.Tears of Joy.][
it's been quite a while since i cried due to overwhelming happiness.
thanks year 4 sem 1. thanks fyp. thanks for letting me feel so happy once again.
sat by the com with mummy and saw my cgpa and got a shock.
it's still second lower but it was pulled up. =]
went to check the results for this sem and fyp totally made my day.
all the hard work for 5 months from having no place to do my research to having ntuc eldercare till writing and non-stop editing, not sure what to do and till it's finally done, it had been a mad mad process.
thank you francesco for more than words.
my awesome awesome supervisor.
thanks loads for giving me a nice closure to my linguistics major life.
last sem with officially nothing to do with linguistics anymore.
and fyp closed it real well.
thanks fyp, thanks elderspeak.
you had really been a milestone in my life.
and i never regretted doing fyp. <3
now going into the last sem of uni life, jiayou fe!
let's do it! =]
on the other hand, stitches are removed.
movements are getting better and life is still good. =]
take gd care every1!
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
it's been quite a while since i cried due to overwhelming happiness.
thanks year 4 sem 1. thanks fyp. thanks for letting me feel so happy once again.
sat by the com with mummy and saw my cgpa and got a shock.
it's still second lower but it was pulled up. =]
went to check the results for this sem and fyp totally made my day.
all the hard work for 5 months from having no place to do my research to having ntuc eldercare till writing and non-stop editing, not sure what to do and till it's finally done, it had been a mad mad process.
thank you francesco for more than words.
my awesome awesome supervisor.
thanks loads for giving me a nice closure to my linguistics major life.
last sem with officially nothing to do with linguistics anymore.
and fyp closed it real well.
thanks fyp, thanks elderspeak.
you had really been a milestone in my life.
and i never regretted doing fyp. <3
now going into the last sem of uni life, jiayou fe!
let's do it! =]
on the other hand, stitches are removed.
movements are getting better and life is still good. =]
take gd care every1!
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
Saturday, December 17, 2011
][.Long way but not no way.][
][.Long way but not no way.][
hello bloggy i am back!
it's 18/12/11.
one more day to 2 weeks since new acl is in. =]
removing stitches tml. slightly scared.really don't like all these needles, blood, stitching =P
aw it had been a wow 2 weeks.
sometimes, taking a step back allows you to see things clearer.
i really am thankful for my parents.
especially mummy <3
daddy is as patient with me as always.
but mummy really dotes on me ttm these two weeks.
through the hardest time, she had not once lost her patience and love.
and i am thankful for every1 that stood by me during these period of time. <3
this journey back is not a short one.
but long way doesn't mean no way.
it's possible.
step by step.
everyday, every single improvement makes me happy.
being able to walk.
being able to bend more.
of course there are moments of anguish, moments of frustrations when the leg can't bend any further, when pain sinks in, when you can't even cycle.
but during moments like this, i will think back - hey, it's a step forward from not being able to stand and walk isnt' it?
no hurries.
really no hurries.
step by step, i will be back. =]
playing ball or not seems to be a far far away goal for me at the moment.
cause every single step i take, i am thankful.
i wanna learn taiji when i get better. =]
thanks to 5-yr-old =]
wanna build back my atrophy muscles be4 getting back. (if i am)
haha during the 1st few days after the op, during a brief moment, i recalled that every moment of school life had been filled with basketball.
the joy, the pride, the hard work, the happiness, the disappointments.
these are what allows me to be who i am today.
but i am in no hurries to rush back to the game.
there's more in life to pursue. =]
take gd care every1!
life is a route that i wanna keep going.
you can do it!
you really are stronger than what you think.
but it is also really ok to break down and rest when you need.
you don't have to be strong always. =]
back to exercisese.
take care! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][
hello bloggy i am back!
it's 18/12/11.
one more day to 2 weeks since new acl is in. =]
removing stitches tml. slightly scared.really don't like all these needles, blood, stitching =P
aw it had been a wow 2 weeks.
sometimes, taking a step back allows you to see things clearer.
i really am thankful for my parents.
especially mummy <3
daddy is as patient with me as always.
but mummy really dotes on me ttm these two weeks.
through the hardest time, she had not once lost her patience and love.
and i am thankful for every1 that stood by me during these period of time. <3
this journey back is not a short one.
but long way doesn't mean no way.
it's possible.
step by step.
everyday, every single improvement makes me happy.
being able to walk.
being able to bend more.
of course there are moments of anguish, moments of frustrations when the leg can't bend any further, when pain sinks in, when you can't even cycle.
but during moments like this, i will think back - hey, it's a step forward from not being able to stand and walk isnt' it?
no hurries.
really no hurries.
step by step, i will be back. =]
playing ball or not seems to be a far far away goal for me at the moment.
cause every single step i take, i am thankful.
i wanna learn taiji when i get better. =]
thanks to 5-yr-old =]
wanna build back my atrophy muscles be4 getting back. (if i am)
haha during the 1st few days after the op, during a brief moment, i recalled that every moment of school life had been filled with basketball.
the joy, the pride, the hard work, the happiness, the disappointments.
these are what allows me to be who i am today.
but i am in no hurries to rush back to the game.
there's more in life to pursue. =]
take gd care every1!
life is a route that i wanna keep going.
you can do it!
you really are stronger than what you think.
but it is also really ok to break down and rest when you need.
you don't have to be strong always. =]
back to exercisese.
take care! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
][.1st day at physio.][
][.1st day at physio.][
hello bloggy..
1 wk and 1 day after new acl is in me.
1st physio session and learning how to walk all over again.
haha walk. yes walk.
the wobbly feel till you weight shift and the faith you need to walk without ur clutches and brace.
haha walking was nv seen as a challenge even when ankle was bad for 3months.
but every step now takes so much.
that leg that once allowed you to run, jump and all.
learning how to walk all over again is..
it makes you cherish more.
everyday, i am reminded of how simple things were and how it no longer is but definitely will once again.
一切重新开始。一步一步再来。
feeling sleepy now.
take gd care every1!
cherish each moment.
cherish each moment that you are given.
it's not as simple as it seems.
your body is working hard for you. =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.1 more day to 3rd month.][
hello bloggy..
1 wk and 1 day after new acl is in me.
1st physio session and learning how to walk all over again.
haha walk. yes walk.
the wobbly feel till you weight shift and the faith you need to walk without ur clutches and brace.
haha walking was nv seen as a challenge even when ankle was bad for 3months.
but every step now takes so much.
that leg that once allowed you to run, jump and all.
learning how to walk all over again is..
it makes you cherish more.
everyday, i am reminded of how simple things were and how it no longer is but definitely will once again.
一切重新开始。一步一步再来。
feeling sleepy now.
take gd care every1!
cherish each moment.
cherish each moment that you are given.
it's not as simple as it seems.
your body is working hard for you. =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.1 more day to 3rd month.][
Sunday, December 11, 2011
][.Post-op day 7.][
][.Post-op day 7.][
hello bloggy!
i am finally back.
11/12/11. post op day 7?
things are finally gradually settling down. =]
too much thoughts.
overwhelming ones.
this journey had really been a long one till now.
and it will continue to be a long one.
when simple things don't seem simple anymore,
you really learn to cherish every single moments.
shall do a backlog to note down this significant event in my life.
thou i am certain that i will not forget anything about this.
5/12/11: Op day.
moi sent me to e hospital and all the waiting and all.
daddy and mummy accompanied me. <3
an arrow to make sure that doc ops on the right (right) leg.
no food since e night before and 100ml of drink at 9am.
all ready to go.
heart pounding as the moments pass.
finally after 3hours, time to go for the op.
lying in the op theater waiting for the anesthesia doc to come, at that instance, it was 2pm.
i really wanted to give up on the op.
just continue my life without basketball.
just cycle and all.
but..haha is it possible?
then comes the anesthesia..
the veins on the hand are too small.
so she tried the side and i felt like !)#&#()@#
it was worst than blood taking.
so they changed an anesthetist for me..handsome new zealand dr daniel.
changed a smaller needle and changed to the joint veins.
next moment..all i know is being wheel in, time out and next moment, your op is done.
feel my brace and fell asleep once again.
woke up to daddy and mummy and the start of my challenge.
super nausea from the anesthesia effect.
kept wanting to vomit but i can't and leg was so heavy.
fell back to sleep-sek-sleep-llz-sleep.
thanks loads sek and llz! my 2 advisers when i have no idea what's going on with my knee. =]
den much awake, hungry but no appetite.
nan da came - thanks loads wei wei, bao bao, lydia, jayne, cynthia, jieying, jieqi. =]
ahs came - thanks loads sh, ling, choo choo and moi.
terry too.
thanks loads to all that came down!
greatly appreciated! =]
ate 2 mouth of fish soup and felt nausea.
when food is not appealing - that's when something is vvv wrong with fe.
so daddy mummy stayed with me till 940pm and went back. <3
the night was uncomfortable.
1st night sleeping with the brace, can't eat, feeling warm all over and wanna vomit all the time. it sucks.
waking up every 30mins, using pee pan and 7am, doc came.
the night felt so long.
breakfast was not nice.
6/12/11 day 2
doc came, breakfast served, no appetite at all.
and the headache beings.
nurse shifting my leg to get me to xray and physio and can't help but cry.
pain max.
den wen and jing coming to get me home.
feel very weak and angst by den.
no food and pain.
pek che, frustration, gao wei.
all the "-" adjectives that you can think of.
just throw it out.
day 2 was a very bad day.
it was a day which i am really horrendous and should apologize to my parents maximum.
temper was on a all-time bad.
still can't eat. (that must be half of the reason)
moi and terry came over and helped me.
get ice, cyro-cuff from shem etc.
it was a bad day.
7/12/11 day 3
things getting better. slowly getting used to it.
sek, choo, moi came over to visit at night.
appetite is back and slowly getting used to it.
so the days after day 3 gets better.
usual routine of thrice a day stretching and all exercising.
eating, comic, drama - in time with you, sleep.
not a day of stretching without this song..
have to sing this to start my heel slide.
a really meaningful song.
every single line is so meaningful and so apt.
I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
the true love -- my parents. thank you daddy mummy! for tolerating with all my nonsense during the 1st few days. taking care of me ttm. daddy for giving in to me. they showed me the true love. the tolerance, the care and all that no1 else can. <3 for this, i will go all the way for them always. thank you daddy & mummy!
thanks loads to my bffs for caring for me in each of ur ways. for you guys, i will go the mile. forever5 <3
thanks loads to 5-yr-old for standing by all these while. you feel me and i know you really do thanks for being here! the never failing daily check ins =]
thanks loads to sek too for the help with physio stuffs!
thanks loads to terry for tolerating my nonsense too, my crankiness and all. =P
thanks loads to all that drop messages and encouragements. <3
really appreciate it!
things are slowly getting on track.
starting to get used to my new acl and my life.
cannot eat loads of stuffs,
sleeping and moving around with much difficulties.
when a distance that takes a while become thrice the timing.
moving up and down and even sleeping.
all these simple things ain't simple anymore.
i will learn.
i will. =]
thankful for those who are here =]
alright shall end here! icing is almost done and time for heel slide and all again.
take gd care every1!
and cherish it while you can! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][
hello bloggy!
i am finally back.
11/12/11. post op day 7?
things are finally gradually settling down. =]
too much thoughts.
overwhelming ones.
this journey had really been a long one till now.
and it will continue to be a long one.
when simple things don't seem simple anymore,
you really learn to cherish every single moments.
shall do a backlog to note down this significant event in my life.
thou i am certain that i will not forget anything about this.
5/12/11: Op day.
moi sent me to e hospital and all the waiting and all.
daddy and mummy accompanied me. <3
an arrow to make sure that doc ops on the right (right) leg.
no food since e night before and 100ml of drink at 9am.
all ready to go.
heart pounding as the moments pass.
finally after 3hours, time to go for the op.
lying in the op theater waiting for the anesthesia doc to come, at that instance, it was 2pm.
i really wanted to give up on the op.
just continue my life without basketball.
just cycle and all.
but..haha is it possible?
then comes the anesthesia..
the veins on the hand are too small.
so she tried the side and i felt like !)#&#()@#
it was worst than blood taking.
so they changed an anesthetist for me..handsome new zealand dr daniel.
changed a smaller needle and changed to the joint veins.
next moment..all i know is being wheel in, time out and next moment, your op is done.
feel my brace and fell asleep once again.
woke up to daddy and mummy and the start of my challenge.
super nausea from the anesthesia effect.
kept wanting to vomit but i can't and leg was so heavy.
fell back to sleep-sek-sleep-llz-sleep.
thanks loads sek and llz! my 2 advisers when i have no idea what's going on with my knee. =]
den much awake, hungry but no appetite.
nan da came - thanks loads wei wei, bao bao, lydia, jayne, cynthia, jieying, jieqi. =]
ahs came - thanks loads sh, ling, choo choo and moi.
terry too.
thanks loads to all that came down!
greatly appreciated! =]
ate 2 mouth of fish soup and felt nausea.
when food is not appealing - that's when something is vvv wrong with fe.
so daddy mummy stayed with me till 940pm and went back. <3
the night was uncomfortable.
1st night sleeping with the brace, can't eat, feeling warm all over and wanna vomit all the time. it sucks.
waking up every 30mins, using pee pan and 7am, doc came.
the night felt so long.
breakfast was not nice.
6/12/11 day 2
doc came, breakfast served, no appetite at all.
and the headache beings.
nurse shifting my leg to get me to xray and physio and can't help but cry.
pain max.
den wen and jing coming to get me home.
feel very weak and angst by den.
no food and pain.
pek che, frustration, gao wei.
all the "-" adjectives that you can think of.
just throw it out.
day 2 was a very bad day.
it was a day which i am really horrendous and should apologize to my parents maximum.
temper was on a all-time bad.
still can't eat. (that must be half of the reason)
moi and terry came over and helped me.
get ice, cyro-cuff from shem etc.
it was a bad day.
7/12/11 day 3
things getting better. slowly getting used to it.
sek, choo, moi came over to visit at night.
appetite is back and slowly getting used to it.
so the days after day 3 gets better.
usual routine of thrice a day stretching and all exercising.
eating, comic, drama - in time with you, sleep.
not a day of stretching without this song..
have to sing this to start my heel slide.
a really meaningful song.
every single line is so meaningful and so apt.
I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms
If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
the true love -- my parents. thank you daddy mummy! for tolerating with all my nonsense during the 1st few days. taking care of me ttm. daddy for giving in to me. they showed me the true love. the tolerance, the care and all that no1 else can. <3 for this, i will go all the way for them always. thank you daddy & mummy!
thanks loads to my bffs for caring for me in each of ur ways. for you guys, i will go the mile. forever5 <3
thanks loads to 5-yr-old for standing by all these while. you feel me and i know you really do thanks for being here! the never failing daily check ins =]
thanks loads to sek too for the help with physio stuffs!
thanks loads to terry for tolerating my nonsense too, my crankiness and all. =P
thanks loads to all that drop messages and encouragements. <3
really appreciate it!
things are slowly getting on track.
starting to get used to my new acl and my life.
cannot eat loads of stuffs,
sleeping and moving around with much difficulties.
when a distance that takes a while become thrice the timing.
moving up and down and even sleeping.
all these simple things ain't simple anymore.
i will learn.
i will. =]
thankful for those who are here =]
alright shall end here! icing is almost done and time for heel slide and all again.
take gd care every1!
and cherish it while you can! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.believe.][
Sunday, December 04, 2011
][.Pre-Op.][
][.Pre-Op.][
it's currently 1220am on 5th Dec 2011.
no more food from now on. =]
wow wow wee wow.
the day finally came.
let's face it & move on from now on.
let's go fe!
hp is off for repair.
so no whatsapp, no facebook, no twitter.
just some time alone.
days after exams n be4 pre-op were well spent.
my fav past time of mj, loads of good food, meet-ups & pre-op xmas shopping by myself as well as with terry & cycle-thon with llz! <3
cycle-thon with 5-yr-old! <3
=]
haha the day had finally come.
truthfully after blood taking, i was really freaking scared.
but no worries, i have e best supports from them all.
just a small op.
i will make it through and it's time to move on.
it has been 2 months plus plus.
14/9/11 - is the day i fell.
5/12/11 - is the day i get my new acl and get on stronger.
play ball or not? i have no idea.
but i definitely miss having the wind in my hair, i miss jumping.
i miss so many things.
let's pray hard that the op will go on smoothly & things will return to its norm soon.
6 to 9 months.
slow and easy.
things to look fwd to..
dec trip to mount k with llz and all. =]
n perhaps another marathon? haha
n back to the game.
all these slow and easy.
pray for me if you see this alright.
off to bed le.
shall be g a bit..
but jiayou fe! jiayou! you can do this! =]
alright!
end here le!
take gd care every1!
nitez! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.moving on.][
it's currently 1220am on 5th Dec 2011.
no more food from now on. =]
wow wow wee wow.
the day finally came.
let's face it & move on from now on.
let's go fe!
hp is off for repair.
so no whatsapp, no facebook, no twitter.
just some time alone.
days after exams n be4 pre-op were well spent.
my fav past time of mj, loads of good food, meet-ups & pre-op xmas shopping by myself as well as with terry & cycle-thon with llz! <3
cycle-thon with 5-yr-old! <3
=]
haha the day had finally come.
truthfully after blood taking, i was really freaking scared.
but no worries, i have e best supports from them all.
just a small op.
i will make it through and it's time to move on.
it has been 2 months plus plus.
14/9/11 - is the day i fell.
5/12/11 - is the day i get my new acl and get on stronger.
play ball or not? i have no idea.
but i definitely miss having the wind in my hair, i miss jumping.
i miss so many things.
let's pray hard that the op will go on smoothly & things will return to its norm soon.
6 to 9 months.
slow and easy.
things to look fwd to..
dec trip to mount k with llz and all. =]
n perhaps another marathon? haha
n back to the game.
all these slow and easy.
pray for me if you see this alright.
off to bed le.
shall be g a bit..
but jiayou fe! jiayou! you can do this! =]
alright!
end here le!
take gd care every1!
nitez! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.moving on.][
Thursday, November 24, 2011
][.Buzzer beater & Derek Redmond.][
][.Buzzer beater & Derek Redmond.][
two inspirational videos that drove me to tears.
yups it's exams but haha just some inspirational videos ba.
hooked on to these as the op date edge nearer and nearer.
moving on to another stage. =]
Thailand Women's Team in 2011 SEA games.
ping shot the buzzer beater that drove me to tears.
always can't help but cry at buzzer beaters.
it's the split moment of faith and hope and miracle.
i won't call it miracle cause that shot came from numerous practice.
and feel so happy for ping.
1st saw her when i was in sec3.
back then, who would have thought that she could take e crucial winning shot?
or rather, who would have trusted her with that shot when there are senior players around?
but she did it. she did it this year.
claps and salutes.
buzzer beaters driving me to tears and i really miss the game.
Derek Redmond
another video and another guy that made me cry like mad.
http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/espn25/story?page=moments/94
went on to read about him and cried even more.
how much heartbreak can a man take?
this guy had the nightmare of all the athletes.
he withdrew from 1988 Olympics 10mins before because of an Achilles tendon injury. He then underwent five surgeries over the next year. This was the same runner who had shattered the British 400-meter record at age 19. So when the 1992 Games arrived, this was his time, his moment, his stage, to show the world how good he was and who he was.
only to have his dreams shattered once again.
and this was the Olympics.
really feel for him.
and in comparison, what i lost is only a season.
or maybe two.
before the 3rd month comes, i will get my new acl. =]
all smiles.
i will make it through the rain.
i will stand up once again.
on my own.
and i know.
i will make it through the rain.
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will make it through the rain.][
two inspirational videos that drove me to tears.
yups it's exams but haha just some inspirational videos ba.
hooked on to these as the op date edge nearer and nearer.
moving on to another stage. =]
Thailand Women's Team in 2011 SEA games.
ping shot the buzzer beater that drove me to tears.
always can't help but cry at buzzer beaters.
it's the split moment of faith and hope and miracle.
i won't call it miracle cause that shot came from numerous practice.
and feel so happy for ping.
1st saw her when i was in sec3.
back then, who would have thought that she could take e crucial winning shot?
or rather, who would have trusted her with that shot when there are senior players around?
but she did it. she did it this year.
claps and salutes.
buzzer beaters driving me to tears and i really miss the game.
Derek Redmond
another video and another guy that made me cry like mad.
http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/espn25/story?page=moments/94
went on to read about him and cried even more.
how much heartbreak can a man take?
this guy had the nightmare of all the athletes.
he withdrew from 1988 Olympics 10mins before because of an Achilles tendon injury. He then underwent five surgeries over the next year. This was the same runner who had shattered the British 400-meter record at age 19. So when the 1992 Games arrived, this was his time, his moment, his stage, to show the world how good he was and who he was.
only to have his dreams shattered once again.
and this was the Olympics.
really feel for him.
and in comparison, what i lost is only a season.
or maybe two.
before the 3rd month comes, i will get my new acl. =]
all smiles.
i will make it through the rain.
i will stand up once again.
on my own.
and i know.
i will make it through the rain.
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will make it through the rain.][
Monday, November 14, 2011
][.Thoughts & Updates.][
][.Thoughts & Updates.][
hello bloggy!
it's 251pm on a tuesday! (15/11/11)
woohoo! i am done with fyp! =]
my dearest "baby" that i had been working on since june.
it had been a wonderful process.
i meant, a good learning process.
one that i will not regret.
thanks "Elderspeak in Singapore" & thanks my wonderful supervisor - Francesco.
thank you everyone who assisted me in a way or another. you guys assisted me in completing this work. (haha acknowledgement)
never thought of producing 60pgs and 12,000+ words.
this is a milestone in life.
on a side note,
when i was on the way to submit my fyp, i heard sec sch kids talking about their 'O' levels and random thoughts emerged.
PSLE, 'O' levels, 'A' levels & finally Uni.
这些路，这些年，我都走过了！
有好友相伴的一同走过。
在生命中的每个阶段都有苦与乐，但都走过了。
很庆幸，很幸福。
aw..after submission, went to watch "In Time" with my course mates & had awesome korean bbq -- 2 days 1 night. =]
"In Time" is really quite a cool show concept.
you will never learn to cherish your time if you have all the time in the world.
just as how we always managed to finish our work in time when e deadline is there.
guess we or maybe i must learn to have the clock tickling away and know that we are running out of time before we learn to cherish what we have ba.
so cherish it guys!
cherish the precious time. =]
and wanted to blog about you are the apple of my eyes. =]
just a simple nice show.
something that reminds everyone of their youth.
friends doing stupid things together.
simple sweet moments.
believed every1 have those days.
a take-away from the show..sometimes misunderstandings and lack of courage causes one to lose things in life. but everything happens for a reason. what's meant to be would be what's meant to be. there may be this little regret but everything does happen for a reason. =]
will start to read my book after exams!
heh ok..so that's what's going on in my life.
9 days to exams and less than 3 weeks to op.
5/12/10 i ran after my dream.
5/12/11 i am going to be brave and embrace my chance to go after my passion again.
such a coincidence.
5-yr-old and me could't stop laughing when we thought about it.
within a year of marathon, both of us have to go through that.
it's been 2 months & 1 day.
you can never forget the day. never.
现在的我，已经不晓得自己是否还有那热程了。
我很喜欢，很想念。
但这些日子的无奈让我不知该如何。
只想快点动手术，好让我能够往康复的道路前进。
裹足不前久了，会闷，会累。
haha alright.
just a random post.
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
hello bloggy!
it's 251pm on a tuesday! (15/11/11)
woohoo! i am done with fyp! =]
my dearest "baby" that i had been working on since june.
it had been a wonderful process.
i meant, a good learning process.
one that i will not regret.
thanks "Elderspeak in Singapore" & thanks my wonderful supervisor - Francesco.
thank you everyone who assisted me in a way or another. you guys assisted me in completing this work. (haha acknowledgement)
never thought of producing 60pgs and 12,000+ words.
this is a milestone in life.
on a side note,
when i was on the way to submit my fyp, i heard sec sch kids talking about their 'O' levels and random thoughts emerged.
PSLE, 'O' levels, 'A' levels & finally Uni.
这些路，这些年，我都走过了！
有好友相伴的一同走过。
在生命中的每个阶段都有苦与乐，但都走过了。
很庆幸，很幸福。
aw..after submission, went to watch "In Time" with my course mates & had awesome korean bbq -- 2 days 1 night. =]
"In Time" is really quite a cool show concept.
you will never learn to cherish your time if you have all the time in the world.
just as how we always managed to finish our work in time when e deadline is there.
guess we or maybe i must learn to have the clock tickling away and know that we are running out of time before we learn to cherish what we have ba.
so cherish it guys!
cherish the precious time. =]
and wanted to blog about you are the apple of my eyes. =]
just a simple nice show.
something that reminds everyone of their youth.
friends doing stupid things together.
simple sweet moments.
believed every1 have those days.
a take-away from the show..sometimes misunderstandings and lack of courage causes one to lose things in life. but everything happens for a reason. what's meant to be would be what's meant to be. there may be this little regret but everything does happen for a reason. =]
will start to read my book after exams!
heh ok..so that's what's going on in my life.
9 days to exams and less than 3 weeks to op.
5/12/10 i ran after my dream.
5/12/11 i am going to be brave and embrace my chance to go after my passion again.
such a coincidence.
5-yr-old and me could't stop laughing when we thought about it.
within a year of marathon, both of us have to go through that.
it's been 2 months & 1 day.
you can never forget the day. never.
现在的我，已经不晓得自己是否还有那热程了。
我很喜欢，很想念。
但这些日子的无奈让我不知该如何。
只想快点动手术，好让我能够往康复的道路前进。
裹足不前久了，会闷，会累。
haha alright.
just a random post.
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
Friday, November 11, 2011
][.blurring eyes. fyp.][
][.blurring eyes.fyp.][
i love you so.
so much that my heart, my thoughts and my eyes are just all on you.
yes you, my dearest fyp.
it's 330am in the morning.
i am surviving with a mocha latte from coffee bean.
editing my what's supposed to be final draft AGAIN for the FINAL draft.
don't get me wrong, not complaining.
am vvv much grateful and thankful towards francesco (my supervisor) for going over my draft again and again.
if i have to edit it again and again, he has to read it again and again.
for this, i am thankful.
mon 14/11/11 is going to be the submission.
haha just as i typed down the date, it's going to be the 2nd month of my torn acl.
life goes on.
that's all i gotta say.
for now, just have to focus on my fyp and settle it asap.
on a separate note, you are the apple of my eyes is really really awesome.
went to catch it and love it much.
will have a separate post on it after mon.
for now, take gd care every1!
back to work. =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.sorry.][
i love you so.
so much that my heart, my thoughts and my eyes are just all on you.
yes you, my dearest fyp.
it's 330am in the morning.
i am surviving with a mocha latte from coffee bean.
editing my what's supposed to be final draft AGAIN for the FINAL draft.
don't get me wrong, not complaining.
am vvv much grateful and thankful towards francesco (my supervisor) for going over my draft again and again.
if i have to edit it again and again, he has to read it again and again.
for this, i am thankful.
mon 14/11/11 is going to be the submission.
haha just as i typed down the date, it's going to be the 2nd month of my torn acl.
life goes on.
that's all i gotta say.
for now, just have to focus on my fyp and settle it asap.
on a separate note, you are the apple of my eyes is really really awesome.
went to catch it and love it much.
will have a separate post on it after mon.
for now, take gd care every1!
back to work. =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.sorry.][
Monday, October 31, 2011
][.f.y.p.][
][.f.y.p.][
typing typing.
staring staring.
editing editing.
oh shit oh shit.
this is the current state of my mind.
and world.
not overly stressed.
not un-stressed.
elderspeak oh elderspeak.
yes i love you so n no i don't when words don't flow.
how to put everything down in words.
so much can be going through your mind but translating things down into words can be hard at times isn't it?
if only my fyp word count goes up as fast as my blogging word count.
all and all..
i am just thankful for my ever supportive family <3
nothing feels better than being at home.
i miss meeting and chilling with my comfort company. <3
nov is madness.
hang in there every1! =]
on a side note, 4/11/11 is finally coming.
time to get a date for op.
i need to move on to the next phase.
it had been more than a month. =]
ok! back to stones and stares and type.
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.Happy 14th! =].][
typing typing.
staring staring.
editing editing.
oh shit oh shit.
this is the current state of my mind.
and world.
not overly stressed.
not un-stressed.
elderspeak oh elderspeak.
yes i love you so n no i don't when words don't flow.
how to put everything down in words.
so much can be going through your mind but translating things down into words can be hard at times isn't it?
if only my fyp word count goes up as fast as my blogging word count.
all and all..
i am just thankful for my ever supportive family <3
nothing feels better than being at home.
i miss meeting and chilling with my comfort company. <3
nov is madness.
hang in there every1! =]
on a side note, 4/11/11 is finally coming.
time to get a date for op.
i need to move on to the next phase.
it had been more than a month. =]
ok! back to stones and stares and type.
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.Happy 14th! =].][
Thursday, October 27, 2011
][.Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort.][
][.Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort.][
been a while since i blogged.
wanted to blog about 22nd but din had e time.
thanks to all that made my day special. <3
really appreciate it!
will have a separate post on that.
aw..today's post is kinda random but just my current mood and all.
i know i am rigid with my principles, i know i get stubborn when it comes to some but..
Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort to make our world a better place.
heal the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race!
it really really takes just that tiny bit from every1 to make things better for each and everyone.
but why do some people just refuse to play that part.
it really irks me whenever i see such situations and things.
1) BASIC! MOVE IN WHEN THERE IS SPACE ON THE BUS!
there was this guy who stood guard by his gf and refused to move in when there was so much space on the bus. hello dude! your gf is not a 3 year old kid, she don't need your protection so much such that you have to stand guard over her and not move your ass in when so many people are waiting to board the bus and it's raining dude! really really cannot stand such inconsiderate people.
2) TAKE THE INNER SEAT SO THAT OTHERS CAN HAVE A SEAT!
super selfish and super cannot stand it when people just refuse to move in to the inner seat. fine if you are going to alight soon and find it a trouble then at least make it a pt to offer people the inner seat! you have no idea if that person is feeling unwell or maybe his/ her leg is giving her problems at that instant! Be more considerate, seriously.
3) DRIVE WITH CARE! WHEN YOU ARE ON THE ROAD, DRIVE WITH CARE! FOR YOUR OWN SAFETY AS WELL AS OTHERS!
really can't take it when drivers refuses to stop at pedestrian crossing! hello! i know that our driving instructors told us that once you get your license you won't be as careful as when you are learning but still?! lives are at stake! stop that bloody car when people are crossing & it's not even jay walking! it's at the pedestrian crossing! HELLO DRIVERS! and the speed is like super fast! are you in a race? are you in a rush? you may just kill someone with your recklessness dude! get some sense! wake up your idea dudes!
things really can be so so simple.
but people loves to complicate it.
to all the selfish people out there, spare a thought, make some1's day. spare a thought, save a life.
and all these being said,
i believe there are many kind souls out there still.
thanks to all <3
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15][
][.就这么简单.][
been a while since i blogged.
wanted to blog about 22nd but din had e time.
thanks to all that made my day special. <3
really appreciate it!
will have a separate post on that.
aw..today's post is kinda random but just my current mood and all.
i know i am rigid with my principles, i know i get stubborn when it comes to some but..
Sometimes, all it takes is that little effort to make our world a better place.
heal the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race!
it really really takes just that tiny bit from every1 to make things better for each and everyone.
but why do some people just refuse to play that part.
it really irks me whenever i see such situations and things.
1) BASIC! MOVE IN WHEN THERE IS SPACE ON THE BUS!
there was this guy who stood guard by his gf and refused to move in when there was so much space on the bus. hello dude! your gf is not a 3 year old kid, she don't need your protection so much such that you have to stand guard over her and not move your ass in when so many people are waiting to board the bus and it's raining dude! really really cannot stand such inconsiderate people.
2) TAKE THE INNER SEAT SO THAT OTHERS CAN HAVE A SEAT!
super selfish and super cannot stand it when people just refuse to move in to the inner seat. fine if you are going to alight soon and find it a trouble then at least make it a pt to offer people the inner seat! you have no idea if that person is feeling unwell or maybe his/ her leg is giving her problems at that instant! Be more considerate, seriously.
3) DRIVE WITH CARE! WHEN YOU ARE ON THE ROAD, DRIVE WITH CARE! FOR YOUR OWN SAFETY AS WELL AS OTHERS!
really can't take it when drivers refuses to stop at pedestrian crossing! hello! i know that our driving instructors told us that once you get your license you won't be as careful as when you are learning but still?! lives are at stake! stop that bloody car when people are crossing & it's not even jay walking! it's at the pedestrian crossing! HELLO DRIVERS! and the speed is like super fast! are you in a race? are you in a rush? you may just kill someone with your recklessness dude! get some sense! wake up your idea dudes!
things really can be so so simple.
but people loves to complicate it.
to all the selfish people out there, spare a thought, make some1's day. spare a thought, save a life.
and all these being said,
i believe there are many kind souls out there still.
thanks to all <3
take gd care every1!
bye~
][.10.fe.15][
][.就这么简单.][
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
][.Fe's Prehab Prog.][
][.Fe's Prehab Prog.][
haha hello bloggy!
been a week since i blogged.
all's good. =]
some stuffs that happened over the week..
awesome spaghetti by chef terry tho! haha
really quite nice! thou appetizer and dessert was left out in e end =P
thanks terry tho!
Happy 2nd! =]
sat was forever5's bbq.
life will nv be the same without these 4 pigs. <3
my 1st birthday card! thanks guys! haha too paiseh to take it out in front of u all!
"turn to the sun and the shadow will fall behind"
my cutest mummy says:"turn to the sun and i will be chao-ta" =.=
after bbq n 1/2 round of mj. went home in e rain.
tot tt i will fall asleep but it turned out to be a emo night.
super super emo night.
chatted with moi from 130am till 530am.
about our knees.
about returning or not to the game.
about changes tt can't be helped with the injuries.
about the moments.
about the pain.
about the wu nai-ness.
about the cruelty.
haha n all the craps in the world.
it was a rainy night.
went to jq's 21st and back to tamp for massage tt night.
happy 21st jq meimei! =]
den here comes this wk.
so much a breather compared to the last.
had not headed to the gym this wk but went to physio to get a proper prehab plan.
quads had decreased from 44.5 to 43.5.
need to work on it =]
e flexibility is obvious when seen through the mirror.
but it's ok! i will work it back.
prehab is tired but it's just the start!
the road ahead is long.
walk it slow and steady fe! =]
positive self-talk once a day. haha
my prehap prog! special thanks to sek for all her help in explaining and simplifying the terms for me!
so many people to thank!
already tot of wad i can do after op apart from physio le!
but be4 tt..thanks to all who helped me one way or the other thru out this month!
2 more days to a month of "pop" goes my heart.
i wun be able to pull it thru without each of ur help!
thanks guys!
haha ok! shall go try n do some work le!
take gd care every1!
and shout out to 5-yr-old: 不要累坏了!
p/s: looking forward to timbre with family on sat! <3
][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][
haha hello bloggy!
been a week since i blogged.
all's good. =]
some stuffs that happened over the week..
awesome spaghetti by chef terry tho! haha
really quite nice! thou appetizer and dessert was left out in e end =P
thanks terry tho!
Happy 2nd! =]
sat was forever5's bbq.
life will nv be the same without these 4 pigs. <3
my 1st birthday card! thanks guys! haha too paiseh to take it out in front of u all!
"turn to the sun and the shadow will fall behind"
my cutest mummy says:"turn to the sun and i will be chao-ta" =.=
after bbq n 1/2 round of mj. went home in e rain.
tot tt i will fall asleep but it turned out to be a emo night.
super super emo night.
chatted with moi from 130am till 530am.
about our knees.
about returning or not to the game.
about changes tt can't be helped with the injuries.
about the moments.
about the pain.
about the wu nai-ness.
about the cruelty.
haha n all the craps in the world.
it was a rainy night.
went to jq's 21st and back to tamp for massage tt night.
happy 21st jq meimei! =]
den here comes this wk.
so much a breather compared to the last.
had not headed to the gym this wk but went to physio to get a proper prehab plan.
quads had decreased from 44.5 to 43.5.
need to work on it =]
e flexibility is obvious when seen through the mirror.
but it's ok! i will work it back.
prehab is tired but it's just the start!
the road ahead is long.
walk it slow and steady fe! =]
positive self-talk once a day. haha
my prehap prog! special thanks to sek for all her help in explaining and simplifying the terms for me!
so many people to thank!
already tot of wad i can do after op apart from physio le!
but be4 tt..thanks to all who helped me one way or the other thru out this month!
2 more days to a month of "pop" goes my heart.
i wun be able to pull it thru without each of ur help!
thanks guys!
haha ok! shall go try n do some work le!
take gd care every1!
and shout out to 5-yr-old: 不要累坏了!
p/s: looking forward to timbre with family on sat! <3
][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong.][
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
][.New Hair, New Start.][
][.New Hair, New Start.][
Hello bloggy!
Here's my new best friend - my knee guard.
and my new hair style - short hair (that looks like a mushroom, coconut n any sort of food =P)
haha wells, let's have a new start with my new hair! =]
things are really not as hard as it seems.
and nothing is permanent.
so is pain.
things may not be the same as before but it's ok. (haha maybe not but yups, it will be ok! =])
you always need some changes in life.
whatever that don't kill you, really makes you stronger isn't it?
i can't do things that i can normally do.
i can't jog when i feel sad.
i can't put resistance on the bike and go faster on cross trainer.
but it's ok.
i can still train 20mins on cross trainer.
i can experience cycling fast on the bike.
and i am still who i am. =]
went to shoot after gym-ing today and i really respect those who came back after the injury.
cz i know deep down that as much as how much i want things to be like before,
i may not be able to play without that psychological barrier.
sometimes, it gets confusing.
you have no idea if you wanna tell yourself that you are ok so that you will function normally or you wanna tell yourself that things are diff.
it gets scary when it suddenly gives way.
it is scary.
but it's ok..=]
the hardest part was accepting.
that part is over, so now things are good =]
how can it not be when you have the best family and friends around?
little cards and notes never fail to make my day. <3
thanks loads to all! <3
injury is a sportswoman greatest fear.
but it's also one that she have to overcome to grow.
however if given a choice, i hope that all the sports woman in my life do not need to go through this phase. =]
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
Hello bloggy!
Here's my new best friend - my knee guard.
and my new hair style - short hair (that looks like a mushroom, coconut n any sort of food =P)
haha wells, let's have a new start with my new hair! =]
things are really not as hard as it seems.
and nothing is permanent.
so is pain.
things may not be the same as before but it's ok. (haha maybe not but yups, it will be ok! =])
you always need some changes in life.
whatever that don't kill you, really makes you stronger isn't it?
i can't do things that i can normally do.
i can't jog when i feel sad.
i can't put resistance on the bike and go faster on cross trainer.
but it's ok.
i can still train 20mins on cross trainer.
i can experience cycling fast on the bike.
and i am still who i am. =]
went to shoot after gym-ing today and i really respect those who came back after the injury.
cz i know deep down that as much as how much i want things to be like before,
i may not be able to play without that psychological barrier.
sometimes, it gets confusing.
you have no idea if you wanna tell yourself that you are ok so that you will function normally or you wanna tell yourself that things are diff.
it gets scary when it suddenly gives way.
it is scary.
but it's ok..=]
the hardest part was accepting.
that part is over, so now things are good =]
how can it not be when you have the best family and friends around?
little cards and notes never fail to make my day. <3
thanks loads to all! <3
injury is a sportswoman greatest fear.
but it's also one that she have to overcome to grow.
however if given a choice, i hope that all the sports woman in my life do not need to go through this phase. =]
take gd care every1!
nitez~
][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
][.Brace up for the dawn!.][
][.Brace up for the dawn!.][
hello bloggy!
i am back here once again.
encountered a down night last night when all i could do is cycle for 15mins and walk on the treadmill.
when all i could do is watch my team train and trying my best to keep my mind of the game for that 2hours plus.
it felt so bad and helpless.
it had been officially 2 weeks.
each day is a lesson.
everyday, i find myself working hard to be stronger than yesterday.
and hate all the down moments but you just can't avoid them.
right leg is currently going through muscles atrophy and it's worrying.
and part of the reason for depression and down-ness cause despite all the attempts to keep it in shape, it failed.
after cooling down, i guess perhaps it was the lack of techniques and exercises.
googled and found some pre-surgery exercises that i can do apart from cycling and hydro.
going to try them all.
come on fe!
don't be so weak!
some quotes to push me on..
(1) When the world says "Give up", Hope says "Try just one more time"
(2) In the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity.
(3) The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is the power to harm us - Voltaire
(4) You have to have a darkness..for the dawn to come!
it's tiring.
it really is.
but get up and move on!
life is a journey! =]
take gd care every1!
i am trying my best not to be down.
but if i am, just give me some time on my own..i will be ok.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.You gotta be stronger than this.][
hello bloggy!
i am back here once again.
encountered a down night last night when all i could do is cycle for 15mins and walk on the treadmill.
when all i could do is watch my team train and trying my best to keep my mind of the game for that 2hours plus.
it felt so bad and helpless.
it had been officially 2 weeks.
each day is a lesson.
everyday, i find myself working hard to be stronger than yesterday.
and hate all the down moments but you just can't avoid them.
right leg is currently going through muscles atrophy and it's worrying.
and part of the reason for depression and down-ness cause despite all the attempts to keep it in shape, it failed.
after cooling down, i guess perhaps it was the lack of techniques and exercises.
googled and found some pre-surgery exercises that i can do apart from cycling and hydro.
going to try them all.
come on fe!
don't be so weak!
some quotes to push me on..
(1) When the world says "Give up", Hope says "Try just one more time"
(2) In the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity.
(3) The longer we dwell on our misfortunes, the greater is the power to harm us - Voltaire
(4) You have to have a darkness..for the dawn to come!
it's tiring.
it really is.
but get up and move on!
life is a journey! =]
take gd care every1!
i am trying my best not to be down.
but if i am, just give me some time on my own..i will be ok.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.You gotta be stronger than this.][
Friday, September 23, 2011
][.Happy 13th Birthday DiDi!.][
][.Happy 13th Birthday DiDi!.][
Happy 13th birthday my dearest didi!
生日快乐baby bro! =]
thanks for bringing me 13years of happiness!
you taught me that it's amazing to love some1 and see some1 grow.
you brought me countless joy and it's such a nice feel to see you grow.
jiayou didi!
no matter how old you get, you will always be the didi that i wanna watch over.
no matter what challenges come in life, jiayou!
jiejie will always be watching your back! <3
Happy Birthday!
Keep smiling!
fe had regained her sanity.
road to recovery.
a year ahead.
let's go! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.keep the smile.][
Happy 13th birthday my dearest didi!
生日快乐baby bro! =]
thanks for bringing me 13years of happiness!
you taught me that it's amazing to love some1 and see some1 grow.
you brought me countless joy and it's such a nice feel to see you grow.
jiayou didi!
no matter how old you get, you will always be the didi that i wanna watch over.
no matter what challenges come in life, jiayou!
jiejie will always be watching your back! <3
Happy Birthday!
Keep smiling!
fe had regained her sanity.
road to recovery.
a year ahead.
let's go! =]
][.10.fe.15.][
][.keep the smile.][
Thursday, September 22, 2011
][.Sane in times of Insanity.][
][.Sane in times of Insanity.][
if i am not wrong, this is the moment that i jumped up and heard the "pop" sound.
this was the moment that drove me to the brim of insanity.
but it's ok.
it's time to face it and move on.
从哪里跌倒，就从哪里站起来。
this is definitely going to be a chapter in my life and in my basketball journey.
because, it's only when you had lost something so dear that you will understand how important and cherish it more.
i am finally gaining back my sanity.
bit by bit.
but definitely.
enough of tears.
enough of sadness.
enough of these.
anymore weaker, i will hate myself.
thanks for keeping me sane in times of insanity.
many had anchored my life during the past week.
Special thanks goes out to..
1) my ever supporting family - daddy and mummy <3
2) moi - for pessimistic talk non-stop and being there with me throughout this whole thing for all the doc and helping me distract. for all these, thanks bro! haha i won't say much coz you won't see and you will heck me anyway! but for everything, thanks bro! =]
3) 5-yr-old - thanks kid! really thanks thanks loads! you really keep me sane in times of insanity! you were there with me to receive the news.i wouldn't know how i will react if you weren't there with me. you know how devastated i was at the moment. you saw the uncontrollable me and sit me down to listen to all the options. (this reminds me of after "A" levels results where you sat me down and helped me with planning) thanks for playing the anchor of my life! =]
you truly understand and showed me the light. you know how pain it is to sit out during the last seasons but you showed me the strength that you used to pull through all these. you found ways for me when i wanted to play so much - cause you know how much pain i am going within that i am going insane. however, you were rational enough to pull me back from the brim of insanity. you taught me to calm down and face it and think. you were the only one that could bring sense to me in times of insanity.
for all these, thanks llz! thanks so so much! thanks for taking my indecisiveness! thanks for everything! <3
4) roomie - thanks roomie! you know how i almost went bonkers these few days. you saw how weak emotionally that i can just cry out all of a sudden. you saw it all and all. thanks loads roomie! i am sorry that i made you worried and if it's me, i know i won't be able to handle. i am sorry that i can't fight the last two seasons with you but i am so proud of you and i will always be here supporting you. the only moment that made me wanna step up and jumped onto the court was when i saw you almost cramping. hang in there alright? help me win these two seasons. we had had enough championship together but can i be selfish and request that you win these two for me too? thanks <3
5) bear - i am so sorry for losing it these few days. i really cannot take it but i will take it from now on. thanks for understanding and giving me time thou i always say you don't und. (that's just because i needed time on my own) no1 can help me out of these apart from myself. =]
6) thanks to my nan da team mates! thanks for taking such good care of me throughout these period. thanks to jieying ahma! thanks for accompanying me to hydro and keeping a look out for me every moment. =]
thanks loads to every1! i had found my sanity bit by bit. i know that there will still be moments where i cannot take it but i know i will take it. that's one thing for sure! coz i mark my words and today's maximum = tears in the eyes but nothing flows more than that. cause 脆弱够了。接下来就要加油了！=]]
take gd care every1!
5-yr-old shared this song with me and it really reflects how i feel this whole week.
I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door
I was so sick and tired
Of a livin' a lie
I was wishin' that I
Would die
It's Amazing
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
It's Amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's Amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight
That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation
And how high can you fly with broken wings?
Life's a journey not a destination
And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings
You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't liten to all that righteous talk
I was out on the street,
Just a tryin' to survive
take good care every1!
nitez! =]
i will be back.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.jiayou fe.][
if i am not wrong, this is the moment that i jumped up and heard the "pop" sound.
this was the moment that drove me to the brim of insanity.
but it's ok.
it's time to face it and move on.
从哪里跌倒，就从哪里站起来。
this is definitely going to be a chapter in my life and in my basketball journey.
because, it's only when you had lost something so dear that you will understand how important and cherish it more.
i am finally gaining back my sanity.
bit by bit.
but definitely.
enough of tears.
enough of sadness.
enough of these.
anymore weaker, i will hate myself.
thanks for keeping me sane in times of insanity.
many had anchored my life during the past week.
Special thanks goes out to..
1) my ever supporting family - daddy and mummy <3
2) moi - for pessimistic talk non-stop and being there with me throughout this whole thing for all the doc and helping me distract. for all these, thanks bro! haha i won't say much coz you won't see and you will heck me anyway! but for everything, thanks bro! =]
3) 5-yr-old - thanks kid! really thanks thanks loads! you really keep me sane in times of insanity! you were there with me to receive the news.i wouldn't know how i will react if you weren't there with me. you know how devastated i was at the moment. you saw the uncontrollable me and sit me down to listen to all the options. (this reminds me of after "A" levels results where you sat me down and helped me with planning) thanks for playing the anchor of my life! =]
you truly understand and showed me the light. you know how pain it is to sit out during the last seasons but you showed me the strength that you used to pull through all these. you found ways for me when i wanted to play so much - cause you know how much pain i am going within that i am going insane. however, you were rational enough to pull me back from the brim of insanity. you taught me to calm down and face it and think. you were the only one that could bring sense to me in times of insanity.
for all these, thanks llz! thanks so so much! thanks for taking my indecisiveness! thanks for everything! <3
4) roomie - thanks roomie! you know how i almost went bonkers these few days. you saw how weak emotionally that i can just cry out all of a sudden. you saw it all and all. thanks loads roomie! i am sorry that i made you worried and if it's me, i know i won't be able to handle. i am sorry that i can't fight the last two seasons with you but i am so proud of you and i will always be here supporting you. the only moment that made me wanna step up and jumped onto the court was when i saw you almost cramping. hang in there alright? help me win these two seasons. we had had enough championship together but can i be selfish and request that you win these two for me too? thanks <3
5) bear - i am so sorry for losing it these few days. i really cannot take it but i will take it from now on. thanks for understanding and giving me time thou i always say you don't und. (that's just because i needed time on my own) no1 can help me out of these apart from myself. =]
6) thanks to my nan da team mates! thanks for taking such good care of me throughout these period. thanks to jieying ahma! thanks for accompanying me to hydro and keeping a look out for me every moment. =]
thanks loads to every1! i had found my sanity bit by bit. i know that there will still be moments where i cannot take it but i know i will take it. that's one thing for sure! coz i mark my words and today's maximum = tears in the eyes but nothing flows more than that. cause 脆弱够了。接下来就要加油了！=]]
take gd care every1!
5-yr-old shared this song with me and it really reflects how i feel this whole week.
I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin' to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave but couldn't get out the door
I was so sick and tired
Of a livin' a lie
I was wishin' that I
Would die
It's Amazing
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
It's Amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you'll be alright
It's Amazing
And I'm sayin' a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight
That one last shot's a Permanent Vacation
And how high can you fly with broken wings?
Life's a journey not a destination
And I just can't tell just what tomorrow brings
You have to learn to crawl
Before you learn to walk
But I just couldn't liten to all that righteous talk
I was out on the street,
Just a tryin' to survive
take good care every1!
nitez! =]
i will be back.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.jiayou fe.][
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
][.fe, stop it.][
][.fe, stop it.][
this is killing me from within.
every moment of convincing myself.
every moment of crying it all out.
i need to stop crying.
but i just can't.
it hurts so much that nothing apart from tears can express.
nothing.
there's really nothing that can make this pain lessen.
i don't wanna be down.
but i am quite certain i am in e deepest pit one can ever find.
every day, every moment of silence, every single thing that triggers it,
i would wonder why? why now?
why?
why?
why?
歇斯底里的痛哭。
这是第一次，没人能治愈这痛处。
how am i supposed to get through this?
how am i going to?
i feel so sorry towards all that had been here with me.
but this is beyond words.
every one has their own story.
and this story is too pain for me to bear.
i can withstand all the heartbreaks but this is more than that.
this is devastating.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.brace up.][
this is killing me from within.
every moment of convincing myself.
every moment of crying it all out.
i need to stop crying.
but i just can't.
it hurts so much that nothing apart from tears can express.
nothing.
there's really nothing that can make this pain lessen.
i don't wanna be down.
but i am quite certain i am in e deepest pit one can ever find.
every day, every moment of silence, every single thing that triggers it,
i would wonder why? why now?
why?
why?
why?
歇斯底里的痛哭。
这是第一次，没人能治愈这痛处。
how am i supposed to get through this?
how am i going to?
i feel so sorry towards all that had been here with me.
but this is beyond words.
every one has their own story.
and this story is too pain for me to bear.
i can withstand all the heartbreaks but this is more than that.
this is devastating.
][.10.fe.15.][
][.brace up.][
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
][.哭着睡着，哭着醒来.][
][.哭着睡着，哭着醒来.][
哭着睡着，哭着醒来。
哭，似乎成了唯一能减轻我的痛的方法。
但是越哭越痛。
我快哭疯了。
泪流不止。
心碎到极点。
在这样下去，我一定会疯。
我需要找会自己。
找回真正快乐的自己。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.快疯了.][
哭着睡着，哭着醒来。
哭，似乎成了唯一能减轻我的痛的方法。
但是越哭越痛。
我快哭疯了。
泪流不止。
心碎到极点。
在这样下去，我一定会疯。
我需要找会自己。
找回真正快乐的自己。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.快疯了.][
][.14/9/11 - 20/9/11.][
][.14/9/11 - 20/9/11.][
it had been a tough week.
it really had been.
emotional upheavals.
optimism being built up and lost each day.
this is draining.
it's confirmed.
acl complete tear.
i am just thankful that it's only acl and not mcl and meniscus is going to recover on its own.
i am just thankful that through it all, i have my ever supportive family, moi, 5-yr-old, roomie, my ntu team mates, coaches and bear.
i am just thankful that they are here for me.
it's not easy.
it really isn't.
allow myself some down time.
but i don't want to wallow in self-pity.
sadness can and must be overcome.
there must come a day where i must be able to put down the thought that it's ok.
this two seasons don't matter to me thou it means almost everything that i had been working for for the past-i-don't-know-how-long.
knowing that i can't be back for ivp is really a blow.
a big big blow.
dear knee, why?
why now?
i don't wanna ask why me?
i am ready to take all these.
but why? why now?
我很累。
真的很累。
乐观得累了。
坚强得累了。
假装无所谓得累了。
但，我更讨厌自我可怜的自己。
所以我要用最多的力量重新爬起来。
这真是我整个篮球生涯中最痛的一刻。
但，我庆幸在我的生命中，一切仍是美好的。
若我再次脆弱，请原谅我。
给我多点时间。
因为，这次真的跌得很重，很痛。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.哭累了就睡.][
it had been a tough week.
it really had been.
emotional upheavals.
optimism being built up and lost each day.
this is draining.
it's confirmed.
acl complete tear.
i am just thankful that it's only acl and not mcl and meniscus is going to recover on its own.
i am just thankful that through it all, i have my ever supportive family, moi, 5-yr-old, roomie, my ntu team mates, coaches and bear.
i am just thankful that they are here for me.
it's not easy.
it really isn't.
allow myself some down time.
but i don't want to wallow in self-pity.
sadness can and must be overcome.
there must come a day where i must be able to put down the thought that it's ok.
this two seasons don't matter to me thou it means almost everything that i had been working for for the past-i-don't-know-how-long.
knowing that i can't be back for ivp is really a blow.
a big big blow.
dear knee, why?
why now?
i don't wanna ask why me?
i am ready to take all these.
but why? why now?
我很累。
真的很累。
乐观得累了。
坚强得累了。
假装无所谓得累了。
但，我更讨厌自我可怜的自己。
所以我要用最多的力量重新爬起来。
这真是我整个篮球生涯中最痛的一刻。
但，我庆幸在我的生命中，一切仍是美好的。
若我再次脆弱，请原谅我。
给我多点时间。
因为，这次真的跌得很重，很痛。
][.10.fe.15.][
][.哭累了就睡.][
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