][.Adaptation.][

][.Adaptation.][

Hello bloggy,

How are you?
No worries, you ain't forgotten!
Once in a while, I will be back to type down some thoughts =]

In 6 hours, I will be travelling back to camp.
This whole weekend is filled with work too.
Tiring?
Very Much.
When we say goodbye to our cohort mates, we say..
Bye & See you in 12hours.
I see them more than my family.
Choices and sacrifices!
Part and parcels of life.

Most importantly,
I am enjoying what i am doing.
n tt's what matters most. =]

and I learnt..
It takes much more efforts to keep in touch w your friends when you start working.
I am not taking enough yet. Guilty of it.
To all my friends out there,
you ain't forgotten!
Sorry if i'm M.I.A.
Just drop me a msg ok!
I will reply once i have access to my hp =]

take gd care every1!
bye! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.thanks for understanding.][

][.New Stage of Life.][

][.New Stage of Life.][

hello bloggy,

sorry for not blogging for so long.
in fact, it's been a while since i on my laptop.
i had moved on to a new stage of life -- work.

it had been 3 fulfilling weeks and i am enjoying every moment of it.
so much had been learnt and so much had happened.
but most importantly, i learnt an important lesson while i was jogging one day..
and tt's to give your very best whenever you can..
cz, you will nv ever know if tt's e last chance tt you get to give your best.

as i scrape through a "pass" for my ippt,
i felt so vv strongly.
i am thankful tt while knee is good, i managed to attain my gold.
i am thankful tt while knee is good, i went ahead w marathon and clock a personal best timing for 2.4km which seems to be so far fetched now.
but fear not, i will work back to it.

i may not be able to be there once again.
but, i am just thankful tt when i had tt chance,
i did my best and i will always have tt achievement tt i can call mine. =]
doing your best is one of the most important thing as it leaves you with no regrets.
and tt's e motto or maxim tt i am gg to live my life.

take gd care every1!
i hope you are enjoying every moment like i do =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.just do it.][

][.sraet.][

hello bloggy!

if you know me well enough, you will be able to understand today's post title.
it is hurting.
tt dream was so vivid tt i almost woke up in tears.
i had been in tears every moment tt i can be alone n think about it.
it will haunt me for life.
one day, i will look back and ask myself once again, why am I making this decision?
who would have thought tt this day will come?

tml will be the first time tt i officially break e news.
i know, i no longer matter.
but those moments of craving to be back in tt no. 10 jersey.
those moments where you held me by e court and gave me e faith to play.
those moments which you encouraged me and pushed me on to believe in myself.
those moments when you grabbed me from the bench and pushed me on to a sub.
those were the moments.
with the torn in my knee.
all these moments are gone.
and i will be gone.
gone from a team tt i nv thought i will leave, till i won a champion for you.
damm those moments.
it brings so much pain to me now.

damm it.

take gd care every1! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.niap.][

][.disappointment.][

hello bloggy! sorry that i had been blogging lesser nowadays. not tt i have nth to share, but rather, sometimes i'm just too lazy to put them down into words. tonight, i met some friends and thought about what happened since knee incident. i am blessed and i truly see somethings differently. there is really more to life than just basketball. i had always wanted to go back and play so much. but there is no longer a reason for me to go back. don't worry, i still love the game. i still enjoying playing. i may still go back to the game but for now, i know i won't go back to a certain place. i won't go back to a certain person. one tt i used to respect so. i believe in effort and time. these are the most precious things tt you can give someone. cz, these are part of your life, esp time. however, as i recall and reminisces i see e time n effort from some and i see the lack of it from ppl tt i tot should care more. maybe it's my expectation. but for me, maybe i am glad tt you din, for at least i can say.. thanks & bye. you taught me so much. you used to lift me from my darkest moments. but in this darkest moment, you left me behind. for someone who left me behind, i won't chase and ask you to place me in your sight again. i did nth wrong to deserve this treatment and i finally saw what i am to you. i was just a pawn in the chess set tt can be left behind once it's useless. this is the cruelty. i understand and i won't deny anymore. i am gg back on my promise to fight for you. cz, it's not worth the fight. you were. but now... you ain't worth it, anymore. take gd care every1! sorry if i sounded offensive. it's just some boil up thoughts. always rmb this, if someone treats you as an option, don't treat them as an priority. jiayou!! =] ][.10.fe.15.][

][.cycling alone.][

someone once asked me, you can always cycle in Singapore, why do you always wish to schedule some cycling time when you are overseas? i smiled. perhaps, i really enjoy cycling cause since my op, cycling is the fastest way tt i can bring myself around. (thou i still cycle v slow) but i love it. i love being on e bike cz its just like running. at tt moment, you are all on your own =] i need some cycling alone time. once in a while, i love these moments alone. clocking targets alone. satisfaction, n time to clear ur thoughts. cause when you are alone, you can be yourself. you can say "shut up! i am leading my life the way i want and don't come and mess with me!" i am not a "yes woman". i have loads of weird principles tt some may not agree and i choose not to say at times. there are things tt i detest n i just can't help it. yet at e same time, i und tt i cannot put my definition of perfections upon others. hence, my silence. hence, my smile beneath e sian-ness. cz one of my principles = not to force your opinions upon others. but at times, i just wanna say, it's my life. =] ok bloggy. ultra tired. no idea what i ranting le. just wanna go cycling real soon =]] take gd care every1! =]] ][.10.fe.15.][ ][.zzz.][

][.Life.][

Hello bloggy! I am back! Had not been posting constantly as life fell into a routine with tuitions & meet ups as well as awaiting the call for attachment. Had cleared interviews and went for the medical check up. hope all is good and i can move on to the job proper. sometimes, there is nothing more that you can do apart from waiting. =] try your best and leave the rest to lao tian ye. life is short and what matters most is living it to the fullest and not regret? i am enjoying my life as it is and looking forward to a new beginning too. and Happy Father's Day to my dearest daddy! <3 他是第一个抱我的男人，第一个听见我哭看见我笑的男人，第一个叫我宝贝的男人，他是一个我相信他说的承诺都会做到的男人，是敢和我说一直会陪我到最后的男人，是不管我错对美丑都觉得我是最好最优秀的男人。 that's so true! apart from mummy's love, daddy's love is also so so awesome. my daddy always gives the best to me and loves me more than anything. will nv forget how he brings me to the zoo, bird park, kite flying, soccer matches, beaches and to the basketball court where he played 3 on 3 and taught me back hook. (haha my daddy really raised me like a boy huh?) will nv forget our weekly toys shopping when mummy goes shopping. (one toy per week) will nv forget how daddy will always get me toys and play w me -- the basketball rim, the dart board. will nv forget how i started supporting arsenal by watching soccer w daddy. will nv forget how i call daddy secretly when my results are bad n let him help me explain to mummy. will nv forget how i want one toy but daddy will end up buying two for me. will nv forget how daddy came to support my B div n A div finals and all the basketball games tt he could be there. will nv forget how daddy told me to give my best shot when i felt dishearten by nat team. all these and so much more. n one thing for sure, daddy is definitely the 1st man who loves me more than anything, unconditionally. thank you daddy, i love you. thanks to my god daddy for loving me too. the $99bucks minnie mouse and loving me like his own too. i am blessed for my dearest mummy, daddy, godmum and goddad. and all i ask for is simple, get a job and repay their love to me. =] and Happy 10th to you. =] i had been spoilt by daddy, god daddy and didi. mummy says all the men in my life spoils me. so haha i guess you had a hard 10 months too. i will try to be un-spoilt a little =P take gd care every1! just a random post =] 1 more hour to euro! a game is always so unpredictable. =] n live life to the fullest. forgive when you can. say thanks and show your appreciation when you can. life is too short to be angry and miss the moments. ][.10.fe.15.][ ][.has its plans for you.][

][.getting back.][

][.getting back =].][ life is finally getting back to track. getting used to this jobless window period with tuitions and rest. finally headed to the gym for 2.4km and yes it was enough to get me all tired =X haha but it's ok. i was that fat kid who can't run. n now i am the once injured fatty bom bom who is getting back to fitness. if i believe, i can, i know i will. the sores and aches is more than i had expected and all i can say is, 只有经历过的人才知道。=] tml will be the 6th month since my acl reconstruction. back den, i tot that by the end of 6 month, i will be all ready for the game. but now, all i can give is a smile and perhaps the court is no longer where i belong. =] alright! off to watch tv n nua la! tml will be tuitions and pandan cake making with wen <3 take gd care every1! bye! ][.10.fe.15.][ ][.blessed.][