][.Life.][

Hello bloggy! I am back! Had not been posting constantly as life fell into a routine with tuitions & meet ups as well as awaiting the call for attachment. Had cleared interviews and went for the medical check up. hope all is good and i can move on to the job proper. sometimes, there is nothing more that you can do apart from waiting. =] try your best and leave the rest to lao tian ye. life is short and what matters most is living it to the fullest and not regret? i am enjoying my life as it is and looking forward to a new beginning too. and Happy Father's Day to my dearest daddy! <3 他是第一个抱我的男人，第一个听见我哭看见我笑的男人，第一个叫我宝贝的男人，他是一个我相信他说的承诺都会做到的男人，是敢和我说一直会陪我到最后的男人，是不管我错对美丑都觉得我是最好最优秀的男人。 that's so true! apart from mummy's love, daddy's love is also so so awesome. my daddy always gives the best to me and loves me more than anything. will nv forget how he brings me to the zoo, bird park, kite flying, soccer matches, beaches and to the basketball court where he played 3 on 3 and taught me back hook. (haha my daddy really raised me like a boy huh?) will nv forget our weekly toys shopping when mummy goes shopping. (one toy per week) will nv forget how daddy will always get me toys and play w me -- the basketball rim, the dart board. will nv forget how i started supporting arsenal by watching soccer w daddy. will nv forget how i call daddy secretly when my results are bad n let him help me explain to mummy. will nv forget how i want one toy but daddy will end up buying two for me. will nv forget how daddy came to support my B div n A div finals and all the basketball games tt he could be there. will nv forget how daddy told me to give my best shot when i felt dishearten by nat team. all these and so much more. n one thing for sure, daddy is definitely the 1st man who loves me more than anything, unconditionally. thank you daddy, i love you. thanks to my god daddy for loving me too. the $99bucks minnie mouse and loving me like his own too. i am blessed for my dearest mummy, daddy, godmum and goddad. and all i ask for is simple, get a job and repay their love to me. =] and Happy 10th to you. =] i had been spoilt by daddy, god daddy and didi. mummy says all the men in my life spoils me. so haha i guess you had a hard 10 months too. i will try to be un-spoilt a little =P take gd care every1! just a random post =] 1 more hour to euro! a game is always so unpredictable. =] n live life to the fullest. forgive when you can. say thanks and show your appreciation when you can. life is too short to be angry and miss the moments. ][.10.fe.15.][ ][.has its plans for you.][

][.getting back.][

][.getting back =].][ life is finally getting back to track. getting used to this jobless window period with tuitions and rest. finally headed to the gym for 2.4km and yes it was enough to get me all tired =X haha but it's ok. i was that fat kid who can't run. n now i am the once injured fatty bom bom who is getting back to fitness. if i believe, i can, i know i will. the sores and aches is more than i had expected and all i can say is, 只有经历过的人才知道。=] tml will be the 6th month since my acl reconstruction. back den, i tot that by the end of 6 month, i will be all ready for the game. but now, all i can give is a smile and perhaps the court is no longer where i belong. =] alright! off to watch tv n nua la! tml will be tuitions and pandan cake making with wen <3 take gd care every1! bye! ][.10.fe.15.][ ][.blessed.][

][.life.][

hello bloggy! i am back! sorry that i had not been posting for the past months. been really caught up with exams and tiredness. even till today, still v much tired. =] life had been good. scored the highest i can ever expect for my final semester -- 4.7. thankful. that's all i can say. thou i am still a second lower but no regrets. i don't believe in blaming basketball and the commitments that i had. for, those were the time of my life. life had been good. back from two grad trips and gosh i am really exhausted. taiwan was food n food n sight seeing <3 thailand was shopping n massage n shopping! haha life had been good. i had cleared both interviews and received the call for the post. thou there are still medical check ups and job attachments to clear before i get the letter of acceptance, but still a 1st step is awesome. especially since it is something i love. i m thankful for things gg my way. i really am. =] life had been good. but there's this part in me that ain't feeling too good. i need to find back myself. i hate to feel down and there is no reason for me to be down. i just need to sort out my thoughts and emotions. if i can, i will perhaps grab my bike and cycle around for a day all alone. cause, i seem to had lost myself. this is not me. or at least, this is not the one that i want myself to be. i don't like all these selfish-ness and lack of energy to be bothered about things about me. i don't like these self-isolation (thou i am still v much interacting) i don't like myself for being so insecure and all. fe, pull your strings together and find what really makes you happy. take gd care every1! =] ][.10.fe.15.][ ][.get back on your feet.][

][.Mixtures.][

][.Mixtures.][

done with my final presentation of academic life.
2 more reports, 4 papers & that's it! end of academic life.
job rejections one after another is not that encouraging.
wells, ideal life may not be that easily reachable and life does have her plans for you right? =]

wells wells.
on the bright side, 2/4/12, 2nd run -- 20mins, half of ntu bus B route.
running really brings me joy.
with every step i take, i convince myself more.
with every step i take, i am thankful.
truthfully, i feel like a kid who had lost her balance and forgotten how it feels like to run.
有点跌跌撞撞. but it really feels good.
with every up slope, there comes a down slope.
just hang in there.
every difficulty will have a way out. =]

alrights! take gd care every1! <3

p/s: thanks mummy for the new hp. (mummy nv fail to get me a present during her birthday. lol but yes, daddy's $ =P) <3

][.10.fe.15.][
][.smiles.][

][.because, life is a journey.][

][.because, life is a journey.][

hello bloggy!
i'm back =]
a much normal me.

the past week had not be rational.
had not been easy.
had been slightly demoralizing.
tiring moments.
weak moments.
upsetting moments.
but all's good.
all's good.
be thankful for wad you have in life. =]
everything happens for a reason though at times you won't have an answer as to why.

will try my best to keep thoughts out of me and just focus on this very moment =]
有些事不是看到了希望才去坚持，而是坚持了才会看到希望。
坚持和希望都会让人很累，但放弃就是一切的结束和未来的遗憾？
what is it that i want?
i guess with the ongoing season and stagnant progress, i'm feeling the heat BUT it's ok. =] fe is ok.

a few more weeks to end of sem.
end of whole uni.
haha gosh. just how time flies.
started on job search.
clicking on 8 jobs and crossing my fingers.
what do i want in life?
i want something meaningful.
i want something more than a normal job.
i wanna be out there to change someone's life.
secretly hoping to be able to get prison warden (and hope my knee will not get in the way)
i want a job out of the ordinary but not teaching.
lao tian bao you me pls.
thank you much much. =]

and just some random thoughts over the week,
be thankful for those who make an effort to stay in your life and make e effort to stay in their life.
be thankful for those who cares for you from the bottom of their hearts.
it's really hard to maintain the bond as we fight against time and our lives.
it's really hard as we moved on and get busy.
to all those who makes the effort, xie xie ni men.
to all those who seems to have drifted, sorry that i did not do my best to maintain.

and to the one that have been suffering my downs and endless tantrums, thank you. <3


with more grad trips being booked, the excited-ness sets in. =D
less than 6 weeks to the trips!! =]]
T.T here i come!!

take gd care every1!
bye~~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.if.]]

][.if.][Hello bloggy! This is e first time i am blogging using my phone :) Hmmm loads of thoughts running through my mind. They need to run out of my mind and heart. I can't put e words down. But there's just so much. I can't or maybe rather i don't wanna talk about it cause i know e answers that each Will give me. This is taking a toil out of me. The route ahead seems so far. The people are moving fast ahead while i am stagnant. Am i ready for all these once again? Am i? So many factors so many questions. If i would to, i would wanna be there there and not just there there. If i would to, i wanna be on it. I won't be able to take a back seat for i would rather choose e other seat. For this, i gotta work harder. But am i ready? Are you ready my dearest knee? I know you are not. How much more must i do for you? A lot more right? Are you, am i, are we ready to go through it once more? Ok night everyone. Night. We Will be ok :) ][.10.Fe.15][][.strong.][

][.Wicked.][

][.Wicked.][

wickedly awesome!!
thanks loads to terry tho for getting the tics & planning it! =]
enjoyed myself throughout the 2hours plus.






went to shoot 120 shots be4 gym-ing.
felt really helpless when i stood rooted to the ground and can't jump.
as the balls enter the basket, for a moment, i let it fall.


it's so hard to press the "restart" button.
everything all over again.
from the scratch.
it was much easier to press the "enter" button back then.
but it's ok.
to be or not to be.
it's not the time to decide yet. =]

on a side note..
some thoughts on the back of my head.
if you don't agree with someone or what he/she is doing, will you tell him/her?
somehow all the things from the past is coming back to haunt me.
and i just decided to shut up. it's his/her life.
but somehow, shutting up is making me seem so superficial. so f-ing superficial.
发生过的事不能当作没发生。


][.10.fe.15.][
][.shut up, fe.][

][.le MJ.][

][.le MJ.][

hello bloggy!
all's going on well.
coming home to discovery channel and animal planet.
can't express my amazement by all these prog and how much i can just watch them non-stop.

i almost got away. the haunted. i am alive.
exciting. heart-racing. inspiring.
see how criminals escape from the police.
seeing how paranormal activities happen.
and most importantly see how people stands up from all the downs and fight to survive.
as long as you don't give up on life, it won't give up on you.

really appreciate life and all.
and always believe in picking yourself up.
no1 else can pick you up.
you are the only one.

it's been more than 6months since i last ran and jumped and play.
time flies.
i missed everything but i am getting used to everything too.
life is good.
really.
the same question running through my mind over and over again.
but it's ok.
i am loving my life as it is.
gym-ing 3 times per wk.

mj once a week.
tuitions x 10 a week.
training x 0 for 6months.
haha great fe great.

final sem.
translation is taking the toil of my load.
but it's ok.
all for the last sem.
time flies.
gosh.

alright! end here le!
life's gd.
thanks for giving me what i have.
i will cherish it.

take gd care every1! =]
looking forward to "Wicked" tml =P

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be strong for yourself.][

《愛 LOVE》

《愛 LOVE》

除了《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》后，真的很喜欢这部戏。

舒淇 飾 柔依：你擁有的，都不是你想要的。
陳意涵 飾 宜珈：如果這世上，有人能為我拍了一支這樣的片..
郭采潔 飾 小霓：為什麼我不能跟自己最喜歡的人在一起？

若不曾拥有就不会依靠，不会依靠就不会懂得思念。

many nice quotes from the show.
love it!
recess week is coming to an end.
woohoo. so dead.
but it's ok - zen! everything will be ok =]

take gd care every1!
nitez =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.Crabby Day.][

][.Crabby Day.][



Hello Bloggy!
Happy V day! <3
finally start my crab eating feast!
no signboard, one butter, one chili crab, two person & awesome!
eating till we explode like what's new and butt itchy ttm like what's new.
thanks for everything!
a day where we accept each other's team and reluctantly compromise by wearing the opposing jersey =P




love the quarrels,
love the simplicity.



thank you! =]
everyday is a special day!
take gd care every1! =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.thanks for giving me the best.][

][.One of the best decisions.][

][.One of the best decisions.][



this is probably one of the best decision of my uni academic life.
receiving my feedback and hearing from Francesco regarding co-publishing the paper.
it's one of the best things in my uni academic life. =]
the happiness within.
很开心。
真的。
looking forward to the day. =]

ok! should get back to work!
take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.beer.][

][.beer.][

hello bloggy.
all's good.

it's a humid night.
too much is going through my mind.
i need a beer.
and the only reason that's stopping me from opening the fridge to reach for one is..
i am on antibiotics.

communication exist daily between between and even within yourself.
tonight is just a night of self-communication that is beyond words.
it's overwhelming.

i need my beer.
rest well every1!
take gd care!
all's good. no worries.
night~

][.10.fe.15.][
][..][

][.hi, i miss you.][

][.hi, i miss you.][

hi bloggy, i miss something.
i miss..


finally touched the ball after 4 months.
it had been 4months.
i know there are many things in life and i had moved on.
i know i had recovered and i'm thankful for every step i take. really.
but damm it.
when you first step on the court, you will really feel as thou the court is so big and the rim is so high and i really did feel so small within the court.

but, once the ball reaches your hands,
you really will feel as thou all is good.
when the ball reach your hand and when you release it..
damm. the feeling is so good and once again, you will feel that the game is in your hands again. the court is no longer big.
it's just you and the game.
the focus is scary.



it's something so familiar.
it's something that had been part of you for so long.
it feels so good to sweat it out.
with the ball in your hand and all you wanna do is get it into the rim.
and having the shot enter, the flick on your wrist, it's too good to be true.
i miss you.
i have to admit this.
i really do.

on one hand, i really really miss you.
but on the other, i am not certain just how much will i be going back to competitive.
am i ready to risk it all over again?
there's a voice deep within which gives me an answer.
i know i will when the time comes..
i guess the decision i make will be the best one.
for now, i miss you and every step i am taking now is towards the road of recovery so that i can enjoy and stop missing you.

but no worries to all who fears that i may do something silly =]
i won't..cause what's lost is most cherished.
i will not jeopardize my second chance and make unnecessary risks.
thanks for being here with me.
take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.<3.][

][.Journey Alone.][

][.Journey Alone.][

Hello bloggy!
if a picture depicts a thousand words..this is my picture for these few days.



it had been a lonely journey.
many things had changed.
beyond words can describe.
i can't put it down into words.
it's really hard to say out how i feel but i am thankful for the shoulders and ears around me.
the world goes on no matter what happens.
there is only so much one person can do.
there is only such amount of strength within one.
but there is just no way that i can be responsible without being in it.
or rather, there is no need for me to be responsible cause no1 is indispensable.
every1 grows and it is awesome to see them grow.
at the same time, it marks the time for you to leave.
to leave something which you spent the past years building and investing everything in.
this is life.
i am just undergoing early graduation of leaving.
i can take it.
i really can.

for now, i will just be a spectator, cheer and departs.
on to a new journey of hope and happiness.
i had my fair share of happiness here.
it's time to move on and find my happiness in other things.


my new best friend - hydro belt and the pool.
loves the serenity of just the water and me and the sky.
the peaceful-ness of working quietly back into life.

thanks loads to 5-yr-old for standing by with the words and experience. for its the person who been through the same route understands it most.<3
要记得，每一人要走的路都不一样。现在你走的路凹凸不平，似乎感觉没人有那种了解或耐力，陪在你身边。 No one said life is a bed of roses. 但是，要有信心能过这一关; ‘山重水复疑无路，柳暗花明又一村’.

take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.goodbye.][

][.Same same but different.][

][.Same same but different.][

hello bloggy!
went back to 4 kids today.
all is good. 2 more tml =]
haha all seems to be going back to normalcy.

life is good but all has its little troubles.
some thoughts that only you yourself understand and it's just hard to tell any1 cz some things are hard to explain..those mixed emotions and all. it's just =]

overall life is still good.
and a random thought..same pics taken at the same time same place through diff cams do look diff =]


the best relationship is when you two can act like lovers & best friends. =]

ok take gd care every1!
nitez~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.simple happiness.][

][.Spoilt.][

][.Spoilt.][

hello bloggy!
today is quite a long & good day! =]
went for hydro in e morning.
gosh, was really dragging myself out of bed.

den did 1.5hours of hydro n saw chen han wei =]


following which..went to tiong baruh plaza to have lunch - aijisen ramen (daddy's treat) and haha enjoyed being spoilt by daddy. spent 30bucks - 8toys and loads of sweets! haha just nice for cny! =P






went to sgh for 1month check up for knee.
all's good.
finally not feeling loose and saw my repaired ligament for the 1st time =]


followed by mi4 with moi.
nice show. haha

and thus, ultra tired now.
need to prep for tuitions and sleep.
back to tuition le!
jiayou fe! =]

take gd care every1!
nitez~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.LG.][

][.cherish.][

][.cherish.][

hello bloggy!
official 1st post of 2012! =]
life has been good! not promoting for LG but Life's Good! =]

being able to take the train, cycling and all.
it feels so good =]
so many simple joys of life which you used to take for granted till you lose it.

counting down with forever5 and family and terry with arsenal and pizza is awesome.
can't imagine my life without those pigs.
so much happiness whenever we get together. <3

and on another note, i had been having many random dreams.
haha meet-the-parents session, jc classmates, and yesterday was the best..
dreamt that i can play ivp. the dream felt so real but woke up, lol at my leg and went back to sleep. haha and yes, i really miss playing. i miss the game. so so much but i know it's something i can't do in the near future. i know mummy don't want me back to it cause this whole injury wasn't easy process.

and..it really makes my day when friends make the effort to maintain the bond that you share <3<3
catching up with jiaying mama really made my day.
and all the msgs exchanged daily.
little efforts from friends to maintain the friendship makes my day. =]
it's not all that difficult. all it takes is two person who cherish the friendship. =]

in all, life is good. =]
take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][

][.High & Low of 2011.][

][.High & Low of 2011.][

hello bloggy!
it's 819pm on 31/12/2011.
usual routine of wrapping up at the end of each year.
haha gosh time really really flies.
it was countdown to 2011 with forever5 at moi's place and now here i am at the end of 2011 with 3hrs+ to go be4 forever5 countdown to yet another year of friendship =]

remembered myself listing 11 things that i want to do in 2011.
let's see what had been accomplished and what hasn't =]

1) Blading & Wakeboarding! - wake boarding done with wen,jing,fungi & shem! it was a really good experience and i am thankful that i was able to do it be4 acl injury =]

2) Swimming! = i tried going for swimming more often and swam laps and once again i am thankful that i tried it with my frog style be4 acl injury =]

3) Golf! - went with moi to driving range and had fun. thanks & i'm thankful for the chances. =]

4) Tennis! - not done! =P

5) Photography! -yups, still went around with moi for photo shots! =]

6) Save up for get away! - done! 12 days of awesome-ness with moi & jing! one of the most memorable travelling up till now! my 1st go at backpacking <3

7) Cooking! - haha tried to learn from mummy here and there but no where near her level =P

8) First Aid! - not done! but will be done in 2012 feb! =]

9)Learn more about beer, liquor, wine and coffee & tea! =] - haha not really apart from my growing collection of vodka. =]

10) Have time for myself to do things i wanna do n love to do! =] - i guess this is done in a way. trying new things and getting away for 12 days. all these are awesome-ness which i cannot imagine in 2010.

11) Work harder for GPA! =] - done! *pats on my own shoulder* these two sems yr3 sem2 and yr4 sem1 had been my best sems. let's continue and give my best for my last sem in 2012! =]

2 things that mummy want me to do in 2011:
1) Learn how to get a bf. - haha erm. did i manage to do it? i guess yes & no. it's not on a to do list but things found its way back. it had not been easy & will not be easy but it's ok. every1 have their ups & downs moments. what's most important is cherishing the moments! no1 is perfect. thanks for accepting my flaws! i'll learn to accept yours too. =] and thanks for allowing me to be just me. apart from forever5, close friends and my family, i seldom expose my "dark" side, so thanks for taking in all my rubbish! <3

2) Learn to start eating onions.
haha sorry mummy! i only eat onion rings! =P

haha so here's a sum up to my 2011. =]
it had been a good one.
it really had been.
with all the ups & downs.

ups that brought me happiness - finding the joy in playing basketball once again, scoring well in academics, doing fyp, 12 awesome days in thai, experiencing water sports which i nv tot i will, the chance to work at childcare center and caring for the kids. <3

downs which showed me the love - haha truthfully when it comes to down, all i can recall is 14/9/11. byebye acl! knowing that i can't play my last season was my biggest blow of 2011. all the down-ness,going bonkers moments, cry like mad, pain like mad moments,thanks for the moment which showed me true love. showed me those that care for me and what many things really mean in life. it had not been an easy journey but it definitely had been very much enriching and life-changing. going through it had made me realized that one can really be stronger than what you think and people who truly cares stay by you through the darkest moments, picking up your pain and showing you the way out. =] my journey continues. long way but not no way! =]

haha that sums up my 2011.
for 2012, all i hope is back to normalcy.
1) knee to recover and allow me to run and jump once again. (when even walking becomes a joy)
2) conquer mount k with llz & forever5.
3) have a nice closure to my last sem - last 6months of academic life.
4) learn cpr for i see the importance in it especially after watching discovery channel & animal planet (my new loves after acl injury)
5) for all i love to stay happy & healthy.
6) get a good job which i am happy with and clear my study loan. =]

haha that's all i ask of 2012.
being alive is one of the greatest thing & next is to find meaning and joy in it!
thanks for 2011!
Welcome 2012! i will work hard to be a better person! =]
let's go!

<3 family, forever5, friends & bear.
take gd care every1!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.我是幸福的.][

][.every relationship is a gamble.][

][.every relationship is a gamble.][

hello bloggy.
just some random thoughts with things going on and around me.
every relationship is a gamble with its ups and downs.
sometimes, things ain't easy.
problems surface and it's all up to each party to solve it or move on.
everything happens for a reason.
every1 appear in your life for a reason.
some memories and secrets are only between both of you.
it's something that others have no idea.
so whichever it is, don't hurt the one that used to be a special one.
it applies across friendship and all.

me: xxxxxxx
a good friend in the past: eh you still remembered what i say?
me: why not? haha
us: a look back at the past and a smile which shows that we moved on.

that special bond that both used to share is something precious.
even if the ending hurts, it still has its beautiful memories.
remember the good-ness in each and let the sour-ness and bitterness go.
it makes life easier.
and it makes me smile.

on the other hand,
leg is getting better but i had forgotten how to walk.
haha hydro was fun and bike again tml.
slowing down to enjoy life thou staying home all day is driving me mad at times.
thanks to every1 who dropped by to accompany me =]

take gd care every1!
bye~

][.10.fe.15.][

][.Tears of Joy.][

][.Tears of Joy.][

it's been quite a while since i cried due to overwhelming happiness.
thanks year 4 sem 1. thanks fyp. thanks for letting me feel so happy once again.
sat by the com with mummy and saw my cgpa and got a shock.
it's still second lower but it was pulled up. =]
went to check the results for this sem and fyp totally made my day.
all the hard work for 5 months from having no place to do my research to having ntuc eldercare till writing and non-stop editing, not sure what to do and till it's finally done, it had been a mad mad process.

thank you francesco for more than words.
my awesome awesome supervisor.
thanks loads for giving me a nice closure to my linguistics major life.
last sem with officially nothing to do with linguistics anymore.
and fyp closed it real well.
thanks fyp, thanks elderspeak.
you had really been a milestone in my life.
and i never regretted doing fyp. <3
now going into the last sem of uni life, jiayou fe!
let's do it! =]

on the other hand, stitches are removed.
movements are getting better and life is still good. =]

take gd care every1!

][.10.fe.15.][
][.=].][