Wednesday, October 31, 2007

][.15 days.][

][.15 days.][

had gp today.
haha dun haf too high an expectation.
so nt feeling too much.

haha ok.
dear heaven n divine n all gods of the earth,
pls bless mi w e strength to last thur e nite!

ok!
off to fungi's hse!
take gd care every1!
hang in there! =D

][.10.fe.15.][
][.be brave.][

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

][.woah.][

][.woah.][

haha that's e onli thing i can tell u now.
in less than 12 hrs, i wuld be taking my 1st paper - gp.
wish mi gd luck!
pray hard for mi yah!
i wuld gan ji bu jing!

haha ok..
off i go to study gp!
haven touched it for e whole day =P

n it's 16 days to e end!
start w e end in mind =P
jkjk

take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.JIA YOU FE!.][

][.song of the day.][

][.song of the day.][



What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away


pure random-ness XP take gd care every1! byeee..

ps. thanks llz for ya help! =D

][.10.fe.15.][

Monday, October 29, 2007

][.wadever it is, jus be strong.][

][.wadever it is, jus be strong.][

Epiphany.
dunno wad came over mi.
a sudden wave of thought came.

n it told mi.
everything is gg to be fine.
wadever e results is,
i deserve it.

so jus be strong for nw.
self-delusion or wadever it is,
con-fe-dence.
wadever u noe, u noe.
wadever u dun, u dun.

so..jus hang in dere.
heaven has it's plans for mi.
my fatalistic resign.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will be strong.][

Sunday, October 28, 2007

][.sighs.][

][.sighs.][

went to airport to study.
but gosh.
it's e most unproductive day!
i spent my time stoning n thinking abt so many stuffs (apart frm work).

sighs.
SIGHS.
sighs.

e onli gd thing of e day.
i haf fungi on my right.
n wen on my left.
at least it din feel so bad.

agrh.
i haf to stop thinking.
saw u.
n memories surge back.

let go.
let go.
let go.
felicia, jus let go.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.i can feel it tickling away.][

][.i can feel it tickling away.][

mind blowing.
dead.

it's 2:24am in e morning.
n i had nt bathed.

had nt rest a wink for 16hrs.
n yet i done nth much.
for 16hrs of my life,
trying to.

it's too much,
counting down every min.
racing w every sec.

life is like a never ending race.
my stamina is running out.
faints.

i need a miracle.
i need a guardian angel.

end here le.
take gd care every1!
bye.

][.10.fe.15.][

Friday, October 26, 2007

][.epiphany.][

][.epiphany.][

dunno if i spelt e word correctly,
but it kind of meant a moment of realisation.

if dere's realli 1 such moments.
culd it pls let it be now?

1 thing worth noting down today.
8 yrs ltr de today,
jing n mi wuld be opening our own shop, 4ever5 vie.=]
it's a pact.
lets work hard towards it! =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.let go.][

Thursday, October 25, 2007

][.song of e day =].][

][.song of e day =].][



enjoy! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.wad a day.][

][.wad a day.][

today or rather 4mins ago de ytr, is realli..wad a day.
e memories that gushed back like nobody's business.
e strong urge to turn back to say hi.
e emotional struggle of wanting to be seen n yet at e same time not.
e moment when our eyes met n turned away.
it's realli wad a day.

last nite, due to an acute headache, i culd not sleep.
it was so pain tt i woke up n read i-mag n listen to music n take deep breath n did all sort of stupid stuffs while trying to make it ok.
finally fell asleep at ard 2plus 3?
i had a dream.

it's been so long since i haf a dream.
in e dream, we were doing stupid stuffs..
suan-ing each another, "bickering", "fighting".
those were e day.
those moments tt would nv come bac.
due to my words.

i refused to wake up,
in e dream, there was so much laughters..
e friendship, so fun, so special.
when i finally woke up n realised tt it's jus a dream,
n tt it's impossible to go bac to e past,
i can onli say.
hit by reality.
dreams vs reality.

tried to get e dream out of my mind.
tried to stop all e reminisicing of e gd old days.
tried to.

went to airport n tried to study vectors.
after an hr plus,
was exhausted n mind started drifting off once again.

lunch time,
was stoning n u walked past.
i stoned for e moment.
dunno to be thankful or not tt u din see mi.
cz it's been a period of time since i studied at e airport.
n whenever i studied dere, i wuld tink if we wuld meet.
n if we do, how wuld i react?
msged llz immediately.
n she agreed tt dunno if tt's gd,bad or nth.

cont stoning n decided to drop u a msg.
e nd to consider if i shuld drop u e msg,
mirrors e difference from e past.
n this difference is created by mi.
tt's sumthing tt i culd nv erase off my mind.

bac to work while waiting for e reply.
exchanged a few msg.
it's so familiar yet so agrh.

left for lit.
n i m pretty sure tt i m in e stone,
reminisicing the past.
unactivated mode.
so sorry to ppl who tried to talk to mi n discovered tt i was kind of distracted
n kind of lagging.
cz..i was tinking of e past.

took 36 n went bac to airport to meet jing n cont my day, or rather start my day.
jus as i was abt to alight,
i caught sight of a super familiar figure.
i stared hard to cfm,
n i noe u looked bac too.
at e moment,
i can onli say..
it's a super mixed emotion.

alighted n "hid" behind e bus,
not knowing if i shuld jus walk up n say hi.
or shuld i jus walked past n drop u a msg after tt.

final decision: walk past.
was turning bac to see once i m up on e escalator.
but too late.
had e urge to turn bac to say hi.
but thankfully, ur msg came jus in time.
resolved all e ? n wad to do.

headed to bk n awaited jing's arrival.
thankfully for jing,
i was more or less settled down n get bac to work.
was studying half way n suddenly sum1 covered my eyes.
hah e split second was so scary.
like i m suddenly in e dark xp
tried desparately to get em off my eyes.
n guess who lai de =P
haha chee fungi!

n so w llz's msg support n constantly allowing mi to rant n rant,
my mood pi xi duo le..
xie xie ni llz!
thanks for always allowing mi to rant!
thanks for always being dere to guide mi in almost everything!

n of cz w jing who constantly bei mi suan.
xiexie ni jing!
haha

n of cz fungi's drop by
n sinkin mi into darkness..
thanks fungi =P

n suddenly, wen u r missed! =P

at e end of e day, e mood pi xi duo le..i noe i wuld look bac n laugh at myself.
but at least for nw, i noe i had nt completely fang shou.
but, thankfully, there r always these pigs - thanks so much!
u guys = wo yong yuan bu hui fang shou de lifetime friends! =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.memories,i will keep em tight.][

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

][.555.forever5.][

][.555.forever5.][

today's title is super random-ness..this is my 555th post =P
n 555 reminds mi of forever5..so..pardon mi..haha

had my maths mock today..woo hoo..paper1 was sucky shit..
paper2 was more humane..
felt super light headed after both papers..
ate medi n went airport to study..
wasn't realli productive but feels gd n stress when e engine gets started =]

after dinner..took sum random pic..shall post em up sumday when emo1 uploads it =P
aw..came across this while studying my onli subject of e day lit..

Old friends, like old swords, still are trusted best.
how true is it to u? =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.memories.][

Sunday, October 21, 2007

][.5ick.][

][.5ick.][

woman's instinct is always v zhun.
i predicted tt i wuld fall sick.
n i realli did.
had to miss e lunch..realli sorry to van,employer n 1031.

slept my whole day away.
n gg to sleep e whole night away sooon.
not gg for maths mock tml.
wow.

mugging at airport ytr w llz was gd =D
but for e nxt few days.
it's e heck care, i m sick mode =X

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.sumtimes, i jus hoped tt u care.][

Saturday, October 20, 2007

][.bi feng gang.][

][.bi feng gang.][

hafing a splitting headache for dunno wad reason.
been slacking ard for e past 3 days due to celebrations n everything.
tml shall not be one.

haha aw v random.
but yups.
jus wanna say..
thanks to my bi feng gang..
haha u noe wad i mean =P

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i will stand by u.][

Thursday, October 18, 2007

][.numb.smile.][

][.numb.smile.][

thankie employer! haha u shall be e employer of e day! jkjk
aw today is another slacked day..
n another pig day..
ate loads..haha

aw super tired now..
n haha numbed..
it's a kind of relief..
n a tinge of mixed emotions..


hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..n o yah..how stupid can i get..i sprained my wrist while hafing dinner =P

][.10.fe.15.][
][.zzz.][

][.Happy 18!.][

][.Happy 18!.][

haha wo 18 le!
it's 2am in the morning n i m super tired.
but at e same time super high too!
i dun care..i mus blog be4 i slp =P
haha paiseh tt i wanna blog every detail down..cz i dun wanna forget anything abt today =]

ok so haha start from ytr nite..
heh w fungi's surprise visit at my door w a present n stating tt they cmi to pei mi on my bday =P
haha e cards realli made mi v touched..n e vcd =P woohoo..haha love it!

countdown!
haha thankie llz n jing for staying online n pei wo countdown =P
haha thanks loads llz for e e-card! haha e singing was..lol

den thanks to all those tt droped mi an sms..grace,jiao hua,xue li, iris,ah rum,jocelyn,ms tan,god parents n c mei,snail,buddy,tricia,employer,da 1031!
haha every msg light up my day! thanks loads for remembering! =D

haha morning while nua-ing jiu received employer's explict n not conventional way of greetings..haha xiexie ni! den jiu left for sch..haha stoned at e stone table n slept during maths cz vectors n complex is jus too complex for mi..

den..haha concourse kid's prezzie! haha soft toy! thanks loads! (finally i get my soft toy =D)haha n sh! thanks for e chocs! haha yums!den went for lit lect to study my hist..n hist lect while counting down to my hist mock..n it ended up tt i was e onli 1 to take e mock..haha realli had a little urge to jus go home..but nopes i noe i mus complete it today..if nt i wuld jus not do it! haha so did e paper from 3 plus to 6plus..seeing e sky turn dark n feeling my batt running out cz for e whole day i onli ate a burger n 3 addition liao..so after e paper jiu cabbed hm (haha under mummy's instructions cz gg out for dinner.)

haha so came hm n placed my prezzie all on e table n went for dinner! haha yum yum chillie crab, butter crab! haha crabbys! lucky there's c mei to pei mi eat..cz daddy n mummy both sick =P n received llz's call! wahaha another pleasant surprise! but psps llz hands were too oily n dirty w e crabs (but it was realli a big smile!) =P

haha after e super full dinner, went to get my cake! haha so bhb sia..but dun care la..i wanna cut my cake n blow candle..it's e 18th =P while choosing my cake, fungi called..haha sensed sumthing fishy..but hmm not that much for mi to guess too..cz afterall they realli haf super valid reason not to be here w mi today =P n i can understand..realli..so for e whole day i wasn't realli expecting em to appear..thou haha a tiny little part inside sumwhere in e heart does hope tt wuld happen *bleah* haha

den came hm w my cake..dunno wad went wrong..tink is e dinner too full le..so was realli high! (didi said i was siao) jus roll on my bed..den after a while i chao zhe wanna cut cake! haha jus den..fungi appeared to pass mi e thing tt apparently she had forgotten to pass mi ytr den left le =P haha so i jus watched tv n prepare to cut my beautiful cake =P haha n if e best is for e last..i guess it's realli quite true for today =P

haha my sweetest surprise *ta da* THE PIGS! haha while nua-ing on my sofa..ahem sum1's voice v low =P haha wen ji dan! although it was onli for a split sec..haha knew it was em! haha bleahs! they came jus in time to sing bday song n cut cake! haha so it started e cam whore-ing..n nua-ing on e sofa while watching tv n eating n haha loads of my fav food..but i cannot eat le..so wen jiu "helped" mi finish em - sushi, xia jiao, bbt n there's pea snack n wasabi seaweed =P haha onli e tibits r left now =P haha jkjk aw after tt jiu begin e process of "persuading" mi to go my rm..haha knew tt there's a gift..but ppl paiseh mar =P haha jkjk

so haha ta da! my super big gift of e day! haha was to open it..haha realli v touched..but i din acted touched n ahem caused those pigs to be "sianz!" haha jkjk but realli thanks lots! haha do u guys noe tt..it was e 1 tt i was gg to get when my old 1 failed mi for a day? =P haha jus double checked on e net to cfm =P haha so after tt..e lazy mi jiu asked jing to help mi dl e cd n register online n load songs! wahaha gan xie ni lo jing! haha realli ma fan her cz ahem we jus nua-ed on e bed n play dai dee! =P haha den for e nxt 2hrs, it was spent on laughing at how silly we were in pri sch ( while looking at my bi ye ji nian che) haha every single moment..i was realli happy..realli..from e heart de smile =D haha n guess wad..e mp3 is u3 n it's super baby de blue..haha n i conclude tt it's too sweet a colour for mi..BUT..heh if i was to buy it, i wuld buy black or white (e dull n boring mi!) but haha baby blue wuld perfectly describe n always remind mi of US! hah sweet, unchanging, forever, lifetime friends! love it! haha thanks pigs! i wuld definitely use it starting from tml! (thou i love my old one lots lots too!) but..haha

haha n happy times always flies..after cam whoring n mass blue toothing n crapping..be4 we noe..it was 12am! haha gd morning! n mass bus service check for e last bus timing..n off they go! (for e last bus!) haha n off i go! with a smile w my face! thanks forever5! thanks for staring my day n ending my day w a smile! love u guys so! =D haha

n of cz thanks to my beloved family n friends! thanks for remembering! thanks so much for making my special day a memorable one! thanks so SO so SO so much!

haha this is realli a great bday! thanks heaven! n haha i guess all tt i had hoped for today had came true ba! hmm maybe apart from 1 (npo forgotten =P) haha but yups thanks n to a special friend, thanks for remembering, when i saw tt msg, i smiled =]

hao la..end here le! take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.blessed.][

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

][.n u guys made my day.][

][.n u guys made my day.][

thanks forever5!
haha thanks for ending my nite n starting my day w a smile!
thanks for not keeping mi wait n no worries tt i wuld nt wait tml too =P
thanks for e gift!
realli appreciate it!
loves!
pls take gd care of yaself n haf a great day ahead too!
n rest assured..i wuld spend my day meaningful w my hist mock =D

][.10.fe.15.][
][.thanks for standing by me.][
][.touched.][

Monday, October 15, 2007

][.jus when i needed you most.][

][.jus when i needed you most.][

heartbreaking song..=]
here's jus a part of e lyrics..

'Cause you left me just when I needed you most
Left me just when I needed you most.
Now most every morning, I stare out the window
And I think about where you might be
I've written you letters that I'd like to send
If you would just send one to me.


haha hao la..end here le..jus wanna say..i m thankful for all e silly laughters n joy brought to my life by eg. FANG DENG LONG =P..n if it's within my means..i wanna spread e smile too! SMILES! (rmb it's infectious) byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i promise to stand by u.][

][.i rather not tink abt it.][

][.i rather not tink abt it.][

today started w mi loading loads of new songs into my mp3.
den out i go to study hist.
not v productive.
den hm i came.
had dinner.
watched jus follow law w mummy.
den watched "my wife is onli 18".
den here i m online.
haha wad a boring.
dull.
lonely.
unexciting.
empty.
lifeless life.

i m so...
culd my guardian angel cum n ease my fear now?
culd U cum n tell mi tt it's ok.
sighs.
dun even noe where's my guardian angel =X

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.too afraid to.][

Saturday, October 13, 2007

][.loves.][

][.loves.][

woohoo! confession to make! i haf not studied today!
woke up like noon? den watched high sch musical..
den nua a bit..
den off to sakae..
den arcade..
den ben n jerry..
wahaha n cam-whore-ing..haha
den bac hm to my tian ya xia yi..
my beloved ken n qing qing =P

aw thanks lots to my beloved family!
which includes daddy,mummy,gan die, gan ma...
n of cz C MEI and B DI!
heh n c mei..we wuld go n break e high score nxt time =P
haha thanks for e early one!
realli appreciate it =D

haha hmm..when everything goes wrong..u guys r jus e one who puts it right =]
thanks ohana (i tink it mean family..lilo n stitch said sumthing like tt ;p)

haha aw mid nite r realli vulnerable moments..=P n yups..i m gg to get a box n place all e stuffs inside n tie it up..n when i m ready, i wuld throw these away =] i believe it wuld be soon..=]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.no expectations.][

][。人。][

][。人。][

人体的构造真的很复杂,
但人的心灵更复杂。

因为了解而分开。
因为得不到而永远那么完美。

得不到的,总是那么的完美。
但人却总是想得到。

得到后,却又因了解而分开。
把完美的变成不完美。
就连快乐的回忆也会带着丝丝的痛。

既然得不到的总是那么的完美,
人为何又要坚持,
要得到那样东西呢?

][.10.fe.15.][
][.so near yet so far.][

Thursday, October 11, 2007

][。宁静。][

][。宁静。][

宁静的夜晚总是让人有说不出的心情。
就像此时此刻,
有好多话,
但却又不知该从何说起。
所以,只好自己享受着夜晚的宁静。
聆听心灵那孤寂的心房。

我不敢想得太多,
因为我一个人。

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