][。我们长大了。][

][。我们长大了。][

在你们面前，我无需伪装。
我可以任性，可以放肆，可以轻松的做我自己。
累的时候无需言语也不会尴尬。
难过时，你们总会陪伴我，给我最好的建议，最棒的关怀。

有你们在的时刻总免不了欢乐。
发自内心的开心。
就算现年已十八了，在一起时，感觉还是个小孩。=]

下班后一顿简单的晚餐，
一起闲逛，然后一口同声的说 - 我们长大了。
我们真的长大了。
我们竟然会一起逛街，给彼此意见，一起买衣服。
这更从前的我们相比起来，
真的不一样，
但是，又那么的相同。
那么,轻松。

谢谢。
因为你们，所以我知道，避风港永远都在。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.iloveus.][

][.不爱也是一种爱 - 橘子.][

][.不爱也是一种爱 - 橘子.][

现在应该在梦中的我却在这。
因为，我刚读完橘子的- “只是好朋友？！”
甜蜜，快乐的结局。
我的最爱。 =]
故事，很美，很简洁。

但，真正让我这时候得在这的原因是因为，以下的文字让我感同身受。
想分享，所以来了。。

《不爱也是一种爱》
。。我承认和对方不再适合当朋友，因为失言因为误解因为失约因为心灰意冷因为侵犯我的死穴却还好不自觉；我于是不想再假装我们还是朋友，像从前那样。

我们都是那么多年的朋友了，我们的了解为何会这么薄弱？ 或许，我们只是不再适合当朋友了。句点。

不要爱也是一种爱。有些我直接这么告诉对方，让对方理解为设么往后我消失我忙碌我冷漠我缺席，有些我仅是无力的沉默，连说也没有气力。

然后删除了号码封锁了名单，然后看着手机我监视我们之间最后的对话或简讯，然后我把他们放入回忆的抽屉里，然后从心底希望往后，他们回想起的我们，不会是最后的决裂，却是曾经的交心。

因为，我会是这么做的。

不爱也是一种爱。 在朋友面前我撒娇，我脆弱，我霸道，我任性，我放开我最不想被看到的样子，因为我们是朋友。因为我们是朋友，所以我会愿意放下工作抽离忙碌，花很长的时间陪伴，花很多的心思倾听，花很多的情绪坦城，我也不介意为了朋友请假只是要去喝杯咖啡，然后隔天被老板发飚。

我觉得很值得，因为我们是朋友。

可是如果当我开始不再认为对方值得我这么做了呢？
我不喜欢感情由浓转为淡，我于是会把它停止在最深刻的那一刻。

不爱也是一种爱。
因为我们是朋友，所以当我们的对待开始倾斜时，我迟钝我思考我判断我停下脚步，然后等待一个引爆点，接着，我们不再适合当朋友了。

因为不爱也是一种爱，当朋友这个关系开始令双方疲倦，失控，紧张，压力，那么何不干脆不爱以爱？而不要让友情变得只是互相伤害。

为了双方好，不爱也是一种爱，我是这么认为的。。

以上就是让我感触良深的一段话。
橘子完完全全的到出了我对于失去曾经很珍惜的两位朋友的心声。
就那天，我就对其中一位说了类似的话。
在信里，我感谢，我道歉，我希望她也和我一样选择记得美好的时光就好。
因为，我同意橘子的说法。。
所以，当一段友情画上句点后，就让美好的回忆留在我们的记忆就好了。=]
祝福你，我曾经的知心好友。

好啦，就此结束。希望你和我一样，从这美丽的文字中领悟到一些道理。=]
笑着说别了。
因为，再见是留给会再度见到的朋友。

][.10.fe.15.][

][.simple joys of life.][

][.simple joys of life.][

sunshine after e rain.
sum ships realli withstands. =]
230 in e rain with forever5.
sundays with family.
simple joys is more than enough.
n guitar is realli nice. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.too tired to talk at times.][

][.我.][

][.我.][

今天的post会random到不行。
一切将是有感而发。
很感谢所有在我身边的朋友。
因为，能当我的朋友的人真的很厉害。
因为，我真的很坏。
脾气倔强的我，
只有知心好友会知道。
所以谢谢你们。=]

现在的我在流着泪。
叹息着一段友情的心痛。
太累了，抱歉不能继续。。

][.10.fe.15.][

][.tired.][

][.tired.][

super tired.
OTs for 2 consect days.
thankfully today got tricia, sally n tresy to "entertain" mi late into e nite =]
enjoying e working n carefree life now.
meeting ups is always nice =]

for e rest of e wk,
it's booked with meeting ups with ppl tt i had nt met for long.
haha it's gg to be happening.

at times,
being alone is not a bad thing.
every1 needs a moment alone.
n hence, i m here =]

hao la..off to guitar-rapy..thou i onli noe one song nw. it's jus nice to play it, it calms mi =] byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.a moment alone.][

][.irreplacable.][

][.irreplacable.][

无可取代。
一辈子的知心好友。
唯有forever5 =]
那种纯真的快乐。
那份无需隐瞒的孩子气。
那一起打球的感觉是胜过赢得冠军的欢乐。

因为篮球，我认识了你们。
也因为篮球，我差点失去了你们。
感谢老天给我四个那么棒的朋友，和这么棒的一段友情。
诚心的感谢。

haha random-ness again.gosh my bones are cracking n every inch of my fats is aching now. played bball for e whole day vj in e morning n e whole of afternoon n nite at 230. =] haha vj had made mi dark n sunburnt once again. 230 with forever5 n e pri sch guys is jus as nice as ever. sumtimes i realli find it amazing tt we still get to play ball tgt w our pri sch team =]

at every stage of life, i wuld question if 5 of us would still hold on tgt with e different environment n more ppl cuming into our lives. no doubts, doubts arise at times. but when we meet n get tgt, all these disperse. thanks for letting mi noe tt we will stand tgt at least for e nxt yr. =] every sat, 230 bu jian bu shan pigs!

hao la..end here le..super tired le..haha take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.best ship = friendship.][

][.为何.][

][.为何.][

人为何总在失去后才懂得珍惜呢？
珍惜眼前人。
是个容易理解的道理。
但又有多少人真的办得到呢？

人总是把竟在眼前的眼前人视为理所当然。
就好比氧气，
只有失去后才知道它的重要吧。

熟话说得好 - 远在天边，竟在眼前。
而人总是觉得远方得不到的是最好的。
但，得到远方的，失去眼前的时候才明白一切经是错觉。

haha i m not emo-ing. jus random-ness.
reading a v nice chi bk now = 橘子 只是好朋友？！
haha i realli still prefer chi bks =]
maybe cz my lousy chi is still much better than my lousier eng ba.
but i tink chi words realli will bring out e meaning n make mi feel with it deeper =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.cherish.][

][.chilling.][

][.chilling.][

haha..changed a new blogskin but yet to edit it.
woohoo it's 2008 le.
enjoying every simple moments n simple day of my simple life.
work.eat.work.eat.watch vcds.slp.work.
tt's e standard pattern for most days.
haha realli is chilling.
enjoying e current life when stress n running out of time dun applies.
but bac to reality, it wuld onli be for this period.
when both feets are completely into adulthood, things wuld be much different. =]
already feels e pinch of adult fares tt wuld make mi rather walk den take public transports, cz it's bus concessions no more =P

aw past few days had been nice.
e last few moments of 2007 n e 1st few days of 2008 =]

..time machine..
31/12: woke up ard 10 in e morning..went to met llz for botakjones at bedok dere..lol it's nice man =P e noob here din noe tt there's such a nice western food in a hawker center =P hee..den went to cycle from kem to ecp..n while crossing e overhead bridge..i realli wonder where did i get e strength to run all e 4.8 n 6kms those days..i mus be..lol..aw biked n found a spot to drink "devil" n chill..haha both were kinda of tired..but tt pig drew a pig n pointed twd mi n this pig here asked.."whats tt? (ref to e arrow)" haha aw was a nice nice day ;p time w llz is always relaxing n nice =]

31/12 part 2: rushed hm n rushed out to meet wen n jing to watch warlords..haha it's realli not my type of movie..but haha of cz mus watch tgt rite =P got my since young all time fav..takeshi kaneshiro..gosh still as charming as ever..thou quite g in tt show..but haha still like =P after movie went to macs to chill n nua be4 making our way down to downtown east n met moi dere to countdown..due to tu fa zhuang kuang, fungi culd nt meet up w us..aw we jus sat dere n exchanged gifts be4 walking into e crowd to countdown n get choked by all e gases released by e sprays = suffocating..after tt jiu v lame de take pics den make our way hm after nua-ing at e bus stop for a while..haha for e past few yrs countdowns had been with this pigs..thanks for all these things all these yrs..=] haha n i m glad i fulfilled my new yr resolution =]

1/1/08: haha family day! been quite long since we go shopping tgt le..went vivo for e noon n realli shopped till i broke with mummy while didi n daddy drag themselves along =P got 2 pair of shoes n 2 bags n 1 top n 1 bottom..n i m super broke now..cz mummy says..bill it yourself n share it w mi =_=" but wells..wad she gives mi thur out this 18 yrs is more than wad i can share w her man ;p went for teochew porridge n came hm to nua after tt..

2/1/08: 1st day bac to work after a loong break..hee as usual de simple n nice.

3/1/08: after work went to met sh at orchad..went to eat nice nice de prawn mee den shop ard zai go kino to get nice books =D got myself a ju zi de book..shall read n post abt it again =] aw met ah wee kor kor..haha n employer..zhen de hen qiao =]walked all e way to dobhy ghaut (gosh, how to spell ne?) cz adults fare realli gives a pinch man =P haha jk..but realli nice walking la..quite fast jiu reach le ;p..hee n now i m super tired =X

haha these are e normal days..but be4 i end..i nd to thank sum1! JING! haha thanks for pei-ing mi everyday u this g de auntie! if nt i m sure work wuld nt be as interesting n exciting w/o a gd friend ard =] "A friend is like a cushion who makes e hard seat softer" (jing shuld noe wad it means ;p)

hao la..end here le..thanks to all tt had made my 07 a great yr n my 08 a great start! thanks for jus being here my friends =] byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.enjoying.][

][.nonchalant.][

][.nonchalant.][

talked to wen last nite.
screamed into e phone.
lol, both of us are realli RV hor wen =P

aw thou we r RV, she said sumthing tt struck mi.
fang xia ba. =]
since it mean nth anymore.

aw jus came bac from e club events.
sighs.
missed so many or rather all e free throws n e 2 crucial lan di(s).
agrh it's a b c d e f g de freaking agrh!
e most cannot forgive de thing.
under baskets.
haiz.
n coach's "scoldings" after tt.
i m nt sadden by it.
cz i m more disappointed by myself then.

going bac to e game had gave mi too much heartaches le.
miracle had lost it's way. =]
jus wanna say thanks to sum1 who always unknowingly, gave mi e strength to move on. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.i hope i can ignore everything.][

][.tui hou.][

][.tui hou.][

jus came bac frm airport =]
nice ranting to mei at starbucks w my fav mocha peppermint frappe =D
aw it's realli nice chilling out..haha n thanks loads loads loads for e nice nice gift mei! i owe u one =D it's on e way..haha santa papa on e way =P

aw chatted abt north south east west.
but most of e time it was ard e "special friend".
lol, mei asked mi a qn n i gave her e ans tt i always give myself.
no regrets? dun miss?
no.
hah..tink tt's e ans tt i always try to convince myself with ba =]
e truth is, it's nt no regrets.
it's jus contentment with e current life.
too contented to get out of e comfort zone.
no confidence to be e gd friend, so dun dare to.
kept on saying tt it wuld be e new yr resolutions.
n new yr is cuming yet e pics stays.

jus read one of e ancient msgs.
.semit esoht ssim od i sey n
haf a sudden urge to give u a call n randomly ask if u r still doing well. (which i noe u do)
haf a sudden urge to drop u a msg n ask how r u doing nw.
but hah.why e sudden urge?
i haf no idea.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..
n i realli learnt sumthing.
珍惜眼前人。

][.10.fe.15.][
][.shuld i?.][

][.e smile.][

][.e smile.][

got my 1st pay of my life today.
lol, it's much lesser than i calculated cz it's 1/2 e mth de =P
but wells..still happy =]

went to get gifts.
heh, glad tt mummy loves it =D
daddy n didi is jealous =P haha jkjk.

aw my horoscope for e day:
"u shuld spend time with ya gd friends today even if it means escaping responsibility"
hah..realli hoped to spend time w my gd friends de.
but wells..hah every1 is tired out.
so went shopping by myself after work. =]

lol..i realli wanna change my blogskin.
new yr is cuming! haha throw all e bad memories behind n prep to say gdbye to 2007 ba every1!

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.alone.][

][.u nv say gdbye.][

][.u nv say gdbye.][

woohoo..mus be mad to be here at this hr when i m working tml =P
jus finished watching "my girl" haha
thou it's quite draggy at e front, but e show is realli funny n cliche de nice =P
haha n e best thing is..
in e end, there's "hao jie chun xiang" tt 2 main characters as e real cousin n couple.
realli lol until haha.
korean dramas realli keep mi entertained loads during this period after As.
haha tink i m gg to borrow another set of dramas ba..
but dunno will be as nice as this 2 ma =D
haha happy n sad at e same time.
tears n laughters.
guessed this is life ba, everything is a mixture of everything.

slept my day away.
woke up late n went bac to slp in e noon till evening..
off for dinner n bac for e drama =P
wen would call mi a loser ba =]
but wells..haha such a carefree life is realli nice in a way.
but to quote llz "hen rong yi hu si luan xiang".

aw xmas eve was spent at cindy coach's hse..realli quite nice de =]
haha came hm quite late or rather very =P
realli appreciate e presents but haha no replies for e msgs.

woohoo..bac to e "hu si luan xiang" part.
while watching e show, sumthing struck mi =]
new yr is cuming n i haf a resolution.
keep all e past memories in a box n put it away.
cz as e time passes, memories realli do fade.
it's jus e stubborn attitude tt is trying to rmb stuffs.
so hah..let it be put away w e box ba.

another resolution is to stop hafing so much expectations n hope from others.
cz, it's tiring to expect n hope.
e higher e expectations, e greater e disappointments.
this applies to every1.
dun expect, so tt u wun be disappointed =]

haha rather random n lame de resolutions, when it's finally new yr, i wuld cum up with my proper resolutions ba =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

shall go n rent another set of drama n "entrap" myself within it ba =] jus can't wait for guitar lessons to start. =]

][.10.fe.15.][
][.nice song.][

][.i jus wanna forget e past, e memories.][

][.i jus wanna forget e past, e memories.][

sumtimes i think i realli haf a gd memory apart frm making gd use of em for my studies.
i realli realli hope tt there's sum water or wang qing shui or wadsoever to allow mi to forget parts of e past.

went orchad for 2 consect days.
for a person who dun often goes to town.
n dun like crowds.
it's realli tiring.
ytr was with chai luan n today with employer =]
grins!
so realli tired now.
so is e wallet.
but i haf no idea wad haf i got man =]

bac to "wang qing shui".
if dere is..
i wanna forget parts of e past.

听说你现在过的很好。
为你感到欣慰。
听说你换了很多新的东西。
你一定很快乐，
因为现在已没有一个批评你的东西丑，
叫你不要乱花钱的朋友了。
你一定过的很自在。

真的很希望我能把过去全都忘了。
因为，片刻的回忆有时会让原本枯燥的眼眸泛起一丝丝的泪光。
我不后悔，
但有时，真的很希望我们从没认识过。
真的希望能忘掉这段友情的点点滴滴。
忘掉曾有的欢乐与泪水。
更想忘掉的是，那一次次争吵后的坦诚相对。
想忘掉这一切。
真的很想。

很喜欢，很习惯现在平静的日子。
这一切就像回到了还没认识你之前。
简单，平凡的快乐。
不想改变任何的一切。
只想更珍惜那些从没放弃我的好友。
虽然已经很习惯和知足了，
但每回经过一些勾起回忆的地方，
还是会想起许久没联络的你..

只想忘掉一切,
因为,已经是过去事.
你也早已放下,往前走了.
我也应该完全放下,
不再想起.
谢谢你曾教过我的一切.
谢谢你曾对我的好.
对不起..

haha lalala crapping again ;p realli lame to rmb so many things..but haha seasons jus make ppl recall of e times..wells..jus this last time ba =D cz, i noe there r many more things n ppl tt i shuld cherish..wad's over is over, no pt holding on =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][
][.let go.][

][.memories.][

][.memories.][

christmas is round e corner =]
had e last game of e season.
memories floating back.
hah.
wad a weird way to describe it.

while tinking of e gifts..
last yr's christmas's preparations jus "floated" back.
haha.
many things can be tried to put aside.
many memories can be placed aside for a while.
but during such seasons,
sumthings jus can't be bury beneath.

would u ever regret knowing sum1?
i wuld not.
cz every1 tt u met would have changed u in a way or another.

read a post n felt even more.
wun get to meet up w u be4 due to e schedule.
haha, dunno if that's a gd thing or bad thing.
wadever it is..
all these are jus memories.
things would nv get back to be4.
i m happy as i m now.
apart frm a little regret now a dere as to why things turned out this way.
but, i noe e ans.
we are jus too different to be friends.

so jus hope tt everything is gg on well for u too.=]
sighs.
e last bit be4 e completely gdbye.
holding on to e thin thread.
got used to e days tt r diff frm e past.
wad abt u? =]
i wuld nv noe e ans.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.tired.][

][.tired.][

super tired now.
as expected de, we lost e game.
pls, nv tot of winning it anyway (tt wuld be day-dreaming)
but nv wanted to lose in this way too.
can't hold it within anymore.

exploded to coach abt how i felt.
e disappointment nt due to e outcome of e game.
but e process.
e efforts.
tired of playing in such an environment.
wad's e pt when onli this few ppl tries so hard.
1 hand can't clap.

e outcome of e talk.
= 1 more yr.
1 more try.
if this persist.
give up.

aw generally, today is a nice nice day apart frm e disappointment w e team. of coz there's also those tt make loads of efforts. to those team mates..jus wanna say thanks loads. bac to e nice nice day. nua-ed till ard 11 (opps sorry llz ;p) was supposed to meet auntie joy at 11:30 de =P aw went for realli nice jap buffet =D haha e food was wow..see already dou v happy =P haha had my 1st taste of sashimi..n loads of green tea which disgusted sum1 =P jkjk..aw it's realli nice..shall go dere again..but wells..such "sinful" behavior is onli allowed once in a while =P

after e super nice lunch..walked ard in suntec be4 gg over to e guitar shop..wooohooo..cool shit..i tink i m realli going to enjoy my guitar lessons =D haha yups i jus enrolled into 1 =P haha spent a while dere..n when llz plays e guitar..(ahem i m secretly wondering when would i be able to n jus can't wait to learn how to =P)..n i realli v blur..bought a case for e guitar..but got e wrong one =X got e one for electric guitar instead =P..

haha after which..it was 2nd hand bks hunting time..haha got a few books..yeah =D man zai er gui! haha to sum up..today is realli a gd gd day to spend a holiday..simple n fulfiling =P apart frm e minor disappointment at nite..everything is =]

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

][.10.fe.15.][

][.cross roads.][

][.cross roads.][

站在三岔口，
总是逃不过的选择的命运。
一次又一次的“打击”让人很累。
选择保持沉默是因为不想自己如此的脆弱。
最终的选择，
我只希望，不会让自己后悔。

你已不像从前，
我也不是小孩了。
所以，现在的我。。
只能靠自己的力量了。=]

][.10.fe.15.][

][.roller-coaster.][

][.roller-coaster.][

i haf nv had e courage to take a roller-coaster ride.
cz i can't even stand pirate ship n wuld vomit like shit.
but right now.
i feel like i m on a roller-coaster ride.

it started off at e bottom.
n slowly climbed bac to e peak.
n goes crashing down again. [n if u take those rides, i guess when it's cuming down, u wuld scream ur lungs out so tt u wuld feel better =] ]
but i m nt screaming.
instead i m smiling at my stupidity 4 doubting.
it's my choice to get bac.
i haf to face it.
n it's getting numb =]

sumtimes reality is harsh.
u jus gotta face it.
sumtimes attitude alone is not sufficient.
hardwork is also insufficient.
at e end of e day,
it all boils down to 1 thing.
u got e skills?
u get e playing time.
w regards to cuming trng or nt.
w regards if ya attitude is gd or bad.
u score, u perform, u play.

u once asked mi wad happened n who bullied mi.
i realli wanted to tell u everything.
realli did, as always.
apart frm 1 thing tt i kept it within myself.
cz, it doesn't matter.
at e end of e day, reality matters.
i understand.
n i recognise tt.

tears no more.
cz i m in e process of learning to be stronger.
no tears when we lose a game.
no tears when warming e bench becums a routine.
no more tears.
cz, i m learning to be stronger, in e mind n in e heart.

sumtimes i realli hope tt u wuld b aware of how i feel.
but i m nt letting e tears fall.
cz i m learning to be stronger day by day.
n at e end of e day,
wad matter most is e TEAM. =]

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

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][.sumtimes, i realli hope tt we culd go bac to e past.][

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it's scary when u see ya team-mates getting injuried,
one after another.
gwen's ankle, yaqi's knee.
it's jus scary.
pls get well n get back soon ok!
need u guys! =]

aw..it's realli scary.
it's so much contact.
n even more for centers.
ankle felt a little weird but chose to ignore it.
shall guard it well tml.
little finger is swollen.
right knee is acting up again.
at e end of e day,
why r we playing despite all these injuries?
i haf no ans for it. =]

con-fe-dence lvl is taking a roller coaster ride.
need to regain it.
ah, llz, jing n wen quickly cum bac!
haha. lonely, i m so lonely.
all on my own =P
haha..nowadays jus feel so tired mentally.
n jus hope to shut my ears from e world.
shhh..silence.

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1! byee..

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][.wuld u?.][

][.lol.][

][.lol.][

i jus dyed my hair!
haha i mean highlight..
lol, yes i m a G (quote wen) =P
heh, it's a breakthrough ok =]
paiseh jing n fungi, wen n mi bian huai le =P (jkjk, we r always us =])

aw this wk had been quite a hmm nice n usual wk?
haha work, slp, tv n..
apart from today's dye hair (exciting)
n of cz, meeting up w CK's kids at orchad for pepper lunch =P
haha n e beautiful deco at orchad road =D heh
it's nice!
reminds mi of e time tt we sell e christmas stuffs along e orchad streets =P
lol..those were e exciting n lame times =D

aw, life is relaxing..
i m loving it..
chilling =P

hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

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][.n it's been a decade.][

][.amazing.][

][.amazing.][

jus came bac from bball at 230 w wen n her team mates.
or rather mi n myself cz they left after a short while ( cz i went too late ;p)
aw, it's realli gd.
e touch,
e sweat.
everything.

haha n guys, is it in their nature to feel more superior than us?
i dunno.
but at least when u prove yaself n these guys respect n acknowledge u,
they r much much better than those arrogant shit who look down on u despite being least superior than u.
aw had a gd time playing.
enjoy street basketball.
cz it's jus so relaxing,
no restrictions, jus play e way u wan.
no formations.
no fixed moves tt u nd to do.
no fixed position tt u nd to play.
it's jus play it =]

aw it's realli amazing how we start frm scratch n "master" it eventually.
u ain't born to be able to walk.
but u learnt,
u fall n u bruised ya knees n u get up.
n be4 u noe, u master e skills of balancing n walking.
n it became so nature n simple tt u eventually forgot tt u ain't born w e skills.

same for everything.
eg. playing basketball.
u ain't given e ability to make e basket rite from e start isn't it? =]
life is jus abt trying n failing n getting up n cont e journey.

haha gosh, i m crapping again =P
pardon mi, cz i m gg to be a loner =X
haha llz is nt in s'pore.
jing is flying off tml.
haha wen is busy w chalet n her cousin.
fungi is busy w attachment.
gosh, tt left mi to be..
all by myself.
loner shit =P
jkjk..

well..time alone can be nice too =] hao la..take gd care every1! byee..

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