][.when you say nothing at all.][

][.when you say nothing at all.][

its amazing how you could speak right to my heart..
without saying a word..
you could light up the dark..
Try as i may..i can nv explain..
wad i hear when u dun say a thing..

e smile on ya face let mi noe that u nd mi..
dere's a truth in ya eyes saying u'll nv leave mi..
e touch of ya hand say u'll nv leave mi..
e touch of ya hand says u will catch mi whenver i fall..
u say it best when u say nothing at all..

all day long i hear ppl talking aloud..
but when u hold mi near..you drown out e crowd..
try as they may..they culd nv defined..
wads said btw ya heart and mine..

chorus twice


haha felt like listening to this song once again..so jiu jus blog down e lyrics..1st heard it when ms tay made us e video last yr..nice songs..n while doing so..i fa xian dao..ronan keating haf gd songs man..ok i may sound like a noob..but nbm =P..

hmm this christmas n eve has jus been crazy foto-taking..haha but i noe i will miss these times..hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.if tml nv cum.][

][.maybe.][

][.maybe.][

maybe its time that i learn to let go..
let go of certain things..
maybe..

][.FEarless.][
][.if only i noe.][

][.kou bu dui xin.][

][.kou bu dui xin.][

time is running out..
i m feeling e stress yet i ain't studying much..
wad craps is that..

today is jus such a sad day..
a day which i made 2 ppl that matters to me disappointed n sad..
sumtimes i jus feel that i m such a lousy friend..

haiz..
my mind is in a whirl..
deres so much that i haf been wanting to tell u..
but whenever i tot of wad i haf done..
i hold bac..

haiz..to another..
i haf so much to tell u..
yet everytime u mus say things that u dun mean it but jus to qi wo..
sorry i ain't that nice to nt say bac..
but i do wanna try to be..


hao la..end here le every1! byee..


][.FEarless.][
][.hate to see e tear in ya eye.][
][.why can't we jus be frank.][

][.updating.][

][.updating.][

heyo bloggy..seems quite long since i blog le..haha nth much is happening in my life nowadays..but stilll yup..everyday is a special day la..i m enjoying it =P..omg so lame..

haha act dunno wad to say too..sooo fast 2007 cuming le..haha dunno if i shuld look forward to it? or?..haha 2006 hasn't been a great yr for mi..instead its kinda of bad..but 2007..haha i dunno if i shuld look forward ma..but wadever it is..life is abt moving on..isn't it ? =)

haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.wo zao ni zao le hao jiu.][

][.feeling high.][

][.feeling high.][

its been so long since i felt so high n happy..
thou be4 e game today everything dun seems to be gg in e right way..
but things jus seem to work out well after e game today..
thanks team anglican !
thanks for making my day!
thou i din play well..
but i enjoyed e game..
finally after so long..
i enjoyed e game..everything abt it..
n to make it even better..we won..
thanks team! thanks for e gd game!
haha..e last 2.54 secs will always stay in my memo with me doing such a stupid thing..
haha yup..always remember..never forget..
thanks for e beautiful nite Team ! haha

*sheng zhong woosh*

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee...

][.FEarless.][
][.trust.][

][.wo zao ni zao le hao jiu.][

][.wo zao ni zao le hao jiu.][

no1 believes mi that there is this song..haha onli wen did..n yeah i found e lyrics..its super nice..v true too..but i can't find e song! *sobz*

aw its wo zao ni zao le hao jiu by Pin Guan..yup..so any1 who haf this song..pls pls pls send mi ok ! haha

aw..here's e lyrics..its v simple a song..i shall try my best to translate =P
...我找你找了好久...
[It took me so long to find you]
可以彼此分享得意骄傲 不担忧谁的心里不是味道
[We share the happiness and pride not worrying about who is feeling sour over it]
可以传染给你心情不好 连说个理由都不需要
[We just spread the unhappiness btw/among ourselves without even needing to say a reason]
可以直来直往提醒劝告 就算争吵也都是为对方好
[We treat each another with such frankness and advice..even quarrels are meant to let e other party learn from the mistake]
我找你找了好久 一个互相了解的朋友
[I took such a long time to find u..a friend that understands mi n i understand too]
生活有人分享的时候 快乐就变得容易许多
[With sum1 to share the life..happiness seems much easier]
我找你找了好久 一个拿心来换的朋友
[I took so long to find a friend that treat each other with such sincerity]
伤痛有人抱紧的时候 未来有什么路不敢走
[With sum1 mending the wounds when i m hurt..wad road wuld i nt dare to venture in e future? =P]

love this song man..once again..any1 with this song..pls send me! haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 !byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.cz u all r in my life.][

][.how i wish to see my friends again.][

][.how i wish to see my friends again.][

today's bloggy title is inspired by C mei..went to her blog n saw this line n jus felt so much..went to see sum friendship poems..haha

yup..how i wish to see my friends again..nt that i dun c em..but right after i saw that line..i went to visit forever5's blog n saw e last post dere was still e same old last post..e tagboard was still e same old last tag..

haha it hurts a little here n dere..den i sit back n think of wad e 4 others are doing..haha n i can't help but blame myself too..wad can i say when even mi myself n i dun even care for em here n dere in their daily lives?..

haha i guess its jus hard ba..things ain't e same in sum ways once u haf gone on ya separate ways..but certain things will remain e same thats wad i believe..

i guess its jus hard to prevent things from changing..cz things change..ppl changes..i change..but all i can say is..e beautiful friendship n memories that u once shared will always remain here => <33

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..cherish ya friends n memos ba..=)

][.FEarless.][
][.work harder than any1.][

][.wei sher mer bu shuo xin di hua.][

][.wei sher mer bu shuo xin di hua.][

jus came bac from thai ytr..haha nt exactly a wonderful one..but nt bad la..hee..shall nt go on to elaborate abt it..cz dere's sumthing else that i wanna blog instead..n yah..read it onli if u feel like doing so cz its specially dedicated to 2 friends thou i haf no idea if they will read it la..

ooo hooked on to ni na mer ai ta by li sheng jie nw..haha nowadays i feel that li sheng jie's song realli express how i feel la..hee..oook..these few lines frm e song describes how i feel..

直到爱消失　你才懂得　去珍惜身边每个美好风景　只是他早已离去
zhi dao ai xiao shi ni cai dong de qu zhen xi shen bian mei ge mei hao feng jing zhi shi ta zao yi li qu..
[its only when everything is lost n gone will u noe how to cherish everything..but that person haf already left]

为什么不说心里话
wei sher mer bu suo xin li hua..
[why dun u say e words in ya heart n how u feel]

this 2 lines in e song describes how i feel..

1st line is towards a friend that i haf let down..thanks for everything that u had done nowadays..its realli a lot n enff le..dun go on n make yaself tired out jus becoz of me nt knowing how to appreciate u..learn to care more n appreciate those that haf been standing by ya side all these times..u noe who they r..those that cares more for u than i do..cherish em..dun wait till its too late..understand?..haha maybe btw u n me..its too late le ba..thou there's such a line as "its nv too late to turn bac"..but yup..dun turn bac anymore my friend..look front..walk ahead..cherish those that cherish u more than i do now..dun let e same things happen again..i bet u dun wan it to..jus as how much i dun wan things to turn out this way n how much i hate it that things can't turn bac n haf a backspace button jus as u hope for a restart button..und ? =) do take care..i believe we can still be gd friends down e road in e future..its jus that things wun be e same anymore la..but no worries..we will still be friend..i dun wanna be selfish n ask u to hold on anymore..cz it will hurt u onli more..und?..so smiles n look ahead my friend =) thanks for everything n sorry for everything too..take care !

e 2nd line is how i feel towards another friend..why is it that we always say e opp thing from how we exactly feel..ming ming wan yet say e opp things..haha so stubborn..wo men zhen de hen zhi zhuo o..why zhui ying xin luan ne..always say things that we dun meant..its jus to agitate e other..haha is it worth it huh? can't we jus say wad we wanna say n how we exactly feel?..haha hao la..jkjk..jus wanna say e 98degress de song..i do..cherish u..=P..

jiu ying wei hen zai hu ni
suo yi cai hui ku hong le yan
rang xin tong de bu neng zhi ba..

haha yup..thats how i feel..e more sum1 matters to u..e more it hurt..hee n yah..hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.hen zai hu ni.][

][.yuan fen yi jing.][

][.yuan fen yi jing.][

do u believe in fate?..
i do..
maybe like wad my mummy says..
sumtimes when fate is over btw ppl..its jus over..

i dunno..
but all i freaking feel nw is..
sum ppl are jus nt meant to be in ya life..
or rather..
u jus ain't suppose to be in that person's life..

i dunno la..
feeling lousy over all these shit..
wadever it is..it is..

anyway..jus wanna say thanks to wen..
when every1 change (including mi)..u r e onli one that stilll makes mi feel like everything will be ok..thanks..hao la..end here le..nt realli in e mood to blog nw..v tired..gg off to thai tml..take gd care every1..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.off for 6 days le.bye.][

][.hearts can't lie.][

][.hearts can't lie.][

hearts can't lie..
at least mine can't..
e mind try to psycho it..
but e heart will remain e same..
e same ans..e same mind..e same thoughts..e same mi..

not in e best of mood..
not in e worst of mood..
its jus not feeling gd..
wanna say it out loud..
yet i dunno wad to say..
or how shuld i say..

deres so much jus so much that i wanna tell u..
but yet when i see u..
i dunno how shuld i tell u..
even when i dun see u..
deres jus so much i wanna tell u..
but i haf no idea how..
so i jus keep everything to myself..

i m afraid..
after so much that had happened this yr..
i m afraid..
afraid of how things change..
how weak things n ppl can be..
how fragile a heart can be..
be careful..
it will break..

if there's backspace..
allow mi to return back to e past..
n re-live that moments..
enjoy e happiness..
i hate myself for wanting to go back to e past once and again..
but sumtimes i realli yearn for e simple moments..
e moments so happy..

take away my jealousy..
take away my negativity..
let mi be happy with wad i haf..
n nv to expect anymore frm u..

one is trying hard to salvage
while another is pushing mi bac to wad everything used to be..
sorry to one..dunno wad to do with another..
maybe i shuld jus leave n everything will be jus gd..
but i can't..so i leave it to time..
maybe slowly..
gradually..
i will learn to live as wad i shuld be..


ps. i m contented with my life..n ignore my craps..

alright..shall end here.. take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.maybe its jus a moment of foolishness.][

][.wei zhi.][

][.wei zhi.][

ni zai wo xin li zhan le zhe ge wei zhi..cai neng dui ni tou lou suo you xin shi..
[ u stand a certain(impt) place in my heart..thats why i can tell u all my problems]

wo zai ni xin li you duo shao wei zhi..zhi you ni ji zi jui neng gou jie shi..
[how much place do i stand in your heart?..i tink only u can explain..]

haha thats how i feel nw..and its li sheng jie song de lyrcis..so jus blog down ba..aw..another qn..why is it that ppl expect n noes sumthings will happen but yet do nth to stop it frm happening?..isn't it an irony?..thats wad i do at times too..haiz..

aw..hmm wuld u say.."always remember" or "never forget"?..

hao la..end here le..bye..

ps. i realli dun und myself..=

][.FEarless.][
][.u matters lots.][

][.u haf to endure e rain if u wan e rainbow.][

][.u haf to endure e rain if u wan e rainbow.][

sum1 once told mi this..
u wan e rainbow?
endure e rain 1st..

i tink its v encouraging n nice..so i always try to tell myself that..but these few days..every1 ard mi seems to be so troubled..like..every1 is v e u noe..bu kai xin..yah la..at least those ard mi..those that matters lots to mi..dou nt happy..i tink all those that matters to mi de ren de guardian angels go on a hol tgt le =P if thats realli e case..guardian angels men..pls enjoy ya hols n cum bac asap to protect my dear ones pls pls pls x infinity !!

hmm i realli pray..pray that all ard mi will be happy..n things will go smoothly for em..n of cz..mummy will get well soon ! e best is NOW !!..n all n each n every1 to be happy n may all e troubles go away !! pls pls pls..guardian angel pls! fairy god mother pls !

dear fairy god mother..pls bless all my dear ones with gd health..happiness n troubles free !..thanks x infinity !

hao la..end here le..take gd gd gd care every1 ! byee..

ps. happy thoughts do help =D

][.FEarless.][
][.still waiting for my guardian angel.][

][.sumtimes,i jus dun und myself.][

][.sumtimes,i jus dun und myself.][

why is it that ppl always dunno how to appreciate those that realli care for em..
why is that e person u care most for wun be the person that care most abt u ?..
maybe thats life ba..
there will be sum1 that care most abt u..
similarly..there will be sum1 that u care most abt..
but it will be a diff person..
maybe..
at least thats how i feel now..
ignore mi..

haha aw..ytr n today was gd..watched endless movie n endless food..thanks wen =) n i m so FAT now..gained 10+ kg..i swear i m gg on a diet..so pls help to stop mi if i eat yeah..thanks !

hao la..end here le..take gd care every1..i wanna go watch love on diet le..tml mus start to mug hard le..byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.sumtimes i wish i can ignore everything.][

][.wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren shen huo.][

][.wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren shen huo.][

haha today de blog title is how i m feeling nowadays ba..translation = i tink i can get used to living all by myself..

haha that song is kinda of stucked to my head nowadays..maybe thats how i m feeling now ba..stayed at hm e whole of today n watched Er Zuo Ju Zi Wen=>" It started with a kiss"..haha sumthing like that la..n yeah i kan wan le ! wahaha =D ya da! haha Bi sheng bi sheng ! gambate ! hee..ok..qingzi v high..so make mi v high too..haha zi shu also v nice..haha all in all its a nice show..n i jus eat non-stop today la..omg..gg to be so darn fat..

aw..thats nt e main pt la..haha sh say i blog onli a few sentence..haha paiseh la..sumtimes e moment over le..e gan jue to blog wun be so strong le ba..aw..feeling quite a bit now..a levels is over..congrats to all e yr2s..but that seems to symbolise sum new start or wadsoever..i dunno..but thats how i m feeling now..or rather nowadays =P..

was toking to wen abt it that day..haha wen say it all takes e effort to maintain all e relations..thats v true..but sum changes can't be helped isn't it =P haha i dunno la..feeling lost once again..wake up! wake up! hee i guess i jus gotta get past this..hee another stage of my life..xing xing ba ! jia u ba ! hao la..end here le..wanna go watch chong shang yun xiao le =P..hee n find that song de lyrics =D..hee take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.lla uoy ssim lliw i.][

][.why is it so.][

][.why is it so.][

so many ??? in my mind..
no ans to the endless qns..
or rather i m escaping from all e ans..
if i culd..
i wanna hui dao guo qu..
go back to e day when things were so normal n so gd..
i m realli sorry..
i can't forget all that u had say..
everytime when i see u..
i will recap e moments when those words were said..
n i m sorry..
i can't forget as u asked mi to..
n hence i can't..
can't be friends like wad we used to be..


thats a msg dedicated to a friend..n i haf no i dea if u will c this or not..but yup..thanks for all that u had done for mi..=) i do appreciate..

aw..here's another one..
time jus pass so fast..
sumtimes i realli hope that it will slow down..
so that i can have more time to spend with my love ones..
n be dere for em..
n rmb every single moment..
every moment..

haha hao la..end here le..tc every1! byee...=P

][.FEarless.][
][.i miss u.][

][.chong xin kai shi.][

][.chong xin kai shi.][

haha yup..e title of today's blog = restart..starting from the scratch once again..thats my new motto..=) went bac to ahs to play bball ytr n learnt so much more again..haha was a v happy day..but i shall jus blog abt my insights n reflection (I&R) ooo..PW =p..haha jkjk..yup..shall jus blog abt e main pts..cz gotta go out soon..

aw yah..went bac to ahs n play..n played like shit..literally shit..was put down by male coach like nobody's business..n jus as sh has said..i m becoming less receptive..n i tink its v true as i tink bac..haha i tink that's wad had changed after undergoing all those scoldings in VJ ba..like rong say..u will get immune and used to coach's scoldings de..haha maybe its so immune that i practically shut everything off n can't stand scoldings..but..haha i shall start to listen to all these valuable scoldings again..esp my male and female coach de..=)..

yeah..going bac to ahs to play again nxt sat..shall rmb wad male coach told mi ytr n try to improve on it so that at least by nxt sat he wun be so angry =p..n of cz for my own gd..haha as for myself..i realli gotta improve..haha "its not that i like to win..its jus that i hate to lose"..haha..yup..so lets jia u ba! chong xin kai shi ! chong xin nu li de lian qiu ! chong xin kuai le de xiang shou lian qiu de le qu !..

haha shi de..i wanna chong xin kai shi..same for my life..this had been a total screwed up yr ! shall not screw futhur more =P..haha hao la..end here le..take gd care every1 ! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.restart.][
][.on a journey to find my old self.][

][.i am a fortunate kid.][

][.i am a fortunate kid.][

a simple msg that touches my heart n warms my day..
when things go wrong..
all i tink of is that few special angels..

had a screwed day with OP..
but wads over is over..
shall be positive n cont to haf faith jus as wad U told mi..=)

no matter how ugly the world may seem to be..
i dun care..
or rather can't care anymore..
its too much..

so all i can say is..
thanks for being there..
that special few..=)
U told mi u r fortunate..
so am i =)..
love u all so..

][.FEarless.][
][.isolation.][

][.more than words.][

][.more than words.][

things seem to take a change of direction..finally..haha maybe its jus me..but yeah..kinda of glad that things are going back to wad it used to be..

tml will be nov le..i shall make a change to my life n enjoy e last 2 mths of yr 2006..=)..
haha yup..n i m a lucky fellow who nv knew how lucky i ever was =p..

hao la..thats all i can say now..cz..its more than words..

and jus as i say..there are things to be happy in life =)..

ytr sumthing happened..
n it set mi thinking..
sumthing impt seems to be gone..
does that snap symbolises sumthing?
maybe i m jus thinking too much..
maybe its time i learn to let go bit by bit..
so that it wun hurt that much when nxt yr cums..
but no worries..
sumthings that matter to mi wun change..
it still means a lot..
n it always will..=)

][.FEarless.][
][.outshine.][

][.if only i can leave.][

][.if only i can leave.][

hey bloggy..sorry for not updating u..since 17th till today..i haf been wanting to tell u so much..tell u wads going on with my life..but i m jus too tired to do it..

aw..17th was my 17th bday..n yup..mus thank a few grps of ppl who made my day..
-> mama jan,mamamatong, sh, tricia,jo,shu hua,mel
-> floating gang
->vj bball gals
->forever5..

yup..had pleasant n unplesant memories on that day itself n i found out that e most meaningful gift is non other than the cards..its wad i treasure e most..

aw..sorry that i can't go on elaborating..life has been in a mess since 17th till today..n its still in a mess thou it seems that e sea is beginning to become calm and all once again..but e heart isn't feeling any gd..everything jus suxz..

if only i can leave..
i will..
to a place only i noe..
n start my life all over again..
2006 has been a bad yr..
n oct which was supposed to be a gd mth..
has been dark..
maybe its jus becoz of my stubborness..
but ya..
things jus can't be undone..
wads done is done..
all i can do now is..
slowly forget every single unhappy memories between us..
on the other hand..
to another special one..
maybe its time i learn to be independent and stop leaning on u as much as i wish i could..

hao la..end here le every1 ! take gd care ! byee..hafing a bad headache now..shugs..but ya..jus gotta say..thou so many unhappy things happened..dere are still happy memories ! thats wad i always believe..life isn't all that smooth..but things will be ok in e end =)..

][.FEarless.][
][.i will.][
][.learn to be independent n strong.][

][.if only i can leave.][

][.if only i can leave.][

hey bloggy..sorry that i hasn't been updating u as much as i wish i could..cz..too many things have been happening since my bday till now..which is why my last post was on the 16th..17th was my 17th bday..it wasn't an exactly great day..but still thanks to many for making my day..eg.

1st- mama jan, mamamatong, sh, tricia, jo, shu hua. mel..haha for e ice cream cake n card..
2nd- floating gang..
3rd- forever5..

haha n yah..all i can recall is..i feel that e most meaningful gift that one can ever receive is e bday cards which had melted my heart..yup..

18th till now has been a v dark period..quarrels out of no reasons which is not resolved up till now due to my stubborness n refusal to turn back..shitty results that i haf to face..wad else..its jus been such a shitty period..n i m v sorry to 2 grps of ppl in particular..forever5 and floating gang..becoz of us..or rather mi..e 6 0f u..3 frm each side has been so tire out..that sum even fell sick becoz of us..i m realli sorry..

actually there's lots of things that i realli can't understand..u told mi to forget everything n jus be bac friends as we were on the 16th..but its realli hard for mi..how do u expect sum1 to forget sumthing after its been done..e hurt inflicted jus can't be undone..same for mi n you..e hurt that u inflicted on mi..n e hurt that i inflicted on u..its not jus words and talks that can resolve everything..if i m nt wrong..ur current nick says..culd u stop torturing mi anymore?..haha i dunno wad to say..all i can say is..if wad happened on the 18th din happen..we will still be wad we used to be..maybe its my pride..maybe its my stubborness..maybe its my heart..maybe its my mind..i dunno wads it that is keeping mi frm turning back completely..but yup..i m realli sorry to all..all i can say is..let time do the job..i m sure that it will be able to..=)

n yup..i m jus such a disappointment as according to a few that i care..sorry for being a disappointment to u..but yup..that's jus mi..i will try to change..but sumtimes its jus best not hafing any expectations isn't it ? =)

hao la..end here le..gotta go bac to pw..n like i always say..there's of cz happy things that happened in e mist of all these unhappiness..but yup..shall blog em in my nxt entry tgt with all my happy thoughts..meanwhile take gd care every1! byee..

][.FEarless.][
][.tears.][